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  Hewasnotawarewhetherhesleptorno,butsuddenlysunlightwasintheroom,thebath-waterwasrunning,thecanarywassingingandHamletwasscratchinguponhisdoor。Hejumpedoutofbedandletthedogin。ThenheheardRose’svoicefromthenextroom:

  “……and’e’stakeneverything,’e’as。AllthesilvercandlesticksandtheplatewhatwasgivetomasterbytheTemp’ranceSociety,andMasterJeremy’smugwhathe’adat’ischristeningandalltheknivesandforks——’e’as——andthegoldclockouto’thedrorin’-room,andthemess!Why,IsaystoCook’ecouldn’t’avemademoremess,Isay,notif’e’dcometodonothin’else。Greaseeverywhere,youneverseenothin’likeit,andallthedrawersopenandthepapersscatteredabout。Thank’Eaven’eneverfoundCook’searrings。Realgoldtheywas,eversomanycaratandgivetoCookeversomanyyearsagoby’erJohn。Poorwoman!She’d’avebeeninaterribletakin’ifshe’dlost’em……Andsoquiettoo——notasoundandeveryonesleepin’allround’im。Wonderful’owtheydoesit!I

  thanktheLordIdidn’t’ear’im;I’d’avediedoffright-shouldn’tlike!Why,Cooksayssheknewa’ouseonce……“

  ButJeremydidnotlisten,hedidnotcare。AsHamletsprangabouthimandlickedhishandhethoughtofonethingalone。

  TheCaptainwasgone!TheCaptainwasgone!Hewasfree!TheCaptainhadnottakenhim,andhewasfreeatlast!

  CHAPTERVI

  FAMILYPRIDE

  I

  Iamafraidthattoogreatapartofthisbookisaboutoldmaids,butitishardforanyonewhoknowsonlythethrivingbustlingworldoftodaytorealisehowlargelywechildrenwerehemmedinandsurroundedbyaproperphalanxofelderlysingleladiesandclergymen。Idon’tbelievethatwewereanytheworseforthat,andtosuchheroinesasMissJaneMaple,MissMaryTrefusisandoldMissJessaminTrenchard,Iherepubliclyacknowledgedeepandlastingdebt-butitdidmakeourlifealittlemonotonous,alittleunadventurous,alittlecircumscribed-andbecauseTamdeterminedtogivethewholetruthandnothingbutthetruthabouttheyearofJeremy’slifethatIamdescribing,thisbookwillalso,Iamafraid,bealittlecircumscribed,alittleunadventurous。

  TheelderlyladywhomostthoroughlycircumscribedJeremywas,ofcourse——puttingMissJones,whowasagovernessandthereforedidnotcount,aside——AuntAmy。

  NowAuntAmywasprobablythemostconceitedwomaninPolchester。

  Thereisofcourseordinaryhumanconceit,ofwhicheverylivingbeinghashisorhershare。Iamnotspeakingofthat;MissAmyTrefusismightbesaidtobefanaticallyconceited。

  Althoughshewasnowareallyplainelderlywomanitispossiblethatwhenshewasalittlegirlshewaspretty。Inanycase,itiscertainthatshewasspoiledwhenshewasalittlegirl,andbecauseshewasdelicateandselfishshereceivedagooddealmoreattentionandobediencefromweakandvacillatingeldersthanshedeserved。

  Afterhergrowingupshehadayearortwoofmoderatelooksandshereceived,duringthisperiod,severalproposals;thesesherefusedbecausetheywerenotgoodenoughandsomethingbettermustbecomingveryshortly,butwhatreallycameveryshortlywasmiddle-

  age,anditcameofcourseentirelyunperceivedbythelady。Shedressedandbehavedasthoughshewerestilltwenty,althoughherbrotherSamueltriedtolaughheroutofsuchabsurdities。Butnosistereverpaysattentiontoabrotheronsuchmatters,andAuntAmyworecolouredribbonsandwenttoballsandmadeeyesbehindherfanforseasonafterseason。Thenastimepassedshewascompelledbyhermirrortorealisethatshewasnotquitesoyoungasshehadoncebeen,soshehurriedlyinventedathrillingpasthistoryforherself,alludingtoaffairafteraffairthathadcometonothingonlybecausesheherselfhadruthlesslyslainthem,anddressingherselfmorereasonably,butwithlittlesignsandhints,intheshapeofchainsandcolouredbowsandrings,thatshecouldstillbeyoungifshesopleased,andthatshewasopentooffers,althoughshecouldnotpromisethemmuchencouragement。ShelikedthesocietyofCanons,andwastobeseenagreatdealwitholdCanonBorlase,whowasasgreataflirtashewasanegotist,sothatitdidnotmattertohimintheleastwithwhomheflirted,andsatatthefeetofoldCanonMorpheu,whowassocrazyaboutthediscoveriesthathehadmadeinthelifeofEzekielthatitwasquiteimmaterialtohimtowhomheexplainedthem。

