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  IamtogivelessonsinEnglishandLatintotheyoungerdaughter,too,butIshallhavealittletimetomyself,andIshallbeearningfiftydollarsamonth!Doesn’tthatimpressyouasaperfectlyexorbitantamount?Sheofferedit;Ishouldhaveblushedtoaskformorethantwenty-five。

  IfinishatMagnolia(that’swhereshelives)thefirstofSeptember,andshallprobablyspendtheremainingthreeweeksatLockWillow——

  IshouldliketoseetheSemplesagainandallthefriendlyanimals。

  Howdoesmyprogrammestrikeyou,Daddy?

  Iamgettingquiteindependent,yousee。

  YouhaveputmeonmyfeetandIthinkIcanalmostwalkalonebynow。

  Princetoncommencementandourexaminationsexactlycoincide——

  whichisanawfulblow。SallieandIdidsowanttogetawayintimeforit,butofcoursethatisutterlyimpossible。

  Goodbye,Daddy。Haveanicesummerandcomebackintheautumnrestedandreadyforanotheryearofwork。(That’swhatyououghttobewritingtome!)Ihaven’tanyideawhatyoudointhesummer,orhowyouamuseyourself。Ican’tvisualizeyoursurroundings。

  Doyouplaygolforhuntorridehorsebackorjustsitinthesunandmeditate?

  Anyway,whateveritis,haveagoodtimeanddon’tforgetJudy。

  10thJuneDearDaddy,ThisisthehardestletterIeverwrote,butIhavedecidedwhatImustdo,andthereisn’tgoingtobeanyturningback。

  ItisverysweetandgenerousanddearofyoutowishtosendmetoEuropethissummer——forthemomentIwasintoxicatedbytheidea;

  butsobersecondthoughtssaidno。Itwouldberatherillogicalofmetorefusetotakeyourmoneyforcollege,andthenuseitinsteadjustforamusement!Youmustn’tgetmeusedtotoomanyluxuries。

  Onedoesn’tmisswhatonehasneverhad;butit’sawfullyhardgoingwithoutthingsafteronehascommencedthinkingtheyarehis——

  hers(Englishlanguageneedsanotherpronoun)bynaturalright。

  LivingwithSallieandJuliaisanawfulstrainonmystoicalphilosophy。

  Theyhavebothhadthingsfromthetimetheywerebabies;

  theyaccepthappinessasamatterofcourse。TheWorld,theythink,owesthemeverythingtheywant。MaybetheWorlddoes——inanycase,itseemstoacknowledgethedebtandpayup。Butasforme,itowesmenothing,anddistinctlytoldmesointhebeginning。

  Ihavenorighttoborrowoncredit,fortherewillcomeatimewhentheWorldwillrepudiatemyclaim。

  Iseemtobeflounderinginaseaofmetaphor——butIhopeyougraspmymeaning?Anyway,Ihaveaverystrongfeelingthattheonlyhonestthingformetodoistoteachthissummerandbegintosupportmyself。

  MAGNOLIA,FourdayslaterI’dgotjustthatmuchwritten,when——whatdoyouthinkhappened?

  ThemaidarrivedwithMasterJervie’scard。Heisgoingabroadtoothissummer;notwithJuliaandherfamily,butentirelybyhimselfItoldhimthatyouhadinvitedmetogowithaladywhoischaperoningapartyofgirls。Heknowsaboutyou,Daddy。Thatis,heknowsthatmyfatherandmotheraredead,andthatakindgentlemanissendingmetocollege;Isimplydidn’thavethecouragetotellhimabouttheJohnGrierHomeandalltherest。Hethinksthatyouaremyguardianandaperfectlylegitimateoldfamilyfriend。

  IhavenevertoldhimthatIdidn’tknowyou——thatwouldseemtooqueer!

  Anyway,heinsistedonmygoingtoEurope。HesaidthatitwasanecessarypartofmyeducationandthatImustn’tthinkofrefusing。Also,thathewouldbeinParisatthesametime,andthatwewouldrunawayfromthechaperonoccasionallyandhavedinnertogetheratnice,funny,foreignrestaurants。

  Well,Daddy,itdidappealtome!Ialmostweakened;ifhehadn’tbeensodictatorial,maybeIshouldhaveentirelyweakened。

  Icanbeenticedstepbystep,butIWON’Tbeforced。HesaidI

  wasasilly,foolish,irrational,quixotic,idiotic,stubbornchild(thoseareafewofhisabusiveadjectives;therestescapeme),andthatIdidn’tknowwhatwasgoodforme;Ioughttoletolderpeoplejudge。Wealmostquarrelled——Iamnotsurebutthatweentirelydid!

  Inanycase,Ipackedmytrunkfastandcameuphere。IthoughtI’dbetterseemybridgesinflamesbehindmebeforeIfinishedwritingtoyou。Theyareentirelyreducedtoashesnow。

  HereIamatCliffTop(thenameofMrs。Paterson’scottage)withmytrunkunpackedandFlorence(thelittleone)alreadystrugglingwithfirstdeclensionnouns。Anditbidsfairtobeastruggle!

  Sheisamostuncommonlyspoiledchild;Ishallhavetoteachherfirsthowtostudy——shehasneverinherlifeconcentratedonanythingmoredifficultthanice-creamsodawater。

  Weuseaquietcornerofthecliffsforaschoolroom——Mrs。Patersonwishesmetokeepthemoutofdoors——andIwillsaythatIfinditdifficulttoconcentratewiththeblueseabeforemeandshipsa-sailingby!

  AndwhenIthinkImightbeonone,sailingofftoforeignlands——

  butIWON’TletmyselfthinkofanythingbutLatinGrammar。

  Theprepositionsaorab,absque,coram,cum,deeorex,prae,pro,sine,tenus,in,subter,subandsupergoverntheablative。

  Soyousee,Daddy,Iamalreadyplungedintoworkwithmyeyespersistentlysetagainsttemptation。Don’tbecrosswithme,please,anddon’tthinkthatIdonotappreciateyourkindness,forIdo——always——always。TheonlywayIcaneverrepayyouisbyturningoutaVeryUsefulCitizen(Arewomencitizens?

