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  CantoIII。

  YettothewondrousSt。Peter’s,andyettothesolemnRotunda,Minglingwithheroesandgods,yettotheVaticanWalls,Yetmaywego,andrecline,whileawholemightyworldseemsaboveus,Gatheredandfixedtoalltimeintooneroofingsupreme;

  Yetmaywe,thinkingonthesethings,excludewhatismeaneraroundus;

  Yet,attheworstoftheworst,booksandachamberremain;

  Yetmaywethink,andforget,andpossessoursoulsinresistance。——

  Ah,butawayfromthestir,shouting,andgossipofwar,Where,uponApennineslope,withthechestnuttheoak-treesimmingle,Where,amidodorouscopsebridle-pathswanderandwind,Where,undermulberry-branches,thediligentrivuletsparkles,Oramidcottonandmaizepeasantstheirwater-worksply,Where,overfig-treeandorangeintierupontierstillrepeated,Gardenongardenupreared,balconiessteptothesky,——

  Ah,thatIwerefarawayfromthecrowdandthestreetsofthecity,Underthevine-trellislaid,Omybeloved,withthee!

  I。MaryTrevellyntoMissRoper,——onthewaytoFlorence。

  Whydoesn’tMr。Claudecomewithus?youask。——Wedon’tknow,Youshouldknowbetterthanwe。HetalkedoftheVaticanmarbles;

  ButIcan’twhollybelievethatthiswastheactualreason,——

  Hewassoreadybefore,whenweaskedhimtocomeandescortus。

  Certainlyheisodd,mydearMissRoper。TochangesoSuddenly,justforawhim,wasnotquitefairtotheparty,——

  Notquiteright。Ideclare,Ireallyalmostamoffended:

  I,hisgreatfriend,asyousay,havedoubtlessatitletobeso。

  NotthatIgreatlyregretit,fordearGeorginadistinctlyWishesfornothingsomuchastoshowheradroitness。But,oh,myPenwillnotwriteanymore;——letussaynothingfurtheraboutit。

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  Yes,mydearMissRoper,Icertainlycalledhimrepulsive;

  SoIthinkhim,butcannotbesureIhaveusedtheexpressionQuiteasyourpupilshould;yethedoesmosttrulyrepelme。

  WasittoyouImadeuseoftheword?orwhowasittoldyou?

  Yes,repulsive;observe,itisbutwhenhetalksofideasThatheisquiteunaffected,andfree,andexpansive,andeasy;

  Icouldpronouncehimsimplyacoldintellectualbeing。——

  Whendoeshemakeadvances?——Hethinksthatwomenshouldwoohim;

  Yet,ifagirlshoulddoso,wouldbebutalarmedanddisgusted。

  Shethatshouldlovehimmustlookforsmallloveinreturn,——liketheivyOnthestonewall,mustexpectbutarigidandniggardsupport,andE’entogetthatmustgosearchingallroundwithherhumbleembraces。

  II。ClaudetoEustace,——fromRome。

  Tellme,myfriend,doyouthinkthatthegrainwouldsproutinthefurrow,DiditnottrulyacceptasitssummumandultimumbonumThatmerecommonandmay-beindifferentsoilitissetin?

  Wouldithaveforcetodevelopandopenitsyoungcotyledons,Coulditcompare,andreflect,andexamineonethingwithanother?

  WoulditenduretoaccomplishtheroundofitsnaturalfunctionsWereitendowedwithasenseofthegeneralschemeofexistence?

  WhilefromMarseillesinthesteamerwevoyagetoCivitaVecchia,VexedinthesquallyseasaswelaybyCaprajaandElba,Standing,uplifted,aloneontheheavingpoopofthevessel,Lookingaroundonthewasteoftherushingincuriousbillows,’ThisisNature,’Isaid:’wearebornasitwerefromherwaters;

  Overherbillowsthatbuffetandbeatus,heroffspringuncared-for,Castingonesingleregardofapainfulvictoriousknowledge,Intoherbillowsthatbuffetandbeatuswesinkandareswallowed。’

  Thiswasthesenseinmysoul,asIswayedwiththepoopofthesteamer;

  AndasunthinkingIsatinthehallofthefamedAriadne,Lo,itlookedatmetherefromthefaceofaTritoninmarble。

  Itisthesimplerthought,andIcanbelieveitthetruer。

  Letusnottalkofgrowth;wearestillinourAqueousAges。

  III。ClaudetoEustace。

  Farewell,Politics,utterly!WhatcanIdo?IcannotFight,youknow;andtotalkIamwhollyashamed。AndalthoughI

  GnashmyteethwhenIlookinyourFrenchoryourEnglishpapers,Whatisthegoodofthat?Willswearing,Iwonder,mendmatters?

  Cursingandscoldingrepeltheassailants?No,itisidle;

  No,whateverbefalls,Iwillhide,willignoreorforgetit。

  Letthetailshiftforitself;Iwillburymyhead。Andwhat’stheRomanRepublictome,orItotheRomanRepublic?

  Whynotfight?——Inthefirstplace,Ihaven’tsomuchasamusket;

  Inthenext,ifIhad,Ishouldn’tknowhowIshoulduseit;

  Inthethird,justatpresentI’mstudyingancientmarbles;

  Inthefourth,IconsiderIowemylifetomycountry;

  Inthefifth——Iforget,butfourgoodreasonsareample。

  Meantime,praylet’emfight,andbekilled。Idelightindevotion。

  SothatI’listnot,hurrahforthegloriousarmyofmartyrs!

  SanguismartyrumsemenEcclesiae;thoughitwouldseemthisChurchisindeedofthepurelyInvisible,Kingdom-comekind:

  Militanthereonearth!Triumphant,ofcourse,then,elsewhere!