  Shedescendedfromtheseclericalflightsintothebosomoffamilylifewithsomenaturaldiscontent。HerbrotherSamuelshehadalwaysdislikedbecausehelaughedather;hersistershedidnotcareforbecauseshewasveryinnocently,poorlady,flauntinghersuperiormarriedstate;andherbrother-in-lawshedidnotlikebecausehealwaysbehavedasthoughshewereoneofavastpublicofelderlyladieswhowereusefulforhelpinginclericaldisplays,butwereotherwisenon-existent。Thenshehatedchildren,sothatshereallyoftenwonderedwhyshecontinuedtolivewithherbrother-in-law,butitwascheap,comfortableandsafe,andalthoughsheassuredherselfandeveryoneelsethattherewerecountlesshomeswildlyeagertoreceiveher,itwasperhapsjustaswellnottoputtheireagernesstooabruptlytothetest。

  TherehadbeenwarbetweenherandJeremysinceJeremy’sbirth,butithadbeenwarofarathermildandinoffensivecharacter,consistinglargelyinJeremyonhissideputtingouthistongueatherwhenshecouldnotseehim,andsheonhersidesendinghimtowashhisearswhentheyreallydidnotrequiretobewashed。ShehadfeltalwaysinJeremyanobstinatedislikeofher,andashehadseemedtoherneitheraveryclevernorintelligentchildshehadconsoledherselfveryeasilywiththethoughtthathedidnotlikehersimplybecausehewasstupid。Soithadbeenuntilthisyear,andthensuddenlytheyhadbeenflungintosharperopposition。Itwashardtosaywhathadbroughtthisabout,butitwasperhapsthatJeremyhadsprungsuddenlyfromtheunconsciousindifferenceofayoungchildintotheactiveparticipationofagrowingboy。Whateverthetruthmighthavebeen,thecomingofHamlethaddrawntheirattitudesintopositiveconflict。

  AuntAmyhadfeltfromthefirstthatHamletlaughedather。Hadyouaskedhertostate,asapartofhergeneralexperience,thatshereallybelievedthatdogscouldlaughathumanbeingsshewouldindignantlyhaverepudiatedanyideasofantastic,nevertheless,unanalysedandunconfronted,thatwasherconviction。Thedoglaughedather,heinsultedherbywalkingintoherbedroomwithhismuddyfeetandthenpretendingthathehadn’tknownthatitwasherbedroom,regardingherthroughhishairwithanironicalandmaliciousglance,barkingsuddenlywhenshemadesomestatementasthoughheenjoyedimmenselyanexcellentjoke,but,aboveall,despisingher,shefelt,sothatthewallofillusionthatshehadbuiltaroundherselfhadbeenpulleddownbyatleastonecreature,morehuman,sheknew,inspiteofherself,thanmanyhumanbeings。

  Therefore,shehatedHamlet,andscarcelyadaypassedthatshedidnottrytohavehimflungfromthehouse,oratleastkeptinthekitchenoffices。

  Hamlethad,however,wontheheartsofthefamily;itwas,indeed,AuntAmyalonetowhomhehadnotthoughtitworthwhiletopaycourt。Toheralonehewouldnotcomewhenshecalled,byheralonehewouldnotbecajoled,eventhoughsheofferedhimsugarytea,hisdeadliesttemptation。No,hesatandlookedatherthroughhishair,hisfieryeyeglinting,hispeakedbeardironicallyhumorous,hislegstuckoutfromhisbody,apointingsignalofderision。

  SheresolvedtowaitforanopportunitywhenshemightconquerHamletandJeremytogether,butherpowerinthehousewasslight,solongasMr。andMrs。Colewerethere。“IfIonlyhadthechildrentomyself,“shewouldsay,“Iwouldimprovetheirmannersinmanyways。PoorAlice——!“Thensuddenlyshedidhavethem。AtthebeginningofMayMr。ColewassummonedtotakeamissiontotheseamenofDrymouth,andMrs。Cole,whohadrelationsinDrymouth,accompaniedhim。TheywouldbeabsentfromPelchesterawholeweek。

