ThemountainsofMoabwerebeforeus,veryplainintheiroutline。
\"Moabismywash-pot,andoverEdomwillIcastoutmyshoe!\"Theretheywerebeforeus,veryvisibletotheeye,andwebegannaturallytoaskquestionsofeachother。WhywasMoabthewash-pot,andEdomthuscursedwithindignity?Whyhadtherightbankoftheriverbeenselectedforsuchgreatpurposes,whereastheleftwasthuscondemned?Wasthere,atthattime,anyspecialfertilityinthislandofpromisewhichhassincedepartedfromit?Wearetoldofabunchofgrapeswhichtooktwomentocarryit;butnowthereisnotavineinthewholecountryside。Now-a-daysthesandyplainroundJerichoisasdryandaridasareanyofthevalleysofMoab。TheJordanwasrunningbeneathourfeet,——theJordaninwhichtheleprouskinghadwashed,thoughthebrightriversofhisownDamascusweresomuchnearertohishand。Itwasbutahumblestreamtowhichhewassent;butthespotprobablywashigherup,abovetheSeaofGalilee,wheretheriverisnarrow。Butanotheralsohadcomedowntothisriver,perhapstothisveryspotonitsshores,andsubmittedHimselftoitswaters;——astowhom,perhaps,itwillbebetterthatIshouldnotspeakmuchinthislightstory。
TheDeadSeawasonourright,stillglitteringinthedistance,andbehinduslaytheplainsofJerichoandthewretchedcollectionofhutswhichstillbearsthenameoftheancientcity。Beyondthat,butstillseeminglywithineasydistanceofus,werethemountainsofthewilderness。Thewilderness!Intruth,thespotwasonewhichdidleadtomanythoughts。
Wetalkedofthesethings,astomanyofwhichIfoundthatmyfriendwasmuchmorefreeinhisdoubtsandquestioningsthanmyself;andthenourwordscamebacktoourselves,thenaturalcentreofallmen’s-thoughtsandwords。\"Fromwhatyousay,\"I
said,\"Igatherthatyouhavehadenoughofthisland?\"
\"Quiteenough,\"hesaid。\"Whyseeksuchspotsasthese,iftheyonlydispeltheassociationsandvenerationofone’schildhood?\"
\"Butwithmesuchassociationsandvenerationarerivetedthestrongerbyseeingtheplaces,andputtingmyhanduponthespots。
Idonotspeakofthatfictitiousmarbleslabupthere;buthere,amongthesandhillsbythisriver,andattheMountofOlivesoverwhichwepassed,Idobelieve。\"
Hepausedamoment,andthenreplied:\"Tomeitisallnothing,——
absolutelynothing。Butthendowenotknowthatourthoughtsareformed,andourbeliefsmodelled,notontheoutwardsignsorintrinsicevidencesofthings,——aswouldbethecasewerewealwaysrational,——butbytheinnerworkingsoftheminditself?AtthepresentturnofmylifeIcanbelieveinnothingthatisgracious。\"
\"Ah,youmeanthatyouareunhappy。Youhavecometogriefinsomeofyourdoingsorbelongings,andthereforefindthatallthingsarebittertothetaste。Ihavehadmypalateoutofordertoo;buttheproperappreciationofflavourshascomebacktome。Bah,——hownoisomewasthatDeadSeawater!\"
\"TheDeadSeawatersarenoisome,\"hesaid;\"andIhavebeendrinkingofthembylongdraughts。\"
\"Longdraughts!\"Ianswered,thinkingtoconsolehim。\"Draughtshavenotbeenlongwhichcanhavebeenswallowedinyouryears。
Yourdiseasemaybeacute,butitcannotyethavebecomechronic。A
manalwaysthinksatthemomentofeachmisfortunethatthatspecialmiserywilllasthislifetime;butGodistoogoodforthat。Idonotknowwhatailsyou;butthisdaytwelvemonthwillseeyouagainassoundasaroach。\"
Wethensatsilentforawhile,duringwhichIwaspuffingatacigar。Smith,amonghisaccomplishments,didnotreckonthatofsmoking,——whichwasagrieftome;foramanenjoysthetobaccodoublywhenanotherisenjoyingitwithhim。
\"No,youdonotknowwhatailsme,\"hesaidatlast,\"and,therefore,cannotjudge。\"
\"Perhapsnot,mydearfellow。Butmyexperiencetellsmethatearlywoundsaregenerallycapableofcure;and,therefore,Isurmisethatyoursmaybeso。Theheartatyourtimeoflifeisnotwornout,andhasstrengthandsoundnessleftwherewithtothrowoffitsmaladies。Ihopeitmaybesowithyou。\"
\"Godknows。IdonotmeantosaythattherearenonemoretobepitiedthanIam;butatthepresentmoment,Iamnot——notlight-
hearted。\"
\"IwishIcouldeaseyourburden,mydearfellow。\"
\"Itismostpreposterousinmethustoforcemyselfuponyou,andthentroubleyouwithmycares。ButIhadbeenalonesolong,andI
wassowearyofit!\"
\"ByJove,andsohadI。Makenoapology。Andletmetellyouthis,——thoughperhapsyouwillnotcreditme,——thatIwouldsoonerlaughwithacomradethancrywithhimistrueenough;but,ifoccasiondemands,Icandothelatteralso。\"
Hethenputouthishandtome,andIpresseditintokenofmyfriendship。Myownhandwashotandroughwiththeheatandsand;