  Ah,goodHeaven,butIwouldIwereoutfarawayfromthepother!

  IV。ClaudetoEustace。

  Not,aswereadinthewordsoftheolden-timeinspiration,Aretheretwoseveraltreesintheplacewearesettoabidein;

  ButontheapexmosthighoftheTreeofLifeintheGarden,Budding,unfolding,andfalling,decayingandfloweringever,FloweringissetanddecayingthetransientblossomofKnowledge,——

  Floweringalone,anddecaying,theneedlessunfruitfulblossom。

  Orasthecypress-spiresbythefair-flowingstreamHellespontine,WhichfromthemythicaltombofthegodlikeProtesilausRosesympatheticingrieftohislove-lornLaodamia,Evermoregrowing,andwhenintheirgrowthtotheprospectattaining,Overthelowsea-banks,ofthefatalIliancity,Witheringstillatthesightwhichstilltheyupgrowtoencounter。

  Ah,butyethatextrudefromtheoceanyourhelplessfaces,Yeoverstormyseasleadinglonganddrearyprocessions,Ye,too,broodofthewind,whosecomingiswhencewediscernnot,Makingyournestonthewave,andyourbedonthecrestedbillow,Skimmingroughwaters,andcrowdingwetsandsthatthetideshallreturnto,Cormorants,ducks,andgulls,fillyemyimagination!

  Letusnottalkofgrowth;wearestillinourAqueousAges。

  V。MaryTrevellyntoMissRoper,——fromFlorence。

  DearestMissRoper,——Alas!weareallatFlorencequitesafe,andYou,wehear,areshutup!indeed,itissadlydistressing!

  Weweremostlucky,theysay,togetoffwhenwedidfromthetroubles。

  Nowyouarereallybesieged;theytellusitsoonwillbeover;

  OnlyIhopeandtrustwithoutanyfightinthecity。

  DoyouseeMr。Claude?——Ithoughthemightdosomethingforyou。

  Iamquitesureonoccasionhereallywouldwishtobeuseful。

  Whatishedoing?Iwonder;——stillstudyingVaticanmarbles?

  Letters,Ihope,passthrough。Wetrustyourbrotherisbetter。

  VI。ClaudetoEustace。

  Juxtaposition,infine;andwhatisjuxtaposition?

  Lookyou,wetravelalongintherailway-carriageorsteamer,And,pourpasserletemps,tillthetediousjourneybeended,Layasidepaperorbook,totalkwiththegirlthatisnextone;

  And,pourpasserletemps,withtheterminusallbutinprospect,Talkofeternaltiesandmarriagesmadeinheaven。

  Ah,didwereallyacceptwithaperfecthearttheillusion!

  Ah,didwereallybelievethatthePresentindeedistheOnly!

  Orthroughalltransmutation,allshockandconvulsionofpassion,Feelwecouldcarryundimmed,unextinguished,thelightofourknowledge!

  Butforhisfuneraltrainwhichthebridegroomseesinthedistance,Wouldhesojoyfully,thinkyou,fallinwiththemarriageprocession?

  Butforthatfinaldischarge,wouldhedaretoenlistinthatservice?

  Butforthatcertainrelease,eversigntothatperilouscontract?

  Butforthatexitsecure,everbendtothattreacherousdoorway?——

  Ah,butthebride,meantime,——doyouthinksheseesitashedoes?

  Butforthesteadyfore-senseofafreerandlargerexistence,Thinkyouthatmancouldconsenttobecircumscribedhereintoaction?

  Butforassurancewithinalimitlessoceandivine,o’erWhosegreattranquildepthsunconsciousthewind-tostsurfaceBreaksintoripplesoftroublethatcomeandchangeandendurenot,——

  Butthatinthis,ofatruth,wehaveourbeing,andknowit,Thinkyouwemencouldsubmittoliveandmoveaswedohere?

  Ah,butthewomen,——Godblessthem!theydon’tthinkatallaboutit。

  Yetwemusteatanddrink,asyousay。AndaslimitedbeingsScarcelycanhopetoattainuponearthtoanActualAbstract,LeavingtoGodcontemplation,toHishandsknowledgeconfiding,Surethatinusifitperish,inHimitabidethanddiesnot,LetusinHissightaccomplishourpettyparticulardoings,——

  Yes,andcontentedsitdowntothevictualthatHehasprovided。

  Allahisgreat,nodoubt,andJuxtapositionhisprophet。

  Ah,butthewomen,alas!theydon’tlookatitthatway。

  Juxtapositionisgreat;——but,myfriend,Ifearme,themaidenHardlywouldthankoracknowledgetheloverthatsoughttoobtainher,Notasthethinghewouldwish,butthethinghemustevenputupwith,——

  HardlywouldtenderherhandtothewooerthatcandidlytoldherThatsheisbutforaspace,anad-interimsolaceandpleasure,——

  Thatintheendsheshallyieldtoaperfectandabsolutesomething,WhichIthenformyselfshallbehold,andnotanother,——

  Whichamidfondestendearments,meantimeIforgetnot,forsakenotAh,yefemininesouls,soloving,andsoexacting,Sincewecannotescape,mustweevensubmittodeceiveyou?

  Since,socruelistruth,sincerityshocksandrevoltsyou,Willyouhaveusyourslavestolietoyou,flatterand——leaveyou?