  Idon’tsupposetheyare。)Anyway,aVeryUsefulPerson。Andwhenyoulookatmeyoucansay,`IgavethatVeryUsefulPersontotheworld。’

  Thatsoundswell,doesn’tit,Daddy?ButIdon’twishtomisleadyou。

  ThefeelingoftencomesovermethatIamnotatallremarkable;

  itisfuntoplanacareer,butinallprobabilityIshan’tturnoutabitdifferentfromanyotherordinaryperson。Imayendbymarryinganundertakerandbeinganinspirationtohiminhiswork。

  Yoursever,Judy19thAugustDearDaddy-Long-Legs,Mywindowlooksoutontheloveliestlandscape——ocean-scape,rather——

  nothingbutwaterandrocks。

  Thesummergoes。IspendthemorningwithLatinandEnglishandalgebraandmytwostupidgirls。Idon’tknowhowMarionisevergoingtogetintocollege,orstayinaftershegetsthere。

  AndasforFlorence,sheishopeless——butoh!suchalittlebeauty。

  Idon’tsupposeitmattersintheleastwhethertheyarestupidornotsolongastheyarepretty?Onecan’thelpthinking,though,howtheirconversationwillboretheirhusbands,unlesstheyarefortunateenoughtoobtainstupidhusbands。Isupposethat’squitepossible;theworldseemstobefilledwithstupidmen;

  I’vemetanumberthissummer。

  Intheafternoonwetakeawalkonthecliffs,orswim,ifthetideisright。Icanswiminsaltwaterwiththeutmosteaseyouseemyeducationisalreadybeingputtouse!

  AlettercomesfromMr。JervisPendletoninParis,ratherashortconciseletter;I’mnotquiteforgivenyetforrefusingtofollowhisadvice。However,ifhegetsbackintime,hewillseemeforafewdaysatLockWillowbeforecollegeopens,andifI

  amveryniceandsweetanddocile,Ishall(Iamledtoinfer)

  bereceivedintofavouragain。

  AlsoaletterfromSallie。ShewantsmetocometotheircampfortwoweeksinSeptember。MustIaskyourpermission,orhaven’tIyetarrivedattheplacewhereIcandoasIplease?Yes,IamsureIhave——I’maSenior,youknow。Havingworkedallsummer,Ifeelliketakingalittlehealthfulrecreation;IwanttoseetheAdirondacks;IwanttoseeSallie;IwanttoseeSallie’sbrother——

  he’sgoingtoteachmetocanoe——and(wecometomychiefmotive,whichismean)IwantMasterJervietoarriveatLockWillowandfindmenotthere。

  IMUSTshowhimthathecan’tdictatetome。Noonecandictatetomebutyou,Daddy——andyoucan’talways!I’moffforthewoods。

  JudyCAMPMCBRIDE,6thSeptemberDearDaddy,Yourletterdidn’tcomeintime(Iampleasedtosay)。Ifyouwishyourinstructionstobeobeyed,youmusthaveyoursecretarytransmittheminlessthantwoweeks。Asyouobserve,Iamhere,andhavebeenforfivedays。

  Thewoodsarefine,andsoisthecamp,andsoistheweather,andsoaretheMcBrides,andsoisthewholeworld。I’mveryhappy!

  There’sJimmiecallingformetocomecanoeing。Goodbye——sorrytohavedisobeyed,butwhyareyousopersistentaboutnotwantingmetoplayalittle?WhenI’veworkedallthesummerIdeservetwoweeks。Youareawfullydog-in-the-mangerish。

  However——Iloveyoustill,Daddy,inspiteofallyourfaults。

  Judy3rdOctoberDearDaddy-Long-Legs,BackatcollegeandaSenior——alsoeditoroftheMonthly。

  Itdoesn’tseempossible,doesit,thatsosophisticatedaperson,justfouryearsago,wasaninmateoftheJohnGrierHome?

  WedoarrivefastinAmerica!

  Whatdoyouthinkofthis?AnotefromMasterJerviedirectedtoLockWillowandforwardedhere。He’ssorry,buthefindsthathecan’tgetuptherethisautumn;hehasacceptedaninvitationtogoyachtingwithsomefriends。HopesI’vehadanicesummerandamenjoyingthecountry。

  AndheknewallthetimethatIwaswiththeMcBrides,forJuliatoldhimso!Youmenoughttoleaveintriguetowomen;youhaven’talightenoughtouch。

  Juliahasatrunkfulofthemostravishingnewclothes——aneveninggownofrainbowLibertycrepethatwouldbefittingraimentfortheangelsinParadise。AndIthoughtthatmyownclothesthisyearwereunprecedentedly(istheresuchaword?)beautiful。IcopiedMrs。Paterson’swardrobewiththeaidofacheapdressmaker,andthoughthegownsdidn’tturnoutquitetwinsoftheoriginals,IwasentirelyhappyuntilJuliaunpacked。Butnow——IlivetoseeParis!

  DearDaddy,aren’tyougladyou’renotagirl?Isupposeyouthinkthatthefusswemakeoverclothesistooabsolutelysilly?Itis。

  Nodoubtaboutit。Butit’sentirelyyourfault。

  DidyoueverhearaboutthelearnedHerrProfessorwhoregardedunnecessaryadornmentwithcontemptandfavouredsensible,utilitarianclothesforwomen?Hiswife,whowasanobligingcreature,adopted`dressreform。’Andwhatdoyouthinkhedid?

  Heelopedwithachorusgirl。

  Yoursever,JudyPS。Thechamber-maidinourcorridorwearsbluecheckedginghamaprons。

  Iamgoingtogethersomebrownonesinstead,andsinktheblueonesinthebottomofthelake。IhaveareminiscentchilleverytimeIlookatthem。

  17thNovemberDearDaddy-Long-Legs,Suchablighthasfallenovermyliterarycareer。Idon’tknowwhethertotellyouornot,butIwouldlikesomesympathy——

  silentsympathy,please;don’tre-openthewoundbyreferringtoitinyournextletter。

  I’vebeenwritingabook,alllastwinterintheevenings,andallthesummerwhenIwasn’tteachingLatintomytwostupidchildren。

  Ijustfinisheditbeforecollegeopenedandsentittoapublisher。

  Hekeptittwomonths,andIwascertainhewasgoingtotakeit;

  butyesterdaymorninganexpressparcelcame(thirtycentsdue)

  andthereitwasbackagainwithaletterfromthepublisher,averynice,fatherlyletter——butfrank!HesaidhesawfromtheaddressthatI

  wasstillatcollege,andifIwouldacceptsomeadvice,hewouldsuggestthatIputallofmyenergyintomylessonsandwaituntilI

  graduatedbeforebeginningtowrite。Heenclosedhisreader’sopinion。

  Hereitis:

  `Plothighlyimprobable。Characterizationexaggerated。

  Conversationunnatural。Agooddealofhumourbutnotalwaysinthebestoftaste。Tellhertokeepontrying,andintimeshemayproducearealbook。’

  Notonthewholeflattering,isit,Daddy?AndIthoughtIwasmakinganotableadditiontoAmericanliterature。Ididtruly。

  IwasplanningtosurpriseyoubywritingagreatnovelbeforeIgraduated。IcollectedthematerialforitwhileIwasatJulia’slastChristmas。ButIdaresaytheeditorisright。

  Probablytwoweekswasnotenoughinwhichtoobservethemannersandcustomsofagreatcity。

  Itookitwalkingwithmeyesterdayafternoon,andwhenIcametothegashouse,IwentinandaskedtheengineerifImightborrowhisfurnace。Hepolitelyopenedthedoor,andwithmyownhandsIchuckeditin。IfeltasthoughIhadcrematedmyonlychild!

