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  -partlyoriginalsin,butpartlytheresultofhisearlyimmorality——ofthemoralattitude。Themosthecouldeverhavesaidtohissonwouldhavebeen:”Lookhere,oldman;don’tforgetyou’reagentleman,”andthenhavewonderedwhimsicallywhetherthatwasnotasnobbishsentiment。Thegreatcricketmatchwasperhapsthemostsearchingandawkwardtimetheyannuallywentthroughtogether,forJolyonhadbeenatEton。Theywouldbeparticularlycarefulduringthatmatch,continuallysaying:”Hooray!Oh!hardluck,oldman!”or”Hooray!Oh!badluck,Dad!”

  toeachother,whensomedisasteratwhichtheirheartsboundedhappenedtotheopposingschool。AndJolyonwouldwearagreytophat,insteadofhisusualsoftone,tosavehisson’sfeelings,forablacktophathecouldnotstomach。WhenJollywentuptoOxford,Jolyonwentupwithhim,amused,humble,andalittleanxiousnottodiscredithisboyamongstalltheseyouthswhoseemedsomuchmoreassuredandoldthanhimself。Heoftenthought,’GladI’mapainter’forhehadlongdroppedunder-writingatLloyds——’it’ssoinnocuous。Youcan’tlookdownonapainter——

  youcan’ttakehimseriouslyenough。’ForJolly,whohadasortofnaturallordliness,hadpassedatonceintoaverysmallset,whosecretlyamusedhisfather。Theboyhadfairhairwhichcurledalittle,andhisgrandfather’sdeepsetiron-greyeyes。Hewaswell-builtandveryupright,andalwayspleasedJolyon’saestheticsense,sothathewasatinybitafraidofhim,asartistseverareofthoseoftheirownsexwhomtheyadmirephysically。Onthatoccasion,however,heactuallydidscrewuphiscouragetogivehissonadvice,andthiswasit:”Lookhere,oldman,you’reboundtogetintodebt;mindyoucometomeatonce。Ofcourse,I’llalwayspaythem。Butyoumightrememberthatonerespectsoneselfmoreafterwardsifonepaysone’sownway。Anddon’teverborrow,exceptfromme,willyou?”

  AndJollyhadsaid:”Allright,Dad,Iwon’t,”andheneverhad。”Andthere’sjustoneotherthing。Idon’tknowmuchaboutmoralityandthat,butthereisthis:It’salwaysworthwhilebeforeyoudoanythingtoconsiderwhetherit’sgoingtohurtanotherpersonmorethanisabsolutelynecessary。”

  Jollyhadlookedthoughtful,andnodded,andpresentlyhadsqueezedhisfather’shand。AndJolyonhadthought:’IwonderifIhadtherighttosaythat?’Healwayshadasortofdreadoflosingthedumbconfidencetheyhadineachother;rememberinghowforlongyearshehadlosthisownfather’s,sothattherehadbeennothingbetweenthembutloveatagreatdistance。Heunder-estimated,nodoubt,thechangeinthespiritoftheagesincehehimselfwentuptoCambridgein’65;andperhapsheunderestimated,too,hisboy’spowerofunderstandingthathewastoleranttotheverybone。Itwasthattoleranceofhis,andpossiblyhisscepticism,whichevermadehisrelationstowardsJunesoqueerlydefensive。Shewassuchadecidedmortal;knewherownmindsoterriblywell;wantedthingssoinexorablyuntilshegotthem——andthen,indeed,oftendroppedthemlikeahotpotato。Hermotherhadbeenlikethat,whencehadcomeallthosetears。NotthathisincompatibilitywithhisdaughterwasanythinglikewhatithadbeenwiththefirstMrs。

  YoungJolyon。Onecouldbeamusedwhereadaughterwasconcerned;

