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  Herpunishmentaccumulated;shecontinuedtobearit,however,withagooddealofsuperficialfortitude。OnSaturdaymorning,thedoctor,whohadbeenwatchinginsilence,spoketohissisterLavinia。

  \"Thethinghashappened-thescoundrelhasbackedout!\"

  \"Never!\"criedMrs。Penniman,whohadbethoughtherselfwhatsheshouldsaytoCatherine,butwasnotprovidedwithalineofdefenseagainstherbrother,sothatindignantnegationwastheonlyweaponinherhands。

  \"Hehasbeggedforareprieve,then,ifyoulikethatbetter!\"

  \"Itseemstomakeyouveryhappythatyourdaughter\'saffectionshavebeentrifledwith。\"

  \"Itdoes,\"saidthedoctor,\"forIhadforetoldit!It\'sagreatpleasuretobeintheright。\"

  \"Yourpleasuresmakeoneshudder!\"hissisterexclaimed。

  Catherinewentrigidlythroughherusualoccupations;thatis,tothepointofgoingwithheraunttochurchonSundaymorning。Shegenerallywenttoafternoonserviceaswell;butonthisoccasionhercouragefaltered,andshebeggedofMrs。Pennimantogowithouther。

  \"Iamsureyouhaveasecret,\"saidMrs。Penniman,withgreatsignificance,lookingatherrathergrimly。

  \"IfIhave,Ishallkeepit,\"Catherineanswered,turningaway。

  Mrs。Pennimanstartedforchurch;butbeforeshehadarrived,shestoppedandturnedback,andbeforetwentyminuteshadelapsedshereenteredthehouse,lookedintotheemptyparlors,andthenwentupstairsandknockedatCatherine\'sdoor。Shegotnoanswer;Catherinewasnotinherroom,andMrs。Pennimanpresentlyascertainedthatshewasnotinthehouse。\"Shehasgonetohim!Shehasfled!\"Laviniacried,claspingherhandswithadmirationandenvy。ButshesoonperceivedthatCatherinehadtakennothingwithher-allherpersonalpropertyinherroomwasintact-andthenshejumpedatthehypothesisthatthegirlhadgoneforth,notintenderness,butinresentment。\"Shehasfollowedhimtohisowndoor!Shehasburstuponhiminhisownapartment!\"ItwasinthesetermsthatMrs。

  Pennimandepictedtoherselfherniece\'serrand,which,viewedinthislight,gratifiedhersenseofthepicturesqueonlyashadelessstronglythantheideaofaclandestinemarriage。Tovisitone\'slover,withtearsandreproaches,athisownresidence,wasanimagesoagreeabletoMrs。Penniman\'smindthatshefeltasortofaestheticdisappointmentatitslacking,inthiscase,theharmoniousaccompanimentsofdarknessandstorm。AquietSundayafternoonappearedaninadequatesettingforit;and,indeed,Mrs。Pennimanwasquiteoutofhumorwiththeconditionsofthetime,whichpassedveryslowlyasshesatinthefrontparlor,inherbonnetandhercashmereshawl,awaitingCatherine\'sreturn。

  Thiseventatlasttookplace。Shesawher-atthewindow-mountthesteps,andshewenttoawaitherinthehall,whereshepounceduponherassoonasshehadenteredthehouse,anddrewherintotheparlor,closingthedoorwithsolemnity。Catherinewasflushed,andhereyewasbright。Mrs。Pennimanhardlyknewwhattothink。

  \"MayIventuretoaskwhereyouhavebeen?\"shedemanded。

  \"Ihavebeentotakeawalk,\"saidCatherine。\"Ithoughtyouhadgonetochurch。\"

  \"Ididgotochurch;buttheservicewasshorterthanusual。Andpraywheredidyouwalk?\"

  \"Idon\'tknow!\"saidCatherine。

  \"Yourignoranceismostextraordinary!DearCatherine,youcantrustme。\"

  \"WhatamItotrustyouwith?\"

  \"Withyoursecret-yoursorrow。\"

  \"Ihavenosorrow!\"saidCatherine,fiercely。

  \"Mypoorchild,\"Mrs。Pennimaninsisted,\"youcan\'tdeceiveme。I

  knoweverything。Ihavebeenrequestedto-a-toconversewithyou。\"

  \"Idon\'twanttoconverse!\"

  \"Itwillrelieveyou。Don\'tyouknowShakespeare\'slines-\'Thegriefthatdoesnotspeak\'!Mydeargirl,itisbetterasitis!\"

  \"Whatisbetter?\"Catherineasked。

  Shewasreallytooperverse。Acertainamountofperversitywastobeallowedforinayoungladywhoseloverhadthrownherover;butnotsuchanamountaswouldproveinconvenienttohisapologists。

  \"Thatyoushouldbereasonable,\"saidMrs。Penniman,withsomesternness,\"thatyoushouldtakecounselofworldlyprudence,andsubmittopracticalconsiderations;thatyoushouldagreeto-a-

  separate。\"

  Catherinehadbeeniceuptothismoment,butatthiswordsheflamedup。\"Separate?Whatdoyouknowaboutourseparating?\"

  Mrs。Pennimanshookherheadwithasadnessinwhichtherewasalmostasenseofinjury。\"Yourprideismypride,andyoursusceptibilitiesaremine。Iseeyoursideperfectly,butIalso\"-andshesmiledwithmelancholysuggestiveness-\"Ialsoseethesituationasawhole!\"

  ThissuggestivenesswaslostuponCatherine,whorepeatedherviolentinquiry。\"Whydoyoutalkaboutseparation;whatdoyouknowaboutit?\"

  \"Wemuststudyresignation,\"saidMrs。Penniman,hesitating,butsententiousataventure。

  \"Resignationtowhat?\"

  \"Toachangeof-ofourplans。\"

  \"Myplanshavenotchanged!\"saidCatherine,withalittlelaugh。

  \"Ah,butMr。Townsend\'shave,\"herauntanswered,verygently。

  \"Whatdoyoumean?\"

  Therewasanimperiousbrevityinthetoneofthisinquiry,againstwhichMrs。Pennimanfeltboundtoprotest;theinformationwithwhichshehadundertakentosupplyherniecewasafterallafavor。Shehadtriedsharpness,andshehadtriedsternness;butneitherwoulddo;shewasshockedatthegirl\'sobstinacy。\"Ahwell,\"shesaid,\"ifhehasn\'ttoldyou!\"andsheturnedaway。

  Catherinewatchedheramomentinsilence;thenshehurriedafterher,stoppingherbeforeshereachedthedoor。\"Toldmewhat?Whatdoyoumean?Whatareyouhintingatandthreateningmewith?\"

  \"Isn\'titbrokenoff?\"askedMrs。Penniman。

  \"Myengagement?Notintheleast!\"

  \"Ibegyourpardoninthatcase。Ihavespokentoosoon!\"

  \"Toosoon?Soonorlate,\"Catherinebrokeout,\"youspeakfoolishlyandcruelly!\"

  \"Whathashappenedbetweenyouthen?\"askedheraunt,struckbythesincerityofthiscry,\"forsomethingcertainlyhashappened。\"

  \"NothinghashappenedbutthatIlovehimmoreandmore!\"

  Mrs。Pennimanwassilentaninstant。\"Isupposethat\'sthereasonyouwenttoseehimthisafternoon。\"

  Catherineflushedasifshehadbeenstruck。\"Yes,Ididgotoseehim!Butthat\'smyownbusiness。\"

  \"Verywell,then;wewon\'ttalkaboutit。\"AndMrs。Pennimanmovedtowardthedooragain;butshewasstoppedbyasuddenimploringcryfromthegirl。

  \"AuntLavinia,wherehashegone?\"

  \"Ah,youadmitthenthathehasgoneaway!Didn\'ttheyknowathishouse?\"

  \"Theysaidhehadlefttown。Iaskednomorequestions;Iwasashamed,\"saidCatherine,simplyenough。

  \"Youneedn\'thavetakensocompromisingastepifyouhadhadalittlemoreconfidenceinme,\"Mrs。Pennimanobserved,withagooddealofgrandeur。