  Iwenttobedlastnightutterlydejected;IthoughtIwasnevergoingtoamounttoanything,andthatyouhadthrownawayyourmoneyfornothing。Butwhatdoyouthink?Iwokeupthismorningwithabeautifulnewplotinmyhead,andI’vebeengoingaboutalldayplanningmycharacters,justashappyasIcouldbe。

  Noonecaneveraccusemeofbeingapessimist!IfIhadahusbandandtwelvechildrenswallowedbyanearthquakeoneday,I’dbobupsmilinglythenextmorningandcommencetolookforanotherset。

  Affectionately,Judy14thDecemberDearDaddy-Long-Legs,Idreamedthefunniestdreamlastnight。IthoughtIwentintoabookstoreandtheclerkbroughtmeanewbooknamedTheLifeandLettersofJudyAbbott。Icouldseeitperfectlyplainly——

  redclothbindingwithapictureoftheJohnGrierHomeonthecover,andmyportraitforafrontispiecewith,`Verytrulyyours,JudyAbbott,’

  writtenbelow。ButjustasIwasturningtotheendtoreadtheinscriptiononmytombstone,Iwokeup。Itwasveryannoying!

  IalmostfoundoutwhomI’mgoingtomarryandwhenI’mgoingtodie。

  Don’tyouthinkitwouldbeinterestingifyoureallycouldreadthestoryofyourlife——writtenperfectlytruthfullybyanomniscientauthor?

  Andsupposeyoucouldonlyreaditonthiscondition:thatyouwouldneverforgetit,butwouldhavetogothroughlifeknowingaheadoftimeexactlyhoweverythingyoudidwouldturnout,andforeseeingtotheexacthourthetimewhenyouwoulddie。

  Howmanypeopledoyousupposewouldhavethecouragetoreaditthen?orhowmanycouldsuppresstheircuriositysufficientlytoescapefromreadingit,evenatthepriceofhavingtolivewithouthopeandwithoutsurprises?

  Lifeismonotonousenoughatbest;youhavetoeatandsleepaboutsooften。ButimaginehowDEADLYmonotonousitwouldbeifnothingunexpectedcouldhappenbetweenmeals。Mercy!Daddy,there’sablot,butI’monthethirdpageandIcan’tbeginanewsheet。

  I’mgoingonwithbiologyagainthisyear——veryinterestingsubject;

  we’restudyingthealimentarysystematpresent。Youshouldseehowsweetacross-sectionoftheduodenumofacatisunderthemicroscope。

  Alsowe’vearrivedatphilosophy——interestingbutevanescent。Ipreferbiologywhereyoucanpinthesubjectunderdiscussiontoaboard。

  There’sanother!Andanother!Thispenisweepingcopiously。

  Pleaseexcuseitstears。

  Doyoubelieveinfreewill?Ido——unreservedly。Idon’tagreeatallwiththephilosopherswhothinkthateveryactionistheabsolutelyinevitableandautomaticresultantofanaggregationofremotecauses。That’sthemostimmoraldoctrineIeverheard——

  nobodywouldbetoblameforanything。Ifamanbelievedinfatalism,hewouldnaturallyjustsitdownandsay,`TheLord’swillbedone,’

  andcontinuetosituntilhefelloverdead。

  Ibelieveabsolutelyinmyownfreewillandmyownpowertoaccomplish——

  andthatisthebeliefthatmovesmountains。Youwatchmebecomeagreatauthor!Ihavefourchaptersofmynewbookfinishedandfivemoredrafted。

  Thisisaveryabstruseletter——doesyourheadache,Daddy?

  Ithinkwe’llstopnowandmakesomefudge。I’msorryIcan’tsendyouapiece;itwillbeunusuallygood,forwe’regoingtomakeitwithrealcreamandthreebutterballs。

  Yoursaffectionately,JudyPS。We’rehavingfancydancingingymnasiumclass。Youcanseebytheaccompanyingpicturehowmuchwelooklikearealballet。

  Theoneattheendaccomplishingagracefulpirouetteisme——ImeanI。

  26thDecemberMyDear,Dear,Daddy,Haven’tyouanysense?Don’tyouKNOWthatyoumustn’tgiveonegirlseventeenChristmaspresents?I’maSocialist,pleaseremember;

  doyouwishtoturnmeintoaPlutocrat?

  Thinkhowembarrassingitwouldbeifweshouldeverquarrel!

  Ishouldhavetoengageamoving-vantoreturnyourgifts。

  IamsorrythatthenecktieIsentwassowobbly;Iknititwithmyownhands(asyoudoubtlessdiscoveredfrominternalevidence)。

  Youwillhavetowearitoncolddaysandkeepyourcoatbuttoneduptight。

  Thankyou,Daddy,athousandtimes。Ithinkyou’rethesweetestmanthateverlived——andthefoolishest!

  JudyHere’safour-leafcloverfromCampMcBridetobringyougoodluckfortheNewYear。

  9thJanuaryDoyouwishtodosomething,Daddy,thatwillensureyoureternalsalvation?Thereisafamilyherewhoareinawfullydesperatestraits。Amotherandfatherandfourvisiblechildren——

  thetwoolderboyshavedisappearedintotheworldtomaketheirfortuneandhavenotsentanyofitback。Thefatherworkedinaglassfactoryandgotconsumption——it’sawfullyunhealthywork——

  andnowhasbeensentawaytoahospital。Thattookalltheirsavings,andthesupportofthefamilyfallsupontheoldestdaughter,whoistwenty-four。Shedressmakesfor$1。50aday(whenshecangetit)andembroiderscentrepiecesintheevening。Themotherisn’tverystrongandisextremelyineffectualandpious。

  Shesitswithherhandsfolded,apictureofpatientresignation,whilethedaughterkillsherselfwithoverworkandresponsibilityandworry;shedoesn’tseehowtheyaregoingtogetthroughtherestofthewinter——andIdon’teither。Onehundreddollarswouldbuysomecoalandsomeshoesforthreechildrensothattheycouldgotoschool,andgivealittlemarginsothatsheneedn’tworryherselftodeathwhenafewdayspassandshedoesn’tgetwork。

  YouaretherichestmanIknow。Don’tyousupposeyoucouldspareonehundreddollars?ThatgirldeserveshelpalotmorethanI

  everdid。Iwouldn’taskitexceptforthegirl;Idon’tcaremuchwhathappenstothemother——sheissuchajelly-fish。

  Thewaypeopleareforeverrollingtheireyestoheavenandsaying,`Perhapsit’sallforthebest,’whentheyareperfectlydeadsureit’snot,makesmeenraged。Humilityorresignationorwhateveryouchoosetocallit,issimplyimpotentinertia。I’mforamoremilitantreligion!

