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  Theplanwefinallyconcludeduponwas,togetalargecanoebelongingtoMr。Hamilton,andupontheSaturdaynightprevioustoEasterholidays,paddledirectlyuptheChesapeakeBay。Onourar-

  rivalattheheadofthebay,adistanceofseventyoreightymilesfromwherewelived,itwasourpurposetoturnourcanoeadrift,andfollowtheguidanceofthenorthstartillwegotbeyondthelimitsofMaryland。Ourreasonfortakingthewaterroutewas,thatwewerelessliabletobesuspectedasrunaways;wehopedtoberegardedasfishermen;

  whereas,ifweshouldtakethelandroute,weshouldbesubjectedtointerruptionsofalmosteverykind。

  Anyonehavingawhiteface,andbeingsodisposed,couldstopus,andsubjectustoexamination。

  Theweekbeforeourintendedstart,Iwrotesev-

  eralprotections,oneforeachofus。AswellasI

  canremember,theywereinthefollowingwords,towit:——

  \"ThisistocertifythatI,theundersigned,havegiventhebearer,myservant,fulllibertytogotoBaltimore,andspendtheEasterholidays。Writtenwithmineownhand,&c。,1835。

  \"WILLIAMHAMILTON,\"NearSt。Michael’s,inTalbotcounty,Maryland。\"

  WewerenotgoingtoBaltimore;but,ingoingupthebay,wewenttowardBaltimore,andthesepro-

  tectionswereonlyintendedtoprotectuswhileonthebay。

  Asthetimedrewnearforourdeparture,ouranxietybecamemoreandmoreintense。Itwastrulyamatteroflifeanddeathwithus。Thestrengthofourdeterminationwasabouttobefullytested。Atthistime,Iwasveryactiveinexplainingeverydif-

  ficulty,removingeverydoubt,dispellingeveryfear,andinspiringallwiththefirmnessindispensabletosuccessinourundertaking;assuringthemthathalfwasgainedtheinstantwemadethemove;wehadtalkedlongenough;wewerenowreadytomove;

  ifnotnow,wenevershouldbe;andifwedidnotintendtomovenow,wehadaswellfoldourarms,sitdown,andacknowledgeourselvesfitonlytobeslaves。This,noneofuswerepreparedtoacknowl-

  edge。Everymanstoodfirm;andatourlastmeeting,wepledgedourselvesafresh,inthemostsolemnmanner,that,atthetimeappointed,wewouldcer-

  tainlystartinpursuitoffreedom。Thiswasinthemiddleoftheweek,attheendofwhichweweretobeoff。Wewent,asusual,toourseveralfieldsoflabor,butwithbosomshighlyagitatedwiththoughtsofourtrulyhazardousundertaking。Wetriedtoconcealourfeelingsasmuchaspossible;

  andIthinkwesucceededverywell。

  Afterapainfulwaiting,theSaturdaymorning,whosenightwastowitnessourdeparture,came。I

  haileditwithjoy,bringwhatofsadnessitmight。

  Fridaynightwasasleeplessoneforme。Iprobablyfeltmoreanxiousthantherest,becauseIwas,bycommonconsent,attheheadofthewholeaffair。

  Theresponsibilityofsuccessorfailurelayheavilyuponme。Thegloryoftheone,andtheconfusionoftheother,werealikemine。ThefirsttwohoursofthatmorningweresuchasIneverexperiencedbefore,andhopenevertoagain。Earlyinthemorning,wewent,asusual,tothefield。Wewerespreadingmanure;andallatonce,whilethusen-

  gaged,Iwasoverwhelmedwithanindescribablefeel-

  ing,inthefulnessofwhichIturnedtoSandy,whowasnearby,andsaid,\"Wearebetrayed!\"\"Well,\"

  saidhe,\"thatthoughthasthismomentstruckme。\"

  Wesaidnomore。Iwasnevermorecertainofanything。

  Thehornwasblownasusual,andwewentupfromthefieldtothehouseforbreakfast。Iwentfortheform,morethanforwantofanythingtoeatthatmorning。JustasIgottothehouse,inlookingoutatthelanegate,Isawfourwhitemen,withtwocoloredmen。Thewhitemenwereonhorseback,andthecoloredoneswerewalkingbehind,asiftied。

  Iwatchedthemafewmomentstilltheygotuptoourlanegate。Heretheyhalted,andtiedthecoloredmentothegate-post。Iwasnotyetcertainastowhatthematterwas。Inafewmoments,inrodeMr。Hamilton,withaspeedbetokeninggreatexcite-

  ment。Hecametothedoor,andinquiredifMasterWilliamwasin。Hewastoldhewasatthebarn。Mr。

  Hamilton,withoutdismounting,rodeuptothebarnwithextraordinaryspeed。Inafewmoments,heandMr。Freelandreturnedtothehouse。Bythistime,thethreeconstablesrodeup,andingreathastedis-

  mounted,tiedtheirhorses,andmetMasterWilliamandMr。Hamiltonreturningfromthebarn;andaftertalkingawhile,theyallwalkeduptothekitchendoor。TherewasnooneinthekitchenbutmyselfandJohn。HenryandSandywereupatthebarn。Mr。Freelandputhisheadinatthedoor,andcalledmebyname,saying,thereweresomegentle-

  menatthedoorwhowishedtoseeme。Isteppedtothedoor,andinquiredwhattheywanted。Theyatonceseizedme,and,withoutgivingmeanysatis-

  faction,tiedme——lashingmyhandscloselytogether。

  Iinsisteduponknowingwhatthematterwas。Theyatlengthsaid,thattheyhadlearnedIhadbeenina\"scrape,\"andthatIwastobeexaminedbeforemymaster;andiftheirinformationprovedfalse,I

  shouldnotbehurt。

  Inafewmoments,theysucceededintyingJohn。

  TheythenturnedtoHenry,whohadbythistimereturned,andcommandedhimtocrosshishands。

  \"Iwon’t!\"saidHenry,inafirmtone,indicatinghisreadinesstomeettheconsequencesofhisrefusal。

  \"Won’tyou?\"saidTomGraham,theconstable。\"No,Iwon’t!\"saidHenry,inastillstrongertone。Withthis,twooftheconstablespulledouttheirshiningpistols,andswore,bytheirCreator,thattheywouldmakehimcrosshishandsorkillhim。Eachcockedhispistol,and,withfingersonthetrigger,walkeduptoHenry,saying,atthesametime,ifhedidnotcrosshishands,theywouldblowhisdamnedheartout。\"Shootme,shootme!\"saidHenry;\"youcan’tkillmebutonce。Shoot,shoot,——andbedamned!~I

  won’tbetied!~\"Thishesaidinatoneoflouddefi-

  ance;andatthesametime,withamotionasquickaslightning,hewithonesinglestrokedashedthepistolsfromthehandofeachconstable。Ashedidthis,allhandsfelluponhim,and,afterbeatinghimsometime,theyfinallyoverpoweredhim,andgothimtied。

  Duringthescuffle,Imanaged,Iknownothow,togetmypassout,and,withoutbeingdiscovered,putitintothefire。Wewereallnowtied;andjustasweweretoleaveforEastonjail,BetsyFreeland,motherofWilliamFreeland,cametothedoorwithherhandsfullofbiscuits,anddividedthembetweenHenryandJohn。Shethendeliveredherselfofaspeech,tothefollowingeffect:——addressingherselftome,shesaid,\"~Youdevil!Youyellowdevil!~itwasyouthatputitintotheheadsofHenryandJohntorunaway。Butforyou,youlong-leggedmulattodevil!HenrynorJohnwouldneverhavethoughtofsuchathing。\"Imadenoreply,andwasimme-

  diatelyhurriedofftowardsSt。Michael’s。Justamo-

  mentprevioustothescufflewithHenry,Mr。Hamil-

  tonsuggestedtheproprietyofmakingasearchfortheprotectionswhichhehadunderstoodFrederickhadwrittenforhimselfandtherest。But,justatthemomenthewasaboutcarryinghisproposalintoeffect,hisaidwasneededinhelpingtotieHenry;

  andtheexcitementattendingthescufflecausedthemeithertoforget,ortodeemitunsafe,underthecircumstances,tosearch。Sowewerenotyetconvictedoftheintentiontorunaway。

  WhenwegotabouthalfwaytoSt。Michael’s,whiletheconstableshavingusinchargewerelook-

  ingahead,Henryinquiredofmewhatheshoulddowithhispass。Itoldhimtoeatitwithhisbiscuit,andownnothing;andwepassedthewordaround,\"~Ownnothing;~\"and\"~Ownnothing!~\"saidweall。

