Theplanwefinallyconcludeduponwas,togetalargecanoebelongingtoMr。Hamilton,andupontheSaturdaynightprevioustoEasterholidays,paddledirectlyuptheChesapeakeBay。Onourar-
rivalattheheadofthebay,adistanceofseventyoreightymilesfromwherewelived,itwasourpurposetoturnourcanoeadrift,andfollowtheguidanceofthenorthstartillwegotbeyondthelimitsofMaryland。Ourreasonfortakingthewaterroutewas,thatwewerelessliabletobesuspectedasrunaways;wehopedtoberegardedasfishermen;
whereas,ifweshouldtakethelandroute,weshouldbesubjectedtointerruptionsofalmosteverykind。
Anyonehavingawhiteface,andbeingsodisposed,couldstopus,andsubjectustoexamination。
Theweekbeforeourintendedstart,Iwrotesev-
eralprotections,oneforeachofus。AswellasI
canremember,theywereinthefollowingwords,towit:——
\"ThisistocertifythatI,theundersigned,havegiventhebearer,myservant,fulllibertytogotoBaltimore,andspendtheEasterholidays。Writtenwithmineownhand,&c。,1835。
\"WILLIAMHAMILTON,\"NearSt。Michael’s,inTalbotcounty,Maryland。\"
WewerenotgoingtoBaltimore;but,ingoingupthebay,wewenttowardBaltimore,andthesepro-
tectionswereonlyintendedtoprotectuswhileonthebay。
Asthetimedrewnearforourdeparture,ouranxietybecamemoreandmoreintense。Itwastrulyamatteroflifeanddeathwithus。Thestrengthofourdeterminationwasabouttobefullytested。Atthistime,Iwasveryactiveinexplainingeverydif-
ficulty,removingeverydoubt,dispellingeveryfear,andinspiringallwiththefirmnessindispensabletosuccessinourundertaking;assuringthemthathalfwasgainedtheinstantwemadethemove;wehadtalkedlongenough;wewerenowreadytomove;
ifnotnow,wenevershouldbe;andifwedidnotintendtomovenow,wehadaswellfoldourarms,sitdown,andacknowledgeourselvesfitonlytobeslaves。This,noneofuswerepreparedtoacknowl-
edge。Everymanstoodfirm;andatourlastmeeting,wepledgedourselvesafresh,inthemostsolemnmanner,that,atthetimeappointed,wewouldcer-
tainlystartinpursuitoffreedom。Thiswasinthemiddleoftheweek,attheendofwhichweweretobeoff。Wewent,asusual,toourseveralfieldsoflabor,butwithbosomshighlyagitatedwiththoughtsofourtrulyhazardousundertaking。Wetriedtoconcealourfeelingsasmuchaspossible;
andIthinkwesucceededverywell。
Afterapainfulwaiting,theSaturdaymorning,whosenightwastowitnessourdeparture,came。I
haileditwithjoy,bringwhatofsadnessitmight。
Fridaynightwasasleeplessoneforme。Iprobablyfeltmoreanxiousthantherest,becauseIwas,bycommonconsent,attheheadofthewholeaffair。
Theresponsibilityofsuccessorfailurelayheavilyuponme。Thegloryoftheone,andtheconfusionoftheother,werealikemine。ThefirsttwohoursofthatmorningweresuchasIneverexperiencedbefore,andhopenevertoagain。Earlyinthemorning,wewent,asusual,tothefield。Wewerespreadingmanure;andallatonce,whilethusen-
gaged,Iwasoverwhelmedwithanindescribablefeel-
ing,inthefulnessofwhichIturnedtoSandy,whowasnearby,andsaid,\"Wearebetrayed!\"\"Well,\"
saidhe,\"thatthoughthasthismomentstruckme。\"
Wesaidnomore。Iwasnevermorecertainofanything。
Thehornwasblownasusual,andwewentupfromthefieldtothehouseforbreakfast。Iwentfortheform,morethanforwantofanythingtoeatthatmorning。JustasIgottothehouse,inlookingoutatthelanegate,Isawfourwhitemen,withtwocoloredmen。Thewhitemenwereonhorseback,andthecoloredoneswerewalkingbehind,asiftied。
Iwatchedthemafewmomentstilltheygotuptoourlanegate。Heretheyhalted,andtiedthecoloredmentothegate-post。Iwasnotyetcertainastowhatthematterwas。Inafewmoments,inrodeMr。Hamilton,withaspeedbetokeninggreatexcite-
ment。Hecametothedoor,andinquiredifMasterWilliamwasin。Hewastoldhewasatthebarn。Mr。
Hamilton,withoutdismounting,rodeuptothebarnwithextraordinaryspeed。Inafewmoments,heandMr。Freelandreturnedtothehouse。Bythistime,thethreeconstablesrodeup,andingreathastedis-
mounted,tiedtheirhorses,andmetMasterWilliamandMr。Hamiltonreturningfromthebarn;andaftertalkingawhile,theyallwalkeduptothekitchendoor。TherewasnooneinthekitchenbutmyselfandJohn。HenryandSandywereupatthebarn。Mr。Freelandputhisheadinatthedoor,andcalledmebyname,saying,thereweresomegentle-
menatthedoorwhowishedtoseeme。Isteppedtothedoor,andinquiredwhattheywanted。Theyatonceseizedme,and,withoutgivingmeanysatis-
faction,tiedme——lashingmyhandscloselytogether。
Iinsisteduponknowingwhatthematterwas。Theyatlengthsaid,thattheyhadlearnedIhadbeenina\"scrape,\"andthatIwastobeexaminedbeforemymaster;andiftheirinformationprovedfalse,I
shouldnotbehurt。
Inafewmoments,theysucceededintyingJohn。
TheythenturnedtoHenry,whohadbythistimereturned,andcommandedhimtocrosshishands。
\"Iwon’t!\"saidHenry,inafirmtone,indicatinghisreadinesstomeettheconsequencesofhisrefusal。
\"Won’tyou?\"saidTomGraham,theconstable。\"No,Iwon’t!\"saidHenry,inastillstrongertone。Withthis,twooftheconstablespulledouttheirshiningpistols,andswore,bytheirCreator,thattheywouldmakehimcrosshishandsorkillhim。Eachcockedhispistol,and,withfingersonthetrigger,walkeduptoHenry,saying,atthesametime,ifhedidnotcrosshishands,theywouldblowhisdamnedheartout。\"Shootme,shootme!\"saidHenry;\"youcan’tkillmebutonce。Shoot,shoot,——andbedamned!~I
won’tbetied!~\"Thishesaidinatoneoflouddefi-
ance;andatthesametime,withamotionasquickaslightning,hewithonesinglestrokedashedthepistolsfromthehandofeachconstable。Ashedidthis,allhandsfelluponhim,and,afterbeatinghimsometime,theyfinallyoverpoweredhim,andgothimtied。
Duringthescuffle,Imanaged,Iknownothow,togetmypassout,and,withoutbeingdiscovered,putitintothefire。Wewereallnowtied;andjustasweweretoleaveforEastonjail,BetsyFreeland,motherofWilliamFreeland,cametothedoorwithherhandsfullofbiscuits,anddividedthembetweenHenryandJohn。Shethendeliveredherselfofaspeech,tothefollowingeffect:——addressingherselftome,shesaid,\"~Youdevil!Youyellowdevil!~itwasyouthatputitintotheheadsofHenryandJohntorunaway。Butforyou,youlong-leggedmulattodevil!HenrynorJohnwouldneverhavethoughtofsuchathing。\"Imadenoreply,andwasimme-
diatelyhurriedofftowardsSt。Michael’s。Justamo-
mentprevioustothescufflewithHenry,Mr。Hamil-
tonsuggestedtheproprietyofmakingasearchfortheprotectionswhichhehadunderstoodFrederickhadwrittenforhimselfandtherest。But,justatthemomenthewasaboutcarryinghisproposalintoeffect,hisaidwasneededinhelpingtotieHenry;
andtheexcitementattendingthescufflecausedthemeithertoforget,ortodeemitunsafe,underthecircumstances,tosearch。Sowewerenotyetconvictedoftheintentiontorunaway。
WhenwegotabouthalfwaytoSt。Michael’s,whiletheconstableshavingusinchargewerelook-
ingahead,Henryinquiredofmewhatheshoulddowithhispass。Itoldhimtoeatitwithhisbiscuit,andownnothing;andwepassedthewordaround,\"~Ownnothing;~\"and\"~Ownnothing!~\"saidweall。
Ourconfidenceineachotherwasunshaken。Wewereresolvedtosucceedorfailtogether,afterthecalamityhadbefallenusasmuchasbefore。Wewerenowpreparedforanything。Weweretobedraggedthatmorningfifteenmilesbehindhorses,andthentobeplacedintheEastonjail。WhenwereachedSt。Michael’s,weunderwentasortofexami-
nation。Wealldeniedthatweeverintendedtorunaway。Wedidthismoretobringouttheevidenceagainstus,thanfromanyhopeofgettingclearofbeingsold;for,asIhavesaid,wewerereadyforthat。Thefactwas,wecaredbutlittlewherewewent,sowewenttogether。Ourgreatestconcernwasaboutseparation。Wedreadedthatmorethananythingthissideofdeath。Wefoundtheevidenceagainstustobethetestimonyofoneperson;ourmasterwouldnottellwhoitwas;butwecametoaunanimousdecisionamongourselvesastowhotheirinformantwas。WeweresentofftothejailatEaston。Whenwegotthere,weweredelivereduptothesheriff,Mr。JosephGraham,andbyhimplacedinjail。Henry,John,andmyself,wereplacedinoneroomtogether——Charles,andHenryBailey,inanother。Theirobjectinseparatinguswastohinderconcert。
Wehadbeeninjailscarcelytwentyminutes,whenaswarmofslavetraders,andagentsforslavetraders,flockedintojailtolookatus,andtoas-
certainifwewereforsale。SuchasetofbeingsI
neversawbefore!Ifeltmyselfsurroundedbysomanyfiendsfromperdition。Abandofpiratesneverlookedmoreliketheirfather,thedevil。Theylaughedandgrinnedoverus,saying,\"Ah,myboys!
