第3章
加入书架 A- A+
点击下载App,搜索"TheSorrows of Young Werther",免费读到尾

  Couldyoubutseeme,mydearCharlotte,inthewhirlofdissipation,——howmysensesaredriedup,butmyheartisatnotimefull。Ienjoynosinglemomentofhappiness:allisvain——

  nothingtouchesme。Istand,asitwere,beforetheraree-show:

  Iseethelittlepuppetsmove,andIaskwhetheritisnotanopticalillusion。Iamamusedwiththesepuppets,or,rather,I

  ammyselfoneofthem:but,whenIsometimesgraspmyneighbour’shand,Ifeelthatitisnotnatural;andIwithdrawminewithashudder。IntheeveningIsayIwillenjoythenextmorning’ssunrise,andyetIremaininbed:inthedayIpromisetoramblebymoonlight;andI,nevertheless,remainathome。IknownotwhyIrise,norwhyIgotosleep。

  Theleavenwhichanimatedmyexistenceisgone:thecharmwhichcheeredmeinthegloomofnight,andarousedmefrommymorningslumbers,isforeverfled。

  Ihavefoundbutonebeingheretointerestme,aMissB——。Sheresemblesyou,mydearCharlotte,ifanyonecanpossiblyresembleyou。\"Ah!\"youwillsay,\"hehaslearnedhowtopayfinecompliments。\"

  Andthisispartlytrue。Ihavebeenveryagreeablelately,asitwasnotinmypowertobeotherwise。Ihave,moreover,adealofwit:andtheladiessaythatnooneunderstandsflatterybetter,orfalsehoodsyouwilladd;sincetheoneaccomplishmentinvariablyaccompaniestheother。ButImusttellyouofMissB——。Shehasabundanceofsoul,whichflashesfromherdeepblueeyes。Herrankisatormenttoher,andsatisfiesnoonedesireofherheart。

  Shewouldgladlyretirefromthiswhirloffashion,andweoftenpicturetoourselvesalifeofundisturbedhappinessindistantscenesofruralretirement:andthenwespeakofyou,mydearCharlotte;forsheknowsyou,andrendershomagetoyourmerits;

  butherhomageisnotexacted,butvoluntary,shelovesyou,anddelightstohearyoumadethesubjectofconversation。

  Oh,thatIweresittingatyourfeetinyourfavouritelittleroom,withthedearchildrenplayingaroundus!Iftheybecametroublesometoyou,Iwouldtellthemsomeappallinggoblinstory;andtheywouldcrowdroundmewithsilentattention。Thesunissettinginglory;hislastraysareshiningonthesnow,whichcoversthefaceofthecountry:thestormisover,andImustreturntomydungeon。Adieu!——IsAlbertwithyou?andwhatishetoyou?Godforgivethequestion。

  FEBRUARY8。

  Foraweekpastwehavehadthemostwretchedweather:butthistomeisablessing;for,duringmyresidencehere,notasinglefinedayhasbeamedfromtheheavens,buthasbeenlosttomebytheintrusionofsomebody。Duringtheseverityofrain,sleet,frost,andstorm,Icongratulatemyselfthatitcannotbeworseindoorsthanabroad,norworseabroadthanitiswithindoors;andsoIbecomereconciled。Whenthesunrisesbrightinthemorning,andpromisesagloriousday,Ineveromittoexclaim,\"There,now,theyhaveanotherblessingfromHeaven,whichtheywillbesuretodestroy:theyspoileverything,——health,fame,happiness,amusement;andtheydothisgenerallythroughfolly,ignorance,orimbecility,andalways,accordingtotheirownaccount,withthebestintentions!\"Icouldoftenbeseechthem,onmybendedknees,tobelessresolvedupontheirowndestruction。

  FEBRUARY17。

  IfearthatmyambassadorandIshallnotcontinuemuchlongertogether。Heisreallygrowingpastendurance。Hetransactshisbusinessinsoridiculousamanner,thatIamoftencompelledtocontradicthim,anddothingsmyownway;andthen,ofcourse,hethinksthemveryilldone。Hecomplainedofmelatelyonthisaccountatcourt;andtheministergavemeareprimand,——agentleoneitistrue,butstillareprimand。Inconsequenceofthis,Iwasabouttotendermyresignation,whenIreceivedaletter,towhichIsubmittedwithgreatrespect,onaccountofthehigh,noble,andgenerousspiritwhichdictatedit。Heendeavouredtosoothemyexcessivesensibility,paidatributetomyextremeideasofduty,ofgoodexample,andofperseveranceinbusiness,asthefruitofmyyouthfulardour,animpulsewhichhedidnotseektodestroy,butonlytomoderate,thatitmighthaveproperplayandbeproductiveofgood。SonowIamatrestforanotherweek,andnolongeratvariancewithmyself。Contentandpeaceofmindarevaluablethings:Icouldwish,mydearfriend,thatthesepreciousjewelswerelesstransitory。

  FERRUARY20。

  Godblessyou,mydearfriends,andmayhegrantyouthathappinesswhichhedeniestome!

  Ithankyou,Albert,forhavingdeceivedme。Iwaitedforthenewsthatyourwedding-daywasfixed;andIintendedonthatday,withsolemnity,totakedownCharlotte’sprofilefromthewall,andtoburyitwithsomeotherpapersIpossess。Youarenowunited,andherpicturestillremainshere。Well,letitremain!

  Whyshoulditnot?IknowthatIamstilloneofyoursociety,thatIstilloccupyaplaceuninjuredinCharlotte’sheart,thatIholdthesecondplacetherein;andIintendtokeepit。Oh,I

  shouldbecomemadifshecouldforget!Albert,thatthoughtishell!Farewell,Albertfarewell,angelofheavenfarewell,Charlotte!

  MARCH15。

  Ihavejusthadasadadventure,whichwilldrivemeawayfromhere。Iloseallpatience!——Death!——Itisnottoberemedied;

  andyoualonearetoblame,foryouurgedandimpelledmetofillapostforwhichIwasbynomeanssuited。Ihavenowreasontobesatisfied,andsohaveyou!But,thatyoumaynotagainattributethisfatalitytomyimpetuoustemper,Isendyou,mydearsir,aplainandsimplenarrationoftheaffair,asamerechronicleroffactswoulddescribeit。

  TheCountofO——likesanddistinguishesme。Itiswellknown,andIhavementionedthistoyouahundredtimes。YesterdayI

  dinedwithhim。Itisthedayonwhichthenobilityareaccustomedtoassembleathishouseintheevening。Ineveroncethoughtoftheassembly,northatwesubalternsdidnotbelongtosuchsociety。

  Well,Idinedwiththecount;and,afterdinner,weadjournedtothelargehall。Wewalkedupanddowntogether:andIconversedwithhim,andwithColonelB——,whojoinedus;andinthismannerthehourfortheassemblyapproached。Godknows,Iwasthinkingofnothing,whenwhoshouldenterbutthehonourableLadyaccompaniedbyhernoblehusbandandtheirsilly,schemingdaughter,withhersmallwaistandflatneck;and,withdisdainfullooksandahaughtyairtheypassedmeby。AsIheartilydetestthewholerace,I

  determinedupongoingaway;andonlywaitedtillthecounthaddisengagedhimselffromtheirimpertinentprattle,totakeleave,whentheagreeableMissB——camein。AsInevermeetherwithoutexperiencingaheartfeltpleasure,Istayedandtalkedtoher,leaningoverthebackofherchair,anddidnotperceive,tillaftersometime,thatsheseemedalittleconfused,andceasedtoanswermewithherusualeaseofmanner。Iwasstruckwithit。

