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  Pierstonnowlearntforthefirsttimethatthewidowhadbeenvisitedbysuddenattacksofthissortnotinfrequentlyoflateyears。Theyweresaidtobeduetoanginapectoris,thelatterparoxysmshavingbeenthemostsevere。Shewasatthepresentmomentoutofpain,thoughweak,exhausted,andnervous。Shewouldnot,however,converseaboutherself,buttookadvantageofherdaughter’sabsencefromtheroomtobroachthesubjectmostinherthoughts。

  Nocompunctionshadstirredherastheyhadhervisitorontheexpediencyofhissuitinviewofhisyears。HerfeverofanxietylestafterallheshouldnotcometoseeAviceagainhadbeennotwithoutaneffectuponherhealth;anditmadehermorecandidthanshehadintendedtobe。

  ’Troublesandsicknessraiseallsortsoffears,Mr。Pierston,’shesaid。’WhatIfeltonlyawishfor,whenyoufirstnamedit,Ihavehopedforagooddealsince;andIhavebeensoanxiousthat——thatitshouldcometosomething!Iamgladindeedthatyouarecome。’

  ’MywantingtomarryAvice,youmean,dearMrs。Pierston?’

  ’Yes——that’sit。Iwonderifyouarestillinthesamemind?Youare?

  ThenIwishsomethingcouldbedone——tomakeheragreetoit——soastogetitsettled。Idreadotherwisewhatwillbecomeofher。SheisnotapracticalgirlasIwas——shewouldhardlylikenowtosettledownasanislander’swife;andtoleaveherlivingherealonewouldtroubleme。’

  ’Nothingwillhappentoyouyet,Ihope,mydearoldfriend。’

  ’Well,itisariskycomplaint;andtheattacks,whentheycome,aresoagonizingthattoendurethemIoughttogetridofalloutsideanxieties,folksay。Now——doyouwanther,sir?’

  ’Withallmysoul!Butshedoesn’twantme。’

  ’Idon’tthinksheissoagainstyouasyouimagine。Ifancyifitwereputtoherplainly,nowIaminthisstate,itmightbedone。’

  Theylapsedintoconversationontheearlydaysoftheiracquaintance,untilMrs。Pierston’sdaughterre-enteredtheroom。

  ’Avice,’saidhermother,whenthegirlhadbeenwiththemafewminutes。’AboutthismatterthatIhavetalkedoverwithyousomanytimessincemyattack。HereisMr。Pierston,andhewishestobeyourhusband。Heismucholderthanyou;but,inspiteofit,thatyouwillevergetabetterhusbandIdon’tbelieve。Now,willyoutakehim,seeingthestateIamin,andhownaturallyanxiousIamtoseeyousettledbeforeIdie?’

  ’Butyouwon’tdie,mother!Youaregettingbetter!’

  ’Justforthepresentonly。Come,heisagoodmanandacleverman,andarichman。Iwantyou,Osomuch,tobehiswife!Icansaynomore。’

  Avicelookedappealinglyatthesculptor,andthenonthefloor。’Doeshereallywishmeto?’sheaskedalmostinaudibly,turningasshespoketoPierston。’Hehasneverquitesaidsotome。’

  ’Mydearone,howcanyoudoubtit?’saidJocelynquickly。’ButI

  won’tpressyoutomarrymeasafavour,againstyourfeelings。’

  ’IthoughtMr。Pierstonwasyounger!’shemurmuredtohermother。

  ’Thatcountsforlittle,whenyouthinkhowmuchthereisontheotherside。Thinkofourposition,andofhis——asculptor,withamansion,andastudiofullofbustsandstatuesthatIhavedustedinmytime,andofthebeautifulstudiesyouwouldbeabletotakeup。Surelythelifewouldjustsuityou?Yourexpensiveeducationiswasteddownhere!’

  Avicedidnotcaretoargue。Shewasoutwardlygentleashergrandmotherhadbeen,anditseemedjustaquestionwithherofwhethershemustormustnot。’Verywell——IfeelIoughttoagreetomarryhim,sinceyoutellmeto,’sheansweredquietly,aftersomethought。

  ’Iseethatitwouldbeawisethingtodo,andthatyouwishit,andthatMr。Pierstonreallydoes——likeme。So——sothat——’

  Pierstonwasnotbackwardatthiscriticaljuncture,despiteunpleasantsensations。Butitwasthehistoricingredientinthisgenealogicalpassion——ifitscontinuitythroughthreegenerationsmaybesodescribed——whichappealedtohisperseveranceattheexpenseofhiswisdom。Themotherwasholdingthedaughter’shand;shetookPierston’s,andlaidAvice’sinit。

  Nomorewassaidinargument,andthethingwasregardedasdetermined。

  Afterwardsanoisewashearduponthewindow-panes,asoffinesandthrown;and,liftingtheblind,Pierstonsawthatthedistantlightshipwinkedwithablearedandindistincteye。Adrizzlingrainhadcomeonwiththedark,anditwasstrikingthewindowinhandfuls。Hehadintendedtowalkthetwomilesbacktothestation,butitmeantadrenchingtodoitnow。Hewaitedandhadsupper;and,findingtheweathernobetter,acceptedMrs。Pierston’sinvitationtostayoverthenight。

  Thusitfelloutthatagainhelodgedinthehousehehadbeenaccustomedtoliveinasaboy,beforehisfatherhadmadehisfortune,andbeforehisownnamehadbeenheardofoutsidetheboundariesoftheisle。

  Hesleptbutlittle,andinthefirstmovementofthedawnsatupinbed。WhyshouldheeverliveinLondonoranyotherfashionablecityifthisplanofmarriagecouldbecarriedout?Surely,withthisyoungwife,theislandwouldbethebestplaceforhim。ItmightbepossibletorentSylvaniaCastleashehadformerlydone——betterstilltobuyit。IflifecouldofferhimanythingworthhavingitwouldbeahomewithAvicethereonhisnativecliffstotheendofhisdays。

