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  \"OnthemorningoftheninthdayIsawalittlepaperundermydoorasI

  gotup.Iseizedit,openeditandread:’YouhavedesertedmeandyouknowwhatIsaid.Itisdeathtowhichyouhavecondemnedme.AsIdonotwishtobefoundbyanotherthanyou,cometotheparkjustwhereI

  toldyoulastyearthatIlovedyouandlookintheair.’

  \"IthoughtthatIshouldgomad.IdressedasquicklyasIcouldandranwildlytotheplacethathehadmentioned.Hislittlecapwasonthegroundinthemud.Ithadbeenrainingallnight.Iraisedmyeyesandsawsomethingswingingamongtheleaves,forthewindwasblowingagale.

  \"Idon’tknowwhatIdidafterthat.Imusthavescreamedatfirst,thenfaintedandfallen,andfinallyhaveruntothechateau.ThenextthingthatIrememberIwasinbed,withmymothersittingbesideme.

  \"IthoughtthatIhaddreamedallthisinafrightfulnightmare.

  Istammered:’Andwhatofhim,whatofhim,Gontran?’Therewasnoanswer.Itwastrue!

  \"Ididnotdareseehimagain,butIaskedforalockofhisblondhair.

  Here——hereitis!\"

  Andtheoldmaidstretchedouthertremblinghandinadespairinggesture.Thensheblewhernoseseveraltimes,wipedhereyesandcontinued:

  \"Ibrokeoffmymarriage——withoutsayingwhy.AndI——Ialwayshaveremainedthe——thewidowofthisthirteen—year—oldboy.\"Thenherheadfellonherbreastandsheweptforalongtime.

  Astheguestswereretiringforthenightalargeman,whosequietshehaddisturbed,whisperedinhisneighbor’sear:\"Isn’titunfortunateto,besosentimental?\"

  THEENGLISHMANOFETRETAT

  AgreatEnglishpoethasjustcrossedovertoFranceinordertogreetVictorHugo.Allthenewspapersarefullofhisnameandheisthegreattopicofconversationinalldrawing—rooms.FifteenyearsagoIhadoccasionseveraltimestomeetAlgernonCharlesSwinburne.IwillattempttoshowhimjustasIsawhimandtogiveanideaofthestrangeimpressionhemadeonme,whichwillremainwithmethroughouttime.

  Ibelieveitwasin1867orin1868thatanunknownyoungEnglishmancametoEtretatandboughtalittlebuthiddenundergreattrees.Itwassaidthathelivedthere,alwaysalone,inastrangemanner;andhearousedtheinimicalsurpriseofthenatives,fortheinhabitantsweresullenandfoolishlymalicious,astheyalwaysareinlittletowns.

  TheydeclaredthatthiswhimsicalEnglishmanatenothingbutboiled.

  roastedorstewedmonkey;thathewouldseenoone;thathetalkedtohimselfhoursatatimeandmanyothersurprisingthingsthatmadepeoplethinkthathewasdifferentfromothermen.Theyweresurprisedthatheshouldlivealonewithamonkey.Haditbeenacatoradogtheywouldhavesaidnothing.Butamonkey!Wasthatnotfrightful?Whatsavagetastesthemanmusthave!

  Iknewthisyoungmanonlyfromseeinghiminthestreets.Hewasshort,plump,withoutbeingfat,mild—looking,andheworealittleblondmustache,whichwasalmostinvisible.

  Chancebroughtustogether.Thissavagehadamiableandpleasingmanners,buthewasoneofthosestrangeEnglishmenthatonemeetshereandtherethroughouttheworld.

  Endowedwithremarkableintelligence,heseemedtoliveinafantasticdream,asEdgarPoemusthavelived.HehadtranslatedintoEnglishavolumeofstrangeIcelandiclegends,whichIardentlydesiredtoseetranslatedintoFrench.Helovedthesupernatural,thedismalandgrewsome,buthespokeofthemostmarvellousthingswithacalmnessthatwastypicallyEnglish,towhichhisgentleandquietvoicegaveasemblanceofrealitythatwasmaddening.

  Fullofahaughtydisdainfortheworld,withitsconventions,prejudicesandcodeofmorality,hehadnailedtohishouseanamethatwasboldlyimpudent.Thekeeperofalonelyinnwhoshouldwriteonhisdoor:

  \"Travellersmurderedhere!\"couldnotmakeamoresinisterjest.Ineverhadenteredhisdwelling,whenonedayIreceivedaninvitationtoluncheon,followinganaccidentthathadoccurredtooneofhisfriends,whohadbeenalmostdrownedandwhomIhadattemptedtorescue.

  AlthoughIwasunabletoreachthemanuntilhehadalreadybeenrescued,IreceivedtheheartythanksofthetwoEnglishmen,andthefollowingdayIcalleduponthem.

  Thefriendwasamanaboutthirtyyearsold.Heboreanenormousheadonachild’sbody——abodywithoutchestorshoulders.Animmenseforehead,whichseemedtohaveengulfedtherestoftheman,expandedlikeadomeaboveathinfacewhichendedinalittlepointedbeard.Twosharpeyesandapeculiarmouthgaveonetheimpressionoftheheadofareptile,whilethemagnificentbrowsuggestedagenius.

  Anervoustwitchingshookthispeculiarbeing,whowalked,moved,actedbyjerkslikeabrokenspring.

  ThiswasAlgernonCharlesSwinburne,sonofanEnglishadmiralandgrandson,onthematernalside,oftheEarlofAshburnham.

  Hestrangecountenancewastransfiguredwhenhespoke.Ihaveseldomseenamanmoreimpressive,moreeloquent,incisiveorcharminginconversation.Hisrapid,clear,piercingandfantasticimaginationseemedtocreepintohisvoiceandtolendlifetohiswords.Hisbrusquegesturesenlivenedhisspeech,whichpenetratedonelikeadagger,andhehadburstsofthought,justaslighthousesthrowoutflashesoffire,great,geniallightsthatseemedtoilluminateawholeworldofideas.

  Thehomeofthetwofriendswasprettyandbynomeanscommonplace.

  Everywherewerepaintings,somesuperb,somestrange,representingdifferentconceptionsofinsanity.UnlessIammistaken,therewasawater—colorwhichrepresentedtheheadofadeadmanfloatinginarose—

  coloredshellonaboundlessocean,underamoonwithahumanface.

  HereandthereIcameacrossbones.Iclearlyrememberaflayedhandonwhichwashangingsomedriedskinandblackmuscles,andonthesnow—

  whitebonescouldbeseenthetracesofdriedblood.

  ThefoodwasariddlewhichIcouldnotsolve.Wasitgood?Wasitbad?

  Icouldnotsay.Someroastmonkeytookawayalldesiretomakeasteadydietofthisanimal,andthegreatmonkeywhoroamedaboutamongusatlargeandplayfullypushedhisheadintomyglasswhenIwishedtodrinkcuredmeofanydesireImighthavetotakeoneofhisbrothersasacompanionfortherestofmydays.

  Asforthetwomen,theygavemetheimpressionoftwostrange,original,remarkableminds,belongingtothatpeculiarraceoftalentedmadmenfromamongwhomhavearisenPoe,Hoffmannandmanyothers.

  Ifgeniusis,asiscommonlybelieved,asortofaberrationofgreatminds,thenAlgernonCharlesSwinburneisundoubtedlyagenius.

  Greatmindsthatarehealthyareneverconsideredgeniuses,whilethissublimequalificationislavishedonbrainsthatareofteninferiorbutareslightlytouchedbymadness.

  Atanyrate,thispoetremainsoneofthefirstofhistime,throughhisoriginalityandpolishedform.Heisanexaltedlyricalsingerwhoseldombothersaboutthegoodandhumbletruth,whichFrenchpoetsarenowseekingsopersistentlyandpatiently.Hestrivestosetdowndreams,subtlethoughts,sometimesgreat,sometimesvisiblyforced,butsometimesmagnificent.

  TwoyearslaterIfoundthehouseclosedanditstenantsgone.Thefurniturewasbeingsold.InmemoryofthemIboughtthehideousflayedhand.Onthegrassanenormoussquareblockofgraniteborethissimpleword:\"Nip.\"Abovethisahollowstoneofferedwatertothebirds.Itwasthegraveofthemonkey,whohadbeenhangedbyayoung,vindictivenegroservant.Itwassaidthatthisviolentdomestichadbeenforcedtofleeatthepointofhisexasperatedmaster’srevolver.Afterwanderingaboutwithouthomeorfoodforseveraldays,hereturnedandbegantopeddlebarley—sugarinthestreets.Hewasexpelledfromthecountryafterhehadalmoststrangledadispleasedcustomer.

