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  CHAPTERVIII。

  \"Andnote,also,thisfalsehood,ofwhichallareguilty;thewayinwhichmarriagesaremade。Whatcouldtherebemorenatural?Theyounggirlismarriageable,sheshouldmarry。Whatsimpler,providedtheyoungpersonisnotamonster,andmencanbefoundwithadesiretomarry?Well,no,herebeginsanewhypocrisy。

  \"Formerly,whenthemaidenarrivedatafavorableage,hermarriagewasarrangedbyherparents。Thatwasdone,thatisdonestill,throughouthumanity,amongtheChinese,theHindoos,theMussulmans,andamongourcommonpeoplealso。Thingsaresomanagedinatleastninety-ninepercent。ofthefamiliesoftheentirehumanrace。

  \"Onlyweriotouslivershaveimaginedthatthiswaywasbad,andhaveinventedanother。Andthisother,——whatisit?Itisthis。

  Theyounggirlsareseated,andthegentlemenwalkupanddownbeforethem,asinabazaar,andmaketheirchoice。Themaidenswaitandthink,butdonotdaretosay:’Takeme,youngman,meandnother。Lookattheseshouldersandtherest。’Wemaleswalkupanddown,andestimatethemerchandise,andthenwediscourseupontherightsofwoman,uponthelibertythatsheacquires,Iknownothow,inthetheatricalhalls。\"

  \"Butwhatistobedone?\"saidItohim。\"Shallthewomanmaketheadvances?\"

  \"Idonotknow。But,ifitisaquestionofequality,lettheequalitybecomplete。Thoughithasbeenfoundthattocontractmarriagesthroughtheagencyofmatch-makersishumiliating,itisneverthelessathousandtimespreferabletooursystem。Theretherightsandthechancesareequal;herethewomanisaslave,exhibitedinthemarket。Butasshecannotbendtohercondition,ormakeadvancesherself,therebeginsthatotherandmoreabominableliewhichissometimescalledGOINGINTOSOCIETY,sometimesAMUSINGONE’SSELF,andwhichisreallynothingbutthehuntforahusband。

  \"Butsaytoamotherortoherdaughterthattheyareengagedonlyinahuntforahusband。God!Whatanoffence!Yettheycandonothingelse,andhavenothingelsetodo;andtheterriblefeatureofitallistoseesometimesveryyoung,poor,andinnocentmaidenshauntedsolelybysuchideas。Ifonly,I

  repeat,itweredonefrankly;butitisalwaysaccompaniedwithliesandbabbleofthissort:——

  \"’Ah,thedescentofspecies!Howinterestingitis!’

  \"’Oh,Lilyismuchinterestedinpainting。’

  \"’ShallyougototheExposition?Howcharmingitis!’

  \"’Andthetroika,andtheplays,andthesymphony。Ah,howadorable!’

  \"’MyLiseispassionatelyfondofmusic。’

  \"’Andyou,whydoyounotsharetheseconvictions?’

  \"Andthroughallthisverbiage,allhavebutonesingleidea:

  ’Takeme,takemyLise。No,me!Onlytry!\"’

  CHAPTERIX。

  \"Doyouknow,\"suddenlycontinuedPosdnicheff,\"thatthispowerofwomenfromwhichtheworldsuffersarisessolelyfromwhatI

  havejustspokenof?\"

  \"Whatdoyoumeanbythepowerofwomen?\"Isaid。\"Everybody,onthecontrary,complainsthatwomenhavenotsufficientrights,thattheyareinsubjection。\"

  \"That’sit;that’sitexactly,\"saidhe,vivaciously。\"ThatisjustwhatImean,andthatistheexplanationofthisextraordinaryphenomenon,thatontheonehandwomanisreducedtothelowestdegreeofhumiliationandontheotherhandshereignsovereverything。SeetheJews:withtheirpowerofmoney,theyavengetheirsubjection,justasthewomendo。’Ah!youwishustobeonlymerchants?Allright;remainingmerchants,wewillgetpossessionofyou,’saytheJews。’Ah!youwishustobeonlyobjectsofsensuality?Allright;bytheaidofsensualitywewillbendyoubeneathouryoke,’saythewomen。

  \"Theabsenceoftherightsofwomandoesnotconsistinthefactthatshehasnottherighttovote,ortherighttositonthebench,butinthefactthatinheraffectionalrelationssheisnottheequalofman,shehasnottherighttoabstain,tochooseinsteadofbeingchosen。Yousaythatthatwouldbeabnormal。

  Verywell!Butthendonotletmanenjoytheserights,whilehiscompanionisdeprivedofthem,andfindsherselfobligedtomakeuseofthecoquetrybywhichshegoverns,sothattheresultisthatmanchooses’formally,’whereasreallyitiswomanwhochooses。Assoonassheisinpossessionofhermeans,sheabusesthem,andacquiresaterriblesupremacy。\"

  \"Butwheredoyouseethisexceptionalpower?\"

  \"Where?Why,everywhere,ineverything。Goseethestoresinthelargecities。Therearemillionsthere,millions。Itisimpossibletoestimatetheenormousquantityoflaborthatisexpendedthere。Innine-tenthsofthesestoresisthereanythingwhateverfortheuseofmen?Alltheluxuryoflifeisdemandedandsustainedbywoman。Countthefactories;thegreaterpartofthemareengagedinmakingfeminineornaments。Millionsofmen,generationsofslaves,dietoilinglikeconvictssimplytosatisfythewhimsofourcompanions。

  \"Women,likequeens,keepnine-tenthsofthehumanraceasprisonersofwar,orasprisonersathardlabor。Andallthisbecausetheyhavebeenhumiliated,becausetheyhavebeendeprivedofrightsequaltothosewhichmenenjoy。Theytakerevengeforoursensuality;theycatchusintheirnets。

  \"Yes,thewholethingisthere。Womenhavemadeofthemselvessuchaweapontoactuponthesensesthatayoungman,andevenanoldman,cannotremaintranquilintheirpresence。Watchapopularfestival,orourreceptionsorball-rooms。Womanwellknowsherinfluencethere。Youwillseeitinhertriumphantsmiles。

  \"Assoonasayoungmanadvancestowardawoman,directlyhefallsundertheinfluenceofthisopium,andloseshishead。