  \"Heavens!\"Isaidtomyself,\"canshe,too,beliketherest?\"I

  feltannoyed,andwasabouttowithdraw;butIremained,notwithstanding,formingexcusesforherconduct,fancyingshedidnotmeanit,andstillhopingtoreceivesomefriendlyrecognition。

  Therestofthecompanynowarrived。TherewastheBaronF——,inanentiresuitthatdatedfromthecoronationofFrancisI。;theChancellorN——,withhisdeafwife;theshabbily-dressedI——,whoseold-fashionedcoatboreevidenceofmodernrepairs:thiscrownedthewhole。Iconversedwithsomeofmyacquaintances,buttheyansweredmelaconically。IwasengagedinobservingMissB——,anddidnotnoticethatthewomenwerewhisperingattheendoftheroom,thatthemurmurextendedbydegreestothemen,thatMadameS——addressedthecountwithmuchwarmth(thiswasallrelatedtomesubsequentlybyMissB——);tillatlengththecountcameuptome,andtookmetothewindow。\"Youknowourridiculouscustoms,\"

  hesaid。\"Iperceivethecompanyisratherdispleasedatyourbeinghere。Iwouldnotonanyaccount——\"\"Ibegyourexcellency’spardon!\"Iexclaimed。\"Ioughttohavethoughtofthisbefore,butIknowyouwillforgivethislittleinattention。Iwasgoing,\"

  Iadded,\"sometimeago,butmyevilgeniusdetainedme。\"AndI

  smiledandbowed,totakemyleave。Heshookmebythehand,inamannerwhichexpressedeverything。Ihastenedatoncefromtheillustriousassembly,sprangintoacarriage,anddrovetoM——。

  Icontemplatedthesettingsunfromthetopofthehill,andreadthatbeautifulpassageinHomer,whereUlyssesisentertainedbythehospitableherdsmen。Thiswasindeeddelightful。

  Ireturnedhometosupperintheevening。Butfewpersonswereassembledintheroom。Theyhadturnedupacornerofthetable-cloth,andwereplayingatdice。Thegood-naturedA——camein。Helaiddownhishatwhenhesawme,approachedme,andsaidinalowtone,\"Youhavemetwithadisagreeableadventure。\"\"I!\"Iexclaimed。

  \"Thecountobligedyoutowithdrawfromtheassembly!\"\"Deucetaketheassembly!\"saidI。\"Iwasverygladtobegone。\"\"Iamdelighted,\"headded,\"thatyoutakeitsolightly。Iamonlysorrythatitisalreadysomuchspokenof。\"Thecircumstancethenbegantopainme。Ifanciedthateveryonewhosatdown,andevenlookedatme,wasthinkingofthisincident;andmyheartbecameembittered。

  AndnowIcouldplungeadaggerintomybosom,whenIhearmyselfeverywherepitied,andobservethetriumphofmyenemies,whosaythatthisisalwaysthecasewithvainpersons,whoseheadsareturnedwithconceit,whoaffecttodespiseformsandsuchpetty,idlenonsense。

  Saywhatyouwilloffortitude,butshowmethemanwhocanpatientlyendurethelaughteroffools,whentheyhaveobtainedanadvantageoverhim。’Tisonlywhentheirnonsenseiswithoutfoundationthatonecansufferitwithoutcomplaint。

  March16。

  Everythingconspiresagainstme。ImetMissB——walkingto-day。

  Icouldnothelpjoiningher;and,whenwewereatalittledistancefromhercompanions,Iexpressedmysenseofheralteredmannertowardme。\"OWerther!\"shesaid,inatoneofemotion,\"you,whoknowmyheart,howcouldyousoillinterpretmydistress?WhatdidInotsufferforyou,fromthemomentyouenteredtheroom!

  Iforesawitall,ahundredtimeswasIonthepointofmentioningittoyou。IknewthattheS——sandT——s,withtheirhusbands,wouldquittheroom,ratherthanremaininyourcompany。Iknewthatthecountwouldnotbreakwiththem:andnowsomuchissaidaboutit。\"\"How!\"Iexclaimed,andendeavouredtoconcealmyemotion;forallthatAdelinhadmentionedtomeyesterdayrecurredtomepainfullyatthatmoment。\"Oh,howmuchithasalreadycostme!\"saidthisamiablegirl,whilehereyesfilledwithtears。I

  couldscarcelycontainmyself,andwasreadytothrowmyselfatherfeet。\"Explainyourself!\"Icried。Tearsfloweddownhercheeks。Ibecamequitefrantic。Shewipedthemaway,withoutattemptingtoconcealthem。\"Youknowmyaunt,\"shecontinued;

  \"shewaspresent:andinwhatlightdoessheconsidertheaffair!

  Lastnight,andthismorning,Werther,Iwascompelledtolistentoalectureuponmy,acquaintancewithyou。Ihavebeenobligedtohearyoucondemnedanddepreciated;andIcouldnot——Idarednot——saymuchinyourdefence。\"

  Everywordsheutteredwasadaggertomyheart。Shedidnotfeelwhatamercyitwouldhavebeentoconcealeverythingfromme。

  Shetoldme,inaddition,alltheimpertinencethatwouldbefurthercirculated,andhowthemaliciouswouldtriumph;howtheywouldrejoiceoverthepunishmentofmypride,overmyhumiliationforthatwantofesteemforotherswithwhichIhadoftenbeenreproached。

  Tohearallthis,Wilhelm,utteredbyherinavoiceofthemostsinceresympathy,awakenedallmypassions;andIamstillinastateofextremeexcitement。IwishIcouldfindamantojeermeaboutthisevent。Iwouldsacrificehimtomyresentment。Thesightofhisbloodmightpossiblybearelieftomyfury。AhundredtimeshaveIseizedadagger,togiveeasetothisoppressedheart。

  Naturaliststellofanobleraceofhorsesthatinstinctivelyopenaveinwiththeirteeth,whenheatedandexhaustedbyalongcourse,inordertobreathemorefreely。Iamoftentemptedtoopenavein,toprocureformyselfeverlastingliberty。

  MARCH24。

  Ihavetenderedmyresignationtothecourt。Ihopeitwillbeaccepted,andyouwillforgivemefornothavingpreviouslyconsultedyou。ItisnecessaryIshouldleavethisplace。Iknowallyouwillurgemetostay,andthereforeIbegyouwillsoftenthisnewstomymother。Iamunabletodoanythingformyself:how,then,shouldIbecompetenttoassistothers?ItwillafflictherthatIshouldhaveinterruptedthatcareerwhichwouldhavemademefirstaprivycouncillor,andthenminister,andthatIshouldlookbehindme,inplaceofadvancing。Argueasyouwill,combineallthereasonswhichshouldhaveinducedmetoremain,Iamgoing:

  thatissufficient。But,thatyoumaynotbeignorantofmydestination,ImaymentionthatthePrinceof——ishere。Heismuchpleasedwithmycompany;and,havingheardofmyintentiontoresign,hehasinvitedmetohiscountryhouse,topassthespringmonthswithhim。Ishallbeleftcompletelymyownmaster;

  and,asweagreeonallsubjectsbutone,Ishalltrymyfortune,andaccompanyhim。

  APRILl9。

  Thanksforbothyourletters。Idelayedmyreply,andwithheldthisletter,tillIshouldobtainananswerfromthecourt。I

  fearedmymothermightapplytotheministertodefeatmypurpose。

  Butmyrequestisgranted,myresignationisaccepted。Ishallnotrecountwithwhatreluctanceitwasaccorded,norrelatewhattheministerhaswritten:youwouldonlyrenewyourlamentations。