  \"IsittoNewOrleans?\"Catherinewenton,irrelevantly。

  ItwasthefirsttimeMrs。PennimanhadheardofNewOrleansinthisconnection;butshewasaversetolettingCatherineknowthatshewasinthedark。SheattemptedtostrikeanilluminationfromtheinstructionsshehadreceivedfromMorris。\"MydearCatherine,\"shesaid,\"whenaseparationhasbeenagreedupon,thefartherhegoesawaythebetter。\"

  \"Agreedupon?Hasheagreeduponitwithyou?\"Aconsummatesenseofheraunt\'smeddlesomefollyhadcomeoverherduringthelastfiveminutes,andshewassickenedatthethoughtthatMrs。Pennimanhadbeenletloose,asitwere,uponherhappiness。

  \"Hecertainlyhassometimesadvisedwithme,\"saidMrs。Penniman。

  \"Isityou,then,thathaschangedhimandmadehimsounnatural?\"

  Catherinecried。\"Isityouthathaveworkedonhimandtakenhimfromme?Hedoesn\'tbelongtoyou,andIdon\'tseehowyouhaveanythingtodowithwhatisbetweenus!Isityouthathavemadethisplot,andtoldhimtoleaveme?Howcouldyoubesowicked,socruel?WhathaveIeverdonetoyou?Whycan\'tyouleavemealone?Iwasafraidyouwouldspoileverything;foryoudospoileverythingyoutouch!I

  wasafraidofyouallthetimewewereabroad;IhadnorestwhenI

  thoughtthatyouwerealwaystalkingtohim。\"Catherinewentonwithgrowingvehemence,pouringout,inherbitternessandintheclairvoyanceofherpassion(whichsuddenly,jumpingallprocesses,madeherjudgeherauntfinallyandwithoutappeal),theuneasinesswhichhadlainforsomanymonthsuponherheart。

  Mrs。Pennimanwasscaredandbewildered;shesawnoprospectofintroducingherlittleaccountofthepurityofMorris\'smotives。\"Youareamostungratefulgirl!\"shecried。\"Doyouscoldmefortalkingwithhim?I\'msurewenevertalkedofanythingbutyou!\"

  \"Yes;andthatwasthewayyouworriedhim;youmadehimtiredofmyveryname!Iwishyouhadneverspokenofmetohim;Ineveraskedyourhelp!\"

  \"Iamsureifithadn\'tbeenformehewouldneverhavecometothehouse,andyouwouldneverhaveknownthathethoughtofyou,\"

  Mrs。Pennimanrejoined,withagooddealofjustice。

  \"Iwishheneverhadcometothehouse,andthatIneverhadknownit!That\'sbetterthanthis,\"saidpoorCatherine。

  \"Youareaveryungratefulgirl,\"AuntLaviniarepeated。

  Catherine\'soutbreakofangerandthesenseofwronggaveher,whiletheylasted,thesatisfactionthatcomesfromallassertionofforce;theyhurriedheralong,andthereisalwaysasortofpleasureincleavingtheair。Butatbottomshehatedtobeviolent,andshewasconsciousofnoaptitudefororganizedresentment。Shecalmedherselfwithagreateffort,butwithgreatrapidity,andwalkedabouttheroomafewmoments,tryingtosaytoherselfthatheraunthadmeanteverythingforthebest。Shedidnotsucceedinsayingitwithmuchconviction,butafteralittleshewasabletospeakquietlyenough。

  \"Iamnotungrateful,butIamveryunhappy。It\'shardtobegratefulforthat,\"shesaid。\"Willyoupleasetellmewhereheis?\"

  \"Ihaven\'ttheleastidea;Iamnotinsecretcorrespondencewithhim!\"AndMrs。Pennimanwished,indeed,thatshewere,sothatshemightlethimknowhowCatherineabusedher,afterallshehaddone。

  \"Wasitaplanofhis,then,tobreakoff-?\"BythistimeCatherinehadbecomecompletelyquiet。

  Mrs。Pennimanbeganagaintohaveaglimpseofherchanceforexplaining。\"Heshrunk-heshrunk,\"shesaid。\"Helackedcourage,butitwasthecouragetoinjureyou!Hecouldn\'tbeartobringdownonyouyourfather\'scurse。\"

  Catherinelistenedtothiswithhereyesfixeduponheraunt,andcontinuedtogazeatherforsometimeafterward。\"Didhetellyoutosaythat?\"

  \"Hetoldmetosaymanythings-allsodelicate,sodiscriminating;andhetoldmetotellyouhehopedyouwouldn\'tdespisehim。\"

  \"Idon\'t,\"saidCatherine;andthensheadded,\"Andwillhestayawayforever?\"

  \"Oh,foreverisalongtime。Yourfather,perhaps,won\'tliveforever。\"

  \"Perhapsnot。\"

  \"Iamsureyouappreciate-youunderstand-eventhoughyourheartbleeds,\"saidMrs。Penniman。\"Youdoubtlessthinkhimtooscrupulous。SodoI,butIrespecthisscruples。Whatheasksofyouisthatyoushoulddothesame。\"

  Catherinewasstillgazingatheraunt,butshespokeatlastasifshehadnotheardornotunderstoodher。\"Ithasbeenaregularplan,then。Hehasbrokenitoffdeliberately;hehasgivenmeup。\"

  \"Forthepresent,dearCatherine;hehasputitoff,only。\"

  \"Hehasleftmealone,\"Catherinewenton。

  \"Haven\'tyoume?\"askedMrs。Penniman,withsomesolemnity。

  Catherineshookherheadslowly。\"Idon\'tbelieveit!\"andshelefttheroom。

  CHAPTER31。

  THOUGHshehadforcedherselftobecalm,shepreferredpracticingthisvirtueinprivate,andsheforeboretoshowherselfattea-arepastwhich,onSundays,atsixo\'clock,tooktheplaceofdinner。

  DoctorSloperandhissistersatfacetoface,butMrs。Pennimannevermetherbrother\'seye。Lateintheeveningshewentwithhim,butwithoutCatherine,totheirsisterAlmond\'s,where,betweenthetwoladies,Catherine\'sunhappysituationwasdiscussedwithafranknessthatwasconditionedbyagooddealofmysteriousreticenceonMrs。

  Penniman\'spart。

  \"Iamdelightedheisnottomarryher,\"saidMrs。Almond,\"butheoughttobehorsewhippedallthesame。\"

  Mrs。Penniman,whowasshockedathersister\'scoarseness,repliedthathehadbeenactuatedbythenoblestofmotives-thedesirenottoimpoverishCatherine。

  \"IamveryhappythatCatherineisnottobeimpoverished-butI

  hopehemayneverhaveapennytoomuch!Andwhatdoesthepoorgirlsaytoyou?\"Mrs。Almondasked。

  \"ShesaysIhaveageniusforconsolation,\"saidMrs。Penniman。

  Thiswastheaccountofthematterthatshegavetohersister,anditwasperhapswiththeconsciousnessofgeniusthat,onherreturnthateveningtoWashingtonSquare,sheagainpresentedherselfforadmittanceatCatherine\'sdoor。Catherinecameandopenedit;shewasapparentlyveryquiet。

  \"Ionlywanttogiveyoualittlewordofadvice,\"shesaid。\"Ifyourfatherasksyou,saythateverythingisgoingon。\"

  Catherinestoodthere,withherhandontheknob,lookingatheraunt,butnotaskinghertocomein。\"Doyouthinkhewillaskme?\"

  \"Iamsurehewill。Heaskedmejustnow,onourwayhomefromyourauntElizabeth\'s。IexplainedthewholethingtoyourauntElizabeth。IsaidtoyourfatherIknewnothingaboutit。\"

  \"Doyouthinkhewillaskme,whenhesees-whenhesees-?\"ButhereCatherinestopped。

  \"Themorehesees,themoredisagreeablehewillbe,\"saidheraunt。

  \"Heshallseeaslittleaspossible!\"Catherinedeclared。

  \"Tellhimyouaretobemarried。\"