  “Oh,won’tAuntAmybeanuisance,“saidJeremy,realisingthesituation。ThenturningtoMaryheadded:“We’llpretendtodowhatshetellsusandnotdoitreally。That’smuchtheeasiest。“

  Aweekisashorttime,especiallyatthebeginningofashiningandburningMay,butAuntAmydidherbestnotonlywiththechildrenbutwiththeservants,andevenoldJordan,thegardener,whohadbeenwiththeColefamilyfortwentyyears。Duringthatshortweekthecook,theparlourmaid,Rose,thehousemaid,andthebootboyallgavenotice,andMrs。Colewasonlyabletokeepthemonherreturnbyraisingthewagesofallofthem。Jordan,whowasanoldmanwithalongwhitebeard,saidtoherwhensheadvisedhimtoplantpinkswherehehadplantedtulipsandtulipswherehehadplantedpinks,andfurtherinquiredwhythecauliflowerthathesentinwassopoorandthecabbagessosmall:“Leavethingsalone,Miss,Nature’swiserthanwebe,notbutwhatyoumayn’tmeanwell,butfussin’sneverdoneanygoodwhereNature’sconcerned,norneverwill“;andwhenshesaidthathewasveryrudetoher,heshookhisheadandanswered:

  “Maybeyes,andmaybeno。What’srudetooneain’trudetoanother“——

  outofwhichanswershecouldmakenothingatall。

  Intheschoolroomshesustainedcompletedefeat。AttheveryoutsetshewasbaffledbyMissJones。ShehadalwaysdespisedMissJonesasapoorunfortunatefemalewhowasforcedtoteachchildreninheroldagebecauseshemustearnherliving——astupid,sentimental,cowed,oldwomanatwhomthechildrenlaughed。Shefoundnowthatthechildreninsteadoflaughingatherlaughedwithher,formedaphalanxofprotectionaroundherandrefusedtobedisobedient。MissJonesherselfwasdiscoveredtohaveadry,rathercaustic,senseofhumourthatAuntAmyfelttobeimpertinence,butcouldnotpenetrate。

  “Andisthatreallyhowyouteachthemhistory,MissJones?Notquitethesimplestway,surely……Irememberanexcellentgovernesswhomweoncehad——“

  “Perhaps,“saidMissJones,gently,“youwouldgivethemahistorylessonyourself,MissTrefusis。Iwouldbesogladtopickupanylittlehints——“

  “Ihave,ofcourse,notime,“saidAuntAmyhurriedly,“but,speakinggenerally,IamafraidIcan’tapprovealtogetherofyoursystem。“

  “Itisn’tverygood,I’mafraid,“saidMissJonesweakly。“Thechildrenwouldbeglad,Iknow,tohaveafewhintsfromyouifyoucouldspareamoment——“

  Jeremy,whowaslistening,giggled,triedtoturnthegiggleintoasneezeandchoked。

  “Jeremy!“saidAuntAmyseverely。

  “Oh,dolook,AuntAmy!“criedMary,alwaysJeremy’sfaithfulally,“allyourhairpinsaredroppingout!“

  ShedevotedherselfthentoJeremyandworriedhimineverypossibleway,andaftertwodaysofthishehatedherwithadeepandbitterhatred,verydifferentfromthatearlierteasingofMissJones。Thathadsprungfromasuddendeliciousdiscoveryofpower,andhadbeendirectedagainstnoone。ThiswasarealpersonalhatredthatchildrenofalesssolidandtenacioustemperamentthanJeremywouldhavebeenincapableoffeeling。

  Hedidnotlaughather,hedidnotteaseher,henolongerputouthistongueather。Hewasolderthanthatnow——hewassimplyreservedandsilent,watchingherwithhislargeeyes,hissquarebodyset,andresolvedasthoughheknewthathismomentwouldcome。

  Herexperiencewithhimwasbaffling。Shepunishedhim,pettedhim,sheignoredhim,shestormedathim;itseemedthatshewoulddoanythingcouldsheonlywinfromhimanacknowledgmentofherpower,hercapability。Butshecouldnot。Heonlysaid:“Yes,AuntAmy。“

  “No,AuntAmy。“

  Sheburstout:“You’reasullen,wickedlittleboy,Jeremy。Doyouknowwhathappenstolittleboyswhosulk?“

  “No,AuntAmy。“

  “Theygrowintocross,bad-temperedmenwhomnobodylikesandnobodytrusts。Doyouwanttobelikethatwhenyou’reaman?“

  “Idon’tcare。“

  “Youknowwhathappenedto’Don’tCare。’Ishallhavetopunishyouifyou’rerudetome。“

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