  Theworldwouldbegayerifonecouldoftenmeethomeslikethat.

  Thisstoryappearedinthe\"Gaulois,\"November29,1882.ItwastheoriginalsketchfortheintroductorystudyofSwinburne,writtenbyMaupassantfortheFrenchtranslationbyGabrielMoureyof\"PoemsandBallads.\"

  MAGNETISM

  Itwasamen’sdinnerparty,andtheyweresittingovertheircigarsandbrandyanddiscussingmagnetism.Donato’stricksandCharcot’sexperiments.Presently,thesceptical,easy—goingmen,whocarednothingforreligionofanysort,begantellingstoriesofstrangeoccurrences,incrediblethingswhich,nevertheless,hadreallyoccurred,sotheysaid,fallingbackintosuperstitiousbeliefs,clingingtotheselastremnantsofthemarvellous,becomingdevoteesofthismysteryofmagnetism,defendingitinthenameofscience.Therewasonlyonepersonwhosmiled,avigorousyoungfellow,agreatladies’manwhowassoincredulousthathewouldnotevenenteruponadiscussionofsuchmatters.

  Herepeatedwithasneer:

  \"Humbug!humbug!humbug!WeneednotdiscussDonato,whoismerelyaverysmartjuggler.AsforM.Charcot,whoissaidtobearemarkablemanofscience,heproducesonmetheeffectofthosestory—tellersoftheschoolofEdgarPoe,whoendbygoingmadthroughconstantlyreflectingonqueercasesofinsanity.Hehasauthenticatedsomecasesofunexplainedandinexplicablenervousphenomena;hemakeshiswayintothatunknownregionwhichmenareexploringeveryday,andunablealwaystounderstandwhathesees,herecalls,perhaps,theecclesiasticalinterpretationofthesemysteries.Ishouldliketohearwhathesayshimself.\"

  Thewordsoftheunbelieverwerelistenedtowithakindofpity,asifhehadblasphemedinanassemblyofmonks.

  Oneofthesegentlemenexclaimed:

  \"Andyetmiracleswereperformedinoldentimes.\"

  \"Idenyit,\"repliedtheother:\"Whycannottheybeperformednow?\"

  Then,eachmentionedsomefact,somefantasticpresentimentsomeinstanceofsoulscommunicatingwitheachotheracrossspace,orsomecaseofthesecretinfluenceofonebeingoveranother.Theyassertedandmaintainedthatthesethingshadactuallyoccurred,whilethescepticangrilyrepeated:

  \"Humbug!humbug!humbug!\"

  Atlastherose,threwawayhiscigar,andwithhishandsinhispockets,said:\"Well,Ialsohavetwostoriestotellyou,whichIwillafterwardsexplain.Heretheyare:

  \"InthelittlevillageofEtretat,themen,whoareallseafaringfolk,goeveryyeartoNewfoundlandtofishforcod.Onenightthelittlesonofoneofthesefishermenwokeupwithastart,cryingoutthathisfatherwasdead.Thechildwasquieted,andagainhewokeupexclaimingthathisfatherwasdrowned.Amonthlaterthenewscamethathisfatherhad,infact,beensweptoffthedeckofhissmackbyabillow.Thewidowthenrememberedhowhersonhadwokeupandspokenofhisfather’sdeath.Everyonesaiditwasamiracle,andtheaffaircausedagreatsensation.Thedateswerecompared,anditwasfoundthattheaccidentandthedreamwerealmostcoincident,whencetheyconcludedthattheyhadhappenedonthesamenightandatthesamehour.Andthereisamysteryofmagnetism.\"

  Thestory—tellerstoppedsuddenly.

  Thereupon,oneofthosewhohadheardhim,muchaffectedbythenarrative,asked:

  \"Andcanyouexplainthis?\"

  \"Perfectly,monsieur.Ihavediscoveredthesecret.Thecircumstancesurprisedmeandevenperplexedmeverymuch;butyousee,Idonotbelieveonprinciple.Justasothersbeginbybelieving,Ibeginbydoubting;andwhenIcannotunderstand,Icontinuetodenythattherecanbeanytelepathiccommunicationbetweensouls;certainthatmyownintelligencewillbeabletoexplainit.Well,Ikeptoninquiringintothematter,andbydintofquestioningallthewivesoftheabsentseamen,Iwasconvincedthatnotaweekpassedwithoutoneofthem,oroneoftheirchildrendreaminganddeclaringwhentheywokeupthatthefatherwasdrowned.Thehorribleandcontinualfearofthisaccidentmakesthemalwaystalkaboutit.Now,ifoneofthesefrequentpredictionscoincides,byaverysimplechance,withthedeathofthepersonreferredto,peopleatoncedeclareittobeamiracle;fortheysuddenlylosesightofalltheotherpredictionsofmisfortunethathaveremainedunfulfilled.Ihavemyselfknownfiftycaseswherethepersonswhomadethepredictionforgotallaboutitaweekafterwards.But,if,thenonehappenstodie,thentherecollectionofthethingisimmediatelyrevived,andpeoplearereadytobelieveintheinterventionofGod,accordingtosome,andmagnetism,accordingtoothers.\"

  Oneofthesmokersremarked:

  \"Whatyousayisrightenough;butwhataboutyoursecondstory?\"

  \"Oh!mysecondstoryisaverydelicatemattertorelate.Ithappenedtomyself,andsoIdon’tplaceanygreatvalueonmyownviewofthematter.Aninterestedpartycannevergiveanimpartialopinion.

  However,hereitis:

  \"AmongmyacquaintanceswasayoungwomanonwhomIhadneverbestowedathought,whomIhadneverevenlookedatattentively,nevertakenanynoticeof.

  \"Iclassedheramongthewomenofnoimportance,thoughshewasnotbad—

  looking;sheappeared,infact,topossesseyes,anose,amouth,somesortofhair——justacolorlesstypeofcountenance.Shewasoneofthosebeingswhoawakenonlyachance,passingthought,butnospecialinterest,nodesire.

  \"Well,onenight,asIwaswritingsomelettersbymyfiresidebeforegoingtobed,Iwasconscious,inthemidstofthattrainofsensuousvisionsthatsometimespassthroughone’sbraininmomentsofidlereverie,ofakindofslightinfluence,passingoverme,alittleflutteroftheheart,andimmediately,withoutanycause,withoutanylogicalconnectionofthought,Isawdistinctly,asifIweretouchingher,sawfromheadtofoot,anddisrobed,thisyoungwomantowhomIhadnevergivenmorethatthreeseconds’thoughtatatime.IsuddenlydiscoveredinheranumberofqualitieswhichIhadneverbeforeobserved,asweetcharm,alanguorousfascination;sheawakenedinmethatsortofrestlessemotionthatcausesonetopursueawoman.ButIdidnotthinkofherlong.Iwenttobedandwassoonasleep.AndIdreamed.

  \"Youhaveallhadthesestrangedreamswhichmakeyouovercometheimpossible,whichopentoyoudouble—lockeddoors,unexpectedjoys,tightlyfoldedarms?

  \"Whichofusinthesetroubled,excising,breathlessslumbers,hasnotheld,clasped,embracedwithrapture,thewomanwhooccupiedhisthoughts?Andhaveyouevernoticedwhatsuperhumandelightthesehappydreamsgiveus?Intowhatmadintoxicationtheycastyou!withwhatpassionatespasmstheyshakeyou!andwithwhatinfinite,caressing,penetratingtendernesstheyfillyourheartforherwhomyouholdclaspedinyourarmsinthatadorableillusionthatissolikereality!

  \"AllthisIfeltwithunforgettableviolence.Thiswomanwasmine,somuchminethatthepleasantwarmthofherskinremainedinmyfingers,theodorofherskin,inmybrain,thetasteofherkisses,onmylips,thesoundofhervoicelingeredinmyears,thetouchofherclaspstillclungtome,andtheburningcharmofhertendernessstillgratifiedmysenseslongafterthedelightbutdisillusionofmyawakening.

  \"AndthreetimesthatnightIhadthesamedream.

  \"Whenthedaydawnedshehauntedme,possessedme,filledmysensestosuchanextentthatIwasnotonesecondwithoutthinkingofher.

  \"Atlast,notknowingwhattodo,Idressedmyselfandwenttocallonher.AsIwentupstairstoherapartment,IwassoovercomebyemotionthatItrembled,andmyheartbeatrapidly.

