Then,asthebloodwasmakingapoolonthedeckoftheboat,oneofthesailorscried:\"Hewillbleedtodeath,wemustbindthevein.\"
Sotheytookacord,athick,brown,tarrycord,andtwistingitaroundthearmabovethewound,tighteneditwithalltheirmight.Thebloodceasedtospurtbyslowdegrees,and,presently,stoppedaltogether.
YoungJavelrose,hisarmhangingathisside.Hetookholdofitwiththeotherhand,raisedit,turneditover,shookit.Itwasallmashed,thebonesbroken,themusclesaloneholdingittogether.Helookedatitsadly,reflectively.Thenhesatdownonafoldedsailandhiscomradesadvisedhimtokeepwettingthearmconstantlytopreventitfrommortifying.
Theyplacedapailofwaterbesidehim,andeveryfewminuteshedippedaglassintoitandbathedthefrightfulwound,lettingtheclearwatertrickleontoit.
\"Youwouldbebetterinthecabin,\"saidhisbrother.Hewentdown,butcameupagaininanhour,notcaringtobealone.And,besides,hepreferredthefreshair.Hesatdownagainonhissailandbegantobathehisarm.
Theymadeagoodhaul.Thebroadfishwiththeirwhitebellieslaybesidehim,quiveringinthethroesofdeath;helookedatthemashecontinuedtobathehiscrushedflesh.
AstheywereabouttoreturntoBoulognethewindsprangupanew,andthelittleboatresumeditsmadcourse,boundingandtumblingabout,shakingupthepoorwoundedman.
Nightcameon.Thesearanhighuntildawn.AsthesunrosetheEnglishcoastwasagainvisible,but,astheweatherhadabatedalittle,theyturnedbacktowardstheFrenchcoast,tackingastheywent.
TowardseveningJavel,junior,calledhiscomradesandshowedthemsomeblackspots,allthehorribletokensofmortificationintheportionofthearmbelowthebrokenbones.
Thesailorsexaminedit,givingtheiropinion.
\"Thatmightbethe’Black,’\"thoughtone.
\"Heshouldputsaltwateronit,\"saidanother.
Theybroughtsomesaltwaterandpoureditonthewound.Theinjuredmanbecamelivid,groundhisteethandwrithedalittle,butdidnotexclaim.
Then,assoonasthesmartinghadabated,hesaidtohisbrother:
\"Givemeyourknife.\"
Thebrotherhandedittohim.
\"Holdmyarmup,quitestraight,andpullit.\"
Theydidasheaskedthem.
Thenhebegantocutoffhisarm.Hecutgently,carefully,severingalthetendonswiththisbladethatwassharpasarazor.And,presently,therewasonlyastumpleft.Hegaveadeepsighandsaid:
\"Ithadtobedone.Itwasdonefor.\"
Heseemedrelievedandbreathedloud.Hethenbeganagaintopourwateronthestumpofarmthatremained.
Theseawasstillroughandtheycouldnotmaketheshore.
Whenthedaybroke,Javel,junior,tooktheseveredportionofhisarmandexamineditforalongtime.Gangrenehadsetin.Hiscomradesalsoexamineditandhandeditfromonetotheother,feelingit,turningitover,andsniffingatit.
\"Youmustthrowthatintotheseaatonce,\"saidhisbrother.
ButJavel,junior,gotangry.
\"Oh,no!Oh,no!Idon’twantto.Itbelongstome,doesitnot,asitismyarm?\"
Andhetookandplaceditbetweenhisfeet.
\"Itwillputrefy,justthesame,\"saidtheolderbrother.Thenanideacametotheinjuredman.Inordertopreservethefishwhentheboatwaslongatsea,theypackeditinsalt,inbarrels.Heasked:
\"WhycanInotputitinpickle?\"
\"Why,that’safact,\"exclaimedtheothers.
Thentheyemptiedoneofthebarrels,whichwasfullfromthehaulofthelastfewdays;andrightatthebottomofthebarreltheylaidthedetachedarm.Theycovereditwithsalt,andthenputbackthefishonebyone.
Oneofthesailorssaidbywayofjoke:
\"Ihopewedonotsellitatauction.\"
Andeveryonelaughed,exceptthetwoJavels.
Thewindwasstillboisterous.TheytackedwithinsightofBoulogneuntilthefollowingmorningatteno’clock.YoungJavelcontinuedtobathehiswound.Fromtimetotimeheroseandwalkedfromoneendtotheotheroftheboat.
Hisbrother,whowasatthetiller,followedhimwithglances,andshookhishead.
Atlasttheyranintoharbor.
Thedoctorexaminedthewoundandpronouncedittobeingoodcondition.
Hedresseditproperlyandorderedthepatienttorest.ButJavelwouldnotgotobeduntilhegotbackhisseveredarm,andhereturnedatoncetothedocktolookforthebarrelwhichhehadmarkedwithacross.
Itwasemptiedbeforehimandheseizedthearm,whichwaswellpreservedinthepickle,hadshrunkandwasfreshened.Hewrappeditupinatowelhehadbroughtforthepurposeandtookithome.
Hiswifeandchildrenlookedforalongtimeatthisfragmentoftheirfather,feelingthefingers,andremovingthegrainsofsaltthatwereunderthenails.Thentheysentforacarpentertomakealittlecoffin.
Thenextdaytheentirecrewofthetrawlingsmackfollowedthefuneralofthedetachedarm.Thetwobrothers,sidebyside,ledtheprocession;
theparishbeadlecarriedthecorpseunderhisarm.
Javel,junior,gaveupthesea.Heobtainedasmallpositiononthedock,andwhenhesubsequentlytalkedabouthisaccident,hewouldsayconfidentiallytohisauditors:
\"Ifmybrotherhadbeenwillingtocutawaythenet,Ishouldstillhavemyarm,thatissure.Buthewasthinkingonlyofhisproperty.\"
MINUET
Greatmisfortunesdonotaffectmeverymuch,saidJohnBridelle,anoldbachelorwhopassedforasceptic.Ihaveseenwaratquiteclosequarters;Iwalkedacrosscorpseswithoutanyfeelingofpity.Thegreatbrutalfactsofnature,orofhumanity,maycallforthcriesofhorrororindignation,butdonotcauseusthattighteningoftheheart,thatshudderthatgoesdownyourspineatsightofcertainlittleheartrendingepisodes.
Thegreatestsorrowthatanyonecanexperienceiscertainlythelossofachild,toamother;andthelossofhismother,toaman.Itisintense,terrible,itrendsyourheartandupsetsyourmind;butoneishealedoftheseshocks,justaslargebleedingwoundsbecomehealed.Certainmeetings,certainthingshalfperceived,orsurmised,certainsecretsorrows,certaintricksoffatewhichawakeinusawholeworldofpainfulthoughts,whichsuddenlyunclosetousthemysteriousdoorofmoralsuffering,complicated,incurable;allthedeeperbecausetheyappearbenign,allthemorebitterbecausetheyareintangible,allthemoretenaciousbecausetheyappearalmostfactitious,leaveinoursoulsasortoftrailofsadness,atasteofbitterness,afeelingofdisenchantment,fromwhichittakesalongtimetofreeourselves.
Ihavealwayspresenttomymindtwoorthreethingsthatotherswouldsurelynothavenoticed,butwhichpenetratedmybeinglikefine,sharpincurablestings.
YoumightnotperhapsunderstandtheemotionthatIretainedfromthesehastyimpressions.Iwilltellyouoneofthem.Shewasveryold,butaslivelyasayounggirl.Itmaybethatmyimaginationaloneisresponsibleformyemotion.
Iamfifty.Iwasyoungthenandstudyinglaw.Iwasrathersad,somewhatofadreamer,fullofapessimisticphilosophyanddidnotcaremuchfornoisycafes,boisterouscompanions,orstupidgirls.Iroseearlyandoneofmychiefenjoymentswastowalkaloneabouteighto’clockinthemorninginthenurserygardenoftheLuxembourg.
Youpeopleneverknewthatnurserygarden.Itwaslikeaforgottengardenofthelastcentury,asprettyasthegentlesmileofanoldlady.
Thickhedgesdividedthenarrowregularpaths,——peacefulpathsbetweentwowallsofcarefullytrimmedfoliage.Thegardener’sgreatshearswerepruningunceasinglytheseleafypartitions,andhereandthereonecameacrossbedsofflowers,linesoflittletreeslookinglikeschoolboysoutforawalk,companiesofmagnificentrosebushes,orregimentsoffruittrees.
Anentirecornerofthischarmingspotwasinhabitedbybees.Theirstrawhivesskillfullyarrangedatdistancesonboardshadtheirentrances——aslargeastheopeningofathimble——turnedtowardsthesun,andallalongthepathsoneencounteredthesehummingandgildedflies,thetruemastersofthispeacefulspot,therealpromenadersofthesequietpaths.
Icametherealmosteverymorning.Isatdownonabenchandread.