  Ourconfidenceineachotherwasunshaken。Wewereresolvedtosucceedorfailtogether,afterthecalamityhadbefallenusasmuchasbefore。Wewerenowpreparedforanything。Weweretobedraggedthatmorningfifteenmilesbehindhorses,andthentobeplacedintheEastonjail。WhenwereachedSt。Michael’s,weunderwentasortofexami-

  nation。Wealldeniedthatweeverintendedtorunaway。Wedidthismoretobringouttheevidenceagainstus,thanfromanyhopeofgettingclearofbeingsold;for,asIhavesaid,wewerereadyforthat。Thefactwas,wecaredbutlittlewherewewent,sowewenttogether。Ourgreatestconcernwasaboutseparation。Wedreadedthatmorethananythingthissideofdeath。Wefoundtheevidenceagainstustobethetestimonyofoneperson;ourmasterwouldnottellwhoitwas;butwecametoaunanimousdecisionamongourselvesastowhotheirinformantwas。WeweresentofftothejailatEaston。Whenwegotthere,weweredelivereduptothesheriff,Mr。JosephGraham,andbyhimplacedinjail。Henry,John,andmyself,wereplacedinoneroomtogether——Charles,andHenryBailey,inanother。Theirobjectinseparatinguswastohinderconcert。

  Wehadbeeninjailscarcelytwentyminutes,whenaswarmofslavetraders,andagentsforslavetraders,flockedintojailtolookatus,andtoas-

  certainifwewereforsale。SuchasetofbeingsI

  neversawbefore!Ifeltmyselfsurroundedbysomanyfiendsfromperdition。Abandofpiratesneverlookedmoreliketheirfather,thedevil。Theylaughedandgrinnedoverus,saying,\"Ah,myboys!

  wehavegotyou,haven’twe?\"Andaftertauntingusinvariousways,theyonebyonewentintoanexaminationofus,withintenttoascertainourvalue。

  Theywouldimpudentlyaskusifwewouldnotliketohavethemforourmasters。Wewouldmakethemnoanswer,andleavethemtofindoutasbesttheycould。Thentheywouldcurseandswearatus,tellingusthattheycouldtakethedeviloutofusinaverylittlewhile,ifwewereonlyintheirhands。

  Whileinjail,wefoundourselvesinmuchmorecomfortablequartersthanweexpectedwhenwewentthere。Wedidnotgetmuchtoeat,northatwhichwasverygood;butwehadagoodcleanroom,fromthewindowsofwhichwecouldseewhatwasgo-

  ingoninthestreet,whichwasverymuchbetterthanthoughwehadbeenplacedinoneofthedark,dampcells。Uponthewhole,wegotalongverywell,sofarasthejailanditskeeperwereconcerned。

  Immediatelyaftertheholidayswereover,contrarytoallourexpectations,Mr。HamiltonandMr。Free-

  landcameuptoEaston,andtookCharles,thetwoHenrys,andJohn,outofjail,andcarriedthemhome,leavingmealone。Iregardedthisseparationasafinalone。Itcausedmemorepainthananythingelseinthewholetransaction。Iwasreadyforanythingratherthanseparation。Isupposedthattheyhadconsultedtogether,andhaddecidedthat,asIwasthewholecauseoftheintentionoftheotherstorunaway,itwashardtomaketheinnocentsufferwiththeguilty;andthattheyhad,therefore,concludedtotaketheothershome,andsellme,asawarningtotheothersthatremained。ItisduetothenobleHenrytosay,heseemedalmostasreluctantatleavingtheprisonasatleavinghometocometotheprison。Butweknewweshould,inallprobability,beseparated,ifweweresold;andsincehewasintheirhands,heconcludedtogopeaceablyhome。

  Iwasnowlefttomyfate。Iwasallalone,andwithinthewallsofastoneprison。Butafewdaysbefore,andIwasfullofhope。Iexpectedtohavebeensafeinalandoffreedom;butnowIwascov-

  eredwithgloom,sunkdowntotheutmostdespair。

  Ithoughtthepossibilityoffreedomwasgone。I

  waskeptinthiswayaboutoneweek,attheendofwhich,CaptainAuld,mymaster,tomysurpriseandutterastonishment,cameup,andtookmeout,withtheintentionofsendingme,withagentlemanofhisacquaintance,intoAlabama。But,fromsomecauseorother,hedidnotsendmetoAlabama,butconcludedtosendmebacktoBaltimore,toliveagainwithhisbrotherHugh,andtolearnatrade。

  Thus,afteranabsenceofthreeyearsandonemonth,IwasoncemorepermittedtoreturntomyoldhomeatBaltimore。Mymastersentmeaway,becausethereexistedagainstmeaverygreatpreju-

  diceinthecommunity,andhefearedImightbekilled。

  InafewweeksafterIwenttoBaltimore,MasterHughhiredmetoMr。WilliamGardner,anex-

  tensiveship-builder,onFell’sPoint。Iwasputtheretolearnhowtocalk。It,however,provedaveryunfavorableplacefortheaccomplishmentofthisobject。Mr。Gardnerwasengagedthatspringinbuildingtwolargeman-of-warbrigs,professedlyfortheMexicangovernment。ThevesselsweretobelaunchedintheJulyofthatyear,andinfailurethereof,Mr。Gardnerwastoloseaconsiderablesum;

  sothatwhenIentered,allwashurry。Therewasnotimetolearnanything。Everymanhadtodothatwhichheknewhowtodo。Inenteringtheship-

  yard,myordersfromMr。Gardnerwere,todowhat-

  everthecarpenterscommandedmetodo。Thiswasplacingmeatthebeckandcallofaboutseventy-fivemen。Iwastoregardalltheseasmasters。Theirwordwastobemylaw。Mysituationwasamosttryingone。AttimesIneededadozenpairofhands。

  Iwascalledadozenwaysinthespaceofasingleminute。Threeorfourvoiceswouldstrikemyearatthesamemoment。Itwas——\"Fred。,comehelpmetocantthistimberhere。\"——\"Fred。,comecarrythistimberyonder。\"——\"Fred。,bringthatrollerhere。\"——

  \"Fred。,gogetafreshcanofwater。\"——\"Fred。,comehelpsawofftheendofthistimber。\"——\"Fred。,goquick,andgetthecrowbar。\"——\"Fred。,holdontheendofthisfall。\"——\"Fred。,gototheblacksmith’sshop,andgetanewpunch。\"——\"Hurra,Fred。!runandbringmeacoldchisel。\"——\"Isay,Fred。,bearahand,andgetupafireasquickaslightningunderthatsteam-box。\"——\"Halloo,nigger!come,turnthisgrindstone。\"——\"Come,come!move,move!andBOWSE

  thistimberforward。\"——\"Isay,darky,blastyoureyes,whydon’tyouheatupsomepitch?\"——\"Halloo!

  halloo!halloo!\"(Threevoicesatthesametime。)

  \"Comehere!——Gothere!——Holdonwhereyouare!

  Damnyou,ifyoumove,I’llknockyourbrainsout!\"

  Thiswasmyschoolforeightmonths;andImighthaveremainedtherelonger,butforamosthorridfightIhadwithfourofthewhiteapprentices,inwhichmylefteyewasnearlyknockedout,andI

  washorriblymangledinotherrespects。Thefactsinthecasewerethese:UntilaverylittlewhileafterIwentthere,whiteandblackship-carpentersworkedsidebyside,andnooneseemedtoseeanyimproprietyinit。Allhandsseemedtobeverywellsatisfied。Manyoftheblackcarpenterswerefreemen。

  Thingsseemedtobegoingonverywell。Allatonce,thewhitecarpentersknockedoff,andsaidtheywouldnotworkwithfreecoloredworkmen。Theirreasonforthis,asalleged,was,thatiffreecoloredcarpenterswereencouraged,theywouldsoontakethetradeintotheirownhands,andpoorwhitemenwouldbethrownoutofemployment。Theythereforefeltcalleduponatoncetoputastoptoit。And,takingadvantageofMr。Gardner’snecessities,theybrokeoff,swearingtheywouldworknolonger,unlesshewoulddischargehisblackcarpenters。Now,thoughthisdidnotextendtomeinform,itdidreachmeinfact。Myfellow-apprenticesverysoonbegantofeelitdegradingtothemtoworkwithme。Theybegantoputonairs,andtalkaboutthe\"niggers\"takingthecountry,sayingwealloughttobekilled;and,beingencouragedbythejourney-

  men,theycommencedmakingmyconditionashardastheycould,byhectoringmearound,andsometimesstrikingme。I,ofcourse,keptthevowImadeafterthefightwithMr。Covey,andstruckbackagain,regardlessofconsequences;andwhileIkeptthemfromcombining,Isucceededverywell;

  forIcouldwhipthewholeofthem,takingthemseparately。They,however,atlengthcombined,andcameuponme,armedwithsticks,stones,andheavyhandspikes。Onecameinfrontwithahalfbrick。