  Ashesatthusthinking,andthedaylightincreased,hediscerned,ashortdistancebeforehim,amovementofsomethingghostly。Hispositionwasfacingthewindow,andhefoundthatbychancethelooking-glasshadswungitselfvertical,sothatwhathesawwashisownshape。Therecognitionstartledhim。Thepersonheappearedwastoogrievouslyfar,chronologically,inadvanceofthepersonhefelthimselftobe。Pierstondidnotcaretoregardthefigureconfrontinghimsomockingly。Itsvoiceseemedtosay’There’stragedyhangingontothis!’Butthequestionofagebeingpertinenthecouldnotgivethespectreup,andultimatelygotoutofbedundertheweirdfascinationofthereflection。Whetherhehadoverwalkedhimselflately,orwhathehaddone,heknewnot;butneverhadheseemedsoagedbyascoreofyearsashewasrepresentedintheglassinthatcoldgreymorninglight。Whilehissoulwaswhatitwas,whyshouldhehavebeenencumberedwiththatwitheringcarcase,withouttheabilitytoshiftitoffforanother,ashisidealBelovedhadsofrequentlydone?

  Byreasonofhermother’sillnessAvicewasnowlivinginthehouse,and,ongoingdownstairs,hefoundthattheyweretobreakfastentete-

  a-tete。Shewasnotthenintheroom,butsheenteredinthecourseofafewminutes。Pierstonhadalreadyheardthatthewidowfeltbetterthismorning,andelatedbytheprospectofsittingwithAviceatthismealhewentforwardtoherjoyously。Assoonasshesawhiminthefullstrokeofdayfromthewindowshestarted;andhethenrememberedthatitwastheirfirstmeetingunderthesolarrays。

  Shewassoovercomethatsheturnedandlefttheroomasifshehadforgottensomething;whenshere-enteredshewasvisiblypale。Sherecoveredherself,andapologized。Shehadbeensittingupthenightbeforethelast,shesaid,andwasnotquitesowellasusual。

  Theremayhavebeensometruthinthis;butPierstoncouldnotgetoverthatfirstscaredlookofhers。Itwasenoughtogivedaytimestabilitytohisnightviewsofapossibletragedylurkinginthisweddingproject。Hedeterminedthat,atanycosttohisheart,thereshouldbenomisapprehensionabouthimfromthismoment。

  ’MissPierston,’hesaidastheysatdown,’sinceitiswellyoushouldknowallthetruthbeforewegoanyfurther,thattheremaybenoawkwarddiscoveriesafterwards,Iamgoingtotellyousomethingaboutmyself——ifyouarenottoodistressedtohearit?’

  ’No——letmehearit。’

  ’Iwasoncetheloverofyourmother,andwantedtomarryher,onlyshewouldn’t,orrathercouldn’t,marryme。’

  ’Ohowstrange!’saidthegirl,lookingfromhimtothebreakfastthings,andfromthebreakfastthingstohim。’Motherhasnevertoldmethat。Yetofcourse,youmighthavebeen。Imean,youareoldenough。’

  Hetooktheremarkasasatireshehadnotintended。’Oyes——quiteoldenough,’hesaidgrimly。’Almosttooold。’

  ’Toooldformother?How’sthat?’

  ’BecauseIbelongedtoyourgrandmother。’

  ’No?Howcanthatbe?’

  ’Iwasherloverlikewise。IshouldhavemarriedherifIhadgonestraightoninsteadofroundthecorner。’

  ’Butyoucouldn’thavebeen,Mr。Pierston!Youarenotoldenough?

  Why,howoldareyou?——youhavenevertoldme。’

  ’Iamveryold。’

  ’Mymother’s,andmygrandmother’s,’saidshe,lookingathimnolongerasatapossiblehusband,butasastrangefossilizedrelicinhumanform。Pierstonsawit,butmeaningtogiveupthegamehedidnotcaretosparehimself。

  ’Yourmother’sandyourgrandmother’syoungman,’herepeated。

  ’Andwereyoumygreat-grandmother’stoo?’sheasked,withanexpectantinterestinhiscaseasadramathatovercameherpersonalconsiderationsforamoment。

  ’No——notyourgreat-grandmother’s。Yourimaginationbeatsevenmyconfessions!……ButIamVERYold,asyousee。’

  ’Ididnotknowit!’saidsheinanappalledmurmur。’Youdonotlookso;andIthoughtthatwhatyoulookedyouwere。’

  ’Andyou——youareveryyoung,’hecontinued。

  Astillnessfollowed,duringwhichshesatinatroubledconstraint,regardinghimnowandthenwithsomethinginheropeneyesandlargepupilsthatmighthavebeensympathyornervousness。Pierstonatescarceanybreakfast,andrisingabruptlyfromthetablesaidhewouldtakeawalkonthecliffsasthemorningwasfine。

  Hedidso,proceedingalongthenorth-eastheightsfornearlyamile。

  HehadvirtuallygivenAviceup,butnotformally。Hisintentionhadbeentogobacktothehouseinhalf-an-hourandpayamorningvisittotheinvalid;butbynotreturningtheplansofthepreviouseveningmightbeallowedtolapsesilently,asmerepourparlersthathadcometonothinginthefaceofAvice’swantofloveforhim。Pierstonaccordinglywentstraightalong,andinthecourseofanhourwasathisBudmouthlodgings。

  Nothingoccurredtilltheeveningtoinformhimhowhisabsencehadbeentaken。ThenanotearrivedfromMrs。Pierston;itwaswritteninpencil,evidentlyasshelay。

  ’Iamalarmed,’shesaid,’atyourgoingsosuddenly。Aviceseemstothinkshehasoffendedyou。Shedidnotmeantodothat,Iamsure。

  Itmakesmedreadfullyanxious!Willyousendaline?Surelyyouwillnotdesertusnow——myheartissosetonmychild’swelfare!’

  ’DesertyouIwon’t,’saidJocelyn。’Itistoomuchliketheoriginalcase。ButImustletherdesertme!’