SometimesIletmybookfallonmyknees,todream,tolistentothelifeofParisaroundme,andtoenjoytheinfinitereposeoftheseold—
fashionedhedges.
ButIsoonperceivedthatIwasnottheonlyonetofrequentthisspotassoonasthegateswereopened,andIoccasionallymetfacetoface,ataturninthepath,astrangelittleoldman.
Heworeshoeswithsilverbuckles,knee—breeches,asnuff—coloredfrockcoat,alacejabot,andanoutlandishgrayhatwithwidebrimandlong—
hairedsurfacethatmighthavecomeoutoftheark.
Hewasthin,verythin,angular,grimacingandsmiling.Hisbrighteyeswererestlessbeneathhiseyelidswhichblinkedcontinuously.Healwayscarriedinhishandasuperbcanewithagoldknob,whichmusthavebeenforhimsomeglorioussouvenir.
Thisgoodmanastonishedmeatfirst,thencausedmetheintensestinterest.Iwatchedhimthroughtheleafywalls,Ifollowedhimatadistance,stoppingataturninthehedgesoasnottobeseen.
Andonemorningwhenhethoughthewasquitealone,hebegantomakethemostremarkablemotions.Firsthewouldgivesomelittlesprings,thenmakeabow;then,withhisslimlegs,hewouldgivealivelyspringintheair,clappinghisfeetashedidso,andthenturnroundcleverly,skippingandfriskingaboutinacomicalmanner,smilingasifhehadanaudience,twistinghispoorlittlepuppet—likebody,bowingpatheticandridiculouslittlegreetingsintotheemptyair.Hewasdancing.
Istoodpetrifiedwithamazement,askingmyselfwhichofuswascrazy,heorI.
Hestoppedsuddenly,advancedasactorsdoonthestage,thenbowedandretreatedwithgracioussmiles,andkissinghishandasactorsdo,histremblinghand,tothetworowsoftrimmedbushes.
Thenhecontinuedhiswalkwithasolemndemeanor.
AfterthatIneverlostsightofhim,andeachmorninghebegananewhisoutlandishexercises.
Iwaswildlyanxioustospeaktohim.Idecidedtoriskit,andoneday,aftergreetinghim,Isaid:
\"Itisabeautifulday,monsieur.\"
Hebowed.
\"Yes,sir,theweatherisjustasitusedtobe.\"
AweeklaterwewerefriendsandIknewhishistory.Hehadbeenadancingmasterattheopera,inthetimeofLouisXV.HisbeautifulcanewasapresentfromtheComtedeClermont.Andwhenwespokeaboutdancingheneverstoppingtalking.
Onedayhesaidtome:
\"ImarriedLaCastris,monsieur.Iwillintroduceyoutoherifyouwishit,butshedoesnotgetheretilllater.Thisgarden,yousee,isourdelightandourlife.Itisallthatremainsofformerdays.Itseemsasthoughwecouldnotexistifwedidnothaveit.Itisoldanddistingue,isitnot?IseemtobreatheanairherethathasnotchangedsinceIwasyoung.MywifeandIpassallourafternoonshere,butI
comeinthemorningbecauseIgetupearly.\"
AssoonasIhadfinishedluncheonIreturnedtotheLuxembourg,andpresentlyperceivedmyfriendofferinghisarmceremoniouslytoaveryoldlittleladydressedinblack,towhomheintroducedme.ItwasLaCastris,thegreatdancer,belovedbyprinces,belovedbytheking,belovedbyallthatcenturyofgallantrythatseemstohaveleftbehinditintheworldanatmosphereoflove.
Wesatdownonabench.ItwasthemonthofMay.Anodorofflowersfloatedintheneatpaths;ahotsunglideditsraysbetweenthebranchesandcovereduswithpatchesoflight.TheblackdressofLaCastrisseemedtobesaturatedwithsunlight.
Thegardenwasempty.Weheardtherattlingofvehiclesinthedistance.
\"Tellme,\"Isaidtotheolddancer,\"whatwastheminuet?\"
Hegaveastart.
\"Theminuet,monsieur,isthequeenofdances,andthedanceofqueens,doyouunderstand?Sincethereisnolongeranyroyalty,thereisnolongeranyminuet.\"
AndhebeganinapompousmanneralongdithyrambiceulogywhichIcouldnotunderstand.Iwantedtohavethesteps,themovements,thepositions,explainedtome.Hebecameconfused,wasamazedathisinabilitytomakemeunderstand,becamenervousandworried.
Thensuddenly,turningtohisoldcompanionwhohadremainedsilentandserious,hesaid:
\"Elise,wouldyoulike——say——wouldyoulike,itwouldbeveryniceofyou,wouldyouliketoshowthisgentlemanwhatitwas?\"
Sheturnedeyesuneasilyinalldirections,thenrosewithoutsayingawordandtookherpositionoppositehim.
ThenIwitnessedanunheard—ofthing.
Theyadvancedandretreatedwithchildlikegrimaces,smiling,swingingeachother,bowing,skippingaboutliketwoautomatondollsmovedbysomeoldmechanicalcontrivance,somewhatdamaged,butmadebyacleverworkmanaccordingtothefashionofhistime.
AndIlookedatthem,myheartfilledwithextraordinaryemotions,mysoultouchedwithanindescribablemelancholy.Iseemedtoseebeforemeapatheticandcomicalapparition,theout—of—dateghostofaformercentury.
Theysuddenlystopped.Theyhadfinishedallthefiguresofthedance.
Forsomesecondstheystoodoppositeeachother,smilinginanastonishingmanner.Thentheyfelloneachother’sneckssobbing.
Ileftfortheprovincesthreedayslater.Ineversawthemagain.
WhenIreturnedtoParis,twoyearslater,thenurseryhadbeendestroyed.Whatbecameofthem,deprivedofthedeargardenofformerdays,withitsmazes,itsodorofthepast,andthegracefulwindingsofitshedges?
Aretheydead?Aretheywanderingamongmodernstreetslikehopelessexiles?Aretheydancing——grotesquespectres——afantasticminuetinthemoonlight,amidthecypressesofacemetery,alongthepathwaysborderedbygraves?
Theirmemoryhauntsme,obsessesme,tormentsme,remainswithmelikeawound.Why?Idonotknow.
Nodoubtyouthinkthatveryabsurd?
THESON
Thetwooldfriendswerewalkinginthegardeninbloom,wherespringwasbringingeverythingtolife.
Onewasasenator,theotheramemberoftheFrenchAcademy,bothseriousmen,fullofverylogicalbutsolemnarguments,menofnoteandreputation.
Theytalkedfirstofpolitics,exchangingopinions;notonideas,butonmen,personalitiesinthisregardtakingthepredominanceoverability.
Thentheyrecalledsomememories.Thentheywalkedalonginsilence,enervatedbythewarmthoftheair.
Alargebedofwallflowersbreathedoutadelicatesweetness.Amassofflowersofallspeciesandcolorflungtheirfragrancetothebreeze,whileacytisuscoveredwithyellowclustersscattereditsfinepollenabroad,agoldencloud,withanodorofhoneythatboreitsbalmyseedacrossspace,similartothesachet—powdersofperfumers.
Thesenatorstopped,breathedinthecloudoffloatingpollen,lookedatthefertileshrub,yellowasthesun,whoseseedwasfloatingintheair,andsaid:
\"Whenoneconsidersthattheseimperceptiblefragrantatomswillcreateexistencesatahundredleaguesfromhere,willsendathrillthroughthefibresandsapoffemaletreesandproducebeingswithroots,growingfromagerm,justaswedo,mortallikeourselves,andwhowillbereplacedbyotherbeingsofthesameorder,likeourselvesagain!\"
And,standinginfrontofthebrilliantcytisus,whoselivepollenwasshakenoffbyeachbreathofair,thesenatoradded:
\"Ah,oldfellow,ifyouhadtokeepcountofallyourchildrenyouwouldbemightilyembarrassed.Hereisonewhogeneratesfreely,andthenletsthemgowithoutapangandtroubleshimselfnomoreaboutthem.\"
\"Wedothesame,myfriend,\"saidtheacademician.
\"Yes,Idonotdenyit;weletthemgosometimes,\"resumedthesenator,\"butweareawarethatwedo,andthatconstitutesoursuperiority.\"
\"No,thatisnotwhatImean,\"saidtheother,shakinghishead.
\"Yousee,myfriend,thatthereisscarcelyamanwhohasnotsomechildrenthathedoesnotknow,children——’fatherunknown’——whomhehasgeneratedalmostunconsciously,justasthistreereproduces.
\"Ifwehadtokeepaccountofouramours,weshouldbejustasembarrassedasthiscytisuswhichyouapostrophizedwouldbeincountinguphisdescendants,shouldwenot?
\"Fromeighteentofortyyears,infact,countingineverychancecursoryacquaintanceship,wemaywellsaythatwehavebeenintimatewithtwoorthreehundredwomen.