  VII。ClaudetoEustace。

  Juxtapositionisgreat,——but,youtellme,affinitygreater。

  Ah,myfriend,therearemanyaffinities,greaterandlesser,Strongerandweaker;andeach,bythefavourofjuxtaposition,Potent,efficient,inforce,——foratime;butnone,letmetellyou,Savebythelawofthelandandtheruinousforceofthewill,ah,None,Ifearme,atlastquitesuretobefinalandperfect。

  Lo,asIpaceinthestreet,fromthepeasant-girltotheprincess,Homosum,nihilhumaniamealienumputo,——

  Virsum,nihilfaeminei,——ande’entotheuttermostcircle,AllthatisNature’sisI,andIallthingsthatareNature’s。

  Yes,asIwalk,Ibehold,inaluminous,largeintuition,ThatIcanbeandbecomeanythingthatImeetwithorlookat:

  Iamtheoxinthedray,theasswiththegarden-stuffpanniers;

  Iamthedoginthedoorway,thekittenthatplaysinthewindow,Onsunnyslaboftheruinthefurtiveandfugitivelizard,Swallowabovemethattwitters,andflythatisbuzzingaboutme;

  Yea,anddetect,asIgo,byafaintbutafaithfulassurance,E’enfromthestonesofthestreet,asfromrocksortreesoftheforest,Somethingofkindred,acommon,thoughlatentvitality,greetsme;

  Andtoescapefromourstrivings,mistakings,misgrowths,andperversions,Faincoulddemandtoreturntothatperfectandprimitivesilence,Fainbeenfoldedandfixed,asofold,intheirrigidembraces。

  VIII。ClaudetoEustace。

  AndasIwalkonmyway,Ibeholdthemconsortingandcoupling;

  Faithfulitseemeth,andfond,veryfond,veryprobablyfaithful,AllasIgoonmyway,withapleasuresincereandunmingled。

  Lifeisbeautiful,Eustace,entrancing,enchantingtolookat;

  Asarethestreetsofacitywepacewhilethecarriageischanging,Asachamberfilled-inwithharmonious,exquisitepictures,EvensobeautifulEarth;andcouldweeliminateonlyThisvilehungeringimpulse,thisdemonwithinusofcraving,Lifewerebeatitude,livingaperfectdivinesatisfaction。

  IX。ClaudetoEustace。

  Mildmonasticfacesinquietcollegiatecloisters:

  Soletmeofferasingleandcelibatarianphrase,aTributetothosewhomperhapsyoudonotbelieveIcanhonour。

  But,fromthetumultescaping,’tispleasant,ofdrummingandshouting,Hither,obliviousawhile,towithdraw,ofthefactorthefalsehood,AndamidplacidregardsandmildlycourteousgreetingsYieldtothecalmandcomposureandgentleabstractionthatreigno’erMildmonasticfacesinquietcollegiatecloisters。

  Terribleword,Obligation!Youshouldnot,Eustace,youshouldnot,No,youshouldnothaveusedit。But,oh,greatHeavens,Irepelit!

  Oh,Icancel,reject,disavow,andrepudiatewhollyEverydebtinthiskind,disclaimeveryclaim,anddishonour,Yea,myownheart’sownwriting,mysoul’sownsignature!Ah,no!

  Iwillbefreeinthis;youshallnot,noneshall,bindme。

  No,myfriend,ifyouwishtobetold,itwasthisaboveallthings,Thisthatcharmedme,ah,yes,eventhis,thatsheheldmetonothing。

  No,IcouldtalkasIpleased;comeclose;fastenties,asIfancied;

  Bindandengagemyselfdeep;——andlo,onthefollowingmorningItwasalle’enasbefore,likelosingsingamesplayedfornothing。

  Yes,whenIcame,withmeanfearsinmysoul,withasemi-performanceAtthefirststepbreakingdowninitspitifulroleofevasion,WhentoshuffleIcame,tocompromise,notmeet,engagements,Lo,withhercalmeyesthereshemetmeandknewnothingofit,——

  Stoodunexpecting,unconscious。SHEspokenotofobligations,Knewnotofdebt——ah,no,Ibelieveyou,forexcellentreasons。

  X。ClaudetoEustace。

  HANGthisthinking,atlast!whatgoodisit?oh,andwhatevil!

  Oh,whatmischiefandpain!likeaclockinasickman’schamber,Tickingandticking,andstillthrougheachcovertofslumberpursuing。

  WhatshallIdotothee,OthouPreserverofmen?Havecompassion;

  Befavourable,andhear!Takefrommethisregalknowledge;

  Letme,contentedandmute,withthebeastsofthefields,mybrothers,Tranquilly,happilylie,——andeatgrass,likeNebuchadnezzar!

  XI。ClaudetoEustace。

  Tiburisbeautiful,too,andtheorchardslopes,andtheAnioFalling,fallingyet,totheancientlyricalcadence;

  TiburandAnio’stide;andcoolfromLucretilisever,WiththeDigentianstream,andwiththeBandusianfountain,FoldedinSabinerecesses,thevalleyandvillaofHorace:——

  SonotseeingIsang;soseeingandlisteningsayI,HereasIsitbythestream,asIgazeatthecelloftheSibyl,HerewithAlbunea’shomeandthegroveofTiburnusbesideme;*

  Tivolibeautifulis,andmusical,OTeverone,Dashingfrommountaintoplain,thypartedimpetuouswaters,Tivoli’swatersandrocks;andfairuntoMonteGennaro(Haunt,evenyet,Imustthink,asIwanderandgaze,oftheshadows,Fadedandpale,yetimmortal,ofFaunus,theNymphs,andtheGraces)。

  Fairinitself,andyetfairerwithhumancompletingcreations,FoldedinSabinerecessesthevalleyandvillaofHorace:——