  Therewasoneateachsideofme,andonebehindme。WhileIwasattendingtothoseinfront,andoneitherside,theonebehindranupwiththehand-

  spike,andstruckmeaheavyblowuponthehead。

  Itstunnedme。Ifell,andwiththistheyallranuponme,andfelltobeatingmewiththeirfists。I

  letthemlayonforawhile,gatheringstrength。Inaninstant,Igaveasuddensurge,androsetomyhandsandknees。JustasIdidthat,oneoftheirnumbergaveme,withhisheavyboot,apowerfulkickinthelefteye。Myeyeballseemedtohaveburst。Whentheysawmyeyeclosed,andbadlyswollen,theyleftme。WiththisIseizedthehand-

  spike,andforatimepursuedthem。Butherethecarpentersinterfered,andIthoughtImightaswellgiveitup。Itwasimpossibletostandmyhandagainstsomany。Allthistookplaceinsightofnotlessthanfiftywhiteship-carpenters,andnotoneinterposedafriendlyword;butsomecried,\"Killthedamnednigger!Killhim!killhim!Hestruckawhiteperson。\"Ifoundmyonlychanceforlifewasinflight。Isucceededingettingawaywithoutanadditionalblow,andbarelyso;fortostrikeawhitemanisdeathbyLynchlaw,——andthatwasthelawinMr。Gardner’sship-yard;noristheremuchofanyotheroutofMr。Gardner’sship-yard。

  Iwentdirectlyhome,andtoldthestoryofmywrongstoMasterHugh;andIamhappytosayofhim,irreligiousashewas,hisconductwasheavenly,comparedwiththatofhisbrotherThomasundersimilarcircumstances。Helistenedattentivelytomynarrationofthecircumstancesleadingtothesavageoutrage,andgavemanyproofsofhisstrongindigna-

  tionatit。Theheartofmyonceoverkindmistresswasagainmeltedintopity。Mypuffed-outeyeandblood-coveredfacemovedhertotears。Shetookachairbyme,washedthebloodfrommyface,and,withamother’stenderness,boundupmyhead,coveringthewoundedeyewithaleanpieceoffreshbeef。Itwasalmostcompensationformysufferingtowitness,oncemore,amanifestationofkindnessfromthis,myonceaffectionateoldmistress。MasterHughwasverymuchenraged。Hegaveexpressiontohisfeelingsbypouringoutcursesupontheheadsofthosewhodidthedeed。AssoonasIgotalittlethebetterofmybruises,hetookmewithhimtoEsquireWatson’s,onBondStreet,toseewhatcouldbedoneaboutthematter。Mr。Watsoninquiredwhosawtheassaultcommitted。MasterHughtoldhimitwasdoneinMr。Gardner’sship-yardatmidday,wheretherewerealargecompanyofmenatwork。

  \"Astothat,\"hesaid,\"thedeedwasdone,andtherewasnoquestionastowhodidit。\"Hisanswerwas,hecoulddonothinginthecase,unlesssomewhitemanwouldcomeforwardandtestify。Hecouldissuenowarrantonmyword。IfIhadbeenkilledinthepresenceofathousandcoloredpeople,theirtestimonycombinedwouldhavebeeninsufficienttohavearrestedoneofthemurderers。MasterHugh,foronce,wascompelledtosaythisstateofthingswastoobad。Ofcourse,itwasimpossibletogetanywhitemantovolunteerhistestimonyinmybehalf,andagainstthewhiteyoungmen。Eventhosewhomayhavesympathizedwithmewerenotpreparedtodothis。Itrequiredadegreeofcourageunknowntothemtodoso;forjustatthattime,theslightestmanifestationofhumanitytowardacoloredpersonwasdenouncedasabolitionism,andthatnamesub-

  jecteditsbearertofrightfulliabilities。Thewatch-

  wordsofthebloody-mindedinthatregion,andinthosedays,were,\"Damntheabolitionists!\"and\"Damntheniggers!\"Therewasnothingdone,andprobablynothingwouldhavebeendoneifIhadbeenkilled。Suchwas,andsuchremains,thestateofthingsintheChristiancityofBaltimore。

  MasterHugh,findinghecouldgetnoredress,re-

  fusedtoletmegobackagaintoMr。Gardner。Hekeptmehimself,andhiswifedressedmywoundtillIwasagainrestoredtohealth。Hethentookmeintotheship-yardofwhichhewasforeman,intheemploymentofMr。WalterPrice。ThereIwasim-

  mediatelysettocalking,andverysoonlearnedtheartofusingmymalletandirons。InthecourseofoneyearfromthetimeIleftMr。Gardner’s,Iwasabletocommandthehighestwagesgiventothemostexperiencedcalkers。Iwasnowofsomeimpor-

  tancetomymaster。Iwasbringinghimfromsixtosevendollarsperweek。Isometimesbroughthimninedollarsperweek:mywageswereadollarandahalfaday。Afterlearninghowtocalk,Isoughtmyownemployment,mademyowncontracts,andcollectedthemoneywhichIearned。Mypathwaybecamemuchmoresmooththanbefore;mycondi-

  tionwasnowmuchmorecomfortable。WhenIcouldgetnocalkingtodo,Ididnothing。Duringtheseleisuretimes,thoseoldnotionsaboutfreedomwouldstealovermeagain。WheninMr。Gardner’semploy-

  ment,Iwaskeptinsuchaperpetualwhirlofex-

  citement,Icouldthinkofnothing,scarcely,butmylife;andinthinkingofmylife,Ialmostforgotmyliberty。Ihaveobservedthisinmyexperienceofslavery,——thatwhenevermyconditionwasim-

  proved,insteadofitsincreasingmycontentment,itonlyincreasedmydesiretobefree,andsetmetothinkingofplanstogainmyfreedom。Ihavefoundthat,tomakeacontentedslave,itisnecessarytomakeathoughtlessone。Itisnecessarytodarkenhismoralandmentalvision,and,asfaraspossible,toannihilatethepowerofreason。Hemustbeabletodetectnoinconsistenciesinslavery;hemustbemadetofeelthatslaveryisright;andhecanbebroughttothatonlywhenheceasestobeaman。

  Iwasnowgetting,asIhavesaid,onedollarandfiftycentsperday。Icontractedforit;Iearnedit;

  itwaspaidtome;itwasrightfullymyown;yet,uponeachreturningSaturdaynight,IwascompelledtodelivereverycentofthatmoneytoMasterHugh。

  Andwhy?Notbecauseheearnedit,——notbecausehehadanyhandinearningit,——notbecauseIowedittohim,——norbecausehepossessedtheslightestshadowofarighttoit;butsolelybecausehehadthepowertocompelmetogiveitup。Therightofthegrim-visagedpirateuponthehighseasisexactlythesame。

  CHAPTERXI

  InowcometothatpartofmylifeduringwhichI

  planned,andfinallysucceededinmaking,myescapefromslavery。Butbeforenarratinganyofthepe-

  culiarcircumstances,Ideemitpropertomakeknownmyintentionnottostateallthefactscon-

  nectedwiththetransaction。Myreasonsforpursuingthiscoursemaybeunderstoodfromthefollowing:

  First,wereItogiveaminutestatementofallthefacts,itisnotonlypossible,butquiteprobable,thatotherswouldtherebybeinvolvedinthemostembar-

  rassingdifficulties。Secondly,suchastatementwouldmostundoubtedlyinducegreatervigilanceonthepartofslaveholdersthanhasexistedheretoforeamongthem;whichwould,ofcourse,bethemeansofguardingadoorwherebysomedearbrotherbond-

  manmightescapehisgallingchains。Ideeplyregretthenecessitythatimpelsmetosuppressanythingofimportanceconnectedwithmyexperienceinslavery。Itwouldaffordmegreatpleasureindeed,aswellasmateriallyaddtotheinterestofmynar-

  rative,wereIatlibertytogratifyacuriosity,whichIknowexistsinthemindsofmany,byanaccuratestatementofallthefactspertainingtomymostfortunateescape。ButImustdeprivemyselfofthispleasure,andthecuriousofthegratificationwhichsuchastatementwouldafford。Iwouldallowmy-

  selftosufferunderthegreatestimputationswhichevil-mindedmenmightsuggest,ratherthanexcul-

  patemyself,andtherebyrunthehazardofclosingtheslightestavenuebywhichabrotherslavemightclearhimselfofthechainsandfettersofslavery。