  Thecrownprincehassentmeapresentoffiveandtwentyducats;

  and,indeed,suchgoodnesshasaffectedmetotears。ForthisreasonIshallnotrequirefrommymotherthemoneyforwhichI

  latelyapplied。

  MAY5。

  Ileavethisplaceto-morrow;and,asmynativeplaceisonlysixmilesfromthehighroad,Iintendtovisititoncemore,andrecallthehappydreamsofmychildhood。IshallenteratthesamegatethroughwhichIcamewithmymother,when,aftermyfather’sdeath,sheleftthatdelightfulretreattoimmureherselfinyourmelancholytown。Adieu,mydearfriend:youshallhearofmyfuturecareer。

  MAY9。

  Ihavepaidmyvisittomynativeplacewithallthedevotionofapilgrim,andhaveexperiencedmanyunexpectedemotions。Nearthegreatelmtree,whichisaquarterofaleaguefromthevillage,Igotoutofthecarriage,andsentitonbefore,thatalone,andonfoot,Imightenjoyvividlyandheartilyallthepleasureofmyrecollections。Istoodthereunderthatsameelmwhichwasformerlythetermandobjectofmywalks。Howthingshavesincechanged!Then,inhappyignorance,IsighedforaworldIdidnotknow,whereIhopedtofindeverypleasureandenjoymentwhichmyheartcoulddesire;andnow,onmyreturnfromthatwideworld,O

  myfriend,howmanydisappointedhopesandunsuccessfulplanshaveIbroughtback!

  AsIcontemplatedthemountainswhichlaystretchedoutbeforeme,Ithoughthowoftentheyhadbeentheobjectofmydearestdesires。

  HereusedItositforhourstogetherwithmyeyesbentuponthem,ardentlylongingtowanderintheshadeofthosewoods,tolosemyselfinthosevalleys,whichformsodelightfulanobjectinthedistance。WithwhatreluctancedidIleavethischarmingspot;

  whenmyhourofrecreationwasover,andmyleaveofabsenceexpired!Idrewneartothevillage:allthewell-knownoldsummerhousesandgardenswererecognisedagain;Idislikedthenewones,andallotheralterationswhichhadtakenplace。Ienteredthevillage,andallmyformerfeelingsreturned。Icannot,mydearfriend,enterintodetails,charmingasweremysensations:

  theywouldbedullinthenarration。Ihadintendedtolodgeinthemarket-place,nearouroldhouse。AssoonasIentered,I

  perceivedthattheschoolroom,whereourchildhoodhadbeentaughtbythatgoodoldwoman,wasconvertedintoashop。Icalledtomindthesorrow,theheaviness,thetears,andoppressionofheart,whichIexperiencedinthatconfinement。Everystepproducedsomeparticularimpression。ApilgrimintheHolyLanddoesnotmeetsomanyspotspregnantwithtenderrecollections,andhissoulishardlymovedwithgreaterdevotion。Oneincidentwillserveforillustration。Ifollowedthecourseofastreamtoafarm,formerlyadelightfulwalkofmine,andpausedatthespot,where,whenboys,weusedtoamuseourselvesmakingducksanddrakesuponthewater。IrecollectedsowellhowIusedformerlytowatchthecourseofthatsamestream,followingitwithinquiringeagerness,formingromanticideasofthecountriesitwastopassthrough;

  butmyimaginationwassoonexhausted:whilethewatercontinuedflowingfartherandfartheron,tillmyfancybecamebewilderedbythecontemplationofaninvisibledistance。Exactlysuch,mydearfriend,sohappyandsoconfined,werethethoughtsofourgoodancestors。Theirfeelingsandtheirpoetrywerefreshaschildhood。And,whenUlyssestalksoftheimmeasurableseaandboundlessearth,hisepithetsaretrue,natural,deeplyfelt,andmysterious。OfwhatimportanceisitthatIhavelearned,witheveryschoolboy,thattheworldisround?Manneedsbutlittleearthforenjoyment,andstilllessforhisfinalrepose。

  Iamatpresentwiththeprinceathishuntinglodge。Heisamanwithwhomonecanlivehappily。Heishonestandunaffected。Thereare,however,somestrangecharactersabouthim,whomIcannotatallunderstand。Theydonotseemvicious,andyettheydonotcarrytheappearanceofthoroughlyhonestmen。SometimesIamdisposedtobelievethemhonest,andyetIcannotpersuademyselftoconfideinthem。Itgrievesmetoheartheprinceoccasionallytalkofthingswhichhehasonlyreadorheardof,andalwayswiththesameviewinwhichtheyhavebeenrepresentedbyothers。

  Hevaluesmyunderstandingandtalentsmorehighlythanmyheart,butIamproudofthelatteronly。Itisthesolesourceofeverythingofourstrength,happiness,andmisery。AlltheknowledgeIpossesseveryoneelsecanacquire,butmyheartisexclusivelymyown。

  MAY25。

  IhavehadaplaninmyheadofwhichIdidnotintendtospeaktoyouuntilitwasaccomplished:nowthatithasfailed,Imayaswellmentionit。Iwishedtoenterthearmy,andhadlongbeendesirousoftakingthestep。This,indeed,wasthechiefreasonformycomingherewiththeprince,asheisageneralintheservice。Icommunicatedmydesigntohimduringoneofourwalkstogether。Hedisapprovedofit,anditwouldhavebeenactualmadnessnottohavelistenedtohisreasons。

  JUNE11。

  Saywhatyouwill,Icanremainherenolonger。WhyshouldI

  remain?Timehangsheavyuponmyhands。Theprinceisasgracioustomeasanyonecouldbe,andyetIamnotatmyease。Thereis,indeed,nothingincommonbetweenus。Heisamanofunderstanding,butquiteoftheordinarykind。HisconversationaffordsmenomoreamusementthanIshouldderivefromtheperusalofawell-writtenbook。IshallremainhereaweekIonger,andthenstartagainonmytravels。MydrawingsarethebestthingsIhavedonesinceI

  camehere。Theprincehasatasteforthearts,andwouldimproveifhismindwerenotfetteredbycoldrulesandmeretechnicalideas。Ioftenlosepatience,when,withaglowingimagination,Iamgivingexpressiontoartandnature,heinterfereswithlearnedsuggestions,andusesatrandomthetechnicalphraseologyofartists。

  JULY16。

  OncemoreIamawanderer,apilgrim,throughtheworld。Butwhatelseareyou!

  JULY18。

  WhitheramIgoing?Iwilltellyouinconfidence。Iamobligedtocontinueafortnightlongerhere,andthenIthinkitwouldbebetterformetovisittheminesin——。ButIamonlydeludingmyselfthus。Thefactis,IwishtobenearCharlotteagain,thatisall。Ismileatthesuggestionsofmyheart,andobeyitsdictates。

  JULY29。

  No,no!itisyetwellalliswell!Iherhusband!OGod,whogavemebeing,ifthouhadstdestinedthishappinessforme,mywholelifewouldhavebeenonecontinualthanksgiving!ButIwillnotmurmur——forgivethesetears,forgivethesefruitlesswishes。

  She——mywife!Oh,theverythoughtoffoldingthatdearestofHeaven’screaturesinmyarms!DearWilhelm,mywholeframefeelsconvulsedwhenIseeAlbertputhisarmsaroundherslenderwaist!

  AndshallIavowit?WhyshouldInot,Wilhelm?Shewouldhavebeenhappierwithmethanwithhim。Albertisnotthemantosatisfythewishesofsuchaheart。Hewantsacertainsensibility;

  hewants——inshort,theirheartsdonotbeatinunison。Howoften,mydearfriend,imreadingapassagefromsomeinterestingbook,whenmyheartandCharlotte’sseemedtomeet,andinahundredotherinstanceswhenoursentimentswereunfoldedbythestoryofsomefictitiouscharacter,haveIfeltthatweweremadeforeachother!But,dearWilhelm,helovesherwithhiswholesoul;andwhatdoesnotsuchalovedeserve?