\"Well,then,myfriend,amongthisnumbercanyoubesurethatyouhavenothadchildrenbyatleastoneofthem,andthatyouhavenotinthestreets,orinthebagnio,someblackguardofasonwhostealsfromandmurdersdecentpeople,i.e.,ourselves;orelseadaughterinsomedisreputableplace,or,ifshehasthegoodfortunetobedesertedbyhermother,ascookinsomefamily?
\"Consider,also,thatalmostallthosewhomwecall’prostitutes’haveoneortwochildrenofwhosepaternalparentagetheyareignorant,generatedbychanceatthepriceoftenortwentyfrancs.Ineverybusinessthereisprofitandloss.Thesewildingsconstitutethe’loss’
intheirprofession.Whogeneratedthem?You——I——wealldid,themencalled’gentlemen’!Theyaretheconsequencesofourjoviallittledinners,ofourgayevenings,ofthosehourswhenourcomfortablephysicalbeingimpelsustochanceliaisons.
\"Thieves,marauders,allthesewretches,infact,areourchildren.
Andthatisbetterforusthanifweweretheirchildren,forthosescoundrelsgeneratealso!
\"IhaveinmymindaveryhorriblestorythatIwillrelatetoyou.Ithascausedmeincessantremorse,and,furtherthanthat,acontinualdoubt,adisquietinguncertainty,that,attimes,tormentsmefrightfully.
\"WhenIwastwenty—fiveIundertookawalkingtourthroughBrittanywithoneofmyfriends,nowamemberofthecabinet.
\"AfterwalkingsteadilyforfifteenortwentydaysandvisitingtheCotes—du—NordandpartofFinisterewereachedDouarnenez.FromtherewewentwithouthaltingtothewildpromontoryofRazbythebayofLesTrepaases,andpassedthenightinavillagewhosenameendsin’of.’
Thenextmorningastrangelassitudekeptmyfriendinbed;Isaybedfromhabit,forourcouchconsistedsimplyoftwobundlesofstraw.
\"Itwouldneverdotobeillinthisplace.SoImadehimgetup,andwereachedAndierneaboutfourorfiveo’clockintheevening.
\"Thefollowingdayhefeltalittlebetter,andwesetoutagain.Butontheroadhewasseizedwithintolerablepain,andwecouldscarcelygetasfarasPontLabbe.
\"Here,atleast,therewasaninn.Myfriendwenttobed,andthedoctor,whohadbeensentforfromQuimper,announcedthathehadahighfever,withoutbeingabletodetermineitsnature.
\"DoyouknowPontLabbe?No?Well,then,itisthemostBretonofallthisBretonBrittany,whichextendsfromthepromontoryofRaztotheMorbihan,ofthislandwhichcontainstheessenceoftheBretonmanners,legendsandcustoms.Evento—daythiscornerofthecountryhasscarcelychanged.Isay’evento—day,’forInowgothereeveryyear,alas!
\"Anoldchateaulavesthewallsofitstowersinagreatmelancholypond,melancholyandfrequentedbyflightsofwildbirds.Ithasanoutletinariveronwhichboatscannavigateasfarasthetown.Inthenarrowstreetswiththeirold—timehousesthemenwearbighats,embroideredwaistcoatsandfourcoats,oneontopoftheother;theinsideone,aslargeasyourhand,barelycoveringtheshoulder—blades,andtheoutsideonecomingtojustabovetheseatofthetrousers.
\"Thegirls,tall,handsomeandfreshhavetheirbosomscrushedinaclothbodicewhichmakesanarmor,compressesthem,notallowingoneeventoguessattheirrobustandtorturedneck.Theyalsowearastrangeheaddress.Ontheirtemplestwobandsembroideredincolorsframetheirface,inclosingthehair,whichfallsinashoweratthebackoftheirheads,andisthenturnedupandgatheredontopoftheheadunderasingularcap,oftenwovenwithgoldorsilverthread.
\"Theservantatourinnwaseighteenatmost,withveryblueeyes,apalebluewithtwotinyblackpupils,shortteethclosetogether,whichsheshowedcontinuallywhenshelaughed,andwhichseemedstrongenoughtogrindgranite.
\"ShedidnotknowawordofFrench,speakingonlyBreton,asdidmostofhercompanions.
\"Asmyfrienddidnotimprovemuch,andalthoughhehadnodefinitemalady,thedoctorforbadehimtocontinuehisjourneyyet,orderingcompleterest.Ispentmydayswithhim,andthelittlemaidwouldcomeinincessantly,bringingeithermydinnerorsomeherbtea.
\"Iteasedheralittle,whichseemedtoamuseher,butwedidnotchat,ofcourse,aswecouldnotunderstandeachother.
\"Butonenight,afterIhadstayedquitelatewithmyfriendandwasgoingbacktomyroom,Ipassedthegirl,whowasgoingtoherroom.
Itwasjustoppositemyopendoor,and,withoutreflection,andmoreforfunthananythingelse,Iabruptlyseizedherroundthewaist,andbeforesherecoveredfromherastonishmentIhadthrownherdownandlockedherinmyroom.Shelookedatme,amazed,excited,terrified,notdaringtocryoutforfearofascandalandofbeingprobablydrivenout,firstbyheremployersandthen,perhaps,byherfather.
\"Ididitasajokeatfirst.Shedefendedherselfbravely,andatthefirstchancesherantothedoor,drewbacktheboltandfled.
\"Iscarcelysawherforseveraldays.Shewouldnotletmecomenearher.ButwhenmyfriendwascuredandweweretogetoutonourtravelsagainIsawhercomingintomyroomaboutmidnightthenightbeforeourdeparture,justafterIhadretired.
\"Shethrewherselfintomyarmsandembracedmepassionately,givingmealltheassurancesoftendernessanddespairthatawomancangivewhenshedoesnotknowawordofourlanguage.
\"AweeklaterIhadforgottenthisadventure,socommonandfrequentwhenoneistravelling,theinnservantsbeinggenerallydestinedtoamusetravellersinthisway.
\"IwasthirtybeforeIthoughtofitagain,orreturnedtoPontLabbe.
\"Butin1876IrevisiteditbychanceduringatripintoBrittany,whichImadeinordertolookupsomedataforabookandtobecomepermeatedwiththeatmosphereofthedifferentplaces.
\"Nothingseemedchanged.Thechateaustilllaveditsgraywallinthepondoutsidethelittletown;theinnwasthesame,thoughithadbeenrepaired,renovatedandlookedmoremodern.AsIentereditIwasreceivedbytwoyoungBretongirlsofeighteen,freshandpretty,boundupintheirtightclothbodices,withtheirsilvercapsandwideembroideredbandsontheirears.
\"Itwasaboutsixo’clockintheevening.Isatdowntodinner,andasthehostwasassiduousinwaitingonmehimself,fate,nodoubt,impelledmetosay:
\"’Didyouknowtheformerproprietorsofthishouse?Ispentabouttendaysherethirtyyearsago.Iamtalkingoldtimes.’
\"’Thoseweremyparents,monsieur,’hereplied.
\"ThenItoldhimwhywehadstayedoveratthattime,howmycomradehadbeendelayedbyillness.Hedidnotletmefinish.
\"’Oh,Irecollectperfectly.Iwasaboutfifteenorsixteen.YousleptintheroomattheendandyourfriendintheoneIhavetakenformyself,overlookingthestreet.’
\"Itwasonlythenthattherecollectionofthelittlemaidcamevividlytomymind.Iasked:’Doyourememberaprettylittleservantwhowastheninyourfather’semploy,andwhohad,ifmymemorydoesnotdeceiveme,prettyeyesandfreshlookingteeth?’
\"’Yes,monsieur;shediedinchildbirthsometimeafter.’
\"And,pointingtothecourtyardwhereathin,lamemanwasstirringupthemanure,headded:
\"’Thatisherson.’
\"Ibegantolaugh:
\"’Heisnothandsomeanddoesnotlookmuchlikehismother.Nodoubthelookslikehisfather.’
\"’Thatisverypossible,’repliedtheinnkeeper;’butweneverknewwhosechilditwas.Shediedwithouttellinganyone,andnoonehereknewofherhavingabeau.Everyonewashugelyastonishedwhentheyheardshewasenceinte,andnoonewouldbelieveit.’
\"Asortofunpleasantchillcameoverme,oneofthosepainfulsurfacewoundsthataffectusliketheshadowofanimpendingsorrow.AndI
lookedatthemanintheyard.Hehadjustdrawnwaterforthehorsesandwascarryingtwobuckets,limpingashewalked,withapainfuleffortofhisshorterleg.Hisclotheswereragged,hewashideouslydirty,withlongyellowhair,sotangledthatitlookedlikestrandsofropefallingdownateithersideofhisface.
\"’Heisnotworthmuch,’continuedtheinnkeeper;’wehavekepthimforcharity’ssake.Perhapshewouldhaveturnedoutbetterifhehadbeenbroughtuplikeotherfolks.Butwhatcouldonedo,monsieur?Nofather,nomother,nomoney!Myparentstookpityonhim,buthewasnottheirchild,youunderstand.’
