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  1850

  CONTENTS

  HERBIRTHANDPARENTAGE

  ACCOMMODATIONS

  HERBROTHERSANDSISTERS

  HERRELIGIOUSINSTRUCTION

  THEAUCTION

  DEATHOFMAU-MAUBETT

  LASTDAYSOFBOMEFREE

  DEATHOFBOMEFREE

  COMMENCEMENTOFISABELLA’STRIALSINLIFE

  TRIALSCONTINUED

  HERSTANDINGWITHHERNEWMASTERANDMISTRESS

  ISABELLA’SMARRIAGE

  ISABELLAASAMOTHER

  SLAVEHOLDER’SPROMISES

  HERESCAPE

  ILLEGALSALEOFHERSON

  ITISOFTENDARKESTJUSTBEFOREDAWN

  DEATHOFMRS。ELIZAFOWLER

  ISABELLA’SRELIGIOUSEXPERIENCE

  NEWTRIALS

  FINDINGABROTHERANDSISTER

  GLEANINGS

  THEMATTHIASDELUSION

  FASTING

  THECAUSEOFHERLEAVINGTHECITY

  THECONSEQUENCESOFREFUSINGATRAVELLERANIGHT’SLODGING

  SOMEOFHERVIEWSANDREASONINGS

  THESECONDADVENTDOCTRINES

  ANOTHERCAMP-MEETING

  LASTINTERVIEWWITHHERMASTER

  CERTIFICATESOFCHARACTER

  NARRATIVEOFSOJOURNERTRUTH

  HERBIRTHANDPARENTAGE。

  THEsubjectofthisbiography,SOJOURNERTRUTH,asshenowcallsherself-butwhosename,originally,wasIsabella-wasborn,asnearasshecannowcalculate,betweentheyears1797and1800。ShewasthedaughterofJamesandBetsey,slavesofoneColonelArdinburgh,Hurley,UlsterCounty,NewYork。

  ColonelArdinburghbelongedtothatclassofpeoplecalledLowDutch。

  Ofherfirstmaster,shecangivenoaccount,asshemusthavebeenamereinfantwhenhedied;andshe,withherparentsandsometenortwelveotherfellowhumanchattels,becamethelegalpropertyofhisson,CharlesArdinburgh。Shedistinctlyremembershearingherfatherandmothersay,thattheirlotwasafortunateone,asMasterCharleswasthebestofthefamily,-being,comparativelyspeaking,akindmastertohisslaves。

  JamesandBetseyhaving,bytheirfaithfulness,docility,andrespectfulbehavior,wonhisparticularregard,receivedfromhimparticularfavors-amongwhichwasalotofland,lyingbackontheslopeofamountain,where,byimprovingthepleasanteveningsandSundays,theymanagedtoraisealittletobacco,corn,orflax;whichtheyexchangedforextras,inthearticlesoffoodorclothingforthemselvesandchildren。ShehasnoremembrancethatSaturdayafternoonwaseveraddedtotheirowntime,asitisbysomemastersintheSouthernStates。

  ACCOMMODATIONS。

  AmongIsabella’searliestrecollectionswastheremovalofhermaster,CharlesArdinburgh,intohisnewhouse,whichhehadbuiltforahotel,soonafterthedeceaseofhisfather。Acellar,underthishotel,wasassignedtohisslaves,astheirsleepingapartment,-alltheslaveshepossessed,ofbothsexes,sleeping(asisquitecommoninastateofslavery)inthesameroom。Shecarriesinhermind,tothisday,avividpictureofthisdismalchamber;itsonlylightsconsistingofafewpanesofglass,throughwhichshethinksthesunnevershone,butwiththricereflectedrays;andthespacebetweenthelooseboardsofthefloor,andtheunevenearthbelow,wasoftenfilledwithmudandwater,theuncomfortablesplashingsofwhichwereasannoyingasitsnoxiousvaporsmusthavebeenchillingandfataltohealth。Sheshudders,evennow,asshegoesbackinmemory,andrevisitsthiscellar,andseesitsinmates,ofbothsexesandallages,sleepingonthosedampboards,likethehorse,withalittlestrawandablanket;

  andshewondersnotattherheumatisms,andfever-sores,andpalsies,thatdistortedthelimbsandrackedthebodiesofthosefellow-slavesinafter-life。Still,shedoesnotattributethiscruelty-forcrueltyitcertainlyis,tobesounmindfulofthehealthandcomfortofanybeing,leavingentirelyoutofsighthismoreimportantpart,hiseverlastinginterests,-somuchtoanyinnateorconstitutionalcrueltyofthemaster,astothatgiganticinconsistency,thatinheritedhabitamongslaveholders,ofexpectingawillingandintelligentobediencefromtheslave,becauseheisaMAN-atthesametimeeverythingbelongingtothesoul-harrowingsystemdoesitsbesttocrushthelastvestigeofamanwithinhim;andwhenitiscrushed,andoftenbefore,heisdeniedthecomfortsoflife,onthepleathatheknowsneitherthewantnortheuseofthem,andbecauseheisconsideredtobelittlemoreorlittlelessthanabeast。

  HERBROTHERSANDSISTERS。

  Isabella’sfatherwasverytallandstraight,whenyoung,whichgavehimthenameof’Bomefree’-lowDutchfortree-atleast,thisisSOJOURNER’spronunciationofit-andbythisnameheusuallywent。Themostfamiliarappellationofhermotherwas’Mau-mauBett。’Shewasthemotherofsometenortwelvechildren;thoughSojournerisfarfromknowingtheexactnumberofherbrothersandsisters;shebeingtheyoungest,saveone,andallolderthanherselfhavingbeensoldbeforeherremembrance。Shewasprivilegedtobeholdsixofthemwhilesheremainedaslave。