  SonotseeingIsang;sonow——Norseeing,norhearing,Neitherbywaterfalllulled,norfoldedinsylvanembraces,NeitherbycelloftheSibyl,norsteppingtheMonteGennaro,SeatedonAnio’sbank,norsippingBandusianwaters,ButonMontorio’sheight,lookingdownonthetile-cladstreets,theCupolas,crosses,anddomes,thebushesandkitchen-gardens,Which,bythegraceoftheTibur,proclaimthemselvesRomeoftheRomans,——

  ButonMontorio’sheight,lookingforthtothevapourymountains,CheatingtheprisonerHopewithillusionsofvisionandfancy,——

  ButonMontorio’sheight,withthesewearysoldiersbyme,WaitingtillOudinotenter,toreinstatePopeandTourist。

  *——domusAlbuneaeresonantis,EtpraecepsAnio,etTibunilucus,etudaMobilibuspomariarivisXII。MaryTrevellyntoMissRoper。

  DearMissRoper,——Itseems,GeorgeVernon,beforeweleftRome,saidSomethingtoMr。Claudeaboutwhattheycallhisattentions。

  Susan,twonightsago,forthefirsttime,heardthisfromGeorgina。

  ItisSOdisagreeableandSOannoyingtothinkof!

  Ifitcouldonlybeknown,thoughwemaynevermeethimagain,thatItwasallGeorge’sdoing,andwewereentirelyunconscious,Itwouldextremelyrelieve——YoureveraffectionateMary。

  P。S。(1)

  Hereisyourletterarrivedthismoment,justasIwanted。

  Soyouhaveseenhim,——indeed,andguessed,——howdreadfullyclever!

  Whatdidhereallysay?andwhatwasyouranswerexactly?

  Charming!——butwaitforamoment,Ihaven’treadthroughtheletter。

  P。S。(2)

  Ah,mydearestMissRoper,dojustasyoufancyaboutit。

  IfyouthinkitsincerertotellhimIknowofit,doso。

  ThoughIshouldmostextremelydislikeit,IknowIcouldmanage。

  Itisthesimplestthing,butsurelywhollyuncalledfor。

  Doasyouplease;youknowItrustimplicitlytoyou。

  Saywhateverisrightandneedfulforendingthematter。

  Onlydon’ttellMr。Claude,whatIwilltellyouasasecret,ThatIshouldlikeverywelltoshowhimmyselfIforgetit。

  P。S。(3)

  IamtosaythattheweddingisfinallysettledforTuesday。

  Ah,mydearMissRoper,yousurely,surelycanmanageNottoletitappearthatIknowofthatodiousmatter。

  ItwouldbepleasanterfarformyselftotreatitexactlyAsifithadnotoccurred:andIdonotthinkhewouldlikeit。

  Imustremembertoadd,thatassoonastheweddingisoverWeshallbeoff,Ibelieve,inahurry,andtraveltoMilan;

  TheretomeetfriendsofPapa’s,Iamtold,attheCrocediMaltaThenIcannotsaywhither,butnotatpresenttoEngland。

  XIII。ClaudetoEustace。

  Yes,onMontorio’sheightforalastfarewellofthecity,——

  Soitappears;thoughthenIwasquiteuncertainaboutit。

  So,however,itwas。Andnowtoexplaintheproceeding。

  Iwastogo,asItoldyou,Ithink,withthepeopletoFlorence。

  Onlythedaybefore,thefoolishfamilyVernonMadesomeuneasyremarks,aswewalkedtoourlodgingtogether,Astointentionsforsooth,andsoforth。Iwasastounded,Horrifiedquite;andobtainingjustthen,asithappened,anoffer(Nocommonfavour)ofseeingthegreatLudovisicollection,Why,Imadethisapretence,andwrotethattheymustexcuseme。

  HowcouldIgo?GreatHeavens!toconductapermittedflirtationUnderthosevulgareyes,theobservedofsuchobservers!

  Well,butInow,byaseriesoffinediplomaticinquiries,Findfromasortofrelation,agoodandsensiblewoman,WhoisremainingatRomewithabrothertooillforremoval,Thatitwaswhollyunsanctioned,unknown,——not,Ithink,byGeorgina:

  She,however,erethis,——andthatisthebestofthestory,——

  SheandtheVernon,thankHeaven,areweddedandgone——honey-mooning。

  So——onMontorio’sheightforalastfarewellofthecity。

  TiburIhavenotseen,northelakesthatofoldIhaddreamtof;

  TiburIshallnotsee,norAnio’swaters,nordeepen-

  FoldedinSabinerecessesthevalleyandvillaofHorace;

  TiburIshallnotsee;——butsomethingbetterIshallsee。

  TwiceIhavetriedbefore,andfailedingettingthehorses;

  TwiceIhavetriedandfailed:thistimeitshallnotbeafailure。

  Thereforefarewell,yehills,andye,yeenvineyardedruins!

  Thereforefarewell,yewalls,palaces,pillars,anddomes!

  Thereforefarewell,farseen,yepeaksofthemythicAlbano,SeenfromMontorio’sheight,TiburandAesula’shills!

  Ah,couldweonce,erewego,couldwestand,while,tooceandescending,Sinkso’ertheyellowdarkplainslowlytheyellowbroadsun,Stand,fromtheforestemergingatsunset,atonceinthechampaign,Open,butstuddedwithtrees,chestnutsumbrageousandold,E’eninthosefairopenfieldsthatincurvetothybeautifulhollow,Nemi,imbeddedinwood,Nemi,inurnedinthehill!——

  Thereforefarewell,yeplains,andyehills,andtheCityEternal!

  Thereforefarewell!Wedepart,buttobeholdyouagain!

  CantoIV。

  Eastward,orNorthward,orWest?IwanderandaskasIwander;

  Weary,yeteagerandsure,WhereshallIcometomylove?