  Ihaveneverapprovedoftheverypublicmannerinwhichsomeofourwesternfriendshaveconductedwhattheycallthe~undergroundrailroad,~butwhichIthink,bytheiropendeclarations,hasbeenmademostemphaticallythe~uppergroundrailroad。~Ihonorthosegoodmenandwomenfortheirnobledaring,andapplaudthemforwillinglysubjectingthem-

  selvestobloodypersecution,byopenlyavowingtheirparticipationintheescapeofslaves。I,however,canseeverylittlegoodresultingfromsuchacourse,eithertothemselvesortheslavesescaping;while,upontheotherhand,Iseeandfeelassuredthatthoseopendeclarationsareapositiveeviltotheslavesremaining,whoareseekingtoescape。Theydonothingtowardsenlighteningtheslave,whilsttheydomuchtowardsenlighteningthemaster。

  Theystimulatehimtogreaterwatchfulness,andenhancehispowertocapturehisslave。Weowesomethingtotheslavesouthofthelineaswellastothosenorthofit;andinaidingthelatterontheirwaytofreedom,weshouldbecarefultodonothingwhichwouldbelikelytohindertheformerfromescapingfromslavery。Iwouldkeepthemercilessslaveholderprofoundlyignorantofthemeansofflightadoptedbytheslave。Iwouldleavehimtoimaginehimselfsurroundedbymyriadsofinvisibletormentors,everreadytosnatchfromhisinfernalgrasphistremblingprey。Lethimbelefttofeelhiswayinthedark;letdarknesscommensuratewithhiscrimehoveroverhim;andlethimfeelthatateverystephetakes,inpursuitoftheflyingbondman,heisrunningthefrightfulriskofhavinghishotbrainsdashedoutbyaninvisibleagency。Letusrenderthetyrantnoaid;letusnotholdthelightbywhichhecantracethefootprintsofourflyingbrother。Butenoughofthis。Iwillnowproceedtothestatementofthosefacts,connectedwithmyescape,forwhichIamaloneresponsible,andforwhichnoonecanbemadetosufferbutmyself。

  Intheearlypartoftheyear1838,Ibecamequiterestless。IcouldseenoreasonwhyIshould,attheendofeachweek,pourtherewardofmytoilintothepurseofmymaster。WhenIcarriedtohimmyweeklywages,hewould,aftercountingthemoney,lookmeinthefacewitharobber-likefierceness,andask,\"Isthisall?\"Hewassatisfiedwithnothinglessthanthelastcent。Hewould,however,whenI

  madehimsixdollars,sometimesgivemesixcents,toencourageme。Ithadtheoppositeeffect。Ire-

  gardeditasasortofadmissionofmyrighttothewhole。Thefactthathegavemeanypartofmywageswasproof,tomymind,thathebelievedmeentitledtothewholeofthem。Ialwaysfeltworseforhavingreceivedanything;forIfearedthatthegivingmeafewcentswouldeasehisconscience,andmakehimfeelhimselftobeaprettyhonorablesortofrobber。Mydiscontentgrewuponme。Iwaseveronthelook-outformeansofescape;and,find-

  ingnodirectmeans,Ideterminedtotrytohiremytime,withaviewofgettingmoneywithwhichtomakemyescape。Inthespringof1838,whenMasterThomascametoBaltimoretopurchasehisspringgoods,Igotanopportunity,andappliedtohimtoallowmetohiremytime。Heunhesitatinglyrefusedmyrequest,andtoldmethiswasanotherstratagembywhichtoescape。HetoldmeIcouldgonowherebutthathecouldgetme;andthat,intheeventofmyrunningaway,heshouldsparenopainsinhiseffortstocatchme。Heexhortedmetocontentmyself,andbeobedient。Hetoldme,ifIwouldbehappy,Imustlayoutnoplansforthefuture。

  Hesaid,ifIbehavedmyselfproperly,hewouldtakecareofme。Indeed,headvisedmetocompletethoughtlessnessofthefuture,andtaughtmetode-

  pendsolelyuponhimforhappiness。Heseemedtoseefullythepressingnecessityofsettingasidemyintellectualnature,inordertocontentmentinslavery。Butinspiteofhim,andeveninspiteofmyself,Icontinuedtothink,andtothinkabouttheinjusticeofmyenslavement,andthemeansofescape。

  Abouttwomonthsafterthis,IappliedtoMasterHughfortheprivilegeofhiringmytime。HewasnotacquaintedwiththefactthatIhadappliedtoMasterThomas,andhadbeenrefused。Hetoo,atfirst,seemeddisposedtorefuse;but,aftersomere-

  flection,hegrantedmetheprivilege,andproposedthefollowingterms:Iwastobeallowedallmytime,makeallcontractswiththoseforwhomI

  worked,andfindmyownemployment;and,inre-

  turnforthisliberty,Iwastopayhimthreedollarsattheendofeachweek;findmyselfincalkingtools,andinboardandclothing。Myboardwastwodol-

  larsandahalfperweek。This,withthewearandtearofclothingandcalkingtools,mademyregularexpensesaboutsixdollarsperweek。ThisamountIwascompelledtomakeup,orrelinquishtheprivilegeofhiringmytime。Rainorshine,workornowork,attheendofeachweekthemoneymustbeforthcoming,orImustgiveupmyprivilege。Thisarrangement,itwillbeperceived,wasdecidedlyinmymaster’sfavor。Itrelievedhimofallneedoflookingafterme。Hismoneywassure。Hereceivedallthebenefitsofslaveholdingwithoutitsevils;

  whileIenduredalltheevilsofaslave,andsufferedallthecareandanxietyofafreeman。Ifounditahardbargain。But,hardasitwas,Ithoughtitbetterthantheoldmodeofgettingalong。Itwasasteptowardsfreedomtobeallowedtobeartherespon-

  sibilitiesofafreeman,andIwasdeterminedtoholdonuponit。Ibentmyselftotheworkofmakingmoney。Iwasreadytoworkatnightaswellasday,andbythemostuntiringperseveranceandindustry,Imadeenoughtomeetmyexpenses,andlayupalittlemoneyeveryweek。IwentonthusfromMaytillAugust。MasterHughthenrefusedtoallowmetohiremytimelonger。Thegroundforhisrefusalwasafailureonmypart,oneSaturdaynight,topayhimformyweek’stime。ThisfailurewasoccasionedbymyattendingacampmeetingabouttenmilesfromBaltimore。Duringtheweek,IhadenteredintoanengagementwithanumberofyoungfriendstostartfromBaltimoretothecampgroundearlySaturdayevening;andbeingdetainedbymyem-

  ployer,IwasunabletogetdowntoMasterHugh’swithoutdisappointingthecompany。IknewthatMasterHughwasinnospecialneedofthemoneythatnight。Ithereforedecidedtogotocampmeet-

  ing,anduponmyreturnpayhimthethreedollars。

  IstaidatthecampmeetingonedaylongerthanI

  intendedwhenIleft。ButassoonasIreturned,I

  calleduponhimtopayhimwhatheconsideredhisdue。Ifoundhimveryangry;hecouldscarcerestrainhiswrath。Hesaidhehadagreatmindtogivemeaseverewhipping。HewishedtoknowhowIdaredgooutofthecitywithoutaskinghispermission。I

  toldhimIhiredmytimeandwhileIpaidhimthepricewhichheaskedforit,IdidnotknowthatI

  wasboundtoaskhimwhenandwhereIshouldgo。

  Thisreplytroubledhim;and,afterreflectingafewmoments,heturnedtome,andsaidIshouldhiremytimenolonger;thatthenextthingheshouldknowof,Iwouldberunningaway。Uponthesameplea,hetoldmetobringmytoolsandclothinghomeforthwith。Ididso;butinsteadofseekingwork,asIhadbeenaccustomedtodopreviouslytohiringmytime,Ispentthewholeweekwithouttheperformanceofasinglestrokeofwork。Ididthisinretaliation。Saturdaynight,hecalleduponmeasusualformyweek’swages。ItoldhimIhadnowages;Ihaddonenoworkthatweek。Herewewereuponthepointofcomingtoblows。Heraved,andsworehisdeterminationtogetholdofme。Ididnotallowmyselfasingleword;butwasresolved,ifhelaidtheweightofhishanduponme,itshouldbeblowforblow。Hedidnotstrikeme,buttoldmethathewouldfindmeinconstantemploymentinfuture。Ithoughtthematteroverduringthenextday,Sunday,andfinallyresolveduponthethirddayofSeptember,asthedayuponwhichIwouldmakeasecondattempttosecuremyfreedom。Inowhadthreeweeksduringwhichtoprepareformyjourney。