  \"SoIam,\"saidCatherine,softly;andsheclosedthedooruponheraunt。

  Shecouldnothavesaidthistwodayslater-forinstance,onTuesday,whensheatlastreceivedaletterfromMorrisTownsend。Itwasanepistleofconsiderablelength,measuringfivelargesquarepages,andwrittenatPhiladelphia。Itwasanexplanatorydocument,anditexplainedagreatmanythings,chiefamongwhichweretheconsiderationsthathadledthewritertotakeadvantageofanurgent\"professional\"absencetotryandbanishfromhismindtheimageofonewhosepathhehadcrossedonlytoscatteritwithruins。Heventuredtoexpectbutpartialsuccessinthisattempt,buthecouldpromiseherthat,whateverhisfailure,hewouldneveragaininterposebetweenhergenerousheartandherbrilliantprospectsandfilialduties。Heclosedwithanintimationthathisprofessionalpursuitsmightcompelhimtotravelforsomemonths,andwiththehopethatwhentheyshouldeachhaveaccommodatedthemselvestowhatwassternlyinvolvedintheirrespectivepositions-

  evenshouldthisresultnotbereachedforyears-theyshouldmeetasfriends,asfellowsufferers,asinnocentbutphilosophicvictimsofagreatsociallaw。Thatherlifeshouldbepeacefulandhappywasthedearestwishofhimwhoventuredstilltosubscribehimselfhermostobedientservant。Theletterwasbeautifullywritten,andCatherine,whokeptitformanyyearsafterthis,wasable,whenhersenseofthebitternessofitsmeaningandthehollownessofitstonehadgrownlessacute,toadmireitsgraceofexpression。Atpresent,foralongtimeaftershereceivedit,allshehadtohelpherwasthedetermination,dailymorerigid,tomakenoappealtothecompassionofherfather。

  Hesufferedaweektoelapse,andthenoneday,inthemorning,atanhouratwhichsherarelysawhim,hestrolledintothebackparlor。

  Hehadwatchedhistime,andhefoundheralone。Shewassittingwithsomework,andhecameandstoodinfrontofher。Hewasgoingout;hehadonhishat,andwasdrawingonhisgloves。

  \"Itdoesn\'tseemtomethatyouaretreatingmejustnowwithalltheconsiderationIdeserve,\"hesaidinamoment。

  \"Idon\'tknowwhatIhavedone,\"Catherineanswered,withhereyesonherwork。

  \"YouhaveapparentlyquitebanishedfromyourmindtherequestI

  madeyouatLiverpoolbeforewesailed-therequestthatyouwouldnotifymeinadvancebeforeleavingmyhouse。\"

  \"Ihavenotleftyourhouse,\"saidCatherine。

  \"Butyouintendtoleaveit,and,bywhatyougavemetounderstand,yourdeparturemustbeimpending。Infact,thoughyouarestillhereinbody,youarealreadyabsentinspirit。Yourmindhastakenupitsresidencewithyourprospectivehusband,andyoumightquiteaswellbelodgedundertheconjugalroofforallthebenefitwegetfromyoursociety。\"

  \"Iwilltryandbemorecheerful,\"saidCatherine。

  \"Youcertainlyoughttobecheerful;youaskagreatdealifyouarenot。Tothepleasureofmarryingacharmingyoungmanyouaddthatofhavingyourownway;youstrikemeasaveryluckyyounglady!\"

  Catherinegotup;shewassuffocating。Butshefoldedherworkdeliberatelyandcorrectly,bendingherburningfaceuponit。Herfatherstoodwherehehadplantedhimself;shehopedhewouldgo,buthesmoothedandbuttonedhisgloves,andthenherestedhishandsuponhiships。

  \"ItwouldbeaconveniencetometoknowwhenImayexpecttohaveanemptyhouse,\"hewenton。\"Whenyougo,yourauntmarches。\"

  Shelookedathimatlast,withalong,silentgaze,which,inspiteofherprideandherresolution,utteredpartoftheappealshehadtriednottomake。Herfather\'scoldgrayeyesoundedherown,andheinsistedonhispoint。

  \"Isittomorrow?Isitnextweek,ortheweekafter?\"

  \"Ishallnotgoaway!\"saidCatherine。

  Thedoctorraisedhiseyebrows。\"Hashebackedout?\"

  \"Ihavebrokenoffmyengagement。\"

  \"Brokenitoff?\"

  \"IhaveaskedhimtoleaveNewYork,andhehasgoneawayforalongtime。\"

  Thedoctorwasbothpuzzledanddisappointed,buthesolvedhisperplexitybysayingtohimselfthathisdaughtersimplymisrepresented-justifiably,ifonewould,butnevertheless,misrepresented-thefacts;andheeasedoffhisdisappointment,whichwasthatofamanlosingachanceforalittletriumphthathehadrathercountedon,byafewwordsthatheutteredaloud。

  \"Howdoeshetakehisdismissal?\"

  \"Idon\'tknow!\"saidCatherine,lessingeniouslythanshehadhithertospoken。

  \"Youmeanyoudon\'tcare?Youarerathercruel,afterencouraginghimandplayingwithhimforsolong!\"

  Thedoctorhadhisrevenge,afterall。

  CHAPTER32。

  OURSTORYhashithertomovedwithveryshortsteps,butasitapproachesitsterminationitmusttakealongstride。Astimewenton,itmighthaveappearedtothedoctorthathisdaughter\'saccountofherrapturewithMorrisTownsend,merebravadoashehaddeemedit,wasinsomedegreejustifiedbythesequel。Morrisremainedasrigidlyandunremittinglyabsentasifhehaddiedofabrokenheart,andCatherinehadapparentlyburiedthememoryofthisfruitlessepisodeasdeepasifithadterminatedbyherownchoice。Weknowthatshehadbeendeeplyandincurablywounded,butthedoctorhadnomeansofknowingit。Hewascertainlycuriousaboutit,andwouldhavegivenagooddealtodiscovertheexacttruth;butitwashispunishmentthatheneverknew-hispunishment,Imean,fortheabuseofsarcasminhisrelationswithhisdaughter。Therewasagooddealofeffectivesarcasminherkeepinghiminthedark,andtherestoftheworldconspiredwithher,inthissense,tobesarcastic。Mrs。Pennimantoldhimnothing,partlybecauseheneverquestionedher-hemadetoolightofMrs。Pennimanforthat-andpartlybecausesheflatteredherselfthatatormentingreserve,andasereneprofessionofignorance,wouldavengeherforhistheorythatshehadmeddledinthematter。HewenttwoorthreetimestoseeMrs。Montgomery,butMrs。Montgomeryhadnothingtoimpart。Shesimplyknewthatherbrother\'sengagementwasbrokenoff;andnowthatMissSloperwasoutofdanger,shepreferrednottobearwitnessinanywayagainstMorris。Shehaddonesobefore-howeverunwillingly-becauseshewassorryforMissSloper;butshewasnotsorryforMissSlopernow-notatallsorry。

  MorrishadtoldhernothingabouthisrelationswithMissSloperatthetime,andhehadtoldhernothingsince。Hewasalwaysaway,andheveryseldomwrotetoher;shebelievedhehadgonetoCalifornia。

  Mrs。Almondhad,inhersister\'sphrase,\"takenup\"Catherineviolentlysincetherecentcatastrophe;but,thoughthegirlwasverygratefultoherforherkindness,sherevealednosecrets,andthegoodladycouldgivethedoctornosatisfaction。Even,however,hadshebeenabletonarratetohimtheprivatehistoryofhisdaughter\'sunhappyloveaffair,itwouldhavegivenheracertaincomforttoleavehiminignorance;forMrs。Almondwasatthistimenotaltogetherinsympathywithherbrother。ShehadguessedforherselfthatCatherinehadbeencruellyjilted-sheknewnothingfromMrs。Penniman,forMrs。PennimanhadnotventuredtolaythefamousexplanationofMorris\'smotivesbeforeMrs。Almond,thoughshehadthoughtitgoodenoughforCatherine-andshepronouncedherbrothertooconsistentlyindifferenttowhatthepoorcreaturemusthavesufferedandmuststillbesuffering。DoctorSloperhadhistheory,andherarelyalteredhistheories。Themarriagewouldhavebeenanabominableone,andthegirlhadhadablessedescape。Shewasnottobepitiedforthat,andtopretendtocondolewithherwouldhavebeentomakeconcessionstotheideathatshehadeverhadarighttothinkofMorris。