buthiswassoftandcoolalmostasawoman’s。Ithoroughlyhateaneffeminateman;but,inspiteofacertainwomanlysoftnessaboutthisfellow,Icouldnothatehim。\"Yes,\"Icontinued,\"thoughsomewhatunusedtothemeltingmood,Ialsosometimesgiveforthmymedicinalgums。Idon’twanttoaskyouanyquestions,and,asarule,Ihatetobetoldsecrets,butifIcanbeofanyservicetoyouinanymatterIwilldomybest。Idon’tsaythiswithreferencetothepresentmoment,butthinkofitbeforewepart。\"
Ilookedroundathimandsawthathewasintears。\"IknowthatyouwillthinkthatIamaweakfool,\"hesaid,pressinghishandkerchieftohiseyes。
\"Bynomeans。Therearemomentsinaman’slifewhenitbecomeshimtoweeplikeawoman;buttheolderhegrowsthemoreseldomthosemomentscometohim。AsfarasIcanseeofmen,theynevercryatthatwhichdisgracesthem。\"
\"Itisleftforwomentodothat,\"heanswered。
\"Oh,women!Awomancriesforeverythingandfornothing。Itisthesharpestarrowshehasinherquiver,——thebestcardinherhand。Whenawomancries,whatcanyoudobutgiveherallsheasksfor?\"
\"Doyou——dislikewomen?\"
\"No,byJove!Iamneverreallyhappyunlessoneisnearme,ormorethanone。Aman,asarule,hasanamountofenergywithinhimwhichhecannotturntoprofitonhimselfalone。Itisgoodforhimtohaveawomanbyhimthathemayworkforher,andthushaveexerciseforhislimbsandfaculties。Iamveryfondofwomen。ButIalwayslikethosebestwhoaremosthelpless。\"
Weweresilentagainforawhile,anditwasduringthistimethatI
foundmyselflyingwithmyheadinhislap。Ihadslept,butitcouldhavebeenbutforafewminutes,andwhenIwokeIfoundhishanduponmybrow。AsIstarteduphesaidthattheflieshadbeenannoyingme,andthathehadnotchosentowakenmeasIseemedweary。\"Ithasbeenthatdoublebathing,\"Isaid,apologetically;
forIalwaysfeelashamedwhenIamdetectedsleepingintheday。
\"Inhotweatherthewaterdoesmakeonedrowsy。ByJove,it’sgettingdark;wehadbetterhavethehorses。\"
\"Stayhalfamoment,\"hesaid,speakingverysoftly,andlayinghishanduponmyarm,\"Iwillnotdetainyouaminute。\"
\"Thereisnohurryinlife,\"Isaid。
\"Youpromisedmejustnowyouwouldassistme。\"
\"Ifitbeinmypower,Iwill。\"
\"BeforewepartatAlexandriaIwillendeavourtotellyouthestoryofmytroubles,andthenifyoucanaidme——\"ItstruckmeashepausedthatIhadmadearashpromise,butneverthelessImuststandbyitnow——withoneortwoprovisoes。Thechanceswerethattheyoungmanwasshortofmoney,orelsethathehadgotintoascrapeaboutagirl。IneithereaseImightgivehimsomeslightassistance;but,then,itbehovedmetomakehimunderstandthatI
wouldnotconsenttobecomeaparticipatorinmischief。Iwastoooldtogetmyheadwillinglyintoascrape,andthisImustendeavourtomakehimunderstand。
\"Iwill,ifitbeinmypower,\"Isaid。\"Iwillasknoquestionsnow;butifyourtroublebeaboutsomelady——\"
\"Itisnot,\"saidhe。
\"Well;sobeit。Ofalltroublesthosearethemosttroublesome。
Ifyouareshortofcash——\"
\"No,Iamnotshortofcash。\"
\"Youarenot。That’swelltoo;forwantofmoneyisasoretroublealso。\"AndthenIpausedbeforeIcametothepoint。\"Idonotsuspectanythingbadofyou,Smith。HadIdoneso,IshouldnothavespokenasIhavedone。Andiftherebenothingbad——\"
\"Thereisnothingdisgraceful,\"hesaid。
\"ThatisjustwhatImean;andinthatcaseIwilldoanythingforyouthatmaybewithinmypower。NowletuslookforJosephandthemucherry-boy,foritistimethatwewereatJericho。\"
IcannotdescribeatlengththewholeofourjourneyfromthencetoourtentsatJericho,norbacktoJerusalem,norevenfromJerusalemtoJaffa。AtJerichowedidsleepintents,payingsomuchpernight,accordingtothetariff。Wewanderedoutatnight,anddrankcoffeewithafamilyofArabsinthedesert,sittinginaringroundtheircoffee-kettle。AndwesawaTurkishsoldierpunishedwiththebastinado,——asightwhichdidnotdomeanygood,andwhichmadeSmithverysick。Indeedafterthefirstblowhewalkedaway。
Jerichoisaremarkablespotinthatpilgrimweek,andIwishIhadspacetodescribeit。ButIhavenot,forImusthurryon,backtoJerusalemandthencetoJaffa。IhadmuchtotellalsoofthoseBedouins;howtheywereessentiallytruetous,butteasedusalmosttofrenzybytheircontinualbegging。Theybeggedforourfoodandourdrink,forourcigarsandourgunpowder,fortheclothesoffourbacks,andthehandkerchiefsoutofourpockets。AstogunpowderI
hadnonetogivethem,formychargeswereallmadeupincartridges;andIlearnedthatthegunsbehindtheirbackswereamerepretence,fortheyhadnotagrainofpowderamongthem。