  Ofthetwothatimmediatelyprecededherinage,aboyoffiveyears,andagirlofthree,whoweresoldwhenshewasaninfant,sheheardmuch;andshewishesthatallwhowouldfainbelievethatslaveparentshavenotnaturalaffectionfortheiroffspringcouldhavelistenedasshedid,whileBomefreeandMau-mauBett,-theirdarkcellarlightedbyablazingpine-knot,-wouldsitforhours,recallingandrecountingeveryendearing,aswellasharrowingcircumstancethattaxedmemorycouldsupply,fromthehistoriesofthosedeardepartedones,ofwhomtheyhadbeenrobbed,andforwhomtheirheartsstillbled。Amongtherest,theywouldrelatehowthelittleboy,onthelastmorninghewaswiththem,arosewiththebirds,kindledafire,callingforhisMau-mauto’come,forallwasnowreadyforher’-littledreamingofthedreadfulseparationwhichwassonearathand,butofwhichhisparentshadanuncertain,butallthemorecruelforeboding。Therewassnowontheground,atthetimeofwhichwearespeaking;andalargeold-fashionedsleighwasseentodriveuptothedoorofthelateCol。

  Ardinburgh。Thiseventwasnoticedwithchildishpleasurebytheunsuspiciousboy;butwhenhewastakenandputintothesleigh,andsawhislittlesisteractuallyshutandlockedintothesleighbox,hiseyeswereatonceopenedtotheirintentions;and,likeafrighteneddeerhesprangfromthesleigh,andrunningintothehouse,concealedhimselfunderabed。Butthisavailedhimlittle。Hewasre-conveyedtothesleigh,andseparatedforeverfromthosewhomGodhadconstitutedhisnaturalguardiansandprotectors,andwhoshouldhavefoundhim,inreturn,astayandastafftothemintheirdecliningyears。ButImakenocommentsonfactslikethese,knowingthattheheartofeveryslaveparentwillmakeitsowncomments,involuntarilyandcorrectly,assoonaseachheartshallmakethecaseitsown。

  Thosewhoarenotparentswilldrawtheirconclusionsfromthepromptingsofhumanityandphilanthropy:-these,enlightenedbyreasonandrevelation,arealsounerring。

  HERRELIGIOUSINSTRUCTION。

  IsabellaandPeter,heryoungestbrother,remained,withtheirparents,thelegalpropertyofCharlesArdinburghtillhisdecease,whichtookplacewhenIsabellawasnearnineyearsold。

  Afterthisevent,shewasoftensurprisedtofindhermotherintears;

  andwhen,inhersimplicity,sheinquired,’Mau-mau,whatmakesyoucry?’shewouldanswer,’Oh,mychild,Iamthinkingofyourbrothersandsistersthathavebeensoldawayfromme。’Andshewouldproceedtodetailmanycircumstancesrespectingthem。ButIsabellalongsinceconcludedthatitwastheimpendingfateofheronlyremainingchildren,whichhermotherbuttoowellunderstood,eventhen,thatcalledupthosememoriesfromthepast,andmadethemcrucifyherheartafresh。

  Intheevening,whenhermother’sworkwasdone,shewouldsitdownunderthesparklingvaultofheaven,andcallingherchildrentoher,wouldtalktothemoftheonlyBeingthatcouldeffectuallyaidorprotectthem。HerteachingsweredeliveredinLowDutch,heronlylanguage,and,translatedintoEnglish,rannearlyasfollows:-

  ’Mychildren,thereisaGod,whohearsandseesyou。’’AGod,mau-mau!

  Wheredoeshelive?’askedthechildren。’Helivesinthesky,’shereplied;’andwhenyouarebeaten,orcruellytreated,orfallintoanytrouble,youmustaskhelpofhim,andhewillalwayshearandhelpyou。’ShetaughtthemtokneelandsaytheLord’sPrayer。Sheentreatedthemtorefrainfromlyingandstealing,andtostrivetoobeytheirmasters。

  Attimes,agroanwouldescapeher,andshewouldbreakoutinthelanguageofthePsalmist-’OhLord,howlong?’’OhLord,howlong?’AndinreplytoIsabella’squestion-’Whatailsyou,mau-mau?’heronlyanswerwas,’Oh,agooddealailsme’-’Enoughailsme。’Thenagain,shewouldpointthemtothestars,andsay,inherpeculiarlanguage,’Thosearethesamestars,andthatisthesamemoon,thatlookdownuponyourbrothersandsisters,andwhichtheyseeastheylookuptothem,thoughtheyareeversofarawayfromus,andeachother。’

  Thus,inherhumbleway,didsheendeavortoshowthemtheirHeavenlyFather,astheonlybeingwhocouldprotectthemintheirperilouscondition;atthesametime,shewouldstrengthenandbrightenthechainoffamilyaffection,whichshetrustedextendeditselfsufficientlytoconnectthewidelyscatteredmembersofherpreciousflock。TheseinstructionsofthemotherweretreasuredupandheldsacredbyIsabella,asourfuturenarrativewillshow。

