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  ”NotsofarasIknow,”saidJolyon,consciousoftheintentwatchfulnessinSoames’face。”Well,that’sallIhadtosay。Anyonewhocomesbetweenmanandwife,youknow,incursheavyresponsibility。”Jolyonroseandmadehimaslightbow。”Good-bye,”hesaid,and,withoutofferingtoshakehands,movedaway,leavingSoamesstaringafterhim。’WeForsytes,’thoughtJolyon,hailingacab,’areverycivilised。Withsimplerfolkthatmighthavecometoarow。Ifitweren’tformyboygoingtothewar……’Thewar!Agustofhisolddoubtsweptoverhim。A

  preciouswar!Dominationofpeoplesorofwomen!Attemptstomasterandpossessthosewhodidnotwantyou!Thenegationofgentledecency!Possession,vestedrights;andanyone’agin’’em——

  outcast!’ThankHeaven!’hethought,’Ialwaysfelt”agin”’em,anyway!’Yes!EvenbeforehisfirstdisastrousmarriagehecouldrememberfumingoverthebludgeoningofIreland,orthematrimonialsuitsofwomentryingtobefreeofmentheyloathed。Parsonswouldhaveitthatfreedomofsoulandbodywerequitedifferentthings!Perniciousdoctrine!Bodyandsoulcouldnotthusbeseparated。Freewillwasthestrengthofanytie,andnotitsweakness。’IoughttohavetoldSoames,’hethought,’thatIthinkhimcomic。Ah!buthe’stragic,too!’Wasthereanything,indeed,moretragicintheworldthanamanenslavedbyhisownpossessiveinstinct,whocouldn’tseetheskyforit,orevenenterfullyintowhatanotherpersonfelt!’Imustwriteandwarnher,’

  hethought;’he’sgoingtohaveanothertry。’AndallthewayhometoRobinHillherebelledatthestrengthofthatdutytohissonwhichpreventedhimfrompostingbacktoParis……

  ButSoamessatlonginhischair,thepreyofanolessgnawingache——ajealousache,asifithadbeenrevealedtohimthatthisfellowheldprecedenceofhimself,andhadspunfreshthreadsofresistancetohiswayout。’Doesthatmeanthatyou’reagainstme?’hehadgotnothingoutofthatdisingenuousquestion。

  Feminist!Phraseyfellow!’Imustn’trushthings,’hethought。

  ’Ihavesomebreathingspace;he’snotgoingbacktoParis,unlesshewaslying。I’llletthespringcome!’Thoughhowthespringcouldservehim,savebyaddingtohisache,hecouldnottell。

  Andgazingdownintothestreet,wherefigureswerepassingfrompooltopoolofthelightfromthehighlamps,hethought:’Nothingseemsanygood——nothingseemsworthwhile。I’mloney——that’sthetrouble。’

  Heclosedhiseyes;andatonceheseemedtoseeIrene,inadarkstreetbelowachurch——passing,turninghernecksothathecaughtthegleamofhereyesandherwhiteforeheadunderalittledarkhat,whichhadgoldspanglesonitandaveilhangingdownbehind。

  Heopenedhiseyes——sovividlyhehadseenher!Awomanwaspassingbelow,butnotshe!Ohno,therewasnothingthere!

  CHAPTERXIII

  HEREWEAREAGAIN!’

  Imogen’sfrocksforherfirstseasonexercisedthejudgmentofhermotherandthepurseofhergrandfatherallthroughthemonthofMarch。WithForsytetenacityWinifredquestedforperfection。Ittookhermindofftheslowlyapproachingritewhichwouldgiveherafreedombutdoubtfullydesired;tookhermind,too,offherboyandhisfastapproachingdepartureforawarfromwhichthenewsremaineddisquieting。Likebeesbusyonsummerflowers,orbrightgadflieshoveringanddartingoverspikyautumnblossoms,sheandher’littledaughter,’tallnearlyasherselfandwithabustmeasurementnotfarinferior,hoveredintheshopsofRegentStreet,theestablishmentsofHanoverSquareandofBondStreet,lostinconsiderationandthefeeloffabrics。DozensofyoungwomenofstrikingdeportmentandpeculiargaitparadedbeforeWinifredandImogen,drapedin’creations。’Themodels——’Verynew,modom;quitethelatestthing——’whichthosetworeluctantlyturneddown,wouldhavefilledamuseum;themodelswhichtheywereobligedtohavenearlyemptiedJames’bank。Itwasnogooddoingthingsbyhalves,Winifredfelt,inviewoftheneedformakingthisfirstandsoleuntarnishedseasonaconspicuoussuccess。

  Theirpatienceintryingthepatienceofthoseimpersonalcreatureswhoswamaboutbeforethemcouldalonehavebeendisplayedbysuchasweremovedbyfaith。ItwasforWinifredalongprostrationbeforeherdeargoddessFashion,ferventasaCatholicmightmakebeforetheVirgin;forImogenanexperiencebynomeanstoounpleasant——sheoftenlookedsonice,andflatterywasimpliciteverywhere:inaworditwas’amusing。’

  Ontheafternoonofthe20thofMarch,having,asitwere,guttedSkywards,theyhadsoughtrefreshmentoverthewayatCaramelandBaker’s,and,storedwithchocolatefrothedatthetopwithcream,turnedhomewardsthroughBerkeleySquareofaneveningtouchedwithspring。Openingthedoor——freshlypaintedalightolive-green;

  nothingneglectedthatyeartogiveImogenagoodsend-off——

  Winifredpassedtowardsthesilverbaskettoseeifanyonehadcalled,andsuddenlyhernostrilstwitched。Whatwasthatscent?