  \"Iputmyfootonthisideafromthefirst,andIkeepittherenow,\"saidthedoctor。\"Idon\'tseeanythingcruelinthat;onecan\'tkeepittheretoolong。\"TothisMrs。Almondmorethanoncerepliedthat,ifCatherinehadgotridofherincongruouslover,shedeservedthecreditofit,andthattobringherselftoherfather\'senlightenedviewofthemattermusthavecostheraneffortthathewasboundtoappreciate。

  \"Iambynomeanssureshehasgotridofhim,\"thedoctorsaid。

  \"Thereisnotthesmallestprobabilitythat,afterhavingbeenasobstinateasamulefortwoyears,shesuddenlybecameamenabletoreason。Itisinfinitelymoreprobablethathegotridofher。\"

  \"Allthemorereasonyoushouldbegentlewithher。\"

  \"Iamgentlewithher。ButIcan\'tdothepathetic;Ican\'tpumpuptears,tolookgraceful,overthemostfortunatethingthateverhappenedtoher。\"

  \"Youhavenosympathy,\"saidMrs。Almond。\"Thatwasneveryourstrongpoint。Youhaveonlytolookathertoseethat,rightorwrong,andwhethertherupturecamefromherselforfromhim,herpoorlittleheartisgrievouslybruised。\"

  \"Handlingbruises,andevendroppingtearsonthem,doesn\'tmakethemanybetter!Mybusinessistoseeshegetsnomoreknocks,andthatIshallcarefullyattendto。ButIdon\'tatallrecognizeyourdescriptionofCatherine。Shedoesn\'tstrikemeintheleastasayoungwomangoingaboutinsearchofamoralpoultice。Infact,sheseemstomemuchbetterthanwhilethefellowwashangingabout。Sheisperfectlycomfortableandblooming;sheeatsandsleeps,takesherusualexercise,andoverloadsherself,asusual,withfinery。

  Sheisalwaysknittingsomepurseorembroideringsomehandkerchief,anditseemstomesheturnsthesearticlesoutaboutasfastasever。

  Shehasn\'tmuchtosay;butwhenhadsheanythingtosay?Shehadherlittledance,andnowsheissittingdowntorest。Isuspectthat,onthewhole,sheenjoysit。\"

  \"Sheenjoysitaspeopleenjoygettingridofalegthathasbeencrushed。Thestateofmindafteramputationisdoubtlessoneofcomparativerepose。\"

  \"IfyourlegisametaphorforyoungTownsend,Icanassureyouhehasneverbeencrushed。Crushed?Nothe!Heisaliveandperfectlyintact;andthat\'swhyIamnotsatisfied。\"

  \"Shouldyouhavelikedtokillhim?\"askedMrs。Almond。

  \"Yes,verymuch。Ithinkitisquitepossiblethatitisallablind。\"

  \"Ablind?\"

  \"Anarrangementbetweenthem。Ilfaitlemort,astheysayinFrance;butheislookingoutofthecornerofhiseye。Youcandependuponit,hehasnotburnthisships;hehaskeptonetocomebackin。WhenIamdead,hewillsetsailagain,andthenshewillmarryhim。\"

  \"Itisinterestingtoknowthatyouaccuseyouronlydaughterofbeingthevilestofhypocrites,\"saidMrs。Almond。

  \"Idon\'tseewhatdifferenceherbeingmyonlydaughtermakes。Itisbettertoaccuseonethanadozen。ButIdon\'taccuseanyone。ThereisnotthesmallesthypocrisyaboutCatherine,andIdenythatsheevenpretendstobemiserable。\"

  Thedoctor\'sideathatthethingwasa\"blind\"haditsintermissionsandrevivals;butitmaybesaid,onthewhole,tohaveincreasedashegrewolder;togetherwithhisimpressionsofCatherine\'sbloomingandcomfortablecondition。Naturally,ifhehadnotfoundgroundsforviewingherasalovelornmaidenduringtheyearortwothatfollowedhergreattrouble,hefoundnoneatatimewhenshehadcompletelyrecoveredherself-possession。Hewasobligedtorecognizethefactthat,ifthetwoyoungpeoplewerewaitingforhimtogetoutoftheway,theywereatleastwaitingverypatiently。HehadheardfromtimetotimethatMorriswasinNewYork;

  butheneverremainedtherelong,and,tothebestofthedoctor\'sbelief,hadnocommunicationwithCatherine。Hewassuretheynevermet,andhehadreasontosuspectthatMorrisneverwrotetoher。

  Aftertheletterthathasbeenmentioned,sheheardfromhimtwiceagain,atconsiderableintervals;butonnoneoftheseoccasionsdidshewriteherself。Ontheotherhand,asthedoctorobserved,sheavertedherselfrigidlyfromtheideaofmarryingotherpeople。Heropportunitiesfordoingsowerenotnumerous,buttheyoccurredoftenenoughtotestherdisposition。Sherefusedawidower,amanwithagenialtemperament,ahandsomefortune,andthreelittlegirls(hehadheardthatshewasveryfondofchildren,andhepointedtohisownwithsomeconfidence);andsheturnedadeafeartothesolicitationsofacleveryounglawyer,who,withtheprospectofagreatpractice,andthereputationofamostagreeableman,hadhadtheshrewdness,whenhecametolookabouthimforawife,tobelievethatshewouldsuithimbetterthanseveralyoungerandprettiergirls。Mr。Macalister,thewidower,haddesiredtomakeamarriageofreason,andhadchosenCatherineforwhathesupposedtobeherlatentmatronlyqualities;butJohnLudlow,whowasayearthegirl\'sjunior,andspokenofalwaysasayoungmanwhomighthavehis\"pick,\"wasseriouslyinlovewithher。Catherine,however,wouldneverlookathim;shemadeitplaintohimthatshethoughthecametoseehertoooften。Heafterwardconsoledhimself,andmarriedaverydifferentperson,littleMissSturtevant,whoseattractionswereobvioustothedullestcomprehension。Catherine,atthetimeoftheseevents,hadleftherthirtiethyearwellbehindher,andhadquitetakenherplaceasanoldmaid。Herfatherwouldhavepreferredsheshouldmarry,andheoncetoldherthathehopedshewouldnotbetoofastidious。\"Ishouldliketoseeyouanhonestman\'swifebeforeIdie,\"hesaid。ThiswasafterJohnLudlowhadbeencompelledtogiveitup,thoughthedoctorhadadvisedhimtopersevere。Thedoctorexercisednofurtherpressure,andhadthecreditofnot\"worrying\"atalloverhisdaughter\'ssingleness;infact,heworriedrathermorethanappeared,andtherewereconsiderableperiodsduringwhichhefeltsurethatMorrisTownsendwashiddenbehindsomedoor。\"Ifheisnot,whydoesn\'tshemarry?\"heaskedhimself。\"Limitedasherintelligencemaybe,shemustunderstandperfectlywellthatsheismadetodotheusualthing。\"

  Catherine,however,becameanadmirableoldmaid。Sheformedhabits,regulatedherdaysuponasystemofherown,interestedherselfincharitableinstitutions,asylums,hospitals,andaidsocieties;andwentgenerally,withanevenandnoiselessstep,abouttherigidbusinessofherlife。Thislifehad,however,asecrethistoryaswellasapublicone-ifImaytalkofthepublichistoryofamatureanddiffidentspinsterforwhompublicityhadalwaysacombinationofterrors。FromherownpointofviewthegreatfactsofhercareerwerethatMorrisTownsendhadtrifledwithheraffection,andthatherfatherhadbrokenitsspring。Nothingcouldeveralterthesefacts;

  theywerealwaysthere,likehername,herage,herplainface。

  NothingcouldeverundothewrongorcurethepainthatMorrishadinflictedonher,andnothingcouldevermakeherfeeltowardherfatherasshefeltinheryoungeryears。Therewassomethingdeadinherlife,andherdutywastotryandfillthevoid。Catherinerecognizedthisdutytotheutmost;shehadagreatdisapprovalofbroodingandmoping。Shehad,ofcourse,nofacultyforquenchingmemoryindissipation;butshemingledfreelyintheusualgaietiesofthetown,andshebecameatlastaninevitablefigureatallrespectableentertainments。Shewasgreatlyliked,andastimewentonshegrewtobeasortofkindlymaidenaunttotheyoungerportionofsociety。Younggirlswereapttoconfidetohertheirloveaffairs(whichtheyneverdidtoMrs。Penniman),andyoungmentobefondofherwithoutknowingwhy。Shedevelopedafewharmlesseccentricities;herhabits,onceformed,wereratherstifflymaintained;heropinions,onallmoralandsocialmatters,wereextremelyconservative;andbeforeshewasfortyshewasregardedasanold-fashionedperson,andanauthorityoncustomsthathadpassedaway。Mrs。Penniman,incomparison,wasquiteagirlishfigure;shegrewyoungerassheadvancedinlife。Shelostnoneofherrelishforbeautyandmystery,butshehadlittleopportunitytoexerciseit。