wehavegotyou,haven’twe?\"Andaftertauntingusinvariousways,theyonebyonewentintoanexaminationofus,withintenttoascertainourvalue。
Theywouldimpudentlyaskusifwewouldnotliketohavethemforourmasters。Wewouldmakethemnoanswer,andleavethemtofindoutasbesttheycould。Thentheywouldcurseandswearatus,tellingusthattheycouldtakethedeviloutofusinaverylittlewhile,ifwewereonlyintheirhands。
Whileinjail,wefoundourselvesinmuchmorecomfortablequartersthanweexpectedwhenwewentthere。Wedidnotgetmuchtoeat,northatwhichwasverygood;butwehadagoodcleanroom,fromthewindowsofwhichwecouldseewhatwasgo-
ingoninthestreet,whichwasverymuchbetterthanthoughwehadbeenplacedinoneofthedark,dampcells。Uponthewhole,wegotalongverywell,sofarasthejailanditskeeperwereconcerned。
Immediatelyaftertheholidayswereover,contrarytoallourexpectations,Mr。HamiltonandMr。Free-
landcameuptoEaston,andtookCharles,thetwoHenrys,andJohn,outofjail,andcarriedthemhome,leavingmealone。Iregardedthisseparationasafinalone。Itcausedmemorepainthananythingelseinthewholetransaction。Iwasreadyforanythingratherthanseparation。Isupposedthattheyhadconsultedtogether,andhaddecidedthat,asIwasthewholecauseoftheintentionoftheotherstorunaway,itwashardtomaketheinnocentsufferwiththeguilty;andthattheyhad,therefore,concludedtotaketheothershome,andsellme,asawarningtotheothersthatremained。ItisduetothenobleHenrytosay,heseemedalmostasreluctantatleavingtheprisonasatleavinghometocometotheprison。Butweknewweshould,inallprobability,beseparated,ifweweresold;andsincehewasintheirhands,heconcludedtogopeaceablyhome。
Iwasnowlefttomyfate。Iwasallalone,andwithinthewallsofastoneprison。Butafewdaysbefore,andIwasfullofhope。Iexpectedtohavebeensafeinalandoffreedom;butnowIwascov-
eredwithgloom,sunkdowntotheutmostdespair。
Ithoughtthepossibilityoffreedomwasgone。I
waskeptinthiswayaboutoneweek,attheendofwhich,CaptainAuld,mymaster,tomysurpriseandutterastonishment,cameup,andtookmeout,withtheintentionofsendingme,withagentlemanofhisacquaintance,intoAlabama。But,fromsomecauseorother,hedidnotsendmetoAlabama,butconcludedtosendmebacktoBaltimore,toliveagainwithhisbrotherHugh,andtolearnatrade。
Thus,afteranabsenceofthreeyearsandonemonth,IwasoncemorepermittedtoreturntomyoldhomeatBaltimore。Mymastersentmeaway,becausethereexistedagainstmeaverygreatpreju-
diceinthecommunity,andhefearedImightbekilled。
InafewweeksafterIwenttoBaltimore,MasterHughhiredmetoMr。WilliamGardner,anex-
tensiveship-builder,onFell’sPoint。Iwasputtheretolearnhowtocalk。It,however,provedaveryunfavorableplacefortheaccomplishmentofthisobject。Mr。Gardnerwasengagedthatspringinbuildingtwolargeman-of-warbrigs,professedlyfortheMexicangovernment。ThevesselsweretobelaunchedintheJulyofthatyear,andinfailurethereof,Mr。Gardnerwastoloseaconsiderablesum;
sothatwhenIentered,allwashurry。Therewasnotimetolearnanything。Everymanhadtodothatwhichheknewhowtodo。Inenteringtheship-
yard,myordersfromMr。Gardnerwere,todowhat-
everthecarpenterscommandedmetodo。Thiswasplacingmeatthebeckandcallofaboutseventy-fivemen。Iwastoregardalltheseasmasters。Theirwordwastobemylaw。Mysituationwasamosttryingone。AttimesIneededadozenpairofhands。
Iwascalledadozenwaysinthespaceofasingleminute。Threeorfourvoiceswouldstrikemyearatthesamemoment。Itwas——\"Fred。,comehelpmetocantthistimberhere。\"——\"Fred。,comecarrythistimberyonder。\"——\"Fred。,bringthatrollerhere。\"——
\"Fred。,gogetafreshcanofwater。\"——\"Fred。,comehelpsawofftheendofthistimber。\"——\"Fred。,goquick,andgetthecrowbar。\"——\"Fred。,holdontheendofthisfall。\"——\"Fred。,gototheblacksmith’sshop,andgetanewpunch。\"——\"Hurra,Fred。!runandbringmeacoldchisel。\"——\"Isay,Fred。,bearahand,andgetupafireasquickaslightningunderthatsteam-box。\"——\"Halloo,nigger!come,turnthisgrindstone。\"——\"Come,come!move,move!andBOWSE
thistimberforward。\"——\"Isay,darky,blastyoureyes,whydon’tyouheatupsomepitch?\"——\"Halloo!
halloo!halloo!\"(Threevoicesatthesametime。)
\"Comehere!——Gothere!——Holdonwhereyouare!