  Onhisreturn,withnootherobjectthanthatofwishingMrs。Pierstongood-bye,hefoundherpainfullyagitated。Sheclaspedhishandandwetteditwithhertears。

  ’Odon’tbeoffendedwithher!’shecried。’She’syoung。Weareonepeople——don’tmarryakimberlin!Itwillbreakmyheartifyouforsakehernow!Avice!’

  Thegirlcame。’Mymannerwashastyandthoughtlessthismorning,’shesaidinalowvoice。’Pleasepardonme。Iwishtoabidebymypromise。’

  Hermother,stilltearful,againjoinedtheirhands;andtheengagementstoodasbefore。

  PierstonwentbacktoBudmouth,butdimlyseeinghowcuriously,throughhisbeingarichsuitor,ideasofbeneficenceandreparationwereretaininghiminthecoursearrangedbyhermother,andurgedbyhisowndesireinthefaceofhisunderstanding。

  3。V。ONTHEVERGEOFPOSSESSION

  InanticipationofhismarriagePierstonhadtakenanewredhouseoftheapprovedKensingtonpattern,withanewstudioatthebackaslargeasamediaevalbarn。Hither,incollusionwiththeelderAvice——whosehealthhadmendedsomewhat——heinvitedmotheranddaughtertospendaweekortwowithhim,thinkingtherebytoexerciseonthelatter’simaginationaninfluencewhichwasnotpracticablewhilehewasaguestattheirhouse;andbyinterestinghisbetrothedinthefittingandfurnishingofthisresidencetocreateinheranambitiontobeitsmistress。

  Itwasapleasant,reposefultimetobeintown。Therewasnobodytointerruptthemintheirproceedings,and,itbeingoutoftheseason,thelargesttradesmenwereasattentivetotheirwantsasifthosefirmshadneverbeforebeenhonouredwithasinglecustomerwhomtheyreallyliked。Pierstonandhisguests,almostequallyinexperienced——

  forthesculptorhadnearlyforgottenwhatknowledgeofhouseholdinghehadacquiredearlierinlife——couldconsiderandpractisethoroughlyaspeciesofskeleton-drillinreceivingvisitorswhenthepairshouldannouncethemselvesasmarriedandathomeinthecomingwinterseason。

  Avicewascharming,evenifalittlecold。Hecongratulatedhimselfyetagainthattimeshouldhavereservedforhimthisfinalchanceforoneoftheline。Shewassomewhatlikehermother,whomhehadlovedintheflesh,butshehadthesoulofhergrandmother,whomhehadlovedinthespirit——and,forthatmatter,lovednow。Onlyonecriticismhadhetopassuponhischoice:thoughinoutwardsemblancehergrandamidealized,shehadnotthefirstAvice’scandour,butratherhermother’scloseness。Heneverknewexactlywhatshewasthinkingandfeeling。Yetheseemedtohavesuchprescriptiverightsinwomenofherbloodthatheroccasionalwantofconfidencedidnotdeeplytroublehim。

  ItwasoneofthoseripeandmellowafternoonsthatsometimescolourLondonwiththeirgoldenlightatthistimeoftheyear,andproducethosemarvelloussunseteffectswhich,iftheywerenotknowntobemadeupofkitchencoal-smokeandanimalexhalations,wouldberapturouslyapplauded。Behindtheperpendicular,oblique,zigzagged,andcurvedzinc’tall-boys,’thatformedagreypatternnotunlikeearlyGothicnumeralsagainstthesky,themenandwomenonthetopsoftheomnibusessawanirradiationoftopazhues,darkenedhereandthereintorichestrusset。

  Therehadbeenasharpshowerduringtheafternoon,andPierston——whohadtotakecareofhimself——hadwornapairofgoloshesonhisshortwalkinthestreet。Henoiselesslyenteredthestudio,insidewhichsomegleamsofthesamemellowlighthadmanagedtocreep,andwhereheguessedheshouldfindhisprospectivewifeandmother-in-lawawaitinghimwithtea。ButonlyAvicewasthere,seatedbesidetheteapotofbrowndelf,which,asartists,theyaffected,herbackbeingtowardhim。Shewasholdingherhandkerchieftohereyes,andhesawthatshewasweepingsilently。

  Inanothermomentheperceivedthatshewasweepingoverabook。Bythistimeshehadheardhim,andcameforward。Hemadeitappearthathehadnotnoticedherdistress,andtheydiscussedsomearrangementsoffurniture。Whenhehadtakenacupofteashewentaway,leavingthebookbehindher。

  Pierstontookitup。Thevolumewasanoldschool-book;Stievenard’s’LecturesFrancaises,’withhernameinitasapupilatSandbourneHighSchool,anddate-markingsdenotinglessonstakenatacomparativelyrecenttime,forAvicehadbeenbutanoviceasgovernesswhenhediscoveredher。

  Foraschool-girl——whichshevirtuallywas——toweepoveraschool-bookwasstrange。Couldshehavebeenaffectedbysomesubjectinthereadings?Impossible。Pierstonfelltothinking,andzestdiedfortheprocessoffurnishing,whichhehadundertakensogaily。Somehow,thebloomwasagaindisappearingfromhisapproachingmarriage。YethelovedAvicemoreandmoretenderly;hefearedsometimesthatinthesolicitousnessofhisaffectionhewasspoilingherbyindulginghereverywhim。

  Helookedroundthelargeandambitiousapartment,nowbecomingcloudedwithshades,outofwhichthewhiteandcadaverouscountenancesofhisstudies,casts,andotherlumberpeeredmeditativelyathim,asiftheyweresaying,’Whatareyougoingtodonow,oldboy?’Theyhadneverlookedlikethatwhilestandinginhispasthomelyworkshop,whereallthereallaboursofhislifehadbeencarriedout。Whatshouldamanofhisage,whohadnotforyearsdoneanythingtospeakof——certainlynottoaddtohisreputationasanartist——wantwithanewplacelikethis?Itwasallbecauseoftheelectlady,andsheapparentlydidnotwanthim。

  PierstondidnotobserveanythingfurtherinAvicetocausehimmisgivingtillonedinner-time,aweeklater,towardstheendofthevisit。Then,ashesathimselfbetweenherandhermotherattheirlimitedtable,hewasstruckwithhernervousness,andwastemptedtosay,’Whyareyoutroubled,mylittledearest?’intoneswhichdisclosedthathewasastroubledasshe。

  ’AmItroubled?’shesaidwithastart,turninghergentlehazeleyesuponhim。’Yes,IsupposeIam。ItisbecauseIhavereceivedaletter——fromanoldfriend。’

  ’Youdidn’tshowittome,’saidhermother。

  ’No——Itoreitup。’

  ’Why?’

