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  Allherhelpfulnesswassoontobeneeded。Thedisease,whichhadlingeredmorethanusualintheearlystages,suddenlyapproachedacrisis。ThatnightMrs。MaynardgrewsomuchworsethatGracesentLibbyatdaybreakforDr。Mulbridge;andtheyoungman,afterleadingouthisownmaretoseeifherlamenesshadabated,ruefullyputherbackinthestable,andsetofftoCorbitantwiththesplay-footatarateofspeedunparalleled,probably,intheanimal’srecollectionofalongandusefullife。Inthetwoanxiousdaysthatfollowed,LibbyandGracewereassociatedinthefreedomofacommoninterestoutsideofthemselves;

  shewenttohimforhelpandsuggestion,andhegavethem,asifnothinghadpassedtorestrictorembarrasstheirrelations。Therewasthat,infact,intheaweofthetimeandaninvoluntarydisoccupationofhersthatthrewthemtogetherevenmoreconstantlythanbefore。Dr。Mulbridgeremainedwithhispatientwellintotheforenoon;intheafternoonhecameagain,andthatnighthedidnotgoaway。HesupersededGraceasanursenolesscompletelythanhehaddisplacedherasaphysician。Heletherrelievehimwhenheflunghimselfdownforafewminutes’sleep,orwhenhewentoutforthehugemealswhichhedevoured,preferringtheunwholesomethingswithadepravityshockingtothetenderphysicalconsciencesoftheladieswholookedon;butwhenhereturnedtohischarge,heshowedhimselfjealousofallthatGracehaddoneinvolvingtheexerciseofmorethanaservilediscretion。Whensheaskedhimonceiftherewerenothingelsethatshecoulddo,hesaid,\"fires,keepthosewomenandchildrenquiet,\"inatonethatclassedherwithboth。ShelongedtoaskhimwhathethoughtofMrs。Maynard’scondition;butshehadnotthecouragetoinvoketheintelligencethatignoredhersocompletely,andshestruggledinsilencewithsuchdishearteningauguriesashertheoreticalscienceenabledhertomake。

  ThenextdaywasaSunday,andtheSabbathhushwhichalwayshungoverJocelyn’swasintensifiedtothesenseofthosewhoachedbetweenhopeandfearforthelifethatseemedtowaverandflickerinthatstillair。

  Dr。Mulbridgewatchedbesidehispatient,notingeverychangewithawaryintelligencewhichnofactescapedandnoanxietyclouded;alert,gentle,prompt;sufferingnoquestion,andabsolutelysilentastoallimpressions。HeallowedGracetoremainwithhimwhensheliked,andletherdohisbiddinginminormatters;butwhenfromtimetotimesheescapedfromtheintolerabletensioninwhichhisreticenceandherownfearheldher,hedidnotseemtoseewhethershewentorcame。TowardnightfallshemethimcomingoutofMrs。Maynard’sroom,asshedrewnearinthenarrowcorridor。

  \"Whereisyourfriend——theyoungman——theonewhosmokes?\"heasked,asifnothingunusualhadoccupiedhim。\"Iwanthimtogivemeacigar。\"

  \"Dr。Mulbridge,\"shesaid,\"Iwillnotbearthisanylonger。Imustknowtheworst——youhavenorighttotreatmeinthisway。Tellmenow——tellmeinstantly:willshelive?\"

  Helookedatherwithanimaginableapprehensionofhysterics,butasshecontinuedfirm,andplacedherselfresolutelyinhisway,herelaxedhisscrutiny,andsaid,withasmile,\"Oh,Ithinkso。Whatmadeyouthinkshewouldn’t?\"

  Shedrewherselfaside,andmadewayfarhim。

  \"Go!\"shecried。Shewouldhavesaidmore,butherindignationchokedher。

  Hedidnotpassatonce,andhedidnotseemtroubledatheranger。\"Dr。

  Breen,\"hesaid,\"Isawagooddealofpneumoniainthearmy,andIdon’trememberasinglecasethatwassavedbytheanxietyofthesurgeon。\"

  Hewentnow,aspeopledowhentheyfancythemselvestohavemadeagoodpoint;andsheheardhimaskingBarlowforLibby,outside,andthenwalkingoverthegraveltowardthestable。AtthatmomentshedoubtedandhatedhimsomuchthatsheworldhavebeengladtokeepLibbyfromtalkingorevensmokingwithhim。Butsherelentedalittletowardhimafterwards,whenhereturnedandresumedthechargeofhispatientwiththegentle,vigilantcheerfulnesswhichshehadadmiredinhimfromthefirst,omittingnocareandbetrayingnone。HeappearedtotakeitforgrantedthatGracesawanimprovement,butherecognizeditbynothingexplicittillheroseandsaid,\"IthinkIwillleaveMrs。Maynardwithyouto-night,Dr。Breen。\"

  Thesickwoman’seyesturnedtohimimploringlyfromherpillow,andGracespoketheterrorofbothwhenshefalteredinreturn,\"Areyou——youarenotgoinghome?\"

  \"Ishallsleepinthehouse。\"

  \"Oh,thankyou!\"shecriedfervently。

  \"Andyoucancallmeifyouwish。Buttherewon’tbeanyoccasion。Mrs。

  Maynardisverymuchbetter。\"Hewaitedtogive,inasortofabsent-

  mindedway,certaindirections。Thenhewentout,andGracesankbackintothechairfromwhichshehadstartedathisrising,andweptlongandsilentlywithahiddenface。Whenshetookawayherhandsanddriedhertears,shesawMrs。Maynardbeckoningtoher。Shewenttothebedside。

  \"Whatisit,dear?\"sheaskedtenderly。

  \"Stoopdown,\"whisperedtheother;andasGracebowedherearMrs。

  Maynardtouchedhercheekwithherdrylips。Inthiskissdoubtlesssheforgavethewrongwhichshehadhoardedinherheart,andtherepervertedintoadeadlyinjury。Buttheybothknewuponwhattermsthepardonwasaccorded,andthatifMrs。Maynardhaddied,shewouldhavediedholdingGraceanswerableforherundoing。

  IX。

  InthemorningDr。MulbridgedrovebacktoCorbitant,andintheeveningLibbycameoverfromNewLeydenwithMaynard,inahiredwagon。Hewasadaylaterthanhiswifehadcomputed,butassheappearedtohavereflected,shehadlefttheinterveningSundayoutofhercalculation;

  thiswasoneofthefewthingsshetaxedherselftosay。Fortherest,sheseemedtobehoardingherstrengthagainsthiscoming。

  Gracemethimatalittledistancefromthehouse,whithershehadwalkedwithBella,forabreathofthefreshairafterherlongdayinthesick-

  room,anddidnotfindhimtheboisterousandjovialHoosiershehadimaginedhim。Itwas,infact,hardlythemomentfortheexpressionofWesternhumor。Hearrivedasleep-broken,travel-creasedfigure,withmorethantheWesternman’susualindifferencetodress;withsad,dulleyes,andanuntrimmedbeardthathunginpointsandtags,andthinlyhidthecornersofalargemouth。Hetookherhandlaxlyinhis,andbowingoverherfromhislankheightlistenedtoherreportofhiswife’sstate,whileheheldhislittlegirlonhisleftarm,andthechildfondlypressedhercheekagainsthisbeardedface,towhichhehadquietlyliftedherassoonashealightedfromLibby’sbuggy。

  LibbyintroducedGraceasDr。Breen,anddroveon,andMaynardgaveherthetitlewheneverheaddressedher,withaperfecteffectofsingle-

  mindednessinhisgravity,asifitwereanevery-daythingwithhimtomeetyoungladieswhowerephysicians。Hehadacertainneighborlymannerofhavingknownheralongtime,andofbeingongoodtermswithher;andsomewherethereresidedinhislooselyknitorganismapowerfulenergy。Shehadalmosttoruninkeepingathisside,ashewalkedontothehouse,carryinghislittlegirlonhisarm,andglancingabouthim;

  andshewasnotsureatlastthatshehadsucceededinmakinghimunderstandhowseriousthecasehadbeen。