\"Isaidnothing.
\"Isleptinmyoldroom,andallnightlongIthoughtofthisfrightfulstableman,sayingtomyself:’Supposingitismyownson?CouldIhavecausedthatgirl’sdeathandprocreatedthisbeing?Itwasquitepossible!’
\"Iresolvedtospeaktothismanandtofindouttheexactdateofhisbirth.Avariationoftwomonthswouldsetmydoubtsatrest.
\"Isentforhimthenextday.ButhecouldnotspeakFrench.Helookedasifhecouldnotunderstandanything,beingabsolutelyignorantofhisage,whichIhadinquiredofhimthroughoneofthemaids.Hestoodbeforemelikeanidiot,twirlinghishatin’hisknotted,disgustinghands,laughingstupidly,withsomethingofhismother’slaughinthecornersofhismouthandofhiseyes.
\"Thelandlord,appearingonthescene,wenttolookforthebirthcertificateofthiswretchedbeing.Hewasborneightmonthsandtwenty—
sixdaysaftermystayatPontLabbe,forIrecollectperfectlythatwereachedLorientonthefifteenthofAugust.Thecertificatecontainedthisdescription:’Fatherunknown.’ThemothercalledherselfJeanneKerradec.
\"Thenmyheartbegantobeatrapidly.Icouldnotutteraword,forI
feltasifIwerechoking.Ilookedatthisanimalwhoselongyellowhairremindedmeofastrawheap,andthebeggar,embarrassedbymygaze,stoppedlaughing,turnedhisheadaside,andwantedtogetaway.
\"AlldaylongIwanderedbesidethelittleriver,givingwaytopainfulreflections.Butwhatwastheuseofreflection?Icouldbesureofnothing.ForhoursandhoursIweighedalltheprosandconsinfavoroforagainsttheprobabilityofmybeingthefather,growingnervousoverinexplicablesuppositions,onlytoreturnincessantlytothesamehorribleuncertainty,thentothestillmoreatrociousconvictionthatthismanwasmyson.
\"Icouldeatnodinner,andwenttomyroom.
Ilayawakeforalongtime,andwhenIfinallyfellasleepIwashauntedbyhorriblevisions.Isawthislaborerlaughinginmyfaceandcallingme’papa.’Thenhechangedintoadogandbitthecalvesofmylegs,andnomatterhowfastIranhestillfollowedme,andinsteadofbarking,talkedandreviledme.ThenheappearedbeforemycolleaguesattheAcademy,whohadassembledtodecidewhetherIwasreallyhisfather;andoneofthemcriedout:’Therecanbenodoubtaboutit!Seehowheresembleshim.’And,indeed,Icouldseethatthismonsterlookedlikeme.AndIawokewiththisideafixedinmymindandwithaninsanedesiretoseethemanagainandassuremyselfwhetherornotwehadsimilarfeatures.
\"Ijoinedhimashewasgoingtomass(itwasSunday)andIgavehimfivefrancsasIgazedathimanxiously.Hebegantolaughinanidioticmanner,tookthemoney,andthen,embarrassedafreshatmygaze,heranoff,afterstammeringanalmostinarticulatewordthat,nodoubt,meant’thankyou.’
\"Mydaypassedinthesamedistressofmindasonthepreviousnight.
Isentforthelandlord,and,withthegreatestcaution,skillandtact,ItoldhimthatIwasinterestedinthispoorcreature,soabandonedbyeveryoneanddeprivedofeverything,andIwishedtodosomethingforhim.
\"Butthemanreplied:’Oh,donotthinkofit,monsieur;heisofnoaccount;youwillonlycauseyourselfannoyance.Iemployhimtocleanoutthestable,andthatisallhecando.Igivehimhisboardandlethimsleepwiththehorses.Heneedsnothingmore.Ifyouhaveanoldpairoftrousers,youmightgivethemtohim,buttheywillbeinragsinaweek.’
\"Ididnotinsist,intendingtothinkitover.
\"Thepoorwretchcamehomethateveningfrightfullydrunk,camenearsettingfiretothehouse,killedahorsebyhittingitwithapickaxe,andendedupbylyingdowntosleepinthemudinthemidstofthepouringrain,thankstomydonation.
\"Theybeggedmenextdaynottogivehimanymoremoney.Brandydrovehimcrazy,andassoonashehadtwosousinhispockethewouldspenditindrink.Thelandlordadded:’Givinghimmoneyisliketryingtokillhim.’Themanhadnever,neverinhislifehadmorethanafewcentimes,throwntohimbytravellers,andheknewofnodestinationforthismetalbutthewineshop.
\"IspentseveralhoursinmyroomwithanopenbookbeforemewhichI
pretendedtoread,butinrealitylookingatthisanimal,myson!myson!
tryingtodiscoverifhelookedanythinglikeme.AftercarefulscrutinyIseemedtorecognizeasimilarityinthelinesoftheforeheadandtherootofthenose,andIwassoonconvincedthattherewasaresemblance,concealedbythedifferenceingarbandtheman’shideousheadofhair.
\"Icouldnotstayhereanylongerwithoutarousingsuspicion,andIwentaway,myheartcrushed,leavingwiththeinnkeepersomemoneytosoftentheexistenceofhisservant.
\"ForsixyearsnowIhavelivedwiththisideainmymind,thishorribleuncertainty,thisabominablesuspicion.AndeachyearanirresistibleforcetakesmebacktoPontLabbe.EveryyearIcondemnmyselftothetortureofseeingthisanimalrakingthemanure,imaginingthatheresemblesme,andendeavoring,alwaysvainly,torenderhimsomeassistance.AndeachyearIreturnmoreuncertain,moretormented,moreworried.
\"Itriedtohavehimtaught,butheisahopelessidiot.Itriedtomakehislifelesshard.Heisanirreclaimabledrunkard,andspendsindrinkallthemoneyonegiveshim,andknowsenoughtosellhisnewclothesinordertogetbrandy.
\"Itriedtoawakenhismaster’ssympathy,sothatheshouldlookafterhim,offeringtopayhimfordoingso.Theinnkeeper,finallysurprised,said,verywisely:’Allthatyoudoforhim,monsieur,willonlyhelptodestroyhim.Hemustbekeptlikeaprisoner.Assoonashehasanysparetime,oranycomfort,hebecomeswicked.Ifyouwishtodogood,thereisnolackofabandonedchildren,butselectonewhowillappreciateyourattention.’
\"WhatcouldIsay?
\"IfIallowedtheslightestsuspicionofthedoubtsthattorturedmetoescape,thisidiotwouldassuredlybecomecunning,inordertoblackmailme,tocompromisemeandruinme.Hewouldcallout’papa,’asinmydream.
\"AndIsaidtomyselfthatIhadkilledthemotherandlostthisatrophiedcreature,thislarvaofthestable,bornandraisedamidthemanure,thismanwho,ifbroughtuplikeothers,wouldhavebeenlikeothers.
\"Andyoucannotimaginewhatastrange,embarrassedandintolerablefeelingcomesovermewhenhestandsbeforemeandIreflectthathecamefrommyself,thathebelongstomethroughtheintimatebondthatlinksfatherandson,that,thankstotheterriblelawofheredity,heismyownselfinathousandways,inhisbloodandhisflesh,andthathehaseventhesamegermsofdisease,thesameleavenofemotions.
\"Ihaveanincessantrestless,distressinglongingtoseehim,andthesightofhimcausesmeintensesuffering,asIlookdownfrommywindowandwatchhimforhoursremovingandcartingthehorsemanure,sayingtomyself:’Thatismyson.’
\"AndIsometimesfeelanirresistiblelongingtoembracehim.Ihavenevereventouchedhisdirtyhand.\"
Theacademicianwassilent.Hiscompanion,atactfulman,murmured:
\"Yes,indeed,weoughttotakeacloserinterestinchildrenwhohavenofather.\"
Agustofwindpassingthroughthetreeshookitsyellowclusters,envelopinginafragrantanddelicatemistthetwooldmen,whoinhaledinthefragrancewithdeepbreaths.
Thesenatoradded:\"Itisgoodtobetwenty—fiveandeventohavechildrenlikethat.\"
THATPIGOFAMORIN
\"Here,myfriend,\"IsaidtoLabarbe,\"youhavejustrepeatedthosefivewords,thatpigofaMorin.WhyonearthdoIneverhearMorin’snamementionedwithouthisbeingcalledapig?\"
Labarbe,whoisadeputy,lookedatmewithhisowl—likeeyesandsaid:
\"DoyoumeantosaythatyoudonotknowMorin’sstoryandyoucomefromLaRochelle?\"IwasobligedtodeclarethatIdidnotknowMorin’sstory,soLabarberubbedhishandsandbeganhisrecital.