  ’Itwasnotnecessarytokeepit,soIdestroyedit。’

  Mrs。Pierstondidnotpressherfurtheronthesubject,andAviceshowednodispositiontocontinueit。Theyretiredratherearly,astheyalwaysdid,butPierstonremainedpacingabouthisstudioalongwhile,musingonmanythings,nottheleastbeingtheperceptionthattowedawomanmaybebynomeansthesamethingastobeunitedwithher。The’oldfriend’ofAvice’sremarkhadsoundedverymuchlike’lover。’Otherwisewhyshouldtheletterhavesogreatlydisturbedher?

  Thereseemedtobesomethinguncanny,afterall,aboutLondon,initsrelationtohiscontemplatedmarriage。Whenshehadfirstcomeupshewaseasierwithhimthannow。Andyethisbringinghertherehadhelpedhiscause;thehousehaddecidedlyimpressedher——almostoverawedher,andthoughheownedthatbynolawofnatureorreasonhadhermotherorhimselfanyrighttourgeonAvicepartnershipwithhimagainstherinclination,heresolvedtomakethemostofhavingherunderhisinfluencebygettingtheweddingdetailssettledbeforesheandhermotherleft。

  Thenextmorningheproceededtodothis。WhenheencounteredAvicetherewasatraceofapprehensiononherface;buthesetthatdowntoafearthatshehadoffendedhimthenightbeforebyhertaciturnity。

  Directlyherequestedhermother,inAvice’spresence,togethertofixthedayquiteearly,Mrs。Pierstonbecamebrighterandbrisker。

  She,too,plainlyhaddoubtsaboutthewisdomofdelay,andturningtoherdaughtersaid,’Now,mydear,doyouhear?’

  Itwasultimatelyagreedthatthewidowandherdaughtershouldgobackinadayortwo,toawaitPierston’sarrivalonthewedding-eve,immediatelyaftertheirreturn。

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  InpursuanceofthearrangementPierstonfoundhimselfonthesouthshoreofEnglandinthegloomoftheaforesaidevening,theisle,ashelookedacrossatitwithhisapproach,beingjustdiscernibleasamopingcountenance,acreaturesullenwithasensethathewasabouttowithdrawfromitskeepingtherarestobjectithadeverowned。Hehadcomealone,nottoembarrassthem,andhadintendedtohaltacoupleofhoursintheneighbouringseaporttogivesomeordersrelatingtothewedding,butthelittlerailwaytrainbeinginwaitingtotakehimon,heproceededwithanaturalimpatience,resolvingtodohisbusinessherebymessengerfromtheisle。

  HepassedtheruinsoftheTudorcastleandthelongfeaturelessribofgrindingpebblesthatscreenedofftheoutersea,whichcouldbeheardliftinganddippingrhythmicallyinthewidevaguenessoftheBay。Attheunder-hillislandtownletoftheWellstherewerenoflys,andleavinghisthingstobebroughton,asheoftendid,heclimbedtheeminenceonfoot。

  Half-wayupthesteepestpartofthepasshesawintheduskafigurepausing——thesinglepersonontheincline。Thoughitwastoodarktoidentifyfaces,Pierstongatheredfromthewayinwhichthehaltingstrangerwassupportinghimselfbythehandrail,whichhereborderedtheroadtoassistclimbers,thatthepersonwasexhausted。

  ’Anythingthematter?’hesaid。

  ’Ono——notmuch,’wasreturnedbytheother。’Butitissteepjusthere。’

  TheaccentwasnotquitethatofanEnglishman,andstruckhimashailingfromoneoftheChannelIslands。’Can’tIhelpyouuptothetop?’hesaid,forthevoice,thoughthatofayoungman,seemedfaintandshaken。

  ’No,thankyou。Ihavebeenill;butIthoughtIwasallrightagain;

  andasthenightwasfineIwalkedintotheislandbytheroad。Itturnedouttoberathertoomuchforme,asthereissomeweaknessleftstill;andthisstiffinclinebroughtitout。’

  ’Naturally。You’dbettertakeholdofmyarm——atanyratetothebrowhere。’

  Thuspressedthestrangerdidso,andtheywentontowardstheridge,till,reachingthelime-kilnstandingtherethestrangerabandonedhishold,saying:’Thankyouforyourassistance,sir。Good-night。’

  ’Idon’tthinkIrecognizeyourvoiceasanative’s?’

  ’No,itisnot。IamaJerseyman。Goodnight,sir。’

  ’Good-night,ifyouaresureyoucangeton。Here,takethisstick——itisnousetome。’Sayingwhich,Pierstonputhiswalking-stickintotheyoungman’shand。

  ’Thankyouagain。IshallbequiterecoveredwhenIhaverestedaminuteortwo。Don’tletmedetainyou,please。’

  Thestrangerashespoketurnedhisfacetowardsthesouth,wheretheBeallighthadjustcomeintoview,andstoodregardingitwithanobstinatefixity。AsheevidentlywishedtobelefttohimselfJocelynwenton,andtroublednomoreabouthim,thoughthedesireoftheyoungmantoberidofhiscompany,afteracceptinghiswalking-stickandhisarm,hadcomewithasuddennessthatwasalmostemotional;andimpressionableasJocelynwas,nolessnowthaninyouth,hewassaddenedforaminutebythesensethattherewerepeopleintheworldwhodidnotlikeevenhissympathy。

