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  Whentheothertravellersclosedtheireyes,whichtheydidonebyone-eventhekittencurlingitselfupinthebasket,wearyofitstoocircumscribedplay-theboyremainedjustasbefore。Hethenseemedtobedoublyawake,likeanenslavedanddwarfeddivinity,sittingpassiveandregardinghiscompanionsasifhesawtheirwholeroundedlivesratherthantheirimmediatefigures。

  ThiswasArabella’sboy。WithherusualcarelessnessshehadpostponedwritingtoJudeabouthimtilltheeveofhislanding,whenshecouldabsolutelypostponenolonger,thoughshehadknownforweeksofhisapproachingarrival,andhad,asshetrulysaid,visitedAldbrickhammainlytorevealtheboy’sexistenceandhisnearhome-comingtoJude。Thisverydayonwhichshehadreceivedherformerhusband’sansweratsometimeintheafternoon,thechildreachedtheLondonDocks,andthefamilyinwhosechargehehadcome,havingputhimintoacabforLambethanddirectedthecabmantohismother’shouse,badehimgood-bye,andwenttheirway。

  OnhisarrivalattheThreeHorns,Arabellahadlookedhimoverwithanexpressionthatwasasgoodassaying,`YouareverymuchwhatIexpectedyoutobe,’hadgivenhimagoodmeal,alittlemoney,and,lateasitwasgetting,dispatchedhimtoJudebythenexttrain,wishingherhusbandCartlett,whowasout,nottoseehim。

  ThetrainreachedAldbrickham,andtheboywasdepositedonthelonelyplatformbesidehisbox。Thecollectortookhisticketand,withameditativesenseoftheunfitnessofthings,askedhimwherehewasgoingbyhimselfatthattimeofnight。

  `GoingtoSpringStreet,’saidthelittleoneimpassively。

  `Why,that’salongwayfromhere;a’mostoutinthecountry;

  andthefolkswillbegonetobed。’

  `I’vegottogothere。’

  `Youmusthaveaflyforyourbox。’

  `No。Imustwalk。’

  `Ohwell:you’dbetterleaveyourboxhereandsendforit。There’sa’busgoeshalf-way,butyou’llhavetowalktherest。’

  `Iamnotafraid。’

  `Whydidn’tyourfriendscometomeet’ee?’

  `Isupposetheydidn’tknowIwascoming。’

  `Whoisyourfriends?’

  `Motherdidn’twishmetosay。’

  `AllIcando,then,istotakechargeofthis。Nowwalkasfastasyoucan。’

  Sayingnothingfurthertheboycameoutintothestreet,lookingroundtoseethatnobodyfollowedorobservedhim。Whenhehadwalkedsomelittledistanceheaskedforthestreetofhisdestination。Hewastoldtogostraightonquiteintotheoutskirtsoftheplace。

  Thechildfellintoasteadymechanicalcreepwhichhadinitanimpersonalquality-themovementofthewave,orofthebreeze,orofthecloud。Hefollowedhisdirectionsliterally,withoutaninquiringgazeatanything。Itcouldhavebeenseenthattheboy’sideasoflifeweredifferentfromthoseofthelocalboys。Childrenbeginwithdetail,andlearnuptothegeneral;theybeginwiththecontiguous,andgraduallycomprehendtheuniversal。Theboyseemedtohavebegunwiththegeneralsoflife,andnevertohaveconcernedhimselfwiththeparticulars。Tohimthehouses,thewillows,theobscurefieldsbeyond,wereapparentlyregardednotasbrickresidences,pollards,meadows;butashumandwellingsintheabstract,vegetation,andthewidedarkworld。

  Hefoundthewaytothelittlelane,andknockedatthedoorofJude’shouse。Judehadjustretiredtobed,andSuewasabouttoenterherchamberadjoiningwhensheheardtheknockandcamedown。

  `IsthiswhereFatherlives?’askedthechild。

  `Who?’

  `Mr。Fawley,that’shisname。’

  SueranuptoJude’sroomandtoldhim,andhehurrieddownassoonashecould,thoughtoherimpatienceheseemedlong。

  `What-isithe-sosoon?’sheaskedasJudecame。

  Shescrutinizedthechild’sfeatures,andsuddenlywentawayintothelittlesitting-roomadjoining。Judeliftedtheboytoalevelwithhimself,keenlyregardedhimwithgloomytenderness,andtellinghimhewouldhavebeenmetiftheyhadknownofhiscomingsosoon,sethimprovisionallyinachairwhilsthewenttolookforSue,whosesupersensitivenesswasdisturbed,asheknew。Hefoundherinthedark,bendingoveranarm-chair。

  Heenclosedherwithhisarm,andputtinghisfacebyhers,whispered,`What’sthematter?’

  `WhatArabellasaysistrue-true!Iseeyouinhim!’

