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  knewitwould!Ishother-butnotwithanordinarybullet。Mychargewasasmalliciclemadedeliberatelyforthepurpose。Ithadstrengthenoughtopenetrate,butitleftnotracebehindit。

  ’Abulletoficeforaheartofice,’Ihadsaidinthetormentofmyrage。Butthewordwaswithoutknowledge,Mr。Challoner。I

  seeitnow;Ihaveseenitfortwowholeweeks。Ididnotmisjudgehercondemnationofme,butImisjudgeditscause。Itwasnottothecomparativelypoor,thecomparativelyobscuremanshesoughttoshowcontempt,buttothebrotherofOswaldwhoseclaimsshesawinsulted。AwomanIshouldhaverespected,notkilled。Awomanofnoprideofstation;awomanwholovedamannotonlyofmyownclassbutofmyownblood-awoman,toavengewhoseunmeriteddeathIstandherebeforeyouaself-condemnedcriminal。Thatisbutjustice,Mr。Challoner。ThatisthewayIlookatthings。

  Thoughnosentimentalist;anddeadtoallbeliefssavetheeternaltruthsofscience,Ihavethatinmewhichwillnotletmeprofit,nowthatIknowmyselfunworthy,bythegreatsuccessIhaveearned。

  Hencethisconfession,Mr。Challoner。Ithasnotcomeeasily,nordoIshutmyeyesintheleasttotheresultswhichmustfollow。

  ButIcannotdodifferently。To-morrow,youmaytelegraphtoNewYork。TillthenIdesiretobeleftundisturbed。Ihavemanythingstodisposeofintheinterim。”

  Mr。Challoner,verywhitebynow,pointedtothedoorbeforehesankagainintohischair。Brothersontookitfordismissalandsteppedslowlyback。ThentheireyesmetagainandMr。Challonerspokehisfirstword:”Therewasanother-apoorwoman-shediedsuddenly-andherwoundwasnotunlikethatinflicteduponEdith。Didyou-””Idid。”Theanswercamewithoutatremour。”YoumaysayandsomayothersthatIwaslessjustifiedinthisattackthanintheother;butIdonotseeitthatway。Atheorydoesnotalwaysworkinpractice。IwishedtotesttheunusualmeansIcontemplated,andthewomanIsawbeforemeacrossthecourtwashard-workingandwithnothinginlifetolookforwardto,so-”

  AcryofbitterexecrationfromMr。Challonercuthimshort。

  Turningwithashrughewasabouttolifthishandtothedoor,whenhegaveaviolentstartandfellhastilybackbeforeaquicklyenteringfigureofsuchpassionandfuryasneitherofthesemenhadeverseenbefore。

  ItwasOswald!Oswald,thekindly!Oswald,theloverofmenandtheadorerofwomen!Oswald,withthewordsofthedastardlyconfessionhehadpartlyoverheardsearinghotwithinhisbrain!

  Oswald,raisedinamomentfromthedespondinginvalidtoaterrifyingministrantofretributivejustice。

  Orlandocouldscarcelyraisehishandbeforetheother’swasuponhisthroat。”Murderer!doubly-dyedmurdererofinnocentwomen!”washissedinthestrongman’sears。”Notwiththelawbutwithmeyoumustreckon,andmayGodandthespiritofmymothernervemyarm!”

  DESOLATE

  Thestrugglewasfiercebutmomentary。OswaldwithhisweakenedpowerscouldnotlongwithstandthesteadyexertionofOrlando’sgiantstrength,anderelongsankawayfromthecontestintoMr。

  Challoner’sarms。”Youshouldnothavesummonedtheshadeofourmothertoyouraid,”

  observedtheotherwithasmile,inwhichtheironywaslostinterriblepresage。”Iwasalwaysherfavourite。”

  Oswaldshuddered。Orlandohadspokentruly;shehadalwaysbeenblindly,arrogantlytrustfulofhereldestson。Nofaultcouldsheseeinhim;andnow-

  ImpetuouslyOswaldstruggledwithhisweakness,raisedhimselfinMr。Challoner’sarmsandcriedinloudrevolt:

  ButGodisjust。Hewillnotletyouescape。IfHedoes,Iwillnot。Iwillhoundyoutotheendsofthisearthand,ifnecessary,intotheeternities。Notwiththethreatofmyarm-youaremymasterthere,butwiththecurseofabrotherwhobelievedyouinnocentofhisdarling’sbloodandwouldhavebelievedyousoinfaceofeverythingbutyourownword。”

  Peace!”adjuredOrlando。”ThereisnoaccountIamnotreadytosettle。Ihaverobbedyouofthewomanyoulove,butIhavedespoiledmyself。Istanddesolateintheworld,whobutanhouragocouldhavechosenmyseatamongthebestandgreatest。Whatcanyourcursesdoafterthat?””Nothing。”Thewordcameslowlylikeadropwrungfromanearlyspentheart。”Nothing;nothing。Oh,Orlando,Iwishwewerebothdeadandburiedandthattherewerenofurtherlifeforeitherofus。”

  Thesoftenedtone,thewistfulprayerwhichwouldblotoutanimmortalityofjoyfortheone,thatitmightsavetheotherfromanimmortalityofretribution,touchedsomelongunsoundedchordinOrlando’sextraordinarynature。