  THEAUCTION。

  Atlength,thenever-to-be-forgottendayoftheterribleauctionarrived,whenthe’slaves,horses,andothercattle’ofCharlesArdinburgh,deceased,weretobeputunderthehammer,andagainchangemasters。NotonlyIsabellaandPeter,buttheirmother,werenowdestinedtotheauctionblock,andwouldhavebeenstruckoffwiththeresttothehighestbidder,butforthefollowingcircumstance:A

  questionaroseamongtheheirs,’WhoshallbeburdenedwithBomefree,whenwehavesentawayhisfaithfulMau-mauBett?’Hewasbecomingweakandinfirm;hislimbswerepainfullyrheumaticanddistorted-morefromexposureandhardshipthanfromoldage,thoughhewasseveralyearsolderthanMau-mauBett:hewasnolongerconsideredofvalue,butmustsoonbeaburdenandcaretosomeone。Aftersomecontentiononthepointatissue,nonebeingwillingtobeburdenedwithhim,itwasfinallyagreed,asmostexpedientfortheheirs,thatthepriceofMau-mauBettshouldbesacrificed,andshereceiveherfreedom,onconditionthatshetakecareofandsupportherfaithfulJames,-

  faithful,notonlytoherasahusband,butproverbiallyfaithfulasaslavetothosewhowouldnotwillinglysacrificeadollarforhiscomfort,nowthathehadcommencedhisdescentintothedarkvaleofdecrepitudeandsuffering。Thisimportantdecisionwasreceivedasjoyfulnewsindeedtoourancientcouple,whoweretheobjectsofit,andwhoweretryingtopreparetheirheartsforaseverestruggle,andonealtogethernewtothem,astheyhadneverbeforebeenseparated;

  for,thoughignorant,helpless,crushedinspirit,andweigheddownwithhardshipandcruelbereavement,theywerestillhuman,andtheirhumanheartsbeatwithinthemwithastrueanaffectionasevercausedahumanhearttobeat。Andtheiranticipatedseparationnow,inthedeclineoflife,afterthelastchildhadbeentornfromthem,musthavebeentrulyappalling。Anotherprivilegewasgrantedthem-thatofremainingoccupantsofthesamedark,humidcellarIhavebeforedescribed:otherwise,theyweretosupportthemselvesastheybestcould。Andashermotherwasstillabletodoconsiderablework,andherfatheralittle,theygotonforsometimeverycomfortably。Thestrangerswhorentedthehousewerehumanepeople,andverykindtothem;theywerenotrich,andownednoslaves。Howlongthisstateofthingscontinued,weareunabletosay,asIsabellahadnotthensufficientlycultivatedherorganoftimetocalculateyears,orevenweeksorhours。ButshethinkshermothermusthavelivedseveralyearsafterthedeathofMasterCharles。Sheremembersgoingtovisitherparentssomethreeorfourtimesbeforethedeathofhermother,andagooddealoftimeseemedtohertointervenebetweeneachvisit。

  Atlengthhermother’shealthbegantodecline-afever-soremadeitsravagesononeofherlimbs,andthepalsybegantoshakeherframe;

  still,sheandJamestotteredabout,pickingupalittlehereandthere,which,addedtothemitescontributedbytheirkindneighbors,sufficedtosustainlife,anddrivefaminefromthedoor。

  DEATHOFMAU-MAUBETT。

  Onemorning,inearlyautumn,(fromthereasonabovementioned,wecannottellwhatyear,)Mau-mauBetttoldJamesshewouldmakehimaloafofrye-bread,andgetMrs。Simmons,theirkindneighbor,tobakeitforthem,asshewouldbakethatforenoon。Jamestoldherhehadengagedtorakeafterthecartforhisneighborsthatmorning;butbeforehecommenced,hewouldpoleoffsomeapplesfromatreenear,whichtheywereallowedtogather;andifshecouldgetsomeofthembakedwiththebread,itwouldgiveanicerelishfortheirdinner。Hebeatofftheapples,andsoonafter,sawMau-mauBettcomeoutandgatherthemup。

  Attheblowingofthehornfordinner,hegropedhiswayintohiscellar,anticipatinghishumble,butwarmandnourishingmeal;when,lo!insteadofbeingcheeredbythesightandodoroffresh-bakedbreadandthesavoryapples,hiscellarseemedmorecheerlessthanusual,andatfirstneithersightnorsoundmeteyeorear。But,ongropinghiswaythroughtheroom,hisstaff,whichheusedasapioneertogobefore,andwarnhimofdanger,seemedtobeimpededinitsprogress,andalow,gurgling,chokingsoundproceededfromtheobjectbeforehim,givinghimthefirstintimationofthetruthasitwas,thatMau-mauBett,hisbosomcompanion,theonlyremainingmemberofhislargefamily,hadfalleninafitofthepalsy,andlayhelplessandsenselessontheearth!Whoamongus,locatedinpleasanthomes,surroundedwitheverycomfort,andsomanykindandsympathizingfriends,canpicturetoourselvesthedarkanddesolatestateofpooroldJames-penniless,weak,lame,andnearlyblind,ashewasatthemomenthefoundhiscompanionwasremovedfromhim,andhewasleftaloneintheworld,withnoonetoaid,comfort,orconsolehim?forsheneverrevivedagain,andlivedonlyafewhoursafterbeingdiscoveredsenselessbyherpoorbereavedJames。

  LASTDAYSOFBOMEFREE。

  IsabellaandPeterwerepermittedtoseetheremainsoftheirmotherlaidintheirlastnarrowdwelling,andtomaketheirbereavedfatheralittlevisit,eretheyreturnedtotheirservitude。Andmostpiteouswerethelamentationsofthepooroldman,when,atlast,theyalsowereobligedtobidhim\"Farewell!\"JuanFernandes,onhisdesolateisland,wasnotsopitiableanobjectasthispoorlameman。Blindandcrippled,hewastoosuperannuatedtothinkforamomentoftakingcareofhimself,andhegreatlyfearednopersonswouldinterestthemselvesinhisbehalf。’Oh,’hewouldexclaim,’IhadthoughtGodwouldtakemefirst,-Mau-mauwassomuchsmarterthanI,andcouldgetaboutandtakecareofherself;-andIamsoold,andsohelpless。Whatistobecomeofme?Ican’tdoanythinganymore-mychildrenareallgone,andhereIamlefthelplessandalone。’’Andthen,asIwastakingleaveofhim,’saidhisdaughter,inrelatingit,’heraisedhisvoice,andcriedaloudlikeachild-Oh,howheDIDcry!IHEARitnow-andrememberitaswellasifitwerebutyesterday-pooroldman!!!HethoughtGodhaddoneitall-andmyheartbledwithinmeatthesightofhismisery。Hebeggedmetogetpermissiontocomeandseehimsometimes,whichIreadilyandheartilypromisedhim。’Butwhenallhadlefthim,theArdinburghs,havingsomefeelingleftfortheirfaithfulandfavoriteslave,’tookturnsabout’inkeepinghim-