  EarlyonMondaymorning,beforeMasterHughhadtimetomakeanyengagementforme,IwentoutandgotemploymentofMr。Butler,athisship-yardnearthedrawbridge,uponwhatiscalledtheCityBlock,thusmakingitunnecessaryforhimtoseekemploymentforme。Attheendoftheweek,I

  broughthimbetweeneightandninedollars。Heseemedverywellpleased,andaskedwhyIdidnotdothesametheweekbefore。Helittleknewwhatmyplanswere。Myobjectinworkingsteadilywastoremoveanysuspicionhemightentertainofmyintenttorunaway;andinthisIsucceededadmi-

  rably。IsupposehethoughtIwasneverbettersatisfiedwithmyconditionthanattheverytimeduringwhichIwasplanningmyescape。Thesecondweekpassed,andagainIcarriedhimmyfullwages;

  andsowellpleasedwashe,thathegavemetwenty-

  fivecents,(quitealargesumforaslaveholdertogiveaslave,)andbademetomakeagooduseofit。

  ItoldhimIwould。

  Thingswentonwithoutverysmoothlyindeed,butwithintherewastrouble。Itisimpossibleformetodescribemyfeelingsasthetimeofmycon-

  templatedstartdrewnear。Ihadanumberofwarm-

  heartedfriendsinBaltimore,——friendsthatIlovedalmostasIdidmylife,——andthethoughtofbeingseparatedfromthemforeverwaspainfulbeyondexpression。Itismyopinionthatthousandswouldescapefromslavery,whonowremain,butforthestrongcordsofaffectionthatbindthemtotheirfriends。Thethoughtofleavingmyfriendswasde-

  cidedlythemostpainfulthoughtwithwhichIhadtocontend。Theloveofthemwasmytenderpoint,andshookmydecisionmorethanallthingselse。

  Besidesthepainofseparation,thedreadandappre-

  hensionofafailureexceededwhatIhadexperiencedatmyfirstattempt。TheappallingdefeatIthensustainedreturnedtotormentme。Ifeltassuredthat,ifIfailedinthisattempt,mycasewouldbeahopelessone——itwouldsealmyfateasaslavefor-

  ever。Icouldnothopetogetoffwithanythinglessthantheseverestpunishment,andbeingplacedbeyondthemeansofescape。ItrequirednoveryvividimaginationtodepictthemostfrightfulscenesthroughwhichIshouldhavetopass,incaseIfailed。Thewretchednessofslavery,andtheblessednessoffreedom,wereperpetuallybeforeme。

  Itwaslifeanddeathwithme。ButIremainedfirm,and,accordingtomyresolution,onthethirddayofSeptember,1838,Ileftmychains,andsuc-

  ceededinreachingNewYorkwithouttheslightestinterruptionofanykind。HowIdidso,——whatmeansIadopted,——whatdirectionItravelled,andbywhatmodeofconveyance,——Imustleaveunexplained,forthereasonsbeforementioned。

  IhavebeenfrequentlyaskedhowIfeltwhenI

  foundmyselfinafreeState。Ihaveneverbeenabletoanswerthequestionwithanysatisfactiontomy-

  self。ItwasamomentofthehighestexcitementI

  everexperienced。IsupposeIfeltasonemayimaginetheunarmedmarinertofeelwhenheisrescuedbyafriendlyman-of-warfromthepursuitofapirate。

  Inwritingtoadearfriend,immediatelyaftermyarrivalatNewYork,IsaidIfeltlikeonewhohadescapedadenofhungrylions。Thisstateofmind,however,verysoonsubsided;andIwasagainseizedwithafeelingofgreatinsecurityandloneliness。I

  wasyetliabletobetakenback,andsubjectedtoallthetorturesofslavery。Thisinitselfwasenoughtodamptheardorofmyenthusiasm。Butthelone-

  linessovercameme。ThereIwasinthemidstofthousands,andyetaperfectstranger;withouthomeandwithoutfriends,inthemidstofthousandsofmyownbrethren——childrenofacommonFather,andyetIdarednottounfoldtoanyoneofthemmysadcondition。Iwasafraidtospeaktoanyoneforfearofspeakingtothewrongone,andtherebyfall-

  ingintothehandsofmoney-lovingkidnappers,whosebusinessitwastolieinwaitforthepantingfugitive,astheferociousbeastsoftheforestlieinwaitfortheirprey。ThemottowhichIadoptedwhenIstartedfromslaverywasthis——\"Trustnoman!\"Isawineverywhitemananenemy,andinalmosteverycoloredmancausefordistrust。Itwasamostpainfulsituation;and,tounderstandit,onemustneedsexperienceit,orimaginehimselfinsimilarcircumstances。Lethimbeafugitiveslaveinastrangeland——alandgivenuptobethehunting-

  groundforslaveholders——whoseinhabitantsarelegal-

  izedkidnappers——whereheiseverymomentsub-

  jectedtotheterribleliabilityofbeingseizeduponbyhisfellowmen,asthehideouscrocodileseizesuponhisprey!——Isay,lethimplacehimselfinmysituation——withouthomeorfriends——withoutmoneyorcredit——wantingshelter,andnoonetogiveit——

  wantingbread,andnomoneytobuyit,——andatthesametimelethimfeelthatheispursuedbymerci-

  lessmen-hunters,andintotaldarknessastowhattodo,wheretogo,orwheretostay,——perfectlyhelp-

  lessbothastothemeansofdefenceandmeansofescape,——inthemidstofplenty,yetsufferingtheter-

  riblegnawingsofhunger,——inthemidstofhouses,yethavingnohome,——amongfellow-men,yetfeelingasifinthemidstofwildbeasts,whosegreedinesstoswallowupthetremblingandhalf-famishedfugi-

  tiveisonlyequalledbythatwithwhichthemonstersofthedeepswallowupthehelplessfishuponwhichtheysubsist,——Isay,lethimbeplacedinthismosttryingsituation,——thesituationinwhichIwasplaced,——then,andnottillthen,willhefullyappreciatethehardshipsof,andknowhowtosympathizewith,thetoil-wornandwhip-scarredfugitiveslave。

  ThankHeaven,Iremainedbutashorttimeinthisdistressedsituation。IwasrelievedfromitbythehumanehandofMr。DAVIDRUGGLES,whosevigi-

  lance,kindness,andperseverance,Ishallneverfor-

  get。Iamgladofanopportunitytoexpress,asfaraswordscan,theloveandgratitudeIbearhim。Mr。

  Rugglesisnowafflictedwithblindness,andishim-

  selfinneedofthesamekindofficeswhichhewasoncesoforwardintheperformanceoftowardothers。

  IhadbeeninNewYorkbutafewdays,whenMr。

  Rugglessoughtmeout,andverykindlytookmetohisboarding-houseatthecornerofChurchandLespenardStreets。Mr。Ruggleswasthenverydeeplyengagedinthememorable~Darg~case,aswellasat-

  tendingtoanumberofotherfugitiveslaves,devis-

  ingwaysandmeansfortheirsuccessfulescape;and,thoughwatchedandhemmedinonalmosteveryside,heseemedtobemorethanamatchforhisenemies。

  VerysoonafterIwenttoMr。Ruggles,hewishedtoknowofmewhereIwantedtogo;ashedeemeditunsafeformetoremaininNewYork。ItoldhimIwasacalker,andshouldliketogowhereIcouldgetwork。IthoughtofgoingtoCanada;buthede-

  cidedagainstit,andinfavorofmygoingtoNewBedford,thinkingIshouldbeabletogetworkthereatmytrade。Atthistime,Anna,*myintendedwife,cameon;forIwrotetoherimmediatelyaftermyarrivalatNewYork,(notwithstandingmyhomeless,houseless,andhelplesscondition,)informingherofmysuccessfulflight,andwishinghertocomeonforthwith。Inafewdaysafterherarrival,Mr。Rug-

  glescalledintheRev。J。W。C。Pennington,who,inthepresenceofMr。Ruggles,Mrs。Michaels,andtwoorthreeothers,performedthemarriagecere-

  mony,andgaveusacertificate,ofwhichthefol-

  lowingisanexactcopy:——

  \"Thismaycertify,thatIjoinedtogetherinholymatrimonyFrederickJohnsonandAnnaMurray,asmanandwife,inthepresenceofMr。DavidRugglesandMrs。Michaels。