WesleptonenightinJerusalem,andstartedearlyonthefollowingmorning。Smithcametomyhotelsothatwemightbereadytogetherforthemove。WestillcarriedwithusJosephandthemucherry-boy;
butforourBedouins,whohaddulyreceivedtheirfortyshillingsapiece,wehadnofurtheruse。OnourroaddowntoJerusalemwehadmuchchattogether,butonlyoneadventure。Thosepilgrims,ofwhomIhavespoken,journeytoJerusaleminthegreatestnumberbytheroutewhichwewerenowtakingfromit,andtheycomeinlongdroves,reachingJaffaincrowdsbytheFrenchandAustriansteamersfromSmyrna,Damascus,andConstantinople。Astheirnumberconferssecurityinthatsomewhatinsecurecountry,manytravellersfromthewestofEuropemakearrangementstotravelwiththem。Onourwaydownwemetthelastofthesecaravansfortheyear,andwewerepassingitformorethantwohours。OnthisoccasionIrodefirst,andSmithwasimmediatelybehindme;butofasuddenIobservedhimtowheelhishorseround,andtoclamberdownwardsamongbushesandstonestowardsariverthatranbelowus。\"Hallo,Smith,\"Icried,\"youwilldestroyyourhorse,andyourselftoo。\"Buthewouldnotanswerme,andallIcoulddowastodrawupinthepathandwait。
Myconfusionwasmadetheworse,asatthatmomentalongstringofpilgrimswaspassingby。\"Goodmorning,sir,\"saidanoldmantomeingoodEnglish。IlookedupasIansweredhim,andsawagrey-
hairedgentleman,ofverysolemnandsadaspect。Hemightbeseventyyearsofage,andIcouldseethathewasattendedbythreeorfourservants。Ishallneverforgetthesevereandsorrowfulexpressionofhiseyes,overwhichhisheavyeyebrowshunglow。
\"AretheremanyEnglishinJerusalem?\"heasked。\"Agoodmany,\"I
replied;\"therealwaysareatEaster。\"\"Canyoutellmeanythingofanyofthem?\"heasked。\"Notaword,\"saidI,forIknewnoone;
\"butourconsulcan。\"Andthenwebowedtoeachotherandhepassedon。
IgotoffmyhorseandscrambleddownonfootafterSmith。Ifoundhimgatheringberriesandbushesasthoughhisverysoulweremadwithbotany;butasIhadseennothingofthisinhimbefore,I
askedwhatstrangefreakhadtakenhim。
\"Youweretalkingtothatoldman,\"hesaid。
\"Well,yes,Iwas。\"
\"ThatistherelationofwhomIhavespokentoyou。\"
\"Thed-heis!\"
\"AndIwouldavoidhim,ifitbepossible。\"
Ithenlearnedthattheoldgentlemanwashisuncle。Hehadnolivingfatherormother,andhenowsupposedthathisrelativewasgoingtoJerusaleminquestofhim。\"Ifso,\"saidI,\"youwillundoubtedlygivehimlegbail,unlesstheAustrianboatismorethanordinarilylate。Itisasmuchasweshalldotocatchit,andyoumaybehalfoverAfrica,orfargoneonyourwaytoIndia,beforehecanbeonyourtrackagain。\"
\"IwilltellyouallaboutitatAlexandria,\"hereplied;andthenhescrambledupagainwithhishorse,andwewenton。ThatnightwesleptattheArmenianconventatRamlath,orRamath。ThisplaceissupposedtostandonthesiteofArimathea,andismarkedassuchinmanyofthemaps。Themonksatthistimeoftheyearareverybusy,asthepilgrimsallstayhereforonenightontheirroutesbackwardsandforwards,andtheplaceonsuchoccasionsisterriblycrowded。Onthenightofourvisititwasnearlyempty,asacaravanhadleftitthatmorning;andthuswewereindulgedwithseparatecells,apointonwhichmycompanionseemedtolayconsiderablestress。
Onthefollowingday,ataboutnoon,weenteredJaffa,andputupataninntherewhichiskeptbyaPole。TheboatfromBeyrout,whichtouchesatJaffaonitswaytoAlexandria,wasnotyetin,norevensighted;wewerethereforeamplyintime。\"Shallwesailto-night?\"
Iaskedoftheagent。\"Yes,inallprobability,\"hereplied。\"Ifthesignalbeseenbeforethreeweshalldoso。Ifnot,thennot;\"
andsoIreturnedtothehotel。
Smithhadinvoluntarilyshownsignsoffatigueduringthejourney,butyethehadborneupwellagainstit。Ihadneverfeltcalledontograntanyextraindulgenceastotimebecausetheworkwastoomuchforhim。Butnowhewasagooddealknockedup,andIwasalittlefrightenedfearingthatIhadover-drivenhimundertheheatofthesun。Iwasalarmedlestheshouldhavefever,andproposedtosendfortheJaffadoctor。Butthisheutterlyrefused。Hewouldshuthimselfforanhourortwoinhisroom,hesaid,andbythattimehetrustedtheboatwouldbeinsight。Itwascleartomethathewasveryanxiousonthesubject,fearingthathisunclewouldbebackuponhisheelsbeforehehadstarted。
Iorderedaseriousbreakfastformyself,forwithme,onsuchoccasions,myappetitedemandsmoreimmediateattentionthanmylimbs。IalsoacknowledgethatIbecomefatigued,andcanlaymyselfatlengthduringsuchidledaysandsleepfromhourtohour;