  LongagoIfeltillateasewhenIsawawomantoowelladorned,——whetherawomanofthepeoplewithherredneckerchiefandherloopedskirt,orawomanofourownsocietyinherball-roomdress。Butnowitsimplyterrifiesme。Iseeinitadangertomen,somethingcontrarytothelaws;andIfeeladesiretocallapoliceman,toappealfordefencefromsomequarter,todemandthatthisdangerousobjectberemoved。

  \"Andthisisnotajoke,byanymeans。Iamconvinced,Iamsure,thatthetimewillcome——andperhapsitisnotfardistant——whentheworldwillunderstandthis,andwillbeastonishedthatasocietycouldexistinwhichactionsasharmfulasthosewhichappealtosensualitybyadorningthebodyasourcompanionsdowereallowed。Aswellsettrapsalongourpublicstreets,orworsethanthat。

  CHAPTERX。

  \"That,then,wasthewayinwhichIwascaptured。Iwasinlove,asitiscalled;notonlydidsheappeartomeaperfectbeing,butIconsideredmyselfawhiteblackbird。Itisacommonplacefactthatthereisnoonesolowintheworldthathecannotfindsomeonevilerthanhimself,andconsequentlypuffwithprideandself-contentment。Iwasinthatsituation。Ididnotmarryformoney。Interestwasforeigntotheaffair,unlikethemarriagesofmostofmyacquaintances,whomarriedeitherformoneyorforrelations。First,Iwasrich,shewaspoor。

  Second,Iwasespeciallyproudofthefactthat,whileothersmarriedwithanintentionofcontinuingtheirpolygamiclifeasbachelors,itwasmyfirmintentiontolivemonogamicallyaftermyengagementandthewedding,andmyprideswelledimmeasurably。

  \"Yes,Iwasawretch,convincedthatIwasanangel。Theperiodofmyengagementdidnotlastlong。Icannotrememberthosedayswithoutshame。Whatanabomination!

  \"Itisgenerallyagreedthatloveisamoralsentiment,acommunityofthoughtratherthanofsense。Ifthatisthecase,thiscommunityofthoughtoughttofindexpressioninwordsandconversation。Nothingofthesort。Itwasextremelydifficultforustotalkwitheachother。WhatatoilofSisyphuswasourconversation!Scarcelyhadwethoughtofsomethingtosay,andsaidit,whenwehadtor俿um?oursilenceandtrytodiscovernewsubjects。Literally,wedidnotknowwhattosaytoeachother。Allthatwecouldthinkofconcerningthelifethatwasbeforeusandourhomewassaid。

  \"Andthenwhat?Ifwehadbeenanimals,weshouldhaveknownthatwehadnottotalk。Buthere,onthecontrary,itwasnecessarytotalk,andtherewerenoresources!Forthatwhichoccupiedourmindswasnotathingtobeexpressedinwords。

  \"Andthenthatsillycustomofeatingbon-bons,thatbrutalgluttonyforsweetmeats,thoseabominablepreparationsforthewedding,thosediscussionswithmammaupontheapartments,uponthesleeping-rooms,uponthebedding,uponthemorning-gowns,uponthewrappers,thelinen,thecostumes!Understandthatifpeoplemarriedaccordingtotheoldfashion,asthisoldmansaidjustnow,thentheseeiderdowncoverletsandthisbeddingwouldallbesacreddetails;butwithus,outoftenmarriedpeoplethereisscarcelytobefoundonewho,Idonotsaybelievesinsacraments(whetherhebelievesornotisamatterofindifferencetous),butbelievesinwhathepromises。Outofahundredmen,thereisscarcelyonewhohasnotmarriedbefore,andoutoffiftyscarcelyonewhohasnotmadeuphismindtodeceivehiswife。

  \"Thegreatmajoritylookuponthisjourneytothechurchasaconditionnecessarytothepossessionofacertainwoman。Thinkthenofthesupremesignificancewhichmaterialdetailsmusttakeon。Isitnotasortofsale,inwhichamaidenisgivenovertoadebauche,thesalebeingsurroundedwiththemostagreeabledetails?

  CHAPTERXI。

  \"Allmarryinthisway。AndIdidliketherest。Iftheyoungpeoplewhodreamofthehoneymoononlyknewwhatadisillusionitis,andalwaysadisillusion!Ireallydonotknowwhyallthinkitnecessarytoconcealit。

  \"OnedayIwaswalkingamongtheshowsinParis,when,attractedbyasign,Ienteredanestablishmenttoseeabeardedwomanandawater-dog。Thewomanwasamanindisguise,andthedogwasanordinarydog,coveredwithasealskin,andswimminginabath。

  Itwasnotintheleastinteresting,buttheBarnumaccompaniedmetotheexitverycourteously,and,inaddressingthepeoplewhowerecomingin,madeanappealtomytestimony。’Askthegentlemanifitisnotworthseeing!Comein,comein!Itonlycostsafranc!’AndinmyconfusionIdidnotdaretoanswerthattherewasnothingcurioustobeseen,anditwasuponmyfalseshamethattheBarnummusthavecounted。

  \"Itmustbethesamewiththepersonswhohavepassedthroughtheabominationsofthehoneymoon。Theydonotdaretoundeceivetheirneighbor。AndIdidthesame。

  \"Thefelicitiesofthehoneymoondonotexist。Onthecontrary,itisaperiodofuneasiness,ofshame,ofpity,and,aboveall,ofennui,——offerociousennui。Itissomethinglikethefeelingofayouthwhenheisbeginningtosmoke。Hedesirestovomit;hedrivels,andswallowshisdrivel,pretendingtoenjoythislittleamusement。Theviceofmarriage\"……

  \"What!Vice?\"Isaid。\"Butyouaretalkingofoneofthemostnaturalthings。\"

  \"Natural!\"saidhe。\"Natural!No,Iconsideronthecontrarythatitisagainstnature,anditisI,apervertedman,whohavereachedthisconviction。Whatwoulditbe,then,ifIhadnotknowncorruption?Toayounggirl,toeveryunpervertedyounggirl,itisanactextremelyunnatural,justasitistochildren。Mysistermarried,whenveryyoung,amantwiceherownage,andwhowasutterlycorrupt。Irememberhowastonishedwewerethenightofherwedding,when,paleandcoveredwithtears,shefledfromherhusband,herwholebodytrembling,sayingthatfornothingintheworldwouldshetellwhathewantedofher。