  Ihavebeeninterruptedbyaninsufferablevisit。Ihavedriedmytears,andcomposedmythoughts。Adieu,mybestfriend!

  AUGUST4。

  Iamnotaloneunfortunate。Allmenaredisappointedintheirhopes,anddeceivedintheirexpectations。Ihavepaidavisittomygoodoldwomanunderthelime-trees。Theeldestboyranouttomeetme:hisexclamationofjoybroughtouthismother,butshehadaverymelancholylook。Herfirstwordwas,\"Alas!

  dearsir,mylittleJohnisdead。\"Hewastheyoungestofherchildren。Iwassilent。\"AndmyhusbandhasreturnedfromSwitzerlandwithoutanymoney;and,ifsomekindpeoplehadnotassistedhim,hemusthavebeggedhiswayhome。Hewastakenillwithfeveronhisjourney。\"Icouldanswernothing,butmadethelittleoneapresent。Sheinvitedmetotakesomefruit:Icomplied,andlefttheplacewithasorrowfulheart。

  AUGUST21。

  Mysensationsareconstantlychanging。Sometimesahappyprospectopensbeforeme;butalas!itisonlyforamoment;andthen,whenIamlostinreverie,Icannothelpsayingtomyself,\"IfAlbertweretodie?——Yes,shewouldbecome——andIshouldbe\"——andsoIpursueachimera,tillitleadsmetotheedgeofaprecipiceatwhichIshudder。

  WhenIpassthroughthesamegate,andwalkalongthesameroadwhichfirstconductedmetoCharlotte,myheartsinkswithinmeatthechangethathassincetakenplace。All,all,isaltered!

  Nosentiment,nopulsationofmyheart,isthesame。Mysensationsaresuchaswouldoccurtosomedepartedprincewhosespiritshouldreturntovisitthesuperbpalacewhichhehadbuiltinhappytimes,adornedwithcostlymagnificence,andlefttoabelovedson,butwhosegloryheshouldfinddeparted,anditshallsdesertedandinruins。

  SEPTEMBER3。

  Isometimescannotunderstandhowshecanloveanother,howshedaresloveanother,whenIlovenothinginthisworldsocompletely,sodevotedly,asIloveher,whenIknowonlyher,andhavenootherpossession。

  SEPTEMBER4。

  Itisevenso!Asnatureputsonherautumntintsitbecomesautumnwithmeandaroundme。Myleavesaresereandyellow,andtheneighbouringtreesaredivestedoftheirfoliage。Doyouremembermywritingtoyouaboutapeasantboyshortlyaftermyarrivalhere?IhavejustmadeinquiriesabouthiminWalheim。

  Theysayhehasbeendismissedfromhisservice,andisnowavoidedbyeveryone。Imethimyesterdayontheroad,goingtoaneighbouringvillage。Ispoketohim,andhetoldmehisstory。

  Itinterestedmeexceedingly,asyouwilleasilyunderstandwhenIrepeatittoyou。ButwhyshouldItroubleyou?WhyshouldI

  notreserveallmysorrowformyself?WhyshouldIcontinuetogiveyouoccasiontopityandblameme?Butnomatter:thisalsoispartofmydestiny。

  Atfirstthepeasantladansweredmyinquirieswithasortofsubduedmelancholy,whichseemedtomethemarkofatimiddisposition;

  but,aswegrewtounderstandeachother,hespokewithlessreserve,andopenlyconfessedhisfaults,andlamentedhismisfortune。I

  wish,mydearfriend,Icouldgiveproperexpressiontohislanguage。Hetoldmewithasortofpleasurablerecollection,that,aftermydeparture,hispassionforhismistressincreaseddaily,untilatlastheneitherknewwhathedidnorwhathesaid,norwhatwastobecomeofhim。Hecouldneithereatnordrinknorsleep:hefeltasenseofsuffocation;hedisobeyedallorders,andforgotallcommandsinvoluntarily;heseemedasifpursuedbyanevilspirit,tilloneday,knowingthathismistresshadgonetoanupperchamber,hehadfollowed,or,rather,beendrawnafterher。Assheproveddeaftohisentreaties,hehadrecoursetoviolence。Heknowsnotwhathappened;buthecalledGodtowitnessthathisintentionstoherwerehonourable,andthathedesirednothingmoresincerelythanthattheyshouldmarry,andpasstheirlivestogether。Whenhehadcometothispoint,hebegantohesitate,asiftherewassomethingwhichhehadnotcouragetoutter,tillatlengthheacknowledgedwithsomeconfusioncertainlittleconfidencesshehadencouraged,andlibertiesshehadallowed。

  Hebrokeofftwoorthreetimesinhisnarration,andassuredmemostearnestlythathehadnowishtomakeherbad,ashetermedit,forhelovedherstillassincerelyasever;thatthetalehadneverbeforeescapedhislips,andwasonlynowtoldtoconvincemethathewasnotutterlylostandabandoned。Andhere,mydearfriend,ImustcommencetheoldsongwhichyouknowIuttereternally。

  IfIcouldonlyrepresentthemanashestood,andstandsnowbeforeme,couldIonlygivehistrueexpressions,youwouldfeelcompelledtosympathiseinhisfate。Butenough:you,whoknowmymisfortuneandmydisposition,caneasilycomprehendtheattractionwhichdrawsmetowardeveryunfortunatebeing,butparticularlytowardhimwhosestoryIhaverecounted。

  Onperusingthisletterasecondtime,IfindIhaveomittedtheconclusionofmytale;butitiseasilysupplied。Shebecamereservedtowardhim,attheinstigationofherbrotherwhohadlonghatedhim,anddesiredhisexpulsionfromthehouse,fearingthathissister’ssecondmarriagemightdeprivehischildrenofthehandsomefortunetheyexpectedfromher;assheischildless。

  Hewasdismissedatlength;andthewholeaffairoccasionedsomuchscandal,thatthemistressdarednottakehimback,evenifshehadwishedit。Shehassincehiredanotherservant,withwhom,theysay,herbrotherisequallydispleased,andwhomsheislikelytomarry;butmyinformantassuresmethathehimselfisdeterminednottosurvivesuchacatastrophe。

  Thisstoryisneitherexaggeratednorembellished:indeed,Ihaveweakenedandimpaireditinthenarration,bythenecessityofusingthemorerefinedexpressionsofsociety。

  Thislove,then,thisconstancy,thispassion,isnopoeticalfiction。Itisactual,anddwellsinitsgreatestpurityamongstthatclassofmankindwhomwetermrude,uneducated。Wearetheeducated,nottheperverted。Butreadthisstorywithattention,Iimploreyou。Iamtranquilto-day,forIhavebeenemployeduponthisnarration:youseebymywritingthatIamnotsoagitatedasusual。Ireadandre-readthistale,Wilhelm:itisthehistoryofyourfriend!Myfortunehasbeenandwillbesimilar;andI

  amneitherhalfsobravenorhalfsodeterminedasthepoorwretchwithwhomIhesitatetocomparemyself。

  SEPTEMBER5。

  Charlottehadwrittenalettertoherhusbandinthecountry,wherehewasdetainedbybusiness。Itcommenced,\"Mydearestlove,returnassoonaspossible:Iawaityouwithathousandraptures。\"

  Afriendwhoarrived,broughtword,that,forcertainreasons,hecouldnotreturnimmediately。Charlotte’sletterwasnotforwarded,andthesameeveningitfellintomyhands。Ireadit,andsmiled。

  Sheaskedthereason。\"Whataheavenlytreasureisimagination:\"

  Iexclaimed;\"Ifanciedforamomentthatthiswaswrittentome。\"