  WithCatherine\'slaterwooersshefailedtoestablishrelationsasintimateasthosewhichhadgivenhersomanyinterestinghoursinthesocietyofMorrisTownsend。Thesegentlemenhadanindefinablemistrustofhergoodoffices,andtheynevertalkedtoheraboutCatherine\'scharms。Herringlets,herbucklesandbanglesglistenedmorebrightlywitheachsucceedingyear,andsheremainedquitethesameofficiousandimaginativeMrs。Penniman,andtheoddmixtureofimpetuosityandcircumspection,thatwehavehithertoknown。Asregardsonepoint,however,hercircumspectionprevailed,andshemustbegivenduecreditforit。ForupwardofseventeenyearsshenevermentionedMorrisTownsend\'snametoherniece。Catherinewasgratefultoher,butthisconsistentsilence,solittleinaccordwithheraunt\'scharacter,gaveheracertainalarm,andshecouldneverwhollyridherselfofasuspicionthatMrs。Pennimansometimeshadnewsofhim。

  CHAPTER33。

  LITTLEBYLITTLEDoctorSloperhadretiredfromhisprofession;hevisitedonlythosepatientsinwhosesymptomsherecognizedacertainoriginality。HewentagaintoEurope,andremainedtwoyears;Catherinewentwithhim,andonthisoccasionMrs。Pennimanwasoftheparty。EuropeapparentlyhadfewsurprisesforMrs。Penniman,whofrequentlyremarked,inthemostromanticsites,\"YouknowIamveryfamiliarwithallthis。\"Itshouldbeaddedthatsuchremarkswereusuallynotaddressedtoherbrother,oryettoherniece,buttofellowtouristswhohappenedtobeathand,oreventotheciceroneorthegoatherdintheforeground。

  Oneday,afterhisreturnfromEurope,thedoctorsaidsomethingtohisdaughterthatmadeherstart-itseemedtocomefromsofaroutofthepast。

  \"IshouldlikeyoutopromisemesomethingbeforeIdie。\"

  \"Whydoyoutalkaboutyourdying?\"sheasked。

  \"BecauseIamsixty-eightyearsold。\"

  \"Ihopeyouwilllivealongtime,\"saidCatherine。

  \"IhopeIshall!ButsomedayIshalltakeabadcold,andthenitwillnotmattermuchwhatanyonehopes。Thatwillbethemannerofmyexit,andwhenittakesplace,rememberItoldyouso。PromisemenottomarryMorrisTownsendafterIamgone。\"

  ThiswaswhatmadeCatherinestart,asIhavesaid;butherstartwasasilentone,andforsomemomentsshesaidnothing。\"Whydoyouspeakofhim?\"sheaskedatlast。

  \"YouchallengeeverythingIsay。Ispeakofhimbecausehe\'satopic,likeanyother。He\'stobeseen,likeanyoneelse,andheisstilllookingforawife-havinghadoneandgotridofher,Idon\'tknowbywhatmeans。HehaslatelybeeninNewYork,andatyourcousinMarian\'shouse;yourauntElizabethsawhimthere。\"

  \"Theyneitherofthemtoldme,\"saidCatherine。

  \"That\'stheirmerit;it\'snotyours。Hehasgrownfatandbald,andhehasnotmadehisfortune。ButIcan\'ttrustthosefactsalonetosteelyourheartagainsthim,andthat\'swhyIaskyoutopromise。\"

  \"Fatandbald。\"ThesewordspresentedastrangeimagetoCatherine\'smind,outofwhichthememoryofthemostbeautifulyoungmanintheworldhadneverfaded。\"Idon\'tthinkyouunderstand,\"shesaid。\"I

  veryseldomthinkofMr。Townsend。\"

  \"Itwillbeveryeasyforyoutogoon,then。Promiseme,aftermydeath,todothesame。\"

  Again,forsomemoments,Catherinewassilent;herfather\'srequestdeeplyamazedher;itopenedanoldwound,andmadeitacheafresh。\"Idon\'tthinkIcanpromisethat,\"sheanswered。

  \"Itwouldbeagreatsatisfaction,\"saidherfather。

  \"Youdon\'tunderstand。Ican\'tpromisethat。\"

  Thedoctorwassilentaminute。\"Iaskyouforaparticularreason。Iamalteringmywill。\"

  ThisreasonfailedtostrikeCatherine;andindeedshescarcelyunderstoodit。Allherfeelingsweremergedinthesensethathewastryingtotreatherashehadtreatedheryearsbefore。Shehadsufferedfromitthen;andnowallherexperience,allheracquiredtranquillityandrigidityprotested。Shehadbeensohumbleinheryouththatshecouldnowaffordtohavealittlepride,andtherewassomethinginhisrequest,andinherfather\'sthinkinghimselfsofreetomakeit,thatseemedaninjurytoherdignity。PoorCatherine\'sdignitywasnotaggressive;itneversatinstate;butifyoupushedfarenoughyoucouldfindit。Herfatherhadpushedveryfar。

  \"Ican\'tpromise,\"shesimplyrepeated。

  \"Youareveryobstinate,\"saidthedoctor。

  \"Idon\'tthinkyouunderstand。\"

  \"Pleaseexplain,then。\"

  \"Ican\'texplain,\"saidCatherine,\"andIcan\'tpromise。\"

  \"Uponmyword,\"herfatherexclaimed,\"Ihadnoideahowobstinateyouare!\"

  Sheknewherselfthatshewasobstinate,anditgaveheracertainjoy。Shewasnowamiddle-agedwoman。

  Aboutayearafterthis,theaccidentthatthedoctorhadspokenofoccurred:Hetookaviolentcold。DrivingouttoBloomingdaleoneAprildaytoseeapatientofunsoundmind,whowasconfinedinaprivateasylumfortheinsane,andwhosefamilygreatlydesiredamedicalopinionfromaneminentsource,hewascaughtinaspringshower,andbeinginabuggy,withoutahood,hefoundhimselfsoakedtotheskin。Hecamehomewithanominouschill,andonthemorrowhewasseriouslyill。\"Itiscongestionofthelungs,\"hesaidtoCatherine。\"Ishallneedverygoodnursing。Itwillmakenodifference,forIshallnotrecover;butIwisheverythingtobedone,tothesmallestdetail,asifIshould。Ihateanill-conductedsick-room,andyouwillbesogoodastonurseme,onthehypothesisthatIshallgetwell。\"Hetoldherwhichofhisfellowphysicianstosendfor,andgaveheramultitudeofminutedirections;itwasquiteontheoptimistichypothesisthatshenursedhim。Buthehadneverbeenwronginhislife,andhewasnotwrongnow。Hewastouchinghisseventiethyear,andthoughhehadaverywell-temperedconstitution,hisholduponlifehadlostitsfirmness。Hediedafterthreeweeks\'illness,duringwhichMrs。Penniman,aswellashisdaughter,hadbeenassiduousathisbedside。

  Onhiswillbeingopened,afteradecentinterval,itwasfoundtoconsistoftwoportions。Thefirstofthesedatedfromtenyearsback,andconsistedofaseriesofdispositionsbywhichheleftthegreatmassofhispropertytohisdaughter,withbecominglegaciestohistwosisters。Thesecondwasacodicil,ofrecentorigin,maintainingtheannuitiestoMrs。PennimanandMrs。Almond,butreducingCatherine\'ssharetoafifthofwhathehadfirstbequeathedher。\"Sheisamplyprovidedforfromhermother\'sside,\"thedocumentran,\"neverhavingspentmorethanafractionofherincomefromthissource;sothatherfortuneisalreadymorethansufficienttoattractthoseunscrupulousadventurerswhomshehasgivenmereasontobelievethatshepersistsinregardingasaninterestingclass。\"Thelargeremainderofhisproperty,therefore,DoctorSloperhaddividedintosevenunequalparts,whichheleft,asendowments,toasmanydifferenthospitalsandschoolsofmedicineinvariouscitiesoftheunion。