  \"Yousaynatural?Itisnaturaltoeat;thatisapleasant,agreeablefunction,whichnooneisashamedtoperformfromthetimeofhisbirth。No,itisnotnatural。Apureyounggirlwantsonething,——children。Children,yes,notalover。\"……

  \"But,\"saidI,withastonishment,\"howwouldthehumanracecontinue?\"

  \"Butwhatistheuseofitscontinuing?\"herejoined,vehemently。

  \"What!Whatistheuse?Butthenweshouldnotexist。\"

  \"Andwhyisitnecessarythatweshouldexist?\"

  \"Why,tolive,tobesure。\"

  \"Andwhylive?TheSchopenhauers,theHartmanns,andalltheBuddhists,saythatthegreatesthappinessisNirvana,Non-Life;

  andtheyarerightinthissense,——thathumanhappinessiscoincidentwiththeannihilationof’Self。’Onlytheydonotexpressthemselveswell。TheysaythatHumanityshouldannihilateitselftoavoiditssufferings,thatitsobjectshouldbetodestroyitself。NowtheobjectofHumanitycannotbetoavoidsufferingsbyannihilation,sincesufferingistheresultofactivity。Theobjectofactivitycannotconsistinsuppressingitsconsequences。TheobjectofMan,asofHumanity,ishappiness,and,toattainit,Humanityhasalawwhichitmustcarryout。Thislawconsistsintheunionofbeings。Thisunionisthwartedbythepassions。Andthatiswhy,ifthepassionsdisappear,theunionwillbeaccomplished。Humanitythenwillhavecarriedoutthelaw,andwillhavenofurtherreasontoexist。\"

  \"AndbeforeHumanitycarriesoutthelaw?\"

  \"Inthemeantimeitwillhavethesignoftheunfulfilledlaw,andtheexistenceofphysicallove。Aslongasthisloveshallexist,andbecauseofit,generationswillbeborn,oneofwhichwillfinallyfulfilthelaw。Whenatlastthelawshallbefulfilled,theHumanRacewillbeannihilated。AtleastitisimpossibleforustoconceiveofLifeintheperfectunionofpeople。\"

  CHAPTERXII。

  \"Strangetheory!\"criedI。

  \"Strangeinwhat?AccordingtoallthedoctrinesoftheChurch,theworldwillhaveanend。Scienceteachesthesamefatalconclusions。Why,then,isitstrangethatthesamethingshouldresultfrommoralDoctrine?’Letthosewhocan,contain,’saidChrist。AndItakethispassageliterally,asitiswritten。

  Thatmoralitymayexistbetweenpeopleintheirworldlyrelations,theymustmakecompletechastitytheirobject。Intendingtowardthisend,manhumiliateshimself。Whenheshallreachthelastdegreeofhumiliation,weshallhavemoralmarriage。

  \"Butifman,asinoursociety,tendsonlytowardphysicallove,thoughhemayclotheitwithpretextsandthefalseformsofmarriage,hewillhaveonlypermissibledebauchery,hewillknowonlythesameimmorallifeinwhichIfellandcausedmywifetofall,alifewhichwecallthehonestlifeofthefamily。Thinkwhataperversionofideasmustarisewhenthehappiestsituationofman,liberty,chastity,islookeduponassomethingwretchedandridiculous。Thehighestideal,thebestsituationofwoman,tobepure,tobeavestal,avirgin,excitesfearandlaughterinoursociety。Howmany,howmanyyounggirlssacrificetheirpuritytothisMolochofopinionbymarryingrascalsthattheymaynotremainvirgins,——thatis,superiors!Throughfearoffindingthemselvesinthatidealstate,theyruinthemselves。

  \"ButIdidnotunderstandformerly,IdidnotunderstandthatthewordsoftheGospel,that’hewholooksuponawomantolustafterherhasalreadycommittedadultery,’donotapplytothewivesofothers,butnotablyandespeciallytoourownwives。I

  didnotunderstandthis,andIthoughtthatthehoneymoonandallofmyactsduringthatperiodwerevirtuous,andthattosatisfyone’sdesireswithhiswifeisaneminentlychastething。Know,then,thatIconsiderthesedepartures,theseisolations,whichyoungmarriedcouplesarrangewiththepermissionoftheirparents,asnothingelsethanalicensetoengageindebauchery。

  \"Isaw,then,inthisnothingbadorshameful,and,hopingforgreatjoys,Ibegantolivethehoneymoon。Andverycertainlynoneofthesejoysfollowed。ButIhadfaith,andwasdeterminedtohavethem,costwhattheymight。ButthemoreItriedtosecurethem,thelessIsucceeded。AllthistimeIfeltanxious,ashamed,andweary。SoonIbegantosuffer。IbelievethatonthethirdorfourthdayIfoundmywifesadandaskedherthereason。Ibegantoembraceher,whichinmyopinionwasallthatshecoulddesire。Sheputmeawaywithherhand,andbegantoweep。

  \"Atwhat?Shecouldnottellme。Shewasfilledwithsorrow,withanguish。Probablyhertorturednerveshadsuggestedtoherthetruthaboutthebasenessofourrelations,butshefoundnowordsinwhichtosayit。Ibegantoquestionher;sheansweredthatshemissedherabsentmother。Itseemedtomethatshewasnottellingthetruth。Isoughttoconsoleherbymaintainingsilenceinregardtoherparents。Ididnotimaginethatshefeltherselfsimplyoverwhelmed,andthatherparentshadnothingtodowithhersorrow。Shedidnotlistentome,andIaccusedherofcaprice。Ibegantolaughathergently。Shedriedhertears,andbegantoreproachme,inhardandwoundingterms,formyselfishnessandcruelty。

  \"Ilookedather。Herwholefaceexpressedhatred,andhatredofme。Icannotdescribetoyouthefrightwhichthissightgaveme。’How?What?’thoughtI,’loveistheunityofsouls,andhereshehatesme?Me?Why?Butitisimpossible!Itisnolongershe!’