  \"Ienteredtheapartment.Sherosethemomentsheheardmynamementioned;andsuddenlyoureyesmetinapeculiarfixedgaze.

  \"Isatdown.Istammeredoutsomecommonplaceswhichsheseemednottohear.Ididnotknowwhattosayordo.Then,abruptly,claspingmyarmsroundher,mydreamwasrealizedsosuddenlythatIbegantodoubtwhetherIwasreallyawake.Wewerefriendsafterthisfortwoyears.\"

  \"Whatconclusiondoyoudrawfromit?\"saidavoice.

  Thestory—tellerseemedtohesitate.

  \"TheconclusionIdrawfromit——well,byJove,theconclusionisthatitwasjustacoincidence!Andthen——whocantell?PerhapsitwassomeglanceofherswhichIhadnotnoticedandwhichcamebackthatnighttomethroughoneofthosemysteriousandunconscious——recollectionsthatoftenbringbeforeusthingsignoredbyourownconsciousness,unperceivedbyourminds!\"

  \"Callitwhateveryoulike,\"saidoneofhistablecompanions,whenthestorywasfinished;\"butifyoudon’tbelieveinmagnetismafterthat,mydearboy,youareanungratefulfellow!\"

  AFATHER’SCONFESSION

  AllVeziers—le—RethelhadfollowedthefuneralprocessionofM.Badon—

  Leremincetothegrave,andthelastwordsofthefuneralorationpronouncedbythedelegateofthedistrictremainedinthemindsofall:

  \"Hewasanhonestman,atleast!\"

  Anhonestmanhehadbeeninalltheknownactsofhislife,inhiswords,inhisexamples,hisattitude,hisbehavior,hisenterprises,inthecutofhisbeardandtheshapeofhishats.Heneverhadsaidawordthatdidnotsetanexample,neverhadgivenanalmswithoutaddingawordofadvice,neverhadextendedhishandwithoutappearingtobestowabenediction.

  Helefttwochildren,aboyandagirl.Hissonwascounselorgeneral,andhisdaughter,havingmarriedalawyer,M.PoireldelaVoulte,movedinthebestsocietyofVeziers.

  Theywereinconsolableatthedeathoftheirfather,fortheylovedhimsincerely.

  Assoonastheceremonywasover,theson,daughterandson—in—lawreturnedtothehouseofmourning,and,shuttingthemselvesinthelibrary,theyopenedthewill,thesealsofwhichweretobebrokenbythemaloneandonlyafterthecoffinhadbeenplacedintheground.

  Thiswishwasexpressedbyanoticeontheenvelope.

  M.PoireldelaVoultetoreopentheenvelope,inhischaracterofalawyerusedtosuchoperations,andhavingadjustedhisspectacles,hereadinamonotonousvoice,madeforreadingthedetailsofcontracts:

  Mychildren,mydearchildren,IcouldnotsleeptheeternalsleepinpeaceifIdidnotmaketoyoufromthetombaconfession,theconfessionofacrime,remorseforwhichhasruinedmylife.Yes,Icommittedacrime,afrightful,abominablecrime.

  Iwastwenty—sixyearsold,andIhadjustbeencalledtothebarinParis,andwaslivingthelifeoffyoungmenfromtheprovinceswhoarestrandedinthistownwithoutacquaintances,relatives,orfriends.

  Itookasweetheart.Therearebeingswhocannotlivealone.Iwasoneofthose.Solitudefillsmewithhorribleanguish,thesolitudeofmyroombesidemyfireintheevening.IfeelthenasifIwerealoneonearth,alone,butsurroundedbyvaguedangers,unknownandterriblethings;andthepartitionthatseparatesmefrommyneighbor,myneighborwhomIdonotknow,keepsmeatasgreatadistancefromhimasthestarsthatIseethroughmywindow.Asortoffeverpervadesme,afeverofimpatienceandoffear,andthesilenceofthewallsterrifiesme.ThesilenceofaroomwhereonelivesaloneissointenseandsomelancholyItisnotonlyasilenceofthemind;whenapieceoffurniturecracksashuddergoesthroughyouforyouexpectnonoiseinthismelancholyabode.

  Howmanytimes,nervousandtimidfromthismotionlesssilence,I

  havebeguntotalk,torepeatwordswithoutrhymeorreason,onlytomakesomesound.MyvoiceatthosetimessoundssostrangethatI

  amafraidofthat,too.Isthereanythingmoredreadfulthantalkingtoone’sselfinanemptyhouse?One’svoicesoundslikethatofanother,anunknownvoicetalkingaimlessly,tonoone,intotheemptyair,withnoeartolistentoit,foroneknowsbeforetheyescapeintothesolitudeoftheroomexactlywhatwordswillbeuttered.Andwhentheyresoundlugubriouslyinthesilence,theyseemnomorethananecho,thepeculiarechoofwordswhisperedbyonesthought.

  MysweetheartwasayounggirllikeotheryounggirlswholiveinParisonwagesthatareinsufficienttokeepthem.Shewasgentle,good,simple.HerparentslivedatPoissy.Shewenttospendseveraldayswiththemfromtimetotime.

  ForayearIlivedquietlywithher,fullydecidedtoleaveherwhenIshouldfindsomeonewhomIlikedwellenoughtomarry.Iwouldmakealittleprovisionforthisone,foritisanunderstoodthinginoursocialsetthatawoman’sloveshouldbepaidfor,inmoneyifsheispoor,inpresentsifsheisrich.

  Butonedayshetoldmeshewasenceinte.Iwasthunderstruck,andsawinasecondthatmylifewouldberuined.IsawthefetterthatIshouldwearuntilmydeath,everywhere,inmyfuturefamilylife,inmyoldage,forever;thefetterofawomanboundtomylifethroughachild;thefetterofthechildwhomImustbringup,watchover,protect,whilekeepingmyselfunknowntohim,andkeepinghimhiddenfromtheworld.

  Iwasgreatlydisturbedatthisnews,andaconfusedlonging,acriminaldesire,surgedthroughmymind;Ididnotformulateit,butIfeltitinmyheart,readytocometothesurface,asifsomeonehiddenbehindaportiereshouldawaitthesignaltocomeout.Ifsomeaccidentmightonlyhappen!Somanyoftheselittlebeingsdiebeforetheyareborn!

  Oh!Ididnotwishmysweethearttodie!Thepoorgirl,Ilovedherverymuch!ButIwished,possibly,thatthechildmightdiebeforeIsawit.

  Hewasborn.Isetuphousekeepinginmylittlebachelorapartment,animitationhome,withahorriblechild.Helookedlikeallchildren;Ididnotcareforhim.Fathers,yousee,donotshowaffectionuntillater.Theyhavenottheinstinctiveandpassionatetendernessofmothers;theiraffectionhastobeawakenedgradually,theirmindmustbecomeattachedbybondsformedeachdaybetweenbeingsthatliveineachother’ssociety.

  Ayearpassed.Inowavoidedmyhome,whichwastoosmall,wheresoiledlinen,baby—clothesandstockingsthesizeofgloveswerelyinground,whereathousandarticlesofalldescriptionslayonthefurniture,onthearmofaneasy—chair,everywhere.IwentoutchieflythatImightnothearthechildcry,forhecriedontheslightestpretext,whenhewasbathed,whenhewastouched,whenhewasputtobed,whenhewastakenupinthemorning,incessantly.

  Ihadmadeafewacquaintances,andImetatareceptionthewomanwhowastobeyourmother.Ifellinlovewithherandbecamedesiroustomarryher.Icourtedher;Iaskedherparents’consenttoourmarriageanditwasgranted.

  Ifoundmyselfinthisdilemma:ImusteithermarrythisyounggirlwhomIadored,havingachildalready,orelsetellthetruthandrenounceher,andhappiness,myfuture,everything;forherparents,whowerepeopleofrigidprinciples,wouldnotgivehertomeiftheyknew.

  Ipassedamonthofhorribleanguish,ofmortaltorture,amonthhauntedbyathousandfrightfulthoughts;andIfeltdevelopinginmeahatredtowardmyson,towardthatlittlemorselofliving,screamingflesh,whoblockedmypath,interruptedmylife,condemnedmetoanexistencewithouthope,withoutallthosevagueexpectationsthatmakethecharmofyouth.

  Butjustthenmycompanion’smotherbecameill,andIwasleftalonewiththechild.

  ItwasinDecember,andtheweatherwasterriblycold.Whatanight!