  Wearegettingthemostdreadfullessonsinphilosophy——allofSchopenhauerfortomorrow。Theprofessordoesn’tseemtorealizethatwearetakinganyothersubject。He’saqueeroldduck;

  hegoesaboutwithhisheadinthecloudsandblinksdazedlywhenoccasionallyhestrikessolidearth。Hetriestolightenhislectureswithanoccasionalwitticism——andwedoourbesttosmile,butIassureyouhisjokesarenolaughingmatter。

  Hespendshisentiretimebetweenclassesintryingtofigureoutwhethermatterreallyexistsorwhetherheonlythinksitexists。

  I’msuremysewinggirlhasn’tanydoubtbutthatitexists!

  Wheredoyouthinkmynewnovelis?Inthewaste-basket。Icanseemyselfthatit’snogoodonearth,andwhenalovingauthorrealizesthat,whatWOULDbethejudgmentofacriticalpublic?

  LaterIaddressyou,Daddy,fromabedofpain。FortwodaysI’vebeenlaidupwithswollentonsils;Icanjustswallowhotmilk,andthatisall。`Whatwereyourparentsthinkingofnottohavethosetonsilsoutwhenyouwereababy?’thedoctorwishedtoknow。

  I’msureIhaven’tanidea,butIdoubtiftheywerethinkingmuchaboutme。

  Yours,J。A。

  NextmorningIjustreadthisoverbeforesealingit。Idon’tknowWHYIcastsuchamistyatmosphereoverlife。IhastentoassureyouthatI

  amyoungandhappyandexuberant;andItrustyouarethesame。

  Youthhasnothingtodowithbirthdays,onlywithALIVEDNESSofspirit,soevenifyourhairisgrey,Daddy,youcanstillbeaboy。

  Affectionately,Judy12thJan。

  DearMr。Philanthropist,Yourchequeformyfamilycameyesterday。Thankyousomuch!

  Icutgymnasiumandtookitdowntothemrightafterluncheon,andyoushouldhaveseenthegirl’sface!Shewassosurprisedandhappyandrelievedthatshelookedalmostyoung;andshe’sonlytwenty-four。Isn’titpitiful?

  Anyway,shefeelsnowasthoughallthegoodthingswerecomingtogether。

  Shehassteadyworkaheadfortwomonths——someone’sgettingmarried,andthere’satrousseautomake。

  `ThankthegoodLord!’criedthemother,whenshegraspedthefactthatthatsmallpieceofpaperwasonehundreddollars。

  `Itwasn’tthegoodLordatall,’saidI,`itwasDaddy-Long-Legs。’

  (Mr。Smith,Icalledyou。)

  `ButitwasthegoodLordwhoputitinhismind,’saidshe。

  `Notatall!Iputitinhismindmyself,’saidI。

  Butanyway,Daddy,ItrustthegoodLordwillrewardyousuitably。

  Youdeservetenthousandyearsoutofpurgatory。

  Yoursmostgratefully,JudyAbbott15thFeb。

  MayitpleaseYourMostExcellentMajesty:

  ThismorningIdideatmybreakfastuponacoldturkeypieandagoose,andIdidsendforacupoftee(achinadrink)

  ofwhichIhadneverdrankbefore。

  Don’tbenervous,Daddy——Ihaven’tlostmymind;I’mmerelyquotingSam’lPepys。We’rereadinghiminconnectionwithEnglishHistory,originalsources。SallieandJuliaandIconversenowinthelanguageof1660。Listentothis:

  `IwenttoCharingCrosstoseeMajorHarrisonhanged,drawnandquartered:helookingascheerfulasanymancoulddointhatcondition。’Andthis:`Dinedwithmyladywhoisinhandsomemourningforherbrotherwhodiedyesterdayofspottedfever。’

  Seemsalittleearlytocommenceentertaining,doesn’tit?AfriendofPepysdevisedaverycunningmannerwherebythekingmightpayhisdebtsoutofthesaletopoorpeopleofolddecayedprovisions。

  Whatdoyou,areformer,thinkofthat?Idon’tbelievewe’resobadtodayasthenewspapersmakeout。

  Samuelwasasexcitedabouthisclothesasanygirl;hespentfivetimesasmuchondressashiswife——thatappearstohavebeentheGoldenAgeofhusbands。Isn’tthisatouchingentry?

  Youseehereallywashonest。`TodaycamehomemyfineCamlettcloakwithgoldbuttons,whichcostmemuchmoney,andIprayGodtomakemeabletopayforit。’

  ExcusemeforbeingsofullofPepys;I’mwritingaspecialtopiconhim。

  Whatdoyouthink,Daddy?TheSelf-GovernmentAssociationhasabolishedtheteno’clockrule。Wecankeepourlightsallnightifwechoose,theonlyrequirementbeingthatwedonotdisturbothers——

  wearenotsupposedtoentertainonalargescale。Theresultisabeautifulcommentaryonhumannature。Nowthatwemaystayupaslongaswechoose,wenolongerchoose。Ourheadsbegintonodatnineo’clock,andbynine-thirtythependropsfromournervelessgrasp。

  It’snine-thirtynow。Goodnight。

  SundayJustbackfromchurch——preacherfromGeorgia。Wemusttakecare,hesays,nottodevelopourintellectsattheexpenseofouremotionalnatures——

  butmethoughtitwasapoor,drysermon(Pepysagain)。Itdoesn’tmatterwhatpartoftheUnitedStatesorCanadatheycomefrom,orwhatdenominationtheyare,wealwaysgetthesamesermon。

  Whyonearthdon’ttheygotomen’scollegesandurgethestudentsnottoallowtheirmanlynaturestobecrushedoutbytoomuchmentalapplication?

  It’sabeautifulday——frozenandicyandclear。Assoonasdinnerisover,SallieandJuliaandMartyKeeneandEleanorPratt(friendsofmine,butyoudon’tknowthem)andIaregoingtoputonshortskirtsandwalk’crosscountrytoCrystalSpringFarmandhaveafriedchickenandwafflesupper,andthenhaveMr。CrystalSpringdriveushomeinhisbuckboard。Wearesupposedtobeinsidethecampusatseven,butwearegoingtostretchapointtonightandmakeiteight。

  Farewell,kindSir。

  Ihavethehonourofsubscribingmyself,Yourmostloyall,dutifull,faithfullandobedientservant,J。AbbottMarchFifthDearMr。Trustee,TomorrowisthefirstWednesdayinthemonth——awearydayfortheJohnGrierHome。Howrelievedthey’llbewhenfiveo’clockcomesandyoupatthemontheheadandtakeyourselvesoff!Didyou(individually)everpatmeonthehead,Daddy?Idon’tbelieveso——

  mymemoryseemstobeconcernedonlywithfatTrustees。

  GivetheHomemylove,please——myTRULYlove。IhavequiteafeelingoftendernessforitasIlookbackthroughahazeoffouryears。