  `Well:that’sonethinginmylifeasitshouldbe,atanyrate。’

  `Buttheotherhalfofhimis-she!Andthat’swhatI

  can’tbear!ButIoughtto-I’lltrytogetusedtoit;yes,Iought!’

  `JealouslittleSue!Iwithdrawallremarksaboutyoursexlessness。

  Nevermind!Timemayrightthings……AndSue,darling;Ihaveanidea!

  We’lleducateandtrainhimwithaviewtotheuniversity。WhatIcouldn’taccomplishinmyownpersonperhapsIcancarryoutthroughhim?Theyaremakingiteasierforpoorstudentsnow,youknow。’

  `Ohyoudreamer!’saidshe,andholdinghishandreturnedtothechildwithhim。Theboylookedatherasshehadlookedathim。`Isityouwho’smyrealmotheratlast?’heinquired。

  `Why?DoIlooklikeyourfather’swife?’

  `Well,yes;’ceptheseemsfondofyou,andyouofhim。CanI

  callyouMother?’

  Thenayearninglookcameoverthechildandhebegantocry。

  Suethereuponcouldnotrefrainfrominstantlydoinglikewise,beingaharpwhichtheleastwindofemotionfromanother’sheartcouldmaketovibrateasreadilyasaradicalstirinherown。

  `YoumaycallmeMother,ifyouwishto,mypoordear!’shesaid,bendinghercheekagainsthistohidehertears。

  `What’sthisroundyourneck?’askedJudewithaffectedcalmness。

  `Thekeyofmyboxthat’satthestation。’

  Theybustledaboutandgothimsomesupper,andmadehimupatemporarybed,wherehesoonfellasleep。Bothwentandlookedathimashelay。

  `HecalledyouMothertwoorthreetimesbeforehedroppedoff,’

  murmuredJude。`Wasn’titoddthatheshouldhavewantedto!’

  `Well-itwassignificant,’saidSue。`There’smoreforustothinkaboutinthatonelittlehungryheartthaninallthestarsofthesky……Isuppose,dear,wemustpluckupcourage,andgetthatceremonyover?Itisnousestrugglingagainstthecurrent,andIfeelmyselfgettingintertwinedwithmykind。OhJude,you’lllovemedearly,won’tyou,afterwards!Idowanttobekindtothischild,andtobeamothertohim;andouraddingthelegalformtoourmarriagemightmakeiteasierforme。’

  JudetheObscureChapter38V-ivTheirnextandsecondattemptthereatwasmoredeliberatelymade,thoughitwasbegunonthemorningfollowingthesingularchild’sarrivalattheirhome。

  Himtheyfoundtobeinthehabitofsittingsilent,hisquaintandweirdfaceset,andhiseyesrestingonthingstheydidnotseeinthesubstantialworld。

  `HisfaceislikethetragicmaskofMelpomene,’saidSue。`Whatisyourname,dear?Didyoutellus?’

  `LittleFatherTimeiswhattheyalwayscalledme。Itisanickname;

  becauseIlooksoaged,theysay。’

  `Andyoutalkso,too,’saidSuetenderly。`Itisstrange,Jude,thatthesepreternaturallyoldboysalmostalwayscomefromnewcountries。

  Butwhatwereyouchristened?’

  `Ineverwas。’

  `Whywasthat?’

  `Because,ifIdiedindamnation,’twouldsavetheexpenseofaChristianfuneral。’

  `Oh-yournameisnotJude,then?’saidhisfatherwithsomedisappointment。

  Theboyshookhishead。`Neverheerdonit。’

  `Ofcoursenot,’saidSuequickly;`sinceshewashatingyouallthetime!’

  `We’llhavehimchristened,’saidJude;andprivatelytoSue:

  `Thedaywearemarried。’Yettheadventofthechilddisturbedhim。

  Theirpositionlentthemshyness,andhavinganimpressionthatamarriageatasuperintendentregistrar’sofficewasmoreprivatethananecclesiasticalone,theydecidedtoavoidachurchthistime。BothSueandJudetogetherwenttotheofficeofthedistricttogivenotice:theyhadbecomesuchcompanionsthattheycouldhardlydoanythingofimportanceexceptineachother’scompany。

  JudeFawleysignedtheformofnotice,Suelookingoverhisshoulderandwatchinghishandasittracedthewords。Asshereadthefour-squareundertaking,neverbeforeseenbyher,intowhichherownandJude’snameswereinserted,andbywhichthatveryvolatileessence,theirloveforeachother,wassupposedtobemadepermanent,herfaceseemedtogrowpainfullyapprehensive。`NamesandSurnamesoftheParties’-theyweretobepartiesnow,notlovers,shethought。`Condition’-ahorrididea-