  Mycompanionhadjustleft.Ihaddinedaloneinmylittledining—

  roomandIwentgentlyintotheroomwherethelittleonewasasleep.

  Isatdowninanarmchairbeforethefire.Thewindwasblowing,makingthewindowsrattle,adry,frostywind;andIsawtroughthewindowthestarsshiningwiththatpiercingbrightnessthattheyhaveonfrostynights.

  Thentheideathathadobsessedmeforamonthroseagaintothesurface.AssoonasIwasquietitcametomeandharassedme.Itateintomymindlikeafixedidea,justascancersmusteatintotheflesh.Itwasthere,inmyhead,inmyheart,inmywholebody,itseemedtome;anditswallowedmeupasawildbeastmighthave.

  Iendeavoredtodriveitaway,torepulseit,toopenmymindtootherthoughts,asoneopensawindowtothefreshmorningbreezetodriveoutthevitiatedair;butIcouldnotdriveitfrommybrain,notevenforasecond.Idonotknowhowtoexpressthistorture.

  Itgnawedatmysoul,andIfeltafrightfulpain,arealphysicalandmoralpain.

  Mylifewasruined!HowcouldIescapefromthissituation?HowcouldIdrawback,andhowcouldIconfess?

  AndIlovedtheonewhowastobecomeyourmotherwithamadpassion,whichthisinsurmountableobstacleonlyaggravated.

  Aterribleragewastakingpossessionofme,chokingme,aragethatvergedonmadness!SurelyIwascrazythatevening!

  Thechildwassleeping.Igotupandlookedatitasitslept.Itwashe,thisabortion,thisspawn,thisnothing,thatcondemnedmetoirremediableunhappiness!

  Hewasasleep,hismouthopen,wrappedinhisbed—clothesinacribbesidemybed,whereIcouldnotsleep.

  HowdidIeverdowhatIdid?HowdoIknow?Whatforceurgedmeon?Whatmalevolentpowertookpossessionofme?Oh!thetemptationtocrimecametomewithoutanyforewarning.AllI

  recallisthatmyheartbeattumultuously.ItbeatsohardthatI

  couldhearit,asonehearsthestrokesofahammerbehindapartition.ThatisallIcanrecall——thebeatingofmyheart!

  Inmyheadtherewasastrangeconfusion,atumult,asenselessdisorder,alackofpresenceofmind.Itwasoneofthosehoursofbewildermentandhallucinationwhenamanisneitherconsciousofhisactionsnorabletoguidehiswill.

  Igentlyraisedthecoveringsfromthebodyofthechild;Iturnedthemdowntothefootofthecrib,andhelaythereuncoveredandnaked.

  Hedidnotwake.ThenIwenttowardthewindow,softly,quitesoftly,andIopenedit.

  Abreathoficyairglidedinlikeanassassin;itwassocoldthatIdrewaside,andthetwocandlesflickered.Iremainedstandingnearthewindow,notdaringtoturnround,asifforfearofseeingwhatwasdoingonbehindme,andfeelingtheicyaircontinuallyacrossmyforehead,mycheeks,myhands,thedeadlyairwhichkeptstreamingin.Istoodtherealongtime.

  Iwasnotthinking,Iwasnotreflecting.Allatoncealittlecoughcausedmetoshudderfrightfullyfromheadtofoot,ashudderthatIfeelstilltotherootsofmyhair.AndwithafranticmovementIabruptlyclosedbothsidesofthewindowand,turninground,ranovertothecrib.

  Hewasstillasleep,hismouthopen,quitenaked.Itouchedhislegs;theywereicycoldandIcoveredthemup.

  Myheartwassuddenlytouched,grieved,filledwithpity,tenderness,loveforthispoorinnocentbeingthatIhadwishedtokill.Ikissedhisfine,softhairlongandtenderly;thenIwentandsatdownbeforethefire.

  IreflectedwithamazementwithhorroronwhatIhaddone,askingmyselfwhencecomethosetempestsofthesoulinwhichamanlosesallperspectiveofthings,allcommandoverhimselfandactsasinaconditionofmadintoxication,notknowingwhitherheisgoing——likeavesselinahurricane.

  Thechildcoughedagain,anditgavemyheartawrench.Supposeitshoulddie!OGod!OGod!Whatwouldbecomeofme?

  Irosefrommychairtogoandlookathim,andwithacandleinmyhandIleanedoverhim.SeeinghimbreathingquietlyIfeltreassured,whenhecoughedathirdtime.ItgavemesuchashocktatIstartedbackward,justasonedoesatsightofsomethinghorrible,andletmycandlefall.

  AsIstooderectafterpickingitup,Inoticedthatmytempleswerebathedinperspiration,thatcoldsweatwhichistheresultofanguishofsoul.AndIremaineduntildaylightbendingovermyson,becomingcalmwhenheremainedquietforsometime,andfilledwithatrociouspainwhenaweakcoughcamefromhismouth.

  Heawokewithhiseyesred,histhroatchoked,andwithanairofsuffering.

  WhenthewomancameintoarrangemyroomIsentheratonceforadoctor.Hecameattheendofanhour,andsaid,afterexaminingthechild:

  \"Didhenotcatchcold?\"

  Ibegantotremblelikeapersonwithpalsy,andIfaltered:

  \"No,Idonotthinkso.\"

  AndthenIsaid:

  \"Whatisthematter?Isitserious?\"

  \"Idonotknowyet,\"hereplied.\"Iwillcomeagainthisevening.\"

  Hecamethatevening.Mysonhadremainedalmostalldayinaconditionofdrowsiness,coughingfromtimetotime.Duringthenightinflammationofthelungssetin.

  Thatlastedtendays.IcannotexpresswhatIsufferedinthoseinterminablehoursthatdividemorningfromnight,rightfrommorning.

  Hedied.

  Andsince——sincethatmoment,Ihavenotpassedonehour,notasinglehour,withoutthefrightfulburningrecollection,agnawingrecollection,amemorythatseemstowringmyheart,awakinginmelikeasavagebeastimprisonedinthedepthofmysoul.

  Oh!ifIcouldhavegonemad!

  M.PoireldelaVoulteraisedhisspectacleswithamotionthatwaspeculiartohimwheneverhefinishedreadingacontract;andthethreeheirsofthedefunctlookedatoneanotherwithoutspeaking,paleandmotionless.

  Attheendofaminutethelawyerresumed:

  \"Thatmustbedestroyed.\"

  Theothertwobenttheirheadsinsignofassent.Helightedacandle,carefullyseparatedthepagescontainingthedamagingconfessionfromthoserelatingtothedispositionofmoney,thenheheldthemoverthecandleandthrewthemintothefireplace.

  Andtheywatchedthewhitesheetsastheyburned,tilltheywerepresentlyreducedtolittlecrumblingblackheaps.Andassomewordswerestillvisibleinwhitetracing,thedaughter,withlittlestrokesofthetoeofhershoe,crushedtheburningpaper,mixingitwiththeoldashesinthefireplace.

  Thenallthreestoodtherewatchingitforsometime,asiftheyfearedthatthedestroyedsecretmightescapefromthefireplace.

  AMOTHEROFMONSTERS

  Irecalledthishorriblestory,theeventsofwhichoccurredlongago,andthishorriblewoman,theotherdayatafashionableseasideresort,whereIsawonthebeachawell—knownyoung,elegantandcharmingParisienne,adoredandrespectedbyeveryone.

  Ihadbeeninvitedbyafriendtopayhimavisitinalittleprovincialtown.Hetookmeaboutinalldirectionstodothehonorsoftheplace,showedmenotedscenes,chateaux,industries,ruins.Hepointedoutmonuments,churches,oldcarveddoorways,enormousordistortedtrees,theoakofSt.Andrew,andtheyewtreeofRoqueboise.

  WhenIhadexhaustedmyadmirationandenthusiasmoverallthesights,myfriendsaidwithadistressedexpressiononhisface,thattherewasnothinglefttolookat.Ibreathedfreely.Iwouldnowbeabletorestundertheshadeofthetrees.But,allatonce,heutteredanexclamation:

  \"Oh,yes!Wehavethe’MotherofMonsters’;Imusttakeyoutoseeher.\"

  \"Whoisthat,the’MotherofMonsters’?\"Iasked.

  \"Sheisanabominablewoman,\"hereplied,\"aregulardemon,abeingwhovoluntarilybringsintotheworlddeformed,hideous,frightfulchildren,monstrosities,infact,andthensellsthemtoshowmenwhoexhibitsuchthings.