  \"Itriedtocalmher。Icameinconflictwithanimmovableandcoldhostility,sothat,havingnotimetoreflect,Iwasseizedwithkeenirritation。Weexchangeddisagreeableremarks。Theimpressionofthisfirstquarrelwasterrible。Isayquarrel,butthetermisinexact。Itwasthesuddendiscoveryoftheabyssthathadbeendugbetweenus。Lovewasexhaustedwiththesatisfactionofsensuality。Westoodfacetofaceinourtruelight,liketwoegoiststryingtoprocurethegreatestpossibleenjoyment,liketwoindividualstryingtomutuallyexploiteachother。

  \"SowhatIcalledourquarrelwasouractualsituationasitappearedafterthesatisfactionofsensualdesire。Ididnotrealizethatthiscoldhostilitywasournormalstate,andthatthisfirstquarrelwouldsoonbedrownedunderanewfloodoftheintensestsensuality。Ithoughtthatwehaddisputedwitheachother,andhadbecomereconciled,andthatitwouldnothappenagain。Butinthissamehoneymoontherecameaperiodofsatiety,inwhichweceasedtobenecessarytoeachother,andanewquarrelbrokeout。

  \"Itbecameevidentthatthefirstwasnotamatterofchance。

  ’Itwasinevitable,’Ithought。Thissecondquarrelstupefiedmethemore,becauseitwasbasedonanextremelyunjustcause。Itwassomethinglikeaquestionofmoney,——andneverhadIhaggledonthatscore;itwasevenimpossiblethatIshoulddosoinrelationtoher。Ionlyrememberthat,inanswertosomeremarkthatImade,sheinsinuatedthatitwasmyintentiontoruleherbymeansofmoney,andthatitwasuponmoneythatIbasedmysolerightoverher。Inshort,somethingextraordinarilystupidandbase,whichwasneitherinmycharacternorinhers。

  \"Iwasbesidemyself。Iaccusedherofindelicacy。Shemadethesameaccusationagainstme,andthedisputebrokeout。Inherwords,intheexpressionofherface,ofhereyes,Inoticedagainthehatredthathadsoastonishedmebefore。Withabrother,friends,myfather,Ihadoccasionallyquarrelled,butneverhadtherebeenbetweenusthisfiercespite。Sometimepassed。Ourmutualhatredwasagainconcealedbeneathanaccessofsensualdesire,andIagainconsoledmyselfwiththereflectionthatthesesceneswerereparablefaults。

  \"Butwhentheywererepeatedathirdandafourthtime,I

  understoodthattheywerenotsimplyfaults,butafatalitythatmusthappenagain。Iwasnolongerfrightened,IwassimplyastonishedthatIshouldbepreciselytheonetolivesouncomfortablywithmywife,andthatthesamethingdidnothappeninotherhouseholds。Ididnotknowthatinallhouseholdsthesamesuddenchangestakeplace,butthatall,likemyself,imaginethatitisamisfortuneexclusivelyreservedforthemselvesalone,whichtheycarefullyconcealasshameful,notonlytoothers,buttothemselves,likeabaddisease。

  \"Thatwaswhathappenedtome。Begunintheearlydays,itcontinuedandincreasedwithcharacteristicsoffurythatwereevermorepronounced。Atthebottomofmysoul,fromthefirstweeks,IfeltthatIwasinatrap,thatIhadwhatIdidnotexpect,andthatmarriageisnotajoy,butapainfultrial。

  Likeeverybodyelse,Irefusedtoconfessit(Ishouldnothaveconfesseditevennowbutfortheoutcome)。NowIamastonishedtothinkthatIdidnotseemyrealsituation。Itwassoeasytoperceiveit,inviewofthosequarrels,begunforreasonssotrivialthatafterwardsonecouldnotrecallthem。

  \"Justasitoftenhappensamonggayyoungpeoplethat,intheabsenceofjokes,theylaughattheirownlaughter,sowefoundnoreasonsforourhatred,andwehatedeachotherbecausehatredwasnaturallyboilingupinus。Moreextraordinarystillwastheabsenceofcausesforreconciliation。

  \"Sometimeswords,explanations,oreventears,butsometimes,I

  remember,afterinsultingwords,theretacitlyfollowedembracesanddeclarations。Abomination!WhyisitthatIdidnotthenperceivethisbaseness?

  CHAPTERXIII。

  \"Allofus,menandwomen,arebroughtupintheseaberrationsoffeelingthatwecalllove。Ifromchildhoodhadpreparedmyselfforthisthing,andIloved,andIlovedduringallmyyouth,andIwasjoyousinloving。Ithadbeenputintomyheadthatitwasthenoblestandhighestoccupationintheworld。Butwhenthisexpectedfeelingcameatlast,andI,aman,abandonedmyselftoit,theliewaspiercedthroughandthrough。

  Theoreticallyaloftyloveisconceivable;practicallyitisanignobleanddegradingthing,whichitisequallydisgustingtotalkaboutandtoremember。Itisnotinvainthatnaturehasmadeceremonies,butpeoplepretendthattheignobleandtheshamefulisbeautifulandlofty。

  \"Iwilltellyoubrutallyandbrieflywhatwerethefirstsignsofmylove。Iabandonedmyselftobeastlyexcesses,notonlynotashamedofthem,butproudofthem,givingnothoughttotheintellectuallifeofmywife。AndnotonlydidInotthinkofherintellectuallife,Ididnotevenconsiderherphysicallife。

  Iwasastonishedattheoriginofourhostility,andyethowclearitwas!Thishostilityisnothingbutaprotestofhumannatureagainstthebeastthatenslavesit。Itcouldnotbeotherwise。Thishatredwasthehatredofaccomplicesinacrime。

  Wasitnotacrimethat,thispoorwomanhavingbecomepregnantinthefirstmonth,ourliaisonshouldhavecontinuedjustthesame?

  \"YouimaginethatIamwanderingfrommystory。Notatall。I

  amalwaysgivingyouanaccountoftheeventsthatledtothemurderofmywife。Theimbeciles!TheythinkthatIkilledmywifeonthe5thofOctober。ItwaslongbeforethatthatI

  immolatedher,justastheyallkillnow。Understandwellthatinoursocietythereisanideasharedbyallthatwomanprocuresmanpleasure(andviceversa,probably,butIknownothingofthat,Ionlyknowmyowncase)。Wein,WeiberundGesang。Sosaythepoetsintheirverses:Wine,women,andsong!