  \"JAMESW。C。PENNINGTON

  \"NEWYORK,SEPT。15,1838\"

  Uponreceivingthiscertificate,andafive-dollarbillfromMr。Ruggles,Ishoulderedonepartofourbaggage,andAnnatookuptheother,andwesetoutforthwithtotakepassageonboardofthesteam-

  boatJohnW。RichmondforNewport,onourwaytoNewBedford。Mr。RugglesgavemealettertoaMr。ShawinNewport,andtoldme,incasemymoneydidnotservemetoNewBedford,tostopinNewportandobtainfurtherassistance;butuponour*Shewasfree。

  IhadchangedmynamefromFrederickBAILEY

  tothatofJOHNSON。

  arrivalatNewport,weweresoanxioustogettoaplaceofsafety,that,notwithstandingwelackedthenecessarymoneytopayourfare,wedecidedtotakeseatsinthestage,andpromisetopaywhenwegottoNewBedford。Wewereencouragedtodothisbytwoexcellentgentlemen,residentsofNewBedford,whosenamesIafterwardascertainedtobeJosephRicketsonandWilliamC。Taber。Theyseemedatoncetounderstandourcircumstances,andgaveussuchassuranceoftheirfriendlinessasputusfullyateaseintheirpresence。Itwasgoodindeedtomeetwithsuchfriends,atsuchatime。UponreachingNewBedford,weweredirectedtothehouseofMr。

  NathanJohnson,bywhomwewerekindlyreceived,andhospitablyprovidedfor。BothMr。andMrs。

  Johnsontookadeepandlivelyinterestinourwel-

  fare。Theyprovedthemselvesquiteworthyofthenameofabolitionists。Whenthestage-driverfoundusunabletopayourfare,heheldonuponourbag-

  gageassecurityforthedebt。IhadbuttomentionthefacttoMr。Johnson,andheforthwithadvancedthemoney。

  Wenowbegantofeeladegreeofsafety,andtoprepareourselvesforthedutiesandresponsibilitiesofalifeoffreedom。Onthemorningafterourar-

  rivalatNewBedford,whileatthebreakfast-table,thequestionaroseastowhatnameIshouldbecalledby。Thenamegivenmebymymotherwas,\"FrederickAugustusWashingtonBailey。\"I,how-

  ever,haddispensedwiththetwomiddlenameslongbeforeIleftMarylandsothatIwasgenerallyknownbythenameof\"FrederickBailey。\"IstartedfromBaltimorebearingthenameof\"Stanley。\"WhenI

  gottoNewYork,Iagainchangedmynameto\"Fred-

  erickJohnson,\"andthoughtthatwouldbethelastchange。ButwhenIgottoNewBedford,Ifounditnecessaryagaintochangemyname。Thereasonofthisnecessitywas,thatthereweresomanyJohnsonsinNewBedford,itwasalreadyquitedifficulttodistinguishbetweenthem。IgaveMr。Johnsontheprivilegeofchoosingmeaname,buttoldhimhemustnottakefrommethenameof\"Frederick。\"

  Imustholdontothat,topreserveasenseofmyidentity。Mr。Johnsonhadjustbeenreadingthe\"LadyoftheLake,\"andatoncesuggestedthatmynamebe\"Douglass。\"FromthattimeuntilnowI

  havebeencalled\"FrederickDouglass;\"andasIammorewidelyknownbythatnamethanbyeitheroftheothers,Ishallcontinuetouseitasmyown。

  Iwasquitedisappointedatthegeneralappear-

  anceofthingsinNewBedford。TheimpressionwhichIhadreceivedrespectingthecharacterandconditionofthepeopleofthenorth,Ifoundtobesingularlyerroneous。Ihadverystrangelysupposed,whileinslavery,thatfewofthecomforts,andscarcelyanyoftheluxuries,oflifewereenjoyedatthenorth,comparedwithwhatwereenjoyedbytheslaveholdersofthesouth。Iprobablycametothisconclusionfromthefactthatnorthernpeopleownednoslaves。Isupposedthattheywereaboutuponalevelwiththenon-slaveholdingpopulationofthesouth。Iknew~they~wereexceedinglypoor,andIhadbeenaccustomedtoregardtheirpovertyasthenec-

  essaryconsequenceoftheirbeingnon-slaveholders。

  Ihadsomehowimbibedtheopinionthat,intheabsenceofslaves,therecouldbenowealth,andverylittlerefinement。Anduponcomingtothenorth,I

  expectedtomeetwitharough,hard-handed,anduncultivatedpopulation,livinginthemostSpartan-

  likesimplicity,knowingnothingoftheease,luxury,pomp,andgrandeurofsouthernslaveholders。Suchbeingmyconjectures,anyoneacquaintedwiththeappearanceofNewBedfordmayveryreadilyinferhowpalpablyImusthaveseenmymistake。

  IntheafternoonofthedaywhenIreachedNewBedford,Ivisitedthewharves,totakeaviewoftheshipping。HereIfoundmyselfsurroundedwiththestrongestproofsofwealth。Lyingatthewharves,andridinginthestream,Isawmanyshipsofthefinestmodel,inthebestorder,andofthelargestsize。

  Upontherightandleft,Iwaswalledinbygranitewarehousesofthewidestdimensions,stowedtotheirutmostcapacitywiththenecessariesandcomfortsoflife。Addedtothis,almosteverybodyseemedtobeatwork,butnoiselesslyso,comparedwithwhatIhadbeenaccustomedtoinBaltimore。Therewerenoloudsongsheardfromthoseengagedinloadingandunloadingships。Iheardnodeepoathsorhorridcursesonthelaborer。Isawnowhippingofmen;

  butallseemedtogosmoothlyon。Everymanap-

  pearedtounderstandhiswork,andwentatitwithasober,yetcheerfulearnestness,whichbetokenedthedeepinterestwhichhefeltinwhathewasdoing,aswellasasenseofhisowndignityasaman。Tomethislookedexceedinglystrange。FromthewharvesI

  strolledaroundandoverthetown,gazingwithwon-

  derandadmirationatthesplendidchurches,beauti-

  fuldwellings,andfinely-cultivatedgardens;evincinganamountofwealth,comfort,taste,andrefinement,suchasIhadneverseeninanypartofslaveholdingMaryland。

  Everythinglookedclean,new,andbeautiful。I

  sawfewornodilapidatedhouses,withpoverty-

  strickeninmates;nohalf-nakedchildrenandbare-

  footedwomen,suchasIhadbeenaccustomedtoseeinHillsborough,Easton,St。Michael’s,andBalti-

  more。Thepeoplelookedmoreable,stronger,health-

  ier,andhappier,thanthoseofMaryland。Iwasforoncemadegladbyaviewofextremewealth,withoutbeingsaddenedbyseeingextremepoverty。Butthemostastonishingaswellasthemostinterestingthingtomewastheconditionofthecoloredpeople,agreatmanyofwhom,likemyself,hadescapedthitherasarefugefromthehuntersofmen。Ifoundmany,whohadnotbeensevenyearsoutoftheirchains,livinginfinerhouses,andevidentlyenjoyingmoreofthecomfortsoflife,thantheaverageofslaveholdersinMaryland。Iwillventuretoassert,thatmyfriendMr。NathanJohnson(ofwhomI

  cansaywithagratefulheart,\"Iwashungry,andhegavememeat;Iwasthirsty,andhegavemedrink;