\"YouknewMorin,didyounot,andyourememberhislargelinen—draper’sshopontheQuaidelaRochelle?\"
\"Yes,perfectly.\"
\"Well,then.Youmustknowthatin1862or’63MorinwenttospendafortnightinParisforpleasure;orforhispleasures,butunderthepretextofrenewinghisstock,andyoualsoknowwhatafortnightinParismeanstoacountryshopkeeper;itfireshisblood.Thetheatreeveryevening,women’sdressesrustlingupagainstyouandcontinualexcitement;onegoesalmostmadwithit.Oneseesnothingbutdancersintights,actressesinverylowdresses,roundlegs,fatshoulders,allnearlywithinreachofone’shands,withoutdaring,orbeingable,totouchthem,andonescarcelytastesfood.Whenoneleavesthecityone’sheartisstillallinaflutterandone’smindstillexhilaratedbyasortoflongingforkisseswhichticklesone’slips.
\"MorinwasinthatconditionwhenhetookhisticketforLaRochellebytheeight—fortynightexpress.Ashewaswalkingupanddownthewaiting—roomatthestationhestoppedsuddenlyinfrontofayoungladywhowaskissinganoldone.Shehadherveilup,andMorinmurmuredwithdelight:’ByJovewhataprettywoman!’
\"Whenshehadsaid’good—by’totheoldladyshewentintothewaiting—
room,andMorinfollowedher;thenshewentontheplatformandMorinstillfollowedher;thenshegotintoanemptycarriage,andheagainfollowedher.Therewereveryfewtravellersontheexpress.Theenginewhistledandthetrainstarted.Theywerealone.Morindevouredherwithhiseyes.Sheappearedtobeaboutnineteenortwentyandwasfair,tall,withaboldlook.Shewrappedarailwayrugroundherandstretchedherselfontheseattosleep.
\"Morinaskedhimself:’Iwonderwhosheis?’Andathousandconjectures,athousandprojectswentthroughhishead.Hesaidtohimself:’Somanyadventuresaretoldashappeningonrailwayjourneysthatthismaybeonethatisgoingtopresentitselftome.Whoknows?Apieceofgoodlucklikethathappensverysuddenly,andperhapsIneedonlybealittleventuresome.WasitnotDantonwhosaid:\"Audacity,moreaudacityandalwaysaudacity\"?IfitwasnotDantonitwasMirabeau,butthatdoesnotmatter.ButthenIhavenoaudacity,andthatisthedifficulty.
Oh!Ifoneonlyknew,ifonecouldonlyreadpeople’sminds!Iwillbetthateverydayonepassesbymagnificentopportunitieswithoutknowingit,thoughagesturewouldbeenoughtoletmeknowhermind.’
\"Thenheimaginedtohimselfcombinationswhichconductedhimtotriumph.
Hepicturedsomechivalrousdeedormerelysomeslightservicewhichherenderedher,alively,gallantconversationwhichendedinadeclaration.
\"Buthecouldfindnoopening,hadnopretext,andhewaitedforsomefortunatecircumstance,withhisheartbeatingandhismindtopsy—turvy.
Thenightpassedandtheprettygirlstillslept,whileMorinwasmeditatinghisownfall.Thedaybrokeandsoonthefirstrayofsunlightappearedinthesky,along,clearraywhichshoneonthefaceofthesleepinggirlandwokeher.Shesatup,lookedatthecountry,thenatMorinandsmiled.Shesmiledlikeahappywoman,withanengagingandbrightlook,andMorintrembled.Certainlythatsmilewasintendedforhim;itwasdiscreetinvitation,thesignalwhichhewaswaitingfor.Thatsmilemeanttosay:’Howstupid,whataninny,whatadolt,whatadonkeyyouare,tohavesatthereonyourseatlikeapostallnight!
\"’Justlookatme,amInotcharming?Andyouhavesatlikethatforthewholenight,whenyouhavebeenalonewithaprettywoman,yougreatsimpleton!’
\"Shewasstillsmilingasshelookedathim;sheevenbegantolaugh;andhelosthisheadtryingtofindsomethingsuitabletosay,nomatterwhat.Buthecouldthinkofnothing,nothing,andthen,seizedwithacoward’scourage,hesaidtohimself:
’Somuchtheworse,Iwillriskeverything,’andsuddenly,withouttheslightestwarning,hewenttowardher,hisarmsextended,hislipsprotruding,and,seizingherinhisarms,hekissedher.
\"Shesprangupimmediatelywithabound,cryingout:’Help!help!’andscreamingwithterror;andthensheopenedthecarriagedoorandwavedherarmout,madwithterrorandtryingtojumpout,whileMorin,whowasalmostdistractedandfeelingsurethatshewouldthrowherselfout,heldherbytheskirtandstammered:’Oh,madame!oh,madame!’
\"Thetrainslackenedspeedandthenstopped.Twoguardsrushedupattheyoungwoman’sfranticsignals.Shethrewherselfintotheirarms,stammering:’Thatmanwanted——wanted——to——to——’Andthenshefainted.
\"TheywereatMauzestation,andthegendarmeondutyarrestedMorin.
Whenthevictimofhisindiscreetadmirationhadregainedherconsciousness,shemadeherchargeagainsthim,andthepolicedrewitup.Thepoorlinendraperdidnotreachhometillnight,withaprosecutionhangingoverhimforanoutragetomoralsinapublicplace.
II
\"AtthattimeIwaseditoroftheFanaldesCharentes,andIusedtomeetMorineverydayattheCafeduCommerce,andthedayafterhisadventure.
hecametoseeme,ashedidnotknowwhattodo.Ididnothidemyopinionfromhim,butsaidtohim:’Youarenobetterthanapig.Nodecentmanbehaveslikethat.’
\"Hecried.Hiswifehadgivenhimabeating,andheforesawhistraderuined,hisnamedraggedthroughthemireanddishonored,hisfriendsscandalizedandtakingnonoticeofhim.Intheendheexcitedmypity,andIsentformycolleague,Rivet,ajocularbutverysensiblelittleman,togiveushisadvice.
\"Headvisedmetoseethepublicprosecutor,whowasafriendofmine,andsoIsentMorinhomeandwenttocallonthemagistrate.Hetoldmethatthewomanwhohadbeeninsultedwasayounglady,MademoiselleHenrietteBonnel,whohadjustreceivedhercertificateasgovernessinParisandspentherholidayswithheruncleandaunt,whowereveryrespectabletradespeopleinMauze.WhatmadeMorin’scaseallthemoreseriouswasthattheunclehadlodgedacomplaint,butthepublicofficialhadconsentedtoletthematterdropifthiscomplaintwerewithdrawn,sowemusttryandgethimtodothis.
\"IwentbacktoMorin’sandfoundhiminbed,illwithexcitementanddistress.Hiswife,atallraw—bonedwomanwithabeard,wasabusinghimcontinually,andsheshowedmeintotheroom,shoutingatme:’SoyouhavecometoseethatpigofaMorin.Well,thereheis,thedarling!’
Andsheplantedherselfinfrontofthebed,withherhandsonherhips.
Itoldhimhowmattersstood,andhebeggedmetogoandseethegirl’suncleandaunt.Itwasadelicatemission,butIundertookit,andthepoordevilneverceasedrepeating:’IassureyouIdidnotevenkissher;
no,noteventhat.Iwilltakemyoathtoit!’
\"Ireplied:’Itisallthesame;youarenothingbutapig.’AndItookathousandfrancswhichhegavemetoemployasIthoughtbest,butasI
didnotcaretoventuretoheruncle’shousealone,IbeggedRivettogowithme,whichheagreedtodoonconditionthatwewentimmediately,forhehadsomeurgentbusinessatLaRochellethatafternoon.Sotwohourslaterwerangatthedoorofaprettycountryhouse.Anattractivegirlcameandopenedthedoortousassuredlytheyoungladyinquestion,andIsaidtoRivetinalowvoice:’Confoundit!IbegintounderstandMorin!’
\"Theuncle,MonsieurTonnelet,subscribedtotheFanal,andwasaferventpoliticalcoreligionistofours.Hereceiveduswithopenarmsandcongratulatedusandwishedusjoy;hewasdelightedathavingthetwoeditorsinhishouse,andRivetwhisperedtome:’IthinkweshallbeabletoarrangethematterofthatpigofaMorinforhim.’
\"TheniecehadlefttheroomandIintroducedthedelicatesubject.
Iwavedthespectreofscandalbeforehiseyes;Iaccentuatedtheinevitabledepreciationwhichtheyoungladywouldsufferifsuchanaffairbecameknown,fornobodywouldbelieveinasimplekiss,andthegoodmanseemedundecided,buthecouldnotmakeuphismindaboutanythingwithouthiswife,whowouldnotbeinuntillatethatevening.
Butsuddenlyheutteredanexclamationoftriumph:’Lookhere,Ihaveanexcellentidea;Iwillkeepyouheretodineandsleep,andwhenmywifecomeshomeIhopeweshallbeabletoarrangematters:
\"Rivetresistedatfirst,butthewishtoextricatethatpigofaMorindecidedhim,andweacceptedtheinvitation,andtheunclegotupradiant,calledhisnieceandproposedthatweshouldtakeastrollinhisgrounds,saying:’Wewillleaveseriousmattersuntilthemorning.’