Damnyou,ifyoumove,I’llknockyourbrainsout!\"
Thiswasmyschoolforeightmonths;andImighthaveremainedtherelonger,butforamosthorridfightIhadwithfourofthewhiteapprentices,inwhichmylefteyewasnearlyknockedout,andI
washorriblymangledinotherrespects。Thefactsinthecasewerethese:UntilaverylittlewhileafterIwentthere,whiteandblackship-carpentersworkedsidebyside,andnooneseemedtoseeanyimproprietyinit。Allhandsseemedtobeverywellsatisfied。Manyoftheblackcarpenterswerefreemen。
Thingsseemedtobegoingonverywell。Allatonce,thewhitecarpentersknockedoff,andsaidtheywouldnotworkwithfreecoloredworkmen。Theirreasonforthis,asalleged,was,thatiffreecoloredcarpenterswereencouraged,theywouldsoontakethetradeintotheirownhands,andpoorwhitemenwouldbethrownoutofemployment。Theythereforefeltcalleduponatoncetoputastoptoit。And,takingadvantageofMr。Gardner’snecessities,theybrokeoff,swearingtheywouldworknolonger,unlesshewoulddischargehisblackcarpenters。Now,thoughthisdidnotextendtomeinform,itdidreachmeinfact。Myfellow-apprenticesverysoonbegantofeelitdegradingtothemtoworkwithme。Theybegantoputonairs,andtalkaboutthe\"niggers\"takingthecountry,sayingwealloughttobekilled;and,beingencouragedbythejourney-
men,theycommencedmakingmyconditionashardastheycould,byhectoringmearound,andsometimesstrikingme。I,ofcourse,keptthevowImadeafterthefightwithMr。Covey,andstruckbackagain,regardlessofconsequences;andwhileIkeptthemfromcombining,Isucceededverywell;
forIcouldwhipthewholeofthem,takingthemseparately。They,however,atlengthcombined,andcameuponme,armedwithsticks,stones,andheavyhandspikes。Onecameinfrontwithahalfbrick。
Therewasoneateachsideofme,andonebehindme。WhileIwasattendingtothoseinfront,andoneitherside,theonebehindranupwiththehand-
spike,andstruckmeaheavyblowuponthehead。
Itstunnedme。Ifell,andwiththistheyallranuponme,andfelltobeatingmewiththeirfists。I
letthemlayonforawhile,gatheringstrength。Inaninstant,Igaveasuddensurge,androsetomyhandsandknees。JustasIdidthat,oneoftheirnumbergaveme,withhisheavyboot,apowerfulkickinthelefteye。Myeyeballseemedtohaveburst。Whentheysawmyeyeclosed,andbadlyswollen,theyleftme。WiththisIseizedthehand-
spike,andforatimepursuedthem。Butherethecarpentersinterfered,andIthoughtImightaswellgiveitup。Itwasimpossibletostandmyhandagainstsomany。Allthistookplaceinsightofnotlessthanfiftywhiteship-carpenters,andnotoneinterposedafriendlyword;butsomecried,\"Killthedamnednigger!Killhim!killhim!Hestruckawhiteperson。\"Ifoundmyonlychanceforlifewasinflight。Isucceededingettingawaywithoutanadditionalblow,andbarelyso;fortostrikeawhitemanisdeathbyLynchlaw,——andthatwasthelawinMr。Gardner’sship-yard;noristheremuchofanyotheroutofMr。Gardner’sship-yard。
Iwentdirectlyhome,andtoldthestoryofmywrongstoMasterHugh;andIamhappytosayofhim,irreligiousashewas,hisconductwasheavenly,comparedwiththatofhisbrotherThomasundersimilarcircumstances。Helistenedattentivelytomynarrationofthecircumstancesleadingtothesavageoutrage,andgavemanyproofsofhisstrongindigna-
tionatit。Theheartofmyonceoverkindmistresswasagainmeltedintopity。Mypuffed-outeyeandblood-coveredfacemovedhertotears。Shetookachairbyme,washedthebloodfrommyface,and,withamother’stenderness,boundupmyhead,coveringthewoundedeyewithaleanpieceoffreshbeef。Itwasalmostcompensationformysufferingtowitness,oncemore,amanifestationofkindnessfromthis,myonceaffectionateoldmistress。MasterHughwasverymuchenraged。Hegaveexpressiontohisfeelingsbypouringoutcursesupontheheadsofthosewhodidthedeed。AssoonasIgotalittlethebetterofmybruises,hetookmewithhimtoEsquireWatson’s,onBondStreet,toseewhatcouldbedoneaboutthematter。Mr。Watsoninquiredwhosawtheassaultcommitted。MasterHughtoldhimitwasdoneinMr。Gardner’sship-yardatmidday,wheretherewerealargecompanyofmenatwork。
\"Astothat,\"hesaid,\"thedeedwasdone,andtherewasnoquestionastowhodidit。\"Hisanswerwas,hecoulddonothinginthecase,unlesssomewhitemanwouldcomeforwardandtestify。Hecouldissuenowarrantonmyword。IfIhadbeenkilledinthepresenceofathousandcoloredpeople,theirtestimonycombinedwouldhavebeeninsufficienttohavearrestedoneofthemurderers。MasterHugh,foronce,wascompelledtosaythisstateofthingswastoobad。Ofcourse,itwasimpossibletogetanywhitemantovolunteerhistestimonyinmybehalf,andagainstthewhiteyoungmen。Eventhosewhomayhavesympathizedwithmewerenotpreparedtodothis。Itrequiredadegreeofcourageunknowntothemtodoso;forjustatthattime,theslightestmanifestationofhumanitytowardacoloredpersonwasdenouncedasabolitionism,andthatnamesub-
jecteditsbearertofrightfulliabilities。Thewatch-
wordsofthebloody-mindedinthatregion,andinthosedays,were,\"Damntheabolitionists!\"and\"Damntheniggers!\"Therewasnothingdone,andprobablynothingwouldhavebeendoneifIhadbeenkilled。Suchwas,andsuchremains,thestateofthingsintheChristiancityofBaltimore。
MasterHugh,findinghecouldgetnoredress,re-
fusedtoletmegobackagaintoMr。Gardner。Hekeptmehimself,andhiswifedressedmywoundtillIwasagainrestoredtohealth。Hethentookmeintotheship-yardofwhichhewasforeman,intheemploymentofMr。WalterPrice。ThereIwasim-
mediatelysettocalking,andverysoonlearnedtheartofusingmymalletandirons。InthecourseofoneyearfromthetimeIleftMr。Gardner’s,Iwasabletocommandthehighestwagesgiventothemostexperiencedcalkers。Iwasnowofsomeimpor-
tancetomymaster。Iwasbringinghimfromsixtosevendollarsperweek。Isometimesbroughthimninedollarsperweek:mywageswereadollarandahalfaday。Afterlearninghowtocalk,Isoughtmyownemployment,mademyowncontracts,andcollectedthemoneywhichIearned。Mypathwaybecamemuchmoresmooththanbefore;mycondi-
tionwasnowmuchmorecomfortable。WhenIcouldgetnocalkingtodo,Ididnothing。Duringtheseleisuretimes,thoseoldnotionsaboutfreedomwouldstealovermeagain。WheninMr。Gardner’semploy-
ment,Iwaskeptinsuchaperpetualwhirlofex-
citement,Icouldthinkofnothing,scarcely,butmylife;andinthinkingofmylife,Ialmostforgotmyliberty。Ihaveobservedthisinmyexperienceofslavery,——thatwhenevermyconditionwasim-
proved,insteadofitsincreasingmycontentment,itonlyincreasedmydesiretobefree,andsetmetothinkingofplanstogainmyfreedom。Ihavefoundthat,tomakeacontentedslave,itisnecessarytomakeathoughtlessone。Itisnecessarytodarkenhismoralandmentalvision,and,asfaraspossible,toannihilatethepowerofreason。Hemustbeabletodetectnoinconsistenciesinslavery;hemustbemadetofeelthatslaveryisright;andhecanbebroughttothatonlywhenheceasestobeaman。
Iwasnowgetting,asIhavesaid,onedollarandfiftycentsperday。Icontractedforit;Iearnedit;
itwaspaidtome;itwasrightfullymyown;yet,uponeachreturningSaturdaynight,IwascompelledtodelivereverycentofthatmoneytoMasterHugh。
Andwhy?Notbecauseheearnedit,——notbecausehehadanyhandinearningit,——notbecauseIowedittohim,——norbecausehepossessedtheslightestshadowofarighttoit;butsolelybecausehehadthepowertocompelmetogiveitup。Therightofthegrim-visagedpirateuponthehighseasisexactlythesame。
CHAPTERXI
InowcometothatpartofmylifeduringwhichI
