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  “Youdid?Why,UncleShad!“

  “Yes。Itold’RastusI’dcredithisaccountwithit,butIdon’tknow’sIhadn’toughttogiveitbacktothesummerfeller。Anyhow,gettin’itwasashock,sameasIsaidatthebeginnin’。’Rastussayshe’sgoin’tosueme。ItoldhimI’dhavesuedHIMlongagoifI’dsupposedhecouldSTEALadollar,letaloneborrowone。“

  CHAPTERXXII

  ItwaslateinAugustwhenMaryreceivedtheletterfromCrawfordinwhichhetoldofhisdeterminationtowaitnolongerbuttotellhisfatherofhisloveforher。EdwinSmithwasmuchbetter。Bywayofproof,hissoninclosedaphotographwhichhehadtakenofhisfathersittingbeneathatreeonthelawnoftheirhome。ThepictureshowedMr。Smithwithouthisbeard,whichhadbeenshavedoffduringhisillness。Eitherthisortheillnessitselfhadchangedhimagreatdeal。Helookedthinnerand,whichwasoddunderthecircumstances,younger。Mary,lookingatthisphotograph,feltmorethanevertheimpossibleconvictionthatsomewhereorotheratsometimeinherlifeshemusthavemetMr。EdwinSmith。

  So,inmynextletter[wroteCrawford],Ishallhavenewstotell。

  AndIamsureitwillbegoodnews。“Askyourfatherfirst,“yousaid。Ofcourseyourememberthat,andIhaverememberediteverymomentsince。NowIamgoingtoaskhim。Afterthatyouwillgivemeyouranswer,won’tyou?Anditcan’tbeanythingbutyes,becauseIwon’tletitbe。

  WhatMary’sfeelingswerewhenshereceivedthisletter,whetherornotshesleptassoundlythatnightandothernightsimmediatelyfollowing,whetherornotthesightofIsaiahreturningfromthepost-officeatmailtimescausedherbreathtocomealittlequickerandhernervestothrill——thesearequestionstheanswerstowhichmustbeguessed。SufficeittosaythatshemanifestednomarkedsymptomsofimpatienceandanxietyduringthatweekandwhenatlastIsaiahhandedheranotherletterpostmarkedCarsonCitythetremblingofthehandwhichreceiveditwassoslightastobeunnoticedbyMr。Chase。

  Sheputasidetheletteruntilthatnightwhenshewasaloneinherroom。ThensheopeneditandreadwhatCrawfordhadwritten。Hisfatherhadnotonlyrefusedconsenttohisson’scontemplatedmarriagebuthadmanifestedsuchextraordinaryagitationandsuchsavageandunreasonableobstinacythatCrawfordwasalmostinclinedtobelievehisparent’srecentillnesshadaffectedhismind。

  ThatistheonlyexplanationIcanthinkof[hewrote]。Itseemsasifhemustbeinsane。Andyetheseemedrationalenoughatthebeginningofourfirstinterviewandduringmostofthesecond。

  EvenwhenIhadbrokenthenewsthattherewasagirlinwhomIfeltanespecialinteresthedidnotshowanysignoftheoutbreakthatcameafterward。Itwasn’tuntilIbegantotellhowIfirstmetyouthereatSouthHarniss,whoyouwere,andaboutCaptainGouldandMr。Hamilton,thatInoticedhewasactingqueerly。Iwasheadoverheelsinmystory,tryingtomakeplainhowdesperatemycasewasanddoingmybesttomakehimappreciatehowtremendouslyluckyhissonwastohaveevenaglimmerofachancetogetagirllikeyouforawife,whenIheardhimmakeanoddnoiseinhisthroat。I

  lookedup——Idon’tknowwhereIhadbeenlookingbefore——certainlynotathim——andtherehewas,leaningbackinhischair,hisfaceaswhiteashiscollar,andwavingahandatme。Ithoughthewaschoking,orwasdesperatelyillorsomething,andIsprangtowardhim,buthewavedmeback。“Stop!Wait!“hesaid,orstammered,orchoked;itwasmorelikeacroakthanahumanvoice。“Don’tcomehere!Letmebe!Whatareyoutryingtotellme?Who——whoisthisgirl?“Iaskedhimwhatwasthematter——hismannerandhislookfrightenedme——buthewouldn’tanswer,keptorderingmetotellhimagainwhoyouwere。SoIdidtellhimthatyouwerethedaughteroftheReverendCharlesLathropandAugustaLathrop,andofyourmother’ssecondmarriagetoCaptainMarcellusHall。“Buthediedwhenshewassevenyearsold,“Iwenton,“andsincethattimeshehasbeenlivingwithherguardians,thetwofineoldfellowswhoadoptedher,CaptainShadrachGouldandZoethHamilton。TheyliveatSouthHarnissonCapeCod。“Ihadgottennofurtherthanthiswhenheinterruptedme。“She——shehasbeenlivingwithZoethHamilton?“hecried。“WithZoethHamilton!Oh,myGod!Did——didZoethHamiltonsendyoutome?“Yes,thatisexactlywhathesaid:

  “DidZoethHamiltonsendyoutome?“Istaredathim。“Why,no,Dad,“Isaid,assoonasIcouldsayanything。“Ofcoursehedidn’t。IhavemetMr。Hamiltonbutonceinmylife。WhatISthematter?Sitdownagain。Don’tyouthinkIhadbettercallthedoctor?“Ithoughtsurelyhisbrainwasgoing。Butno,hewouldn’tanswerorlisten。Insteadhelookedatmewiththewildest,craziestexpressionandsaid:“DidZoethHamiltontellyou?““Hetoldmenothing,Dad,“Isaid,asgentlyasIcould。“Ofcoursehedidn’t。Iamalmostastrangertohim。Besides,whatintheworldwastheretotell?IcametoyoubecauseIhadsomethingtotell。

  ImeantomarryMaryLathrop,ifshewillhaveme——“Igotnofurtherthanthat。“No!“hefairlyscreamed。“No!No!No!Oh,myGod,no!“Andthenthedoctorcamerunningin,wegotDadtobed,anditwasalloverforthatday,exceptthatInaturallywastremendouslyupsetandconscience-stricken。IcouldseethatthedoctorthoughtIwastoblame,thatIhadconfessedsomethingorother——somethingcriminal,Iimaginehesurmised——toDadandthatithadknockedthepooroldchapover。AndIcouldn’texplain,becausewhatIhadtoldhimwasnotforoutsiderstohear。

  Well,afteraterriblyanxiousnightandaworrisomeforenoonthedoctortoldmethatfatherwashimselfagainandwantedtoseemeatonce。“I’vesaidallIcanagainstit,“saidthedoctor。“Idon’tknowwhatsortofrumpusyoutwohadyesterday,butitcamedangerouslynearbeingthefinishforhim。Anditmustnotberepeated;I’mmakingthatasemphaticasIcan。“IassuredhimthatsofarasIwasconcernedtherewouldnotbeascene,andthenwentintoDad’sroom。Helookedwhiteenoughandsickenoughbuthewasrationalandhismindwaskeenandclear。Hegotmetotellthewholestoryaboutyoualloveragainandheaskedalotofquestions;infact,hecross-examinedmeprettythoroughly。WhenI

  hadfinishedhistonewascalm,butInoticedthathishandwasshakingandheseemedtobeholdinghimselfin。“Andsoyouthinkyouwanttomarrythisdown-eastcountrygirl,doyou?“hesaid。“I

  certainlydo,“saidI。Helaughed,aforcedlaugh——didn’tsoundlikehisatall——andhesaid:“Well,myboy,you’llgetoverit。

  It’sawholelotbettertogetoveritnowthantodosobyandbywhenit’stoolate。It’sagoodthingIcalledyouhomewhenIdid。

  YoustayhereandkeeponwithyourstudiesandI’llkeepongettingintoshapeagain。Bynextsummer,whenwegoonourfishingtrip,you’llhaveforgottenallaboutyourDown-Easter。“Well,THATwasastaggerer,comingfromhim。Itdidn’tsoundlikehimatall,andagainIhadthatfeelingthathismindwasgoing。Yousee,Mary,I

  neveraskedDadforanythingIdidn’tget——never。Now,Iwasn’tasking,IwasjusttellinghimwhatIhadmadeupmymindtohave,andhetreatedmethisway。Iansweredhimcalmlyandquietly,tellinghimIwasseriousandwhatyoumeanttome。Hewouldn’tlistenatfirst;thenwhenhedid,hewouldn’tagree。Pleadedwithme——hewaslonesome,Iwashisonlyson,heneededme,hecouldn’tsharemewithanyoneelse,andsoon。Thereisnousegoingintoallthedetails。Wedidn’tgetanyneareranagreement,wedidgetnearerandnearertobadtemperonmypartandshoutsandhystericsonhis。SoIlefthim,Mary。Thatwaslastnight。IknewDadwasinclinedtobestubborn,andIknewhehadstrongprejudices,butI

  neverimaginedhecouldbehavelikethistome。AndIamsurehewouldnotifhewerehimself。SoIshallsaynomoretohimonthesubjectforadayortwo。Then,whenheisbetter,asIamhopinghemaybesoon,heandIwillhaveanothertalk。Butunderstand,Marydear,mymindwasmadeupbeforeIspoketohimatall。Whathesaysorwhathedoeswillmakenodifference,sofarasyouandI