  However,apleasurewhichobliteratedallthisarosewhenPierstondrewneartothehousethatwaslikelytobehisdearhomeonallfuturevisitstotheisle,perhapsevenhispermanenthomeashegrewolderandtheassociationsofhisyouthre-assertedthemselves。Ithadbeen,too,hisfather’shouse,thehouseinwhichhewasborn,andheamusedhisfancywithplansforitsenlargementunderthesupervisionofAviceandhimself。Itwasastillgreaterpleasuretobeholdatallandshapelyfigurestandingagainstthelightoftheopendoorandpresumablyawaitinghim。

  Avice,whoitwas,gavealittlejumpwhensherecognizedhim,butdutifullyallowedhimtokissherwhenhereachedherside;thoughhernervousnesswasonlytooapparent,andwaslikeachild’stowardsaparentwhomayprovestern。

  ’HowdearofyoutoguessthatImightcomeonatonceinsteadoflater!’saidJocelyn。’Well,ifIhadstayedinthetowntogototheshopsandsoon,Icouldnothavegotheretillthelasttrain。Howismother?——ourmother,asIshallcallhersoon。’

  Avicesaidthathermotherhadnotbeensowell——shefearednotnearlysowellsinceherreturnfromLondon,sothatshewasobligedtokeepherroom。Thevisithadperhapsbeentoomuchforher。’Butshewillnotacknowledgethatsheismuchweaker,becauseshewillnotdisturbmyhappiness。’

  Jocelynwasinamoodtolettriflesofmannerpass,andhetooknonoticeoftheeffortwhichhadaccompaniedthelastword。TheywentupstairstoMrs。Pierston,whoseobviousreliefandthankfulnessatsightofhimwasgratefultohervisitor。

  ’Iamso,Osogladyouarecome!’shesaidhuskily,assheheldoutherthinhandandstifledasob。’Ihavebeenso——’

  Shecouldgetnofurtherforamoment,andAviceturnedawayweeping,andabruptlylefttheroom。

  ’Ihavesosetmyheartonthis,’Mrs。Pierstonwenton,’thatIhavenotbeenabletosleepoflate,forIhavefearedImightdropoffsuddenlybeforesheisyours,andlosethecomfortofseeingyouactuallyunited。Yourbeingsokindtomeinoldtimeshasmademesosurethatshewillfindagoodhusbandinyou,thatIamoveranxious,Iknow。Indeed,IhavenotlikedtoletherknowquitehowanxiousI

  am。’

  ThustheytalkedtillJocelynbadehergoodnight,itbeingnoticeablethatMrs。Pierston,chastenedbyherillnesses,maintainednolongeranyreserveonhergladnesstoacquirehimasherson-in-law;andherfeelingsdestroyedanyremainingscrupleshemighthavehadfromperceivingthatAvice’sconsentwasratheranobediencethanadesire。

  Ashewentdownstairs,andfoundAviceawaitinghisdescent,hewonderedifanythinghadoccurredhereduringhisabsencetogiveMrs。

  Pierstonnewuneasinessaboutthemarriage,butitwasaninquiryhecouldnotaddresstoagirlwhoseactionscouldalonebethecauseofsuchuneasiness。

  Helookedroundforherashesupped,butthoughshehadcomeintotheroomwithhimshewasnottherenow。Herememberedhertellinghimthatshehadhadsupperwithhermother,andJocelynsatonquietlymusingandsippinghiswineforsomethingnearhalf-an-hour。Wonderingthenforthefirsttimewhathadbecomeofher,heroseandwenttothedoor。Avicewasquitenearhimafterall——onlystandingatthefrontdoorasshehadbeendoingwhenhecame,lookingintothelightofthefullmoon,whichhadrisensincehisarrival。Hissuddenopeningofthedining-roomdoorseemedtoagitateher。

  ’Whatisit,dear?’heasked。

  ’Asmotherismuchbetteranddoesn’twantme,IoughttogoandseesomebodyIpromisedtotakeaparcelto——IfeelIought。Andyet,asyouhavejustcometoseeme——Isupposeyoudon’tapproveofmygoingoutwhileyouarehere?’

  ’Whoistheperson?’

  ’Somebodydownthatway,’shesaidindefinitely。’Itisnotveryfaroff。Iamnotafraid——Igooutoftenbymyselfatnighthereabout。’

  Hereassuredhergood-humouredly。’Ifyoureallywishtogo,mydear,ofcourseIdon’tobject。Ihavenoauthoritytodothattilltomorrow,andyouknowthatifIhaditIshouldn’tuseit。’

  ’Obutyouhave!Motherbeinganinvalid,youareinherplace,apartfrom——to-morrow。’

  ’Nonsense,darling。Runacrosstoyourfriend’shousebyallmeansifyouwantto。’

  ’Andyou’llbeherewhenIcomein?’

  ’No,Iamgoingdowntotheinntoseeifmythingsarebroughtup。’

  ’Buthasn’tmotheraskedyoutostayhere?Thespareroomwasgotreadyforyou……Dearme,IamafraidIoughttohavetoldyou。’

  ’Shedidaskme。ButIhavesomethingscoming,directedtotheinn,andIhadbetterbethere。SoI’llwishyougood-night,thoughitisnotlate。Iwillcomeinquiteearlyto-morrow,toinquirehowyourmotherisgoingon,andtowishyougood-morning。Youwillbebackagainquicklythisevening?’

  ’Oyes。’

  ’AndIneedn’tgowithyouforcompany?’

  ’Ono,thankyou。Itisnodistance。’

  Pierstonthendeparted,thinkinghowentirelyhermannerwasthatofonetowhomaquestionofdoinganythingwasaquestionofpermissionandnotofjudgment。HehadnosoonergonethanAvicetookaparcelfromacupboard,putonherhatandcloak,andfollowingbythewayhehadtakentillshereachedtheentrancetoSylvaniaCastle,therestoodstill。ShecouldhearPierston’sfootstepspassingdownEastQuarrierstotheinn;butshewentnofurtherinthatdirection。Turningintothelaneontheright,ofwhichmentionhassooftenbeenmade,shewentquicklypastthelastcottage,andhavingenteredthegorgebeyondsheclamberedintotheruinoftheRedKing’sorBow-and-ArrowCastle,standingasasquareblackmassagainstthemoonlit,indefinitesea。

  3。VI。THEWELL-BELOVEDIS——WHERE?