  Shepaused,andseemeddispleased。Iwassilent。

  SEPTEMBER6。

  ItcostmemuchtopartwiththebluecoatwhichIworethefirsttimeIdancedwithCharlotte。ButIcouldnotpossiblywearitanylonger。ButIhaveorderedanewone,preciselysimilar,eventothecollarandsleeves,aswellasanewwaistcoatandpantaloons。

  Butitdoesnotproducethesameeffectuponme。Iknownothowitis,butIhopeintimeIshalllikeitbetter。

  SEPTEMBER12。

  Shehasbeenabsentforsomedays。ShewenttomeetAlbert。

  To-dayIvisitedher:sherosetoreceiveme,andIkissedherhandmosttenderly。

  Acanaryatthemomentflewfromamirror,andsettleduponhershoulder。\"Hereisanewfriend,\"sheobserved,whileshemadehimperchuponherhand:\"heisapresentforthechildren。Whatadearheis!Lookathim!WhenIfeedhim,heflutterswithhiswings,andpeckssonicely。Hekissesme,too,onlylook!\"

  Sheheldthebirdtohermouth;andhepressedhersweetlipswithsomuchfervourthatheseemedtofeeltheexcessofblisswhichheenjoyed。

  \"Heshallkissyoutoo,\"sheadded;andthensheheldthebirdtowardme。Hislittlebeakmovedfromhermouthtomine,andthedelightfulsensationseemedliketheforerunnerofthesweetestbliss。

  \"Akiss,\"Iobserved,\"doesnotseemtosatisfyhim:hewishesforfood,andseemsdisappointedbytheseunsatisfactoryendearments。\"

  \"Butheeatsoutofmymouth,\"shecontinued,andextendedherlipstohimcontainingseed;andshesmiledwithallthecharmofabeingwhohasallowedaninnocentparticipationofherlove。

  Iturnedmyfaceaway。Sheshouldnotactthus。Sheoughtnottoexcitemyimaginationwithsuchdisplaysofheavenlyinnocenceandhappiness,norawakenmyheartfromitsslumbers,inwhichitdreamsoftheworthlessnessoflife!Andwhynot?BecausesheknowshowmuchIloveher。

  SEPTEMBER15。

  Itmakesmewretched,Wilhelm,tothinkthatthereshouldbemenincapableofappreciatingthefewthingswhichpossessarealvalueinlife。YourememberthewalnuttreesatS——,underwhichIusedtositwithCharlotte,duringmyvisitstotheworthyoldvicar。

  Thoseglorioustrees,theverysightofwhichhassooftenfilledmyheartwithjoy,howtheyadornedandrefreshedtheparsonageyard,withtheirwide-extendedbranches!andhowpleasingwasourremembranceofthegoodoldpastor,bywhosehandstheywereplantedsomanyyearsago:Theschoolmasterhasfrequentlymentionedhisname。Hehaditfromhisgrandfather。Hemusthavebeenamostexcellentman;and,undertheshadeofthoseoldtrees,hismemorywaseverveneratedbyme。Theschoolmasterinformedusyesterday,withtearsinhiseyes,thatthosetreeshadbeenfelled。

  Yes,cuttotheground!Icould,inmywrath,haveslainthemonsterwhostruckthefirststroke。AndImustendurethis!——

  I,who,ifIhadhadtwosuchtreesinmyowncourt,andonehaddiedfromoldage,shouldhaveweptwithrealaffliction。Butthereissomecomfortleft,suchathingissentiment,thewholevillagemurmursatthemisfortune;andIhopethevicar’swifewillsoonfind,bythecessationofthevillagers’presents,howmuchshehaswoundedthefeelingsoftheneighborhhood。Itwasshewhodidit,thewifeofthepresentincumbent(ourgoodoldmanisdead),atall,sicklycreaturewhoissofarrighttodisregardtheworld,astheworldtotallydisregardsher。Thesillybeingaffectstobelearned,pretendstoexaminethecanonicalbooks,lendsheraidtowardthenew-fashionedreformationofChristendom,moralandcritical,andshrugsuphershouldersatthementionofLavater’senthusiasm。Herhealthisdestroyed,onaccountofwhichsheispreventedfromhavinganyenjoymentherebelow。Onlysuchacreaturecouldhavecutdownmywalnuttrees!

  Icanneverpardonit。Hearherreasons。Thefallingleavesmadethecourtwetanddirty;thebranchesobstructedthelight;boysthrewstonesatthenutswhentheywereripe,andthenoiseaffectedhernerves;anddisturbedherprofoundmeditations,whenshewasweighingthediffcultiesofKennicot,Semler,andMichaelis。

  Findingthatalltheparish,particularlytheoldpeople,weredispleased,Iasked\"whytheyallowedit?\"\"Ah,sir!\"theyreplied,\"whenthestewardorders,whatcanwepoorpeasantsdo?\"Butonethinghashappenedwell。Thestewardandthevicar(who,foronce,thoughttoreapsomeadvantagefromthecapricesofhiswife)

  intendedtodividethetreesbetweenthem。Therevenue-office,beinginformedofit,revivedanoldclaimtothegroundwherethetreeshadstood,andsoldthemtothebestbidder。Theretheystilllieontheground。IfIwerethesovereign,Ishouldknowhowtodealwiththemall,vicar,steward,andrevenue-office。

  Sovereign,didIsay?Ishould,inthatcase,carelittleaboutthetreesthatgrewinthecountry。

  OCTOBER10。

  Onlytogazeuponherdarkeyesistomeasourceofhappiness!

  Andwhatgrievesme,is,thatAlbertdoesnotseemsohappyashe——hopedtobe——asIshouldhavebeen——if——Iamnofriendtothesepauses,buthereIcannotexpressitotherwise;andprobablyIamexplicitenough。

  OCTOBER12。

  OssianhassupersededHomerinmyheart。Towhataworlddoestheillustriousbardcarryme!Towanderoverpathlesswilds,surroundedbyimpetuouswhirlwinds,where,bythefeeblelightofthemoon,weseethespiritsofourancestors;tohearfromthemountain-tops,midtheroaroftorrents,theirplaintivesoundsissuingfromdeepcaverns,andthesorrowfullamentationsofamaidenwhosighsandexpiresonthemossytombofthewarriorbywhomshewasadored。Imeetthisbardwithsilverhair;hewandersinthevalley;heseeksthefootstepsofhisfathers,and,alas!hefindsonlytheirtombs。Then,contemplatingthepalemoon,asshesinksbeneaththewavesoftherollingsea,thememoryofbygonedaysstrikesthemindofthehero,dayswhenapproachingdangerinvigoratedthebrave,andthemoonshoneuponhisbarkladenwithspoils,andreturningintriumph。WhenIreadinhiscountenancedeepsorrow,whenIseehisdyingglorysinkexhaustedintothegrave,asheinhalesnewandheart-thrillingdelightfromhisapproachingunionwithhisbeloved,andhecastsalookonthecoldearthandthetallgrasswhichissosoontocoverhim,andthenexclaims,\"Thetravellerwillcome,——hewillcomewhohasseenmybeauty,andhewillask,’Whereisthebard,whereistheillustrioussonofFingal?’Hewillwalkovermytomb,andwillseekmeinvain!\"Then,Omyfriend,Icouldinstantly,likeatrueandnobleknight,drawmysword,anddelivermyprincefromthelongandpainfullanguorofalivingdeath,anddismissmyownsoultofollowthedemigodwhommyhandhadsetfree!

