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  Icouldnotstayverylong,because,myhorsebeingquiteunfittotravelfromtheinjurieswhichhisviolenceandvicehadbroughtuponhim,therewasnothingformebuttogoonfoot,asnoneofUncleBen’shorsescouldtakemetoPlover’sBarrows,withoutdownrightcruelty:andthoughtherewouldbeaharvest-moon,RuthagreedwithmethatImustnotkeepmymotherwaiting,withnoideawhereImightbe,untilalatehourofthenight。ItoldRuthallaboutourAnnie,andhernoblefurniture;andthelittlemaidwasverylivelyalthoughherwoundswerepainingherso,thathalfherlaughtercame’onthewrongsideofhermouth,’aswerathercoarselyexpressit;especiallyshelaughedaboutAnnie’snew-fangledclosetforclothes,orstanding-press,asshecalledit。ThishadfrightenedmesothatIwouldnotcomewithoutmysticktolookatit;forthefrontwasinlaidwithtwofierydragons,andaglasswhichdistortedeverything,makingevenAnnielookhideous;andwhenitwasopened,awoman’sskeleton,allinwhite,revealeditself,inthemidstofthreestandingwomen。’Itisonlytokeepmybestfrocksinshape,’Anniehadexplainedtome;

  ’hangingthemupdoesruinthemso。ButIownthatI

  wasafraidofit,John,untilIhadgotallmybestclothesthere,andthenIbecameveryfondofit。Butevennowitfrightensmesometimesinthemoonlight。’

  HavingmadepoorRuthalittlecheerful,withafullaccountofallAnnie’sfrocks,material,pattern,andfashionofwhichIhadtakenalistformymother,andforLizzie,lesttheyshouldcryoutatman’sstupidityaboutanythingofrealinterest,Iproceededtotellheraboutmyowntroubles,andthesuddendepartureofLorna;concludingwithalltheshowofindifferencewhichmypridecouldmuster,thatnowInevershouldseeheragain,andmustdomybesttoforgether,asbeingsofaraboveme。Ihadnotintendedtospeakofthis,butRuth’sfacewassokindandearnest,thatI

  couldnotstopmyself。

  ’Youmustnottalklikethat,CousinRidd,’shesaid,inalowandgentletone,andturningawayhereyesfromme;’noladycanbeaboveaman,whoispure,andbrave,andgentle。Andifherheartbeworthhaving,shewillneverletyougiveherup,forhergrandeur,andhernobility。’

  Shepronouncedthoselastfewwords,asIthought,withalittlebitterness,unperceivedbyherselfperhaps,foritwasnotinherappearance。ButI,attachinggreatimportancetoamaiden’sopinionaboutamaidenbecauseshemightjudgefromexperience,wouldhaveledherfurtherintothatsubject。Butshedeclinedtofollow,havingnownomoretosayinamattersoremovedfromher。ThenIaskedherfullandstraight,andlookingatherinsuchamannerthatshecouldnotlookaway,withoutappearingvanquishedbyfeelingsofherown——whichthingwasveryvileofme;butallmenaresoselfish,——

  ’Dearcousin,tellme,onceforall,whatisyouradvicetome?’

  ’Myadvicetoyou,’sheansweredbravely,withherdarkeyesfullofpride,andinsteadofflinching,foilingme,——’istodowhateverymanmustdo,ifhewouldwinfairmaiden。Sinceshecannotsendyoutoken,neitherisfreetoreturntoyou,followher,payyourcourttoher;showthatyouwillnotbeforgotten;andperhapsshewilllookdown——Imean,shewillrelenttoyou。’

  ’Shehasnothingtorelentabout。Ihavenevervexednorinjuredher。Mythoughtshaveneverstrayedfromher。

  Thereisnoonetocomparewithher。’

  ’Thenkeepherinthatsamemindaboutyou。Seenow,I

  canadvisenomore。Myarmisswellingpainfully,inspiteofallyourgoodness,andbittertaskofsurgeonship。Ishallhaveanotherpoulticeon,andgotobed,Ithink,CousinRidd,ifyouwillnotholdmeungrateful。Iamsosorryforyourlongwalk。Surelyitmightbeavoided。GivemylovetodearLizzie:oh,theroomisgoingroundso。’

  AndshefaintedintothearmsofSally,whowascomejustintimetofetchher:nodoubtshehadbeensufferingagonyallthetimeshetalkedtome。LeavingwordthatIwouldcomeagaintoinquireforher,andfetchKickumshome,sosoonastheharvestpermittedme,Igavedirectionsaboutthehorse,andstridingawayfromtheancienttown,wassoonuponthemoorlands。