  \"Idon’tknowwhetherIoughttoletyougoin,\"shesaid,\"withoutpreparingher。\"

  \"She’sbeenexpectingme,hasn’tshe?\"heasked。

  \"Yes,but\"——

  \"Andshe’sawake?\"

  \"ThenI’lljustgoinandpreparehermyself。I’maprettygoodhandatpreparingpeopletomeetme。You’veabeautifullocationhere,Dr。

  Breen;andyourtownhasachancetogrow。Iliketoseeatownhavesomechance,\"headded,withasadnesspasttearsinhismelancholyeyes。

  \"Bellacanshowmethewaytotheroom,Ireckon,\"hesaid,settingthelittleonedownonthepiazza,andfollowingherindoors;andwhenGraceventured,later,toknockatthedoor,Maynard’svoicebadehercomein。

  Hesatbesidehiswife’spillow,withherhandinhisleft;onhisrightarmperchedthelittlegirl,andrestedherheadonhisshoulder。Theydidnotseemtohavebeentalking,andtheydidnotmovewhenGraceenteredtheroom。But,apparently,Mrs。MaynardhadknownhowtobehavetoGeorgeMaynard,andpeacewasvisiblybetweenthem。

  \"Now,youtellmeaboutthemedicines,Dr。Breen,andthenyougoandgetsomerest,\"saidMaynardinhismild,soothingvoice。\"IusedtounderstandMrs。Maynard’swaysprettywell,andIcantakecareofher。

  Libbytoldmeallaboutyouandyourdoings,andIknowyoumustfeelaspaleasyoulook。\"

  \"Butyoucan’thavehadanysleepontheway,\"Gracebegan。

  \"Sleep?\"Maynardrepeated,lookingwanlyather。\"Ineversleep。I’dassoonthinkofdigesting。\"

  Aftershehadgivenhimtheneededinstructionsherosefromtherocking-

  chairin-whichhehadbeensoftlyswingingtoandfro,andfollowedheroutintothecorridor,caressingwithhislargehandthechildthatlayonhisshoulder。\"Ofcourse,\"shesaid,\"Mrs。Maynardisstillverysick,andneedsthegreatestcareandattention。\"

  \"Yes,Iunderstandthat。ButIreckonitwillcomeoutallrightintheend,\"hesaid,withtheoptimisticfatalismwhichistherealreligionofourorientalizingWest。\"Good-night,doctor。\"

  Shewentaway,feelingsuddenlyaloneinthisexclusionfromthecaresthathadabsorbedher。Therewasnooneonthepiazza,whichthemoonlightprintedwiththeshadowsofthepostsandthefancifuljigsawworkofthearchesbetweenthem。Sheheardasteponthesandywalkroundthecorner,andwaitedwistfully。

  ItwasBarlowwhocameinsight,assheknewatonce,butsheasked,\"Mr。

  Barlow?\"

  \"Yes’m,\"saidBarlow。\"WhatcanIdoforyou?\"

  \"Nothing。IthoughtitmightbeMr。Libbyatfirst。Doyouknowwhereheis?\"

  \"Well,Iknowwhereheain’t,\"saidBarlow;andhavingineffectuallywaitedtobequestionedfurther,headded,\"Heain’there,foroneplace。

  He’sgonebacktoLeyden。Hehadtotakethathorseback。\"

  \"Oh!\"shesaid。

  \"N’Iguesshe’sgoin’tostay。\"

  \"Tostay?Where?\"

  \"Well,thereyou’vegotmeagain。AllIknowisI’vegottodrivethatmareofhis’noverto-morrow,ifIcangitoff,andnextdayifIcan’t。

  Didn’tyouknowhewasgoin’?\"askedBarlow,willingtorecompensehimselffortheinformationhehadgiven。

  \"Well!\"headdedsympathetically,atalittlehesitationofhers:

  Thenshesaid,\"Iknewhemustgo。Good-night,Mr。Barlow,\"andwentindoors。SherememberedthathehadsaidhewouldgoassoonasMaynardcame,andthatshehadconsentedthatthiswouldbebest。Buthisgoingnowseemedabrupt,thoughsheapprovedit。Shethoughtthatshehadsomethingmoretosaytohim,whichmightconsolehimorreconcilehim;

  shecouldnotthinkwhatthiswas,butitleftanindefinitelonging,anunsatisfiedpurposeinherheart;andtherewassomewhereatremuloussenseofsupportwithdrawn。PerhapsthiswasamechanicaleffectofthecessationofheranxietyforMrs。Maynard,whichhadbeenasupportaswellasaburden。Thehousewasstrangelyquiet,asifsomegreatnoisehadjustbeenhushed,anditseemedempty。Shefelttimidinherroom,butshedreadedthenextdaymorethanthedark。Herlifewaschanged,andthefuture,whichshehadonceplannedsoclearly,andhadfeltsostrongtoencounter,hadfallentoaruin,inwhichshevainlyendeavoredtofindsomeclewormotiveofthepast。Shefeltremandedtotheconditionsofthegirlhoodthatshefanciedshehadaltogetheroutlived;

  sheturnedherfaceuponherpillowinagriefofbewilderedaspirationandbrokenpride,andshedtearsscarcelypredicableofadoctorofmedicine。

  Butthereisnolapseoraberrationofcharacterwhichcanbehalfsosurprisingtoothersasitistoone’sself。ShehadresentedLibby’streatingheruponatheory,butshetreatedherselfuponatheory,andwealltreatourselvesuponatheory。Weproceedeachofusuponthetheorythatheisverybrave,orgenerous,orgentle,orliberal,ortruthful,orloyal,orjust。Wemayhavethedefectsofourvirtues,butnothingismorecertainthanthatwehaveourvirtues,tilltherecomesafataljuncture,notatalllikethejunctureinwhichwehadoftenimaginedourselvestriumphingagainsttemptation。Itpasses,andtheherofinds,tohisdismayandhorror,thathehasrunaway;thegenerousmanhasbeenniggard;thegentlemanhasbehavedlikearuffian,andtheliberallikeabigot;thechampionoftruthhasfoolishlyandvainlylied;thesteadfastfriendhasbetrayedhisneighbor,thejustpersonhasoppressedhim。

  Thisisthefruitfulmoment,apparentlysosterile,inwhichcharactermayspringandfloweranew;butthemoodofabjecthumilityinwhichthetheoristofhisowncharacterisplungedandstrugglesforhislostself-

  respectisfullofdeceitforothers。Itcannotlast:itmayendindisowningandretrievingtheerror,oritmayendinjustifyingit,andbuildingitintothereconstructedcharacter,assomethinguponthewholeunexpectedlyfine;butitmustend,forafterallitisonlyamood。Insuchamood,intheanguishofherdisappointmentatherself,awomanclingstowhateversupportoffers,anditisathisownriskthatthemanwhochancestobethissupportacceptstheweightwithwhichshecastsherselfuponhimasthemeasureofherdependence,thoughhemaymakehimselfnecessarytoher,ifhehasthegraceorstrengthtodoit。

  Withoutbeingabletounderstandfullythecausesofthedejectioninwhichthisgirlseemedtoappealtohim,Mulbridgemightwellhavebelievedhimselfthemantoturnitinhisfavor。Ifhedidnotsympathizewithherdistress,orevenclearlydivineit,stillhisboldgeneralizations,hefound,alwayshadtheireffectwithwomen,whosenaturesareoftentothemselvessuchunknownterritorythatamanwhoassumestoknowthemhasgonefartomasterthem。Hesawthatarudemoralforcealoneseemedtohaveacharmwithhisladypatients,——womenwhohadbeenbredtoeaseandwealth,andwhohadcultivated,ifnotverydisciplined,minds。Theirintellectualdissipationhadapparentlymadethemadifferentracefromthesimpler-heartedwomenkindofhisneighbors,apttojudgemeninasharpignoranceofwhatisfascinatinginheroes;anditwouldnotbestrangeifheincludedGraceinthesortofcontemptuousamusementwithwhichheregardedthese-flatteringlydependentandsubmissiveinvalids。Heatleastdidnotconceiveofherassheconceivedofherself;butthismaybeimpossibletoanymanwithregardtoanywoman。