  OCTOBER19。

  Alas!thevoidthefearfulvoid,whichIfeelinmybosom!SometimesIthink,ifIcouldonlyoncebutonce,presshertomyheart,thisdreadfulvoidwouldbefilled。

  OCTOBER26。

  Yes,Ifeelcertain,Wilhelm,andeverydayIbecomemorecertain,thattheexistenceofanybeingwhateverisofverylittleconsequence。

  AfriendofCharlotte’scalledtoseeherjustnow。Iwithdrewintoaneighbouringapartment,andtookupabook;but,findingI

  couldnotread,Isatdowntowrite。Iheardthemconverseinanundertone:theyspokeuponindifferenttopics,andretailedthenewsofthetown。Onewasgoingtobemarried;anotherwasill,veryill,shehadadrycough,herfacewasgrowingthinnerdaily,andshehadoccasionalfits。\"N——isveryunwelltoo,\"saidCharlotte。\"Hislimbsbegintoswellalready,\"answeredtheother;

  andmylivelyimaginationcarriedmeatoncetothebedsoftheinfirm。ThereIseethemstrugglingagainstdeath,withalltheagoniesofpainandhorror;andthesewomen,Wilhelm,talkofallthiswithasmuchindifferenceasonewouldmentionthedeathofastranger。AndwhenIlookaroundtheapartmentwhereInowam——whenIseeCharlotte’sapparellyingbeforeme,andAlbert’swritings,andallthosearticlesoffurniturewhicharesofamiliartome,eventotheveryinkstandwhichIamusing,——whenIthinkwhatIamtothisfamily——everything。Myfriendsesteemme;Ioftencontributetotheirhappiness,andmyheartseemsasifitcouldnotbeatwithoutthem;andyet——-ifIweretodie,ifIweretobesummonedfromthemidstofthiscircle,wouldtheyfeel——

  orhowlongwouldtheyfeelthevoidwhichmylosswouldmakeintheirexistence?Howlong!Yes,suchisthefrailtyofman,thateventhere,wherehehasthegreatestconsciousnessofhisownbeing,wherehemakesthestrongestandmostforcibleimpression,eveninthememory,intheheart,ofhisbeloved,therealsohemustperish,——vanish,——andthatquickly。

  OCTOBER27。

  Icouldtearopenmybosomwithvexationtothinkhowlittlewearecapableofinfluencingthefeelingsofeachother。Noonecancommunicatetomethosesensationsoflove,joy,rapture,anddelightwhichIdonotnaturallypossess;and,thoughmyheartmayglowwiththemostlivelyaffection,Icannotmakethehappinessofoneinwhomthesamewarmthisnotinherent。

  OCTOBER27:Evening。

  Ipossesssomuch,butmyloveforherabsorbsitall。Ipossesssomuch,butwithoutherIhavenothing。

  OCTOBER30。

  OnehundredtimeshaveIbeenonthepointofembracingher。

  Heavens!whatatormentitistoseesomuchlovelinesspassingandrepassingbeforeus,andyetnotdaretolayholdofit!

  Andlayingholdisthemostnaturalofhumaninstincts。Donotchildrentoucheverythingtheysee?AndI!

  NOVEMBER3。

  Witness,Heaven,howoftenIliedowninmybedwithawish,andevenahope,thatImayneverawakenagain。Andinthemorning,whenIopenmyeyes,Ibeholdthesunoncemore,andamwretched。

  IfIwerewhimsical,Imightblametheweather,oranacquaintance,orsomepersonaldisappointment,formydiscontentedmind;andthenthisinsupportableloadoftroublewouldnotrestentirelyuponmyself。But,alas!Ifeelittoosadly。Iamalonethecauseofmyownwoe,amInot?Truly,myownbosomcontainsthesourceofallmysorrow,asitpreviouslycontainedthesourceofallmypleasure。AmInotthesamebeingwhoonceenjoyedanexcessofhappiness,who,ateverystep,sawparadiseopenbeforehim,andwhoseheartwaseverexpandedtowardthewholeworld?Andthisheartisnowdead,nosentimentcanreviveit;myeyesaredry;

  andmysenses,nomorerefreshedbytheinfluenceofsofttears,witherandconsumemybrain。Isuffermuch,forIhavelosttheonlycharmoflife:thatactive,sacredpowerwhichcreatedworldsaroundme,——itisnomore。WhenIlookfrommywindowatthedistanthills,andbeholdthemorningsunbreakingthroughthemists,andilluminatingthecountryaround,whichisstillwrappedinsilence,whilstthesoftstreamwindsgentlythroughthewillows,whichhaveshedtheirleaves;whengloriousnaturedisplaysallherbeautiesbeforeme,andherwondrousprospectsareineffectualtoextractonetearofjoyfrommywitheredheart,IfeelthatinsuchamomentIstandlikeareprobatebeforeheaven,hardened,insensible,andunmoved。OftentimesdoIthenbendmykneetotheearth,andimploreGodfortheblessingoftears,asthedespondinglabourerinsomescorchingclimatepraysforthedewsofheaventomoistenhisparchedcorn。

  ButIfeelthatGoddoesnotgrantsunshineorraintoourimportunateentreaties。Andoh,thosebygonedays,whosememorynowtormentsme!whyweretheysofortunate?BecauseIthenwaitedwithpatiencefortheblessingsoftheEternal,andreceivedhisgiftswiththegratefulfeelingsofathankfulheart。

  NOVEMBER8。

  Charlottehasreprovedmeformyexcesses,withsomuchtendernessandgoodness!Ihavelatelybeeninthehabitofdrinkingmorewinethanheretofore。\"Don’tdoit,\"shesaid。\"ThinkofCharlotte!\"

  \"Thinkofyou!\"Ianswered;\"needyoubidmedoso?Thinkofyou——Idonotthinkofyou:youareeverbeforemysoul!ThisverymorningIsatonthespotwhere,afewdaysago,youdescendedfromthecarriage,and——\"Sheimmediatelychangedthesubjecttopreventmefrompursuingitfarther。Mydearfriend,myenergiesareallprostrated:shecandowithmewhatshepleases。

  NOVEMBER15。

  Ithankyou,Wilhelm,foryourcordialsympathy,foryourexcellentadvice;andIimploreyoutobequiet。Leavemetomysufferings。

  Inspiteofmywretchedness,Ihavestillstrengthenoughforendurance。Ireverereligion——youknowIdo。Ifeelthatitcanimpartstrengthtothefeebleandcomforttotheafflicted,butdoesitaffectallmenequally?Considerthisvastuniverse:

  youwillseethousandsforwhomithasneverexisted,thousandsforwhomitwillneverexist,whetheritbepreachedtothem,ornot;andmustit,then,necessarilyexistforme?DoesnottheSonofGodhimselfsaythattheyarehiswhomtheFatherhasgiventohim?HaveIbeengiventohim?WhatiftheFatherwillretainmeforhimself,asmyheartsometimessuggests?Iprayyou,donotmisinterpretthis。Donotextractderisionfrommyharmlesswords。Ipouroutmywholesoulbeforeyou。Silencewereotherwisepreferabletome,butIneednotshrinkfromasubjectofwhichfewknowmorethanIdomyself。Whatisthedestinyofman,buttofillupthemeasureofhissufferings,andtodrinkhisallottedcupofbitterness?AndifthatsamecupprovedbittertotheGodofheaven,underahumanform,whyshouldIaffectafoolishpride,andcallitsweet?WhyshouldIbeashamedofshrinkingatthatfearfulmoment,whenmywholebeingwilltremblebetweenexistenceandannihilation,whenaremembranceofthepast,likeaflashoflightning,willilluminatethedarkgulfoffuturity,wheneverythingshalldissolvearoundme,andthewholeworldvanishaway?Isnotthisthevoiceofacreatureoppressedbeyondallresource,self-deficient,abouttoplungeintoinevitabledestruction,andgroaningdeeplyatitsinadequatestrength,\"MyGod!myGod!whyhastthouforsakenme?\"AndshouldIfeelashamedtoutterthesameexpression?ShouldInotshudderataprospectwhichhaditsfears,evenforhimwhofoldsuptheheavenslikeagarment?