  Imogenhadtakenupanovelsentfromthelibrary,andstoodabsorbed。Rathersharply,becauseofthequeerfeelinginherbreast,Winifredsaid:”Takethatup,dear,andhavearestbeforedinner。”

  Imogen,stillreading,passedupthestairs。Winifredheardthedoorofherroomslammedto,anddrewalongsavouringbreath。Wasitspringticklinghersenses——whippingupnostalgiaforher’clown,’againstallwisdomandoutragedvirtue?Amalescent!A

  faintreekofcigarsandlavender-waternotsmeltsincethatearlyautumnnightsixmonthsago,whenshehadcalledhim’thelimit。’

  Whencecameit,orwasitghostofscent——sheeremanationfrommemory?Shelookedroundher。Nothing——notathing,notiniestdisturbanceofherhall,norofthediningroom。Alittleday-dreamofascent——illusory,saddening,silly!Inthesilverbasketwerenewcards,twowith’Mr。andMrs。PolegateThom,’andonewith’Mr。

  PolegateThom’thereon;shesniffedthem,buttheysmelledsevere。

  ’Imustbetired,’shethought,’I’llgoandliedown。’Upstairsthedrawing-roomwasdarkened,waitingforsomehandtogiveiteveninglight;andshepassedonuptoherbedroom。This,too,washalf-curtainedanddim,foritwassixo’clock。Winifredthrewoffhercoat——thatscentagain!——thenstood,asifshot,transfixedagainstthebed-rail。Somethingdarkhadrisenfromthesofainthefarcorner。Awordofhorror——inherfamily——escapedher:”God!””It’sI——Monty,”saidavoice。

  Clutchingthebed-rail,Winifredreachedupandturnedtheswitchofthelighthangingaboveherdressing-table。Heappearedjustontherimofthelight’scircumference,emblazonedfromtheabsenceofhiswatch-chaindowntobootsneatandsootybrown,but——yes!——

  splitatthetoecap。Hischestandfacewereshadowy。Surelyhewasthin——orwasitatrickofthelight?Headvanced,lightednowfromtoe-captothetopofhisdarkhead-surelyalittlegrizzled!

  Hiscomplexionhaddarkened,sallowed;hisblackmoustachehadlostboldness,becomesardonic;therewerelineswhichshedidnotknowabouthisface。Therewasnopininhistie。Hissuit——ah!——sheknewthat——buthowunpressed,unglossy!Shestaredagainatthetoe-capofhisboot。Somethingbigandrelentlesshadbeen’athim,’hadturnedandtwisted,rakedandscrapedhim。Andshestayed,notspeaking,motionless,staringatthatcrackacrossthetoe。”Well!”hesaid,”Igottheorder。I’mback。”

  Winifred’sbosombegantoheave。Thenostalgiaforherhusbandwhichhadrushedupwiththatscentwasstrugglingwithadeeperjealousythananyshehadfeltyet。Therehewas——adark,andasifharried,shadowofhissleekandbrazenself!Whatforcehaddonethistohim——squeezedhimlikeanorangetoitsdryrind!

  Thatwoman!”I’mback,”hesaidagain。”I’vehadabeastlytime。ByGod!I

  camesteerage。I’vegotnothingbutwhatIstandupin,andthatbag。””Andwhohastherest?”criedWinifred,suddenlyalive。”Howdaredyoucome?Youknewitwasjustfordivorcethatyougotthatordertocomeback。Don’ttouchme!”

  Theyheldeachtotherailofthebigbedwheretheyhadspentsomanyyearsofnightstogether。Manytimes,yes——manytimesshehadwantedhimback。Butnowthathehadcomeshewasfilledwiththiscoldanddeadlyresentment。Heputhishanduptohismoustache;

  butdidnotfrizzandtwistitintheoldfamiliarway,hejustpulleditdownwards。”Gad!”hesaid:”IfyouknewthetimeI’vehad!””I’mgladIdon’t!””Arethekidsallright?”

  Winifrednodded。”Howdidyougetin?””Withmykey。””Thenthemaidsdon’tknow。Youcan’tstayhere,Monty。”

  Heutteredalittlesardoniclaugh。”Wherethen?””Anywhere。””Well,lookatme!That——thatdamned……””Ifyoumentionher,”criedWinifred,”IgostraightouttoParkLaneandIdon’tcomeback。”

  Suddenlyhedidasimplething,butsouncharacteristicthatitmovedher。Heshuthiseyes。Itwasasifhehadsaid:’Allright!I’mdeadtotheworld!’”Youcanhavearoomforthenight,”shesaid;”yourthingsarestillhere。OnlyImogenisathome。”

  Heleanedbackagainstthebed-rail。”Well,it’sinyourhands,”

  andhisownmadeawrithingmovement。”I’vebeenthroughit。Youneedn’thittoohard——itisn’tworthwhile。I’vebeenfrightened;

  I’vebeenfrightened,Freddie。”

  Thatoldpetname,disusedforyearsandyears,sentashiverthroughWinifred。

  ’WhatamItodowithhim?’shethought。’WhatinGod’snameamI

  todowithhim?’”Gotacigarette?”

  Shegavehimonefromalittleboxshekeptupthereforwhenshecouldn’tsleepatnight,andlightedit。Withthatactionthematter-of-factsideofhernaturecametolifeagain。”Goandhaveahotbath。I’llputsomeclothesoutforyouinthedressing-room。Wecantalklater。”

  Henodded,andfixedhiseyesonher——theylookedhalf-dead,orwasitthatthefoldsinthelidshadbecomeheavier?

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