  Withhisexperienceofotherwomen’sexplicitandeveneagerobedience,theresistancewhichhehadatfirstencounteredinGracegavezesttoherfinalsubmission。Sincehehaddemolishedthepositionshehadattemptedtoholdagainsthim,helikedherforhavingimaginedshecouldholdit;andshehadcontinuedtopiqueandinteresthim。Herelishedallherscruplesandmisgivings,andtheremorseshehadtriedtoconfidetohim;andifhisenjoymentofthesefoiblesofherstooktoolittleaccountofherpain,itwasneverhischaracteristictobetenderofpeopleingoodhealth。Hewas,indeed,asalientoherPuritanspiritasifhehadbeenborninNaplesinsteadofCorbitant。HecameofoneofthosefamilieswhichonefindsinnearlyeveryNewEnglandcommunity,asthoroughlyNewEnglandinraceastherest,butflourishinginahardyscepticismandcontemptofthegeneralsense。WhateverrelationsuchpeopleheldtotheoldPuritancommonwealthwhenPuritanismwasabsolute,theymustlaterhavetakenanactivepartinitsdisintegration,andwereprobablyalwaysadestructiveforceatitsheart。

  Mulbridge’sgrandfatherwasoneofthelastcaptainswhosailedaslaverfromCorbitant。Whenthiscommercebecameprecarious,heretiredfromtheseas,tookayoungwifeinsecondmarriage,andpassedhisdecliningdaysinrobustinebriety。HelivedtocastadyingvoteforGeneralJackson,andhisson,thefirstDr。Mulbridge,survivedtoillustratethemagnanimityofhisfellow-townsmenduringthefirstyearofthecivilwar,asatoleratedCopperhead。Thenhedied,andhisson,whowasintheWest,lookingupalocationforpractice,wasknowntohavegoneoutassurgeonwithoneoftheregimentsthere。Itwasnotsupposedthathewentfrompatriotism;butwhenhecameback,ayearbeforetheendofthestruggle,andsettledinhisnativeplace,hisserviceinthearmywasacceptedamonghisoldneighborsasevidenceofabetterdispositionofsomesortthanhadhithertobeenattributabletoanyofhisname。

  Infact,thelazy,good-naturedboy,whomtheychieflyrememberedbeforehiscollegedays,hadalwaysbeenwellenoughlikedamongthosewhohadsincegrowntobefirstmatesandshipcaptainsinthelittleportwherehewasbornandgrewup。Theyhadnowallretiredfromthesea,and,havingsurviveditsmanifoldperils,werepatientlywaitingtobedrownedinsail-boatsonthebay。Theywereofthesecondgenerationofships’

  captainsstilllivinginCorbitant;buttheywouldbethelast。Thecommerceofthelittleporthadchangedintothewhalingtradeintheirtime;thishadceasedinturn,andthewharveshadrottedaway。Dr。

  Mulbridgefoundlittlepracticeamongthem;whileattendingtheirappointedfate,theyweresothoroughlysaltedagainstdecayastopreserveeventheirfamilies。Buthegraduallygatheredintohishands,fromtheclairvoyantandtheIndiandoctor,thebusinesswhichtheyhadsharedbetweenthemsincehisfather’sdeath。Therewashereandthereatragicalcaseofconsumptionamongthefarmingfamiliesalongthecoast,andnowandthenafrightfulaccidentamongthefishermen;thespring,andautumnbroughttheirtyphoid;thecitypeoplewhocamedowntotheneighboringhotelsweremostlysick,orfellsick;andwiththesmallpropertyhisfatherhadleft,heandhismothercontrivedtolive。

  Theydweltveryharmoniouslytogether;forhismother,whohadpassedmorethanaquarterofacenturyinstrongresistancetoherhusband’swill,hadsuccumbed,asnotuncommonlyhappenswithsuchwomen,totheauthorityofherson,whomshehadnoparticularpleasureoradvantageinthwarting。Inthephraseandbeliefofhisneighbors,hetookafterher,ratherthanhisfather;buttherewassomethingironicalandbafflinginhim,whichthelocalexpertscouldnottracetoeithertheMulbridgesortheGardiners。Theyhadaquiet,indifferentfaithinhisabilitytomakehimselfapositionandnameanywhere;buttheywerenotsurprisedthathehadcomebacktoliveinCorbitant,whichwassomanifestlythebestplaceintheworld,andwhich,ifsomewhatlackinginopportunity,wasampleintheleisuretheybelievedmorecongenialtohimthansuccess。Someofhisladypatientsatthehotels,whofeltattimesthattheycouldnotlivewithouthim,wouldhavecarriedhimbacktothecitywiththembyagentleviolence;buttherewasnothinginanythinghesaidordidthatbetrayedambitiononhispart。Helikedtohearthemtalk,especiallyoftheirideasofprogress,astheycalledthem,atwhich,withthereadyadaptabilityoftheirsex,theyjoinedhiminlaughingwhentheyfoundthathecouldnottakethemseriously。Thesocial,theemotionalexpressionofthenewscientificcivilizationstruckhimasdroll,particularlyinrespecttotheemancipationofwomen;andhesometimesgavetheseladiestheimpressionthathedidnotvaluewoman’sintellectatitstrueworth。Hewasfarfromlighttreatmentofthem,hewasconsiderateofthedistancesthatshouldbeguarded;butheconveyedthesenseofhisscepticismastotheirfitnessforsomethingstowhichtheboldestofthemaspired。

  Hismotherwouldhavebeenwillingtohavehimgotothecityifhewished,butshewastooignorantoftheworldoutsideofCorbitanttoguessathispossibilitiesinit,andsuchpeopleasshehadseenfromithadnotpleasedherwithit。Thosesummer-boardingladypatientswhocametoseehimweresometimessufferedtowaitwithhertillhecamein,andtheyusedtotellherhowhappyshemustbetokeepsuchasonwithher,andtwitteredtheirpatronageofherandherniceold-fashionedparlor,andtheirpraisesofhisskillinsuchwiseagainstherecholesssilencethatsheconceivedastrongrepugnanceforalltheirtribe,inwhichshenaturallyincludedGracewhensheappeared。Shehaddecidedthegirltobeparticularlyforth-putting,fromsomethingpromptandself-reliantinhermannerthatday;andsheviewedwithtacitdisgustherson’stolerationofahandsomeyoungwomanwhohadtakenupaman’sprofession。Theywerenotpeoplewhogossipedtogether,orconfidedineachother,andshewouldhaveknownnothingandaskednothingfromhimabouther,furtherthanshehadseenforherself。ButBarlowhadfolks,ashecalledthem,atCorbitant;andwithoutherownconnivanceshehadheardfromthemofallthatwaspassingatJocelyn’s。

  Itwasherfashiontoapproachanysubjectuponwhichshewishedhersontotalkasiftheyhadalreadytalkedofit,andheacceptedthisconventionwithaperfectunderstandingthatshethusexpressedatonceherdeferencetohimandherresolutiontospeakwhetherhelikeditornot。ShehadnotaskedhimaboutMrs。Maynard’ssickness,orshownanyinterestinit;butaftershelearnedfromtheBarlowsthatshewasnolongerindanger,shesaidtohersononemorning,beforehedroveawayuponhisdailyvisit,\"Isherhusbandgoingtostaywithher,orishegoingback?\"

  \"Idon’tknow,really,\"heanswered,glancingatherwhereshesaterectacrossthetablefromhim,withherhandonthelidofthecoffee-pot,andhereyesdowncast;itwasthefaceofsilentdeterminationnottobeputoff,whichheknew。\"Idon’tsupposeyoucare,mother,\"headdedpleasantly。

  \"She’snothingtome,\"sheassented。\"What’sthatfriendofhersgoingtodo?\"

  \"Whichfriend?\"

  \"Youknow。Theonethatcameafteryou。\"

  \"Oh!Dr。Breen。Yes。Whatdidyouthinkofher?\"

  \"Idon’tseewhyyoucallherdoctor。\"