butthedesiretodosonevercomestillIhavewelleatenanddrunken。AbottleofFrenchwine,threeorfourcutletsofgoats’
flesh,anomeletmadeoutofthefreshesteggs,andanenormousdishoforanges,wasthebanquetsetbeforeme;andthoughImighthavefoundfaultwithitinParisorLondon,IthoughtthatitdidwellenoughinJaffa。Mypoorfriendcouldnotjoinme,buthadacupofcoffeeinhisroom。\"Atanyratetakealittlebrandyinit,\"I
saidtohim,asIstoodoverhisbed。\"Icouldnotswallowit,\"
saidhe,lookingatmewithalmostbeseechingeyes。\"Beshrewthefellow,\"IsaidtomyselfasIlefthim,carefullyclosingthedoor,sothatthesoundshouldnotshakehim;\"heislittlebetterthanawoman,andyetIhavebecomeasfondofhimasthoughheweremybrother。\"
Iwentoutatthree,butuptothattimetheboathadnotbeensignalled。\"Andweshallnotgetoutto-night?\"\"No,notto-
night,\"saidtheagent。\"Andwhattimeto-morrow?\"\"Ifshecomesinthisevening,youwillstartbydaylight。ButtheysomanageherdeparturefromBeyrout,thatsheseldomishereintheevening。\"
\"Itwillbenoonto-morrowthen?\"\"Yes,\"themansaid,\"noonto-
morrow。\"Icalculated,however,thattheoldgentlemancouldnotpossiblybeonourtrackbythattime。HewouldnothavereachedJerusalemtilllateinthedayonwhichwesawhim,anditwouldtakehimsometimetoobtaintidingsofhisnephew。ButitmightbepossiblethatmessengerssentbyhimshouldreachJaffabyfourorfiveonthedayafterhisarrival。ThatwouldbethisverydaywhichwewerenowwastingatJaffa。Havingthusmademycalculations,IreturnedtoSmithtogivehimsuchconsolationasitmightbeinmypowertoafford。
Heseemedtobedreadfullyafflictedbyallthis。\"HewillhavetracedmetoJerusalem,andthenagainaway;andwillfollowmeimmediately。\"
\"Thatisallverywell,\"Isaid;\"butletevenayoungmandothebesthecan,andhewillnotgetfromJerusalemtoJaffainlessthantwelvehours。Youruncleisnotayoungman,andcouldnotpossiblydothejourneyundertwodays。\"
\"Buthewillsend。Hewillnotmindwhatmoneyhespends。\"
\"Andifhedoessend,takeoffyourhattohismessengers,andbidthemcarryyourcomplaintsback。Youarenotafelonwhomhecanarrest。\"
\"No,hecannotarrestme;but,ah!youdonotunderstand;\"andthenhesatuponthebed,andseemedasthoughheweregoingtowringhishandsindespair。
Iwaitedforsomehalfhourinhisroom,thinkingthathewouldtellmethisstoryofhis。IfherequiredthatIshouldgivehimmyaidinthepresenceeitherofhisuncleorofhisuncle’smyrmidons,I
mustatanyrateknowwhatwaslikelytobethedisputebetweenthem。ButashesaidnothingIsuggestedthatheshouldstrolloutwithmeamongtheorange-grovesbywhichthetownissurrounded。Inanswertothishelookeduppiteouslyintomyfaceasthoughbeggingmetobemercifultohim。\"Youarestrong,\"saidhe,\"andcannotunderstandwhatitistofeelfatigueasIdo。\"Andyethehaddeclaredoncommencinghisjourneythathewouldnotbefoundtocomplain?Norhadhecomplainedbyasinglewordtillafterthatencounterwithhisuncle。Nay,hehadborneupwelltillthisnewshadreachedusoftheboatbeinglate。Ifeltconvincedthatiftheboatwereatthismomentlyingintheharbourallthatappearanceofexcessiveweaknesswouldsoonvanish。WhatitwasthathefearedI
couldnotguess;butitwasmanifesttomethatsomegreatterroralmostoverwhelmedhim。
\"Myideais,\"saidI,andIsupposethatIspokewithsomethinglessofgood-natureinmytonethanIhadassumedforthelastdayortwo,\"thatnomanshould,underanycircumstances,besoafraidofanotherman,astotrembleathispresence,——eitherathispresenceorhisexpectedpresence。\"
\"Ah,nowyouareangrywithme;nowyoudespiseme!\"
\"Neithertheonenortheother。ButifImaytakethelibertyofafriendwithyou,Ishouldadviseyoutocombatthisfeelingofhorror。Ifyoudonot,itwillunmanyou。Afterall,whatcanyouruncledotoyou?Hecannotrobyouofyourheartandsoul。Hecannottouchyourinnerself。\"
\"Youdonotknow,\"hesaid。
\"Ahbut,Smith,Idoknowthat。Whatevermaybethisquarrelbetweenyouandhim,youshouldnottrembleatthethoughtofhim;
unlessindeed——\"
\"Unlesswhat?\"
\"Unlessyouhaddoneaughtthatshouldmakeyoutremblebeforeeveryhonestman。\"IownIhadbeguntohavemydoubtsofhim,andtofearthathehadabsolutelydisgracedhimself。EveninsuchcaseI,——Iindividually,——didnotwishtobesevereonhim;butIshouldbeannoyedtofindthatIhadopenedmyhearttoaswindlerorapractisedknave。
\"Iwilltellyouallto-morrow,\"saidhe;\"butIhavebeenguiltyofnothingofthatsort。\"