  Whitherwardhastentoseekher?YedaughtersofItaly,tellme,Gracefulandtenderanddark,issheconsortingwithyou?

  Thouthatout-climbestthetorrent,thattendestthygoatstothesummit,Calltome,childoftheAlp,hasshebeenseenontheheights?

  Italy,farewellIbidthee!forwhithersheleadsme,Ifollow。

  Farewellthevineyard!forI,whereIbutguessher,mustgo;

  Wearinesswelcome,andlabour,whereveritbe,ifatlastitBringmeinmountainorplainintothesightofmylove。

  I。ClaudetoEustace,——fromFlorence。

  GonefromFlorence;indeed!andthatistrulyprovoking;——

  GonetoMilan,itseems;thenIgoalsotoMilan。

  Fivedaysnowdeparted;buttheycantravelbutslowly;——

  Iquickerfar;andIknow,asithappens,thehometheywillgoto。——

  Why,whatelseshouldIdo?Stayhereandlookatthepictures,Statuesandchurches?Alack,Iamsickofthestatuesandpictures!——

  No,toBologna,Parma,Piacenza,Lodi,andMilan,Offgoweto-night,——andtheVenusgototheDevil!

  II。ClaudetoEustace,——fromBellaggio。

  GonetoComo,theysaid;andIhavepostedtoComo。

  Therewasaletterleft;butthecamerierehadlostit。

  Couldithavebeenforme?Theycame,however,toComo,AndfromComowentbytheboat,——perhapstotheSpluegen,——

  OrtotheStelvio,say,andtheTyrol;alsoitmightbeByPorlezzaacrosstoLugano,andsototheSimplonPossibly,ortheSt。Gothard,——orpossibly,too,toBaveno,Orta,Turin,andelsewhere。Indeed,Iamgreatlybewildered。

  III。ClaudetoEustace,——fromBellaggio。

  IhavebeenuptheSpluegen,andontheStelvioalso:

  NeitherofthesecanIfindtheyhavefollowed;innooneinn,andThiswouldbeodd,havetheywrittentheirnames。IhavebeentoPorlezza;

  Theretheyhavenotbeenseen,andthereforenotatLugano。

  WhatshallIdo?GoonthroughtheTyrol,Switzerland,Deutschland,Seeking,aninverseSaul,akingdomtofindonlyasses?

  Thereisatide,atleast,intheLOVEaffairsofmortals,Which,whentakenatflood,leadsontothehappiestfortune,——

  Leadstothemarriage-mornandtheorange-flowersandthealtar,Andthelonglawfullineofcrownedjoystocrownedjoyssucceeding。——

  Ah,ithasebbedwithme!Yegods,andwhenitwasflowing,PitifulfoolthatIwas,tostandfiddle-faddlinginthatway!

  IV。ClaudetoEustace,——fromBellaggio。

  IhavereturnedandfoundtheirnamesinthebookatComo。

  CertainitisIwasright,andyetIamalsoinerror。

  Addedinfemininehand,Iread,BytheboattoBellaggio。——

  SotoBellaggioagain,withthewordsofhewritingtoaidme。

  YetatBellaggioIfindnotrace,nosortofremembrance。

  SoIamhere,andwait,andknoweveryhourwillremovethem。

  V。ClaudetoEustace,——fromBellaggio。

  Ihavebutonechanceleft,——andthatisgoingtoFlorence。

  Butitiscrueltoturn。Themountainsseemtodemandme,——

  Peakandvalleyfromfartobeckonandmotionmeonward。

  SomewhereamidtheirfoldsshepasseswhomfainIwouldfollow;

  Somewhereamidthoseheightsshehaplycallsmetoseekher。

  Ah,couldIhearhercall!couldIcatchtheglimpseofherraiment!

  Turn,however,Imust,thoughitseemIturntodeserther;

  ForthesenseofthethingissimplytohurrytoFlorence,Wherethecertaintyyetmaybelearnt,Isuppose,fromtheRopers。

  VI。MaryTrevellyn,fromLucerne,toMissRoper,atFlorence。

  DearMissRoper,——Bythisyouaresafelyaway,wearehoping,ManyaleaguefromRome;erelongwetrustweshallseeyou。

  Howhaveyoutravelled?Iwonder;——wasMr。Claudeyourcompanion?

  Asforourselves,wewentfromComostraighttoLugano;

  SobytheMountSt。Gothard;wemeanttogobyPorlezza,Takingthesteamer,andstopping,asyouhadadvised,atBellaggio,Twoorthreedaysormore;butthiswassuddenlyaltered,Afterweleftthehotel,ontheverywaytothesteamer。

  Sowehaveseen,Ifear,notoneofthelakesinperfection。

  Well,heisnotcome,andnow,Isuppose,hewillnotcome。

  Whatwillyouthink,meantime?andyetImustreallyconfessit;——

  Whatwillyousay?Iwrotehimanote。Weleftinahurry,WentfromMilantoComo,threedaysbeforeweexpected。

  ButIthought,ifhecameallthewaytoMilan,hereallyOughtnottobedisappointed:andsoIwrotethreelinestoSayIhadheardhewascoming,desirousofjoiningourparty;——

  Ifso,thenIsaid,wehadstartedforComo,andmeanttoCrosstheSt。Gothard,andstay,webelieved,atLucerne,forthesummer。

  Wasitwrong?andwhy,ifitwas,hasitfailedtobringhim?

  DidhenotthinkitworthwhiletocometoMilan?Heknew(youToldhim)thehouseweshouldgoto。Ormayit,perhaps,havemiscarried?