  \"Oh,Idoitoutofpoliteness。Besides,sheisonesortofdoctor。

  Littlepills,\"headded,withanenjoymentofhismother’sgrimnessonthispoint。

  \"Ishouldliketoseeadaughterofminepretendingtobeadoctor,\"saidMrs。Mulbridge。

  \"Thenyouwouldn’tlikeDr。Breenforadaughter,\"returnedherson,inthesametoneasbefore。

  \"Shewouldn’tlikemeforamother,\"Mrs。Mulbridgeretorted。

  Hersonlaughed,andhelpedhimselftomorebakedbeansandafreshsliceofrye-and-Indian。Hehadthehomelytastesandthestrongdigestionofthepeoplefromwhomhesprung;andbehandedhiscuptobefilledwithhismother’sstrongcoffeeineasydefianceofconsequences。Ashetookitbackfromherhesaid,\"IshouldliketoseeyouandMrs。Breentogether。Youwouldmakeastrongteam。\"Hebutteredhisbread,withanotherlaughinappreciationofhisconceit。\"Ifyouhappenedtopullthesameway。Ifyoudidn’t,somethingwouldbreak。Mrs。Breenisaladyofpowerfulconvictions。Shethinksyououghttobegood,andyououghttobeverysorryforit,butnotsosorryasyououghttobeforbeinghappy。Idon’tthinkshehasgivenherdaughteranyreasontocomplainonthelastscore。\"Hebrokeintohislaughagain,andwatchedhismother’sfrownwithinterest。\"Isuspectthatshedoesn’tlikemeverywell。Youcouldmeetoncommongroundthere:youdon’tlikeherdaughter。\"

  \"Theymustbeapairofthem,\"saidMrs。Mulbridgeimmovably。\"Didhermotherlikeherstudyingforadoctor?\"

  \"Yes,Iunderstandso。Hermotherisprogressiveshebelievesintheadvancementofwomen;shethinksthemenwouldoppressthemiftheygotachance。\"

  \"Ifonehalftheboldthingsthatarerunningaboutthecountryhadmastersitwouldbethebestthing,\"saidMrs。Mulbridge,openingthelidofthecoffee-pot,andclappingittowithforce,afteraglanceinside。

  \"That’swhereMrs。Greenwouldn’tagreewithyou。Perhapsbecauseitwouldmaketheboldthingshappytohavemasters,thoughshedoesn’tsayso。Probablyshewantsthewomentohavewomendoctorssotheywon’tbesowell,andcanhavemoretimetothinkwhethertheyhavebeengoodornot。Yououghttohearsomeoftheladiesovertheretalk,mother。\"

  \"Ihaveheardenoughoftheirtalk。\"

  \"Well,yououghttohearMissGleason。ThereareveryfewthingsthatMissGleasondoesn’tthinkcanbedonewithcutflowers,fromaweddingtoafuneral。\"

  Mrs。MulbridgeperceivedthathersonwasspeakingfigurativelyofMissGleason’ssentimentality,butshewasnotverypatientwiththesketchhe,enjoyedgivingofher。\"IssheafriendofthatBreengirl’s?\"sheinterruptedtoask。

  \"She’sanhumblefriend,anadmirer,aworshipper。TheBreengirlisheridealwoman。ShethinkstheBreengirlissosuperiortoanymanlivingthatshewouldliketomakeamatchforher。\"Hismotherglancedsharplyathim,buthewentoninthetoneofeasygeneralization,andwithacertainpleasureintheprojectionofthesestrangefiguresagainstherdistortingimagination:\"Yousee,mother,thatthemostadvancedthinkersamongthoseladiesarenotsoverydifferent,afterall,fromyouold-

  fashionedpeople。Whentheytrytothinkofthegreatestgoodfortunethatcanbefallanidealwoman,itistohavehermarried。Theonlytroubleistofindamangoodenough;andiftheycan’tfindone,they’reapttoinventone。Theyhavestrongimaginations。\"

  \"Ishouldthinktheywouldmakeyousick,amongstthem,\"saidhismother。

  \"Areyougoingtohaveanythingmoretoeat?\"sheasked,withahousekeeper’slatentimpatiencetogethertableclearedaway。

  \"Yes,\"saidDr。Mulbridge;\"Ihaven’tfinishedyet。AndI’minnohurrythismorning。Sitstill,mother;IwantyoutohearsomethingmoreaboutmyladyfriendsatJocelyn’s。Dr。Breen’smotherandMissGleasondon’tfeelalikeabouther。HermotherthinksshewasweakingivingupMrs。

  Maynard’scasetome;butMissGleasontoldmeabouttheirdiscussion,andshethinksitisthegreatheroicactofDr。Breen’slife。\"

  \"Itshowedsomesense,atleast,\"Mrs。Mulbridgereplied。Shehadtacitlyofferedtoreleasehersonfromtellingheranythingwhenshehadmadehermotiontorise;ifhechosetogoonnow,itwashisownaffair。

  Shehandedhimtheplateofbiscuit,andhetookone。

  \"Itshowedinspiration,MissGleasonsays。Thetearscameintohereyes;

  Iunderstoodhertosayitwasgodlike。’Andonlytothink,doctor,’\"hecontinued,withaclumsy,butunmistakablesuggestionofMissGleason’sperfervidmanner,\"’thatsuchagirlshouldbedraggeddownbyherownmothertothelevelofpetty,every-daycaresandduties,andshouldbeblamedforthemostbeautifulactofself-sacrifice!Isn’tittoobad?’\"

  \"Rufus,Rufus!\"criedhismother,\"Ican’tstun’it!Stop!\"

  \"Oh,Dr。Breenisn’tsobad——nothalfsodivineasMissGleasonthinksher。AndMrs。Maynarddoesn’tconsiderhersurrenderingthecaseanactofself-sacrificeatall。\"

  \"Ishouldhopenot!\"saidMrs。Mulbridge。\"Iguessshewouldn’thavebeenalivetotellthetale,ifithadn’tbeenforyou。\"

  \"Oh,youcan’tbesureofthat。Youmustn’tbelievetoomuchindoctors,mother。Mrs。Maynardisprettytough。Andshe’shadwonderfullygoodnursing。You’veonlyheardtheBarlowsideofthematter,\"saidhersun,betrayingnowforthefirsttimethathehadbeenawareofanyknowledgeofitonherpart。Thatwastheirway:thoughtheyseldomtoldeachotheranything,andwentonasiftheyknewnothingofeachother’saffairs,yetwhentheyrecognizedthisknowledgeitwaswithoutsurpriseoneitherside。\"Icouldtellyouadifferentstory。

  She’saveryfinegirl,mother;coolandcarefulunderinstruction,andperfectlytractableandintelligent。She’sasdifferentfromthoseotherwomenyou’veseenasyouare。Youwouldlikeher!\"Hehadsuddenlygrownearnest,andcrushingthecrustofabiscuitinthestronglefthandwhichherestedonthetable,hegazedkeenlyatherundemonstrativeface。\"She’snobaby,either。She’sgotawillandatemperofherown。

  She’stheonlyoneofthemIeversawthatwasworthhersalt。\"

  \"Ithoughtyoudidn’tlikeself-willedwomen,\"saidhismotherimpassively。

  \"Sheknowswhentogiveup,\"heanswered,withunrelaxedscrutiny。

  Hismotherdidnotlifthereyes,yet。\"Howlongshallyouhavetovisitoverthere?\"

  \"I’vemademylastprofessionalvisit。\"

  \"Whereareyougoingthismorning?\"

  \"ToJocelyn’s。\"

  Mrs。Mulbridgenowlookedup,andmetherson’seye。\"Whatmakesyouthinkshe’llhaveyou?\"

  Hedidnotshrinkathercomingstraighttothepointthemomentthewaywasclear。Hehadintendedit,andhelikedit……Buthefrownedalittleashesaid,\"BecauseIwanthertohaveme,foronething。\"Hisjawclosedheavily,buthisfacelostacertainbrutallookalmostasquicklyasithadassumedit。\"Iguess,\"hesaid,withasmile,\"thatit’stheonlyreasonI’vegot。\"

  \"Younoneedtosaythat,\"saidhismother,resentingtheimplicationthatanywomanwouldnothavehim。