  \"Theseexploitersoffreakscomefromtimetotimetofindoutifshehasanyfreshmonstrosity,andifitmeetswiththeirapprovaltheycarryitawaywiththem,payingthemotheracompensation.

  \"Shehaselevenofthisdescription.Sheisrich.

  \"YouthinkIamjoking,romancing,exaggerating.No,myfriend;Iamtellingyouthetruth,theexacttruth.

  \"Letusgoandseethiswoman.ThenIwilltellyouherhistory.\"

  Hetookmeintooneofthesuburbs.Thewomanlivedinaprettylittlehousebythesideoftheroad.Itwasattractiveandwellkept.Thegardenwasfilledwithfragrantflowers.Onemighthavesupposedittobetheresidenceofaretiredlawyer.

  Amaidusheredusintoasortoflittlecountryparlor,andthewretchappeared.Shewasaboutforty.Shewasatall,bigwomanwithhardfeatures,butwellformed,vigorousandhealthy,thetruetypeofarobustpeasantwoman,halfanimal,andhalfwoman.

  Shewasawareofherreputationandreceivedeveryonewithahumilitythatsmackedofhatred.

  \"Whatdothegentlemenwish?\"sheasked.

  \"Theytellmethatyourlastchildisjustlikeanordinarychild,thathedoesnotresemblehisbrothersatall,\"repliedmyfriend.\"Iwantedtobesureofthat.Isittrue?\"

  Shecastonusamaliciousandfuriouslookasshesaid:

  \"Oh,no,oh,no,mypoorsir!Heisperhapsevenuglierthantherest.

  Ihavenoluck,noluck!

  Theyarealllikethat,itisheartbreaking!HowcanthegoodGodbesohardonapoorwomanwhoisallaloneintheworld,howcanHe?\"

  Shespokehurriedly,hereyescastdown,withadeprecatingairasofawildbeastwhoisafraid.Herharshvoicebecamesoft,anditseemedstrangetohearthosetearfulfalsettotonesissuingfromthatbig,bonyframe,ofunusualstrengthandwithcoarseoutlines,whichseemedfittedforviolentaction,andmadetoutterhowlslikeawolf.

  \"Weshouldliketoseeyourlittleone,\"saidmyfriend.

  Ifanciedshecoloredup.Imayhavebeendeceived.Afterafewmomentsofsilence,shesaidinaloudertone:

  \"Whatgoodwillthatdoyou?\"

  \"Whydoyounotwishtoshowittous?\"repliedmyfriend.\"Therearemanypeopletowhomyouwillshowit;youknowwhomImean.\"

  Shegaveastart,andresuminghernaturalvoice,andgivingfreeplaytoheranger,shescreamed:

  \"Wasthatwhyyoucamehere?Toinsultme?Becausemychildrenarelikeanimals,tellme?Youshallnotseehim,no,no,youshallnotseehim!

  Goaway,goaway!Idonotknowwhyyoualltrytotormentmelikethat.\"

  Shewalkedovertowardus,herhandsonherhips.Atthebrutaltoneofhervoice,asortofmoaning,orratheramewing,thelamentablecryofanidiot,camefromtheadjoiningroom.Ishiveredtothemarrowofmybones.Weretreatedbeforeher.

  \"Takecare,Devil\"(theycalledhertheDevil);saidmyfriend,\"takecare;somedayyouwillgetyourselfintotroublethroughthis.\"

  Shebegantotremble,besideherselfwithfury,shakingherfistandroaring:

  \"Beoffwithyou!Whatwillgetmeintotrouble?Beoffwithyou,miscreants!\"

  Shewasabouttoattackus,butwefled,saddenedatwhatwehadseen.

  Whenwegotoutside,myfriendsaid:

  \"Well,youhaveseenher,whatdoyouthinkofher?\"

  \"Tellmethestoryofthisbrute,\"Ireplied.

  Andthisiswhathetoldmeaswewalkedalongthewhitehighroad,withripecropsoneithersideofitwhichrippledliketheseainthelightbreezethatpassedoverthem.

  \"Thiswomanwasoneaservantonafarm.Shewasanhonestgirl,steadyandeconomical.Shewasneverknowntohaveanadmirer,andneversuspectedofanyfrailty.Butshewentastray,assomanydo.

  \"Shesoonfoundherselfintrouble,andwastorturedwithfearandshame.

  Wishingtoconcealhermisfortune,sheboundherbodytightlywithacorsetofherowninvention,madeofboardsandcord.Themoreshedeveloped,themoresheboundherselfwiththisinstrumentoftorture,sufferingmartyrdom,butbraveinhersorrow,notallowinganyonetosee,orsuspect,anything.Shemaimedthelittleunbornbeing,crampingitwiththatfrightfulcorset,andmadeamonsterofit.Itsheadwassqueezedandelongatedtoapoint,anditslargeeyesseemedpoppingoutofitshead.Itslimbs,exaggeratedlylong,andtwistedlikethestalkofavine,terminatedinfingersliketheclawsofaspider.Itstrunkwastiny,androundasanut.

  \"Thechildwasborninanopenfield,andwhentheweederssawit,theyfledaway,screaming,andthereportspreadthatshehadgivenbirthtoademon.Fromthattimeon,shewascalled’theDevil.’

  \"Shewasdrivenfromthefarm,andlivedoncharity,underacloud.Shebroughtupthemonster,whomshehatedwithasavagehatred,andwouldhavestrangled,perhaps,ifthepriesthadnotthreatenedherwitharrest.

  \"Onedaysometravellingshowmenheardaboutthefrightfulcreature,andaskedtoseeit,sothatifitpleasedthemtheymighttakeitaway.

  Theywerepleased,andcountedoutfivehundredfrancstothemother.

  Atfirst,shehadrefusedtoletthemseethelittleanimal,asshewasashamed;butwhenshediscoveredithadamoneyvalue,andthatthesepeoplewereanxioustogetit,shebegantohagglewiththem,raisingherpricewithallapeasant’spersistence.

  \"Shemadethemdrawupapaper,inwhichtheypromisedtopayherfourhundredfrancsayearbesides,asthoughtheyhadtakenthisdeformityintotheiremploy.

  \"Incitedbythegreedofgain,shecontinuedtoproducethesephenomena,soastohaveanassuredincomelikeabourgeoise.

  \"Someofthemwerelong,someshort,somelikecrabs—allbodies—otherslikelizards.Severaldied,andshewasheartbroken.

  \"Thelawtriedtointerfere,butastheyhadnoprooftheylethercontinuetoproduceherfreaks.

  Shehasatthismomentelevenalive,andtheybringin,onanaverage,countinggoodandbadyears,fromfivetosixthousandfrancsayear.

  One,alone,isnotplaced,theoneshewasunwillingtoshowus.Butshewillnotkeepitlong,forsheisknowntoalltheshowmenintheworld,whocomefromtimetotimetoseeifshehasanythingnew.

  \"Sheevengetsbidsfromthemwhenthemonsterisvaluable.\"

  Myfriendwassilent.Aprofounddisguststirredmyheart,andafeelingofrage,ofregret,tothinkthatIhadnotstrangledthisbrutewhenI

  hadtheopportunity.

  Ihadforgottenthisstory,whenIsawonthebeachofafashionableresorttheotherday,anelegant,charming,daintywoman,surroundedbymenwhopaidherrespectaswellasadmiration.

  Iwaswalkingalongthebeach,arminarmwithafriend,theresidentphysician.Tenminuteslater,Isawanursemaidwiththreechildren,whowererollinginthesand.Apairoflittlecrutcheslayontheground,andtouchedmysympathy.Ithennoticedthatthesethreechildrenwerealldeformed,humpbacked,orcrooked;andhideous.

  \"Thosearetheoffspringofthatcharmingwomanyousawjustnow,\"saidthedoctor.

  Iwasfilledwithpityforher,aswellasforthem,andexclaimed:

  \"Oh,thepoormother!Howcansheeverlaugh!\"

  \"Donotpityher,myfriend.Pitythepoorchildren,\"repliedthedoctor.\"Thisistheconsequenceofpreservingaslenderfigureuptothelast.Theselittledeformitiesweremadebythecorset.Sheknowsverywellthatsheisriskingherlifeatthisgame.Butwhatdoesshecare,aslongasliecanbebeautifulandhaveadmirers!\"

  AndthenIrecalledthatotherwoman,thepeasant,the\"Devil,\"whosoldherchildren,hermonsters.

  ANUNCOMFORTABLEBED

  OneautumnIwenttospendthehuntingseasonwithsomefriendsinachateauinPicardy.