  Anyway,now,Irepent,andamheartilyvexedthatIwroteit。

  ThereisahomeontheshoreoftheAlpinesea,thatupswellingHighupthemountain-sidesspreadsinthehollowbetween;

  Wilderness,mountain,andsnowfromthelandoftheoliveconcealit;

  UnderPilatus’shilllowbytheriveritlies;

  Italy,uttertheword,andtheoliveandvinewillallurenot,——

  Wilderness,forest,andsnowwillnotthepassageimpede;

  Italy,untothycitiesreceding,thecluetorecover,Hither,recoveredtheclue,shallnotthetravellerhaste?

  CantoV。

  Thereisacity,upbuiltonthequaysoftheturbulentArno,UnderFiesole’sheights,——thitherarewetoreturn?

  Thereisacitythatfringesthecurveoftheinflowingwaters,Undertheperiloushillfringesthebeautifulbay,——

  Parthenope,dotheycallthee?——theSiren,Neapolis,seatedUnderVesevus’shill,——arewerecedingtothee?——

  Sicily,Greece,willinvite,andtheOrient;——orareweturntoEngland,whichmayafterallbeforitschildrenthebest?

  I。MaryTrevellyn,atLucerne,toMissRoper,atFlorence。

  Soyouarereallyfree,andlivinginquietatFlorence;

  Thatisdelightfulnews;youtravelledslowlyandsafely;

  Mr。Claudegotyouout;tookroomsatFlorencebeforeyou;

  WrotefromMilantosayso;hadleftdirectlyforMilan,Hopingtofindussoon;——ifhecould,hewould,youarecertain。——

  DearMissRoper,yourletterhasmademeexceedinglyhappy。

  Youarequitesure,yousay,heaskedyouaboutourintentions;

  YouhadnotheardasyetofLucerne,buttoldhimofComo。——

  Well,perhapshewillcome;however,Iwillnotexpectit。

  Thoughyousayyouaresure,——ifhecan,hewill,youarecertain。

  Omydear,manythanksfromyoureveraffectionateMary。

  II。ClaudetoEustace。

  Florence。

  Actionwillfurnishbelief,——butwillthatbeliefbethetrueone?

  Thisisthepoint,youknow。However,itdoesn’tmuchmatter。

  Whatonewants,Isuppose,istopredeterminetheaction,Soastomakeitentail,notachancebelief,butthetrueone。

  Outofthequestion,yousay;ifathingisn’twrongwemaydoit。

  Ah!butthisWRONG,yousee——butIdonotknowthatitmatters。

  Eustace,theRopersaregone,andnoonecantellmeaboutthem。

  Pisa。

  Pisa,theysaytheythink,andsoIfollowtoPisa,Hitherandthitherinquiring。Iwearyofmakinginquiries。

  Iamashamed,Ideclare,ofaskingpeopleaboutit。——

  Whoareyourfriends?Yousaidyouhadfriendswhowouldcertainlyknowthem。

  Florence。

  Butitisidle,moping,andthinking,andtryingtofixherImageoncemoreandmorein,towritethewholeperfectinscriptionOverandoveragainuponeverypageofremembrance。

  IhavesettledtostayatFlorencetowaitforyouranswer。

  Whoareyourfriends?Writequicklyandtellme。Iwaitforyouranswer。

  III。MaryTrevellyntoMissRoper。——atLuccaBaths。

  YouareatLuccabaths,youtellme,tostayforthesummer;

  Florencewasquitetoohot;youcan’tmovefurtheratpresent。

  Willyounotcome,doyouthink,beforethesummerisover?

  Mr。C。gotyououtwithveryconsiderabletrouble;

  Andhewasusefulandkind,andseemedsohappytoserveyou。

  Didn’tstaywithyoulong,buttalkedveryopenlytoyou;

  Madeyoualmosthisconfessor,withoutappearingtoknowit,——

  Whatabout?——andyousayyoudidn’tneedhisconfessions。

  OmydearMissRoper,Idarenottrustwhatyoutellme!

  Willhecome,doyouthink?Iamreallysosorryforhim。

  Theydidn’tgivehimmyletteratMilan,Ifeelprettycertain。

  YouhadtoldhimBellaggio。Wedidn’tgotoBellaggio;

  Sohewouldmissourtrack,andperhapsnevercometoLugano,Wherewewerewritteninfull,ToLucerneacrosstheSt。Gothard。

  Buthecouldwritetoyou;——youwouldtellhimwhereyouweregoing。

  IV。ClaudetoEustace。

  Letme,then,beartoforgether。Iwillnotclingtoherfalsely:

  Nothingfactitiousorforcedshallimpairtheoldhappyrelation。

  Iwillletmyselfgo,forget,nottrytoremember;

  Iwillwalkonmyway,acceptthechancesthatmeetme,Freelyencountertheworld,imbibethesealienairs,andNeveraskifnewfeelingsandthoughtsareofherorofothers。

  Isshenotchangingherself?——theoldimagewouldonlydeludeme。

  Iwillbebold,too,andchange,——ifitmustbe。Yetifinallthings,YetifIdobutaspireevermoretotheAbsoluteonly,Ishallbedoing,Ithink,somehow,whatshewillbedoing;——

  Ishallbethine,Omychild,someway,thoughIknownotinwhatway,Letmesubmittoforgether;Imust;Ialreadyforgether。

  V。ClaudetoEustace。

  Utterlyvainis,alas!thisattemptattheAbsolute,——wholly!