Rivetandhebegantotalkpolitics,whileIsoonfoundmyselflaggingalittlebehindwith’thegirlwhowasreallycharming——charming——andwiththegreatestprecautionIbegantospeaktoheraboutheradventureandtrytomakehermyally.Shedidnot,however,appeartheleastconfused,andlistenedtomelikeapersonwhowasenjoyingthewholethingverymuch.
\"Isaidtoher:’Justthink,mademoiselle,howunpleasantitwillbeforyou.Youwillhavetoappearincourt,toencountermaliciouslooks,tospeakbeforeeverybodyandtorecountthatunfortunateoccurrenceintherailwaycarriageinpublic.Doyounotthink,betweenourselves,thatitwouldhavebeenmuchbetterforyoutohaveputthatdirtyscoundrelbackinhisplacewithoutcallingforassistance,andmerelytochangeyourcarriage?’Shebegantolaughandreplied:’Whatyousayisquitetrue,butwhatcouldIdo?Iwasfrightened,andwhenoneisfrightenedonedoesnotstoptoreasonwithone’sself.AssoonasIrealizedthesituationIwasverysorry,thatIhadcalledout,butthenitwastoolate.Youmustalsorememberthattheidiotthrewhimselfuponmelikeamadman,withoutsayingawordandlookinglikealunatic.Ididnotevenknowwhathewantedofme.’
\"ShelookedmefullinthefacewithoutbeingnervousorintimidatedandIsaidtomyself:’Sheisaqueersortofgirl,that:IcanquiteseehowthatpigMorincametomakeamistake,’andIwentonjokingly:’Come,mademoiselle,confessthathewasexcusable,for,afterall,amancannotfindhimselfoppositesuchaprettygirlasyouarewithoutfeelinganaturaldesiretokissher.’
\"Shelaughedmorethaneverandshowedherteethandsaid:’Betweenthedesireandtheact,monsieur,thereisroomforrespect.’Itwasanoddexpressiontouse,althoughitwasnotveryclear,andIaskedabruptly:
’Well,now,supposeIweretokissyou,whatwouldyoudo?’Shestoppedtolookatmefromheadtofootandthensaidcalmly:’Oh,you?Thatisquiteanothermatter.’
\"Iknewperfectlywell,byJove,thatitwasnotthesamethingatall,aseverybodyintheneighborhoodcalledme’HandsomeLabarbe’——Iwasthirtyyearsoldinthosedays——butIaskedher:’Andwhy,pray?’Sheshruggedhershouldersandreplied:’Well!becauseyouarenotsostupidasheis.’Andthensheadded,lookingatmeslyly:’Norsougly,either:AndbeforeshecouldmakeamovementtoavoidmeIhadimplantedaheartykissonhercheek.Shesprangaside,butitwastoolate,andthenshesaid:’Well,youarenotverybashful,either!Butdon’tdothatsortofthingagain.’
\"Iputonahumblelookandsaidinalowvoice:’Oh,mademoiselle!asforme,ifIlongforonethingmorethananotheritistobesummonedbeforeamagistrateforthesamereasonasMorin.’
\"’Why?’sheasked.And,lookingsteadilyather,Ireplied:’Becauseyouareoneofthemostbeautifulcreaturesliving;becauseitwouldbeanhonorandagloryformetohavewishedtoofferyouviolence,andbecausepeoplewouldhavesaid,afterseeingyou:\"Well,Labarbehasrichlydeservedwhathehasgot,butheisaluckyfellow,allthesame.’\"
\"Shebegantolaughheartilyagainandsaid:’Howfunnyyouare!’Andshehadnotfinishedtheword’funny’beforeIhadherinmyarmsandwaskissingherardentlywhereverIcouldfindaplace,onherforehead,onhereyes,onherlipsoccasionally,onhercheeks,alloverherhead,somepartofwhichshewasobligedtoleaveexposed,inspiteofherself,todefendtheothers;butatlastshemanagedtoreleaseherself,blushingandangry.’Youareveryunmannerly,monsieur,’shesaid,’andIamsorryIlistenedtoyou.’
\"Itookherhandinsomeconfusionandstammeredout:’Ibegyourpardon.
Ibegyourpardon,mademoiselle.Ihaveoffendedyou;Ihaveactedlikeabrute!DonotbeangrywithmeforwhatIhavedone.Ifyouknew——’
Ivainlysoughtforsomeexcuse,andinafewmomentsshesaid:’Thereisnothingformetoknow,monsieur.’ButIhadfoundsomethingtosay,andIcried:’Mademoiselle,Iloveyou!’
\"Shewasreallysurprisedandraisedhereyestolookatme,andIwenton:’Yes,mademoiselle,andpraylistentome.IdonotknowMorin,andIdonotcareanythingabouthim.Itdoesnotmattertometheleastifheiscommittedfortrialandlockedupmeanwhile.Isawyouherelastyear,andIwassotakenwithyouthatthethoughtofyouhasneverleftmesince,anditdoesnotmattertomewhetheryoubelievemeornot.
Ithoughtyouadorable,andtheremembranceofyoutooksuchaholdonmethatIlongedtoseeyouagain,andsoImadeuseofthatfoolMorinasapretext,andhereIam.Circumstanceshavemademeexceedtheduelimitsofrespect,andIcanonlybegyoutopardonme.’
\"ShelookedatmetoseeifIwasinearnestandwasreadytosmileagain.Thenshemurmured:’Youhumbug!’ButIraisedmyhandandsaidinasincerevoice(andIreallybelievethatIwassincere):’IsweartoyouthatIamspeakingthetruth,’andsherepliedquitesimply:’Don’ttalknonsense!’
\"Wewerealone,quitealone,asRivetandherunclehaddisappeareddownasidewalk,andImadeherarealdeclarationoflove,whileIsqueezedandkissedherhands,andshelistenedtoitastosomethingnewandagreeable,withoutexactlyknowinghowmuchofitshewastobelieve,whileintheendIfeltagitated,andatlastreallymyselfbelievedwhatIsaid.Iwaspale,anxiousandtrembling,andIgentlyputmyarmroundherwaistandspoketohersoftly,whisperingintothelittlecurlsoverherears.Sheseemedinatrance,soabsorbedinthoughtwasshe.
\"Thenherhandtouchedmine,andshepressedit,andIgentlysqueezedherwaistwithatrembling,andgraduallyfirmer,grasp.Shedidnotmovenow,andItouchedhercheekwithmylips,andsuddenlywithoutseekingthemmylipsmethers.Itwasalong,longkiss,anditwouldhavelastedlongerstillifIhadnotheardahm!hm!justbehindme,atwhichshemadeherescapethroughthebushes,andturningroundIsawRivetcomingtowardme,and,standinginthemiddleofthepath,hesaidwithoutevensmiling:’SothatisthewayyousettletheaffairofthatpigofaMorin.’AndIrepliedconceitedly:’Onedoeswhatonecan,mydearfellow.Butwhatabouttheuncle?Howhaveyougotonwithhim?
Iwillanswerfortheniece.’’Ihavenotbeensofortunatewithhim,’
hereplied.
\"WhereuponItookhisarmandwewentindoors,III
\"Dinnermademelosemyheadaltogether.Isatbesideher,andmyhandcontinuallymethersunderthetablecloth,myfoottouchedhersandourglancesmet.
\"Afterdinnerwetookawalkbymoonlight,andIwhisperedallthetenderthingsIcouldthinkoftoher.Iheldherclosetome,kissedhereverymoment,whileheruncleandRivetwerearguingastheywalkedinfrontofus.Theywentin,andsoonamessengerbroughtatelegramfromheraunt,sayingthatshewouldnotreturnuntilthenextmorningatseveno’clockbythefirsttrain.
\"’Verywell,Henriette,’herunclesaid,’goandshowthegentlementheirrooms.’SheshowedRivethisfirst,andhewhisperedtome:’Therewasnodangerofhertakingusintoyoursfirst.’Thenshetookmetomyroom,andassoonasshewasalonewithmeItookherinmyarmsagainandtriedtoarouseheremotion,butwhenshesawthedangersheescapedoutoftheroom,andIretiredverymuchputoutandexcitedandfeelingratherfoolish,forIknewthatIshouldnotsleepmuch,andIwaswonderinghowIcouldhavecommittedsuchamistake,whentherewasagentleknockatmydoor,andonmyaskingwhowastherealowvoicereplied:’I’
\"Idressedmyselfquicklyandopenedthedoor,andshecamein.
’Iforgottoaskyouwhatyoutakeinthemorning,’shesaid;’chocolate,teaorcoffee?’Iputmyarmsroundherimpetuouslyandsaid,devouringherwithkisses:’Iwilltake——Iwilltake——’
\"Butshefreedherselffrommyarms,blewoutmycandleanddisappearedandleftmealoneinthedark,furious,tryingtofindsomematches,andnotabletodoso.AtlastIgotsomeandIwentintothepassage,feelinghalfmad,withmycandlestickinmyhand.