Intheeveninghedidcomeout,andsatwithmeasIsmokedmycigar。Theboat,hewastold,wouldalmostundoubtedlycomeinbydaybreakonthefollowingmorning,andbeoffatnine;whereasitwasveryimprobablethatanyarrivalfromJerusalemwouldbesoearlyasthat。\"Beside,\"Iremindedhim,\"yourunclewillhardlyhurrydowntoJaffa,becausehewillhavenoreasontothinkbutwhatyouhavealreadystarted。Therearenotelegraphshere,youknow。\"
Intheeveninghewasstillverysad,thoughtheparoxysmofhisterrorseemedtohavepassedaway。Iwouldnotbotherhim,ashehadhimselfchosenthefollowingmorningforthetellingofhisstory。SoIsatandsmoked,andtalkedtohimaboutourpastjourney,andbydegreesthepowerofspeechcamebacktohim,andI
againfeltthatIlovedhim!Yes,lovedhim!Ihavenottakenmanysuchfanciesintomyhead,atsoshortanotice;butIdidlovehim,asthoughhewereayoungerbrother。Ifeltadelightinservinghim,andthoughIwasalmostoldenoughtobehisfather,I
ministeredtohimasthoughhehadbeenanoldman,orawoman。
Onthefollowingmorningwewerestirringatdaybreak,andfoundthatthevesselwasinsight。Shewouldbeintheroadsoffthetownintwohours’time,theysaid,andwouldstartatelevenortwelve。Andthenwewalkedroundbythegateofthetown,andsaunteredaquarterofamileorsoalongthewaythatleadstowardsJerusalem。Icouldseethathiseyewasanxiouslyturneddowntheroad,buthesaidnothing。Wesawnocloudofdust,andthenwereturnedtobreakfast。
\"Thesteamerhascometoanchor,\"saidourdirtyPolishhosttousinexecrableEnglish。\"Andwemaybeoffonboard,\"saidSmith。
\"Notyet,\"hesaid;\"theymustputtheircargooutfirst。\"Isaw,however,thatSmithwasuneasy,andImadeupmymindtogoofftothevesselatonce。WhentheyshouldseeanEnglishportmanteaumakinganoffertocomeupthegangway,theAustriansailorswouldnotstopit。SoIcalledforthebill,andorderedthatthethingsshouldbetakendowntothewretchedbrokenheapofrottentimberwhichtheycalledaquay。Smithhadnottoldmehisstory,butnodoubthewouldassoonashewasonboard。
IwasintheactofsquabblingwiththePoleoverthelastdemandforpiastres,whenweheardanoiseinthegatewayoftheinn,andI
sawSmith’scountenancebecomepale。ItwasanEnglishman’svoiceaskingiftherewereanystrangersthere;soIwentintothecourtyard,closingthedoorbehindme,andturningthekeyuponthelandlordandSmith。\"Smith,\"saidItomyself,\"willkeepthePolequietifhehaveanywitleft。\"
ThemanwhohadaskedthequestionhadtheairofanupperEnglishservant,andIthoughtthatIrecognisedoneofthosewhomIhadseenwiththeoldgentlemanontheroad;butthematterwassoonputatrestbytheappearanceofthatgentlemanhimself。Hewalkedupintothecourtyard,lookedhardatmefromunderthosebushyeyebrows,justraisedhishat,andthen——said,\"IbelieveIamspeakingtoMr。Jones。\"
\"Yes,\"saidI,\"IamMr。Jones。CanIhavethehonourofservingyou?\"
Therewassomethingpeculiarlyunpleasantaboutthisman’sface。AtthepresentmomentIexamineditclosely,andcouldunderstandthegreataversionwhichhisnephewfelttowardshim。Helookedlikeagentlemanandlikeamanoftalent,norwasthereanythingofmeannessinhisface;neitherwasheill-looking,intheusualacceptationoftheword;butonecouldseethathewassolemn,austere,andoverbearing;thathewouldbeincapableofanylightenjoyment,andunforgivingtowardsalloffences。Itookhimtobeamanwho,beingoldhimself,couldneverrememberthathehadbeenyoung,andwho,therefore,hatedthelevitiesofyouth。Tomesuchacharacterisspeciallyodious;forIwouldfain,ifitbepossible,beyoungeventomygrave。Smith,ifhewereclever,mightescapefromthewindowoftheroom,whichopenedoutuponaterrace,andstillgetdowntothesteamer。Iwouldkeeptheoldmaninplayforsometime;and,eventhoughIlostmypassage,wouldbetruetomyfriend。Therelayourjointluggageatmyfeetintheyard。IfSmithwouldventureawaywithouthisportionofit,allmightyetberight。
\"Myname,sir,isSirWilliamWeston,\"hebegan。Ihadheardofthenamebefore,andknewhimtobeamanofwealth,andfamily,andnote。Itookoffmyhat,andsaidthatIhadmuchhonourinmeetingSirWilliamWeston。
\"AndIpresumeyouknowtheobjectwithwhichIamnowhere,\"hecontinued。
\"Notexactly,\"saidI。\"NordoIunderstandhowIpossiblyshouldknowit,seeingthat,uptothismoment,Ididnotevenknowyourname,andhaveheardnothingconcerningeitheryourmovementsoryouraffairs。\"
\"Sir,\"saidhe,\"IhavehithertobelievedthatImightatanyrateexpectfromyouthetruth。\"