  WhenIfirstcametocollegeIfeltquiteresentfulbecauseI’dbeenrobbedofthenormalkindofchildhoodthattheothergirlshadhad;butnow,Idon’tfeelthatwayintheleast。Iregarditasaveryunusualadventure。Itgivesmeasortofvantagepointfromwhichtostandasideandlookatlife。Emergingfullgrown,Igetaperspectiveontheworld,thatotherpeoplewhohavebeenbroughtupinthethickofthingsentirelylack。

  Iknowlotsofgirls(Julia,forinstance)whoneverknowthattheyarehappy。Theyaresoaccustomedtothefeelingthattheirsensesaredeadenedtoit;butasforme——IamperfectlysureeverymomentofmylifethatIamhappy。AndI’mgoingtokeeponbeing,nomatterwhatunpleasantthingsturnup。I’mgoingtoregardthem(eventoothaches)asinterestingexperiences,andbegladtoknowwhattheyfeellike。`Whateversky’saboveme,I’veaheartforanyfate。’

  However,Daddy,don’ttakethisnewaffectionfortheJ。G。H。

  tooliterally。IfIhavefivechildren,likeRousseau,Ishan’tleavethemonthestepsofafoundlingasyluminordertoinsuretheirbeingbroughtupsimply。

  GivemykindestregardstoMrs。Lippett(that,Ithink,istruthful;

  lovewouldbealittlestrong)anddon’tforgettotellherwhatabeautifulnatureI’vedeveloped。

  Affectionately,JudyLOCKWILLOW,4thAprilDearDaddy,Doyouobservethepostmark?SallieandIareembellishingLockWillowwithourpresenceduringtheEasterVacation。

  Wedecidedthatthebestthingwecoulddowithourtendayswastocomewhereitisquiet。Ournerveshadgottothepointwheretheywouldn’tstandanothermealinFergussen。Dininginaroomwithfourhundredgirlsisanordealwhenyouaretired。

  Thereissomuchnoisethatyoucan’thearthegirlsacrossthetablespeakunlesstheymaketheirhandsintoamegaphoneandshout。

  Thatisthetruth。

  Wearetrampingoverthehillsandreadingandwriting,andhavinganice,restfultime。Weclimbedtothetopof`SkyHill’

  thismorningwhereMasterJervieandIoncecookedsupper——

  itdoesn’tseempossiblethatitwasnearlytwoyearsago。Icouldstillseetheplacewherethesmokeofourfireblackenedtherock。

  Itisfunnyhowcertainplacesgetconnectedwithcertainpeople,andyounevergobackwithoutthinkingofthem。Iwasquitelonelywithouthim——fortwominutes。

  Whatdoyouthinkismylatestactivity,Daddy?YouwillbegintobelievethatIamincorrigible——Iamwritingabook。Istarteditthreeweeksagoandameatingitupinchunks。I’vecaughtthesecret。

  MasterJervieandthateditormanwereright;youaremostconvincingwhenyouwriteaboutthethingsyouknow。AndthistimeitisaboutsomethingthatIdoknow——exhaustively。Guesswhereit’slaid?

  IntheJohnGrierHome!Andit’sgood,Daddy,Iactuallybelieveitis——justaboutthetinylittlethingsthathappenedeveryday。

  I’marealistnow。I’veabandonedromanticism;Ishallgobacktoitlaterthough,whenmyownadventurousfuturebegins。

  Thisnewbookisgoingtogetitselffinished——andpublished!

  Youseeifitdoesn’t。Ifyoujustwantathinghardenoughandkeepontrying,youdogetitintheend。I’vebeentryingforfouryearstogetaletterfromyou——andIhaven’tgivenuphopeyet。

  Goodbye,Daddydear,(IliketocallyouDaddydear;it’ssoalliterative。)

  Affectionately,JudyPS。Iforgottotellyouthefarmnews,butit’sverydistressing。

  Skipthispostscriptifyoudon’twantyoursensibilitiesallwroughtup。

  PooroldGroveisdead。Hegotsothathecouldn’tchewandtheyhadtoshoothim。

  Ninechickenswerekilledbyaweaseloraskunkoraratlastweek。

  Oneofthecowsissick,andwehadtohavetheveterinarysurgeonoutfromBonnyriggFourCorners。Amasaistayedupallnighttogiveherlinseedoilandwhisky。Butwehaveanawfulsuspicionthatthepoorsickcowgotnothingbutlinseedoil。

  SentimentalTommy(thetortoise-shellcat)hasdisappeared;

  weareafraidhehasbeencaughtinatrap。

  Therearelotsoftroublesintheworld!

  17thMayDearDaddy-Long-Legs,Thisisgoingtobeextremelyshortbecausemyshoulderachesatthesightofapen。Lecturenotesallday,immortalnovelallevening,maketoomuchwriting。

  CommencementthreeweeksfromnextWednesday。Ithinkyoumightcomeandmakemyacquaintance——Ishallhateyouifyoudon’t!Julia’sinvitingMasterJervie,hebeingherfamily,andSallie’sinvitingJimmieMcB。,hebeingherfamily,butwhoisthereformetoinvite?

  JustyouandLippett,andIdon’twanther。Pleasecome。

  Yours,withloveandwriter’scramp。

  JudyLOCKWILLOW,19thJuneDearDaddy-Long-Legs,I’meducated!Mydiplomaisinthebottombureaudrawerwithmytwobestdresses。Commencementwasasusual,withafewshowersatvitalmoments。Thankyouforyourrosebuds。Theywerelovely。

  MasterJervieandMasterJimmiebothgavemeroses,too,butIlefttheirsinthebathtubandcarriedyoursintheclassprocession。

  HereIamatLockWillowforthesummer——forevermaybe。Theboardischeap;thesurroundingsquietandconducivetoaliterarylife。

  Whatmoredoesastrugglingauthorwish?Iammadaboutmybook。

  Ithinkofiteverywakingmoment,anddreamofitatnight。AllI

  wantispeaceandquietandlotsoftimetowork(interspersedwithnourishingmeals)。

  MasterJervieiscomingupforaweekorsoinAugust,andJimmieMcBrideisgoingtodropinsometimethroughthesummer。

  He’sconnectedwithabondhousenow,andgoesaboutthecountrysellingbondstobanks。He’sgoingtocombinethe`Farmers’National’

  attheCornersandmeonthesametrip。

  YouseethatLockWillowisn’tentirelylackinginsociety。

  I’dbeexpectingtohaveyoucomemotoringthrough——onlyIknownowthatthatishopeless。Whenyouwouldn’tcometomycommencement,Itoreyoufrommyheartandburiedyouforever。