  \"Oh,I’mnotprettytolookat,mother,andI’mnotparticularlyyoung;

  andforawhileIthoughttheremightbesomeone,else。\"

  \"Who?\"

  \"Theyoungfellowthatcamewithher,thatday。\"

  \"Thatwhipper-snapper?\"

  Dr。Mulbridgeassentedbyhissilence。\"ButIguessIwasmistaken。I

  guesshe’striedandmissedit。Thefieldis’clear,forallIcansee。

  Andshe’smadeafailureinoneway,andthenyouknowawomanisinthehumortotryitinanother。Shewantsagoodexcuseforgivingup。

  That’swhatIthink。\"

  \"Well,\"saidhismother,\"Ipresumeyouknowwhatyou’reabout,Rufus!\"

  Shetookupthecoffee-potonthelidofwhichshehadbeenkeepingherhand,andwentintothekitchenwithit。Sheremovedthedishes,andlefthimsittingbeforetheemptytable-cloth。Whenshecameforthat,hetookholdofherhand,andlookedupintoherface,overwhichascarcelydiscernibletremorpassed。\"Well,mother?\"

  \"It’swhatIalwaysknewIhadgottocometo,firstorlast。AndI

  supposeIoughttofeelgladenoughIdidn’thavetocometoitatfirst。\"

  \"No!\"saidherson。\"I’mnotastriplinganylonger。\"Helaughed,keepinghismother’shand。

  Shefreeditandtakingupthetable-clothfoldeditlengthwiseandthenacross,andlaiditneatlyawayinthecupboard。\"Isha’n’tinterferewithyou,noranywomanthatyoubringheretobeyourwife。I’vehadmyday,andI’mnotoneoftheoldfoolsthatthinkthey’regoingtohaveandtoholdforever。You’vealwaysbeenagoodboytome,andIguessyouhain’teverhadtocomplain’ofyourmotherstan’in’inyourway。I

  sha’n’tnow。ButIdidthink\"

  Shestoppedandshutherlipsfirmly。\"Speakup,mother!\"hecried。

  \"IguessIbetternot,\"sheanswered,settingherchairbackagainstthewall。

  \"Iknowwhatyoumean。Youmeanaboutmylaughingatwomenthattrytotakemen’splacesintheworld。Well,Ididlaughatthem。They’reridiculous。Idon’twanttomarrythisgirlbecauseshe’sadoctor。

  Thatwastheprincipaldrawback,inmymind。Butitdoesn’tmakeanydifference,andwouldn’tnow,ifshewasadozendoctors。\"

  Hismotherletdowntheleavesofthetable,andpusheditagainstthewall,andherosefromthechairinwhichhewasleftsittinginthemiddleoftheroom。\"Ipresume,\"shesaid,withherbacktowardhim,asshestraightenedthetableaccuratelyagainstthemopboard,\"thatyoucanletmehavethelittlehouseatGrant’sCorner。\"

  \"Why,mother!\"hecried。\"Youdon’tsupposeIshouldeverletyoubeturnedoutofhouseandhome?Youcanstayhereaslongasyoulive。

  Butithasn’tcometothat,yet。Idon’tknowthatshecaresanythingaboutme。Buttherearechances,andtherearesigns。Thechancesarethatshewon’thavethecouragetotakeupherplanoflifeagain,andthatshe’llconsideranyotherthat’spressedhomeuponher。AndItakeitforagoodsignthatshe’ssentthatfellowadrift。Ifhermindhadn’tbeensetonsomeoneelse,she’dhavetakenhim,inthisbroken-upstateofhers。Besides,shehasformedthehabitofdoingwhatIsay,andthere’sagreatdealinmerecontinuityofhabit。Itwillbeeasierforhertosayyesthantosayno;itwouldbeveryhardforhertosayno。\"

  Whileheeagerlypressedtheseargumentshismotherlistenedstonily,withoutapparentinterestorsympathy。Butattheendsheasked,\"Howareyougoingtosupportawife?Yourpracticeherewon’tdoit。Hasshegotanything?\"

  \"Shehasproperty,Ibelieve,\"repliedherson。\"Sheseemstohavebeenbroughtupinthatway。\"

  \"Shewon’twanttocomeandlivehere,then。She’llhavenotionsofherown。Ifshe’sliketherestofthem,she’llneverhaveyou。\"

  \"Ifshewereliketherestofthem,I’dneverhaveher。Butsheisn’t。

  AsfarasI’mconcerned,it’snothingagainstherthatshe’sstudiedmedicine。Shedidn’tdoitfromvanity,orambition,oranyabnormalloveofit。Shedidit,sofarsoIcanfindout,becauseshewishedtodogoodthatway。She’sbeenalittlenotional,she’shadherheadaddledbywomen’stalk,andshe’sinaqueerfreak;butit’sonlyagirl’sfreakafterall:youcan’tsayanythingworseofher。She’sasplendidwoman,andherproperty’sneitherherenorthere。Icouldsupporther。\"

  \"Ipresume,\"repliedhismother,\"thatshe’sbeenusedtowaysthatain’tlikeourways。I’vealwaysstuckupforyou,Rufus,stiffenough,Iguess;butIain’tagoin’todenythatyou’recountrybornandbred。

  Icanseethat,andshecanseeit,too。Itmakesagreatdifferencewithgirls。Idon’tknowasshe’dcallyouwhattheycallagentleman。\"

  Dr。Mulbridgeflushedangrily。EveryAmerican,ofwhateverstandingorbreeding,thinksofhimselfasagentleman,andnothingcangallhimmorethantheinsinuationthatheisless。\"Whatdoyoumean,mother?\"

  \"Youhain’teverbeeninsuchladies’societyashersinthesameway。

  Iknowthattheyallthinktheworldofyou,andflatteryouup,andthey’reasbiddableasyoupleasewhenyou’redoctorin’’em;butIguessitwouldbedifferentifyouwastosetupforoneoftheirownkindamongst’em。\"

  \"Thereisn’toneofthem,\"heretorted,\"thatIdon’tbelieveIcouldhavefortheturnofmyhand,especiallyifitwasdoubledintoafist。

  Theylikeforce。\"

  \"Oh,you’veonlyseenthesickmarriedones。Iguessyou’llfindawellgirlisanotherthing。\"

  \"They’reallalike。AndIthinkIshouldbesomethingofareliefifI

  wasn’tlikewhatshe’sbeenusedtohearingcalledagentleman;she’dprefermeonthataccount。Butifyoucometoblood,IguesstheMulbridgesandGardiner,canholduptheirheadswiththebest,anywhere。\"

  \"Yes,liketheCamfersandRafllins。\"Thesewerepeopleofancestralconsequenceandlocalhistory,whohadgoneuptoBostonfromCorbitant,andhadsucceededseverallyasgreen-grocersandretaildry-goodsmen,withthenaturallyattendantsocialdistinction。

  \"Pshaw!\"criedherson。\"Ifshecaresformeatall,shewon’tcareforthecutofmyclothes,ormytablemanners。\"

  \"Yes,that’sso。’Tain’tonmyaccountthatIwantyoushouldmakesureshedooscare。\"

  Helookedhardatherimmovableface,withitsfalleneyes,andthenwentoutoftheroom。Heneverquarrelledwithhismother,becausehisanger,likeherown,wasdumb,andsilencedhimasitmounted。Hermisgivingshadstunghimdeeply,andatthebottomofhisindolenceandindifferencewasafierypride,noteasilykindled,butunquenchable。Heflungtheharnessuponhisoldunkempthorse,andtackledhimtothemud-encrustedbuggy,forwhoseshabbinesshehadnevercaredbefore。Hewastemptedtogobackintothehouse,andchangehisuncouthCanadahomespuncoatforthebroadclothfrockwhichheworewhenhewenttoBoston;buthescornfullyresistedit,anddroveoffinhisaccustomedfigure。

  Hismother’slastwordsrepeatedthemselvestohim,andinthatdialogue,inwhichhecontinuedtodramatizetheirdifferentfeelings,hekeptreplying,\"Well,thewaytofindoutwhethershecaresistoaskher。\"