  areconcerned。Iknowyouareabelieverinduty;well,soamI。I

  wouldstickbyDadthroughthickandthin。IfIknewhewasrightinaskingmetodoornottodoathing,evenifIknewhehadbeenwronginaskingotherthings,Iwouldstickbyhimandtrytodoasheasked。Butnotthis。IloveDad,GodknowsIdo,butIloveyou,Mary,andasIhavevowedtomyselfeverydaysinceIlastsawyou,Iamgoingtomarryyouifyouwillonlyhaveme。AsforDad——

  well,we’llhopewithinadayortwoImayhavebetternewstowrite。

  Maryreadandrereadthelongletter。Thensheleanedbackinherchairandwiththeletterinherlapsatthere——thinking。Shehadbeenrightinherforebodings;itwasasshehadexpected,hadforeseen:EdwinSmith,manofaffairs,wealthy,arbitrary,eccentric,accustomedtohavinghisownwayandhisprejudices,howeverabsurd,respected——amanwithanonlysonforwhom,doubtless,plansdefiniteandambitioushadbeenmade,couldnotbeexpectedcalmlytopermittheupsettingofthoseplansbyhisboy’smarriagetoapoor“Down-Easter。“Somuchshehadforeseenfromthefirst,andshehadneversharedCrawford’sabsoluteconfidenceinhisparent’sacquiescence。Shehadbeenprepared,therefore,toreadthatMr。Smithhadrefusedhisconsent。

  Buttobepreparedforaprobabilityandtofaceacertaintyarequitedifferent。Itwasthecertaintyshewasfacingnow。UnlessMr。Smithchangedhismind,andthechancesweretentooneagainstthat,heandhissonwouldquarrel。Crawfordhadinheritedaportionofhisfather’sstubbornness;hewasdetermined,sheknew。

  Helovedherandhemeantwhathesaid——ifshewouldhavehimhewouldmarryherinspiteofhisfather。Itmadeherproudandhappytoknowthat。Butshe,too,wasresoluteandhadmeantwhatshesaid。Shewouldnotbethecauseofaseparationbetweenfatherandson。And,besides,marriagehadbecomeforheramatterofthedistantfuture;forthepresenthertaskwassetthereatSouthHarniss。

  Whatshouldshedo?ItwashardforCrawford,poorfellow。Yes,butitwashardforher,too。Noonebutsheknewhowhard。Hewouldwriteheragaintellingherthathisdecisionwasunchanged,begginghertosayshelovedhim,pleadingwithhertowaitforhim。

  Andshewouldwait——Oh,howgladly,howjoyfullyshecouldwait——forhim!——ifsheknewshewasdoingrightinpermittinghimtowaitforher。Ifshewassurethatinpermittinghimtogiveuphisfather’sloveandhishomeandmoneyandallthatmoneycouldbuyshewasjustified。Thereisalovewhichasksandalovewhichgiveswithoutaskingreturn;thelatteristhegreaterloveanditwashers。ShehadwrittenCrawfordthatperhapsshewasnotsureofherfeelingtowardhim。Thatwasnottrue。Shewassure;butbecauseshewasfearfulthathisknowledgemightbethemeansofentailingagreatsacrificeonhispart,shewouldnottellhim。

  Whatshouldshedo?Sheconsidered,asthelittleMary-’Gustausedtoconsiderhersmallproblemsinthatveryroom。Andtheresultofherconsiderationswasratherunsatisfactory。Therewasnothingshecoulddonow,nothingbutwaituntilsheheardagainfromCrawford。

  Thenshewouldwrite。

  Shebrushedhereyeswithherhandkerchiefandreadtheletteragain。Therewerepartsofitwhichshecouldnotunderstand。ShewasalmostinclinedtoadoptCrawford’ssuggestionthathisfather’smindmighthavebeenaffectedbyhisillness。Whyhadhereceivedsopassivelythenewsthathissonhadfalleninloveandyetbecomesoviolentwhentoldtheobjectofthatlove?Hedidnotknowher,MaryLathrop;therecouldbenopersonalqualityinhisobjection。

  AndwhatcouldhehavemeantbyaskingifZoethHamiltonhadsentCrawfordtohim?Thatwasabsolutelyabsurd。Zoeth,andShadrach,too,hadtalkedwithMaryofCrawford’speopleintheWest,butmerelycasually,asofcompletestrangers,which,ofcourse,theywere。Itwasallstrange,butexplainableifoneconsideredthatMr。Smithwasweakandilland,perhaps,flighty。Shemustnotthinkanymoreaboutitnow——thatis,shemusttrynottothink。

  Shemustnotgiveway,andaboveallshemustnotpermitherunclestosuspectthatshewastroubled。ShemusttryhardtoputitfromherminduntilCrawford’snextlettercame。

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