  \"Ifitwereonlythat!Takeallthepoetry,thepainting,thesculpture,beginningwithPouschkine’s’LittleFeet,’with’VenusandPhryne,’andyouwillseethatwomanisonlyameansofenjoyment。ThatiswhatsheisatTrouba,*atGratchevka,andinacourtball-room。Andthinkofthisdiabolicaltrick:ifshewereathingwithoutmoralvalue,itmightbesaidthatwomanisafinemorsel;but,inthefirstplace,theseknightsassureusthattheyadorewoman(theyadoreherandlookuponher,however,asameansofenjoyment),thenallassureusthattheyesteemwoman。Somegiveuptheirseatstoher,pickupherhandkerchief;othersrecognizeinherarighttofillalloffices,participateingovernment,etc。,but,inspiteofallthat,theessentialpointremainsthesame。Sheis,sheremains,anobjectofsensualdesire,andsheknowsit。Itisslavery,forslaveryisnothingelsethantheutilizationofthelaborofsomefortheenjoymentofothers。Thatslaverymaynotexistpeoplemustrefusetoenjoythelaborofothers,andlookuponitasashamefulactandasasin。

  *AsuburbofMoscow。

  \"Actually,thisiswhathappens。Theyabolishtheexternalform,theysuppresstheformalsalesofslaves,andthentheyimagineandassureothersthatslaveryisabolished。Theyareunwillingtoseethatitstillexists,sincepeople,asbefore,liketoprofitbythelaborofothers,andthinkitgoodandjust。Thisbeinggiven,therewillalwaysbefoundbeingsstrongerormorecunningthanotherstoprofitthereby。Thesamethinghappensintheemancipationofwoman。Atbottomfeminineservitudeconsistsentirelyinherassimilationwithameansofpleasure。Theyexcitewoman,theygiveherallsortsofrightsequaltothoseofmen,buttheycontinuetolookuponherasanobjectofsensualdesire,andthustheybringherupfrominfancyandinpublicopinion。

  \"Sheisalwaysthehumiliatedandcorruptserf,andmanremainsalwaysthedebauchedMaster。Yes,toabolishslavery,publicopinionmustadmitthatitisshamefultoexploitone’sneighbor,and,tomakewomanfree,publicopinionmustadmitthatitisshamefultoconsiderwomanasaninstrumentofpleasure。

  \"Theemancipationofwomanisnottobeeffectedinthepubliccourtsorinthechamberofdeputies,butinthesleepingchamber。Prostitutionistobecombated,notinthehousesofill-fame,butinthefamily。Theyfreewomaninthepubliccourtsandinthechamberofdeputies,butsheremainsaninstrument。Teachher,assheistaughtamongus,tolookuponherselfassuch,andshewillalwaysremainaninferiorbeing。

  Either,withtheaidoftherascallydoctors,shewilltrytopreventconception,anddescend,nottothelevelofananimal,buttothelevelofathing;orshewillbewhatsheisinthegreatmajorityofcases,——sick,hysterical,wretched,withouthopeofspiritualprogress。\"……

  \"Butwhythat?\"Iasked。

  \"Oh!themostastonishingthingisthatnooneiswillingtoseethisthing,evidentasitis,whichthedoctorsmustunderstand,butwhichtheytakegoodcarenottodo。Mandoesnotwishtoknowthelawofnature,——children。Butchildrenarebornandbecomeanembarrassment。Thenmandevisesmeansofavoidingthisembarrassment。WehavenotyetreachedthelowlevelofEurope,norParis,northe’systemoftwochildren,’norMahomet。Wehavediscoverednothing,becausewehavegivenitnothought。Wefeelthatthereissomethingbadinthetwofirstmeans;butwewishtopreservethefamily,andourviewofwomanisstillworse。

  \"Withuswomanmustbeatthesametimemistressandnurse,andherstrengthisnotsufficient。Thatiswhywehavehysteria,nervousattacks,and,amongthepeasants,witchcraft。Notethatamongtheyounggirlsofthepeasantrythisstateofthingsdoesnotexist,butonlyamongthewives,andthewiveswholivewiththeirhusbands。Thereasonisclear,andthisisthecauseoftheintellectualandmoraldeclineofwoman,andofherabasement。

  \"Iftheywouldonlyreflectwhatagrandworkforthewifeistheperiodofgestation!Inherisformingthebeingwhocontinuesus,andthisholyworkisthwartedandrenderedpainful……bywhat?Itisfrightfultothinkofit!Andafterthattheytalkofthelibertiesandtherightsofwoman!Itislikethecannibalsfatteningtheirprisonersinordertodevourthem,andassuringtheseunfortunatesatthesametimethattheirrightsandtheirlibertiesareguarded!\"

  Allthiswasnewtome,andastonishedmeverymuch。

  \"Butifthisisso,\"saidI,\"itfollowsthatonemaylovehiswifeonlyonceeverytwoyears;andasman\"……

  \"Andasmanhasneedofher,youaregoingtosay。Atleast,sothepriestsofscienceassureus。Iwouldforcetheseprieststofulfilthefunctionofthesewomen,who,intheiropinion,arenecessarytoman。Iwonderwhatsongtheywouldsingthen。

  Assuremanthatheneedsbrandy,tobacco,opium,andhewillbelievethosepoisonsnecessary。ItfollowsthatGoddidnotknowhowtoarrangemattersproperly,since,withoutaskingtheopinionsofthepriests,hehascombinedthingsastheyare。Manneeds,sotheyhavedecided,tosatisfyhissensualdesire,andherethisfunctionisdisturbedbythebirthandthenursingofchildren。

  \"What,then,istobedone?Why,applytothepriests;theywillarrangeeverything,andtheyhavereallydiscoveredaway。When,then,willtheserascalswiththeirliesbeuncrowned!Itishightime。Wehavehadenoughofthem。Peoplegomad,andshooteachotherwithrevolvers,andalwaysbecauseofthat!Andhowcoulditbeotherwise?

