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  Letcookdosomethingextra,andtellBeacontohavethelandauandpairathalf-pasttentodriveherbacktoTownto-night。IsMissHollyasleep?”

  Themaidthoughtnot。AndoldJolyon,passingdownthegallery,stoleontiptoetowardsthenursery,andopenedthedoorwhosehingeshekeptspeciallyoiledthathemightslipinandoutintheeveningswithoutbeingheard。

  ButHollywasasleep,andlaylikeaminiatureMadonna,ofthattypewhichtheoldpainterscouldnottellfromVenus,whentheyhadcompletedher。Herlongdarklashesclungtohercheeks;onherfacewasperfectpeace——herlittlearrangementswereevidentlyallrightagain。AndoldJolyon,inthetwilightoftheroom,stoodadoringher!Itwassocharming,solemn,andloving——thatlittleface。Hehadmorethanhisshareoftheblessedcapacityoflivingagainintheyoung。Theyweretohimhisfuturelife——allofafuturelifethathisfundamentalpagansanityperhapsadmitted。Thereshewaswitheverythingbeforeher,andhisblood——someofit——inhertinyveins。Thereshewas,hislittlecompanion,tobemadeashappyaseverhecouldmakeher,sothatsheknewnothingbutlove。Hisheartswelled,andhewentout,stillingthesoundofhispatent-leatherboots。Inthecorridoraneccentricnotionattackedhim:TothinkthatchildrenshouldcometothatwhichIrenehadtoldhimshewashelping!Womenwhowereall,once,littlethingslikethisonesleepingthere!’Imustgiveheracheque!’hemused;’Can’tbeartothinkofthem!’Theyhadneverbornereflectingon,thosepooroutcasts;woundingtoodeeplythecoreoftruerefinementhiddenunderlayersofconformitytothesenseofproperty——woundingtoogrievouslythedeepestthinginhim——aloveofbeautywhichcouldgivehim,evennow,aflutteroftheheart,thinkingofhiseveninginthesocietyofaprettywoman。Andhewentdownstairs,throughtheswingingdoors,tothebackregions。There,inthewine-cellar,wasahockworthatleasttwopoundsabottle,aSteinbergCabinet,betterthananyJohan-nisbergthateverwentdownthroat;awineofperfectbouquet,sweetasanectarine——nectarindeed!Hegotabottleout,handlingitlikeababy,andholdingitleveltothelight,tolook。Enshrinedinitscoatofdust,thatmellowcoloured,slender——neckedbottlegavehimdeeppleasure。ThreeyearstosettledownagainsincethemovefromTown——oughttobeinprimecondition!Thirty-fiveyearsagohehadboughtit——thankGodhehadkepthispalate,andearnedtherighttodrinkit。Shewouldappreciatethis;notaspiceofacidityinadozen。Hewipedthebottle,drewthecorkwithhisownhands,puthisnosedown,inhaleditsperfume,andwentbacktothemusicroom。

  Irenewasstandingbythepiano;shehadtakenoffherhatandalacescarfshehadbeenwearing,sothathergold-colouredhairwasvisible,andthepallorofherneck。InhergreyfrockshemadeaprettypictureforoldJolyon,againsttherosewoodofthepiano。

  Hegaveherhisarm,andsolemnlytheywent。Theroom,whichhadbeendesignedtoenabletwenty-fourpeopletodineincomfort,heldnowbutalittleroundtable。Inhispresentsolitudethebigdining-tableoppressedoldJolyon;hehadcausedittoberemovedtillhissoncameback。HereinthecompanyoftworeallygoodcopiesofRaphaelMadonnashewaswonttodinealone。Itwastheonlydisconsolatehourofhisday,thissummerweather。Hehadneverbeenalargeeater,likethatgreatchapSwithin,orSylvanusHeythorp,orAnthonyThornworthy,thosecroniesofpasttimes;andtodinealone,overlookedbytheMadonnas,wastohimbutasorrowfuloccupation,whichhegotthroughquickly,thathemightcometothemorespiritualenjoymentofhiscoffeeandcigar。Butthiseveningwasadifferentmatter!HiseyestwinkledatheracrossthelittletableandhespokeofItalyandSwitzerland,tellingherstoriesofhistravelsthere,andotherexperienceswhichhecouldnolongerrecounttohissonandgrand-daughterbecausetheyknewthem。Thisfreshaudiencewasprecioustohim;