\"Sir,\"saidI,\"Iamboldtothinkthatyouwillnotdaretotellme,eithernow,oratanyothertime,thatyouhavereceived,orexpecttoreceive,frommeanythingthatisnottrue。\"
Hethenstoodstill,lookingatmeforamomentortwo,andIbegtoassertthatIlookedasfullyathim。Therewas,atanyrate,nocausewhyIshouldtremblebeforehim。Iwasnothisnephew,norwasIresponsibleforhisnephew’sdoingstowardshim。Twoofhisservantswerebehindhim,andonmysidetherestoodaboyandgirlbelongingtotheinn。They,however,couldnotunderstandawordofEnglish。Isawthathewashesitating,butatlasthespokeout。I
confess,now,thathiswords,whentheywerespoken,did,atthefirstmoment,makemetremble。
\"Ihavetochargeyou,\"saidhe,\"withelopingwithmyniece,andI
demandofyoutoinformmewheresheis。YouareperfectlyawarethatIamherguardianbylaw。\"
Ididtremble;——notthatIcaredmuchforSirWilliam’sguardianship,butIsawbeforemesoterribleanembarrassment!AndthenIfeltsothoroughlyabashedinthatIhadallowedmyselftobesodeceived!Itallcamebackuponmeinamoment,andcoveredmewithashamethatevenmademeblush。Ihadtravelledthroughthedesertwithawomanfordays,andhadnotdiscoveredher,thoughshehadgivenmeathousandsigns。AllthosesignsIrememberednow,andIblushedpainfully。WhenherhandwasonmyforeheadIstillthoughtthatshewasaman!IdeclarethatatthismomentIfeltastrongerdisinclinationtofacemylatecompanionthanIdidtoencounterherangryuncle。
\"Yourniece!\"Isaid,speakingwithasheepishbewildermentwhichshouldhaveconvincedhimatonceofmyinnocence。Shehadaskedme,too,whetherIwasamarriedman,andIhaddeniedit。HowwasItoescapefromsuchamessofmisfortunes?IdeclarethatIbegantoforgethertroublesinmyown。
\"Yes,myniece,——MissJuliaWeston。Thedisgracewhichyouhavebroughtuponmemustbewipedout;butmyfirstdutyistosavethatunfortunateyoungwomanfromfurthermisery。\"
\"Ifitbeasyousay,\"Iexclaimed,\"bythehonourofagentleman——\"
\"IcarenothingforthehonourofagentlemantillIseeitproved。
Begoodenoughtoinformme,sir,whetherMissWestonisinthishouse。\"
ForamomentIhesitated;butIsawatoncethatIshouldmakemyselfresponsibleforcertainmischief,ofwhichIwasatanyratehithertointruthinnocent,ifIallowedmyselftobecomeapartytoconcealingayounglady。UptothisperiodIcouldatanyratedefendmyself,whethermydefencewerebelievedornotbelieved。I
stillhadahopethatthecharmingJuliamighthaveescapedthroughthewindow,andafeelingthatifshehaddonesoIwasnotresponsible。WhenIturnedthelockIturneditonSmith。
ForamomentIhesitated,andthenwalkedslowlyacrosstheyardandopenedthedoor。\"SirWilliam,\"Isaid,asIdidso,\"Itravelledherewithacompaniondressedasaman;andIbelievedhimtobewhatheseemedtillthisminute。\"
\"Sir!\"saidSirWilliam,withalookofscorninhisfacewhichgavemethelieinmyteethasplainlyasanywordscoulddo。Andthenheenteredtheroom。ThePolewasstandinginonecorner,apparentlyamazedatwhatwasgoingon,andSmith,——ImayaswellcallherMissWestonatonce,forthebaronet’sstatementwastrue,——
wassittingonasortofdivaninthecornerofthechamberhidingherfaceinherhands。Shehadmadenoattemptatanescape,andafullexplanationwasthereforeindispensable。FormyselfIownthatIfeltashamedofmypartintheplay,——ashamedevenofmyowninnocency。HadIbeenlessinnocentIshouldcertainlyhavecontrivedtoappearmuchlessguilty。HaditoccurredtomeonthebanksoftheJordanthatSmithwasalady,Ishouldnothavetravelledwithherinhergentleman’shabilimentsfromJerusalemtoJaffa。Hadsheconsentedtoremainundermyprotection,shemusthavedonesowithoutamasquerade。
Theunclestoodstillandlookedathisniece。Heprobablyunderstoodhowthoroughlysternanddisagreeablewashisownface,andconsideredthathecouldpunishthecrimeofhisrelativeinnosevererwaythanbylookingather。InthisIthinkhewasright。
Butatlasttherewasanecessityforspeaking。\"Unfortunateyoungwoman!\"hesaid,andthenpaused。
\"Wehadbettergetridofthelandlord,\"Isaid,\"beforewecometoanyexplanation。\"AndImotionedtothemantoleavetheroom。
Thishedidveryunwillingly,butatlasthewasgone。
\"Ifearthatitisneedlesstocareonheraccountwhomayhearthestoryofhershame,\"saidSirWilliam。IlookedatMissWeston,butshestillsathidingherface。However,ifshedidnotdefendherself,itwasnecessarythatIshoulddefendbothherandme。
\"IdonotknowhowfarImaybeatlibertytospeakwithreferencetotheprivatemattersofyourselforofyour——yourniece,SirWilliamWeston。Iwouldnotwillinglyinterfere——\"