  \"Onewouldsaythattheanimalsknowthatdescentcontinuestheirrace,andthattheyfollowacertainlawinregardthereto。Onlymandoesnotknowthis,andisunwillingtoknowit。Hecaresonlytohaveasmuchsensualenjoymentaspossible。Thekingofnature,——man!Inthenameofhislovehekillshalfthehumanrace。Ofwoman,whooughttobehisaidinthemovementofhumanitytowardliberty,hemakes,inthenameofhispleasures,notanaid,butanenemy。Whoisitthateverywhereputsacheckupontheprogressivemovementofhumanity?Woman。Whyisitso?

  ForthereasonthatIhavegiven,andforthatreasononly。

  CHAPTERXIV。

  \"Yes,muchworsethantheanimalismanwhenhedoesnotliveasaman。ThuswasI。ThehorriblepartisthatIbelieved,inasmuchasIdidnotallowmyselftobeseducedbyotherwomenthatIwasleadinganhonestfamilylife,thatIwasaverymortalbeing,andthatifwehadquarrels,thefaultwasinmywife,andinhercharacter。

  \"Butitisevidentthatthefaultwasnotinher。Shewaslikeeverybodyelse,likethemajority。Shewasbroughtupaccordingtotheprinciplesexactedbythesituationofoursociety,——thatis,asalltheyounggirlsofourwealthyclasses,withoutexception,arebroughtup,andastheycannotfailtobebroughtup。Howmanytimeswehearorreadofreflectionsupontheabnormalconditionofwomen,anduponwhattheyoughttobe。Buttheseareonlyvainwords。Theeducationofwomenresultsfromtherealandnotimaginaryviewwhichtheworldentertainsofwomen’svocation。Accordingtothisview,theconditionofwomenconsistsinprocuringpleasureanditistothatendthathereducationisdirected。Fromherinfancysheistaughtonlythosethingsthatarecalculatedtoincreasehercharm。Everyyounggirlisaccustomedtothinkonlyofthat。

  \"Astheserfswerebroughtupsolelytopleasetheirmasters,sowomanisbroughtuptoattractmen。Itcannotbeotherwise。Butyouwillsay,perhaps,thatthatappliesonlytoyounggirlswhoarebadlybroughtup,butthatthereisanothereducation,aneducationthatisserious,intheschools,aneducationinthedeadlanguages,aneducationintheinstitutionsofmidwifery,aneducationinmedicalcourses,andinothercourses。Itisfalse。

  \"Everysortoffeminineeducationhasforitssoleobjecttheattractionofmen。

  \"Someattractbymusicorcurlyhair,othersbyscienceorbycivicvirtue。Theobjectisthesame,andcannotbeotherwise(sincenootherobjectexists),——toseducemaninordertopossesshim。Imaginecoursesofinstructionforwomenandfemininesciencewithoutmen,——thatis,learnedwomen,andmennotKNOWINGthemaslearned。Oh,no!Noeducation,noinstructioncanchangewomanaslongasherhighestidealshallbemarriageandnotvirginity,freedomfromsensuality。Untilthattimeshewillremainaserf。Oneneedonlyimagine,forgettingtheuniversalityofthecase,theconditionsinwhichouryounggirlsarebroughtup,toavoidastonishmentatthedebaucheryofthewomenofourupperclasses。Itistheoppositethatwouldcauseastonishment。

  \"Followmyreasoning。Frominfancygarments,ornaments,cleanliness,grace,dances,music,readingofpoetry,novels,singing,thetheatre,theconcert,forusewithinandwithout,accordingaswomenlisten,orpracticethemselves。Withthat,completephysicalidleness,anexcessivecareofthebody,avastconsumptionofsweetmeats;andGodknowshowthepoormaidenssufferfromtheirownsensuality,excitedbyallthesethings。

  Nineoutoftenaretorturedintolerablyduringthefirstperiodofmaturity,andafterwardprovidedtheydonotmarryattheageoftwenty。Thatiswhatweareunwillingtosee,butthosewhohaveeyesseeitallthesame。Andeventhemajorityoftheseunfortunatecreaturesaresoexcitedbyahiddensensuality(anditisluckyifitishidden)thattheyarefitfornothing。Theybecomeanimatedonlyinthepresenceofmen。Theirwholelifeisspentinpreparationsforcoquetry,orincoquetryitself。Inthepresenceofmentheybecometooanimated;theybegintolivebysensualenergy。Butthemomentthemangoesaway,thelifestops。

  \"Andthat,notinthepresenceofacertainman,butinthepresenceofanyman,providedheisnotutterlyhideous。Youwillsaythatthisisanexception。No,itisarule。Onlyinsomeitismadeveryevident,inotherlessso。Butnoonelivesbyherownlife;theyarealldependentuponman。Theycannotbeotherwise,sincetothemtheattractionofthegreatestnumberofmenistheidealoflife(younggirlsandmarriedwomen),anditisforthisreasonthattheyhavenofeelingstrongerthanthatoftheanimalneedofeveryfemalewhotriestoattractthelargestnumberofmalesinordertoincreasetheopportunitiesforchoice。Soitisinthelifeofyounggirls,andsoitcontinuesduringmarriage。Inthelifeofyounggirlsitisnecessaryinordertoselection,andinmarriageitisnecessaryinordertorulethehusband。Onlyonethingsuppressesorinterruptsthesetendenciesforatime,——namely,children,——andthenonlywhenthewomanisnotamonster,——thatis,whenshenursesherownchildren。Hereagainthedoctorinterferes。

  \"Withmywife,whodesiredtonurseherownchildren,andwhodidnursesixofthem,ithappenedthatthefirstchildwassickly。

  Thedoctors,whocynicallyundressedherandfeltofhereverywhere,andwhomIhadtothankandpayfortheseacts,——thesedeardoctorsdecidedthatsheoughtnottonurseherchild,andshewastemporarilydeprivedoftheonlyremedyforcoquetry。Anursefinishedthenursingofthisfirst-born,——thatistosay,weprofitedbythepovertyandignoranceofawomantostealherfromherownlittleoneinfavorofours,andforthatpurposewedressedherinakakoschniktrimmedwithgoldlace。