  ToMrs。Pennimanitseemedmonstrousthatamanshouldplaysuchtrickswithotherpeople\'smoney;forafterhisdeath,ofcourse,asshesaid,itwasotherpeople\'s。\"Ofcourse,youwillimmediatelybreakthewill,\"sheremarkedtoCatherine。

  \"Ohno,\"Catherineanswered,\"Ilikeitverymuch。OnlyIwishithadbeenexpressedalittledifferently!\"

  CHAPTER34。

  ITWASHERHABITtoremainintownverylateinthesummer;shepreferredthehouseinWashingtonSquaretoanyotherhabitationwhatever,anditwasunderprotestthatsheusedtogototheseasideforthemonthofAugust。Attheseashespenthermonthatanhotel。Theyearthatherfatherdiedsheintermittedthiscustomaltogether,notthinkingitconsistentwithdeepmourning;andtheyearafterthatsheputoffherdeparturetillsolatethatthemiddleofAugustfoundherstillintheheatedsolitudeofWashingtonSquare。

  Mrs。Penniman,whowasfondofachange,wasusuallyeagerforavisittothecountry;butthisyearsheappearedquitecontentwithsuchruralimpressionsasshecouldgatherattheparlorwindowfromtheailanthustreesbehindthewoodenpaling。Thepeculiarfragranceofthisvegetationusedtodiffuseitselfintheeveningair,andMrs。

  Penniman,onthewarmnightsofJuly,oftensatattheopenwindowandinhaledit。ThiswasahappymomentforMrs。Penniman;afterthedeathofherbrothershefeltmorefreetoobeyherimpulses。Avagueoppressionhaddisappearedfromherlife,andsheenjoyedasenseoffreedomofwhichshehadnotbeenconscioussincethememorabletime,solongago,whenthedoctorwentabroadwithCatherineandleftherathometoentertainMorrisTownsend。Theyearthathadelapsedsinceherbrother\'sdeathremindedherofthathappytime,because,althoughCatherine,ingrowingolder,hadbecomeapersontobereckonedwith,yethersocietywasaverydifferentthing,asMrs。

  Pennimansaid,fromthatofatankofcoldwater。Theelderladyhardlyknewwhatusetomakeofthislargermarginofherlife;shesatandlookedatitverymuchasshehadoftensat,withherpoisedneedleinherhand,beforehertapestryframe。Shehadaconfidenthope,however,thatherrichimpulses,hertalentforembroidery,wouldstillfindtheirapplication,andthisconfidencewasjustifiedbeforemanymonthshadelapsed。

  Catherinecontinuedtoliveinherfather\'shouse,inspiteofitsbeingrepresentedtoherthatamaidenladyofquiethabitsmightfindamoreconvenientabodeinoneofthesmallerdwellings,withbrownstonefronts,whichhadatthistimebeguntoadornthetransversethoroughfaresintheupperpartofthetown。Shelikedtheearlierstructure-ithadbegunbythistimetobecalledan\"old\"

  house-andproposedtoherselftoendherdaysinit。Ifitwastolargeforapairofunpretendinggentlewomen,thiswasbetterthantheoppositefault;forCatherinehadnodesiretofindherselfincloserquarterswithheraunt。SheexpectedtospendtherestofherlifeinWashingtonSquare,andtoenjoyMrs。Penniman\'ssocietyforthewholeofthisperiod;asshehadaconvictionthat,longasshemightlive,herauntwouldliveatleastaslong,andalwaysretainherbrilliancyandactivity。Mrs。Pennimansuggestedtohertheideaofarichvitality。

  OnoneofthosewarmeveningsinJulyofwhichmentionhasbeenmade,thetwoladiessattogetheratanopenwindow,lookingoutonthequietSquare。Itwastoohotforlightedlamps,forreading,orforwork;itmighthaveappearedtoohotevenforconversation,Mrs。

  Pennimanhavinglongbeenspeechless。Shesatforwardinthewindow,halfonthebalcony,hummingalittlesong。Catherinewaswithintheroom,inalowrockingchair,dressedinwhite,andslowlyusingalargepalmettofan。Itwasinthisway,atthisseason,thattheauntandniece,aftertheyhadhadtea,habituallyspenttheirevenings。

  \"Catherine,\"saidMrs。Pennimanatlast,\"Iamgoingtosaysomethingthatwillsurpriseyou。\"

  \"Praydo,\"Catherineanswered。\"Ilikesurprises。Anditissoquietnow。\"

  \"Well,then,IhaveseenMorrisTownsend。\"

  IfCatherinewassurprised,shecheckedtheexpressionofit;shegaveneitherastartnoranexclamation。Sheremained,indeed,forsomemomentsintenselystill,andthismayverywellhavebeenasymptomofemotion。\"Ihopehewaswell,\"shesaidatlast。

  \"Idon\'tknow;heisagreatdealchanged。Hewouldlikeverymuchtoseeyou。\"

  \"Iwouldrathernotseehim,\"saidCatherine,quickly。

  \"Iwasafraidyouwouldsaythat。Butyoudon\'tseemsurprised!\"

  \"Iam-verymuch。\"

  \"ImethimatMarian\'s,\"saidMrs。Penniman。\"HegoestoMarian\'s,andtheyaresoafraidyouwillmeethimthere。It\'smybeliefthatthat\'swhyhegoes。Hewantssomuchtoseeyou。\"Catherinemadenoresponsetothis,andMrs。Pennimanwenton。\"Ididn\'tknowhimatfirst,heissoremarkablychanged;butheknewmeinaminute。HesaysIamnotintheleastchanged。Youknowhowpolitehealwayswas。

  HewascomingawaywhenIcame,andwewalkedalittledistancetogether。Heisstillveryhandsome,onlyofcoursehelooksolder,andheisnotso-soanimatedasheusedtobe。Therewasatouchofsadnessabouthim;buttherewasatouchofsadnessabouthimbefore,especiallywhenhewentaway。Iamafraidhehasnotbeenverysuccessful-thathehasnevergotthoroughlyestablished。Idon\'tsupposeheissufficientlyploddingandthat,afterall,iswhatsucceedsinthisworld。\"Mrs。PennimanhadnotmentionedMorrisTownsend\'snametohernieceforupwardsofthefifthofacentury;

  butnowthatshehadbrokenthespell,sheseemedtowishtomakeupforlosttime,asiftherehadbeenasortofexhilarationinhearingherselftalkofhim。Sheproceeded,however,withconsiderablecaution,pausingoccasionallytoletCatherinegivesomesign。

  Catherinegavenoothersignthantostoptherockingofherchairandtheswayingofherfan;shesatmotionlessandsilent。\"ItwasonTuesdaylast,\"saidMrs。Penniman,\"andIhavebeenhesitatingeversinceabouttellingyou。Ididn\'tknowhowyoumightlikeit。AtlastIthoughtthatitwassolongagothatyouwouldprobablynothaveanyparticularfeeling。IsawhimagainaftermeetinghimatMarian\'s。Imethiminthestreet,andhewentafewstepswithme。

  Thefirstthinghesaidwasaboutyou;heaskedeversomanyquestions。Mariandidn\'twantmetospeaktoyou;shedidn\'twantyoutoknowthattheyreceivehim。ItoldhimIwassurethatafteralltheseyearsyoucouldn\'thaveanyfeelingaboutthat;youcouldn\'tgrudgehimthehospitalityofhisowncousin\'shouse。Isaidyouwouldbebitterindeedifyoudidthat。Marianhasthemostextraordinaryideasaboutwhathappenedbetweenyou;sheseemstothinkhebehavedinsomeveryunusualmanner。Itookthelibertyofremindingheroftherealfacts,andplacingthestoryinitstruelight。Hehasnobitterness,Catherine,Icanassureyou;andhemightbeexcusedforit,forthingshavenotgonewellwithhim。Hehasbeenallovertheworld,andtriedtoestablishhimselfeverywhere;buthisevilstarwasagainsthim。Itismostinterestingtohearhimtalkofhisevilstar。Everythingfailed;everythingbuthis-youknow,youremember-

  hisproud,highspirit。IbelievehemarriedsomeladysomewhereinEurope。Youknowtheymarryinsuchapeculiarmatter-of-coursewayinEurope;amarriageofreasontheycallit。Shediedsoonafterward;ashesaidtome,sheonlyflittedacrosshislife。HehasnotbeeninNewYorkfortenyears;hecamebackafewdaysago。Thefirstthinghedidwastoaskmeaboutyou。Hehadheardyouhadnevermarried;heseemedverymuchinterestedaboutthat。Hesaidyouhadbeentherealromanceofhislife。\"