  permittinghimtostayafewweeksatonehouse,andthenawhileatanother,andsoaround。If,whenhemadearemoval,theplacewherehewasgoingwasnottoofaroff,hetookuphislineofmarch,staffinhand,andaskedfornoassistance。Ifitwastwelveortwentymiles,theygavehimaride。Whilehewaslivinginthisway,Isabellawastwicepermittedtovisithim。Anothertimeshewalkedtwelvemiles,andcarriedherinfantinherarmstoseehim,butwhenshereachedtheplacewhereshehopedtofindhim,hehadjustleftforaplacesometwentymilesdistant,andsheneversawhimmore。Thelasttimeshedidseehim,shefoundhimseatedonarock,bytheroadside,alone,andfarfromanyhouse。HewasthenmigratingfromthehouseofoneArdinburghtothatofanother,severalmilesdistant。Hishairwaswhitelikewool-hewasalmostblind-andhisgaitwasmoreacreepthanawalk-buttheweatherwaswarmandpleasant,andhedidnotdislikethejourney。WhenIsabellaaddressedhim,herecognizedhervoice,andwasexceedinggladtoseeher。Hewasassistedtomountthewagon,wascarriedbacktothefamouscellarofwhichwehavespoken,andtheretheyheldtheirlastearthlyconversation。Heagain,asusual,bewailedhisloneliness,-spokeintonesofanguishofhismanychildren,saying,\"Theyarealltakenawayfromme!Ihavenownotonetogivemeacupofcoldwater-whyshouldIliveandnotdie?\"

  Isabella,whoseheartyearnedoverherfather,andwhowouldhavemadeanysacrificetohavebeenabletobewith,andtakecareofhim,triedtocomfort,bytellinghimthat’shehadheardthewhitefolkssay,thatalltheslavesintheStatewouldbefreedintenyears,andthatthenshewouldcomeandtakecareofhim。’’IwouldtakejustasgoodcareofyouasMau-mauwould,ifshewashere’-continuedIsabel。’Oh,mychild,’repliedhe,’Icannotlivethatlong。’’Oh,do,daddy,dolive,andIwilltakesuchgoodcareofyou,’washerrejoinder。Shenowsays,’Why,Ithoughtthen,inmyignorance,thathecouldlive,ifhewould。Ijustasmuchthoughtso,asIeverthoughtanythinginmylife-andIinsistedonhisliving:butheshookhishead,andinsistedhecouldnot。’

  ButbeforeBomefree’sgoodconstitutionwouldyieldeithertoage,exposure,orastrongdesiretodie,theArdinburghsagaintiredofhim,andofferedfreedomtotwooldslaves-Caesar,brotherofMau-mauBett,andhiswifeBetsy-onconditionthattheyshouldtakecareofJames。(Iwasabouttosay,’theirbrother-in-law’-butasslavesareneitherhusbandsnorwivesinlaw,theideaoftheirbeingbrothers-in-lawistrulyludicrous。)Andalthoughtheyweretoooldandinfirmtotakecareofthemselves,(Caesarhavingbeenafflictedforalongtimewithfever-sores,andhiswifewiththejaundice),theyeagerlyacceptedtheboonoffreedom,whichhadbeenthelife-longdesireoftheirsouls-thoughatatimewhenemancipationwastothemlittlemorethandestitution,andwasafreedommoretobedesiredbythemasterthantheslave。Sojournerdeclaresoftheslavesintheirignorance,that’theirthoughtsarenolongerthanherfinger。’

  DEATHOFBOMEFREE。

  Arudecabin,inalonewood,farfromanyneighbors,wasgrantedtoourfreedfriends,astheonlyassistancetheywerenowtoexpect。

  Bomefree,fromthistime,foundhispoorneedshardlysupplied,ashisnewproviderswerescarceabletoadministertotheirownwants。

  However,thetimedrewnearwhenthingsweretobedecidedlyworseratherthanbetter;fortheyhadnotbeentogetherlong,beforeBettydied,andshortlyafter,Caesarfollowedherto’thatbournefromwhencenotravellerreturns’-leavingpoorJamesagaindesolate,andmorehelplessthaneverbefore;as,thistime,therewasnokindfamilyinthehouse,andtheArdinburghsnolongerinvitedhimtotheirhomes。

  Yet,lone,blindandhelplessashewas,Jamesforatimelivedon。

  Oneday,anagedcoloredwoman,namedSoan,calledathisshanty,andJamesbesoughther,inthemostmovingmanner,evenwithtears,totarryawhileandwashandmendhimup,sothathemightoncemorebedecentandcomfortable;forhewassufferingdreadfullywiththefilthandverminthathadcollecteduponhim。

  Soanwasherselfanemancipatedslave,oldandweak,withnoonetocareforher;andshelackedthecouragetoundertakeajobofsuchseemingmagnitude,fearingshemightherselfgetsick,andperishtherewithoutassistance;andwithgreatreluctance,andaheartswellingwithpity,assheafterwardsdeclared,shefeltobligedtoleavehiminhiswretchednessandfilth。Andshortlyafterhervisit,thisfaithfulslave,thisdesertedwreckofhumanity,wasfoundonhismiserablepallet,frozenandstiffindeath。Thekindangelhadcomeatlast,andrelievedhimofthemanymiseriesthathisfellow-manhadheapeduponhim。Yes,hehaddied,chilledandstarved,withnonetospeakakindlyword,ordoakindlydeedforhim,inthatlastdreadofhourofneed!