  JudyAbbott,A。B。

  24thJulyDearestDaddy-Long-Legs,Isn’titfuntowork——ordon’tyoueverdoit?It’sespeciallyfunwhenyourkindofworkisthethingyou’dratherdomorethananythingelseintheworld。I’vebeenwritingasfastasmypenwouldgoeverydaythissummer,andmyonlyquarrelwithlifeisthatthedaysaren’tlongenoughtowriteallthebeautifulandvaluableandentertainingthoughtsI’mthinking。

  I’vefinishedtheseconddraftofmybookandamgoingtobeginthethirdtomorrowmorningathalf-pastseven。It’sthesweetestbookyoueversaw——itis,truly。Ithinkofnothingelse。

  Icanbarelywaitinthemorningtodressandeatbeforebeginning;

  thenIwriteandwriteandwritetillsuddenlyI’msotiredthatI’mlimpallover。ThenIgooutwithColin(thenewsheepdog)andrompthroughthefieldsandgetafreshsupplyofideasforthenextday。

  It’sthemostbeautifulbookyoueversaw——Oh,pardon——Isaidthatbefore。

  Youdon’tthinkmeconceited,doyou,Daddydear?

  I’mnot,really,onlyjustnowI’mintheenthusiasticstage。

  MaybelateronI’llgetcoldandcriticalandsniffy。No,I’msureIwon’t!ThistimeI’vewrittenarealbook。Justwaittillyouseeit。

  I’lltryforaminutetotalkaboutsomethingelse。Inevertoldyou,didI,thatAmasaiandCarriegotmarriedlastMay?Theyarestillworkinghere,butsofarasIcanseeithasspoiledthemboth。

  Sheusedtolaughwhenhetrampedinmudordroppedashesonthefloor,butnow——youshouldhearherscold!Andshedoesn’tcurlherhairanylonger。Amasai,whousedtobesoobligingaboutbeatingrugsandcarryingwood,grumblesifyousuggestsuchathing。

  Alsohisnecktiesarequitedingy——blackandbrown,wheretheyusedtobescarletandpurple。I’vedeterminednevertomarry。

  It’sadeterioratingprocess,evidently。

  Thereisn’tmuchofanyfarmnews。Theanimalsareallinthebestofhealth。Thepigsareunusuallyfat,thecowsseemcontentedandthehensarelayingwell。Areyouinterestedinpoultry?

  Ifso,letmerecommendthatinvaluablelittlework,200EggsperHenperYear。Iamthinkingofstartinganincubatornextspringandraisingbroilers。YouseeI’msettledatLockWillowpermanently。

  IhavedecidedtostayuntilI’vewritten114novelslikeAnthonyTrollope’smother。ThenIshallhavecompletedmylifeworkandcanretireandtravel。

  Mr。JamesMcBridespentlastSundaywithus。Friedchickenandice-creamfordinner,bothofwhichheappearedtoappreciate。Iwasawfullygladtoseehim;hebroughtamomentaryreminderthattheworldatlargeexists。PoorJimmieishavingahardtimepeddlinghisbonds。

  The`Farmers’National’attheCornerswouldn’thaveanythingtodowiththeminspiteofthefactthattheypaysixpercent。

  interestandsometimesseven。Ithinkhe’llendupbygoinghometoWorcesterandtakingajobinhisfather’sfactory。He’stooopenandconfidingandkind-heartedevertomakeasuccessfulfinancier。

  Buttobethemanagerofaflourishingoverallfactoryisaverydesirableposition,don’tyouthink?Justnowheturnsuphisnoseatoveralls,buthe’llcometothem。

  Ihopeyouappreciatethefactthatthisisalongletterfromapersonwithwriter’scramp。ButIstillloveyou,Daddydear,andI’mveryhappy。Withbeautifulsceneryallabout,andlotstoeatandacomfortablefour-postbedandareamofblankpaperandapintofink——whatmoredoesonewantintheworld?

  Yoursasalways,JudyPS。Thepostmanarriveswithsomemorenews。WearetoexpectMasterJervieonFridaynexttospendaweek。That’saverypleasantprospect——onlyIamafraidmypoorbookwillsuffer。

  MasterJervieisverydemanding。

  27thAugustDearDaddy-Long-Legs,Whereareyou,Iwonder?

  Ineverknowwhatpartoftheworldyouarein,butIhopeyou’renotinNewYorkduringthisawfulweather。Ihopeyou’reonamountainpeak(butnotinSwitzerland;somewherenearer)lookingatthesnowandthinkingaboutme。Pleasebethinkingaboutme。

  I’mquitelonelyandIwanttobethoughtabout。Oh,Daddy,IwishIknewyou!Thenwhenwewereunhappywecouldcheereachotherup。

  Idon’tthinkIcanstandmuchmoreofLockWillow。I’mthinkingofmoving。SallieisgoingtodosettlementworkinBostonnextwinter。Don’tyouthinkitwouldbeniceformetogowithher,thenwecouldhaveastudiotogether?IwouldwritewhilesheSETTLEDandwecouldbetogetherintheevenings。Eveningsareverylongwhenthere’snoonebuttheSemplesandCarrieandAmasaitotalkto。Iknowinadvancethatyouwon’tlikemystudioidea。

  Icanreadyoursecretary’sletternow:

  `MissJerushaAbbott。

  `DEARMADAM,`Mr。SmithprefersthatyouremainatLockWillow。

  `Yourstruly,`ELMERH。GRIGGS。’

  Ihateyoursecretary。IamcertainthatamannamedElmerH。

  Griggsmustbehorrid。Buttruly,Daddy,IthinkIshallhavetogotoBoston。Ican’tstayhere。Ifsomethingdoesn’thappensoon,Ishallthrowmyselfintothesilopitoutofsheerdesperation。

  Mercy!butit’shot。Allthegrassisburntupandthebrooksaredryandtheroadsaredusty。Ithasn’trainedforweeksandweeks。

  ThislettersoundsasthoughIhadhydrophobia,butIhaven’t。I

  justwantsomefamily。

  Goodbye,mydearestDaddy。

  IwishIknewyou。

  JudyLOCKWILLOW,19thSeptemberDearDaddy,SomethinghashappenedandIneedadvice。Ineeditfromyou,andfromnobodyelseintheworld。Wouldn’titbepossibleformetoseeyou?It’ssomucheasiertotalkthantowrite;andI’mafraidyoursecretarymightopentheletter。

  JudyPS。I’mveryunhappy。

  LOCKWILLOW,3rdOctoberDearDaddy-Long-Legs,Yournotewritteninyourownhand——andaprettywobblyhand!——

  camethismorning。Iamsosorrythatyouhavebeenill;Iwouldn’thavebotheredyouwithmyaffairsifIhadknown。Yes,Iwilltellyouthetrouble,butit’ssortofcomplicatedtowrite,andVERYPRIVATE。

  Pleasedon’tkeepthisletter,butburnit。

  BeforeIbegin——here’sachequeforonethousanddollars。

  Itseemsfunny,doesn’tit,formetobesendingachequetoyou?