planned,andfinallysucceededinmaking,myescapefromslavery。Butbeforenarratinganyofthepe-
culiarcircumstances,Ideemitpropertomakeknownmyintentionnottostateallthefactscon-
nectedwiththetransaction。Myreasonsforpursuingthiscoursemaybeunderstoodfromthefollowing:
First,wereItogiveaminutestatementofallthefacts,itisnotonlypossible,butquiteprobable,thatotherswouldtherebybeinvolvedinthemostembar-
rassingdifficulties。Secondly,suchastatementwouldmostundoubtedlyinducegreatervigilanceonthepartofslaveholdersthanhasexistedheretoforeamongthem;whichwould,ofcourse,bethemeansofguardingadoorwherebysomedearbrotherbond-
manmightescapehisgallingchains。Ideeplyregretthenecessitythatimpelsmetosuppressanythingofimportanceconnectedwithmyexperienceinslavery。Itwouldaffordmegreatpleasureindeed,aswellasmateriallyaddtotheinterestofmynar-
rative,wereIatlibertytogratifyacuriosity,whichIknowexistsinthemindsofmany,byanaccuratestatementofallthefactspertainingtomymostfortunateescape。ButImustdeprivemyselfofthispleasure,andthecuriousofthegratificationwhichsuchastatementwouldafford。Iwouldallowmy-
selftosufferunderthegreatestimputationswhichevil-mindedmenmightsuggest,ratherthanexcul-
patemyself,andtherebyrunthehazardofclosingtheslightestavenuebywhichabrotherslavemightclearhimselfofthechainsandfettersofslavery。
Ihaveneverapprovedoftheverypublicmannerinwhichsomeofourwesternfriendshaveconductedwhattheycallthe~undergroundrailroad,~butwhichIthink,bytheiropendeclarations,hasbeenmademostemphaticallythe~uppergroundrailroad。~Ihonorthosegoodmenandwomenfortheirnobledaring,andapplaudthemforwillinglysubjectingthem-
selvestobloodypersecution,byopenlyavowingtheirparticipationintheescapeofslaves。I,however,canseeverylittlegoodresultingfromsuchacourse,eithertothemselvesortheslavesescaping;while,upontheotherhand,Iseeandfeelassuredthatthoseopendeclarationsareapositiveeviltotheslavesremaining,whoareseekingtoescape。Theydonothingtowardsenlighteningtheslave,whilsttheydomuchtowardsenlighteningthemaster。
Theystimulatehimtogreaterwatchfulness,andenhancehispowertocapturehisslave。Weowesomethingtotheslavesouthofthelineaswellastothosenorthofit;andinaidingthelatterontheirwaytofreedom,weshouldbecarefultodonothingwhichwouldbelikelytohindertheformerfromescapingfromslavery。Iwouldkeepthemercilessslaveholderprofoundlyignorantofthemeansofflightadoptedbytheslave。Iwouldleavehimtoimaginehimselfsurroundedbymyriadsofinvisibletormentors,everreadytosnatchfromhisinfernalgrasphistremblingprey。Lethimbelefttofeelhiswayinthedark;letdarknesscommensuratewithhiscrimehoveroverhim;andlethimfeelthatateverystephetakes,inpursuitoftheflyingbondman,heisrunningthefrightfulriskofhavinghishotbrainsdashedoutbyaninvisibleagency。Letusrenderthetyrantnoaid;letusnotholdthelightbywhichhecantracethefootprintsofourflyingbrother。Butenoughofthis。Iwillnowproceedtothestatementofthosefacts,connectedwithmyescape,forwhichIamaloneresponsible,andforwhichnoonecanbemadetosufferbutmyself。
Intheearlypartoftheyear1838,Ibecamequiterestless。IcouldseenoreasonwhyIshould,attheendofeachweek,pourtherewardofmytoilintothepurseofmymaster。WhenIcarriedtohimmyweeklywages,hewould,aftercountingthemoney,lookmeinthefacewitharobber-likefierceness,andask,\"Isthisall?\"Hewassatisfiedwithnothinglessthanthelastcent。Hewould,however,whenI
madehimsixdollars,sometimesgivemesixcents,toencourageme。Ithadtheoppositeeffect。Ire-
gardeditasasortofadmissionofmyrighttothewhole。Thefactthathegavemeanypartofmywageswasproof,tomymind,thathebelievedmeentitledtothewholeofthem。Ialwaysfeltworseforhavingreceivedanything;forIfearedthatthegivingmeafewcentswouldeasehisconscience,andmakehimfeelhimselftobeaprettyhonorablesortofrobber。Mydiscontentgrewuponme。Iwaseveronthelook-outformeansofescape;and,find-
ingnodirectmeans,Ideterminedtotrytohiremytime,withaviewofgettingmoneywithwhichtomakemyescape。Inthespringof1838,whenMasterThomascametoBaltimoretopurchasehisspringgoods,Igotanopportunity,andappliedtohimtoallowmetohiremytime。Heunhesitatinglyrefusedmyrequest,andtoldmethiswasanotherstratagembywhichtoescape。HetoldmeIcouldgonowherebutthathecouldgetme;andthat,intheeventofmyrunningaway,heshouldsparenopainsinhiseffortstocatchme。Heexhortedmetocontentmyself,andbeobedient。Hetoldme,ifIwouldbehappy,Imustlayoutnoplansforthefuture。
Hesaid,ifIbehavedmyselfproperly,hewouldtakecareofme。Indeed,headvisedmetocompletethoughtlessnessofthefuture,andtaughtmetode-
pendsolelyuponhimforhappiness。Heseemedtoseefullythepressingnecessityofsettingasidemyintellectualnature,inordertocontentmentinslavery。Butinspiteofhim,andeveninspiteofmyself,Icontinuedtothink,andtothinkabouttheinjusticeofmyenslavement,andthemeansofescape。
Abouttwomonthsafterthis,IappliedtoMasterHughfortheprivilegeofhiringmytime。HewasnotacquaintedwiththefactthatIhadappliedtoMasterThomas,andhadbeenrefused。Hetoo,atfirst,seemeddisposedtorefuse;but,aftersomere-
flection,hegrantedmetheprivilege,andproposedthefollowingterms:Iwastobeallowedallmytime,makeallcontractswiththoseforwhomI
worked,andfindmyownemployment;and,inre-
turnforthisliberty,Iwastopayhimthreedollarsattheendofeachweek;findmyselfincalkingtools,andinboardandclothing。Myboardwastwodol-
larsandahalfperweek。This,withthewearandtearofclothingandcalkingtools,mademyregularexpensesaboutsixdollarsperweek。ThisamountIwascompelledtomakeup,orrelinquishtheprivilegeofhiringmytime。Rainorshine,workornowork,attheendofeachweekthemoneymustbeforthcoming,orImustgiveupmyprivilege。Thisarrangement,itwillbeperceived,wasdecidedlyinmymaster’sfavor。Itrelievedhimofallneedoflookingafterme。Hismoneywassure。Hereceivedallthebenefitsofslaveholdingwithoutitsevils;
whileIenduredalltheevilsofaslave,andsufferedallthecareandanxietyofafreeman。Ifounditahardbargain。But,hardasitwas,Ithoughtitbetterthantheoldmodeofgettingalong。Itwasasteptowardsfreedomtobeallowedtobeartherespon-
sibilitiesofafreeman,andIwasdeterminedtoholdonuponit。Ibentmyselftotheworkofmakingmoney。Iwasreadytoworkatnightaswellasday,andbythemostuntiringperseveranceandindustry,Imadeenoughtomeetmyexpenses,andlayupalittlemoneyeveryweek。IwentonthusfromMaytillAugust。MasterHughthenrefusedtoallowmetohiremytimelonger。Thegroundforhisrefusalwasafailureonmypart,oneSaturdaynight,topayhimformyweek’stime。ThisfailurewasoccasionedbymyattendingacampmeetingabouttenmilesfromBaltimore。Duringtheweek,IhadenteredintoanengagementwithanumberofyoungfriendstostartfromBaltimoretothecampgroundearlySaturdayevening;andbeingdetainedbymyem-
ployer,IwasunabletogetdowntoMasterHugh’swithoutdisappointingthecompany。IknewthatMasterHughwasinnospecialneedofthemoneythatnight。Ithereforedecidedtogotocampmeet-
ing,anduponmyreturnpayhimthethreedollars。
IstaidatthecampmeetingonedaylongerthanI
intendedwhenIleft。ButassoonasIreturned,I
calleduponhimtopayhimwhatheconsideredhisdue。Ifoundhimveryangry;hecouldscarcerestrainhiswrath。Hesaidhehadagreatmindtogivemeaseverewhipping。HewishedtoknowhowIdaredgooutofthecitywithoutaskinghispermission。I