\"Sir,\"saidhe,\"yourinterferencehasalreadytakenplace。Willyouhavethegoodnesstoexplaintomewhatareyourintentionswithregardtothatlady?\"
Myintentions!Heavenhelpme!Myintentions,ofcourse,weretoleaveherinheruncle’shands。Indeed,IcouldhardlybesaidtohaveformedanyintentionsinceIhadlearnedthatIhadbeenhonouredbyalady’spresence。AtthismomentIdeeplyregrettedthatIhadthoughtlesslystatedtoherthatIwasanunmarriedman。
IndoingsoIhadhadnoobject。Butatthattime\"Smith\"hadbeenquiteastrangertome,andIhadnotthoughtitnecessarytodeclaremyownprivateconcerns。SincethatIhadtalkedsolittleofmyselfthatthefactofmyfamilyathomehadnotbeenmentioned。
\"Willyouhavethegoodnesstoexplainwhatareyourintentionswithregardtothatlady?\"saidthebaronet。
\"Oh,UncleWilliam!\"exclaimedMissWeston,nowatlengthraisingherheadfromherhands。
\"Holdyourpeace,madam,\"saidhe。\"Whencalledupontospeak,youwillfindyourwordswithdifficultyenough。Sir,Iamwaitingforananswerfromyou。\"
\"But,uncle,heisnothingtome;——thegentlemanisnothingtome!\"
\"Bytheheavensaboveus,heshallbesomething,orIwillknowthereasonwhy!What!hehasgoneoffwithyou;hehastravelledthroughthecountrywithyou,hidingyoufromyouronlynaturalfriend;hehasbeenyourcompanionforweeks——\"
\"Sixdays,sir,\"saidI。
\"Sir!\"saidthebaronet,againgivingmethelie。\"Andnow,\"hecontinued,addressinghisniece,\"youtellmethatheisnothingtoyou。HeshallgivemehispromisethathewillmakeyouhiswifeattheconsulateatAlexandria,orIwilldestroyhim。Iknowwhoheis。\"
\"IfyouknowwhoIam,\"saidI,\"youmustknow——\"
Buthewouldnotlistentome。\"Andasforyou,madam,unlesshemakesmethatpromise——\"Andthenhepausedinhisthreat,and,turninground,lookedmeintheface。Isawthatshealsowaslookingatme,thoughnotopenlyashedid;andsomeflatteringdevilthatwasatworkroundmyheart,wouldhavepersuadedthatshealsowouldhaveheardacertainanswergivenwithoutdismay,——wouldevenhavereceivedcomfortinheragonyfromsuchananswer。Butthereaderknowshowcompletelythatanswerwasoutofmypower。
\"Ihavenottheslightestgroundforsupposing,\"saidI,\"thattheladywouldaccedetosuchanarrangement,——ifitwerepossible。Myacquaintancewithherhasbeenaltogetherconfinedto——。Totellthetruth,IhavenotbeeninMissWeston’sconfidence,andhaveonlytakenherforthatwhichshehasseemedtobe。\"
\"Sir!\"saidthebaronet,againlookingatmeasthoughhewouldwithermeonthespotformyfalsehood。
\"Itistrue!\"saidJulia,gettingupfromherseat,andappealingwithclaspedhandstoheruncle——\"astrueasHeaven。\"
\"Madam!\"saidhe,\"doyoubothtakemeforafool?\"
\"Thatyoushouldtakemeforone,\"saidI,\"wouldbeverynatural。
Thefactsareaswestatetoyou。MissWeston,——asInowlearnthatsheis,——didmethehonourofcallingatmyhotel,havingheard——\"
AndthenitseemedtomeasthoughIwereattemptingtoscreenmyselfbytellingthestoryagainsther,soIwasagainsilent。
NeverinmylifehadIbeeninapositionofsuchextraordinarydifficulty。ThedutywhichIowedtoJuliaasawoman,andtoSirWilliamasaguardian,andtomyselfasthefatherofafamily,allclashedwitheachother。Iwasanxioustobegenerous,honest,andprudent,butitwasimpossible;soImadeupmymindtosaynothingfurther。
\"Mr。Jones,\"saidthebaronet,\"IhaveexplainedtoyoutheonlyarrangementwhichunderthepresentcircumstancesIcanpermittopasswithoutopenexposureandcondignpunishment。Thatyouareagentlemanbybirth,education,andpositionIamaware,\"——whereuponIraisedmyhat,andthenhecontinued:\"Thatladyhasthreehundredayearofherown——\"
\"Andattractions,personalandmental,whichareworthtentimesthemoney,\"saidI,andIbowedtomyfairfriend,wholookedatmethewhilewithsadbeseechingeyes。Iconfessthatthemistressofmybosom,hadsheknownmythoughtsatthatonemoment,mighthavehadcauseforanger。
\"Verywell,\"continuedhe。\"ThentheproposalwhichIname,cannot,Iimagine,butbesatisfactory。Ifyouwillmaketoherandtometheonlyamendswhichitisinyourpowerasagentlemantoafford,Iwillforgiveall。TellmethatyouwillmakeheryourwifeonyourarrivalinEgypt。\"
IwouldhavegivenanythingnottohavelookedatMissWestonatthismoment,butIcouldnothelpit。IdidturnmyfacehalfroundtoherbeforeIanswered,andthenfeltthatIhadbeencruelindoingso。\"SirWilliam,\"saidI,\"Ihaveathomealreadyawifeandfamilyofmyown。\"
\"Itisnottrue!\"saidhe,retreatingastep,andstaringatmewithamazement。