  Iwasastranger,andhetookmein\")livedinaneaterhouse;dinedatabettertable;took,paidfor,andread,morenewspapers;betterunderstoodthemoral,religious,andpoliticalcharacterofthenation,——thanninetenthsoftheslaveholdersinTal-

  botcountyMaryland。YetMr。Johnsonwasawork-

  ingman。Hishandswerehardenedbytoil,andnothisalone,butthosealsoofMrs。Johnson。IfoundthecoloredpeoplemuchmorespiritedthanIhadsup-

  posedtheywouldbe。Ifoundamongthemadeter-

  minationtoprotecteachotherfromtheblood-thirstykidnapper,atallhazards。Soonaftermyarrival,I

  wastoldofacircumstancewhichillustratedtheirspirit。Acoloredmanandafugitiveslavewereonunfriendlyterms。Theformerwasheardtothreatenthelatterwithinforminghismasterofhiswhere-

  abouts。Straightwayameetingwascalledamongthecoloredpeople,underthestereotypednotice,\"Busi-

  nessofimportance!\"Thebetrayerwasinvitedtoat-

  tend。Thepeoplecameattheappointedhour,andorganizedthemeetingbyappointingaveryreligiousoldgentlemanaspresident,who,Ibelieve,madeaprayer,afterwhichheaddressedthemeetingasfol-

  lows:\"~Friends,wehavegothimhere,andIwouldrecommendthatyouyoungmenjusttakehimout-

  sidethedoor,andkillhim!~\"Withthis,anumberofthemboltedathim;buttheywereinterceptedbysomemoretimidthanthemselves,andthebe-

  trayerescapedtheirvengeance,andhasnotbeenseeninNewBedfordsince。Ibelievetherehavebeennomoresuchthreats,andshouldtherebehere-

  after,Idoubtnotthatdeathwouldbetheconse-

  quence。

  Ifoundemployment,thethirddayaftermyar-

  rival,instowingasloopwithaloadofoil。Itwasnew,dirty,andhardworkforme;butIwentatitwithagladheartandawillinghand。Iwasnowmyownmaster。Itwasahappymoment,theraptureofwhichcanbeunderstoodonlybythosewhohavebeenslaves。Itwasthefirstwork,therewardofwhichwastobeentirelymyown。TherewasnoMas-

  terHughstandingready,themomentIearnedthemoney,torobmeofit。IworkedthatdaywithapleasureIhadneverbeforeexperienced。Iwasatworkformyselfandnewly-marriedwife。Itwastomethestarting-pointofanewexistence。WhenIgotthroughwiththatjob,Iwentinpursuitofajobofcalking;butsuchwasthestrengthofprejudiceagainstcolor,amongthewhitecalkers,thattheyre-

  fusedtoworkwithme,andofcourseIcouldgetnoemployment。*Findingmytradeofnoimmediatebenefit,Ithrewoffmycalkinghabiliments,andpre-

  paredmyselftodoanykindofworkIcouldgettodo。Mr。Johnsonkindlyletmehavehiswood-horseandsaw,andIverysoonfoundmyselfaplentyofwork。Therewasnoworktoohard——nonetoodirty。

  Iwasreadytosawwood,shovelcoal,carrywood,sweepthechimney,orrolloilcasks,——allofwhichI

  *IamtoldthatcoloredpersonscannowgetemploymentatcalkinginNewBedford——aresultofanti-slaveryeffort。

  didfornearlythreeyearsinNewBedford,beforeI

  becameknowntotheanti-slaveryworld。

  InaboutfourmonthsafterIwenttoNewBed-

  ford,therecameayoungmantome,andinquiredifIdidnotwishtotakethe\"Liberator。\"ItoldhimIdid;but,justhavingmademyescapefromslavery,IremarkedthatIwasunabletopayforitthen。I,however,finallybecameasubscribertoit。Thepapercame,andIreaditfromweektoweekwithsuchfeelingsasitwouldbequiteidleformetoattempttodescribe。Thepaperbecamemymeatandmydrink。Mysoulwassetallonfire。Itssympathyformybrethreninbonds——itsscathingdenunciationsofslaveholders——itsfaithfulexposuresofslavery——anditspowerfulattacksupontheupholdersoftheinstitu-

  tion——sentathrillofjoythroughmysoul,suchasIhadneverfeltbefore!

  Ihadnotlongbeenareaderofthe\"Liberator,\"

  beforeIgotaprettycorrectideaoftheprinciples,measuresandspiritoftheanti-slaveryreform。Itookrightholdofthecause。Icoulddobutlittle;butwhatIcould,Ididwithajoyfulheart,andneverfelthappierthanwheninananti-slaverymeeting。Isel-

  domhadmuchtosayatthemeetings,becausewhatIwantedtosaywassaidsomuchbetterbyothers。

  But,whileattendingananti-slaveryconventionatNantucket,onthe11thofAugust,1841,Ifeltstronglymovedtospeak,andwasatthesametimemuchurgedtodosobyMr。WilliamC。Coffin,agentlemanwhohadheardmespeakinthecoloredpeople’smeetingatNewBedford。Itwasaseverecross,andItookitupreluctantly。Thetruthwas,Ifeltmyselfaslave,andtheideaofspeakingtowhitepeopleweighedmedown。Ispokebutafewmoments,whenIfeltadegreeoffreedom,andsaidwhatIdesiredwithconsiderableease。Fromthattimeuntilnow,Ihavebeenengagedinpleadingthecauseofmybrethren——withwhatsuccess,andwithwhatdevotion,Ileavethoseacquaintedwithmyla-

  borstodecide。

  APPENDIX

  Ifind,sincereadingovertheforegoingNarrative,thatIhave,inseveralinstances,spokeninsuchatoneandmanner,respectingreligion,asmaypossi-

  blyleadthoseunacquaintedwithmyreligiousviewstosupposemeanopponentofallreligion。Tore-

  movetheliabilityofsuchmisapprehension,Ideemitpropertoappendthefollowingbriefexplanation。

  WhatIhavesaidrespectingandagainstreligion,I

  meanstrictlytoapplytothe~slaveholdingreligion~ofthisland,andwithnopossiblereferencetoChristi-

  anityproper;for,betweentheChristianityofthisland,andtheChristianityofChrist,Irecognizethewidestpossibledifference——sowide,thattoreceivetheoneasgood,pure,andholy,isofnecessitytore-

  jecttheotherasbad,corrupt,andwicked。Tobethefriendoftheone,isofnecessitytobetheenemyoftheother。Ilovethepure,peaceable,andimpar-

  tialChristianityofChrist:Ithereforehatethecor-

  rupt,slaveholding,women-whipping,cradle-plunder-

  ing,partialandhypocriticalChristianityofthisland。

  Indeed,Icanseenoreason,butthemostdeceitfulone,forcallingthereligionofthislandChristianity。

  Ilookuponitastheclimaxofallmisnomers,theboldestofallfrauds,andthegrossestofalllibels。

  Neverwasthereaclearercaseof\"stealingtheliveryofthecourtofheaventoservethedevilin。\"IamfilledwithunutterableloathingwhenIcontem-

  platethereligiouspompandshow,togetherwiththehorribleinconsistencies,whicheverywheresurroundme。Wehavemen-stealersforministers,women-

  whippersformissionaries,andcradle-plunderersforchurchmembers。Themanwhowieldstheblood-

  clottedcowskinduringtheweekfillsthepulpitonSunday,andclaimstobeaministerofthemeekandlowlyJesus。Themanwhorobsmeofmyearningsattheendofeachweekmeetsmeasaclass-leaderonSundaymorning,toshowmethewayoflife,andthepathofsalvation。Hewhosellsmysister,forpurposesofprostitution,standsforthasthepi-

  ousadvocateofpurity。Hewhoproclaimsitare-

  ligiousdutytoreadtheBibledeniesmetherightoflearningtoreadthenameoftheGodwhomademe。Hewhoisthereligiousadvocateofmarriagerobswholemillionsofitssacredinfluence,andleavesthemtotheravagesofwholesalepollution。Thewarmdefenderofthesacrednessofthefamilyre-

  lationisthesamethatscatterswholefamilies,——sun-

  deringhusbandsandwives,parentsandchildren,sistersandbrothers,——leavingthehutvacant,andthehearthdesolate。Weseethethiefpreachingagainsttheft,andtheadultereragainstadultery。Wehavemensoldtobuildchurches,womensoldtosupportthegospel,andbabessoldtopurchaseBiblesforthePOORHEATHEN!ALLFORTHEGLORYOFGODANDTHE

  GOODOFSOULS!Theslaveauctioneer’sbellandthechurch-goingbellchimeinwitheachother,andthebittercriesoftheheart-brokenslavearedrownedinthereligiousshoutsofhispiousmaster。Revivalsofreligionandrevivalsintheslave-tradegohandinhandtogether。Theslaveprisonandthechurchstandneareachother。Theclankingoffettersandtherattlingofchainsintheprison,andthepiouspsalmandsolemnprayerinthechurch,maybeheardatthesametime。Thedealersinthebodiesandsoulsofmenerecttheirstandinthepresenceofthepulpit,andtheymutuallyhelpeachother。

  Thedealergiveshisblood-stainedgoldtosupportthepulpit,andthepulpit,inreturn,covershisin-

  fernalbusinesswiththegarbofChristianity。Herewehavereligionandrobberythealliesofeachother——devilsdressedinangels’robes,andhellpresentingthesemblanceofparadise。

  \"JustGod!andthesearethey,Whoministeratthinealtar,Godofright!