  Myfriendswerefondofpracticaljokes.Idonotcaretoknowpeoplewhoarenot.

  WhenIarrived,theygavemeaprincelyreception,whichatonceawakenedsuspicioninmymind.Theyfiredoffrifles,embracedme,mademuchofme,asiftheyexpectedtohavegreatfunatmyexpense.

  Isaidtomyself:

  \"Lookout,oldferret!Theyhavesomethinginstoreforyou.\"

  Duringthedinnerthemirthwasexcessive,exaggerated,infact.

  Ithought:\"Herearepeoplewhohavemorethantheirshareofamusement,andapparentlywithoutreason.Theymusthaveplannedsomegoodjoke.

  AssuredlyIamtobethevictimofthejoke.Attention!\"

  Duringtheentireeveningeveryonelaughedinanexaggeratedfashion.

  Iscentedapracticaljokeintheair,asadogscentsgame.Butwhatwasit?Iwaswatchful,restless.Ididnotletaword,orameaning,oragestureescapeme.Everyoneseemedtomeanobjectofsuspicion,andIevenlookeddistrustfullyatthefacesoftheservants.

  Thehourstruckforretiring;andthewholehouseholdcametoescortmetomyroom.Why?

  Theycalledtome:\"Good—night.\"Ienteredtheapartment,shutthedoor,andremainedstanding,withoutmovingasinglestep,holdingthewaxcandleinmyhand.

  Iheardlaughterandwhisperinginthecorridor.Withoutdoubttheywerespyingonme.Icastaglanceroundthewalls,thefurniture,theceiling,thehangings,thefloor.Isawnothingtojustifysuspicion.

  Iheardpersonsmovingaboutoutsidemydoor.Ihadnodoubttheywerelookingthroughthekeyhole.

  Anideacameintomyhead:\"Mycandlemaysuddenlygooutandleavemeindarkness.\"

  ThenIwentacrosstothemantelpieceandlightedallthewaxcandlesthatwereonit.AfterthatIcastanotherglancearoundmewithoutdiscoveringanything.Iadvancedwithshortsteps,carefullyexaminingtheapartment.Nothing.Iinspectedeveryarticle,oneaftertheother.

  Stillnothing.Iwentovertothewindow.Theshutters,largewoodenshutters,wereopen.Ishutthemwithgreatcare,andthendrewthecurtains,enormousvelvetcurtains,andplacedachairinfrontofthem,soastohavenothingtofearfromoutside.

  ThenIcautiouslysatdown.Thearmchairwassolid.Ididnotventuretogetintothebed.However,thenightwasadvancing;andIendedbycomingtotheconclusionthatIwasfoolish.Iftheywerespyingonme,asIsupposed,theymust,whilewaitingforthesuccessofthejoketheyhadbeenpreparingforme,havebeenlaughingimmoderatelyatmyterror.

  SoImadeupmymindtogotobed.Butthebedwasparticularlysuspicious—looking.Ipulledatthecurtains.Theyseemedtobesecure.

  Allthesame,therewasdanger.Iwasgoingperhapstoreceiveacoldshowerbothfromoverhead,orperhaps,themomentIstretchedmyselfout,tofindmyselfsinkingtothefloorwithmymattress.IsearchedinmymemoryforallthepracticaljokesofwhichIeverhadexperience.AndI

  didnotwanttobecaught.Ah!certainlynot!certainlynot!ThenI

  suddenlybethoughtmyselfofaprecautionwhichIconsideredinsuredsafety.Icaughtholdofthesideofthemattressgingerly,andveryslowlydrewittowardme.Itcameaway,followedbythesheetandtherestofthebedclothes.Idraggedalltheseobjectsintotheverymiddleoftheroom,facingtheentrancedoor.ImademybedoveragainasbestIcouldatsomedistancefromthesuspectedbedsteadandthecornerwhichhadfilledmewithsuchanxiety.ThenIextinguishedallthecandles,and,gropingmyway,Islippedunderthebedclothes.

  ForatleastanotherhourIremainedawake,startingattheslightestsound.Everythingseemedquietinthechateau.Ifellasleep.

  Imusthavebeeninadeepsleepforalongtime,butallofasuddenI

  wasawakenedwithastartbythefallofaheavybodytumblingrightontopofmyown,and,atthesametime,Ireceivedonmyface,onmyneck,andonmychestaburningliquidwhichmademeutterahowlofpain.Andadreadfulnoise,asifasideboardladenwithplatesanddisheshadfallendown,almostdeafenedme.

  Iwassmotheringbeneaththeweightthatwascrushingmeandpreventingmefrommoving.Istretchedoutmyhandtofindoutwhatwasthenatureofthisobject.Ifeltaface,anose,andwhiskers.Then,withallmystrength,Ilaunchedoutablowatthisface.ButIimmediatelyreceivedahailofcuffingswhichmademejumpstraightoutofthesoakedsheets,andrushinmynightshirtintothecorridor,thedoorofwhichIfoundopen.

  Oh,heavens!itwasbroaddaylight.Thenoisebroughtmyfriendshurryingintomyapartment,andwefound,sprawlingovermyimprovisedbed,thedismayedvalet,who,whilebringingmemymorningcupoftea,hadtrippedoverthisobstacleinthemiddleofthefloorandfallenonhisstomach,spillingmybreakfastovermyfaceinspiteofhimself.

  TheprecautionsIhadtakeninclosingtheshuttersandgoingtosleepinthemiddleoftheroomhadonlybroughtaboutthepracticaljokeIhadbeentryingtoavoid.

  Oh,howtheyalllaughedthatday!

  APORTRAIT

  Hello!there’sMilial!\"saidsomebodynearme.IlookedatthemanwhohadbeenpointedoutasIhadbeenwishingforalongtimetomeetthisDonJuan.

  Hewasnolongeryoung.HisgrayhairlookedalittlelikethosefurbonnetswornbycertainNorthernpeoples,andhislongbeard,whichfelldownoverhischest,hadalsosomewhattheappearanceoffur.Hewastalkingtoalady,leaningtowardher,speakinginalowvoiceandlookingatherwithanexpressionfullofrespectandtenderness.

  Iknewhislife,oratleastasmuchaswasknownofit.Hehadlovedmadlyseveraltimes,andtherehadbeencertaintragedieswithwhichhisnamehadbeenconnected.WhenIspoketowomenwhoweretheloudestinhispraise,andaskedthemwhencecamethispower,theyalwaysanswered,afterthinkingforawhile:\"Idon’tknow——hehasacertaincharmabouthim.\"

  Hewascertainlynothandsome.Hehadnoneoftheelegancethatweascribetoconquerorsoffemininehearts.Iwonderedwhatmightbehishiddencharm.Wasitmental?Ineverhadheardofacleversayingofhis.Inhisglance?Perhaps.Orinhisvoice?Thevoicesofsomebeingshaveacertainirresistibleattraction,almostsuggestingtheflavorofthingsgoodtoeat.Oneishungryforthem,andthesoundoftheirwordspenetratesuslikeadaintymorsel.Afriendwaspassing.

  Iaskedhim:\"DoyouknowMonsieurMilial?\"

  \"Yes.\"

  \"Introduceus.\"

  Aminutelaterwewereshakinghandsandtalkinginthedoorway.Whathesaidwascorrect,agreeabletohear;itcontainednoirritablethought.

  Thevoicewassweet,soft,caressing,musical;butIhadheardothersmuchmoreattractive,muchmoremoving.Onelistenedtohimwithpleasure,justasonewouldlookataprettylittlebrook.Notensionofthemindwasnecessaryinordertofollowhim,nohiddenmeaningarousedcuriosity,noexpectationawokeinterest.Hisconversationwasratherrestful,butitdidnotawakeninoneeitheradesiretoanswer,tocontradictortoapprove,anditwasaseasytoanswerhimasitwastolistentohim.Theresponsecametothelipsofitsownaccord,assoonashehadfinishedtalking,andphrasesturnedtowardhimasifhehadnaturallyarousedthem.

  Onethoughtsoonstruckme.Ihadknownhimforaquarterofanhour,anditseemedasifhewerealreadyoneofmyoldfriends,thatIhadknownallabouthimforalongtime;hisface,hisgestures,hisvoice,hisideas.Suddenly,afterafewminutesofconversation,heseemedalreadytobeinstalledinmyintimacy.Allconstraintdisappearedbetweenus,and,hadhesodesired,Imighthaveconfidedinhimasoneconfidesonlyinoldfriends.