  NOVEMBER21。

  Shedoesnotfeel,shedoesnotknow,thatsheispreparingapoisonwhichwilldestroyusboth;andIdrinkdeeplyofthedraughtwhichistoprovemydestruction。Whatmeanthoselooksofkindnesswithwhichsheoften——often?no,notoften,butsometimes,regardsme,thatcomplacencywithwhichshehearstheinvoluntarysentimentswhichfrequentlyescapeme,andthetenderpityformysufferingswhichappearsinhercountenance?

  Yesterday,whenItookleavesheseizedmebythehand,andsaid,\"Adieu,dearWerther。\"DearWerther!Itwasthefirsttimesheevercalledmedear:thesoundsunkdeepintomyheart。Ihaverepeateditahundredtimes;andlastnight,ongoingtobed,andtalkingtomyselfofvariousthings,Isuddenlysaid,\"Goodnight,dearWerther!\"andthencouldnotbutlaughatmyself。

  NOVEMBER22

  Icannotpray,\"Leavehertome!\"andyetsheoftenseemstobelongtome。Icannotpray,\"Givehertome!\"forsheisanother’s。InthiswayIaffectmirthovermytroubles;and,ifIhadtime,Icouldcomposeawholelitanyofantitheses。

  NOVEMBER24。

  Sheissensibleofmysufferings。Thismorningherlookpiercedmyverysoul。Ifoundheralone,andshewassilent:shesteadfastlysurveyedme。Inolongersawinherfacethecharmsofbeautyorthefireofgenius:thesehaddisappeared。ButIwasaffectedbyanexpressionmuchmoretouching,alookofthedeepestsympathyandofthesoftestpity。WhywasIafraidtothrowmyselfatherfeet?WhydidInotdaretotakeherinmyarms,andanswerherbyathousandkisses?Shehadrecoursetoherpianoforrelief,andinalowandsweetvoiceaccompaniedthemusicwithdelicioussounds。Herlipsneverappearedsolovely:theyseemedbutjusttoopen,thattheymightimbibethesweettoneswhichissuedfromtheinstrument,andreturntheheavenlyvibrationfromherlovelymouth。Oh!whocanexpressmysensations?Iwasquiteovercome,and,bendingdown,pronouncedthisvow:\"Beautifullips,whichtheangelsguard,neverwillIseektoprofaneyourpuritywithakiss。\"

  Andyet,myfriend,oh,Iwish——butmyheartisdarkenedbydoubtandindecision——couldIbuttastefelicity,andthendietoexpiatethesin!Whatsin?

  NOVEMBER26。

  OftentimesIsaytomyself,\"Thoualoneartwretched:allothermortalsarehappy,nonearedistressedlikethee!\"ThenIreadapassageinanancientpoet,andIseemtounderstandmyownheart。Ihavesomuchtoendure!Havemenbeforemeeverbeensowretched?

  NOVEMBER30。

  Ishallneverbemyselfagain!WhereverIgo,somefatalityoccurstodistractme。Evento-dayalas——forourdestiny!alasforhumannature!

  Aboutdinner-timeIwenttowalkbytheriver-side,forIhadnoappetite。Everythingaroundseemedgloomy:acoldanddampeasterlywindblewfromthemountains,andblack,heavycloudsspreadovertheplain。Iobservedatadistanceamaninatatteredcoat:hewaswanderingamongtherocks,andseemedtobelookingforplants。

  WhenIapproached,heturnedroundatthenoise;andIsawthathehadaninterestingcountenanceinwhichasettledmelancholy,stronglymarkedbybenevolence,formedtheprincipalfeature。

  Hislongblackhairwasdivided,andflowedoverhisshoulders。

  Ashisgarbbetokenedapersonofthelowerorder,IthoughthewouldnottakeitillifIinquiredabouthisbusiness;andI

  thereforeaskedwhathewasseeking。Hereplied,withadeepsigh,thathewaslookingforflowers,andcouldfindnone。\"Butitisnottheseason,\"Iobserved,withasmile。\"Oh,therearesomanyflowers!\"heanswered,ashecamenearertome。\"Inmygardentherearerosesandhoneysucklesoftwosorts:onesortwasgiventomebymyfather!theygrowasplentifullyasweeds;Ihavebeenlookingforthemthesetwodays,andcannotfindthem。Thereareflowersoutthere,yellow,blue,andred;andthatcentauryhasaveryprettyblossom:butIcanfindnoneofthem。\"Iobservedhispeculiarity,andthereforeaskedhim,withanairofindifference,whatheintendedtodowithhisflowers。Astrangesmileoverspreadhiscountenance。Holdinghisfingertohismouth,heexpressedahopethatIwouldnotbetrayhim;andhetheninformedmethathehadpromisedtogatheranosegayforhismistress。\"Thatisright,\"

  saidI。\"Oh!\"hereplied,\"shepossessesmanyotherthingsaswell:sheisveryrich。\"\"Andyet,\"Icontinued,\"shelikesyournosegays。\"\"Oh,shehasjewelsandcrowns!\"heexclaimed。Iaskedwhoshewas。\"Ifthestates-generalwouldbutpayme,\"headded,\"Ishouldbequiteanotherman。Alas!therewasatimewhenIwassohappy;butthatispast,andIamnow——\"Heraisedhisswimmingeyestoheaven。\"Andyouwerehappyonce?\"Iobserved。\"Ah,wouldIweresostill!\"washisreply。\"Iwasthenasgayandcontentedasamancanbe。\"Anoldwoman,whowascomingtowardus,nowcalledout,\"Henry,Henry!whereareyou?Wehavebeenlookingforyoueverywhere:cometodinner。\"\"Isheyourson?\"

  Iinquired,asIwenttowardher。\"Yes,\"shesaid:\"heismypoor,unfortunateson。TheLordhassentmeaheavyaffliction。\"Iaskedwhetherhehadbeenlonginthisstate。Sheanswered,\"Hehasbeenascalmasheisatpresentforaboutsixmonths。IthankHeaventhathehassofarrecovered:hewasforonewholeyearquiteraving,andchaineddowninamadhouse。Nowheinjuresnoone,buttalksofnothingelsethankingsandqueens。Heusedtobeaverygood,quietyouth,andhelpedtomaintainme;hewroteaveryfinehand;

  butallatoncehebecamemelancholy,wasseizedwithaviolentfever,grewdistracted,andisnowasyousee。IfIwereonlytotellyou,sir——\"Iinterruptedherbyaskingwhatperioditwasinwhichheboastedofhavingbeensohappy。\"Poorboy!\"sheexclaimed,withasmileofcormpassion,\"hemeansthetimewhenhewascompletelyderanged,atimeheneverceasestoregret,whenhewasinthemadhouse,andunconsciousofeverything。\"I

  wasthunderstruck:Iplacedapieceofmoneyinherhand,andhastenedaway。

  \"Youwerehappy!\"Iexclaimed,asIreturnedquicklytothetown,\"’asgayandcontentedasamancanbe!’\"Godofheaven!

  andisthisthedestinyofman?Isheonlyhappybeforehehasacquiredhisreason,orafterhehaslostit?Unfortunatebeing!

  AndyetIenvyyourfate:Ienvythedelusiontowhichyouareavictim。Yougoforthwithjoytogatherflowersforyourprincess,——inwinter,——andgrievewhenyoucanfindnone,andcannotunderstandwhytheydonotgrow。ButIwanderforthwithoutjoy,withouthope,withoutdesign;andIreturnasIcame。Youfancywhatamanyouwouldbeifthestatesgeneralpaidyou。Happymortal,whocanascribeyourwretchednesstoanearthlycause!