  Nevertheless,thatisnotthequestion;buttherewasagainawakenedinmywifethatcoquetrywhichhadbeensleepingduringthenursingperiod。Thankstothat,shereawakenedinmethetormentsofjealousywhichIhadformerlyknown,thoughinamuchslighterdegree。

  CHAPTERXV。

  \"Yes,jealousy,thatisanotherofthesecretsofmarriageknowntoallandconcealedbyall。Besidesthegeneralcauseofthemutualhatredofhusbandsandwivesresultingfromcomplicityinthepollutionofahumanbeing,andalsofromothercauses,theinexhaustiblesourceofmaritalwoundsisjealousy。Butbytacitconsentitisdeterminedtoconcealthemfromall,andweconcealthem。Knowingthem,eachonesupposesinhimselfthatitisanunfortunatepeculiarity,andnotacommondestiny。Soitwaswithme,andithadtobeso。Therecannotfailtobejealousybetweenhusbandsandwiveswholiveimmorally。Iftheycannotsacrificetheirpleasuresforthewelfareoftheirchild,theyconcludetherefrom,andtruly,thattheywillnotsacrificetheirpleasuresfor,Iwillnotsayhappinessandtranquillity(sinceonemaysininsecret),butevenforthesakeofconscience。Eachoneknowsverywellthatneitheradmitsanyhighmoralreasonsfornotbetrayingtheother,sinceintheirmutualrelationstheyfailintherequirementsofmorality,andfromthattimedistrustandwatcheachother。

  \"Oh,whatafrightfulfeelingofjealousy!Idonotspeakofthatrealjealousywhichhasfoundations(itistormenting,butitpromisesanissue),butofthatunconsciousjealousywhichinevitablyaccompanieseveryimmoralmarriage,andwhich,havingnocause,hasnoend。Thisjealousyisfrightful。Frightful,thatistheword。

  \"Andthisisit。Ayoungmanspeakstomywife。Helooksatherwithasmile,and,asitseemstome,hesurveysherbody。Howdoeshedaretothinkofher,tothinkofthepossibilityofaromancewithher?Andhowcanshe,seeingthis,toleratehim?

  Notonlydoesshetoleratehim,butsheseemspleased。Ievenseethatsheputsherselftotroubleonhisaccount。Andinmysoulthererisessuchahatredforherthateachofherwords,eachgesture,disgustsme。Shenoticesit,sheknowsnotwhattodo,andhowassumeanairofindifferentanimation?Ah!I

  suffer!Thatmakeshergay,sheiscontent。Andmyhatredincreasestenfold,butIdonotdaretogiveitfreeforce,becauseatthebottomofmysoulIknowthattherearenorealreasonsforit,andIremaininmyseat,feigningindifference,andexaggeratingmyattentionandcourtesytoHIM。

  \"ThenIgetangrywithmyself。Idesiretoleavetheroom,toleavethemalone,andIdo,infact,goout;butscarcelyamI

  outsidewhenIaminvadedbyafearofwhatistakingplacewithinmyabsence。Igoinagain,inventingsomepretext。OrsometimesIdonotgoin;Iremainnearthedoor,andlisten。

  Howcanshehumiliateherselfandhumiliatemebyplacingmeinthiscowardlysituationofsuspicionandespionage?Oh,abomination!Oh,thewickedanimal!Andhetoo,whatdoeshethinkofyou?Butheislikeallmen。HeiswhatIwasbeforemymarriage。Itgiveshimpleasure。Heevensmileswhenhelooksatme,asmuchastosay:’Whathaveyoutodowiththis?

  Itismyturnnow。’

  \"Thisfeelingishorrible。Itsburnisunendurable。Toentertainthisfeelingtowardanyone,tooncesuspectamanoflustingaftermywife,wasenoughtospoilthismanforeverinmyeyes,asifhehadbeensprinkledwithvitriol。Letmeoncebecomejealousofabeing,andnevermorecouldIre-establishwithhimsimplehumanrelations,andmyeyesflashedwhenI

  lookedathim。

  \"Asformywife,somanytimeshadIenvelopedherwiththismoralvitriol,withthisjealoushatred,thatshewasdegradedthereby。IntheperiodsofthiscauselesshatredIgraduallyuncrownedher。Icoveredherwithshameinmyimagination。

  \"Iinventedimpossibleknaveries。Isuspected,Iamashamedtosay,thatshe,thisqueenof’TheThousandandOneNights,’

  deceivedmewithmyserf,undermyveryeyes,andlaughingatme。

  Thus,witheachnewaccessofjealousy(Ispeakalwaysofcauselessjealousy),Ienteredintothefurrowdugformerlybymyfilthysuspicions,andIcontinuallydeepenedit。Shedidthesamething。IfIhavereasonstobejealous,shewhoknewmypasthadathousandtimesmore。Andshewasmoreill-naturedinherjealousythanI。AndthesufferingsthatIfeltfromherjealousyweredifferent,andlikewiseverypainful。

  \"Thesituationmaybedescribedthus。Wearelivingmoreorlesstranquilly。Iamevengayandcontented。Suddenlywestartaconversationonsomemostcommonplacesubject,anddirectlyshefindsherselfdisagreeingwithmeuponmattersconcerningwhichwehavebeengenerallyinaccord。AndfurthermoreIseethat,withoutanynecessitytherefor,sheisbecomingirritated。I

  thinkthatshehasanervousattack,orelsethatthesubjectofconversationisreallydisagreeabletoher。Wetalkofsomethingelse,andthatbeginsagain。Againshetormentsme,andbecomesirritated。Iamastonishedandlookforareason。Why?Forwhat?Shekeepssilence,answersmewithmonosyllables,evidentlymakingallusionstosomething。IbegintodivinethatthereasonofallthisisthatIhavetakenafewwalksinthegardenwithhercousin,towhomIdidnotgiveevenathought。I

  begintodivine,butIcannotsayso。IfIsayso,Iconfirmhersuspicions。Iinterrogateher,Iquestionher。Shedoesnotanswer,butsheseesthatIunderstand,andthatconfirmshersuspicions。

  \"’Whatisthematterwithyou?’Iask。

  \"’Nothing,Iamaswellasusual,’sheanswers。

  \"Andatthesametime,likeacrazywoman,shegivesutterancetothesilliestremarks,tothemostinexplicableexplosionsofspite。