  Catherinehadsufferedhercompaniontoproceedfrompointtopoint,andpausetopause,withoutinterruptingher;shefixedhereyesonthegroundandlistened。ButthelastphraseIhavequotedwasfollowedbyapauseofpeculiarsignificance,andthen,atlast,Catherinespoke。ItwillbeobservedthatbeforedoingsoshehadreceivedagooddealofinformationaboutMorrisTownsend。\"Pleasesaynomore;pleasedon\'tfollowupthatsubject。\"

  \"Doesn\'titinterestyou?\"askedMrs。Penniman,withacertaintimorousarchness。

  \"Itpainsme,\"saidCatherine。

  \"Iwasafraidyouwouldsaythat。Butdon\'tyouthinkyoucouldgetusedtoit?Hewantssomuchtoseeyou。\"

  \"Pleasedon\'t,AuntLavinia,\"saidCatherine,gettingupfromherseat。Shemovedquicklyaway,andwenttotheotherwindow,whichstoodopentothebalcony;andhere,intheembrasure,concealedfromherauntbythewhitecurtains,sheremainedalongtime,lookingoutintothewarmdarkness。Shehadhadagreatshock;itwasasifthegulfofthepasthadsuddenlyopened,andaspectralfigurehadrisenoutofit。Thereweresomethingsshebelievedshehadgotover,somefeelingsthatshehadthoughtofasdead;butapparentlytherewasacertainvitalityinthemstill。Mrs。Pennimanhadmadethemstirthemselves。Itwasbutamomentaryagitation,Catherinesaidtoherself;itwouldpresentlypassaway。Shewastrembling,andherheartwasbeatingsothatshecouldfeelit;butthisalsowouldsubside。Thensuddenly,whileshewaitedforareturnofhercalmness,sheburstintotears。Buthertearsflowedverysilently,sothatMrs。

  Pennimanhadnoobservationofthem。Itwasperhaps,however,becauseMrs。PennimansuspectedthemthatshesaidnomorethateveningaboutMorrisTownsend。

  CHAPTER35。

  HERREFRESHEDattentiontothisgentlemanhadnotthoselimitsofwhichCatherinedesired,forherself,tobeconscious;itlastedlongenoughtoenablehertowaitanotherweekbeforespeakingofhimagain。Itwasunderthesamecircumstancesthatsheoncemoreattackedthesubject。Shehadbeensittingwithhernieceintheevening;onlyonthisoccasion,asthenightwasnotsowarm,thelamphadbeenlighted,andCatherinehadplacedherselfnearitwithamorseloffancywork。Mrs。Pennimanwentandsataloneforhalfanhouronthebalcony;thenshecamein,movingvaguelyabouttheroom。AtlastshesunkintoaseatnearCatherine,withclaspedhands,andalittlelookofexcitement。

  \"ShallyoubeangryifIspeaktoyouagainabouthim?\"sheasked。

  Catherinelookedupatherquietly。\"Whoishe?\"

  \"Hewhomyouonceloved。\"

  \"Ishallnotbeangry,butIshallnotlikeit。\"

  \"Hesentyouamessage,\"saidMrs。Penniman。\"Ipromisedhimtodeliverit,andImustkeepmypromise。\"

  InalltheseyearsCatherinehadhadtimetoforgethowlittleshehadtothankherauntforintheseasonofhermisery;shehadlongagoforgivenMrs。Pennimanfortakingtoomuchuponherself。Butforamomentthisattitudeofinterpositionanddisinterestedness,thiscarryingofmessagesandredeemingofpromises,broughtbackthesensethathercompanionwasadangerouswoman。Shehadsaidshewouldnotbeangry;butforaninstantshefeltsore。\"Idon\'tcarewhatyoudowithyourpromise!\"sheanswered。

  Mrs。Penniman,however,withherhighconceptionofthesanctityofpledges,carriedherpoint。\"Ihavegonetoofartoretreat,\"shesaid,thoughpreciselywhatthismeantshewasnotatpainstoexplain。\"Mr。Townsendwishesmostparticularlytoseeyou,Catherine;

  hebelievesthatifyouknewhowmuch,andwhy,hewishesit,youwouldconsenttodoso。\"

  \"Therecanbenoreason,\"saidCatherine\"nogoodreason。\"

  \"Hishappinessdependsuponit。Isnotthatagoodreason?\"askedMrs。Penniman,impressively。

  \"Notforme。Myhappinessdoesnot。\"

  \"Ithinkyouwillbehappierafteryouhaveseenhim。Heisgoingawayagain-goingtoresumehiswanderings。Itisaverylonely,restless,joylesslife。Beforehegoeshewishestospeaktoyou;itisafixedideawithhim-heisalwaysthinkingofit。Hehassomethingveryimportanttosaytoyou。Hebelievesthatyouneverunderstoodhim-thatyouneverjudgedhimrightly,andthebeliefhasalwaysweigheduponhimterribly。Hewishestojustifyhimself;hebelievesthatinaveryfewwordshecoulddoso。Hewishestomeetyouasafriend。\"

  Catherinelistenedtothiswonderfulspeechwithoutpausinginherwork;shehadnowhadseveraldaystoaccustomherselftothinkofMorrisTownsendagainasanactuality。Whenitwasovershesaidsimply,\"PleasesaytoMr。TownsendthatIwishhewouldleavemealone。\"

  Shehadhardlyspokenwhenasharp,firmringatthedoorvibratedthroughthesummernight。Catherinelookedupattheclock;itmarkedaquarterpastnine-averylatehourforvisitors,especiallyintheemptyconditionofthetown。Mrs。Pennimanatthesamemomentgavealittlestart,andthenCatherine\'seyesturnedquicklytoheraunt。TheymetMrs。Penniman\'s,andsoundedthemforamomentsharply。Mrs。Pennimanwasblushing;herlookwasaconsciousone;itseemedtoconfesssomething。Catherineguesseditsmeaning,androsequicklyfromherchair。

  \"AuntPenniman,\"shesaid,inatonethatscaredhercompanion,\"haveyoutakentheliberty……?\"

  \"MydearestCatherine,\"stammeredMrs。Penniman,\"justwaittillyouseehim!\"

  Catherinehadfrightenedheraunt,butshewasalsofrightenedherself;shewasonthepointofrushingtogiveorderstotheservant,whowaspassingtothedoor,toadmitnoone;butthefearofmeetinghervisitorcheckedher。

  \"Mr。MorrisTownsend。\"

  Thiswaswhatsheheard,vaguelybutrecognizably,articulatedbythedomestic,whileshehesitated。Shehadherbackturnedtothedooroftheparlor,andforsomemomentsshekeptitturned,feelingthathehadcomein。Hehadnotspoken,however,andatlastshefacedabout。Thenshesawagentlemanstandinginthemiddleoftheroom,fromwhichheraunthaddiscreetlyretired。

  Shewouldneverhaveknownhim。Hewasforty-fiveyearsold,andhisfigurewasnotthatofthestraight,slimyoungmansheremembered。

  Butitwasaveryfinepresence,andafairandlustrousbeard,spreadingitselfuponawell-presentedchest,contributedtoitseffect。AfteramomentCatherinerecognizedtheupperhalfoftheface,which,thoughhervisitor\'sclusteringlockshadgrownthin,wasstillremarkablyhandsome。Hestoodinadeeplydeferentialattitude,withhiseyesonherface。\"Ihaveventured-Ihaveventured,\"hesaid;andthenhepaused,lookingabouthim,asifheexpectedhertoaskhimtositdown。Itwastheoldvoice;butithadnottheoldcharm。Catherine,foraminute,wasconsciousofadistinctdeterminationnottoinvitehimtotakeaseat。Whyhadhecome?Itwaswrongforhimtocome。Morriswasembarrassed,butCatherinegavehimnohelp。Itwasnotthatshewasgladofhisembarrassment;onthecontrary,itexcitedallherownliabilitiesofthiskind,andgavehergreatpain。Buthowcouldshewelcomehimwhenshefeltsovividlythatheoughtnottohavecome?\"Iwantedsomuch-Iwasdetermined,\"Morriswenton。Buthestoppedagain;itwasnoteasy。Catherinestillsaidnothing,andhemaywellhaverecalledwithapprehensionherancientfacultyofsilence。Shecontinuedtolookathim,however,andasshedidsoshemadethestrangestobservation。Itseemedtobehe,andyetnothe;itwasthemanwhohadbeeneverything,andyetthispersonwasnothing。

  Howlongagoitwas-howoldshehadgrown-howmuchshehadlived!

