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  But,asIhavesaidbefore,shewasnowdissatisfiedwiththebook,andwithmostotherthingsinwhichshehadtakenpleasure;shedweltmuchonthewords,’Thoushaltnotsteal’;shehadneverstolenthingsherself,butthenshehadboughtthingswhichotherpeoplehadstolen,andwhichsheknewhadbeenstolen;andherdearsonhadbeenathief,whichheperhapswouldnothavebeenbutfortheexamplewhichshesethiminbuyingthingsfromcharacters,asshecalledthem,whoassociatedwithher。

  Oninquiringhowshehadbecomeacquaintedwiththesecharacters,I

  learnedthattimeshadgonehardwithher;thatshehadmarried,butherhusbandhaddiedafteralongsickness,whichhadreducedthemtogreatdistress;thatherfruittradewasnotaprofitableone,andthatshehadboughtandsoldthingswhichhadbeenstolentosupportherselfandherson。Thatforalongtimeshesupposedtherewasnoharmindoingso,asherbookwasfullofentertainingtalesofstealing;butshenowthoughtthatthebookwasabadbook,andthatlearningtoreadwasabadthing;hermotherhadneverbeenabletoread,buthaddiedinpeace,thoughpoor。

  Soherewasawomanwhoattributedthevicesandfolliesofherlifetobeingabletoread;hermother,shesaid,whocouldnotread,livedrespectably,anddiedinpeace;andwhatwastheessentialdifferencebetweenthemotheranddaughter,savethatthelattercouldread?Butforherliteratureshemightinallprobabilityhavelivedrespectablyandhonestly,likehermother,andmighteventuallyhavediedinpeace,whichatpresentshecouldscarcelyhopetodo。Educationhadfailedtoproduceanygoodinthispoorwoman;onthecontrary,therecouldbelittledoubtthatshehadbeeninjuredbyit。Thenwaseducationabadthing?

  Rousseauwasofopinionthatitwas;butRousseauwasaFrenchman,atleastwroteinFrench,andIcarednotthesnapofmyfingersforRousseau。Buteducationhascertainlybeenofbenefitinsomeinstances;well,whatdidthatprove,butthatpartialityexistedinthemanagementoftheaffairsoftheworld-ifeducationwasabenefittosome,whywasitnotabenefittoothers?Couldsomeavoidabusingit,anymorethanotherscouldavoidturningittoaprofitableaccount?Ididnotseehowtheycould;thispoorsimplewomanfoundabookinhermother’scloset;abook,whichwasacapitalbookforthosewhocouldturnittotheaccountforwhichitwasintended;abook,fromtheperusalofwhichIfeltmyselfwiserandbetter,butwhichwasbynomeanssuitedtotheintellectofthispoorsimplewoman,whothoughtthatitwaswritteninpraiseofthieving;yetshefoundit,shereadit,and-and-I

  feltmyselfgettingintoamaze;whatisright,thoughtI?whatiswrong?DoIexist?Doestheworldexist?ifitdoes,everyactionisboundupwithnecessity。

  ’Necessity!’Iexclaimed,andcrackedmyfinger-joints。

  ’Ah,itisabadthing,’saidtheoldwoman。

  ’Whatisabadthing?’saidI。

  ’Whytobepoor,dear。’

  ’Youtalklikeafool,’saidI,’richesandpovertyareonlydifferentformsofnecessity。’

  ’Youshouldnotcallmeafool,dear;youshouldnotcallyourownmotherafool。’

  ’Youarenotmymother,’saidI。

  ’Notyourmother,dear?-no,nomoreIam;butyourcallingmefoolputmeinmindofmydearson,whooftenusedtocallmefool-andyoujustnowlookedashesometimesdid,withabloboffoamonyourlip。’

  ’Afterall,Idon’tknowthatyouarenotmymother。’

  ’Don’tyou,dear?I’mgladofit;Iwishyouwouldmakeitout。’

  ’HowshouldImakeitout?whocanspeakfromhisownknowledgeastothecircumstancesofhisbirth?Besides,beforeattemptingtoestablishourrelationship,itwouldbenecessarytoprovethatsuchpeopleexist。’

  ’Whatpeople,dear?’

  ’YouandI。’

  ’Lord,child,youaremad;thatbookhasmadeyouso。’

  ’Don’tabuseit,’saidI;’thebookisanexcellentone,thatis,provideditexists。’

  ’Iwishitdidnot,’saidtheoldwoman;’butitshan’tlong;I’llburnit,orflingitintotheriver-thevoicesatnighttellmetodoso。’

  ’Tellthevoices,’saidI,’thattheytalknonsense;thebook,ifitexists,isagoodbook,itcontainsadeepmoral;haveyoureaditall?’