  X。

  DuringherconvalescenceMrs。MaynardhadthetimeandinclinationtogiveGracesomegoodadvice。Shesaidthatshehadthoughtagreatdealaboutitthroughouthersickness,andshehadcometotheconclusionthatGracewasthrowingawayherlife。

  \"You’renotfittobeadoctor,Grace,\"shesaid。\"You’retoonervous,andyou’retooconscientious。Itisn’tmerelyyourwantofexperience。

  Nomatterhowmuchexperienceyouhad,ifyousawacasegoingwronginyourhands,you’dwanttocallinsomeoneelsetosetitright。DoyousupposeDr。Mulbridgewouldhavegivenmeuptoanotherdoctorbecausehewasafraidhecouldn’tcureme?No,indeed!He’dhaveletmediefirst,andIshouldn’thaveblamedhim。OfcourseIknowwhatpressureI

  broughttobearuponyou,butyouhadnobusinesstomindme。Yououghtn’ttohavemindedmytalkanymorethanthebuzzingofamosquito,andnorealdoctorwould。Ifhewantstobeasuccess,hemustbehard-

  hearted;ashard-heartedas\"——shepausedforacomparison,andfailinganyotheradded——\"asallpossessed。\"Tothelikelarge-mindedandimpartialeffect,she,ranonatgreatlength。\"No,Grace,\"sheconcluded,\"whatyouwanttodoistogetmarried。Youwouldbeagoodwife,andyouwouldbeagoodmother。TheonlytroubleisthatIdon’tknowanymanworthyofyou,orhalfworthy。No,Idon’t!\"

  Nowthatherrecoverywasassured,Mrs。Maynardwasveryforgivingandsweetandkindwitheveryone。Theladieswhocameintotalkwithhersaidthatshewasachangedcreature;shegavethemallthebestadvice,andshehadabsolutelynoshamewhateverfortheinconsistencyinvolvedbyherreconciliationwithherhusband。Sheratherflauntedthehappinessofherreunioninthefaceofthepublic,andshevouchsafedanexplanationtonoone。Therehadneverbeenanythingdefiniteinherchargesagainsthim,eventoGrace,andhertacitwithdrawalofthemsucceededperfectlywell。Theladies,aftersomecynicaltittering,forgotthem,andrejoicedinthespectacleofconjugalharmonyaffordedthem:womenaregenerouscreatures,andthereishardlyanyoffencewhichtheyarenotwillinganotherwomanshouldforgiveherhusband,whenoncetheyhavesaidthattheydonotseehowshecouldeverforgivehim。

  Mrs。Maynard’ssilenceseemedinsufficienttononebutMrs。Breenandherownhusband。TheformervigorouslydenounceditswantoflogictoGraceasallbutcriminal,thoughshehadnoobjectiontoMr。Maynard。He,infact,treatedherwithafilialrespectwhichwentfartoeffaceherpreconceptions;andhedidwhathecouldtoretrievehimselffromthedisgraceofaseparationinGrace’seyes。Perhapshethoughtthatthelatesituationwasknowntoheralone,whenhecasuallysuggested,oneday,thatMrs。Maynardwaspeculiar。

  \"Yes,\"saidGracemercifully;\"butshehasbeenoutofhealthsolong。

  Thatmakesagreatdifference。She’sgoingtobebetternow。\"

  \"Oh,it’sgoingtocomeoutallrightintheend,\"hesaid,withhisunbuoyanthopefulness,\"andIreckonI’vegottohelpitalong。Why,I

  supposeeveryman’satrialattimes,doctor?\"

  \"Idaresay。Iknowthateverywomanis,\"saidthegirl。

  \"Isthatso?Well,maybeyou’repartlyright。Butyoudon’tsupposebutwhatamangenerallybeginsit,doyou?TherewasAdam,youknow。

  Hedidn’tpulltheapple;buthefelloffintothatsleep,andwokeupwithoneofhisribsdislocated,andthat’swhatreallycommencedthetrouble。Ifithadn’tbeenforAdam,therewouldn’thavebeenanywoman,youknow;andyoucouldn’tblameherforwhathappenedaftershegotgoing?\"Therevasnogleamofinsinuationinhismelancholyeye,andGracelistenedwithoutquiteknowingwhattomakeofitall。\"AndthenI

  supposehewasn’tpunctualatmeals,andstoodroundtalkingpoliticsatnight,whenheoughttohavebeenathomewithhisfamily?\"

  \"Who?\"askedGrace。

  \"Adam,\"repliedMr。Maynardlifelessly。\"Well,theygotalongprettywelloutside,\"hecontinued。\"Someofthechildrendidn’tturnoutjustwhatyoumighthaveexpected;butraisingchildrenismightyuncertainbusiness。Yes,theygotalong。\"Heendedhisparablewithasortofwearysigh,asifoppressedbyexperience。Gracelookedathisslovenlyfigure,hissmokycomplexion,andtheshaggyoutlinemadebyhisuntrimmedhairandbeard,andshewonderedhowLouisecouldmarryhim;

  butshelikedhim,andshewaswillingtoacceptforallreasonthecauseofunhappinessatwhichhefurtherhinted。\"Yousee,doctor,anincompatibilityisaprettyhardthingtomanage。Youcan’tforgiveitlikearealgrievance。Youhavetotryotherthings,andfindoutthatthereareworsethings,andthenyoucomebacktoitandstandit。We’retalkingWyomingandcattlerange,now,andMrs。Maynardisallforthenewdeal;it’sgoingtomakeushealthy,wealthy,andwise。Well,I

  supposetheairwillbegoodforher,outthere。Youdoctorsaresendinglotsofyourpatientsourway,now。\"ThegravitywithwhichhealwaysassumedthatGracewasaphysicianinfullandregularpracticewouldhavehaditsedgeofsatire,comingfromanother;butfromhim,ifitwasironical,itwasalsocaressing,andshedidnotresentit。\"I’vehadsometalkwithyourcolleague,here,Dr。Mulbridge,andheseemstothinkitwillbethebestthingforher。Isupposeyouagreewithhim?\"

  \"Oh,yes,\"saidGrace,\"hisopinionwouldbeofgreatvalue。Itwouldn’tbeatallessentialthatIshouldagreewithhim:’

  \"Well,Idon’tknowaboutthat,\"saidMaynard。\"Ireckonhethinksagooddealofyouragreeingwithhim。I’vebeentalkingwithhimaboutsettlingoutourway。We’vegotamagnificentcountry,andthere’sboundtobeplentyofsicknessthere,soonerorlater。Why,doctor,itwouldbeagoodopeningforyou!It’sjusttheplaceforyou。You’reoffhereinacorner,inNewEngland,andyouhaven’tgotanysortofscope;

  butatCheyenneyou’dhavethewholefieldtoyourself;thereisn’tanotherladydoctorinCheyenne。Now,youcomeoutwithus。Bringyourmotherwithyou,andgrowupwiththecountry。Yourmotherwouldlikeit。There’senoughmoralobliquityinCheyennetokeepherconscienceinastateofhealthfulactivityallthetime。Yes,you’dgetalongoutthere。\"

  Gracelaughed,andshookherhead。ItwaspartofthejokewhichlifeseemedtobewithMr。MaynardthattheinhabitantsofNewEnglandwerealleagertoescapefromtheirnativesection,andthattheyoughttobepitiedandabettedinthisdesire。Assoonashiswife’sconvalescencereleasedhimfromconstantattendanceuponher,hebegananinspectionoftheregionfromthecompassionatepointofview;thesmall,frugalhusbandryappealedtohiscommiseration,andheprofessedtohavefoundtheuseofcanvascapsuponthehaycocksintolerablypathetic。\"Why,I’mtold,\"hesaid,\"thattheyhavetoblankettheapple-treeswhilethefruitissetting;andtheykilloffourColoradobugsbyturningthemloose,oneatatime,onthepotato-patches:thebugstarvestodeathinforty-eighthours。Butyou’vegotplentyofschoolhouses,doctor;itdoesbeatall,abouttheschoolhouses。Andit’sanawfulpitythattherearenochildrentogotoschoolinthem。Why,ofcoursethepeoplegoWestasfastastheycan,buttheyoughttobehelped;theGovernmentoughttodosomething。They’regoodpeople;makefirst-ratecitizenswhenyougetthemwakedup,outthere。Buttheyoughtalltobegotaway,andletsomebodyrunNewEngland’asasummerresort。It’spretty,andit’scoolandpleasant,andthefishingisexcellent;milk,eggs,andallkindsofberriesandhistoricalassociationsonthepremises;anditcouldbemadeveryattractivethreemonthsoftheyear;butmygoodness!