  Menwhotheirhands,withprayerandblessing,layOnIsrael’sarkoflight。

  \"What!preach,andkidnapmen?

  Givethanks,androbthyownafflictedpoor?

  Talkofthygloriousliberty,andthenBolthardthecaptive’sdoor?

  \"What!servantsofthyownMercifulSon,whocametoseekandsaveThehomelessandtheoutcast,fetteringdownThetaskedandplunderedslave!

  \"PilateandHerodfriends!

  Chiefpriestsandrulers,asofold,combine!

  JustGodandholy!isthatchurchwhichlendsStrengthtothespoilerthine?\"

  TheChristianityofAmericaisaChristianity,ofwhosevotariesitmaybeastrulysaid,asitwasoftheancientscribesandPharisees,\"Theybindheavyburdens,andgrievoustobeborne,andlaythemonmen’sshoulders,buttheythemselveswillnotmovethemwithoneoftheirfingers。Alltheirworkstheydofortobeseenofmen。——Theylovetheupper-

  mostroomsatfeasts,andthechiefseatsinthesyna-

  gogues,……andtobecalledofmen,Rabbi,Rabbi。——Butwoeuntoyou,scribesandPharisees,hypocrites!foryeshutupthekingdomofheavenagainstmen;foryeneithergoinyourselves,neithersufferyethemthatareenteringtogoin。Yedevourwidows’houses,andforapretencemakelongprayers;thereforeyeshallreceivethegreaterdam-

  nation。Yecompassseaandlandtomakeoneprose-

  lyte,andwhenheismade,yemakehimtwofoldmorethechildofhellthanyourselves。——Woeuntoyou,scribesandPharisees,hypocrites!foryepaytitheofmint,andanise,andcumin,andhaveomit-

  tedtheweightiermattersofthelaw,judgment,mercy,andfaith;theseoughtyetohavedone,andnottoleavetheotherundone。Yeblindguides!

  whichstrainatagnat,andswallowacamel。Woeuntoyou,scribesandPharisees,hypocrites!foryemakecleantheoutsideofthecupandoftheplatter;

  butwithin,theyarefullofextortionandexcess。——

  Woeuntoyou,scribesandPharisees,hypocrites!foryearelikeuntowhitedsepulchres,whichindeedap-

  pearbeautifuloutward,butarewithinfullofdeadmen’sbones,andofalluncleanness。Evensoyealsooutwardlyappearrighteousuntomen,butwithinyearefullofhypocrisyandiniquity。\"

  Darkandterribleasisthispicture,IholdittobestrictlytrueoftheoverwhelmingmassofprofessedChristiansinAmerica。Theystrainatagnat,andswallowacamel。Couldanythingbemoretrueofourchurches?Theywouldbeshockedatthepropo-

  sitionoffellowshippingaSHEEP-stealer;andatthesametimetheyhugtotheircommunionaMAN-

  stealer,andbrandmewithbeinganinfidel,ifI

  findfaultwiththemforit。TheyattendwithPhari-

  saicalstrictnesstotheoutwardformsofreligion,andatthesametimeneglecttheweightiermattersofthelaw,judgment,mercy,andfaith。Theyareal-

  waysreadytosacrifice,butseldomtoshowmercy。

  TheyaretheywhoarerepresentedasprofessingtoloveGodwhomtheyhavenotseen,whilsttheyhatetheirbrotherwhomtheyhaveseen。Theylovetheheathenontheothersideoftheglobe。Theycanprayforhim,paymoneytohavetheBibleputintohishand,andmissionariestoinstructhim;whiletheydespiseandtotallyneglecttheheathenattheirowndoors。

  Suchis,verybriefly,myviewofthereligionofthisland;andtoavoidanymisunderstanding,grow-

  ingoutoftheuseofgeneralterms,Imeanbythereligionofthisland,thatwhichisrevealedinthewords,deeds,andactions,ofthosebodies,northandsouth,callingthemselvesChristianchurches,andyetinunionwithslaveholders。Itisagainstreligion,aspresentedbythesebodies,thatIhavefeltitmydutytotestify。

  Iconcludetheseremarksbycopyingthefollowingportraitofthereligionofthesouth,(whichis,bycommunionandfellowship,thereligionofthenorth,)whichIsoberlyaffirmis\"truetothelife,\"

  andwithoutcaricatureortheslightestexaggeration。

  Itissaidtohavebeendrawn,severalyearsbeforethepresentanti-slaveryagitationbegan,byanorth-

  ernMethodistpreacher,who,whileresidingatthesouth,hadanopportunitytoseeslaveholdingmor-

  als,manners,andpiety,withhisowneyes。\"ShallInotvisitforthesethings?saiththeLord。Shallnotmysoulbeavengedonsuchanationasthis?\"

  APARODY

  \"Come,saintsandsinners,hearmetellHowpiouspriestswhipJackandNell,Andwomenbuyandchildrensell,Andpreachallsinnersdowntohell,Andsingofheavenlyunion。

  \"They’llbleatandbaa,donalikegoats,Gorgedownblacksheep,andstrainatmotes,Arraytheirbacksinfineblackcoats,Thenseizetheirnegroesbytheirthroats,Andchoke,forheavenlyunion。

  \"They’llchurchyouifyousipadram,Anddamnyouifyoustealalamb;

  YetroboldTony,Doll,andSam,Ofhumanrights,andbreadandham;

  Kidnapper’sheavenlyunion。

  \"They’llloudlytalkofChrist’sreward,Andbindhisimagewithacord,Andscold,andswingthelashabhorred,AndselltheirbrotherintheLordTohandcuffedheavenlyunion。

  \"They’llreadandsingasacredsong,Andmakeaprayerbothloudandlong,Andteachtherightanddothewrong,Hailingthebrother,sisterthrong,Withwordsofheavenlyunion。

  \"Wewonderhowsuchsaintscansing,OrpraisetheLorduponthewing,Whoroar,andscold,andwhip,andsting,Andtotheirslavesandmammoncling,Inguiltyconscienceunion。

  \"They’llraisetobacco,corn,andrye,Anddrive,andthieve,andcheat,andlie,Andlayuptreasuresinthesky,Bymakingswitchandcowskinfly,Inhopeofheavenlyunion。

  \"They’llcrackoldTonyontheskull,AndpreachandroarlikeBashanbull,Orbrayingass,ofmischieffull,ThenseizeoldJacobbythewool,Andpullforheavenlyunion。

  \"Aroaring,ranting,sleekman-thief,Wholivedonmutton,veal,andbeef,YetneverwouldaffordreliefToneedy,sablesonsofgrief,Wasbigwithheavenlyunion。

  \"’Lovenottheworld,’thepreachersaid,Andwinkedhiseye,andshookhishead;

  HeseizedonTom,andDick,andNed,Cutshorttheirmeat,andclothes,andbread,Yetstilllovedheavenlyunion。

  \"AnotherpreacherwhiningspokeOfOnewhoseheartforsinnersbroke:

  HetiedoldNannytoanoak,Anddrewthebloodateverystroke,Andprayedforheavenlyunion。

  \"Twoothersopedtheirironjaws,Andwavedtheirchildren-stealingpaws;

  Theresattheirchildreningewgaws;

  Bystintingnegroes’backsandmaws,Theykeptupheavenlyunion。

  \"AllgoodfromJackanothertakes,Andentertainstheirflirtsandrakes,Whodressassleekasglossysnakes,Andcramtheirmouthswithsweetenedcakes;

  Andthisgoesdownforunion。\"

  SincerelyandearnestlyhopingthatthislittlebookmaydosomethingtowardthrowinglightontheAmericanslavesystem,andhasteningthegladdayofdeliverancetothemillionsofmybrethreninbonds——faithfullyrelyinguponthepoweroftruth,love,andjustice,forsuccessinmyhumbleefforts——andsolemnlypledgingmyselfanewtothesacredcause,——Isubscribemyself,FREDERICKDOUGLASS

  LYNN,Mass。,April28,1845。

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