  Certainlytherewassomemysteryabouthim.Thosebarriersthatareclosedbetweenmostpeopleandthatareloweredwithtimewhensympathy,similartastes,equalintellectualcultureandconstantintercourseremoveconstraint——thosebarriersseemednottoexistbetweenhimandme,andnodoubtthiswasthecasebetweenhimandallpeople,bothmenandwomen,whomfatethrewinhispath.

  Afterhalfanhourweparted,promisingtoseeeachotheroften,andhegavemehisaddressafterinvitingmetotakeluncheonwithhimintwodays.

  Iforgotwhathourhehadstated,andIarrivedtoosoon;hewasnotyethome.Acorrectandsilentdomesticshowedmeintoabeautiful,quiet,softlylightedparlor.Ifeltcomfortablethere,athome.HowoftenI

  havenoticedtheinfluenceofapartmentsonthecharacterandonthemind!Therearesomewhichmakeonefeelfoolish;inothers,onthecontrary,onealwaysfeelslively.Somemakeussad,althoughwelllightedanddecoratedinlight—coloredfurniture;otherscheerusup,althoughhungwithsombrematerial.Oureye,likeourheart,hasitslikesanddislikes,ofwhichitdoesnotinformus,andwhichitsecretlyimposesonourtemperament.Theharmonyoffurniture,walls,thestyleofanensemble,actimmediatelyonourmentalstate,justastheairfromthewoods,theseaorthemountainsmodifiesourphysicalnatures.

  Isatdownonacushion—covereddivanandfeltmyselfsuddenlycarriedandsupportedbytheselittlesilkbagsoffeathers,asiftheoutlineofmybodyhadbeenmarkedoutbeforehandonthiscouch.

  ThenIlookedabout.Therewasnothingstrikingabouttheroom;every—

  wherewerebeautifulandmodestthings,simpleandrarefurniture,Orientalcurtainswhichdidnotseemtocomefromadepartmentstorebutfromtheinteriorofaharem;andexactlyoppositemehungtheportraitofawoman.Itwasaportraitofmediumsize,showingtheheadandtheupperpartofthebody,andthehands,whichwereholdingabook.Shewasyoung,bareheaded;ribbonswerewoveninherhair;shewassmilingsadly.Wasitbecauseshewasbareheaded,wasitmerelyhernaturalexpression?Ineverhaveseenaportraitofaladywhichseemedsomuchinitsplaceasthatoneinthatdwelling.OfallthoseIknewIhaveseennothinglikethatone.AllthosethatIknowareonexhibition,whethertheladybedressedinhergaudiestgown,withanattractiveheaddressandalookwhichshowsthatsheisposingfirstofallbeforetheartistandthenbeforethosewhowilllookatherorwhethertheyhavetakenacomfortableattitudeinanordinarygown.Somearestandingmajesticallyinalltheirbeauty,whichisnotatallnaturaltotheminlife.Allofthemhavesomething,afloweror,ajewel,acreaseinthedressoracurveofthelip,whichonefeelstohavebeenplacedthereforeffectbytheartist.Whethertheywearahatormerelytheirhaironecanimmediatelynoticethattheyarenotentirelynatural.Why?

  Onecannotsaywithoutknowingthem,buttheeffectisthere.Theyseemtobecallingsomewhere,onpeoplewhomtheywishtopleaseandtowhomtheywishtoappearattheirbestadvantage;andtheyhavestudiedtheirattitudes,sometimesmodest,Sometimeshaughty.

  Whatcouldonesayaboutthisone?Shewasathomeandalone.Yes,shewasalone,forshewassmilingasonesmileswhenthinkinginsolitudeofsomethingsadorsweet,andnotasonesmileswhenoneisbeingwatched.

  Sheseemedsomuchaloneandsomuchathomethatshemadethewholelargeapartmentseemabsolutelyempty.Shealonelivedinit,filledit,gaveitlife.Manypeoplemightcomeinandconverse,laugh,evensing;

  shewouldstillbealonewithasolitarysmile,andshealonewouldgiveitlifewithherpicturedgaze.

  Thatlookalsowasunique.Itfelldirectlyonme,fixedandcaressing,withoutseeingme.Allportraitsknowthattheyarebeingwatched,andtheyanswerwiththeireyes,whichsee,think,followuswithoutleavingus,fromtheverymomentweentertheapartmenttheyinhabit.Thisonedidnotseeme;itsawnothing,althoughitslookwasfixeddirectlyonme.IrememberedthesurprisingverseofBaudelaire:

  Andyoureyes,attractiveasthoseofaportrait.

  Theydidindeedattractmeinanirresistiblemanner;thosepaintedeyeswhichhadlived,orwhichwereperhapsstillliving,threwovermeastrange,powerfulspell.Oh,whataninfiniteandtendercharm,likeapassingbreeze,likeadyingsunsetoflilacroseandblue,alittlesadliketheapproachingnight,whichcomesbehindthesombreframeandoutofthoseimpenetrableeyes!Thoseeyes,createdbyafewstrokesfromabrush,hidebehindthemthemysteryofthatwhichseemstobeandwhichdoesnotexist,whichcanappearintheeyesofawoman,whichcanmakeloveblossomwithinus.

  ThedooropenedandM.Milialentered.Heexcusedhimselfforbeinglate.Iexcusedmyselfforbeingaheadoftime.ThenIsaid:\"MightI

  askyouwhoisthislady?\"

  Heanswered:\"Thatismymother.Shediedveryyoung.\"

  ThenIunderstoodwhencecametheinexplicableattractionofthisman.

  THEDRUNKARD

  Thenorthwindwasblowingahurricane,drivingthroughtheskybig,black,heavycloudsfromwhichtherainpoureddownontheearthwithterrificviolence.

  Ahighseawasraginganddashingitshuge,slow,foamywavesalongthecoastwiththerumblingsoundofthunder.Thewavesfollowedeachotherclose,rollinginashighasmountains,scatteringthefoamastheybroke.

  ThestormengulfeditselfinthelittlevalleyofYport,whistlingandmoaning,tearingtheshinglesfromtheroofs,smashingtheshutters,knockingdownthechimneys,rushingthroughthenarrowstreetsinsuchguststhatonecouldwalkonlybyholdingontothewalls,andchildrenwouldhavebeenlifteduplikeleavesandcarriedoverthehousesintothefields.

  Thefishingsmackshadbeenhauledhighuponland,becauseathightidetheseawouldsweepthebeach.Severalsailors,shelteredbehindthecurvedbottomsoftheirboats,werewatchingthisbattleoftheskyandthesea.

  Then,onebyone,theywentaway,fornightwasfallingonthestorm,wrappinginshadowstheragingoceanandallthebattlingelements.

  Justtwomenremained,theirhandsplungeddeepintotheirpockets,bendingtheirbacksbeneaththesquall,theirwoolencapspulleddownovertheirears;twobigNormandyfishermen,bearded,theirskintannedthroughexposure,withthepiercingblackeyesofthesailorwholooksoverthehorizonlikeabirdofprey.

  Oneofthemwassaying:

  \"Comeon,Jeremie,let’sgoplaydominoes.It’smytreat.\"

  Theotherhesitatedawhile,temptedononehandbythegameandthethoughtofbrandy,knowingwellthat,ifhewenttoPaumelle’s,hewouldreturnhomedrunk;heldback,ontheotherhand,bytheideaofhiswiferemainingaloneinthehouse.

  Heasked:

  \"Anyonemightthinkthatyouhadmadeabettogetmedrunkeverynight.

  Say,whatgoodisitdoingyou,sinceit’salwaysyouthat’streating?\"

  Neverthelesshewassmilingattheideaofallthisbrandydrunkattheexpenseofanother.HewassmilingthecontentedsmirkofanavariciousNorman.

  Mathurin,hisfriend,keptpullinghimbythesleeve.

  \"Comeon,Jeremie.Thisisn’tthekindofanighttogohomewithoutanythingtowarmyouup.Whatareyouafraidof?Isn’tyourwifegoingtowarmyourbedforyou?\"

  Jeremieanswered:

  \"TheothernightIcouldn’tfindthedoor——Ihadtobefishedoutoftheditchinfrontofthehouse!\"

  Hewasstilllaughingatthisdrunkard’srecollection,andhewasunconsciouslygoingtowardPaumelle’sCafe,wherealightwasshininginthewindow;hewasgoing,pulledbyMathurinandpushedbythewind,unabletoresistthesecombinedforces.