toldhimIhiredmytimeandwhileIpaidhimthepricewhichheaskedforit,IdidnotknowthatI
wasboundtoaskhimwhenandwhereIshouldgo。
Thisreplytroubledhim;and,afterreflectingafewmoments,heturnedtome,andsaidIshouldhiremytimenolonger;thatthenextthingheshouldknowof,Iwouldberunningaway。Uponthesameplea,hetoldmetobringmytoolsandclothinghomeforthwith。Ididso;butinsteadofseekingwork,asIhadbeenaccustomedtodopreviouslytohiringmytime,Ispentthewholeweekwithouttheperformanceofasinglestrokeofwork。Ididthisinretaliation。Saturdaynight,hecalleduponmeasusualformyweek’swages。ItoldhimIhadnowages;Ihaddonenoworkthatweek。Herewewereuponthepointofcomingtoblows。Heraved,andsworehisdeterminationtogetholdofme。Ididnotallowmyselfasingleword;butwasresolved,ifhelaidtheweightofhishanduponme,itshouldbeblowforblow。Hedidnotstrikeme,buttoldmethathewouldfindmeinconstantemploymentinfuture。Ithoughtthematteroverduringthenextday,Sunday,andfinallyresolveduponthethirddayofSeptember,asthedayuponwhichIwouldmakeasecondattempttosecuremyfreedom。Inowhadthreeweeksduringwhichtoprepareformyjourney。
EarlyonMondaymorning,beforeMasterHughhadtimetomakeanyengagementforme,IwentoutandgotemploymentofMr。Butler,athisship-yardnearthedrawbridge,uponwhatiscalledtheCityBlock,thusmakingitunnecessaryforhimtoseekemploymentforme。Attheendoftheweek,I
broughthimbetweeneightandninedollars。Heseemedverywellpleased,andaskedwhyIdidnotdothesametheweekbefore。Helittleknewwhatmyplanswere。Myobjectinworkingsteadilywastoremoveanysuspicionhemightentertainofmyintenttorunaway;andinthisIsucceededadmi-
rably。IsupposehethoughtIwasneverbettersatisfiedwithmyconditionthanattheverytimeduringwhichIwasplanningmyescape。Thesecondweekpassed,andagainIcarriedhimmyfullwages;
andsowellpleasedwashe,thathegavemetwenty-
fivecents,(quitealargesumforaslaveholdertogiveaslave,)andbademetomakeagooduseofit。
ItoldhimIwould。
Thingswentonwithoutverysmoothlyindeed,butwithintherewastrouble。Itisimpossibleformetodescribemyfeelingsasthetimeofmycon-
templatedstartdrewnear。Ihadanumberofwarm-
heartedfriendsinBaltimore,——friendsthatIlovedalmostasIdidmylife,——andthethoughtofbeingseparatedfromthemforeverwaspainfulbeyondexpression。Itismyopinionthatthousandswouldescapefromslavery,whonowremain,butforthestrongcordsofaffectionthatbindthemtotheirfriends。Thethoughtofleavingmyfriendswasde-
cidedlythemostpainfulthoughtwithwhichIhadtocontend。Theloveofthemwasmytenderpoint,andshookmydecisionmorethanallthingselse。
Besidesthepainofseparation,thedreadandappre-
hensionofafailureexceededwhatIhadexperiencedatmyfirstattempt。TheappallingdefeatIthensustainedreturnedtotormentme。Ifeltassuredthat,ifIfailedinthisattempt,mycasewouldbeahopelessone——itwouldsealmyfateasaslavefor-
ever。Icouldnothopetogetoffwithanythinglessthantheseverestpunishment,andbeingplacedbeyondthemeansofescape。ItrequirednoveryvividimaginationtodepictthemostfrightfulscenesthroughwhichIshouldhavetopass,incaseIfailed。Thewretchednessofslavery,andtheblessednessoffreedom,wereperpetuallybeforeme。
Itwaslifeanddeathwithme。ButIremainedfirm,and,accordingtomyresolution,onthethirddayofSeptember,1838,Ileftmychains,andsuc-
ceededinreachingNewYorkwithouttheslightestinterruptionofanykind。HowIdidso,——whatmeansIadopted,——whatdirectionItravelled,andbywhatmodeofconveyance,——Imustleaveunexplained,forthereasonsbeforementioned。
IhavebeenfrequentlyaskedhowIfeltwhenI
foundmyselfinafreeState。Ihaveneverbeenabletoanswerthequestionwithanysatisfactiontomy-
self。ItwasamomentofthehighestexcitementI
everexperienced。IsupposeIfeltasonemayimaginetheunarmedmarinertofeelwhenheisrescuedbyafriendlyman-of-warfromthepursuitofapirate。
Inwritingtoadearfriend,immediatelyaftermyarrivalatNewYork,IsaidIfeltlikeonewhohadescapedadenofhungrylions。Thisstateofmind,however,verysoonsubsided;andIwasagainseizedwithafeelingofgreatinsecurityandloneliness。I
wasyetliabletobetakenback,andsubjectedtoallthetorturesofslavery。Thisinitselfwasenoughtodamptheardorofmyenthusiasm。Butthelone-
linessovercameme。ThereIwasinthemidstofthousands,andyetaperfectstranger;withouthomeandwithoutfriends,inthemidstofthousandsofmyownbrethren——childrenofacommonFather,andyetIdarednottounfoldtoanyoneofthemmysadcondition。Iwasafraidtospeaktoanyoneforfearofspeakingtothewrongone,andtherebyfall-
ingintothehandsofmoney-lovingkidnappers,whosebusinessitwastolieinwaitforthepantingfugitive,astheferociousbeastsoftheforestlieinwaitfortheirprey。ThemottowhichIadoptedwhenIstartedfromslaverywasthis——\"Trustnoman!\"Isawineverywhitemananenemy,andinalmosteverycoloredmancausefordistrust。Itwasamostpainfulsituation;and,tounderstandit,onemustneedsexperienceit,orimaginehimselfinsimilarcircumstances。Lethimbeafugitiveslaveinastrangeland——alandgivenuptobethehunting-
groundforslaveholders——whoseinhabitantsarelegal-
izedkidnappers——whereheiseverymomentsub-
jectedtotheterribleliabilityofbeingseizeduponbyhisfellowmen,asthehideouscrocodileseizesuponhisprey!——Isay,lethimplacehimselfinmysituation——withouthomeorfriends——withoutmoneyorcredit——wantingshelter,andnoonetogiveit——
wantingbread,andnomoneytobuyit,——andatthesametimelethimfeelthatheispursuedbymerci-
lessmen-hunters,andintotaldarknessastowhattodo,wheretogo,orwheretostay,——perfectlyhelp-
lessbothastothemeansofdefenceandmeansofescape,——inthemidstofplenty,yetsufferingtheter-
riblegnawingsofhunger,——inthemidstofhouses,yethavingnohome,——amongfellow-men,yetfeelingasifinthemidstofwildbeasts,whosegreedinesstoswallowupthetremblingandhalf-famishedfugi-
tiveisonlyequalledbythatwithwhichthemonstersofthedeepswallowupthehelplessfishuponwhichtheysubsist,——Isay,lethimbeplacedinthismosttryingsituation,——thesituationinwhichIwasplaced,——then,andnottillthen,willhefullyappreciatethehardshipsof,andknowhowtosympathizewith,thetoil-wornandwhip-scarredfugitiveslave。
ThankHeaven,Iremainedbutashorttimeinthisdistressedsituation。IwasrelievedfromitbythehumanehandofMr。DAVIDRUGGLES,whosevigi-
lance,kindness,andperseverance,Ishallneverfor-
get。Iamgladofanopportunitytoexpress,asfaraswordscan,theloveandgratitudeIbearhim。Mr。
Rugglesisnowafflictedwithblindness,andishim-
selfinneedofthesamekindofficeswhichhewasoncesoforwardintheperformanceoftowardothers。
IhadbeeninNewYorkbutafewdays,whenMr。
Rugglessoughtmeout,andverykindlytookmetohisboarding-houseatthecornerofChurchandLespenardStreets。Mr。Ruggleswasthenverydeeplyengagedinthememorable~Darg~case,aswellasat-
tendingtoanumberofotherfugitiveslaves,devis-
ingwaysandmeansfortheirsuccessfulescape;and,thoughwatchedandhemmedinonalmosteveryside,heseemedtobemorethanamatchforhisenemies。
VerysoonafterIwenttoMr。Ruggles,hewishedtoknowofmewhereIwantedtogo;ashedeemeditunsafeformetoremaininNewYork。ItoldhimIwasacalker,andshouldliketogowhereIcouldgetwork。IthoughtofgoingtoCanada;buthede-