  hehadneverbecomeoneofthoseoldmenwhorambleroundandroundthefieldsofreminiscence。Himselfquicklyfatiguedbytheinsensitive,heinstinctivelyavoidedfatiguingothers,andhisnaturalflirtatiousnesstowardsbeautyguardedhimspeciallyinhisrelationswithawoman。Hewouldhavelikedtodrawherout,butthoughshemurmuredandsmiledandseemedtobeenjoyingwhathetoldher,heremainedconsciousofthatmysteriousremotenesswhichconstitutedhalfherfascination。Hecouldnotbearwomenwhothrewtheirshouldersandeyesatyou,andchatteredaway;orhard-

  mouthedwomenwholaiddownthelawandknewmorethanyoudid。

  Therewasonlyonequalityinawomanthatappealedtohim——charm;

  andthequieteritwas,themorehelikedit。Andthisonehadcharm,shadowyasafternoonsunlightonthoseItalianhillsandvalleyshehadloved。Thefeeling,too,thatshewas,asitwere,apart,cloistered,madeherseemnearertohimself,astrangelydesirablecompanion。Whenamanisveryoldandquiteoutoftherunning,helovestofeelsecurefromtherivalriesofyouth,forhewouldstillbefirstintheheartofbeauty。Andhedrankhishock,andwatchedherlips,andfeltnearlyyoung。ButthedogBalthasarlaywatchingherlipstoo,anddespisinginhishearttheinterruptionsoftheirtalk,andthetiltingofthosegreenishglassesfullofagoldenfluidwhichwasdistastefultohim。

  Thelightwasjustfailingwhentheywentbackintothemusic-room。

  And,cigarinmouth,oldJolyonsaid:”PlaymesomeChopin。”

  Bythecigarstheysmoke,andthecomposerstheylove,yeshallknowthetextureofmen’ssouls。OldJolyoncouldnotbear——astrongcigarorWagner’smusic。HelovedBeethovenandMozart,HandelandGluck,andSchumann,and,forsomeoccultreason,theoperasofMeyerbeer;butoflateyearshehadbeenseducedbyChopin,justasinpaintinghehadsuccumbedtoBotticelli。InyieldingtothesetasteshehadbeenconsciousofdivergencefromthestandardoftheGoldenAge。TheirpoetrywasnotthatofMiltonandByronandTennyson;ofRaphaelandTitian;MozartandBeethoven。Itwas,asitwere,behindaveil;theirpoetryhitnooneintheface,butslippeditsfingersundertheribsandturnedandtwisted,andmelteduptheheart。And,nevercertainthatthiswashealthy,hedidnotcarearapsolongashecouldseethepicturesoftheoneorhearthemusicoftheother。

  Irenesatdownatthepianoundertheelectriclampfestoonedwithpearl-grey,andoldJolyon,inanarmchair,whencehecouldseeher,crossedhislegsanddrewslowlyathiscigar。Shesatafewmomentswithherhandsonthekeys,evidentlysearchinghermindforwhattogivehim。ThenshebeganandwithinoldJolyontherearoseasorrowfulpleasure,notquitelikeanythingelseintheworld。Hefellslowlyintoatrance,interruptedonlybythemovementsoftakingthecigaroutofhismouthatlongintervals,andreplacingit。Shewasthere,andthehockwithinhim,andthescentoftobacco;butthere,too,wasaworldofsunshinelingeringintomoonlight,andpoolswithstorksuponthem,andbluishtreesabove,glowingwithblursofwine-redroses,andfieldsoflavenderwheremilk-whitecowsweregrazing,andawomanallshadowy,withdarkeyesandawhiteneck,smiled,holdingoutherarms;andthroughairwhichwaslikemusicastardroppedandwascaughtonacow’shorn。Heopenedhiseyes。Beautifulpiece;sheplayedwell——

  thetouchofanangel!Andheclosedthemagain。Hefeltmirac-

  ulouslysadandhappy,asonedoes,standingunderalime-treeinfullhoneyflower。Notliveone’sownlifeagain,butjuststandthereandbaskinthesmileofawoman’seyes,andenjoythebouquet!Andhejerkedhishand;thedogBalthasarhadreachedupandlickedit。”Beautiful!”Hesaid:”Goon——moreChopin!”

  Shebegantoplayagain。Thistimetheresemblancebetweenherand’Chopin’struckhim。Theswayinghehadnoticedinherwalkwasinherplayingtoo,andtheNocturneshehadchosenandthesoftdarknessofhereyes,thelightonherhair,asofmoonlightfromagoldenmoon。Seductive,yes;butnothingofDelilahinherorinthatmusic。Alongbluespiralfromhiscigarascendedanddispersed。’Sowegoout!’hethought。’Nomorebeauty!Nothing?’