  Mrs。Pierstonpassedarestlessnight,butthissheletnobodyknow;

  nor,whatwaspainfullyevidenttoherself,thatherprostrationwasincreasedbyanxietyandsuspenseabouttheweddingonwhichshehadtoomuchsetherheart。

  DuringtheverybriefspaceinwhichshedozedAvicecameintoherroom。Asitwasnotinfrequentforherdaughtertolookinuponherthusshetooklittlenotice,merelysayingtoassurethegirl:’Iambetter,dear。Don’tcomeinagain。Gettosleepyourself。’

  Themother,however,wentthinkinganew。Shehadnoapprehensionsaboutthismarriage。Shefeltperfectlysurethatitwasthebestthingshecoulddoforhergirl。NotayoungwomanontheislandbutwasenvyingAviceatthatmoment;forJocelynwasabsurdlyyoungforthreescore,agood-lookingman,onewhosehistorywasgenerallyknownhere;asalsoweretheexactfiguresofthefortunehehadinheritedfromhisfather,andthesocialstandinghecouldclaim——astanding,however,whichthatfortunewouldnothavebeenlargeenoughtoprocureunassistedbyhisreputationinhisart。

  ButAvicehadbeenweakenough,ashermotherknew,toindulgeinfanciesforlocalyouthsfromtimetotime,andMrs。Pierstoncouldnothelpcongratulatingherselfthatherdaughterhadbeensodocileinthecircumstances。Yettoeveryoneexcept,perhaps,Aviceherself,Jocelynwasthemostromanticoflovers。Indeedwasthereeversucharomanceasthatmanembodiedinhisrelationstoherhouse?RejectingthefirstAvice,thesecondhadrejectedhim,andtorallytothethirdwithfinalachievementwasanartisticandtenderfinishtowhichitwasungratefulinanybodytobeblind。

  ThewidowthoughtthatthesecondAvicemightprobablynothaverejectedPierstononthatoccasionintheLondonstudiosomanyyearsagoifdestinyhadnotarrangedthatsheshouldhavebeensecretlyunitedtoanotherwhentheproposingmomentcame。

  Butwhathadcomewasbest。’MyGod,’shesaidattimesthatnight,’tothinkmyaiminwritingtohimshouldbefulfillingitselflikethis!’

  Whenallwasrightanddone,whatasuccessuponthewholeherlifewouldhavebeen。Shewhohadbegunhercareerasacottage-girl,asmallquarry-owner’sdaughter,hadsunksolowastothepositionoflaundress,hadengagedinvariousmenialoccupations,hadmadeanunhappymarriageforlovewhichhad,however,inthelongrun,thankstoJocelyn’smanagement,muchimprovedherposition,wasatlasttoseeherdaughtersecurewhatsheherselfhadjustmissedsecuring,andestablishedinahomeofaffluenceandrefinement。

  Thusthesickwomanexcitedherselfasthehourswenton。Atlast,inhertensenessitseemedtoherthatthetimehadalreadycomeatwhichthehouseholdwasstirring,andshefanciedsheheardconversationinherdaughter’sroom。Butshefoundthatitwasonlyfiveo’clock,andnotyetdaylight。Herstatewassuchthatshecouldseethehangingsofthebedtremblewithhertremors。Shehaddeclaredovernightthatshedidnotrequireanyonetositupwithher,butshenowrangalittlehandbell,andinafewminutesanurseappeared;RuthStockwool,anislandwomanandneighbour,whomMrs。Pierstonknewwell,andwhoknewallMrs。Pierston’shistory。

  ’IamsonervousthatIcan’tstaybymyself,’saidthewidow。’AndI

  thoughtIheardBeckydressingMissAviceinherweddingthings。’

  ’Ono——notyet,ma’am。There’snobodyup。ButI’llgetyousomething。’

  WhenMrs。Pierstonhadtakenalittlenourishmentshewenton:’I

  can’thelpfrighteningmyselfwiththoughtsthatshewon’tmarryhim。

  YouseeheisolderthanAvice。’

  ’Yes,heis,’saidherneighbour。’ButIdon’tseehowanythingcanhendertheweddennow。’

  ’Avice,youknow,hadfancies;atleastonefancyforanotherman;ayoungfellowoffive-and-twenty。Andshe’sbeenverysecretandoddaboutit。Iwishshehadravedandcriedandhaditout;butshe’sbeenquitetheotherway。Iknowshe’sfondofhimstill。’

  ’What——thatyoungFrenchman,Mr。Leverreo’Sandbourne?I’veheardalittleofit。ButIshouldsaytherewaddenmuchbetween’em。’

  ’Idon’tthinktherewas。ButI’veasortofconvictionthatshesawhimlastnight。Ibelieveitwasonlytobidhimgood-bye,andreturnhimsomebookshehadgivenher;butIwishshehadneverknownhim;heisratheranexcitable,impulsiveyoungman,andhemightmakemischief。Heisn’taFrenchman,thoughhehaslivedinFrance。HisfatherwasaJerseygentleman,andonhisbecomingawidowerhemarriedashissecondwifeanativeofthisveryisland。That’smainlywhytheyoungmanissoathomeintheseparts。’

  ’Ah——nowIfollow’ee。ShewasaBencomb,hisstepmother:Iheardsomethingaboutheryearsago。’

  ’Yes;herfatherhadthebiggeststone-tradeontheislandatonetime;

  butthenameisforgottenherenow。HeretiredyearsbeforeIwasborn。However,motherusedtotellmethatshewasahandsomeyoungwoman,whotriedtocatchMr。Pierstonwhenhewasayoungman,andscandalizedherselfabitwithhim。Shewentoffabroadwithherfather,whohadmadeafortunehere;butwhenhegotovertherehelostitnearlyallinsomeway。YearsaftershemarriedthisJerseyman,Mr。