  ThenewsofhisdeathreachedtheearsofJohnArdinburgh,agrandsonoftheoldColonel;andhedeclaredthat’Bomefree,whohadeverbeenakindandfaithfulslave,shouldnowhaveagoodfuneral。’Andnow,gentlereader,whatthinkyouconstitutedagoodfuneral?Answer-someblackpaintforthecoffin,and-ajugofardentspirits!Whatacompensationforalifeoftoil,ofpatientsubmissiontorepeatedrobberiesofthemostaggravatedkind,and,also,farmorethanmurderousneglect!!Mankindoftenvainlyattemptstoatoneforunkindnessorcrueltytotheliving,byhonoringthesameafterdeath;

  butJohnArdinburghundoubtablymeanthispotofpaintandjugofwhiskyshouldactasanopiateonhisslaves,ratherthanonhisownsearedconscience。

  COMMENCEMENTOFISABELLA’STRIALSINLIFE。

  Havingseenthesadendofherparents,sofarasitrelatestothisearthlylife,wewillreturnwithIsabellatothatmemorableauctionwhichthreatenedtoseparateherfatherandmother。Aslaveauctionisaterribleaffairtoitsvictims,anditsincidentsandconsequencesaregravenontheirheartsaswithapenofburningsteel。

  Atthismemorabletime,Isabellawasstruckoff,forthesumofonehundreddollars,tooneJohnNealy,ofUlsterCounty,NewYork;andshehasanimpressionthatinthissaleshewasconnectedwithalotofsheep。Shewasnownineyearsofage,andhertrialsinlifemaybedatedfromthisperiod。Shesays,withemphasis,’Nowthewarbegun。’

  ShecouldonlytalkDutch-andtheNealyscouldonlytalkEnglish。Mr。

  NealycouldunderstandDutch,butIsabelandhermistresscouldneitherofthemunderstandthelanguageoftheother-andthis,ofitself,wasaformidableobstacleinthewayofagoodunderstandingbetweenthem,andforsometimewasafruitfulsourceofdissatisfactiontothemistress,andofpunishmentandsufferingtoIsabella。Shesays,’Iftheysentmeforafrying-pan,notknowingwhattheymeant,perhapsI

  carriedthempot-hooksandtrammels。Then,oh!howangrymistresswouldbewithme!’Thenshesuffered’terribly-terribly’,withthecold。Duringthewinterherfeetwerebadlyfrozen,forwantofpropercovering。Theygaveheraplentytoeat,andalsoaplentyofwhippings。OneSundaymorning,inparticular,shewastoldtogotothebarn;ongoingthere,shefoundhermasterwithabundleofrods,preparedintheembers,andboundtogetherwithcords。Whenhehadtiedherhandstogetherbeforeher,hegaveherthemostcruelwhippingshewasevertorturedwith。Hewhippedhertillthefleshwasdeeplylacerated,andthebloodstreamedfromherwounds-andthescarsremaintothepresentday,totestifytothefact。’Andnow,’shesays,’whenIhear’emtellofwhippingwomenonthebareflesh,itmakesmyfleshcrawl,andmyveryhairriseonmyhead!Oh!myGod!’shecontinues,’whatawayisthisoftreatinghumanbeings?’Inthosehoursofherextremity,shedidnotforgettheinstructionsofhermother,togotoGodinallhertrials,andeveryaffliction;andshenotonlyremembered,butobeyed:goingtohim,’andtellinghimall-andaskingHimifHethoughtitwasright,’andbegginghimtoprotectandshieldherfromherpersecutors。

  Shealwaysaskedwithanunwaveringfaiththatsheshouldreceivejustwhatshepleadedfor,-’Andnow,’shesays,’thoughitseemscurious,I

  donotremembereveraskingforanythingbutwhatIgotit。AndI

  alwaysreceiveditasananswertomyprayers。WhenIgotbeaten,I

  neverknewitlongenoughtogobeforehandtopray;andIalwaysthoughtthatifIonlyhadhadtimetopraytoGodforhelp,Ishouldhaveescapedthebeating。’ShehadnoideaGodhadanyknowledgeofherthoughts,savewhatshetoldhim;orheardherprayers,unlesstheywerespokenaudibly。Andconsequently,shecouldnotprayunlessshehadtimeandopportunitytogobyherself,whereshecouldtalktoGodwithoutbeingoverheard。

  TRIALSCONTINUED。

  WhenshehadbeenatMr。Nealy’sseveralmonths,shebegantobegGodmostearnestlytosendherfathertoher,andassoonasshecommencedtopray,shebeganasconfidentlytolookforhiscoming,and,ereitwaslong,tohergreatjoy,hecame。Shehadnoopportunitytospeaktohimofthetroublesthatweighedsoheavilyonherspirit,whileheremained;butwhenheleft,shefollowedhimtothegate,andunburdenedherhearttohim,inquiringifhecouldnotdosomethingtogetheranewandbetterplace。Inthiswaytheslavesoftenassisteachother,byascertainingwhoarekindtotheirslaves,comparatively;andthenusingtheirinfluencetogetsuchanonetohireorbuytheirfriends;andmasters,oftenfrompolicy,aswellasfromlatenthumanity,allowthosetheyareabouttosellorlet,tochoosetheirownplaces,ifthepersonstheyhappentoselectformastersareconsideredsafepay。Hepromisedtodoallhecould,andtheyparted。But,everyday,aslongasthesnowlasted,(fortherewassnowonthegroundatthetime,)shereturnedtothespotwheretheyseparated,andwalkinginthetracksherfatherhadmadeinthesnow,repeatedherprayerthat’Godwouldhelpherfathergetheranewandbetterplace。’