  AgainIrenestopped。”WouldyoulikesomeGluck?Heusedtowritehismusicinasunlitgarden,withabottleofRhinewinebesidehim。””Ah!;yes。Let’shave’Orfeo。”’Roundabouthimnowwerefieldsofgoldandsilverflowers,whiteformsswayinginthesunlight,brightbirdsflyingtoandfro。Allwassummer。Lingeringwavesofsweetnessandregretfloodedhissoul。Somecigarashdropped,andtakingoutasilkhandkerchieftobrushitoff,heinhaledamingledscentasofsnuffandeaudeCologne。’Ah!’hethought,’Indiansummer——that’sall!’andhesaid:”Youhaven’tplayedme’Chefaro。’”

  Shedidnotanswer;didnotmove。Hewasconsciousofsomething——

  somestrangeupset。Suddenlyhesawherriseandturnaway,andapangofremorseshotthroughhim。Whataclumsychap!LikeOrpheus,sheofcourse——shetoowaslookingforherlostoneinthehallofmemory!Anddisturbedtotheheart,hegotupfromhischair。Shehadgonetothegreatwindowatthefarend。Gingerlyhefollowed。Herhandswerefoldedoverherbreast;hecouldjustseehercheek,verywhite。And,quiteemotionalized,hesaid:”There,there,mylove!”Thewordshadescapedhimmechanically,fortheywerethoseheusedtoHollywhenshehadapain,buttheireffectwasinstantaneouslydistressing。Sheraisedherarms,coveredherfacewiththem,andwept。

  OldJolyonstoodgazingatherwitheyesverydeepfromage。Thepassionateshamesheseemedfeelingatherabandonment,sounlikethecontrolandquietudeofherwholepresencewasasifshehadneverbeforebrokendowninthepresenceofanotherbeing。”There,there——there,there!”hemurmured,andputtinghishandoutreverently,touchedher。Sheturned,andleanedthearmswhichcoveredherfaceagainsthim。OldJolyonstoodverystill,keepingonethinhandonhershoulder。Lethercryherheartout——itwoulddohergood。

  AndthedogBalthasar,puzzled,satdownonhissterntoexaminethem。

  Thewindowwasstillopen,thecurtainshadnotbeendrawn,thelastofdaylightfromwithoutmingledwithfaintintrusionfromthelampwithin;therewasascentofnew-mowngrass。WiththewisdomofalonglifeoldJolyondidnotspeak。Evengriefsobbeditselfoutintime;onlyTimewasgoodforsorrow——Timewhosawthepassingofeachmood,eachemotioninturn;Timethelayer-to-rest。

  Therecameintohismindthewords:’Aspanteththehartaftercoolingstreams’——buttheywereofnousetohim。Then,consciousofascentofviolets,heknewshewasdryinghereyes。Heputhischinforward,pressedhismoustacheagainstherforehead,andfelthershakewithaquiveringofherwholebody,asofatreewhichshakesitselffreeofraindrops。Sheputhishandtoherlips,asifsaying:”Allovernow!Forgiveme!”

  Thekissfilledhimwithastrangecomfort;heledherbacktowhereshehadbeensoupset。AndthedogBalthasar,following,laidtheboneofoneofthecutletstheyhadeatenattheirfeet。

  Anxioustoobliteratethememoryofthatemotion,hecouldthinkofnothingbetterthanchina;andmovingwithherslowlyfromcabinettocabinet,hekepttakingupbitsofDresdenandLowestoftandChelsea,turningthemroundandroundwithhisthin,veinedhands,whoseskin,faintlyfreckled,hadsuchanagedlook。”IboughtthisatJobson’s,”hewouldsay;”costmethirtypounds。

  It’sveryold。Thatdogleaveshisbonesallovertheplace。Thisold’ship-bowl’Ipickedupatthesalewhenthatpreciousrip,theMarquis,cametogrief。Butyoudon’tremember。Here’sanicepieceofChelsea。Now,whatwouldyousaythiswas?”Andhewascomforted,feelingthat,withhertaste,shewastakingarealinterestinthesethings;for,afterall,nothingbettercomposesthenervesthanadoubtfulpieceofchina。

  Whenthecrunchofthecarriagewheelswasheardatlast,hesaid”Youmustcomeagain;youmustcometolunch,thenIcanshowyouthesebydaylight,andmylittlesweet——she’sadearlittlething。

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