  Leverre,whohadbeenfondofherasagirl,andshebroughtuphischildasherown。’

  Mrs。Pierstonpaused,butasRuthdidnotaskanyquestionshepresentlyresumedherself-relievingmurmur:

  ’HowMissAvicegottoknowtheyoungmanwasinthisway。WhenMrs。

  Leverre’shusbanddiedshecamefromJerseytoliveatSandbourne;andmadeitherbusinessonedaytocrossovertothisplacetomakeinquiriesaboutMr。JocelynPierston。AsmynamewasPierstonshecalleduponmewithherson,andsoAviceandhegotacquainted。WhenAvicewentbacktoSandbournetothefinishingschooltheykeptuptheacquaintanceinsecret。HetaughtFrenchsomewherethere,anddoesstill,Ibelieve。’

  ’Well,Ihopeshe’llforgeten。Heiddengoodenough。’

  ’Ihopeso——Ihopeso……NowI’lltrytogetalittlenap。’

  RuthStockwoolwentbacktoherroom,where,findingitwouldnotbenecessarytogetupforanotherhour,shelaydownagainandsoonslept。Herbedwasclosetothestaircase,fromwhichitwasdividedbyalathpartitiononly,andherconsciousnesseitherwasorseemedtobearousedbylightbrushingtouchesontheoutsideofthepartition,asoffingersfeelingthewaydownstairsinthedark。Theslightnoisepassed,andinafewsecondsshedreamtorfanciedshecouldheartheunfasteningofthebackdoor。

  Shehadnearlysunkintoanothersoundsleepwhenpreciselythesamephenomenawererepeated;fingersbrushingalongthewallclosetoherhead,down,downward,thesoftopeningofthedoor,itsclose,andsilenceagain。

  Shenowbecameclearlyawake。Therepetitionoftheprocesshadmadethewholematterasingularone。Earlyasitwasthefirstsoundsmighthavebeenthoseofthehousemaiddescending,thoughwhysheshouldhavecomedownsostealthilyandinthedarkdidnotmakeitselfclear。Butthesecondperformancewasinexplicable。Ruthgotoutofbedandliftedherblind。Thedawnwashardlyyetpink,andthelightfromthesandbankwasnotyetextinguished。Butthebushesofeuonymusagainstthewhitepalingsofthefrontgardencouldbeseen,alsothelightsurfaceoftheroadwindingawaylikearibandtothenorthentranceofSylvaniaCastle,thenceroundtothevillage,thecliffs,andtheCovebehind。Upontheroadtwodarkfigurescouldjustbediscerned,onealittlewaybehindtheother,butovertakingandjoiningtheforemostasRuthlooked。Afteralltheymightbequarriersorlighthouse-keepersfromthesouthoftheisland,orfishermenjustlandedfromanight’swork。Therebeingnothingtoconnectthemwiththenoisesshehadheardindoorsshedismissedthewholesubject,andwenttobedagain。

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  JocelynhadpromisedtopayanearlyvisittoascertainthestateofMrs。Pierston’shealthafterhernight’srest,herprecariousconditionbeingmoreobvioustohimthantoAvice,andmakinghimalittleanxious。Subsequenteventscausedhimtorememberthatwhilehewasdressinghecasuallyobservedtwoorthreeboatmenstandingnearthecliffbeyondthevillage,andapparentlywatchingwithdeepinterestwhatseemedtobeaboatfarawaytowardstheoppositeshoreofSouthWessex。Athalf-pasteighthecamefromthedooroftheinnandwentstraighttoMrs。Pierston’s。Onapproachinghediscoveredthatastrangeexpressionwhichseemedtohangaboutthehouse-frontthatmorningwasmorethanafancy,thegate,door,andtwowindowsbeingopen,thoughtheblindsofotherwindowswerenotdrawnup,thewholelendingavacant,dazedlooktothedomicile,asofapersongapinginsuddenstultification。Nobodyansweredhisknock,andwalkingintothedining-roomhefoundthatnobreakfasthadbeenlaid。Hisflashingthoughtwas,’Mrs。Pierstonisdead。’

  Whilestandingintheroomsomebodycamedownstairs,andJocelynencounteredRuthStockwool,anopenletterflutteringinherhand。

  ’OMr。Pierston,Mr。Pierston!TheLord-a-Lord!’

  ’What?Mrs。Pierston——’

  ’No,no!MissAvice!Sheisgone!——yes——gone!Readyethis,sir。Itwasleftinherbedroom,andwebefairlygalliedoutofoursenses!’

  Hetooktheletterandconfusedlybeheldthatitwasintwohandwritings,thefirstsectionbeinginAvice’s:

  ’MYDEARMOTHER,——HoweverwillyouforgivemeforwhatIhavedone!

  Sodeceitfulasitseems。AndyettillthisnightIhadnoideaofdeceivingeitheryouorMr。Pierston。

  ’Lastnightatteno’clockIwentout,asyoumayhaveguessed,toseeMr。Leverreforthelasttime,andtogivehimbackhisbooks,letters,andlittlepresentstome。Iwentonlyafewsteps——toBow-and-ArrowCastle,wherewemetaswehadagreedtodo,sincehecouldnotcall。

  WhenIreachedtheplaceIfoundhimtherewaiting,butquiteill。Hehadbeenunwellathismother’shouseforsomedays,andhadbeenobligedtostayinbed,buthehadgotuponpurposetocomeandbidmegood-bye。Theover-exertionofthejourneyupsethim,andthoughwestayedandstayedtilltwelveo’clockhefeltquiteunabletogobackhome——unable,indeed,tomovemorethanafewyards。Ihadtriedsohardnottolovehimanylonger,butIlovedhimsonowthatIcouldnotdeserthimandleavehimouttheretocatchhisdeath。SoIhelpedhim——nearlycarryinghim——onandontoourdoor,andthenroundtotheback。Herehegotalittlebetter,andashecouldnotstaythere,andeverybodywasnowasleep,IhelpedhimupstairsintotheroomwehadpreparedforMr。Pierstonifheshouldhavewantedone。Igothimintobed,andthenfetchedsomebrandyandalittleofyourtonic。Didyouseemecomeintoyourroomforit,orwereyouasleep?