  Thelowroomwasfullofsailors,smokeandnoise.Allthesemen,cladinwoolens,theirelbowsonthetables,wereshoutingtomakethemselvesheard.Themorepeoplecamein,themoreonehadtoshoutinordertoovercomethenoiseofvoicesandtherattlingofdominoesonthemarbletables.

  JeremieandMathurinsatdowninacornerandbeganagame,andtheglasseswereemptiedinrapidsuccessionintotheirthirstythroats.

  Thentheyplayedmoregamesanddrankmoreglasses.Mathurinkeptpouringandwinkingtothesaloonkeeper,abig,red—facedman,whochuckledasthoughatthethoughtofsomefinejoke;andJeremiekeptabsorbingalcoholandwagginghishead,givingventtoaroaroflaughterandlookingathiscomradewithastupidandcontentedexpression.

  Allthecustomersweregoingaway.Everytimethatoneofthemwouldopenthedoortoleaveagustofwindwouldblowintothecafe,makingthetobaccosmokeswirlaround,swingingthelampsattheendoftheirchainsandmakingtheirflamesflicker,andsuddenlyonecouldhearthedeepboomingofabreakingwaveandthemoaningofthewind.

  Jeremie,hiscollarunbuttoned,wastakingdrunkard’sposes,onelegoutstretched,onearmhangingdownandintheotherhandholdingadomino.

  Theywerealonenowwiththeowner,whohadcomeuptothem,interested.

  Heasked:

  \"Well,Jeremie,howgoesitinside?Feellessthirstyafterwettingyourthroat?\"

  Jeremiemuttered:

  \"ThemoreIwetit,thedrieritgetsinside.\"

  TheinnkeepercastaslyglanceatMathurin.Hesaid:

  \"Andyourbrother,Mathurin,where’shenow?\"

  Thesailorlaughedsilently:

  \"Don’tworry;he’swarm,allright.\"

  AndbothofthemlookedtowardJeremie,whowastriumphantlyputtingdownthedoublesixandannouncing:

  \"Game!\"

  Thentheownerdeclared:

  \"Well,boys,I’mgoin’tobed.Iwillleaveyouthelampandthebottle;

  there’stwentycents’worthinit.Lockthedoorwhenyougo,Mathurin,andslipthekeyunderthematthewayyoudidtheothernight.\"

  Mathurinanswered:

  \"Don’tworry;it’llbeallright.\"

  Paumelleshookhandswithhistwocustomersandslowlywentupthewoodenstairs.Forseveralminuteshisheavystepechoedthroughthelittlehouse.Thenaloudcreakingannouncedthathehadgotintobed.

  Thetwomencontinuedtoplay.Fromtimetotimeamoreviolentgustofwindwouldshakethewholehouse,andthetwodrinkerswouldlookup,asthoughsomeonewereabouttoenter.ThenMathurinwouldtakethebottleandfillJeremie’sglass.Butsuddenlytheclockoverthebarstrucktwelve.Itshoarseclangsoundedliketherattlingofsaucepans.ThenMathuringotuplikeasailorwhosewatchisover.

  \"Comeon,Jeremie,we’vegottogetout.\"

  Theothermanrosetohisfeetwithdifficulty,gothisbalancebyleaningonthetable,reachedthedoorandopeneditwhilehiscompanionwasputtingoutthelight.

  AssoonastheywereinthestreetMathurinlockedthedoorandthensaid:

  \"Well,solong.Seeyouto—morrownight!\"

  Andhedisappearedinthedarkness.

  Jeremietookafewsteps,staggered,stretchedouthishands,metawallwhichsupportedhimandbegantostumblealong.Fromtimetotimeagustofwindwouldsweepthroughthestreet,pushinghimforward,makinghimrunforafewsteps;then,whenthewindwoulddiedown,hewouldstopshort,havinglosthisimpetus,andoncemorehewouldbegintostaggeronhisunsteadydrunkard’slegs.

  Hewentinstinctivelytowardhishome,justasbirdsgototheirnests.

  Finallyherecognizedhisdoor,andbegantofeelaboutforthekeyholeandtriedtoputthekeyinit.Notfindingthehole,hebegantoswear.

  Thenhebegantobeatonthedoorwithhisfists,callingforhiswifetocomeandhelphim:

  \"Melina!Oh,Melina!\"

  Asheleanedagainstthedoorforsupport,itgavewayandopened,andJeremie,losinghisprop,fellinside,rollingonhisfaceintothemiddleofhisroom,andhefeltsomethingheavypassoverhimandescapeinthenight.

  Hewasnolongermoving,dazedbyfright,bewildered,fearingthedevil,ghosts,allthemysteriousbeingsofdarkness,andhewaitedalongtimewithoutdaringtomove.Butwhenhefoundoutthatnothingelsewasmoving,alittlereasonreturnedtohim,thereasonofadrunkard.

  Gentlyhesatup.Againhewaitedalongtime,andatlast,growingbolder,hecalled:

  \"Melina!\"

  Hiswifedidnotanswer.

  Then,suddenly,asuspicioncrossedhisdarkenedmind,anindistinct,vaguesuspicion.Hewasnotmoving;hewassittingthereinthedark,tryingtogathertogetherhisscatteredwits,hismindstumblingoverincompleteideas,justashisfeetstumbledalong.

  Oncemoreheasked:

  \"Whowasit,Melina?Tellmewhoitwas.Iwon’thurtyou!\"

  Hewaited,novoicewasraisedinthedarkness.Hewasnowreasoningwithhimselfoutloud.

  \"I’mdrunk,allright!I’mdrunk!Andhefilledmeup,thedog;hedidit,tostopmygoin’home.I’mdrunk!\"

  Andhewouldcontinue:

  \"Tellmewhoitwas,Melina,orsomethin’llhappentoyou.\"

  Afterhavingwaitedagain,hewentonwiththeslowandobstinatelogicofadrunkard:

  \"He’sbeenkeepingmeatthatloaferPaumelle’splaceeverynight,soastostopmygoinghome.It’ssometrick.Oh,youdamnedcarrion!\"

  Slowlyhegotonhisknees.Ablindfurywasgainingpossessionofhim,minglingwiththefumesofalcohol.

  Hecontinued:

  \"Tellmewhoitwas,Melina,oryou’llgetalicking——Iwarnyou!\"

  Hewasnowstanding,tremblingwithawildfury,asthoughthealcoholhadsethisbloodonfire.Hetookastep,knockedagainstachair,seizedit,wenton,reachedthebed,ranhishandsoveritandfeltthewarmbodyofhiswife.

  Then,maddened,heroared:

  \"So!Youwerethere,youpieceofdirt,andyouwouldn’tanswer!\"

  And,liftingthechair,whichhewasholdinginhisstrongsailor’sgrip,heswungitdownbeforehimwithanexasperatedfury.Acryburstfromthebed,anagonizing,piercingcry.Thenhebegantothrasharoundlikeathresherinabarn.Andsoonnothingmoremoved.Thechairwasbrokentopieces,buthestillheldonelegandbeatawaywithit,panting.

  Atlasthestoppedtoask:

  \"Well,areyoureadytotellmewhoitwas?\"

  Melinadidnotanswer.

  Thentiredout,stupefiedfromhisexertion,hestretchedhimselfoutonthegroundandslept.

  Whendaycameaneighbor,seeingthedooropen,entered.HesawJeremiesnoringonthefloor,amidthebrokenpiecesofachair,andonthebedapulpoffleshandblood.

  THEWARDROBE

  Aswesatchattingafterdinner,apartyofmen,theconversationturnedonwomen,forlackofsomethingelse.

  Oneofussaid:

  \"Here’safunnythingthathappenedtomeon,thatverysubject.\"Andhetoldusthefollowingstory:

  OneeveninglastwinterIsuddenlyfeltovercomebythatoverpoweringsenseofmiseryandlanguorthattakespossessionofonefromtimetotime.Iwasinmyownapartment,allalone,andIwasconvincedthatifIgaveintomyfeelingsIshouldhaveaterribleattackofmelancholia,oneofthoseattacksthatleadtosuicidewhentheyrecurtoooften.

  IputonmyovercoatandwentoutwithouttheslightestideaofwhatI

  wasgoingtodo.Havinggoneasfarastheboulevards,Ibegantowanderalongbythealmostemptycafes.Itwasraining,afinerainthataffectsyourmindasitdoesyourclothing,notoneofthosegooddownpourswhichcomedownintorrents,drivingbreathlesspassers—byintodoorways,butarainwithoutdropsthatdepositsonyourclothinganimperceptiblesprayandsooncoversyouwithasortoficedfoamthatchillsyouthrough.

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