\"WhatwasIabouttodo?Ididnotstoptoreason,Ionlywantedtofindher,andIwould.Iwentafewstepswithoutreflecting,butthenI
suddenlythought:’SupposeIshouldwalkintotheuncle’sroomwhatshouldIsay?’AndIstoodstill,withmyheadavoidandmyheartbeating.ButinafewmomentsIthoughtofananswer:’Ofcourse,I
shallsaythatIwaslookingforRivet’sroomtospeaktohimaboutanimportantmatter,’andIbegantoinspectallthedoors,tryingtofindhers,andatlastItookholdofahandleataventure,turneditandwentin.TherewasHenriette,sittingonherbedandlookingatmeintears.SoIgentlyturnedthekey,andgoinguptoherontiptoeIsaid:
’Iforgottoaskyouforsomethingtoread,mademoiselle.’
\"Iwasstealthilyreturningtomyroomwhenaroughhandseizedmeandavoice——itwasRivet’s—whisperedinmyear:’SoyouhavenotyetquitesettledthataffairofMorin’s?’
\"Atseveno’clockthenextmorningHenrietteherselfbroughtmeacupofchocolate.Ineverhavedrunkanythinglikeit,soft,velvety,perfumed,delicious.Icouldhardlytakeawaymylipsfromthecup,andshehadhardlylefttheroomwhenRivetcamein.Heseemednervousandirritable,likeamanwhohadnotslept,andhesaidtomecrossly:
’IfyougoonlikethisyouwillendbyspoilingtheaffairofthatpigofaMorin!’
\"Ateighto’clocktheauntarrived.Ourdiscussionwasveryshort,fortheywithdrewtheircomplaint,andIleftfivehundredfrancsforthepoorofthetown.Theywantedtokeepusfortheday,andtheyarrangedanexcursiontogoandseesomeruins.Henriettemadesignstometostay,behindherparents’back,andIaccepted,butRivetwasdeterminedtogo,andthoughItookhimasideandbeggedandprayedhimtodothisforme,heappearedquiteexasperatedandkeptsayingtome:’IhavehadenoughofthatpigofaMorin’saffair,doyouhear?’
\"OfcourseIwasobligedtoleavealso,anditwasoneofthehardestmomentsofmylife.IcouldhavegoneonarrangingthatbusinessaslongasIlived,andwhenwewereintherailwaycarriage,aftershakinghandswithherinsilence,IsaidtoRivet:’Youareamerebrute!’Andhereplied:’Mydearfellow,youwerebeginningtoannoymeconfoundedly.’
\"OngettingtotheFanaloffice,Isawacrowdwaitingforus,andassoonastheysawustheyallexclaimed:’Well,haveyousettledtheaffairofthatpigofaMorin?’AllLaRochellewasexcitedaboutit,andRivet,whohadgotoverhisill—humoronthejourney,hadgreatdifficultyinkeepinghimselffromlaughingashesaid:’Yes,wehavemanagedit,thankstoLabarbe:AndwewenttoMorin’s.
\"Hewassittinginaneasy—chairwithmustardplastersonhislegsandcoldbandagesonhishead,nearlydeadwithmisery.Hewascoughingwiththeshortcoughofadyingman,withoutanyoneknowinghowhehadcaughtit,andhiswifelookedathimlikeatigressreadytoeathim,andassoonashesawushetrembledsoviolentlyastomakehishandsandkneesshake,soIsaidtohimimmediately:’Itisallsettled,youdirtyscamp,butdon’tdosuchathingagain.’
\"Hegotup,choking,tookmyhandsandkissedthemasiftheyhadbelongedtoaprince,cried,nearlyfainted,embracedRivetandevenkissedMadameMorin,whogavehimsuchapushastosendhimstaggeringbackintohischair;buthenevergotovertheblow;hismindhadbeentoomuchupset.Inallthecountryround,moreover,hewascallednothingbut’thatpigofaMorin,’andthatepithetwentthroughhimlikeasword—thrusteverytimeheheardit.Whenastreetboycalledafterhim’Pig!’heturnedhisheadinstinctively.Hisfriendsalsooverwhelmedhimwithhorriblejokesandusedtoaskhim,whenevertheywereeatingham,’Isitabitofyourself?’Hediedtwoyearslater.
\"Asformyself,whenIwasacandidatefortheChamberofDeputiesin1875,IcalledonthenewnotaryatFousserre,MonsieurBelloncle,tosolicithisvote,andatall,handsomeandevidentlywealthyladyreceivedme.’Youdonotknowmeagain?’shesaid.AndIstammeredout:
’Why——no——madame.’’HenrietteBonnel.’’Ah!’AndIfeltmyselfturningpale,whilesheseemedperfectlyathereaseandlookedatmewithasmile.
\"Assoonasshehadleftmealonewithherhusbandhetookbothmyhands,and,squeezingthemasifhemeanttocrushthem,hesaid:’Ihavebeenintendingtogoandseeyouforalongtime,mydearsir,formywifehasveryoftentalkedtomeaboutyou.Iknow——yes,Iknowunderwhatpainfulcircumstancesyoumadeheracquaintance,andIknowalsohowperfectlyyoubehaved,howfullofdelicacy,tactanddevotionyoushowedyourselfintheaffair——’Hehesitatedandthensaidinalowertone,asifhehadbeensayingsomethinglowandcoarse,’intheaffairofthatpigofaMorin.’\"
SAINTANTHONY
TheycalledhimSaintAnthony,becausehisnamewasAnthony,andalso,perhaps,becausehewasagoodfellow,jovial,aloverofpracticaljokes,atremendouseaterandaheavydrinkerandagayfellow,althoughhewassixtyyearsold.
HewasabigpeasantofthedistrictofCaux,witharedface,largechestandstomach,andperchedontwolegsthatseemedtooslightforthebulkofhisbody.
Hewasawidowerandlivedalonewithhistwomenservantsandamaidonhisfarm,whichheconductedwithshrewdeconomy.Hewascarefulofhisowninterests,understoodbusinessandtheraisingofcattle,andfarming.Histwosonsandhisthreedaughters,whohadmarriedwell,werelivingintheneighborhoodandcametodinewiththeirfatheronceamonth.Hisvigorofbodywasfamousinallthecountryside.\"HeisasstrongasSaintAnthony,\"hadbecomeakindofproverb.
AtthetimeofthePrussianinvasionSaintAnthony,atthewineshop,promisedtoeatanarmy,forhewasabraggart,likeatrueNorman,abitofa,cowardandablusterer.Hebangedhisfistonthewoodentable,makingthecupsandthebrandyglassesdance,andcriedwiththeassumedwrathofagoodfellow,withaflushedfaceandaslylookinhiseye:
\"Ishallhavetoeatsomeofthem,nomdeDieu!\"HereckonedthatthePrussianswouldnotcomeasfarasTanneville,butwhenheheardtheywereatRautotheneverwentoutofthehouse,andconstantlywatchedtheroadfromthelittlewindowofhiskitchen,expectingatanymomenttoseethebayonetsgoby.
Onemorningashewaseatinghisluncheonwiththeservantsthedooropenedandthemayorofthecommune,MaitreChicot,appeared,followedbyasoldierwearingablackcopper—pointedhelmet.SaintAnthonyboundedtohisfeetandhisservantsalllookedathim,expectingtoseehimslashthePrussian.Buthemerelyshookhandswiththemayor,whosaid:
\"Hereisoneforyou,SaintAnthony.Theycamelastnight.Don’tdoanythingfoolish,aboveallthings,fortheytalkedofshootingandburningeverythingifthereistheslightestunpleasantness,Ihavegivenyouwarning.Givehimsomethingtoeat;helookslikeagoodfellow.
Good—day.Iamgoingtocallontherest.Thereareenoughforall.\"
Andhewentout.
FatherAnthony,whohadturnedpale,lookedatthePrussian.Hewasabig,youngfellowwithplump,whiteskin,blueeyes,fairhair,unshaventohischeekbones,wholookedstupid,timidandgood.TheshrewdNormanreadhimatonce,and,reassured,hemadehimasigntositdown.Thenhesaid:\"Willyoutakesomesoup?\"
Thestrangerdidnotunderstand.Anthonythenbecamebolder,andpushingaplatefulofsouprightunderhisnose,hesaid:\"Here,swallowthat,bigpig!
Thesoldier,answered\"Ya,\"andbegantoeatgreedily,whilethefarmer,triumphant,feelinghehadregainedhisreputation,winkedhiseyeattheservants,whoweremakingstrangegrimaces,whatwiththeirterrorandtheirdesiretolaugh.
WhenthePrussianhaddevouredhissoup,SaintAnthonygavehimanotherplateful,whichdisappearedinlikemanner;butheflinchedatthethirdwhichthefarmertriedtoinsistonhiseating,saying:\"Come,putthatintoyourstomach;’twillfattenyouoritisyourownfault,eh,pig!\"
Thesoldier,understandingonlythattheywantedtomakehimeatallhissoup,laughedinacontentedmanner,makingasigntoshowthathecouldnotholdanymore.