  Advancingastep,heheldouthishand-theleftone。”We’llleavethefuturetoitself,Oswald,anddowhatwecanwiththepresent,”saidhe。”I’vemadeamessofmylifeandspoiledacareerwhichmighthavemadeusbothkings。Forgiveme,Oswald。

  IaskfornothingelsefromGodorman。Ishouldlikethat。Itwouldstrengthenmeforto-morrow。”

  ButOswald,everkindly,generousandmorereadytothinkofothersthanofhimself,hadyetsomeofOrlando’stenacity。Hegazedatthathandandaflushsweptupoverhischeekwhichinstantlybecameghastlyagain。”Icannot,”saidhe-”noteventheleftone。MayGodforgiveme!”

  Orlando,strucksilentforamoment,droppedhishandandslowlyturnedaway。Mr。ChallonerfeltOswaldstiffeninhisarms,andbreaksuddenlyaway,onlytostopshortbeforehehadtakenoneofthehalfdozenstepsbetweenhimselfandhisdepartingbrother。”Whereareyougoing?”hedemandedintoneswhichmadeOrlandoturn。”Imightsay,Tothedevil,”wasthesarcasticreply。”ButIdoubtifhewouldreceiveme。No,”headded,inmoreordinarytonesastheothershiveredandagainstartedforward,”youwillhavenotroubleinfindingmeinmyownroomto-night。Ihaveletterstowriteand-otherthings。Amanlikemecannotdropoutwithoutaripple。Youmaygotobedandsleep。Iwillkeepawakefortwo。””Orlando!”VisionswerepassingbeforeOswald’seyes,soul-crushingvisionssuchasinhisblamelesslifeheneverthoughtcouldenterintohisconsciousnessorblasthistranquiloutlookuponlife。”Orlando!”heagainappealed,coveringhiseyesinafrenziedattempttoshutoutthesehorrors,”Icannotletyougolikethis。

  To-morrow-””To-morrow,ineverynicheandcornerofthisworld,whereverEdithChalloner’snamehasgone,wherevermynamehasgone,itwillbeknownthatthediscovererofapracticalair-ship,isamanwhomtheycannolongerhonour。Doyouthinkthatisnothellenoughforme;orthatIdonotrealisethehellitwillbeforyou?I’veneverweariedyouoranymanwithmyaffection;butI’mnotalldemon。Iwouldgladlyhavesparedyouthisadditionalanguish;butthatwasimpossible。Youaremybrotherandmustsufferfromtheconnectionwhetherwewouldhaveitsoofnot。Ifitpromisestoomuchmisery-andIknownomiserylikethatofshame-comewithmewhereIgoto-morrow。Therewillberoomfortwo。”

  Oswald,swayingwithweakness,butmaddenedbythesightofanoverthrowwhichcarriedwithitthestifledaffectionsandtheadmirationofhiswholelife,gaveaboundforward,openedhisarmsand-fell。

  Orlandostoppedshort。Gazingdownonhisprostratebrother,hestoodforamomentwithagleamofsomethinglikehumantendernessshowingthroughtheflareofdyingpassionsandperishinghopes;

  thenheswungopenthedoorandpassedquietlyout,andMr。

  Challonercouldhearthelaughingremarkwithwhichhemetanddismissedthehalf-dozenmenandwomenwhohadbeendrawntothisendofthehallbywhathadsoundedtothemlikeafracasbetweenangrymen。

  FIVEO’CLOCKINTHEMORNING

  Theclockinthehotelofficestruckthree。OrlandoBrothersoncountedthestrokes;thenwentonwriting。Histransomwaspartlyopenandhehadjustheardastepgobyhisdoor。Thiswasnothingnew。Hehadalreadyhearditseveraltimesbeforethatnight。ItwasMr。Challoner’sstep,andeverytimeitpassed,hehadrustledhispapersorscratchedvigorouslywithhispen。”HeiskeepingwatchforOswald,”washisthought。”Theyfearasuddenendtothis。

  Noone,notthesonofmymotherknowsme。DoIknowmyself?”

  Fouro’clock!Thelightwasstillburning,thepileoflettershewaswritingincreasing。

  Fiveo’clock!Arattlingshadebetraysanopenwindow。Noothersounddisturbsthequietoftheroom。Itisemptynow;butMr。

  Challoner,longsincesatisfiedthatallwaswell,goesbynomore。Silencehassettleduponthehotel;-thatheavysilencewhichprecedesthedawn。

  Therewassilenceinthestreetsalso。Thefewwhowereabroad,creptquietlyalong。Anelectricstormwasintheairandthesurchargedcloudshungheavyandlow,bidingthemomentofoutbreak。

  Amanwhohadleftaplaceofmanyshadowsforthemoreopenroad,pausedandlookedupattheseclouds;thenwentcalmlyon。

  Suddenlytheshriekofanapproachingtraintearsthroughthevalley。Hasitacallforthisman?No。Yethepausesinthemidstofthestreetheiscrossingandwatches,asachildmightwatch,fortheflashofitslightsattheendofthedarkenedvista。

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