  Youdonotknow,youdonotfeel,thatinyourowndistractedheartanddisorderedbraindwellsthesourceofthatunhappinesswhichallthepotentatesonearthcannotrelieve。

  Letthatmandieunconsoledwhocanderidetheinvalidforundertakingajourneytodistant,healthfulsprings,whereheoftenfindsonlyaheavierdiseaseandamorepainfuldeath,orwhocanexultoverthedespairingmindofasinner,who,toobtainpeaceofconscienceandanalleviationofmisery,makesapilgrimagetotheHolySepulchre。Eachlaboriousstepwhichgallshiswoundedfeetinroughanduntroddenpathspoursadropofbalmintohistroubledsoul,andthejourneyofmanyawearydaybringsanightlyrelieftohisanguishedheart。Willyoudarecallthisenthusiasm,yecrowdofpompousdeclaimers?Enthusiasm!0God!thouseestmytears。Thouhastallottedusourportionofmisery:mustwealsohavebrethrentopersecuteus,todepriveusofourconsolation,ofourtrustinthee,andinthyloveandmercy?Forourtrustinthevirtueofthehealingroot,orinthestrengthofthevine,whatisitelsethanabeliefintheefromwhomallthatsurroundsusderivesitshealingandrestoringpowers?Father,whomIknownot,——whowertoncewonttofillmysoul,butwhonowhidestthyfacefromme,——callmebacktothee;besilentnolonger;thysilenceshallnotdelayasoulwhichthirstsafterthee。Whatman,whatfather,couldbeangrywithasonforreturningtohimsuddenly,forfallingonhisneck,andexclaiming,\"Iamhereagain,myfather!forgivemeifIhaveanticipatedmyjourney,andreturnedbeforetheappointedtime!Theworldiseverywherethesame,——

  asceneoflabourandpain,ofpleasureandreward;butwhatdoesitallavail?Iamhappyonlywherethouart,andinthypresenceamIcontenttosufferorenjoy。\"Andwouldstthou,heavenlyFather,banishsuchachildfromthypresence?

  DECEMBER1。

  Wilhelm,themanaboutwhomIwrotetoyou——thatmansoenviableinhismisfortunes——wassecretarytoCharlotte’sfather;andanunhappypassionforherwhichhecherished,concealed,andatlengthdiscovered,causedhimtobedismissedfromhissituation。

  Thismadehimmad。Think,whilstyouperusethisplainnarration,whatanimpressionthecircumstancehasmadeuponme!ButitwasrelatedtomebyAlbertwithasmuchcalmnessasyouwillprobablyperuseit。

  DECEMBER4。

  Iimploreyourattention。Itisalloverwithme。Icansupportthisstatenolonger。To-dayIwassittingbyCharlotte。Shewasplayinguponherpianoasuccessionofdelightfulmelodies,withsuchintenseexpression!Herlittlesisterwasdressingherdolluponmylap。Thetearscameintomyeyes。Ileaneddown,andlookedintentlyatherwedding-ring:mytearsfell——immediatelyshebegantoplaythatfavourite,thatdivine,airwhichhassooftenenchantedme。Ifeltcomfortfromarecollectionofthepast,ofthosebygonedayswhenthatairwasfamiliartome;andthenIrecalledallthesorrowsandthedisappointmentswhichI

  hadsinceendured。Ipacedwithhastystridesthroughtheroom,myheartbecameconvulsedwithpainfulemotions。AtlengthI

  wentuptoher,andexclaimedWitheagerness,\"ForHeaven’ssake,playthatairnolonger!\"Shestopped,andlookedsteadfastlyatme。Shethensaid,withasmilewhichsunkdeepintomyheart,\"Werther,youareill:yourdearestfoodisdistastefultoyou。

  Butgo,Ientreatyou,andendeavourtocomposeyourself。\"I

  toremyselfaway。God,thouseestmytorments,andwiltendthem!

  DECEMBER6。

  Howherimagehauntsme!Wakingorasleep,shefillsmyentiresoul!SoonasIclosemyeyes,here,inmybrain,whereallthenervesofvisionareconcentrated,herdarkeyesareimprinted。

  Here——Idonotknowhowtodescribeit;but,ifIshutmyeyes,hersareimmediatelybeforeme:darkasanabysstheyopenuponme,andabsorbmysenses。

  Andwhatisman——thatboasteddemigod?Donothispowersfailwhenhemostrequirestheiruse?Andwhetherhesoarinjoy,orsinkinsorrow,isnothiscareerinbothinevitablyarrested?

  And,whilsthefondlydreamsthatheisgraspingatinfinity,doeshenotfeelcompelledtoreturntoaconsciousnessofhiscold,monotonousexistence?

  THEEDITORTOTHEREADER。

  Itisamatterofextremeregretthatwewantoriginalevidenceofthelastremarkabledaysofourfriend;andweare,therefore,obligedtointerrupttheprogressofhiscorrespondence,andtosupplythedeficiencybyaconnectednarration。

  Ihavefeltitmydutytocollectaccurateinformationfromthemouthsofpersonswellacquaintedwithhishistory。Thestoryissimple;andalltheaccountsagree,exceptinsomeunimportantparticulars。Itistrue,that,withrespecttothecharactersofthepersonsspokenof,opinionsandjudgmentsvary。

  Wehaveonly,then,torelateconscientiouslythefactswhichourdiligentlabourhasenabledustocollect,togivethelettersofthedeceased,andtopayparticularattentiontotheslightestfragmentfromhispen,moreespeciallyasitissodifficulttodiscovertherealandcorrectmotivesofmenwhoarenotofthecommonorder。

  SorrowanddiscontenthadtakendeeprootinWerther’ssoul,andgraduallyimpartedtheircharactertohiswholebeing。Theharmonyofhismindbecamecompletelydisturbed;aperpetualexcitementandmentalirritation,whichweakenedhisnaturalpowers,producedthesaddestetfectsuponhim,andrenderedhimatlengththevictimofanexhaustionagainstwhichhestruggledwithstillmorepainfuleffortsthanhehaddisplayed,evenincontendingwithhisothermisfortunes。Hismentalanxietyweakenedhisvariousgoodqualities;

  andhewassoonconvertedintoagloomycompanion,alwaysunhappyandunjustinhisideas,themorewretchedhebecame。Thiswas,atleast,theopinionofAlbert’sfriends。Theyassert,moreover,thatthecharacterofAlberthimselfhadundergonenochangeinthemeantime:hewasstillthesamebeingwhomWertherhadloved,honoured,andrespectedfromthecommencement。HisloveforCharlottewasunbounded:hewasproudofher,anddesiredthatsheshouldberecognisedbyeveryoneasthenoblestofcreatedbeings。Washe,however,toblameforwishingtoavertfromhereveryappearanceofsuspicion?orforhisunwillingnesstosharehisrichprizewithanother,evenforamoment,andinthemostinnocentmanner?ItisassertedthatAlbertfrequentlyretiredfromhiswife’sapartmentduringWerther’svisits;butthisdidnotarisefromhatredoraversiontohisfriend,butonlyfromafeelingthathispresencewasoppressivetoWerther。

  Charlotte’sfather,whowasconfinedtothehousebyindisposition,wasaccustomedtosendhiscarriageforher,thatshemightmakeexcursionsintheneighbourhood。Onedaytheweatherhadbeenunusuallysevere,andthewholecountrywascoveredwithsnow。

  WertherwentforCharlottethefollowingmorning,inorderthat,ifAlbertwereabsent,hemightconductherhome。

  Thebeautifulweatherproducedbutlittleimpressiononhistroubledspirit。Aheavyweightlayuponhissoul,deepmelancholyhadtakenpossessionofhim,andhismindknewnochangesavefromonepainfulthoughttoanother。

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