  `RankorOccupation’-`Age’-`Dwellingat’-`LengthofResidence’-

  `ChurchorBuildinginwhichtheMarriageistobesolemnized’-`DistrictandCountyinwhichthePartiesrespectivelydwell。’

  `Itspoilsthesentiment,doesn’tit!’shesaidontheirwayhome。

  `Itseemsmakingamoresordidbusinessofiteventhansigningthecontractinavestry。Thereisalittlepoetryinachurch。Butwe’lltrytogetthroughwithit,dearest,now。’

  `Wewill。`Forwhatmanishethathathbetrothedawifeandhathnottakenher?Lethimgoandreturnuntohishouse,lesthedieinthebattle,andanothermantakeher。’SosaidtheJewishlaw-giver。’

  `HowyouknowtheScriptures,Jude!Youreallyoughttohavebeenaparson。Icanonlyquoteprofanewriters!’

  DuringtheintervalbeforetheissuingofthecertificateSue,inherhousekeepingerrands,sometimeswalkedpasttheoffice,andfurtivelyglancinginsawaffixedtothewallthenoticeofthepurposedclinchtotheirunion。Shecouldnotbearitsaspect。Comingafterherpreviousexperienceofmatrimony,alltheromanceoftheirattachmentseemedtobestarvedawaybyplacingherpresentcaseinthesamecategory。ShewasusuallyleadinglittleFatherTimebythehand,andfanciedthatpeoplethoughthimhers,andregardedtheintendedceremonyasthepatchingupofanolderror。

  MeanwhileJudedecidedtolinkhispresentwithhispastinsomeslightdegreebyinvitingtotheweddingtheonlypersonremainingonearthwhowasassociatedwithhisearlylifeatMarygreen-theagedwidowMrs。

  Edlin,whohadbeenhisgreat-aunt’sfriendandnurseinherlastillness。

  Hehardlyexpectedthatshewouldcome;butshedid,bringingsingularpresents,intheformofapples,jam,brasssnuffers,anancientpewterdish,awarming-pan,andanenormousbagofgoosefeatherstowardsabed。

  ShewasallottedthespareroominJude’shouse,whithersheretiredearly,andwheretheycouldhearherthroughtheceilingbelow,honestlysayingtheLord’sPrayerinaloudvoice,astheRubricdirected。

  As,however,shecouldnotsleep,anddiscoveredthatSueandJudewerestillsittingup-itbeinginfactonlyteno’clock-shedressedherselfagainandcamedown,andtheyallsatbythefiretillalatehour-FatherTimeincluded;though,asheneverspoke,theywerehardlyconsciousofhim。

  `Well,Ibain’tsetagainstmarryingasyourgreat-auntwas,’

  saidthewidow。`AndIhope’twillbeajocundweddingforyeinallrespectsthistime。Nobodycanhopeitmore,knowingwhatIdoofyourfamilies,whichismore,Isuppose,thananybodyelsenowliving。Fortheyhavebeenunluckythatway,Godknows。’

  Suebreatheduneasily。

  `Theywasalwaysgood-heartedpeople,too-wouldn’tkillaflyiftheyknowedit,’continuedtheweddingguest。`Butthingshappenedtothwart’em,andifeverythingwasn’tvittytheywereupset。Nodoubtthat’showhethatthetaleistoldofcametodowhat’adid-ifhewereoneofyourfamily。’

  `Whatwasthat?’saidJude。

  `Well-thattale,yeknow;hethatwasgibbetedjustonthebrowofthehillbytheBrownHouse-notfarfromthemilestonebetweenMarygreenandAlfredston,wheretheotherroadbranchesoff。ButLord,’twasinmygrandfather’stime;anditmedn’havebeenoneofyourfolkatall。’

  `Iknowwherethegibbetissaidtohavestood,verywell,’murmuredJude。`ButIneverheardofthis。What-didthisman-myancestorandSue’s-killhiswife?’

  `’Twernotthatexactly。Sheranawayfromhim,withtheirchild,toherfriends;andwhileshewastherethechilddied。Hewantedthebody,toburyitwherehispeoplelay,butshewouldn’tgiveitup。Herhusbandthencameinthenightwithacart,andbrokeintothehousetostealthecoffinaway;buthewascatched,andbeingobstinate,wouldn’ttellwhathebrokeinfor。Theybroughtitinburglary,andthat’swhyhewashangedandgibbetedonBrownHouseHill。Hiswifewentmadafterhewasdead。

  Butitmedn’tbetruethathebelongedtoyemorethantome。’

  Asmallslowvoicerosefromtheshadeofthefireside,asifoutoftheearth:`IfIwasyou,Mother,Iwouldn’tmarryFather!’ItcamefromlittleTime,andtheystarted,fortheyhadforgottenhim。

  `Oh,itisonlyatale,’saidSuecheeringly。

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