  inawife’scaseonecouldnotbeamused。ToseeJunesetherheartandjawonathinguntilshegotitwasallright,becauseitwasneveranythingwhichinterferedfundamentallywithJolyon’sliberty——theonethingonwhichhisjawwasalsoabsolutelyrigid,aconsiderablejaw,underthatshortgrizzlingbeard。Norwasthereeveranynecessityforrealheart-to-heartencounters。Onecouldbreakawayintoirony——asindeedheoftenhadto。ButtherealtroublewithJunewasthatshehadneverappealedtohisaestheticsense,thoughshemightwellhave,withherred-goldhairandherviking-colouredeyes,andthattouchoftheBerserkerinherspirit。ItwasverydifferentwithHolly,softandquiet,shyandaffectionate,withaplayfulimpinhersomewhere。Hewatchedthisyoungerdaughterofhisthroughtheducklingstagewithextraordinaryinterest。Wouldshecomeoutaswan?Withhersallowovalfaceandhergreywistfuleyesandthoselongdarklashes,shemight,orshemightnot。Onlythislastyearhadhebeenabletoguess。Yes,shewouldbeaswan——ratheradarkone,alwaysashyone,butanauthenticswan。Shewaseighteennow,andMademoiselleBeaucewasgone——theexcellentladyhadremoved,afterelevenyearshauntedbyhercontinuousreminiscencesofthe’well-

  brrredlittleTayleurs,’toanotherfamilywhosebosomwouldnowbeagitatedbyherreminiscencesofthe’well-brrredlittleForsytes。’

  ShehadtaughtHollytospeakFrenchlikeherself。

  PortraiturewasnotJolyon’sforte,buthehadalreadydrawnhisyoungerdaughterthreetimes,andwasdrawingherafourth,ontheafternoonofOctober4th,1899,whenacardwasbroughttohimwhichcausedhiseyebrowstogoup:

  Mr。SOAMESFORSYTE

  THESHELTER,CONNOISSEURSCLUB,MAPLEDURHAM。ST。JAMES’S。

  ButheretheForsyteSagamustdigressagain……

  ToreturnfromalongtravelinSpaintoadarkenedhouse,toalittledaughterbewilderedwithtears,tothesightofalovedfatherlyingpeacefulinhislastsleep,hadneverbeen,wasneverlikelytobe,forgottenbysoimpressionableandwarm-heartedamanasJolyon。Asenseasofmystery,too,clungtothatsadday,andabouttheendofonewhoselifehadbeensowell-ordered,balanced,andabove-board。Itseemedincrediblethathisfathercouldthushavevanishedwithout,asitwere,announcinghisintention,withoutlastwordstohisson,andduefarewells。AndthoseincoherentallusionsoflittleHollyto’theladyingrey,’ofMademoiselleBeaucetoaMadameErrantasitsoundedinvolvedallthingsinamist,liftedalittlewhenhereadhisfather’swillandthecodicilthereto。IthadbeenhisdutyasexecutorofthatwillandcodiciltoinformIrene,wifeofhiscousinSoames,ofherlifeinterestinfifteenthousandpounds。HehadcalledonhertoexplainthattheexistinginvestmentinIndiaStock,ear-markedtomeetthecharge,wouldproduceforhertheinterestingnetsumof?430oddayear,clearofincometax。ThiswasbutthethirdtimehehadseenhiscousinSoames’wife——ifindeedshewasstillhiswife,ofwhichhewasnotquitesure。HerememberedhavingseenhersittingintheBotanicalGardenswaitingforBosinney——apassive,fascinatingfigure,remindinghimofTitian’s’HeavenlyLove,’andagain,when,chargedbyhisfather,hehadgonetoMontpellierSquareontheafternoonwhenBosinney’sdeathwasknown。Hestillrecalledvividlyhersuddenappearanceinthedrawing-roomdoorwayonthatoccasion——herbeautifulface,passingfromwildeagernessofhopetostonydespair;rememberedthecompassionhehadfelt,Soames’snarlingsmile,hiswords,”Wearenotathome!”andtheslamofthefrontdoor。

  Thisthirdtimehesawafaceandformmorebeautiful——freedfromthatwarpofwildhopeanddespair。Lookingather,hethought:

  ’Yes,youarejustwhattheDadwouldhaveadmired!’Andthestrangestoryofhisfather’sIndiansummerbecameslowlycleartohim。ShespokeofoldJolyonwithreverenceandtearsinhereyes。”Hewassowonderfullykindtome;Idon’tknowwhy。Helookedsobeautifulandpeacefulsittinginthatchairunderthetree;itwasIwhofirstcameonhimsittingthere,youknow。Suchalovelyday。Idon’tthinkanendcouldhavebeenhappier。Weshouldallliketogooutlikethat。”’QuiterightI’hehadthought。’Weshouldallaliketogooutinfullsummerwithbeautysteppingtowardsusacrossalawn。’Andlookingroundthelittle,almostemptydrawing-room,hehadaskedherwhatshewasgoingtodonow。”Iamgoingtoliveagainalittle,CousinJolyon。It’swonderfultohavemoneyofone’sown。I’veneverhadany。Ishallkeepthisflat,Ithink;I’musedtoit;butIshallbeabletogotoItaly。”