  I,whobelievednotinher,becauseIwouldfainbelievenothing,HavetobelieveasImay,withawilful,unmeaningacceptance。

  I,whorefusedtoenfastentherootsofmyfloatingexistenceIntherichearth,clingnowtothehard,nakedrockthatisleftme,——

  Ah!shewasworthy,Eustace,——andthat,indeed,ismycomfort,——

  WorthyanoblerheartthanafoolsuchasIcouldhavegivenher。

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  Yes,itrelievesmetowrite,thoughIdonotsend,andthechancethatTakesmaydestroymyfragments。Butasmenpray,withoutaskingWhetherOnereallyexisttohearordoanythingforthem,——

  SimplyimpelledbytheneedofthemomenttoturntoaBeingInaconceptionofwhomthereisfreedomfromalllimitation,——

  SoinyourimageIturntoanensrationisoffriendship,EvensowriteinyournameIknownottowhomnorinwhatwise。

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  Therewasatime,methoughtitwasbutlatelydeparted,When,ifathingwasdeniedme,IfeltIwasboundtoattemptit;

  Choicealoneshouldtake,andchoicealoneshouldsurrender。

  Therewasatime,indeed,whenIhadnotretiredthusearly,Languidlythus,frompursuitofapurposeIoncehadadopted,Butitisallover,allthat!IhaveslunkfromtheperilousfieldinWhosewildstruggleofforcestheprizesoflifearecontested。

  Itisover,allthat!Iamacoward,andknowit。

  Courageinmecouldbeonlyfactitious,unnatural,useless。

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  Comforthascometomehereinthedrearystreetsofthecity,Comfort——howdoyouthink?——withabarrel-organtobringit。

  Mopingalongthestreets,andcursingmydayasIwandered,AllofasuddenmyearmetthesoundofanEnglishpsalm-tune,Comfortmeitdid,tillindeedIwasverynearcrying。

  Ah,thereissomegreattruth,partial,verylikely,butneedful,Lodged,Iamstrangelysure,inthetonesoftheEnglishpsalm-tune。

  Comfortitwasatleast;andImusttakewithoutquestionComfort,howeveritcome,inthedrearystreetsofthecity。

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  Whatwithtrustingmyselfandseekingsupportfromwithinme,AlmostIcouldbelieveIhadgainedareligiousassurance,Formedinmyownpoorsoulagreatmoralbasistoreston。

  Ah,butindeedIsee,Ifeelitfactitiousentirely;

  Irefuse,reject,andputitutterlyfromme;

  Iwilllookstraightout,seethings,nottrytoevadethem;

  Factshallbefactforme,andtheTruththeTruthasever,Flexible,changeable,vague,andmultiform,anddoubtful-

  Off,anddeparttothevoid,thousubtle,fanaticaltempter!

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  Ishallbeholdtheeagain(isitso?)atanewvisitation,Oillgeniusthou!Ishallatmylife’sdissolution(Whenthepulsesareweak,andthefeeblelightofthereasonFlickers,anunfedflameretiringslowfromthesocket),Lowonasick-bedlaid,hearone,asitwere,atthedoorway,And,lookingup,seetheestandingby,lookingemptilyatme;

  Ishallentreattheethen,thoughnowIdaretorefusethee,——

  Paleandpitifulnow,butterriblethentothedying。——

  Well,Iwillseetheeagain,andwhileIcan,willrepelthee。

  VI。ClaudetoEustace。

  Romeisfallen,Ihear,thegallantMedicitaken,NobleManaraslain,andGaribaldihaslostilMoro;——

  Romeisfallen;andfallen,orfalling,heroicalVenice。

  I,meanwhile,forthelossofasinglesmallchitofagirl,sitMopingandmourninghere,——forher,andmyselfmuchsmaller。

  Whitherdepartthesoulsofthebravethatdieinthebattle,Dieinthelost,lostfight,forthecausethatperisheswiththem?

  AretheyupbornefromthefieldontheslumberouspinionsofangelsUntoafar-offhome,wherethewearyrestfromtheirlabour,Andthedeepwoundsarehealed,andthebitterandburningmoistureWipedfromthegenerouseyes?ordotheylinger,unhappy,Pining,andhauntingthegraveoftheirby-gonehopeandendeavour?

  Alldeclamation,alas!thoughItalk,IcarenotforRomenorItaly;feeblyandfaintly,andbutwiththelips,canlamenttheWreckoftheLombardyouth,andthevictoryoftheoppressor。

  Whitherdepartthebrave?——Godknows;Icertainlydonot。

  VII。MaryTrevellyntoMissRoper。

  Hehasnotcomeasyet;andnowImustnotexpectit。

  Youhavewritten,yousay,tofriendsatFlorence,toseehim,Ifheperhapsshouldreturn;——butthatissurelyunlikely。

  Hashenotwrittentoyou?——hedidnotknowyourdirection。

  Oh,howstrangeneveroncetohavetoldhimwhereyouweregoing!

  YetifheonlywrotetoFlorence,thatwouldhavereachedyou。

  Ifwhatyousayhesaidwastrue,whyhashenotdoneso?

  IshegonebacktoRome,doyouthink,tohisVaticanmarbles?——

  OmydearMissRoper,forgiveme!donotbeangry!——

  YouhavewrittentoFlorence;——yourfriendswouldcertainlyfindhim。

  Mightyounotwritetohim?——butyetitissolittlelikely!