cidedagainstit,andinfavorofmygoingtoNewBedford,thinkingIshouldbeabletogetworkthereatmytrade。Atthistime,Anna,*myintendedwife,cameon;forIwrotetoherimmediatelyaftermyarrivalatNewYork,(notwithstandingmyhomeless,houseless,andhelplesscondition,)informingherofmysuccessfulflight,andwishinghertocomeonforthwith。Inafewdaysafterherarrival,Mr。Rug-
glescalledintheRev。J。W。C。Pennington,who,inthepresenceofMr。Ruggles,Mrs。Michaels,andtwoorthreeothers,performedthemarriagecere-
mony,andgaveusacertificate,ofwhichthefol-
lowingisanexactcopy:——
\"Thismaycertify,thatIjoinedtogetherinholymatrimonyFrederickJohnsonandAnnaMurray,asmanandwife,inthepresenceofMr。DavidRugglesandMrs。Michaels。
\"JAMESW。C。PENNINGTON
\"NEWYORK,SEPT。15,1838\"
Uponreceivingthiscertificate,andafive-dollarbillfromMr。Ruggles,Ishoulderedonepartofourbaggage,andAnnatookuptheother,andwesetoutforthwithtotakepassageonboardofthesteam-
boatJohnW。RichmondforNewport,onourwaytoNewBedford。Mr。RugglesgavemealettertoaMr。ShawinNewport,andtoldme,incasemymoneydidnotservemetoNewBedford,tostopinNewportandobtainfurtherassistance;butuponour*Shewasfree。
IhadchangedmynamefromFrederickBAILEY
tothatofJOHNSON。
arrivalatNewport,weweresoanxioustogettoaplaceofsafety,that,notwithstandingwelackedthenecessarymoneytopayourfare,wedecidedtotakeseatsinthestage,andpromisetopaywhenwegottoNewBedford。Wewereencouragedtodothisbytwoexcellentgentlemen,residentsofNewBedford,whosenamesIafterwardascertainedtobeJosephRicketsonandWilliamC。Taber。Theyseemedatoncetounderstandourcircumstances,andgaveussuchassuranceoftheirfriendlinessasputusfullyateaseintheirpresence。Itwasgoodindeedtomeetwithsuchfriends,atsuchatime。UponreachingNewBedford,weweredirectedtothehouseofMr。
NathanJohnson,bywhomwewerekindlyreceived,andhospitablyprovidedfor。BothMr。andMrs。
Johnsontookadeepandlivelyinterestinourwel-
fare。Theyprovedthemselvesquiteworthyofthenameofabolitionists。Whenthestage-driverfoundusunabletopayourfare,heheldonuponourbag-
gageassecurityforthedebt。IhadbuttomentionthefacttoMr。Johnson,andheforthwithadvancedthemoney。
Wenowbegantofeeladegreeofsafety,andtoprepareourselvesforthedutiesandresponsibilitiesofalifeoffreedom。Onthemorningafterourar-
rivalatNewBedford,whileatthebreakfast-table,thequestionaroseastowhatnameIshouldbecalledby。Thenamegivenmebymymotherwas,\"FrederickAugustusWashingtonBailey。\"I,how-
ever,haddispensedwiththetwomiddlenameslongbeforeIleftMarylandsothatIwasgenerallyknownbythenameof\"FrederickBailey。\"IstartedfromBaltimorebearingthenameof\"Stanley。\"WhenI
gottoNewYork,Iagainchangedmynameto\"Fred-
erickJohnson,\"andthoughtthatwouldbethelastchange。ButwhenIgottoNewBedford,Ifounditnecessaryagaintochangemyname。Thereasonofthisnecessitywas,thatthereweresomanyJohnsonsinNewBedford,itwasalreadyquitedifficulttodistinguishbetweenthem。IgaveMr。Johnsontheprivilegeofchoosingmeaname,buttoldhimhemustnottakefrommethenameof\"Frederick。\"
Imustholdontothat,topreserveasenseofmyidentity。Mr。Johnsonhadjustbeenreadingthe\"LadyoftheLake,\"andatoncesuggestedthatmynamebe\"Douglass。\"FromthattimeuntilnowI
havebeencalled\"FrederickDouglass;\"andasIammorewidelyknownbythatnamethanbyeitheroftheothers,Ishallcontinuetouseitasmyown。
Iwasquitedisappointedatthegeneralappear-
anceofthingsinNewBedford。TheimpressionwhichIhadreceivedrespectingthecharacterandconditionofthepeopleofthenorth,Ifoundtobesingularlyerroneous。Ihadverystrangelysupposed,whileinslavery,thatfewofthecomforts,andscarcelyanyoftheluxuries,oflifewereenjoyedatthenorth,comparedwithwhatwereenjoyedbytheslaveholdersofthesouth。Iprobablycametothisconclusionfromthefactthatnorthernpeopleownednoslaves。Isupposedthattheywereaboutuponalevelwiththenon-slaveholdingpopulationofthesouth。Iknew~they~wereexceedinglypoor,andIhadbeenaccustomedtoregardtheirpovertyasthenec-
essaryconsequenceoftheirbeingnon-slaveholders。
Ihadsomehowimbibedtheopinionthat,intheabsenceofslaves,therecouldbenowealth,andverylittlerefinement。Anduponcomingtothenorth,I
expectedtomeetwitharough,hard-handed,anduncultivatedpopulation,livinginthemostSpartan-
likesimplicity,knowingnothingoftheease,luxury,pomp,andgrandeurofsouthernslaveholders。Suchbeingmyconjectures,anyoneacquaintedwiththeappearanceofNewBedfordmayveryreadilyinferhowpalpablyImusthaveseenmymistake。
IntheafternoonofthedaywhenIreachedNewBedford,Ivisitedthewharves,totakeaviewoftheshipping。HereIfoundmyselfsurroundedwiththestrongestproofsofwealth。Lyingatthewharves,andridinginthestream,Isawmanyshipsofthefinestmodel,inthebestorder,andofthelargestsize。
Upontherightandleft,Iwaswalledinbygranitewarehousesofthewidestdimensions,stowedtotheirutmostcapacitywiththenecessariesandcomfortsoflife。Addedtothis,almosteverybodyseemedtobeatwork,butnoiselesslyso,comparedwithwhatIhadbeenaccustomedtoinBaltimore。Therewerenoloudsongsheardfromthoseengagedinloadingandunloadingships。Iheardnodeepoathsorhorridcursesonthelaborer。Isawnowhippingofmen;
butallseemedtogosmoothlyon。Everymanap-
pearedtounderstandhiswork,andwentatitwithasober,yetcheerfulearnestness,whichbetokenedthedeepinterestwhichhefeltinwhathewasdoing,aswellasasenseofhisowndignityasaman。Tomethislookedexceedinglystrange。FromthewharvesI
strolledaroundandoverthetown,gazingwithwon-
derandadmirationatthesplendidchurches,beauti-
fuldwellings,andfinely-cultivatedgardens;evincinganamountofwealth,comfort,taste,andrefinement,suchasIhadneverseeninanypartofslaveholdingMaryland。
Everythinglookedclean,new,andbeautiful。I
sawfewornodilapidatedhouses,withpoverty-
strickeninmates;nohalf-nakedchildrenandbare-
footedwomen,suchasIhadbeenaccustomedtoseeinHillsborough,Easton,St。Michael’s,andBalti-
more。Thepeoplelookedmoreable,stronger,health-
ier,andhappier,thanthoseofMaryland。Iwasforoncemadegladbyaviewofextremewealth,withoutbeingsaddenedbyseeingextremepoverty。Butthemostastonishingaswellasthemostinterestingthingtomewastheconditionofthecoloredpeople,agreatmanyofwhom,likemyself,hadescapedthitherasarefugefromthehuntersofmen。Ifoundmany,whohadnotbeensevenyearsoutoftheirchains,livinginfinerhouses,andevidentlyenjoyingmoreofthecomfortsoflife,thantheaverageofslaveholdersinMaryland。Iwillventuretoassert,thatmyfriendMr。NathanJohnson(ofwhomI
cansaywithagratefulheart,\"Iwashungry,andhegavememeat;Iwasthirsty,andhegavemedrink;
Iwasastranger,andhetookmein\")livedinaneaterhouse;dinedatabettertable;took,paidfor,andread,morenewspapers;betterunderstoodthemoral,religious,andpoliticalcharacterofthenation,——thanninetenthsoftheslaveholdersinTal-
botcountyMaryland。YetMr。Johnsonwasawork-
ingman。Hishandswerehardenedbytoil,andnothisalone,butthosealsoofMrs。Johnson。IfoundthecoloredpeoplemuchmorespiritedthanIhadsup-
posedtheywouldbe。Ifoundamongthemadeter-
minationtoprotecteachotherfromtheblood-thirstykidnapper,atallhazards。Soonaftermyarrival,I