  ’Allthefunnyparts,dear;allabouttakingthings,andthemanneritwasdone;asfortherest,Icouldnotexactlymakeitout。’

  ’Thenthebookisnottoblame;Irepeatthatthebookisagoodbook,andcontainsdeepmorality,alwayssupposingthatthereissuchathingasmorality,whichisthesamethingassupposingthatthereisanythingatall。’

  ’Anythingatall!Whyain’twehereonthisbridge,inmybooth,withmystallandmy-’

  ’Applesandpears,bakedhot,youwouldsay-Idon’tknow;allisamystery,adeepquestion。Itisaquestion,andprobablyalwayswillbe,whetherthereisaworld,andconsequentlyapplesandpears;and,providedtherebeaworld,whetherthatworldbelikeanappleorapear。’

  ’Don’ttalkso,dear。’

  ’Iwon’t;wewillsupposethatweallexist-world,ourselves,apples,andpears:soyouwishtogetridofthebook?’

  ’Yes,dear,Iwishyouwouldtakeit。’

  ’Ihavereadit,andhavenofartheruseforit;Idonotneedbooks:inalittletime,perhaps,Ishallnothaveaplacewhereintodepositmyself,farlessbooks。’

  ’ThenIwillflingitintotheriver。’

  ’Don’tdothat;here,giveitme。NowwhatshallIdowithit?youweresofondofit。’

  ’Iamsonolonger。’

  ’Buthowwillyoupassyourtime;whatwillyouread?’

  ’IwishIhadneverlearnedtoread,or,ifIhad,thatIhadonlyreadthebooksIsawatschool:theprimerortheother。’

  ’Whatwastheother?’

  ’IthinktheycalledittheBible:allaboutGod,andJob,andJesus。’

  ’Ah,Iknowit。’

  ’Youhavereadit;isitanicebook-alltrue?’

  ’True,true-Idon’tknowwhattosay;butiftheworldbetrue,andnotallalie,afiction,Idon’tseewhytheBible,astheycallit,shouldnotbetrue。Bythebye,whatdoyoucallBibleinyourtongue,or,indeed,bookofanykind?asBiblemerelymeansabook。’

  ’WhatdoIcalltheBibleinmylanguage,dear?’

  ’Yes,thelanguageofthosewhobringyouthings。’

  ’ThelanguageofthosewhoDID,dear;theybringthemnownolonger。Theycallmefool,asyoudid,dear,justnow;theycallkissingtheBible,whichmeanstakingafalseoath,smackingcalf-

  skin。’

  ’That’smetaphor,’saidI;’English,butmetaphorical;whatanoddlanguage!SoyouwouldliketohaveaBible,-shallIbuyyouone?’

  ’Iampoor,dear-nomoneysinceIleftofftheothertrade。’

  ’Well,then,I’llbuyyouone。’

  ’No,dear,no;youarepoor,andmaysoonwantthemoney;butifyoucantakemeoneconvenientlyonthesly,youknow-Ithinkyoumay,for,asitisagoodbook,Isupposetherecanbenoharmintakingit。’

  ’Thatwillneverdo,’saidI,’moreespeciallyasIshouldbesuretobecaught,nothavingmadetakingofthingsmytrade;butI’lltellyouwhatI’lldo-tryandexchangethisbookofyoursforaBible;whoknowsforwhatgreatthingsthissamebookofyoursmayserve?’

  ’Well,dear,’saidtheoldwoman,’doasyouplease;Ishouldliketoseethe-whatdoyoucallit?-Bible,andtoreadit,asyouseemtothinkittrue。’

  ’Yes,’saidI,’seem;thatisthewaytoexpressyourselfinthismazeofdoubt-Iseemtothink-theseapplesandpearsseemtobe-andhereseemstobeagentlemanwhowantstopurchaseeitheroneortheother。’

  Apersonhadstoppedbeforetheapple-woman’sstall,andwasglancingnowatthefruit,nowattheoldwomanandmyself;heworeabluemantle,andhadakindoffurcaponhishead;hewassomewhatabovethemiddlestature;hisfeatureswerekeen,butratherhard;therewasaslightobliquityinhisvision。Selectingasmallapple,hegavetheoldwomanapenny;then,afterlookingatmescrutinisinglyforamoment,hemovedfromtheboothinthedirectionofSouthwark。

  ’Doyouknowwhothatmanis?’saidItotheoldwoman。

  ’No,’saidshe,’exceptthatheisoneofmybestcustomers:hefrequentlystops,takesanapple,andgivesmeapenny;hisistheonlypieceofmoneyIhavetakenthisblessedday。Idon’tknowhim,buthehasonceortwicesatdownintheboothwithtwostrange-lookingmen-Mulattos,orLascars,Ithinktheycallthem。’

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