  yououghtn’ttoaskanybodytolivehere。Youcomeoutwithus,doctor,andseethatcountry,andyou’llknowwhatImean。\"

  Hisboastswerealwaysutteredwithawan,lack-lustreirony,asifhewereburlesquingtheconventionalWesternbragandenjoyingthemystificationsofhislistener,whosefeeblesenseofhumoroftenfailedtoseizehisintention,andtowhomanydepreciationofNewEnglandwasnaturallyunintelligible。Shehadnotcometoherfinallikingforhimwithoutaseasonofseriousmisgiving,butafterthatsherestedinpeaceuponwhateveryoneknowinghimfelttobehisessentialneighborliness。

  HerwonderhadthencometobehowhecouldmarryLouise,whentheysattogetherontheseawardpiazza,andhepouredouthiseasytalk,unweariedandunwearying,while,withonelong,lanklegcrossedupontheother,heswunghisunblacked,thin-soledboottoandfro。

  \"Well,hewasthiskindofafellow:WhenwewereinSwitzerland,hewasalwaysclimbingsomemountainorother。Theycouldn’thavehiredmetoclimboneoftheirmountainsifthey’dgivenmealltheirscenery,andthrowntheirgoitresin。Iusedtotellhimthatthesideofahousewasgoodenoughforme。Butnothingbutthetallestmountainswoulddohim;

  andonedaywhenhewasupthereonthecomboftheroofsomewhere,tiedwitharoperoundhiswaisttotheguideandaFrenchman,theguide’sfootslipped,andhecommencedgoingdown。TheFrenchmanwasjustgoingtocuttheropeandlettheguideplayitalone;butheknockedtheknifeoutofhishandwithhislong-handledaxe,andwhenthejerkcamehewasontheothersideofthecomb,wherehecouldbracehimself,andbroughtthembothupstanding。Well,he’sgotmuscleslikebunchesofsteelwire。Didn’theevertellyouaboutit?\"

  \"No,\"saidGracesadly。

  \"Well,somebodyoughttoexposeLibby。Idon’tsupposeIshouldeverhaveknownaboutitmyself,ifIhadn’thappenedtoseetheguide’sfriendsandrelationscryingoverhimnextdayasifhewastheguide’sfuneral。Hello!There’sthedoctor。\"Heunlimberedhislanklegs,androsewithaneffectofopeninghispersonlikeapocket-knife。\"AsI

  understandit,thisisanunprofessionalvisit,andthedoctorishereamongusasaguest。Idon’tknowexactlywhattodounderthecircumstances,whetherweoughttotalkaboutMrs。Maynard’shealthortheopera;butIreckonifweshowourgoodintentionsitwillcomeoutallrightintheend。\"

  Hewentforwardtomeetthedoctor,whocameuptoshakehandswithGrace,andthenfollowedhimin-doorstoseeMrs。Maynard。Graceremainedinherplace,andshewasstillsittingtherewhenDr。Mulbridgereturnedwithouthim。Hecamedirectlytoher,andsaid,\"Iwanttospeakwithyou,MissBreen。CanIseeyoualone?\"

  \"Is——isMrs。Maynardworse?\"sheasked,risinginalittletrepidation。

  \"No;ithasnothingtodowithher。She’spracticallywellnow;Icanremandthecasetoyou。Iwishtoseeyou——aboutyourself。\"Shehesitatedatthispeculiarsummons,butsomepressurewasuponhertoobeyDr。Mulbridge,astherewasuponmostpeoplewherehewishedtoobeyhim。\"Iwanttotalkwithyou,\"headded,\"aboutwhatyouaregoingtodo,——aboutyourfuture。Willyoucome?\"

  \"Oh,yes,\"sheanswered;andshesufferedhimtoleadthewaydownfromthepiazza,andoutupononeofthesandyavenuestowardthewoods,inwhichitpresentlylostitself。\"Buttherewillbeverylittletotalkabout,\"shecontinued,astheymovedaway,\"ifyouconfineyourselftomyfuture。Ihavenone。\"

  \"Idon’tseehowyou’vegotridofit,\"herejoined。\"You’vegotafutureasmuchasyouhaveapast,andthere’sthisadvantage,——thatyoucandosomethingwithyourfuture。\"

  \"Doyouthinkso?\"sheasked,withalittlebitterness。\"Thathasn’tbeenmyexperience。\"

  \"It’sbeenmine,\"hesaid,\"andyoucanmakeityours。Come,Iwanttotalkwithyouaboutyourfuture,becauseIhavebeenthinkingveryseriouslyaboutmyown。Iwanttoaskyouradviceandtogiveyoumine。

  I’llcommencebyaskingyours。Whatdoyouthinkofmeasaphysician?

  Iknowyouareabletojudge。\"

  Shewasflattered,inspiteofherself。Therewerelongarrearsofcoolindifferencetoherownclaimsinthatdirection,whichshemightverywellhaveresented;butshedidnot。Therewasthatflatteryinhisquestionwhichthejuniorinanyvocationfeelsintheappealofhissenior;andtherewastheflatterywhichanywomanfeelsinaman’srecoursetoherjudgment。Still,shecontrivedtoparryitwithalittlethrust。\"Idon’tsupposetheopinionofamerehomoeopathistcanbeofanyvaluetoaregularpractitioner。\"

  Helaughed。\"Youhavebeenaregularpractitioneryourselfforthelastthreeweeks。Whatdoyouthinkofmymanagementofthecase?\"

  \"Ihaveneverabandonedmyprinciples,\"shebegan。

  \"Oh,Iknowallaboutthat?Whatdoyouthinkofmeasadoctor?\"hepersisted。

  \"OfcourseIadmireyou。Whydoyouaskmethat?\"

  \"BecauseIwishedtoknow。AndbecauseIwishedtoaskyousomethingelse。Youhavebeenbroughtupinacity,andIhavealwayslivedhereinthecountry,exceptthetwoyearsIwasoutwiththearmy。DoyouthinkIshouldsucceedifIpulleduphere,andsettledinBoston?\"

  \"IhavenotlivedinBoston,\"sheanswered。\"Myopinionwouldn’tbeworthmuchonthatpoint。\"

  \"Yes,itwould。Youknowcitypeople,andwhattheyare。Ihaveseenagooddealoftheminmypracticeatthehotelsabouthere,andsomeoftheladies——whentheyhappenedtofeelmorecomfortable——haveadvisedmetocometoBoston。\"Hisderisionseemedtothrowcontemptonallhersex;butheturnedtoher,andaskedagainearnestly,\"Whatdoyouthink?