  WheredoyouthinkIgotit?

  I’vesoldmystory,Daddy。It’sgoingtobepublishedseriallyinsevenparts,andtheninabook!YoumightthinkI’dbewildwithjoy,butI’mnot。I’mentirelyapathetic。OfcourseI’mgladtobeginpayingyou——Ioweyouovertwothousandmore。It’scomingininstalments。Nowdon’tbehorrid,please,abouttakingit,becauseitmakesmehappytoreturnit。Ioweyouagreatdealmorethanthemeremoney,andtherestIwillcontinuetopayallmylifeingratitudeandaffection。

  Andnow,Daddy,abouttheotherthing;pleasegivemeyourmostworldlyadvice,whetheryouthinkI’lllikeitornot。

  YouknowthatI’vealwayshadaveryspecialfeelingtowardsyou;

  yousortofrepresentedmywholefamily;butyouwon’tmind,willyou,ifItellyouthatIhaveaverymuchmorespecialfeelingforanotherman?Youcanprobablyguesswithoutmuchtroublewhoheis。

  IsuspectthatmylettershavebeenveryfullofMasterJervieforaverylongtime。

  IwishIcouldmakeyouunderstandwhatheislikeandhowentirelycompanionableweare。Wethinkthesameabouteverything——

  IamafraidIhaveatendencytomakeovermyideastomatchhis!

  Butheisalmostalwaysright;heoughttobe,youknow,forhehasfourteenyears’startofme。Inotherways,though,he’sjustanovergrownboy,andhedoesneedlookingafter——

  hehasn’tanysenseaboutwearingrubberswhenitrains。HeandI

  alwaysthinkthesamethingsarefunny,andthatissuchalot;

  it’sdreadfulwhentwopeople’ssensesofhumourareantagonistic。

  Idon’tbelievethere’sanybridgingthatgulf!

  Andheis——Oh,well!Heisjusthimself,andImisshim,andmisshim,andmisshim。Thewholeworldseemsemptyandaching。Ihatethemoonlightbecauseit’sbeautifulandheisn’theretoseeitwithme。

  Butmaybeyou’velovedsomebody,too,andyouknow?Ifyouhave,Idon’tneedtoexplain;ifyouhaven’t,Ican’texplain。

  Anyway,that’sthewayIfeel——andI’verefusedtomarryhim。

  Ididn’ttellhimwhy;Iwasjustdumbandmiserable。Icouldn’tthinkofanythingtosay。AndnowhehasgoneawayimaginingthatIwanttomarryJimmieMcBride——Idon’tintheleast,Iwouldn’tthinkofmarryingJimmie;heisn’tgrownupenough。

  ButMasterJervieandIgotintoadreadfulmuddleofmisunderstandingandwebothhurteachother’sfeelings。ThereasonIsenthimawaywasnotbecauseIdidn’tcareforhim,butbecauseIcaredforhimsomuch。Iwasafraidhewouldregretitinthefuture——

  andIcouldn’tstandthat!Itdidn’tseemrightforapersonofmylackofantecedentstomarryintoanysuchfamilyashis。

  Inevertoldhimabouttheorphanasylum,andIhatedtoexplainthatIdidn’tknowwhoIwas。ImaybeDREADFUL,youknow。

  Andhisfamilyareproud——andI’mproud,too!

  Also,Ifeltsortofboundtoyou。Afterhavingbeeneducatedtobeawriter,Imustatleasttrytobeone;itwouldscarcelybefairtoacceptyoureducationandthengooffandnotuseit。

  ButnowthatIamgoingtobeabletopaybackthemoney,IfeelthatIhavepartiallydischargedthatdebt——besides,IsupposeIcouldkeeponbeingawriterevenifIdidmarry。Thetwoprofessionsarenotnecessarilyexclusive。

  I’vebeenthinkingveryhardaboutit。OfcourseheisaSocialist,andhehasunconventionalideas;maybehewouldn’tmindmarryingintotheproletariatsomuchassomemenmight。Perhapswhentwopeopleareexactlyinaccord,andalwayshappywhentogetherandlonelywhenapart,theyoughtnottoletanythingintheworldstandbetweenthem。

  OfcourseIWANTtobelievethat!ButI’dliketogetyourunemotionalopinion。YouprobablybelongtoaFamilyalso,andwilllookatitfromaworldlypointofviewandnotjustasympathetic,humanpointofview——soyouseehowbraveIamtolayitbeforeyou。

  SupposeIgotohimandexplainthatthetroubleisn’tJimmie,butistheJohnGrierHome——wouldthatbeadreadfulthingformetodo?Itwouldtakeagreatdealofcourage。I’dalmostratherbemiserablefortherestofmylife。

  Thishappenednearlytwomonthsago;Ihaven’theardawordfromhimsincehewashere。Iwasjustgettingsortofacclimatedtothefeelingofabrokenheart,whenalettercamefromJuliathatstirredmeallupagain。Shesaid——verycasually——that`UncleJervis’

  hadbeencaughtoutallnightinastormwhenhewashuntinginCanada,andhadbeenilleversincewithpneumonia。AndIneverknewit。

  Iwasfeelinghurtbecausehehadjustdisappearedintoblanknesswithoutaword。Ithinkhe’sprettyunhappy,andIknowIam!

  Whatseemstoyoutherightthingformetodo?

  Judy6thOctoberDearestDaddy-Long-Legs,Yes,certainlyI’llcome——athalf-pastfournextWednesdayafternoon。

  OfCOURSEIcanfindtheway。I’vebeeninNewYorkthreetimesandamnotquiteababy。Ican’tbelievethatIamreallygoingtoseeyou——

  I’vebeenjustTHINKINGyousolongthatithardlyseemsasthoughyouareatangibleflesh-and-bloodperson。

  Youareawfullygood,Daddy,tobotheryourselfwithme,whenyou’renotstrong。Takecareanddon’tcatchcold。Thesefallrainsareverydamp。

  Affectionately,JudyPS。I’vejusthadanawfulthought。Haveyouabutler?I’mafraidofbutlers,andifoneopensthedoorIshallfaintuponthestep。

  WhatcanIsaytohim?Youdidn’ttellmeyourname。ShallIaskforMr。Smith?