  \"SometimesIampatient,butatothertimesIbreakoutwithanger。Thenherownirritationislaunchedforthinafloodofinsults,inchargesofimaginarycrimesandallcarriedtothehighestdegreebysobs,tears,andretreatsthroughthehousetothemostimprobablespots。Igotolookforher。Iamashamedbeforepeople,beforethechildren,butthereisnothingtobedone。SheisinaconditionwhereIfeelthatsheisreadyforanything。Irun,andfinallyfindher。Nightsoftorturefollow,inwhichbothofus,withexhaustednerves,appeaseeachother,afterthemostcruelwordsandaccusations。

  \"Yes,jealousy,causelessjealousy,istheconditionofourdebauchedconjugallife。AndthroughoutmymarriageneverdidI

  ceasetofeelitandtosufferfromit。ThereweretwoperiodsinwhichIsufferedmostintensely。Thefirsttimewasafterthebirthofourfirstchild,whenthedoctorshadforbiddenmywifetonurseit。Iwasparticularlyjealous,inthefirstplace,becausemywifefeltthatrestlessnesspeculiartoanimalmatterwhentheregularcourseoflifeisinterruptedwithoutoccasion。

  ButespeciallywasIjealousbecause,havingseenwithwhatfacilityshehadthrownoffhermoraldutiesasamother,I

  concludedrightly,thoughunconsciously,thatshewouldthrowoffaseasilyherconjugalduties,feelingallthesurerofthisbecauseshewasinperfecthealth,aswasshownbythefactthat,inspiteoftheprohibitionofthedeardoctors,shenursedherfollowingchildren,andevenverywell。\"

  \"Iseethatyouhavenoloveforthedoctors,\"saidI,havingnoticedPosdnicheff’sextraordinarilyspitefulexpressionoffaceandtoneofvoicewheneverhespokeofthem。

  \"Itisnotaquestionoflovingthemorofnotlovingthem。Theyhaveruinedmylife,astheyhaveruinedthelivesofthousandsofbeingsbeforeme,andIcannothelpconnectingtheconsequencewiththecause。Iconceivethattheydesire,likethelawyersandtherest,tomakemoney。Iwouldwillinglyhavegiventhemhalfofmyincome——andanyonewouldhavedoneitinmyplace,understandingwhattheydo——iftheyhadconsentednottomeddleinmyconjugallife,andtokeepthemselvesatadistance。I

  havecompilednostatistics,butIknowscoresofcases——inreality,theyareinnumerable——wheretheyhavekilled,nowachildinitsmother’swomb,assertingpositivelythatthemothercouldnotgivebirthtoit(whenthemothercouldgivebirthtoitverywell),nowmothers,underthepretextofaso-calledoperation。Noonehascountedthesemurders,justasnoonecountedthemurdersoftheInquisition,becauseitwassupposedthattheywerecommittedforthebenefitofhumanity。

  Innumerablearethecrimesofthedoctors!Butallthesecrimesarenothingcomparedwiththematerialisticdemoralizationwhichtheyintroduceintotheworldthroughwomen。Isaynothingofthefactthat,ifitweretofollowtheiradvice,——thankstothemicrobewhichtheyseeeverywhere,——humanity,insteadoftendingtounion,wouldproceedstraighttocompletedisunion。

  Everybody,accordingtotheirdoctrine,shouldisolatehimself,andneverremovefromhismouthasyringefilledwithphenicacid(moreover,theyhavefoundoutnowthatitdoesnogood)。ButI

  wouldpassoverallthesethings。Thesupremepoisonistheperversionofpeople,especiallyofwomen。Onecannolongersaynow:’Youlivebadly,livebetter。’Onecannolongersayiteithertohimselfortoothers,for,ifyoulivebadly(saythedoctors),thecauseisinthenervoussystemorinsomethingsimilar,anditisnecessarytogotoconsultthem,andtheywillprescribeforyouthirty-fivecopecks’worthofremediestobeboughtatthedrug-store,andyoumustswallowthem。Yourconditiongrowsworse?Againtothedoctors,andmoreremedies!

  Anexcellentbusiness!

  \"Buttoreturntooursubject。Iwassayingthatmywifenursedherchildrenwell,thatthenursingandthegestationofthechildren,andthechildreningeneral,quietedmytorturesofjealousy,butthat,ontheotherhand,theyprovokedtormentsofadifferentsort。

  CHAPTERXVI。

  \"Thechildrencamerapidly,oneafteranother,andtherehappenedwhathappensinoursocietywithchildrenanddoctors。

  Yes,children,maternallove,itisapainfulthing。Children,toawomanofoursociety,arenotajoy,apride,norafulfilmentofhervocation,butacauseoffear,anxiety,andinterminablesuffering,torture。Womensayit,theythinkit,andtheyfeelittoo。Childrentothemarereallyatorture,notbecausetheydonotwishtogivebirthtothem,nursethem,andcareforthem(womenwithastrongmaternalinstinct——andsuchwasmywife——arereadytodothat),butbecausethechildrenmayfallsickanddie。Theydonotwishtogivebirthtothem,andthennotlovethem;andwhentheylove,theydonotwishtofeelfearforthechild’shealthandlife。Thatiswhytheydonotwishtonursethem。’IfInurseit,’theysay,’Ishallbecometoofondofit。’Onewouldthinkthattheypreferredindia-rubberchildren,whichcouldneitherbesicknordie,andcouldalwaysberepaired。Whatanentanglementinthebrainsofthesepoorwomen!Whysuchabominationstoavoidpregnancy,andtoavoidtheloveofthelittleones?

  \"Love,themostjoyousconditionofthesoul,isrepresentedasadanger。Andwhy?Because,whenamandoesnotliveasaman,heisworsethanabeast。Awomancannotlookuponachildotherwisethanasapleasure。Itistruethatitispainfultogivebirthtoit,butwhatlittlehands!……Oh,thelittlehands!Oh,thelittlefeet!Oh,itssmile!Oh,itslittlebody!Oh,itsprattle!Oh,itshiccough!Inaword,itisafeelingofanimal,sensualmaternity。Butasforanyideaastothemysterioussignificanceoftheappearanceofanewhumanbeingtoreplaceus,thereisscarcelyasignofit。

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