  Someoftheprofessionknowmethere。WhenIlefttheschool,someofthefacultyurgedmetotrymychanceinthecity。\"

  Shewaitedamomentbeforesheanswered。\"YouknowthatImustrespectyourskill,andIbelievethatyoucouldsucceedanywhere。Ijudgeyourfitnessbymyowndeficiency。ThefirsttimeIsawyouwithMrs。

  Maynard,IsawthatyouhadeverythingthatIhadn’t。IsawthatIwasafailure,andwhy,andthatitwouldbefoolishformetokeepupthestruggle。\"

  \"Doyoumeanthatyouhavegivenitup?\"hedemanded,withatriumphinwhichtherewasnosympathy。

  \"Ithasgivenmeup。Ineverlikedit,——Itoldyouthatbefore,——andI

  nevertookitupfromanyambitiousmotive。Itseemedashameformetobeofnouseintheworld;andIhopedthatImightdosomethinginawaythatseemednaturalforwomen。AndIdon’tgiveupbecauseI’munfitasawoman。Imightbeaman,andstillbeimpulsiveandtimidandnervous,andeverythingthatIthoughtIwasnot。\"

  \"Yes,youmightbeallthat,andbeaman;butyou’dbeanexceptionalman,andIdon’tthinkyou’reanexceptionalwoman。Ifyou’vefailed,itisn’tyourtemperamentthat’stoblame。\"

  \"Ithinkitis。Thewrongissomewhereinmeindividually。Iknowitis。\"

  Dr。Mulbridge,walkingbesideher,withhishandsclaspedbehindhim,threwuphisheadandlaughed。\"Well,haveityourownway,MissBreen。

  OnlyIdon’tagreewithyou。Whyshouldyouwishtospareyoursexatyourownexpense?Butthat’sthewaywithsomeladies,I’venoticed。

  Theyapproveofwhatwomenattemptbecausewomenattemptit,andtheybelievetheattemptreflectshonoronthem。It’stremendoustothinkwhatmencouldaccomplishfortheirsex,iftheyonlyhungtogetheraswomendo。Buttheycan’t。Theyhaven’tthegenerosity。\"

  \"Ithinkyoudon’tunderstandme,\"saidGrace,withaseveritythatamusedhim。\"Iwishedtoregardmyself,intakingupthisprofession,entirelyasIbelievedamanwouldhaveregardedhimself。\"

  \"Andwereyouabletodoit?\"

  \"No,\"sheunintentionallyrepliedtothisunexpectedquestion。

  \"Haw,haw,haw!\"laughedDr。Mulbridgeatherhelplesscandor。\"Andareyousurethatyougiveitupasamanwould?\"

  \"Idon’tknowhowyoumean,\"shesaid,vexedandbewildered。

  \"Doyoudoitfairlyandsquarelybecauseyoubelievethatyou’reafailure,orbecauseyoupartlyfeelthatyouhaven’tbeenfairlydealtwith?\"

  \"IbelievethatifMrs。MaynardhadhadthesameconfidenceinmethatshewouldhavehadinanymanIshouldnothavefailed。ButeverywomanphysicianhasadoubledisadvantagethatIhadn’tthestrengthtoovercome,——herowninexperienceandthedistrustofotherwomen。\"

  \"Well,whosefaultisthat?\"

  \"Notthemen’s。Itisthemenalonewhogivewomenanychance。Theyarekindandgenerousandliberal-minded。Ihavenoblameforthem,andI

  havenopatiencewithwomenwhowanttotreatthemastheenemiesofwomen’sadvancement。Womencan’tmoveastepforwardswithouttheirsufferanceandhelp。Dr。Mulbridge,\"shecried,\"IwishtoapologizeforthehastyandsillywordsIusedtoyouthedayIcametoaskyoutoconsultwithme。Ioughttohavebeengratefultoyouforconsentingatfirst,andwhenyoutookbackyourconsentIoughttohaveconsideredyourposition。Youwereentirelyright。Wehadnocommongroundtomeeton,andIbehavedlikeapetulant,foolish,vulgargirl!\"

  \"No,no,\"heprotested,laughinginrecollectionofthescene。\"Youwereallright,andIwasinafix;andifyourownfearshadn’tcometotherescue,Idon’tknowhowIshouldhavegotoutofit。Itwouldhavebeendisgraceful,wouldn’tit,torefusealady’s。request。Youdon’tknowhownearIwastogivingway。Icantellyou,nowthatit’sallover。I

  hadneverseenaladyofourprofessionbefore,\"headdedhastily,\"andmycuriositywasup。Ialwayshadmydoubtsaboutthethoroughnessofwomen’sstudy,andIshouldhavelikedtoseewhereyourtrainingfailed。

  ImustsayIfounditverygood,——I’vetoldyouthat。Youwouldn’tfailindividually:youwouldfailbecauseyouareawoman。\"

  \"Idon’tbelievethat,\"saidGrace。

  \"Well,then,becauseyourpatientsarewomen。It’sallone。Whatwillyoudo?\"

  \"Ishallnotdoanything。Ishallgiveitallup。\"

  \"Butwhatshallyoudothen?\"

  \"I-don’tknow。\"

  \"Whatareyougoingtobe?Afashionablewoman?OrareyougoingtoEurope,andsettledowntherewiththeotherAmericanfailures?I’veheardaboutthem,——inRomeandFlorenceandParis。Areyougoingtothrowawaythestudyyou’veputintothisprofession?Youtookitupbecauseyouwantedtodogood。Don’tyouwanttodogoodanymore?Hasthehumanraceturnedoutunworthy?\"

  Shecoweredatthisarraignment,inwhichshecouldnotseparatethemockingfromthejustice。\"Whatdoyouadvisemetodo?DoyouthinkI

  couldeversucceed?\"

  \"Youcouldneversucceedalone。\"

  \"Yes,Iknowthat;Ifeltthatfromthefirst。ButIhaveplannedtounitewithawomanphysicianolderthanmyself。\"

  \"Anddoubleyourdeficiency。Sitdownhere,\"hesaid;\"Iwishtotalkbusiness。\"TheyhadenteredtheborderofthewoodsencompassingJocelyn’s,andhepaintedtoastump,besidewhichlaythefallentree。

  Sheobeyedmechanically,andheremainedstandingnearher,withonefootliftedtothelog;heleanedforwardoverher,andseemedtoseizeaphysicaladvantageintheposture。\"Fromyourownpointofview,youwouldhavenorighttogiveupyourundertakingiftherewasachanceofsuccessinit。Youwouldhavenomorerighttogiveupthanawomanwhohadgoneoutasamissionary。\"

  \"Idon’tpretendtocomparemyselfwithsuchawoman;butIshouldhavenomorerighttogiveup,\"sheanswered,helplessagainstthelogicofherfate,whichhehadsomehowdivined。

  \"Well,then,listentome。Icangiveyouthischance。AreyousatisfiedthatwithmyadviceyoucouldhavesucceededinMrs。Maynard’scase?\"

  \"Yes,Ithinkso。Butwhat\"——

  \"Ithinkso,too。Don’trise!\"

  Hiswillovercametheimpulsethathadbetrayeditself,andshesankbacktoherseat。\"Iofferyoumyadvicefromthistimeforward;Iofferyoumyhelp。\"

  \"Thatisverygoodofyou,\"shemurmured;\"andIappreciateyourgenerositymorethanIcansay。Iknowtheprejudiceyoumusthavehadtoovercomeinregardtowomenphysiciansbeforeyoucouldbringyourselftodothis;andIknowhowyoumusthavedespisedmeforfailinginmyattempt,andgivingmyselfuptomyfeebletemperament。But\"——

  \"Oh,wewon’tspeakofallthat,\"heinterrupted。\"OfcourseIfelttheprejudiceagainstwomenenteringtheprofessionwhichweallfeel;itwasridiculousanddisgustingtometillIsawyou。Iwon’turgeyoufromanypersonalmotivetoacceptmyoffer。ButIknowthatifyoudoyoucanrealizeallyourhopesofusefulness;andIaskyoutoconsiderthatcertainly。Butyouknowtheonlywayitcouldbedone。\"

  Shelookedhimintheeyes,withdismayinhergrowingintelligence。

  \"What——whatdoyoumean?\"

  \"ImeanthatIaskyoutoletmehelpyoucarryoutyourplanoflife,andtosaveallyouhavedone,andallyouhavehoped,fromwaste——asyourhusband。Think\"——

  Shestruggledtoherfeetasifhewereopposingapalpableresistance,sostronglyshefeltthepressureofhiswill。\"Itcan’tbe,Dr。

  Mulbridge。Oh,itcan’t,indeed!Letusgoback;Iwishtogoback!\"

  Buthehadplantedhimselfinherway,andblockedheradvance,unlessshechosetomakeitaflight。

  \"Iexpectedthis,\"hesaid,withasmile,asifherwildtrepidationinterestedhimasananticipatedsymptom。\"Thewholeideaisnewandstartlingtoyou。ButIknowyouwon’tdismissitabruptly,andIwon’tbediscouraged。\"

  \"Yes,yes,youmust!Iwillnotthinkofit!Ican’t!Idodismissitatonce。Letmego!\"

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