  ThursdayMorningMyVeryDearestMaster-Jervie-Daddy-Long-LegsPendleton-Smith,Didyousleeplastnight?Ididn’t。Notasinglewink。Iwastooamazedandexcitedandbewilderedandhappy。Idon’tbelieveIevershallsleepagain——oreateither。ButIhopeyouslept;

  youmust,youknow,becausethenyouwillgetwellfasterandcancometome。

  DearMan,Ican’tbeartothinkhowillyou’vebeen——andallthetimeIneverknewit。Whenthedoctorcamedownyesterdaytoputmeinthecab,hetoldmethatforthreedaystheygaveyouup。

  Oh,dearest,ifthathadhappened,thelightwouldhavegoneoutoftheworldforme。Isupposethatsomedayinthefarfuture——

  oneofusmustleavetheother;butatleastweshallhavehadourhappinessandtherewillbememoriestolivewith。

  Imeanttocheeryouup——andinsteadIhavetocheermyself。

  ForinspiteofbeinghappierthanIeverdreamedIcouldbe,I’malsosoberer。Thefearthatsomethingmayhappenrestslikeashadowonmyheart。AlwaysbeforeIcouldbefrivolousandcare-freeandunconcerned,becauseIhadnothingprecioustolose。

  Butnow——IshallhaveaGreatBigWorryalltherestofmylife。

  WheneveryouareawayfrommeIshallbethinkingofalltheautomobilesthatcanrunoveryou,orthesign-boardsthatcanfallonyourhead,orthedreadful,squirmygermsthatyoumaybeswallowing。Mypeaceofmindisgoneforever——butanyway,Inevercaredmuchforjustplainpeace。

  Pleasegetwell——fast——fast——fast。IwanttohaveyouclosebywhereIcantouchyouandmakesureyouaretangible。Suchalittlehalfhourwehadtogether!I’mafraidmaybeIdreamedit。

  IfIwereonlyamemberofyourfamily(averydistantfourthcousin)

  thenIcouldcomeandvisityoueveryday,andreadaloudandplumpupyourpillowandsmoothoutthosetwolittlewrinklesinyourforeheadandmakethecornersofyourmouthturnupinanicecheerfulsmile。

  Butyouarecheerfulagain,aren’tyou?YouwereyesterdaybeforeIleft。ThedoctorsaidImustbeagoodnurse,thatyoulookedtenyearsyounger。Ihopethatbeinginlovedoesn’tmakeeveryonetenyearsyounger。Willyoustillcareforme,darling,ifI

  turnouttobeonlyeleven?

  Yesterdaywasthemostwonderfuldaythatcouldeverhappen。

  IfIlivetobeninety-nineIshallneverforgetthetiniestdetail。

  ThegirlthatleftLockWillowatdawnwasaverydifferentpersonfromtheonewhocamebackatnight。Mrs。Semplecalledmeathalf-pastfour。

  Istartedwideawakeinthedarknessandthefirstthoughtthatpoppedintomyheadwas,`IamgoingtoseeDaddy-Long-Legs!’Iatebreakfastinthekitchenbycandle-light,andthendrovethefivemilestothestationthroughthemostgloriousOctobercolouring。

  Thesuncameupontheway,andtheswampmaplesanddogwoodglowedcrimsonandorangeandthestonewallsandcornfieldssparkledwithhoarfrost;theairwaskeenandclearandfullofpromise。

  Iknewsomethingwasgoingtohappen。Allthewayinthetraintherailskeptsinging,`You’regoingtoseeDaddy-Long-Legs。’

  Itmademefeelsecure。IhadsuchfaithinDaddy’sabilitytosetthingsright。AndIknewthatsomewhereanotherman——dearerthanDaddy——

  waswantingtoseeme,andsomehowIhadafeelingthatbeforethejourneyendedIshouldmeethim,too。Andyousee!

  WhenIcametothehouseonMadisonAvenueitlookedsobigandbrownandforbiddingthatIdidn’tdaregoin,soIwalkedaroundtheblocktogetupmycourage。ButIneedn’thavebeenabitafraid;

  yourbutlerissuchanice,fatherlyoldmanthathemademefeelathomeatonce。`IsthisMissAbbott?’hesaidtome,andIsaid,`Yes,’soIdidn’thavetoaskforMr。Smithafterall。

  Hetoldmetowaitinthedrawing-room。Itwasaverysombre,magnificent,man’ssortofroom。Isatdownontheedgeofabigupholsteredchairandkeptsayingtomyself:

  `I’mgoingtoseeDaddy-Long-Legs!I’mgoingtoseeDaddy-Long-Legs!’

  Thenpresentlythemancamebackandaskedmepleasetostepuptothelibrary。Iwassoexcitedthatreallyandtrulymyfeetwouldhardlytakemeup。Outsidethedoorheturnedandwhispered,`He’sbeenveryill,Miss。Thisisthefirstdayhe’sbeenallowedtositup。You’llnotstaylongenoughtoexcitehim?’

  Iknewfromthewayhesaiditthathelovedyou——anIthinkhe’sanolddear!

  Thenheknockedandsaid,`MissAbbott,’andIwentinandthedoorclosedbehindme。

  ItwassodimcominginfromthebrightlylightedhallthatforamomentIcouldscarcelymakeoutanything;thenIsawabigeasychairbeforethefireandashiningteatablewithasmallerchairbesideit。AndIrealizedthatamanwassittinginthebigchairproppedupbypillowswitharugoverhisknees。BeforeIcouldstophimherose——rathershakily——andsteadiedhimselfbythebackofthechairandjustlookedatmewithoutaword。Andthen——

  andthen——Isawitwasyou!ButevenwiththatIdidn’tunderstand。

  IthoughtDaddyhadhadyoucometheretomeetmeorasurprise。

  Thenyoulaughedandheldoutyourhandandsaid,`DearlittleJudy,couldn’tyouguessthatIwasDaddy-Long-Legs?’

  Inaninstantitflashedoverme。Oh,butIhavebeenstupid!

  Ahundredlittlethingsmighthavetoldme,ifIhadhadanywits。

  Iwouldn’tmakeaverygooddetective,wouldI,Daddy?Jervie?

  WhatmustIcallyou?JustplainJerviesoundsdisrespectful,andI

  can’tbedisrespectfultoyou!

  Itwasaverysweethalfhourbeforeyourdoctorcameandsentmeaway。

  IwassodazedwhenIgottothestationthatIalmosttookatrainforStLouis。Andyouwereprettydazed,too。Youforgottogivemeanytea。Butwe’rebothvery,veryhappy,aren’twe?IdrovebacktoLockWillowinthedarkbutoh,howthestarswereshining!

  AndthismorningI’vebeenoutwithColinvisitingalltheplacesthatyouandIwenttotogether,andrememberingwhatyousaidandhowyoulooked。Thewoodstodayareburnishedbronzeandtheairisfulloffrost。It’sCLIMBINGweather。Iwishyouwereheretoclimbthehillswithme。Iammissingyoudreadfully,Jerviedear,butit’sahappykindofmissing;we’llbetogethersoon。Webelongtoeachothernowreallyandtruly,nomake-believe。Doesn’titseemqueerformetobelongtosomeoneatlast?Itseemsvery,verysweet。

  AndIshallneverletyoubesorryforasingleinstant。

  Yours,foreverandever,JudyPS。Thisisthefirstlove-letterIeverwrote。Isn’titfunnythatIknowhow?

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