  Alongtimehadnotelapsed,whenafishermanbythenameofScriverappearedatMr。Nealy’s,andinquiredofIsabel’ifshewouldliketogoandlivewithhim。’Sheeagerlyanswered’Yes,’andnothingdoubtingbuthewassentinanswertoherprayer;andshesoonstartedoffwithhim,walkingwhileherode;forhehadboughtheratthesuggestionofherfather,payingonehundredandfivedollarsforher。

  HealsolivedinUlsterCounty,butsomefiveorsixmilesfromMr。

  Nealy’s。

  Scriver,besidesbeingafisherman,keptatavernfortheaccommodationofpeopleofhisownclass-forhiswasarude,uneducatedfamily,exceedinglyprofaneintheirlanguage,but,onthewhole,anhonest,kindandwell-disposedpeople。

  Theyownedalargefarm,butleftitwhollyunimproved;attendingmainlytotheirvocationsoffishingandinn-keeping。Isabelladeclaresshecanilldescribethekindoflifesheledwiththem。Itwasawild,out-of-doorkindoflief。Shewasexpectedtocarryfish,tohoecorn,tobringrootsandherbsfromthewoodsforbeers,gototheStrandforagallonofmolassesorliquorasthecasemightrequire,and’browsearound,’assheexpressesit。Itwasalifethatsuitedherwellforthetime-beingasdevoidofhardshiporterrorasitwasofimprovement;aneedwhichhadnotyetbecomeawant。Insteadofimprovingatthisplace,morally,sheretrograded,astheirexampletaughthertocurse;anditwasherethatshetookherfirstoath。

  Afterlivingwiththemforaboutayearandahalf,shewassoldtooneJohnJ。Dumont,forthesumofseventypounds。Thiswasin1810。Mr。

  Dumontlivedinthesamecountyasherformermasters,inthetownofNewPaltz,andsheremainedwithhimtillashorttimeprevioustoheremancipationbytheState,in1828。

  HERSTANDINGWITHHERNEWMASTERANDMISTRESS。

  HadMrs。Dumontpossessedthatveinofkindnessandconsiderationfortheslaves,soperceptibleinherhusband’scharacter,Isabellawouldhavebeenascomfortablehere,asonehadbestbe,ifonemustbeaslave。Mr。Dumonthadbeennursedintheverylapofslavery,andbeingnaturallyamanofkindfeelings,treatedhisslaveswithalltheconsiderationhedidhisotheranimals,andmore,perhaps。ButMrs。

  Dumont,whohadbeenbornandeducatedinanon-slaveholdingfamily,and,likemanyothers,usedonlytowork-people,who,underthemoststimulatingofhumanmotives,werewillingtoputforththeireveryenergy,couldnothavepatiencewiththecreepinggait,thedullunderstanding,orseeanycauseforthelistlessmannersandcareless,slovenlyhabitsofthepoordown-troddenoutcast-entirelyforgettingthateveryhighandefficientmotivehadbeenremovedfarfromhim;andthat,hadnothisveryintellectbeencrushedoutofhim,theslavewouldfindlittlegroundforaughtbuthopelessdespondency。Fromthissourcearosealongseriesoftrialsinthelifeofourheroine,whichwemustpassoverinsilence;somefrommotivesofdelicacy,andothers,becausetherelationofthemmightinflictundeservedpainonsomenowliving,whomIsabelremembersonlywithesteemandlove;

  therefore,thereaderwillnotbesurprisedifournarrativeappearssomewhattameatthispoint,andmayrestassuredthatitisnotforwantoffacts,asthemostthrillingincidentsofthisportionofherlifearefromvariousmotivessuppressed。

  Onecomparativelytriflingincidentshewishesrelated,asitmadeadeepimpressiononhermindatthetime-showing,asshethinks,howGodshieldstheinnocent,andcausesthemtotriumphovertheirenemies,andalsohowshestoodbetweenmasterandmistress。Inherfamily,Mrs。Dumontemployedtwowhitegirls,oneofwhom,namedKate,evincedadispositionto’lorditover’Isabel,and,inheremphaticlanguage,’togrindherdown’。Hermasteroftenshieldedherfromtheattacksandaccusationsofothers,praisingherforherreadinessandabilitytowork,andthesepraisesseemedtofosteraspiritofhostilitytoher,inthemindsofMrs。Dumontandherwhiteservant,thelatterofwhomtookeveryopportunitytocryupherfaults,lessenherintheesteemofhermasterandincreaseagainstherthedispleasureofhermistress,whichwasalreadymorethansufficientforIsabel’scomfort。

  Hermasterinsistedthatshecoulddoasmuchworkashalfadozencommonpeople,anddoitwell,too;whilsthermistressinsistedthatthefirstwastrue,onlybecauseitevercamefromherhandbuthalfperformed。Agooddealoffeelingarosefromthisdifferenceofopinion,whichwasgettingtoratheranuncomfortableheight,when,allatonce,thepotatoesthatIsabelcookedforbreakfastassumedadingy,dirtylook。Hermistressblamedherseverely,askinghermastertoobserve’afinespecimenofBell’swork!’-adding,’itisthewayallherworkisdone。’Hermasterscoldedalsothistime,andcommandedhertobemorecarefulinfuture。Katejoinedwithzestinthecensures,andwasveryharduponher。Isabellathoughtthatshehaddoneallshewellcouldtohavethemnice;

  andbecamequitedistressedattheirappearances,andwonderedwhatsheshoulddotoavoidthem。Inthisdilemma,GertrudeDumont(Mr。D。’seldestchild,agood,kind-heartedgirloftenyears,whopitiedIsabelsincerely),whensheheardthemallblamehersounsparingly,cameforward,offeringhersympathyandassistance;andwhenabouttoretiretobed,onthenightofIsabella’shumiliation,sheadvancedtoIsabel,andtoldher,ifshewouldwakeherearlynextmorning,shewouldgetupandattendtoherpotatoesforher,whileshe(Isabella)wenttomilking,andtheywouldseeiftheycouldnothavethemnice,andnothave’Poppee,’herwordforfather,and’Matty,’herwordformother,andallof’em,scoldingsoterribly。

