Mr。Twycottknewperfectlywellthathehadcommittedsocialsuicidebythisstep,despiteSophy’sspotlesscharacter,andhehadtakenhismeasuresaccordingly。AnexchangeoflivingshadbeenarrangedwithanacquaintancewhowasincumbentofachurchinthesouthofLondon,andassoonaspossiblethecoupleremovedthither,abandoningtheirprettycountryhome,withtreesandshrubsandglebe,foranarrow,dustyhouseinalong,straightstreet,andtheirfinepealofbellsforthewretchedestone-tonguedclangourthatevertorturedmortalears。Itwasallonheraccount。Theywere,however,awayfromeveryonewhohadknownherformerposition;
andalsounderlessobservationfromwithoutthantheywouldhavehadtoputupwithinanycountryparish。
Sophythewomanwasascharmingapartnerasamancouldpossess,thoughSophytheladyhadherdeficiencies。Sheshowedanaturalaptitudeforlittledomesticrefinements,sofarasrelatedtothingsandmanners;butinwhatiscalledcultureshewaslessintuitive。
Shehadnowbeenmarriedmorethanfourteenyears,andherhusbandhadtakenmuchtroublewithhereducation;butshestillheldconfusedideasontheuseof’was’and’were,’whichdidnotbegetarespectforheramongthefewacquaintancesshemade。Hergreatgriefinthisrelationwasthatheronlychild,onwhoseeducationnoexpensehadbeenandwouldbespared,wasnowoldenoughtoperceivethesedeficienciesinhismother,andnotonlytoseethembuttofeelirritatedattheirexistence。
Thusshelivedoninthecity,andwastedhoursinbraidingherbeautifulhair,tillheronceapplecheekswanedtopinkoftheveryfaintest。Herfoothadneverregaineditsnaturalstrengthaftertheaccident,andshewasmostlyobligedtoavoidwalkingaltogether。
HerhusbandhadgrowntolikeLondonforitsfreedomanditsdomesticprivacy;buthewastwentyyearshisSophy’ssenior,andhadlatterlybeenseizedwithaseriousillness。Onthisday,however,hehadseemedtobewellenoughtojustifyheraccompanyinghersonRandolphtotheconcert。
Thenexttimewegetaglimpseofheriswhensheappearsinthemournfulattireofawidow。
Mr。Twycotthadneverrallied,andnowlayinawell-packedcemeterytothesouthofthegreatcity,where,ifallthedeaditcontainedhadstooderectandalive,notonewouldhaveknownhimorrecognizedhisname。Theboyhaddutifullyfollowedhimtothegrave,andwasnowagainatschool。
ThroughoutthesechangesSophyhadbeentreatedlikethechildshewasinnaturethoughnotinyears。Shewasleftwithnocontroloveranythingthathadbeenherhusband’sbeyondhermodestpersonalincome。Inhisanxietylestherinexperienceshouldbeoverreachedhehadsafeguardedwithtrusteesallhepossiblycould。Thecompletionoftheboy’scourseatthepublicschool,tobefollowedinduetimebyOxfordandordination,hadbeenallprevisionedandarranged,andshereallyhadnothingtooccupyherintheworldbuttoeatanddrink,andmakeabusinessofindolence,andgoonweavingandcoilingthenut-brownhair,merelykeepingahomeopenforthesonwheneverhecametoherduringvacations。
Foreseeinghisprobabledeceaselongyearsbeforeher,herhusbandinhislifetimehadpurchasedforheruseasemi-detachedvillainthesamelong,straightroadwhereonthechurchandparsonagefaced,whichwastobehersaslongasshechosetoliveinit。Hereshenowresided,lookingoutuponthefragmentoflawninfront,andthroughtherailingsattheever-flowingtraffic;or,bendingforwardoverthewindow-sillonthefirstfloor,stretchinghereyesfarupanddownthevistaofsootytrees,hazyair,anddrabhouse-facades,alongwhichechoedthenoisescommontoasuburbanmainthoroughfare。
Somehow,herboy,withhisaristocraticschool-knowledge,hisgrammars,andhisaversions,waslosingthosewideinfantinesympathies,extendingasfarastothesunandmoonthemselves,withwhichhe,likeotherchildren,hadbeenborn,andwhichhismother,achildofnatureherself,hadlovedinhim;hewasreducingtheircompasstoapopulationofafewthousandwealthyandtitledpeople,themereveneerofathousandmillionorsoofotherswhodidnotinteresthimatall。Hedriftedfurtherandfurtherawayfromher。
Sophy’smilieubeingasuburbofminortradesmenandunder-clerks,andheralmostonlycompanionsthetwoservantsofherownhouse,itwasnotsurprisingthatafterherhusband’sdeathshesoonlostthelittleartificialtastesshehadacquiredfromhim,andbecame——inherson’seyes——amotherwhosemistakesandoriginitwashispainfullotasagentlemantoblushfor。Asyethewasfarfrombeingmanenough——ifheeverwouldbe——toratethesesinsofhersattheirtrueinfinitesimalvaluebesidetheyearningfondnessthatwelledupandremainedpennedinherhearttillitshouldbemorefullyacceptedbyhim,orbysomeotherpersonorthing。Ifhehadlivedathomewithherhewouldhavehadallofit;butheseemedtorequiresoverylittleinpresentcircumstances,anditremainedstored。