\"Thereissomething,sir,\"Ireplied,\"intheunprecedentedcircumstancesofthismeeting,andinyourpositionwithregardtothatlady,which,joinedtoyouradvancedage,willenablemetoregardthatuselessinsultasunspoken。Iamamarriedman。Thereisthesignatureofmywife’slastletter,\"andIhandedhimonewhichIhadreceivedasIwasleavingJerusalem。
ButthecoarseviolentcontradictionwhichSirWilliamhadgivenmewasnothingcomparedwiththereproachconveyedinMissWeston’scountenance。Shelookedatmeasthoughallherangerwerenowturnedagainstme。Andyet,methought,therewasmoreofsorrowthanofresentmentinhercountenance。Butwhatcausewasthereforeither?WhyshouldIbereproached,evenbyherlook?ShedidnotrememberatthemomentthatwhenIansweredherchancequestionastomydomesticaffairs,Ihadanswereditastoamanwhowasastrangertome,andnotastoabeautifulwoman,withwhomIwasabouttopasscertaindaysincloseandintimatesociety。Toher,atthemoment,itseemedasthoughIhadcruellydeceivedher。Intruth,theonepersonreallydeceivedhadbeenmyself。
AndhereImustexplain,onbehalfofthelady,thatwhenshefirstjoinedmeshehadnootherviewthanthatofseeingthebanksoftheJordaninthatguisewhichshehadchosentoassume,inordertoescapefromthesolemnityandausterityofadisagreeablerelative。
Shehadbeenveryfoolish,andthatwasall。ItakeitthatshehadfirstleftheruncleatConstantinople,butonthispointInevergotcertaininformation。Afterwards,whileweweretravellingtogether,theideahadcomeuponher,thatshemightgoonasfarasAlexandriawithme。AndthenIknownothingfurtherofthelady’sintentions,butIamcertainthatherwishesweregoodandpure。
Herunclehadbeenintolerabletoher,andshehadfledfromhim。
Suchhadbeenheroffence,andnomore。
\"Then,sir,\"saidthebaronet,givingmebackmyletter,\"youmustbeadouble-dyedvillain。\"
\"Andyou,sir,\"saidI。ButhereJuliaWestoninterruptedme。
\"Uncle,youaltogetherwrongthisgentleman,\"shesaid。\"Hehasbeenkindtomebeyondmypowerofwordstoexpress;but,tilltoldbyyou,heknewnothingofmysecret。Norwouldhehaveknownit,\"
sheadded,lookingdownupontheground。Astothatlatterassertion,IwasatlibertytobelieveasmuchasIpleased。
ThePolenowcametothedoor,informingusthatanywhowishedtostartbythepacketmustgoonboard,andtherefore,astheunreasonableoldgentlemanperceived,itwasnecessarythatweshouldallmakeourarrangements。Icannotsaythattheyweresuchasenablemetolookbackonthemwithsatisfaction。HedidseemnowatlasttobelievethatIhadbeenanunconsciousagentinhisniece’sstratagem,buthehardlyonthataccountbecameciviltome。
\"Itwasabsolutelynecessary,\"hesaid,\"thatheandthatunfortunateyoungwoman,\"ashewouldcallher,\"shoulddepartatonce,——bythisshipnowgoing。\"TothispropositionofcourseI
madenoopposition。\"Andyou,Mr。Jones,\"hecontinued,\"willatonceperceivethatyou,asagentleman,shouldallowustoproceedonourjourneywithoutthehonourofyourcompany。\"
Thiswasverydreadful,butwhatcouldIsay;or,indeed,whatcouldIdo?MymostearnestdesireinthematterwastosaveMissWestonfromannoyance;andunderexistingcircumstancesmypresenceonboardcouldnotbutbeaburdentoher。Andthen,ifIwent,——ifI
didgo,inoppositiontothewishesofthebaronet,couldItrustmyownprudence?ItwasbetterforallpartiesthatIshouldremain。
\"SirWilliam,\"saidI,afteraminute’sconsideration,\"ifyouwillapologisetomeforthegrossinsultsyouhaveofferedme,itshallbeasyousay。\"
\"Mr。Jones,\"saidSirWilliam,\"IdoapologiseforthewordswhichI
usedtoyouwhileIwaslabouringunderaverynaturalmisconceptionofthecircumstances。\"IdonotknowthatIwasmuchthebetterfortheapology,butatthemomentIregardeditsufficient。
Theirthingswerethenhurrieddowntothestrand,andIaccompaniedthemtotheruinedquay。ItookoffmyhattoSirWilliamashewasfirstletdownintotheboat。Hedescendedfirst,sothathemightreceivehisniece,——forallJaffanowknewthatitwasalady,——andthenIgavehermyhandforthelasttime。\"Godblessyou,MissWeston,\"Isaid,pressingitclosely。\"Godblessyou,Mr。Jones,\"
shereplied。AndfromthatdaytothisIhaveneitherspokentohernorseenher。
IwaitedafortnightatJaffafortheFrenchboat,eatingcutletsofgoat’sflesh,andwanderingamongtheorangegroves。Icertainlylookbackonthatfortnightasthemostmiserableperiodofmylife。
Ihadbeendeceived,andhadfailedtodiscoverthedeceit,eventhoughthedeceiverhadperhapswishedthatIshoulddoso。ForthatblindnessIhaveneverforgivenmyself。