wastoldofacircumstancewhichillustratedtheirspirit。Acoloredmanandafugitiveslavewereonunfriendlyterms。Theformerwasheardtothreatenthelatterwithinforminghismasterofhiswhere-
abouts。Straightwayameetingwascalledamongthecoloredpeople,underthestereotypednotice,\"Busi-
nessofimportance!\"Thebetrayerwasinvitedtoat-
tend。Thepeoplecameattheappointedhour,andorganizedthemeetingbyappointingaveryreligiousoldgentlemanaspresident,who,Ibelieve,madeaprayer,afterwhichheaddressedthemeetingasfol-
lows:\"~Friends,wehavegothimhere,andIwouldrecommendthatyouyoungmenjusttakehimout-
sidethedoor,andkillhim!~\"Withthis,anumberofthemboltedathim;buttheywereinterceptedbysomemoretimidthanthemselves,andthebe-
trayerescapedtheirvengeance,andhasnotbeenseeninNewBedfordsince。Ibelievetherehavebeennomoresuchthreats,andshouldtherebehere-
after,Idoubtnotthatdeathwouldbetheconse-
quence。
Ifoundemployment,thethirddayaftermyar-
rival,instowingasloopwithaloadofoil。Itwasnew,dirty,andhardworkforme;butIwentatitwithagladheartandawillinghand。Iwasnowmyownmaster。Itwasahappymoment,theraptureofwhichcanbeunderstoodonlybythosewhohavebeenslaves。Itwasthefirstwork,therewardofwhichwastobeentirelymyown。TherewasnoMas-
terHughstandingready,themomentIearnedthemoney,torobmeofit。IworkedthatdaywithapleasureIhadneverbeforeexperienced。Iwasatworkformyselfandnewly-marriedwife。Itwastomethestarting-pointofanewexistence。WhenIgotthroughwiththatjob,Iwentinpursuitofajobofcalking;butsuchwasthestrengthofprejudiceagainstcolor,amongthewhitecalkers,thattheyre-
fusedtoworkwithme,andofcourseIcouldgetnoemployment。*Findingmytradeofnoimmediatebenefit,Ithrewoffmycalkinghabiliments,andpre-
paredmyselftodoanykindofworkIcouldgettodo。Mr。Johnsonkindlyletmehavehiswood-horseandsaw,andIverysoonfoundmyselfaplentyofwork。Therewasnoworktoohard——nonetoodirty。
Iwasreadytosawwood,shovelcoal,carrywood,sweepthechimney,orrolloilcasks,——allofwhichI
*IamtoldthatcoloredpersonscannowgetemploymentatcalkinginNewBedford——aresultofanti-slaveryeffort。
didfornearlythreeyearsinNewBedford,beforeI
becameknowntotheanti-slaveryworld。
InaboutfourmonthsafterIwenttoNewBed-
ford,therecameayoungmantome,andinquiredifIdidnotwishtotakethe\"Liberator。\"ItoldhimIdid;but,justhavingmademyescapefromslavery,IremarkedthatIwasunabletopayforitthen。I,however,finallybecameasubscribertoit。Thepapercame,andIreaditfromweektoweekwithsuchfeelingsasitwouldbequiteidleformetoattempttodescribe。Thepaperbecamemymeatandmydrink。Mysoulwassetallonfire。Itssympathyformybrethreninbonds——itsscathingdenunciationsofslaveholders——itsfaithfulexposuresofslavery——anditspowerfulattacksupontheupholdersoftheinstitu-
tion——sentathrillofjoythroughmysoul,suchasIhadneverfeltbefore!
Ihadnotlongbeenareaderofthe\"Liberator,\"
beforeIgotaprettycorrectideaoftheprinciples,measuresandspiritoftheanti-slaveryreform。Itookrightholdofthecause。Icoulddobutlittle;butwhatIcould,Ididwithajoyfulheart,andneverfelthappierthanwheninananti-slaverymeeting。Isel-
domhadmuchtosayatthemeetings,becausewhatIwantedtosaywassaidsomuchbetterbyothers。
But,whileattendingananti-slaveryconventionatNantucket,onthe11thofAugust,1841,Ifeltstronglymovedtospeak,andwasatthesametimemuchurgedtodosobyMr。WilliamC。Coffin,agentlemanwhohadheardmespeakinthecoloredpeople’smeetingatNewBedford。Itwasaseverecross,andItookitupreluctantly。Thetruthwas,Ifeltmyselfaslave,andtheideaofspeakingtowhitepeopleweighedmedown。Ispokebutafewmoments,whenIfeltadegreeoffreedom,andsaidwhatIdesiredwithconsiderableease。Fromthattimeuntilnow,Ihavebeenengagedinpleadingthecauseofmybrethren——withwhatsuccess,andwithwhatdevotion,Ileavethoseacquaintedwithmyla-
borstodecide。
APPENDIX
Ifind,sincereadingovertheforegoingNarrative,thatIhave,inseveralinstances,spokeninsuchatoneandmanner,respectingreligion,asmaypossi-
blyleadthoseunacquaintedwithmyreligiousviewstosupposemeanopponentofallreligion。Tore-
movetheliabilityofsuchmisapprehension,Ideemitpropertoappendthefollowingbriefexplanation。
WhatIhavesaidrespectingandagainstreligion,I
meanstrictlytoapplytothe~slaveholdingreligion~ofthisland,andwithnopossiblereferencetoChristi-
anityproper;for,betweentheChristianityofthisland,andtheChristianityofChrist,Irecognizethewidestpossibledifference——sowide,thattoreceivetheoneasgood,pure,andholy,isofnecessitytore-
jecttheotherasbad,corrupt,andwicked。Tobethefriendoftheone,isofnecessitytobetheenemyoftheother。Ilovethepure,peaceable,andimpar-
tialChristianityofChrist:Ithereforehatethecor-
rupt,slaveholding,women-whipping,cradle-plunder-
ing,partialandhypocriticalChristianityofthisland。
Indeed,Icanseenoreason,butthemostdeceitfulone,forcallingthereligionofthislandChristianity。
Ilookuponitastheclimaxofallmisnomers,theboldestofallfrauds,andthegrossestofalllibels。
Neverwasthereaclearercaseof\"stealingtheliveryofthecourtofheaventoservethedevilin。\"IamfilledwithunutterableloathingwhenIcontem-
platethereligiouspompandshow,togetherwiththehorribleinconsistencies,whicheverywheresurroundme。Wehavemen-stealersforministers,women-
whippersformissionaries,andcradle-plunderersforchurchmembers。Themanwhowieldstheblood-
clottedcowskinduringtheweekfillsthepulpitonSunday,andclaimstobeaministerofthemeekandlowlyJesus。Themanwhorobsmeofmyearningsattheendofeachweekmeetsmeasaclass-leaderonSundaymorning,toshowmethewayoflife,andthepathofsalvation。Hewhosellsmysister,forpurposesofprostitution,standsforthasthepi-
ousadvocateofpurity。Hewhoproclaimsitare-
ligiousdutytoreadtheBibledeniesmetherightoflearningtoreadthenameoftheGodwhomademe。Hewhoisthereligiousadvocateofmarriagerobswholemillionsofitssacredinfluence,andleavesthemtotheravagesofwholesalepollution。Thewarmdefenderofthesacrednessofthefamilyre-
lationisthesamethatscatterswholefamilies,——sun-
deringhusbandsandwives,parentsandchildren,sistersandbrothers,——leavingthehutvacant,andthehearthdesolate。Weseethethiefpreachingagainsttheft,andtheadultereragainstadultery。Wehavemensoldtobuildchurches,womensoldtosupportthegospel,andbabessoldtopurchaseBiblesforthePOORHEATHEN!ALLFORTHEGLORYOFGODANDTHE
GOODOFSOULS!Theslaveauctioneer’sbellandthechurch-goingbellchimeinwitheachother,andthebittercriesoftheheart-brokenslavearedrownedinthereligiousshoutsofhispiousmaster。Revivalsofreligionandrevivalsintheslave-tradegohandinhandtogether。Theslaveprisonandthechurchstandneareachother。Theclankingoffettersandtherattlingofchainsintheprison,andthepiouspsalmandsolemnprayerinthechurch,maybeheardatthesametime。Thedealersinthebodiesandsoulsofmenerecttheirstandinthepresenceofthepulpit,andtheymutuallyhelpeachother。
Thedealergiveshisblood-stainedgoldtosupportthepulpit,andthepulpit,inreturn,covershisin-
fernalbusinesswiththegarbofChristianity。Herewehavereligionandrobberythealliesofeachother——devilsdressedinangels’robes,andhellpresentingthesemblanceofparadise。
\"JustGod!andthesearethey,Whoministeratthinealtar,Godofright!