Herlifebecameinsupportablydreary;shecouldnottakewalks,andhadnointerestingoingfordrives,or,indeed,intravellinganywhere。Nearlytwoyearspassedwithoutanevent,andstillshelookedonthatsuburbanroad,thinkingofthevillageinwhichshehadbeenborn,andwhithershewouldhavegoneback——Ohowgladly!——
eventoworkinthefields。
Takingnoexercise,sheoftencouldnotsleep,andwouldriseinthenightorearlymorningandlookoutuponthethenvacantthoroughfare,wherethelampsstoodlikesentinelswaitingforsomeprocessiontogoby。Anapproximationtosuchaprocessionwasindeedmadeearlyeverymorningaboutoneo’clock,whenthecountryvehiclespassedupwithloadsofvegetablesforCoventGardenmarket。
Sheoftensawthemcreepingalongatthissilentandduskyhour——
waggonafterwaggon,bearinggreenbastionsofcabbagesnoddingtotheirfall,yetneverfalling,wallsofbasketsenclosingmassesofbeansandpeas,pyramidsofsnow-whiteturnips,swayinghowdahsofmixedproduce——creepingalongbehindagednight-horses,whoseemedeverpatientlywonderingbetweentheirhollowcoughswhytheyhadalwaystoworkatthatstillhourwhenallothersentientcreatureswereprivilegedtorest。Wrappedinacloak,itwassoothingtowatchandsympathizewiththemwhendepressionandnervousnesshinderedsleep,andtoseehowthefreshgreen-stuffbrightenedtolifeasitcameoppositethelamp,andhowthesweatinganimalssteamedandshonewiththeirmilesoftravel。
Theyhadaninterest,almostacharm,forSophy,thesesemiruralpeopleandvehiclesmovinginanurbanatmosphere,leadingalifequitedistinctfromthatofthedaytimetoilersonthesameroad。
Onemorningamanwhoaccompaniedawaggon-loadofpotatoesgazedratherhardatthehouse-frontsashepassed,andwithacuriousemotionshethoughthisformwasfamiliartoher。Shelookedoutforhimagain。Hisbeinganold-fashionedconveyance,withayellowfront,itwaseasilyrecognizable,andonthethirdnightaftershesawitasecondtime。Themanalongsidewas,asshehadfancied,SamHobson,formerlygardeneratGaymead,whowouldatonetimehavemarriedher。
Shehadoccasionallythoughtofhim,andwonderediflifeinacottagewithhimwouldnothavebeenahappierlotthanthelifeshehadaccepted。Shehadnotthoughtofhimpassionately,buthernowdismalsituationlentaninteresttohisresurrection——atenderinterestwhichitisimpossibletoexaggerate。Shewentbacktobed,andbeganthinking。Whendidthesemarket-gardeners,whotravelleduptotownsoregularlyatoneortwointhemorning,comeback?Shedimlyrecollectedseeingtheiremptywaggons,hardlynoticeableamidtheordinaryday-traffic,passingdownatsomehourbeforenoon。
ItwasonlyApril,butthatmorning,afterbreakfast,shehadthewindowopened,andsatlookingout,thefeeblesunshiningfulluponher。Sheaffectedtosew,buthereyesneverleftthestreet。
Betweentenandeleventhedesiredwaggon,nowunladen,reappearedonitsreturnjourney。ButSamwasnotlookingroundhimthen,anddroveoninareverie。
’Sam!’criedshe。
Turningwithastart,hisfacelightedup。Hecalledtohimalittleboytoholdthehorse,alighted,andcameandstoodunderherwindow。
’Ican’tcomedowneasily,Sam,orIwould!’shesaid。’DidyouknowIlivedhere?’
’Well,Mrs。Twycott,Iknewyoulivedalongheresomewhere。Ihaveoftenlookedoutfor’ee。’
Hebrieflyexplainedhisownpresenceonthescene。HehadlongsincegivenuphisgardeninginthevillagenearAldbrickham,andwasnowmanageratamarket-gardener’sonthesouthsideofLondon,itbeingpartofhisdutytogouptoCoventGardenwithwaggon-loadsofproducetwoorthreetimesaweek。Inanswertohercuriousinquiry,headmittedthathehadcometothisparticulardistrictbecausehehadseenintheAldbrickhampaper,ayearortwobefore,theannouncementofthedeathinSouthLondonoftheaforetimevicarofGaymead,whichhadrevivedaninterestinherdwelling-placethathecouldnotextinguish,leadinghimtohoveraboutthelocalitytillhispresentposthadbeensecured。
TheyspokeoftheirnativevillageindearoldNorthWessex,thespotsinwhichtheyhadplayedtogetheraschildren。Shetriedtofeelthatshewasadignifiedpersonagenow,thatshemustnotbetooconfidentialwithSam。Butshecouldnotkeepitup,andthetearshanginginhereyeswereindicatedinhervoice。
’Youarenothappy,Mrs。Twycott,I’mafraid?’hesaid。
’O,ofcoursenot!Ilostmyhusbandonlytheyearbeforelast。’
’Ah!Imeantinanotherway。You’dliketobehomeagain?’
’Thisismyhome——forlife。Thehousebelongstome。ButI
understand’——Sheletitoutthen。’Yes,Sam。Ilongforhome——OUR
home!ISHOULDliketobethere,andneverleaveit,anddiethere。’
Butsherememberedherself。’That’sonlyamomentaryfeeling。I
haveason,youknow,adearboy。He’satschoolnow。’
’Somewherehandy,Isuppose?Iseethere’slotson’emalongthisroad。’
’Ono!Notinoneofthesewretchedholes!Atapublicschool——oneofthemostdistinguishedinEngland。’
’Chok’itall!ofcourse!Iforget,ma’am,thatyou’vebeenaladyforsomanyyears。’
’No,Iamnotalady,’shesaidsadly。’Inevershallbe。Buthe’sagentleman,andthat——makesit——Ohowdifficultforme!’