  Shehadlivedonsomethingthatwasconnectedwithhim,andshehadconsumeditindoingso。Thispersondidnotlookunhappy。Hewasfairandwell-preserved,perfectlydressed,matureandcomplete。AsCatherinelookedathim,thestoryofhislifedefineditselfinhiseyes;hehadmadehimselfcomfortable,andhehadneverbeencaught。

  Butevenwhileherperceptionopeneditselftothis,shehadnodesiretocatchhim;hispresencewaspainfultoher,andsheonlywishedhewouldgo。

  \"Willyounotsitdown?\"heasked。

  \"Ithinkwehadbetternot,\"saidCatherine。

  \"Ioffendyoubycoming?\"Hewasverygrave;hespokeinatoneoftherichestrespect。

  \"Idon\'tthinkyououghttohavecome。\"

  \"DidnotMrs。Pennimantellyou-didshenotgiveyoumymessage?\"

  \"Shetoldmesomething,butIdidnotunderstand。\"

  \"Iwishyouwouldletmetellyou-letmespeakformyself。\"

  \"Idon\'tthinkitisnecessary,\"saidCatherine。

  \"Notforyou,perhaps,butforme。Itwouldbeagreatsatisfaction-

  andIhavenotmany。\"Heseemedtobecomingnearer;Catherineturnedaway。\"Canwenotbefriendsagain?\"heasked。

  \"We\'renotenemies,\"saidCatherine。\"Ihavenonebutfriendlyfeelingstoyou。\"

  \"Ah,Iwonderwhetheryouknowthehappinessitgivesmetohearyousaythat!\"Catherineutterednointimationthatshemeasuredtheinfluenceofherwords;andhepresentlywenton,\"Youhavenotchanged-theyearshavepassedhappilyforyou。\"

  \"Theyhavepassedveryquietly,\"saidCatherine。

  \"Theyhaveleftnomarks;youareadmirablyyoung。\"Thistimehesucceededincomingnearer-hewasclosetoher;shesawhisglossyperfumedbeard,andhiseyesaboveitlookingstrangeandhard。Itwasverydifferentfromhisold-fromhisyoung-face。Ifshehadfirstseenhimthiswayshewouldnothavelikedhim。Itseemedtoherthathewassmiling,ortryingtosmile。\"Catherine,\"hesaid,loweringhisvoice,\"Ihaveneverceasedtothinkofyou。\"

  \"Pleasedon\'tsaythesethings,\"sheanswered。

  \"Doyouhateme?\"

  \"Ohno,\"saidCatherine。

  Somethinginhertonediscouragedhim,butinamomentherecoveredhimself。\"Haveyoustillsomekindnessforme,then?\"

  \"Idon\'tknowwhyyouhavecomeheretoaskmesuchthings!\"

  Catherineexclaimed。

  \"Becauseformanyyearsithasbeenthedesireofmylifethatweshouldbefriendsagain。\"

  \"Thatisimpossible。\"

  \"Whyso?Notifyouwillallowit。\"

  \"Iwillnotallowit,\"saidCatherine。

  Helookedatheragaininsilence。\"Isee;mypresencetroublesyouandpainsyou。Iwillgoaway;butyoumustgivemeleavetocomeagain。\"

  \"Pleasedon\'tcomeagain,\"shesaid。

  \"Never?Never?\"

  Shemadeagreateffort;shewishedtosaysomethingthatwouldmakeitimpossibleheshouldeveragaincrossherthreshold。\"Itiswrongofyou。Thereisnoproprietyinit-noreasonforit。\"

  \"Ah,dearestlady,youdomeinjustice!\"criedMorrisTownsend。

  \"Wehaveonlywaited,andnowwearefree。\"

  \"Youtreatedmebadly,\"saidCatherine。

  \"Notifyouthinkofitrightly。Youhadyourquietlifewithyourfather-whichwasjustwhatIcouldnotmakeupmymindtorobyouof。\"

  \"Yes;Ihadthat。\"

  Morrisfeltittobeaconsiderabledamagetohiscausethathecouldnotaddthatshehadhadsomethingmorebesides;foritisneedlesstosaythathehadlearnedthecontentsofDoctorSloper\'swill。Hewas,nevertheless,notataloss。\"Thereareworsefatesthanthat!\"heexclaimed,withexpression;andhemighthavebeensupposedtorefertohisownunprotectedsituation。Thenheadded,withadeepertenderness,\"Catherine,haveyouneverforgivenme?\"

  \"Iforgaveyouyearsago,butitisuselessforustoattempttobefriends。\"

  \"Notifweforgetthepast。Wehavestillafuture,thankGod!\"

  \"Ican\'tforget-Idon\'tforget,\"saidCatherine。\"Youtreatedmetoobadly。Ifeltitverymuch;Ifeltitforyears。\"Andthenshewenton,withherwishtoshowhimthathemustnotcometoherthisway,\"Ican\'tbeginagain-Ican\'ttakeitup。Everythingisdeadandburied。Itwastooserious;itmadeagreatchangeinmylife。I

  neverexpectedtoseeyouhere。\"

  \"Ah,youareangry!\"criedMorris,whowishedimmenselythathecouldextortsomeflashofpassionfromhercalmness。Inthatcasehemighthope。

  \"No,Iamnotangry。Angerdoesnotlastthatwayforyears。Butthereareotherthings。Impressionslast,whentheyhavebeenstrong。ButIcan\'ttalk。\"

  Morrisstoodstrokinghisbeard,withacloudedeye。\"Whyhaveyounevermarried?\"heasked,abruptly。\"Youhavehadopportunities。\"

  \"Ididn\'twishtomarry。\"

  \"Yes,youarerich,youarefree;youhadnothingtogain。\"

  \"Ihadnothingtogain,\"saidCatherine。

  Morrislookedvaguelyroundhim,andgaveadeepsigh。\"Well,I

  wasinhopesthatwemightstillhavebeenfriends。\"

  \"Imeanttotellyou,bymyaunt,inanswertoyourmessage-ifyouhadwaitedforananswer-thatitwasunnecessaryforyoutocomeinthathope。\"

  \"Good-bye,then,\"saidMorris。\"Excusemyindiscretion。\"

  Hebowed,andsheturnedaway-standingthere,averted,withhereyesontheground,forsomemomentsaftershehadheardhimclosethedooroftheroom。

  InthehallhefoundMrs。Penniman,flutteredandeager;sheappearedtohavebeenhoveringthereundertheirreconcilablepromptingsofhercuriosityandherdignity。

  \"Thatwasapreciousplanofyours!\"saidMorris,clappingonhishat。

  \"Isshesohard?\"askedMrs。Penniman。

  \"Shedoesn\'tcareabuttonforme-withherconfoundedlittledrymanner。\"

  \"Wasitverydry?\"pursuedMrs。Penniman,withsolicitude。

  Morristooknonoticeofherquestion;hestoodmusinganinstant,withhishaton。\"Butwhythedeuce,then,wouldshenevermarry?\"

  \"Yes-whyindeed?\"sighedMrs。Penniman。Andthen,asiffromasenseoftheinadequacyofthisexplanation,\"Butyouwillnotdespair-youwillcomeback?\"

  \"Comeback?Damnation!\"AndMorrisTownsendstrodeoutofthehouse,leavingMrs。Pennimanstaring。

  Catherine,meanwhile,intheparlor,pickinguphermorseloffancywork,hadseatedherselfwithitagain-forlife,asitwere。

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