ThenSaintAnthony,becomequitefamiliar,tappedhimonthestomach,saying:\"My,thereisplentyinmypig’sbelly!\"Butsuddenlyhebegantowrithewithlaughter,unabletospeak.Anideahadstruckhimwhichmadehimchokewithmirth.\"That’sit,that’sit,SaintAnthonyandhispig.There’smypig!\"Andthethreeservantsburstoutlaughingintheirturn.
Theoldfellowwassopleasedthathehadthebrandybroughtin,goodstuff,’filendix’,andtreatedeveryone.TheyclinkedglasseswiththePrussian,whoclackedhistonguebywayofflatterytoshowthatheenjoyedit.AndSaintAnthonyexclaimedinhisface:\"Eh,isnotthatsuperfine?Youdon’tgetanythinglikethatinyourhome,pig!\"
FromthattimeFatherAnthonyneverwentoutwithouthisPrussian.Hehadgotwhathewanted.Thiswashisvengeance,thevengeanceofanoldrogue.Andthewholecountryside,whichwasinterror,laughedtosplititssidesatSaintAnthony’sjoke.Truly,therewasnoonelikehimwhenitcametohumor.Noonebuthewouldhavethoughtofathinglikethat.
Hewasabornjoker!
Hewenttoseehisneighborseveryday,arminarmwithhisGerman,whomheintroducedinajovialmanner,tappinghimontheshoulder:\"See,hereismypig;lookandseeifheisnotgrowingfat,theanimal!\"
Andthepeasantswouldbeamwithsmiles.\"Heissocomical,thatrecklessfellow,Antoine!\"
\"Iwillsellhimtoyou,Cesaire,forthreepistoles\"(thirtyfrancs).
\"Iwilltakehim,Antoine,andIinviteyoutoeatsomeblackpudding.\"
\"WhatIwantishisfeet.\"
\"Feelhisbelly;youwillseethatitisallfat.\"
Andtheyallwinkedateachother,butdarednotlaughtooloud,forfearthePrussianmightfinallysuspecttheywerelaughingathim.Anthony,alonegrowingboldereveryday,pinchedhisthighs,exclaiming,\"Nothingbutfat\";tappedhimontheback,shouting,\"Thatisallbacon\";liftedhimupinhisarmsasanoldColossusthatcouldhaveliftedananvil,declaring,\"Heweighssixhundredandnowaste.\"
Hehadgotintothehabitofmakingpeopleofferhis\"pig\"somethingtoeatwherevertheywenttogether.Thiswasthechiefpleasure,thegreatdiversioneveryday.\"Givehimwhateveryouplease,hewillswalloweverything.\"Andtheyofferedthemanbreadandbutter,potatoes,coldmeat,chitterlings,whichcausedtheremark,\"Someofyourown,andchoiceones.\"
Thesoldier,stupidandgentle,atefrompoliteness,charmedattheseattentions,makinghimselfillratherthanrefuse,andhewasactuallygrowingfatandhisuniformbecomingtightforhim.ThisdelightedSaintAnthony,whosaid:\"Youknow,mypig,thatweshallhavetohaveanothercagemadeforyou.\"
Theyhad,however,becomethebestfriendsintheworld,andwhentheoldfellowwenttoattendtohisbusinessintheneighborhoodthePrussianaccompaniedhimforthesimplepleasureofbeingwithhim.
Theweatherwassevere;itwasfreezinghard.Theterriblewinterof1870seemedtobringallthescourgesonFranceatonetime.
FatherAntoine,whomadeprovisionbeforehand,andtookadvantageofeveryopportunity,foreseeingthatmanurewouldbescarceforthespringfarming,boughtfromaneighborwhohappenedtobeinneedofmoneyallthathehad,anditwasagreedthatheshouldgoeveryeveningwithhiscarttogetaload.
SoeverydayattwilighthesetoutforthefarmofHaules,halfaleaguedistant,alwaysaccompaniedbyhis\"pig.\"Andeachtimeitwasafestival,feedingtheanimal.AlltheneighborsranoverthereastheywouldgotohighmassonSunday.
Butthesoldierbegantosuspectsomething,bemistrustful,andwhentheylaughedtooloudhewouldrollhiseyesuneasily,andsometimestheylightedupwithanger.
Oneeveningwhenhehadeatenhisfillherefusedtoswallowanothermorsel,andattemptedtorisetoleavethetable.ButSaintAnthonystoppedhimbyaturnofthewristand,placinghistwopowerfulhandsonhisshoulders,hesathimdownagainsoroughlythatthechairsmashedunderhim.
Awildburstoflaughterbrokeforth,andAnthony,beaming,pickeduphispig,actedasthoughheweredressinghiswounds,andexclaimed:\"Sinceyouwillnoteat,youshalldrink,nomdeDieu!\"Andtheywenttothewineshoptogetsomebrandy.
Thesoldierrolledhiseyes,whichhadawickedexpression,buthedrank,nevertheless;hedrankaslongastheywantedhim,andSaintAnthonyheldhisheadtothegreatdelightofhiscompanions.
TheNorman,redasatomato,hiseyesablaze,filleduptheglassesandclinked,saying:\"Here’stoyou!\".AndthePrussian,withoutspeakingaword,poureddownoneafteranotherglassfulsofcognac.
Itwasacontest,abattle,arevenge!Whowoulddrinkthemost,nomd’unnom!Theycouldneitherofthemstandanymorewhentheliterwasemptied.Butneitherwasconquered.Theyweretied,thatwasall.Theywouldhavetobeginagainthenextday.
Theywentoutstaggeringandstartedforhome,walkingbesidethedungcartwhichwasdrawnalongslowlybytwohorses.
Snowbegantofallandthemoonlessnightwassadlylightedbythisdeadwhitenessontheplain.Themenbegantofeelthecold,andthisaggravatedtheirintoxication.SaintAnthony,annoyedatnotbeingthevictor,amusedhimselfbyshovinghiscompanionsoastomakehimfalloverintotheditch.Theotherwoulddodgebackwards,andeachtimehedidheutteredsomeGermanexpressioninanangrytone,whichmadethepeasantroarwithlaughter.FinallythePrussianlosthistemper,andjustasAnthonywasrollingtowardshimherespondedwithsuchaterrificblowwithhisfistthattheColossusstaggered.
Then,excitedbythebrandy,theoldmanseizedthepugilistroundthewaist,shookhimforafewmomentsashewouldhavedonewithalittlechild,andpitchedhimatrandomtotheothersideoftheroad.Then,satisfiedwiththispieceofwork,hecrossedhisarmsandbegantolaughafresh.
Butthesoldierpickedhimselfupinahurry,hisheadbare,hishelmethavingrolledoff,anddrawinghisswordherushedovertoFatherAnthony.
Whenhesawhimcomingthepeasantseizedhiswhipbythetopofthehandle,hisbighollywoodwhip,straight,strongandsuppleasthesinewofanox.
ThePrussianapproached,hisheaddown,makingalungewithhissword,sureofkillinghisadversary.Buttheoldfellow,squarelyhittingtheblade,thepointofwhichwouldhavepiercedhisstomach,turneditaside,andwiththebuttendofthewhipstruckthesoldierasharpblowonthetempleandhefelltotheground.
Thenhe,gazedaghast,stupefiedwithamazement,atthebody,twitchingconvulsivelyatfirstandthenlyingproneandmotionless.Hebentoverit,turneditonitsback,andgazedatitforsometime.Theman’seyeswereclosed,andbloodtrickledfromawoundatthesideofhisforehead.
Althoughitwasdark,FatherAnthonycoulddistinguishthebloodstainonthewhitesnow.
Heremainedthere,athiswit’send,whilehiscartcontinuedslowlyonitsway.
Whatwashetodo?Hewouldbeshot!Theywouldburnhisfarm,ruinhisdistrict!Whatshouldhedo?Whatshouldhedo?Howcouldhehidethebody,concealthefactofhisdeath,deceivethePrussians?Heheardvoicesinthedistance,amidtheutterstillnessofthesnow.Allatonceherousedhimself,andpickingupthehelmetheplaceditonhisvictim’shead.Then,seizinghimroundthebody,heliftedhimupinhisarms,andthusrunningwithhim,heovertookhisteam,andthrewthebodyontopofthemanure.Onceinhisownhousehewouldthinkupsomeplan.
Hewalkedslowly,rackinghisbrain,butwithoutresult.Hesaw,hefelt,thathewaslost.Heenteredhiscourtyard.Alightwasshininginoneoftheatticwindows;hismaidwasnotasleep.Hehastilybackedhiswagontotheedgeofthemanurehollow.Hethoughtthatbyoverturningthemanurethebodylyingontopofitwouldfallintotheditchandbeburiedbeneathit,andhedumpedthecart.