  Ishallexpectnothingmore。——Everyours,youraffectionateMary。

  VIII。ClaudetoEustace。

  IcannotstayatFlorence,noteventowaitforaletter。

  Galleriesonlyoppressme。RemembranceofhopeIhadcherished(Almostmorethanashope,whenIpassedthroughFlorencethefirsttime)

  Lieslikeaswordinmysoul。Iammoreacowardthanever,Chicken-hearted,pastthought。Thecaffesandwaitersdistressme。

  Allisunkind,and,alas!Iamreadyforanyone’skindness。

  Oh,Iknewitofold,andknewit,Ithought,toperfection,IfthereisanyonethingintheworldtoprecludeallkindnessItistheneedofit,——itisthissad,self-defeatingdependence。

  Whyisthis,Eustace?Myself,wereIstronger,IthinkIcouldtellyou。

  Butitisoddwhenitcomes。SoplumbIthedeepsofdepression,Dailyindeeper,andfindnosupport,nowill,nopurpose。

  Allmyoldstrengthsaregone。AndyetIshallhavetodosomething。

  Ah,thekeyofourlife,thatpassesallwards,opensalllocks,IsnotIWILL,butIMUST。Imust,——Imust,——andIdoit。

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  Afterall,doIknowthatIreallycaredsoabouther?

  DowhateverIwill,Icannotcallupherimage;

  ForwhenIclosemyeyes,Isee,verylikely,St。Peter’s,OrthePantheonfacade,orMichelAngelo’sfigures,Or,atawish,whenIplease,theAlbanhillsandtheForum,——

  Butthatface,thoseeyes,——ah,no,neveranythinglikethem;

  Only,tryasIwill,asortoffeaturelessoutline,Andapaleblankorb,whichnorecollectionwilladdto。

  Afterall,perhapstherewassomethingfactitiousaboutit;

  Ihavehadpain,itistrue:Ihavewept;andsohavetheactors。

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  AtthelastmomentIhaveyourletter,forwhichIwaswaiting;

  Ihavetakenmyplace,andseenogoodininquiries。

  Donothingmore,goodEustace,Iprayyou。Itonlywillvexme。

  Takenomeasures。Indeed,shouldwemeet,Icouldnotbecertain;

  Allmightbechanged,youknow。Orperhapstherewasnothingtobechanged。

  Itisacurioushistory,this;andyetIforesawit;

  Icouldhavetolditbefore。TheFates,itisclear,areagainstus;

  ForitiscertainenoughImetwiththepeopleyoumention;

  TheywereatFlorencethedayIreturnedthere,andspoketomeeven;

  Stayedaweek,sawmeoften;departed,andwhitherIknownot。

  GreatisFate,andisbest。IbelieveinProvidencepartly。

  Whatisordainedisright,andallthathappensisordered。

  Ah,no,thatisn’tit。ButyetIretainmyconclusion。

  IwillgowhereIamled,andwillnotdictatetothechances。

  Donothingmore,Ibeg。Ifyouloveme,forbearinterfering。

  IX。ClaudetoEustace。

  Shallwecomeoutofitall,someday,asonedoesfromatunnel?

  Willitbeallatonce,withoutourdoingorasking,Weshallbeholdclearday,thetreesandmeadowsaboutus,Andthefacesoffriends,andtheeyeswelovedlookingatus?

  Whoknows?Whocansay?Itwillnotdotosupposeit。

  X。ClaudetoEustace,-fromRome。

  Romewillnotsuitme,Eustace;thepriestsandsoldierspossessit;

  Priestsandsoldiers:——and,ah!whichistheworst,thepriestorthesoldier?

  Politics,farewell,however!ForwhatcouldIdo?withinquiring,Talking,collatingthejournals,gofevermybrainaboutthingso’erWhichIcanhavenocontrol。No,happenwhatevermayhappen,Time,Isuppose,willsubsist;theearthwillrevolveonitsaxis;

  Peoplewilltravel;thestrangerwillwanderasnowinthecity;

  Romewillbehere,andthePopethecustodeofVaticanmarbles。

  Ihavenoheart,however,foranymarbleorfresco;

  Ihaveessayeditinvain;’tisinvainasyettoessayit:

  ButImayhaplyresumesomedaymystudiesinthiskind;

  NotastheScripturesays,is,Ithink,thefact。Ereourdeath-day,Faith,Ithink,doespass,andLove;butKnowledgeabideth。

  LetusseekKnowledge;——therestmaycomeandgoasithappens。

  Knowledgeishardtoseek,andharderyettoadhereto。

  Knowledgeispainfuloften;andyetwhenweknowwearehappy。

  Seekit,andleavemereFaithandLovetocomewiththechances。

  AsforHope,——to-morrowIhopetobestartingforNaples。

  Romewillnotdo,Isee,formanyverygoodreasons。

  Eastward,then,Isuppose,withthecomingofwinter,toEgypt。

  XI。MaryTrevellyntoMissRoper。

  Youhaveheardnothing;ofcourseIknowyoucanhaveheardnothing。

  Ah,well,morethanonceIhavebrokenmypurpose,andsometimes,Onlytoooften,havelookedforthelittlelakesteamertobringhim。

  Butitisonlyfancy,——Idonotreallyexpectit。

  Oh,andyouseeIknowsoexactlyhowhewouldtakeit:

  Findingthechancesprevailagainstmeetingagain,hewouldbanishForthwitheverythoughtofthepoorlittlepossiblehope,whichImyselfcouldnothelp,perhaps,thinkingonlytoomuchof;

  Hewouldresignhimself,andgo。Iseeitexactly。

  SoIalsosubmit,althoughinadifferentmanner。

  Canyounotreallycome?WegoveryshortlytoEngland。

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  Sogoforthtotheworld,tothegoodreportandtheevil!

  Go,littlebook!thytale,isitnotevilandgood?

  Go,andifstrangersrevile,passquietlybywithoutanswer。

  Go,andifcuriousfriendsaskofthyrearingandage,Say,’IamflittingaboutmanyyearsfrombrainuntobrainofFeebleandrestlessyouthsborntoingloriousdays:

  But,’sofinishtheword,’IwaswritinaRomanchamber,WhenfromJaniculanheightsthunderedthecannonofFrance。’

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