  Isabellagladlyavailedherselfofthiskindness,whichtouchedhertotheheart,amidsomuchofanoppositespirit。WhenIsabellahadputthepotatoesovertoboil,Gettytoldhershewouldherselftendthefire,whileIsabelmilked。Shehadnotlongbeenseatedbythefire,inperformanceofherpromise,whenKateentered,andrequestedGertrudetogooutoftheroomanddosomethingforher,whichsherefused,stillkeepingherplaceinthecorner。Whilethere,Katecamesweepingaboutthefire,caughtupachip,liftedsomeasheswithit,anddashedthemintothekettle。Nowthemysterywassolved,theplotdiscovered!Katewasworkingalittletoofastatmakinghermistress’swordsgood,atshowingthatMrs。Dumontandherselfwereontherightsideofthedispute,andconsequentlyatgainingpoweroverIsabella。Yes,shewasquitetoofast,inasmuchasshehadoverlookedthelittlefigureofjustice,whichsatinthecomer,withscalesnicelybalanced,waitingtogivealltheirdues。

  Butthetimehadcomewhenshewastobeoverlookednolonger。ItwasGetty’sturntospeaknow。’OhPoppee!ohPoppee!’saidshe,’Katehasbeenputtingashesinamongthepotatoes!Isawherdoit!Lookatthosethatfellontheoutsideofthekettle!Youcannowseewhatmadethepotatoessodingyeverymorning,thoughBellwashedthemclean!’Andsherepeatedherstorytoeverynewcomer,tillthefraudwasmadeaspublicasthecensureofIsabellahadbeen。Hermistresslookedblank,andremaineddumb-hermastermutteredsomethingwhichsoundedverylikeanoath-andpoorKatewassochop-fallen,shelookedlikeaconvictedcriminal,whowouldgladlyhavehidherself,(nowthatthebasenesswasout,)toconcealhermortifiedprideanddeepchagrin。

  ItwasafinetriumphforIsabellaandhermaster,andshebecamemoreambitiousthanevertopleasehim;andhestimulatedherambitionbyhiscommendation,andbyboastingofhertohisfriends,tellingthemthat’thatwench’(pointingtoIsabel)

  ’isbettertomethanaman-forshewilldoagoodfamily’swashinginthenight,andbereadyinthemorningtogointothefield,whereshewilldoasmuchatrakingandbindingasmybesthands。’Herambitionanddesiretopleaseweresogreat,thatsheoftenworkedseveralnightsinsuccession,sleepingonlyshortsnatches,asshesatinherchair;andsomenightsshewouldnotallowherselftotakeanysleep,savewhatshecouldgetrestingherselfagainstthewall,fearingthatifshesatdown,shewouldsleeptoolong。Theseextraexertionstoplease,andthepraisesconsequentuponthem,broughtuponherheadtheenvyofherfellow-slaves,andtheytauntedherwithbeingthe’whitefolks’

  nigger。’Ontheotherhand,shereceivedthelargershareoftheconfidenceofhermaster,andmanysmallfavorsthatwerebythemunattainable。Iaskedherifhermaster,Dumont,everwhippedher?Sheanswered,’Ohyes,hesometimeswhippedmesoundly,thoughnevercruelly。AndthemostseverewhippingheevergivemewasbecauseIwascrueltoacat。’AtthistimeshelookeduponhermasterasaGod;andbelievedthatheknewofandcouldseeheratalltimes,evenasGodhimself。Andsheusedsometimestoconfessherdelinquencies,fromtheconvictionthathealreadyknewthem,andthatsheshouldfarebetterifsheconfessedvoluntarily:andifanyonetalkedtoheroftheinjusticeofherbeingaslave,sheansweredthemwithcontempt,andimmediatelytoldhermaster。Shethenfirmlybelievedthatslaverywasrightandhonorable。Yetshenowseesveryclearlythefalsepositiontheywereallin,bothmastersandslaves;andshelooksback,withutterastonishment,attheabsurdityoftheclaimssoarrogantlysetupbythemasters,overbeingsdesignedbyGodtobeasfreeaskings;andattheperfectstupidityoftheslave,inadmittingforonemomentthevalidityoftheseclaims。

  Inobediencetohermother’sinstructions,shehadeducatedherselftosuchasenseofhonesty,that,whenshehadbecomeamother,shewouldsometimeswhipherchildwhenitcriedtoherforbread,ratherthangiveitapiecesecretly,lestitshouldlearntotakewhatwasnotitsown!Andthewriterofthisknows,frompersonalobservation,thattheslaveholdersoftheSouthfeelittobeareligiousdutytoteachtheirslavestobehonest,andnevertotakewhatisnottheirown!Ohconsistency,artthounotajewel?YetIsabellagloriesinthefactthatshewasfaithfulandtruetohermaster;shesays,’ItmademetruetomyGod’-meaning,thatithelpedtoforminheracharacterthatlovedtruth,andhatedalie,andhadsavedherfromthebitterpainsandfearsthataresuretofollowinthewakeofinsincerityandhypocrisy。