  Exactly!”Jolyonhadmurmured,lookingatherfaintlysmilinglips;andhehadgoneawaythinking:’Afascinatingwoman!Whatawaste!I’mgladtheDadleftherthatmoney。’Hehadnotseenheragain,buteveryquarterhehadsignedhercheque,forwardingittoherbank,withanotetotheChelseaflattosaythathehaddoneso;andalwayshehadreceivedanoteinacknowledgment,generallyfromtheflat,butsometimesfromItaly;sothatherpersonalityhadbecomeembodiedinslightlyscentedgreypaper,anuprightfinehandwriting,andthewords,’DearCousinJolyon。’Manofpropertythathenowwas,theslenderchequehesignedoftengaverisetothethought:’Well,Isupposeshejustmanages’;slidingintoavaguewonderhowshewasfaringotherwiseinaworldofmennotwonttoletbeautygounpossessed。AtfirstHollyhadspokenofhersometimes,but’ladiesingrey’soonfadefromchildren’smemories;andthetighteningofJune’slipsinthosefirstweeksafterhergrandfather’sdeathwheneverherformerfriend’snamewasmentioned,haddiscouragedallusion。Onlyonce,indeed,hadJunespokendefinitely:”I’veforgivenher。I’mfrightfullygladshe’sindependentnow……”

  OnreceivingSoames’card,Jolyonsaidtothemaid——forhecouldnotabidebutlers——”Showhimintothestudy,please,andsayI’llbethereinaminute”;andthenhelookedatHollyandasked:”Doyouremember’theladyingrey,’whousedtogiveyoumusic-

  lessons?””Ohyes,why?Hasshecome?”

  Jolyonshookhishead,and,changinghishollandblouseforacoat,wassilent,perceivingsuddenlythatsuchhistorywasnotforthoseyoungears。Hisface,infact,becamewhimsicalperplexityincarnatewhilehejourneyedtowardsthestudy。

  Standingbythefrench-window,lookingoutacrosstheterraceattheoaktree,weretwofigures,middle-agedandyoung,andhethought:’Who’sthatboy?Surelytheyneverhadachild。’

  Theelderfigureturned。ThemeetingofthosetwoForsytesofthesecondgeneration,somuchmoresophisticatedthanthefirst,inthehousebuiltfortheoneandownedandoccupiedbytheother,wasmarkedbysubtledefensivenessbeneathdistinctattemptatcordiality。’Hashecomeabouthiswife?’Jolyonwasthinking;andSoames,’HowshallIbegin?’whileVal,broughttobreaktheice,stoodnegligentlyscrutinisingthis’beardedpard’fromunderhisdark,thickeyelashes。”ThisisValDartie,”saidSoames,”mysister’sson。He’sjustgoinguptoOxford。IthoughtI’dlikehimtoknowyourboy。””Ah!I’msorryJolly’saway。Whatcollege?””B。N。C。,”repliedVal。”Jolly’satthe’House,’buthe’llbedelightedtolookyouup。””Thanksawfully。””Holly’sin——ifyoucouldputupwithafemalerelation,she’dshowyouround。You’llfindherinthehallifyougothroughthecurtains。Iwasjustpaintingher。”

  Withanother”Thanks,awfully!”Valvanished,leavingthetwocousinswiththeiceunbroken。”Iseeyou’vesomedrawingsatthe’WaterColours,’”saidSoames。

  Jolyonwinced。HehadbeenoutoftouchwiththeForsytefamilyatlargefortwenty-sixyears,buttheywereconnectedinhismindwithFrith’s’DerbyDay’andLandseerprints。HehadheardfromJunethatSoameswasaconnoisseur,whichmadeitworse。Hehadbecomeaware,too,ofacurioussensationofrepugnance。”Ihaven’tseenyouforalongtime,”hesaid。”No,”answeredSoamesbetweencloselips,”notsince——asamatteroffact,it’saboutthatI’vecome。You’rehertrustee,I’mtold。”

  Jolyonnodded。”Twelveyearsisalongtime,”saidSoamesrapidly:”I——I’mtiredofit。”

  Jolyonfoundnomoreappropriateanswerthan:”Won’tyousmoke?””No,thanks。”

  Jolyonhimselflitacigarette。

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