  ’Isatbyhimallnight。Heimprovedslowly,andwetalkedoverwhatwehadbetterdo。Ifeltthat,thoughIhadintendedtogivehimup,I

  couldnotnowbecominglymarryanyotherman,andthatIoughttomarryhim。Wedecidedtodoitatonce,beforeanybodycouldhinderus。Sowecamedownbeforeitwaslight,andhavegoneawaytogettheceremonysolemnized。

  ’TellMr。Pierstonitwasnotpremeditated,buttheresultofanaccident。Iamsincerelysorrytohavetreatedhimwithwhathewillthinkunfairness,butthoughIdidnotlovehimImeanttoobeyyouandmarryhim。ButGodsentthisnecessityofmyhavingtogivesheltertomyLove,toprevent,Ithink,mydoingwhatIamnowconvincedwouldhavebeenwrong——Everyourlovingdaughter,AVICE。’

  Thesecondwasinaman’shand:

  ’DEARMOTHER(asyouwillsoonbetome),——AvicehasclearlyexplainedabovehowithappenedthatIhavenotbeenabletogiveheruptoMr。

  Pierston。IthinkIshouldhavediedifIhadnotacceptedthehospitalityofaroominyourhousethisnight,andyourdaughter’stendernursingthroughthedarkdrearyhours。Weloveeachotherbeyondexpression,anditisobviousthat,ifwearehuman,wecannotresistmarryingnow,inspiteoffriends’wishes。Willyoupleasesendthenotelyingbesidethistomymother。ItismerelytoexplainwhatIhavedone——Yourswithwarmestregard,HENRILEVERRE。’

  Jocelynturnedawayandlookedoutofthewindow。

  ’Mrs。Pierstonthoughtsheheardsometalkinginthenight,butofcoursesheputitdowntofancy。AndsheremembersMissAvicecomingintoherroomatoneo’clockinthemorning,andgoingtothetablewherethemedicinewasstanding。Aslygirl——allthetimeheryoungmanwithinayardortwo,intheveryroom,andausingtheverycleansheetsthatyou,sir,weretohaveused!Theyareourbestlinenones,gotupbeautiful,andakeptwi’rosemary。Really,sir,onewouldsayyoustayedouto’yourchammero’purposetoobligetheyoungmanwithabed!’

  ’Don’tblamethem,don’tblamethem!’saidJocelyninanevenandcharacterlessvoice。’Don’tblameher,particularly。Shedidn’tmakethecircumstances。Idid……ItwashowIservedhergrandmother……Well,she’sgone!Youneedn’tmakeamysteryofit。Tellittoalltheisland:saythatamancametomarryawife,anddidn’tfindherathome。Telleverybodythatshe’srunaway。Itmustbeknownsoonerorlater。’

  Oneoftheservantssaid,afterwaitingafewmoments:’Weshan’tdothat,sir。’

  ’Oh——Whywon’tyou?’

  ’Welikedhertoowell,withallherfaults。’

  ’Ah——didyou,’saidhe;andhesighed。HeperceivedthattheyoungermaidsweresecretlyonAvice’sside。

  ’Howdoeshermotherbearit?’Jocelynasked。’Issheawake?’

  Mrs。Pierstonhadhardlyslept,and,havinglearntthetidingsinadvertently,becamesodistractedandincoherentastobelikeapersoninadelirium;till,afewmomentsbeforehearrived,allherexcitementceased,andshelayinaweak,quietsilence。

  ’Letmegoup,’Pierstonsaid。’Andsendforthedoctor。’

  PassingAvice’schamberheperceivedthatthelittlebedhadnotbeenslepton。Atthedoorofthespareroomhelookedin。Inonecornerstoodawalking-stick——hisown。

  ’Wheredidthatcomefrom?’

  ’Wefounditthere,sir。’

  ’Ahyes——Igaveittohim。’Tislikemetoplayanother’sgame!’

  ItwasthelastspurtofbitternessthatJocelynletescapehim。HewentontowardsMrs。Pierston’sroom,precededbytheservant。

  ’Mr。Pierstonhascome,ma’am,’heheardhersaytotheinvalid。Butasthelattertooknonoticethewomanrushedforwardtothebed。

  ’Whathashappenedtoher,Mr。Pierston?Owhatdoitmean?’

  AvicetheSecondwaslyingplacidlyinthepositioninwhichthenursehadlefther;butnobreathcamefromherlips,andarigidityoffeaturewasaccompaniedbythepreciseexpressionwhichhadcharacterizedherfacewhenPierstonhadherasagirlinhisstudio。

  Hesawthatitwasdeath,thoughsheappearedtohavebreathedherlastonlyafewmomentsbefore。

  RuthStockwool’scomposuredesertedher。’’TistheshockoffindingMissAvicegonethathasdoneit!’shecried。’Shehaskilledhermother!’

  ’Don’tsaysuchaterriblething!’exclaimedJocelyn。

  ’Butsheoughttohaveobeyedhermother——agoodmotherasshewas!

  Howshehadsetherheartuponthewedding,poorsoul;andwecouldn’thelpherknowingwhathadhappened!Ohowungratefulyoungfolkbe!

  Thatgirlwillruethismorning’swork!’

  ’Wemustgetthedoctor,’saidPierston,mechanically,hasteningfromtheroom。

  Whenthelocalpractitionercamehemerelyconfirmedtheirownverdict,andthoughtherdeathhadundoubtedlybeenhastenedbytheshockoftheillnewsuponafeebleheart,followingalongstrainofanxietyaboutthewedding。Hedidnotconsiderthataninquestwouldbenecessary。

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