  Assheadvancedinyears,anattachmentsprungupbetweenherselfandaslavenamedRobert。Buthismaster,anEnglishmanbythenameofCatlin,anxiousthatnoone’spropertybuthisownshouldbeenhancedbytheincreaseofhisslaves,forbadeRobert’svisitstoIsabella,andcommandedhimtotakeawifeamonghisfellow-servants。Notwithstandingthisinterdiction,Robert,followingthebentofhisinclinations,continuedhisvisitstoIsabel,thoughverystealthily,and,ashebelieved,withoutexcitingthesuspicionofhismaster;butoneSaturdayafternoon,hearingthatBellwasill,hetookthelibertytogoandseeher。Thefirstintimationshehadofhisvisitwastheappearanceofhermaster,inquiring’ifshehadseenBob。’Onheransweringinthenegative,hesaidtoher,’Ifyouseehim,tellhimtotakecareofhimself,fortheCatlinsareafterhim。’Almostatthatinstant,Bobmadehisappearance;andthefirstpeoplehemetwerehisoldandhisyoungmasters。Theywereterriblyenragedatfindinghimthere,andtheeldestbegancursing,andcallinguponhissonto’Knockdownthed-dblackrascal’;atthesametime,theybothfelluponhimliketigers,beatinghimwiththeheavyendsoftheircanes,bruisingandmanglinghisheadandfaceinthemostawfulmanner,andcausingtheblood,whichstreamedfromhiswounds,tocoverhimlikeaslaughteredbeast,constitutinghimamostshockingspectacle。Mr。Dumontinterposedatthispoint,tellingtheruffianstheycouldnolongerthusspillhumanbloodonhispremises-hewouldhave’noniggerskilledthere。’TheCatlinsthentookaropetheyhadtakenwiththemforthepurpose,andtiedBob’shandsbehindhiminsuchamanner,thatMr。Dumontinsistedonlooseningthecord,declaringthatnobruteshouldbetiedinthatmanner,wherehewas。Andastheyledhimaway,likethegreatestofcriminals,themorehumaneDumontfollowedthemtotheirhomes,asRobert’sprotector;andwhenhereturned,hekindlywenttoBell,ashecalledher,tellingherhedidnotthinktheywouldstrikehimanymore,astheirwrathhadgreatlycooledbeforeheleftthem。Isabellahadwitnessedthisscenefromherwindow,andwasgreatlyshockedatthemurderoustreatmentofpoorRobert,whomshetrulyloved,andwhoseonlycrime,intheeyeofhispersecutors,washisaffectionforher。Thisbeating,andweknownotwhataftertreatment,completelysubduedthespiritofitsvictim,forRobertventurednomoretovisitIsabella,butlikeanobedientandfaithfulchattel,tookhimselfawifefromthehouseofhismaster。RobertdidnotlivemanyyearsafterhislastvisittoIsabel,buttookhisdeparturetothatcountry,where’theyneithermarrynoraregiveninmarriage,’andwheretheoppressorcannotmolest。

  ISABELLA’SMARRIAGE。

  Subsequently,Isabellawasmarriedtoafellow-slave,namedThomas,whohadpreviouslyhadtwowives,oneofwhom,ifnotboth,hadbeentornfromhimandsoldfaraway。Anditismorethanprobable,thathewasnotonlyallowedbutencouragedtotakeanotherateachsuccessivesale。Isayitisprobable,becausethewriterofthisknowsfrompersonalobservation,thatsuchisthecustomamongslaveholdersatthepresentday;andthatinatwentymonths’residenceamongthem,weneverknewanyonetoopenthelipagainstthepractice;andwhenweseverelycensuredit,theslaveholderhadnothingtosay;andtheslavepleadedthat,underexistingcircumstances,hecoulddonobetter。

  Suchanabominablestateofthingsissilentlytolerated,tosaytheleast,byslaveholders-denyitwhomay。Andwhatisthatreligionthatsanctions,evenbyitssilence,allthatisembracedinthe’PeculiarInstitution?’IftherecanbeanythingmorediametricallyopposedtothereligionofJesus,thantheworkingofthissoul-killingsystem-whichisastrulysanctionedbythereligionofAmericaasareherministersandchurches-wewishtobeshownwhereitcanbefound。

  Wehavesaid,IsabellawasmarriedtoThomas-shewas,afterthefashionofslavery,oneoftheslavesperformingtheceremonyforthem;asnotrueministerofChristcanperform,asinthepresenceofGod,whatheknowstobeamerefarce,amockmarriage,unrecognisedbyanycivillaw,andliabletobeannulledanymoment,whentheinterestorcapriceofthemastershoulddictate。

  Withwhatfeelingsmustslaveholdersexpectustolistentotheirhorrorofamalgamationinprospect,whiletheyarewellawarethatweknowhowcalmlyandquietlytheycontemplatethepresentstateoflicentiousnesstheirownwickedlawshavecreated,notonlyasitregardstheslave,butasitregardsthemoreprivilegedportionofthepopulationoftheSouth?

  Slaveholdersappeartometotakethesamenoticeofthevicesoftheslave,asonedoesoftheviciousdispositionofhishorse。

  Theyareoftenaninconvenience;furtherthanthat,theycarenottotroublethemselvesaboutthematter。

  ISABELLAASAMOTHER。

  Inprocessoftime,Isabellafoundherselfthemotheroffivechildren,andsherejoicedinbeingpermittedtobetheinstrumentofincreasingthepropertyofheroppressors!Think,dearreader,withoutablush,ifyoucan,foronemoment,ofamotherthuswillingly,andwithpride,layingherownchildren,the’fleshofherflesh,’onthealtarofslavery-asacrificetothebloodyMoloch!Butwemustrememberthatbeingscapableofsuchsacrificesarenotmothers;theyareonly’things,’

  ’chattels,’’property。’

  Butsincethattime,thesubjectofthisnarrativehasmadesomeadvancesfromastateofchattelismtowardsthatofawomanandamother;andshenowlooksbackuponherthoughtsandfeelingsthere,inherstateofignoranceanddegradation,asonedoesonthedarkimageryofafitfuldream。Onemomentitseemsbutafrightfulillusion;againitappearsaterriblereality。IwouldtoGoditwerebutadreamymyth,andnot,asitnowstands,ahorridrealitytosomethreemillionsofchattelizedhumanbeings。

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