Menwhotheirhands,withprayerandblessing,layOnIsrael’sarkoflight。
\"What!preach,andkidnapmen?
Givethanks,androbthyownafflictedpoor?
Talkofthygloriousliberty,andthenBolthardthecaptive’sdoor?
\"What!servantsofthyownMercifulSon,whocametoseekandsaveThehomelessandtheoutcast,fetteringdownThetaskedandplunderedslave!
\"PilateandHerodfriends!
Chiefpriestsandrulers,asofold,combine!
JustGodandholy!isthatchurchwhichlendsStrengthtothespoilerthine?\"
TheChristianityofAmericaisaChristianity,ofwhosevotariesitmaybeastrulysaid,asitwasoftheancientscribesandPharisees,\"Theybindheavyburdens,andgrievoustobeborne,andlaythemonmen’sshoulders,buttheythemselveswillnotmovethemwithoneoftheirfingers。Alltheirworkstheydofortobeseenofmen。——Theylovetheupper-
mostroomsatfeasts,andthechiefseatsinthesyna-
gogues,……andtobecalledofmen,Rabbi,Rabbi。——Butwoeuntoyou,scribesandPharisees,hypocrites!foryeshutupthekingdomofheavenagainstmen;foryeneithergoinyourselves,neithersufferyethemthatareenteringtogoin。Yedevourwidows’houses,andforapretencemakelongprayers;thereforeyeshallreceivethegreaterdam-
nation。Yecompassseaandlandtomakeoneprose-
lyte,andwhenheismade,yemakehimtwofoldmorethechildofhellthanyourselves。——Woeuntoyou,scribesandPharisees,hypocrites!foryepaytitheofmint,andanise,andcumin,andhaveomit-
tedtheweightiermattersofthelaw,judgment,mercy,andfaith;theseoughtyetohavedone,andnottoleavetheotherundone。Yeblindguides!
whichstrainatagnat,andswallowacamel。Woeuntoyou,scribesandPharisees,hypocrites!foryemakecleantheoutsideofthecupandoftheplatter;
butwithin,theyarefullofextortionandexcess。——
Woeuntoyou,scribesandPharisees,hypocrites!foryearelikeuntowhitedsepulchres,whichindeedap-
pearbeautifuloutward,butarewithinfullofdeadmen’sbones,andofalluncleanness。Evensoyealsooutwardlyappearrighteousuntomen,butwithinyearefullofhypocrisyandiniquity。\"
Darkandterribleasisthispicture,IholdittobestrictlytrueoftheoverwhelmingmassofprofessedChristiansinAmerica。Theystrainatagnat,andswallowacamel。Couldanythingbemoretrueofourchurches?Theywouldbeshockedatthepropo-
sitionoffellowshippingaSHEEP-stealer;andatthesametimetheyhugtotheircommunionaMAN-
stealer,andbrandmewithbeinganinfidel,ifI
findfaultwiththemforit。TheyattendwithPhari-
saicalstrictnesstotheoutwardformsofreligion,andatthesametimeneglecttheweightiermattersofthelaw,judgment,mercy,andfaith。Theyareal-
waysreadytosacrifice,butseldomtoshowmercy。
TheyaretheywhoarerepresentedasprofessingtoloveGodwhomtheyhavenotseen,whilsttheyhatetheirbrotherwhomtheyhaveseen。Theylovetheheathenontheothersideoftheglobe。Theycanprayforhim,paymoneytohavetheBibleputintohishand,andmissionariestoinstructhim;whiletheydespiseandtotallyneglecttheheathenattheirowndoors。
Suchis,verybriefly,myviewofthereligionofthisland;andtoavoidanymisunderstanding,grow-
ingoutoftheuseofgeneralterms,Imeanbythereligionofthisland,thatwhichisrevealedinthewords,deeds,andactions,ofthosebodies,northandsouth,callingthemselvesChristianchurches,andyetinunionwithslaveholders。Itisagainstreligion,aspresentedbythesebodies,thatIhavefeltitmydutytotestify。
Iconcludetheseremarksbycopyingthefollowingportraitofthereligionofthesouth,(whichis,bycommunionandfellowship,thereligionofthenorth,)whichIsoberlyaffirmis\"truetothelife,\"
andwithoutcaricatureortheslightestexaggeration。
Itissaidtohavebeendrawn,severalyearsbeforethepresentanti-slaveryagitationbegan,byanorth-
ernMethodistpreacher,who,whileresidingatthesouth,hadanopportunitytoseeslaveholdingmor-
als,manners,andpiety,withhisowneyes。\"ShallInotvisitforthesethings?saiththeLord。Shallnotmysoulbeavengedonsuchanationasthis?\"
APARODY
\"Come,saintsandsinners,hearmetellHowpiouspriestswhipJackandNell,Andwomenbuyandchildrensell,Andpreachallsinnersdowntohell,Andsingofheavenlyunion。
\"They’llbleatandbaa,donalikegoats,Gorgedownblacksheep,andstrainatmotes,Arraytheirbacksinfineblackcoats,Thenseizetheirnegroesbytheirthroats,Andchoke,forheavenlyunion。
\"They’llchurchyouifyousipadram,Anddamnyouifyoustealalamb;
YetroboldTony,Doll,andSam,Ofhumanrights,andbreadandham;
Kidnapper’sheavenlyunion。
\"They’llloudlytalkofChrist’sreward,Andbindhisimagewithacord,Andscold,andswingthelashabhorred,AndselltheirbrotherintheLordTohandcuffedheavenlyunion。
\"They’llreadandsingasacredsong,Andmakeaprayerbothloudandlong,Andteachtherightanddothewrong,Hailingthebrother,sisterthrong,Withwordsofheavenlyunion。
\"Wewonderhowsuchsaintscansing,OrpraisetheLorduponthewing,Whoroar,andscold,andwhip,andsting,Andtotheirslavesandmammoncling,Inguiltyconscienceunion。
\"They’llraisetobacco,corn,andrye,Anddrive,andthieve,andcheat,andlie,Andlayuptreasuresinthesky,Bymakingswitchandcowskinfly,Inhopeofheavenlyunion。
\"They’llcrackoldTonyontheskull,AndpreachandroarlikeBashanbull,Orbrayingass,ofmischieffull,ThenseizeoldJacobbythewool,Andpullforheavenlyunion。
\"Aroaring,ranting,sleekman-thief,Wholivedonmutton,veal,andbeef,YetneverwouldaffordreliefToneedy,sablesonsofgrief,Wasbigwithheavenlyunion。
\"’Lovenottheworld,’thepreachersaid,Andwinkedhiseye,andshookhishead;
HeseizedonTom,andDick,andNed,Cutshorttheirmeat,andclothes,andbread,Yetstilllovedheavenlyunion。
\"AnotherpreacherwhiningspokeOfOnewhoseheartforsinnersbroke:
HetiedoldNannytoanoak,Anddrewthebloodateverystroke,Andprayedforheavenlyunion。
\"Twoothersopedtheirironjaws,Andwavedtheirchildren-stealingpaws;
Theresattheirchildreningewgaws;
Bystintingnegroes’backsandmaws,Theykeptupheavenlyunion。
\"AllgoodfromJackanothertakes,Andentertainstheirflirtsandrakes,Whodressassleekasglossysnakes,Andcramtheirmouthswithsweetenedcakes;
Andthisgoesdownforunion。\"
SincerelyandearnestlyhopingthatthislittlebookmaydosomethingtowardthrowinglightontheAmericanslavesystem,andhasteningthegladdayofdeliverancetothemillionsofmybrethreninbonds——faithfullyrelyinguponthepoweroftruth,love,andjustice,forsuccessinmyhumbleefforts——andsolemnlypledgingmyselfanewtothesacredcause,——Isubscribemyself,FREDERICKDOUGLASS
LYNN,Mass。,April28,1845。