  Now,throughthewholeofthatlongwalk——thelatterpartofwhichwasledbystarlight,tillthemoonarose——Idwelt,inmyyoungandfoolishway,upontheorderingofourstepsbyaPowerbeyondus。ButasI

  couldnotbringmymindtoanyclearnessuponthismatter,andthestarsshednolightuponit,butratherconfusedmewithwonderinghowtheirLordcouldattendtothemall,andyettoapunyfoollikeme,itcametopassthatmythoughtsonthesubjectwerenotworthink,ifIknewthem。

  Butitisperhapsworthinktorelate,sofarasIcandoso,mother’sdelightatmyreturn,whenshehadalmostabandonedhope,andconcludedthatIwasgonetoLondon,indisgustatherbehaviour。Andnowshewaslookingupthelane,attheriseoftheharvest-moon,indespair,asshesaidafterwards。Butifshehaddespairedintruth,whatusetolookatall?YetaccordingtotheepigrammadebyagoodBlundellite,——

  DespairwasneveryetsodeepInsinkingasinseeming;

  DespairishopejustdroppedasleepForbetterchanceofdreaming。

  Andmother’sdreamwasahappyone,whensheknewmystepatafurlongdistant;forthenightwasofthosethatcarrysoundthriceasfarasdaycan。Sherecoveredherself,whenshewassure,andevenmadeuphermindtoscoldme,andfeltasifshecoulddoit。

  Butwhenshewasinmyarms,intowhichshethrewherself,andIbythelightofthemoondescriedthesilvergleamononesideofherheadnowspreadingsinceAnnie’sdeparture,blessmyheartandyourstherewith,noroomwasleftforscolding。Shehuggedme,andsheclungtome;andIlookedather,withdutymadetenfold,anddischargedbylove。Wesaidnothingtooneanother;butallwasrightbetweenus。

  EvenLizziebehavedverywell,sofarashernatureadmitted;notevensayinganastythingallthetimeshewasgettingmysupperready,withaweakimitationofAnnie。SheknewthatthegiftofcookingwasnotvouchsafedbyGodtoher;butsometimesshewoulddoherbest,byintellecttowinit。Whereasitisnomoretobewonbyintellectthanisdivinepoetry。Anamountofstrongquickheartisneedful,andtheunderstandingmustsecondit,intheoneartasintheother。Nowmyfarewasverychoiceforthenextthreedaysormore;yetnotturnedoutlikeAnnie’s。Theycoulddoathingwellenoughonthefire;buttheycouldnotputitontableso;norevenhaveplatesallpipinghot。ThiswasAnnie’sspecialgift;borninher,andreadytocoolwithher;likeaplateborneawayfromthefireplace。IsighedsometimesaboutLorna,andtheythoughtitwasabouttheplates。Andmotherwouldstandandlookatme,asmuchastosay,’Nopleasinghim’;andLizziewouldjerkuponeshoulder,andcry,’HehadbetterhaveLornatocookforhim’;whilethewholetruthwasthatIwantednottobeplaguedaboutanycookery;butjusttohavesomethinggoodandquiet,andthensmokeandthinkaboutLorna。

  Neverthelessthetimewenton,withonechangeandanother;andwegatheredallourharvestin;andParsonBowdenthankedGodforit,bothinchurchandoutofit;forhistitheswouldbeverygoodly。Theunmatchedcoldofthepreviouswinter,andgeneralfearofscarcity,andourowntalkaboutourruin,hadsentpricesuptoagrandhighpitch;andwedidourbesttokeepthemthere。FornineEnglishmenoutofeverytenbelievethatabitterwintermustbreedasoursummer,andexplainawaytopmostprices。Whileaccordingtomyexperience,moreoftenitwouldbeotherwise,exceptforthepublicthinkingso。However,Ihavesaidtoomuch;andifanyfarmerreadsmybook,hewillvowthatIwroteitfornothingelseexcepttorobhisfamily。

  AllourneighbourhoodwassurprisedthattheDooneshadnoterenowattacked,andprobablymadeanendofus。Forwelayalmostattheirmercynow,havingonlySergeantBloxham,andthreemen,toprotectus,CaptainStickleshavingbeenorderedsouthwardswithallhisforce;exceptsuchasmightbeneedfulforcollectingtoll,andwatchingtheimportsatLynmouth,andthencetoPorlock。TheSergeant,havingnowimbibedatasteforwritingreportsthoughhisfirstgreatefforthaddonehimnogood,andonlyoffendedStickles,reportedweeklyfromPlover’sBarrows,wheneverhecouldfindamessenger。AndthoughwefednotSergeantBloxhamatourowntable,withthebestwehadasinthecaseofStickles,whorepresentedHisMajesty,yetwetreatedhimsowell,thathereportedveryhighlyofus,asloyalandtrue-heartedlieges,andmostdevotedtoourlordtheKing。Andindeedhecouldscarcelyhavedoneless,whenLizziewrotegreatpartofhisreports,andfurbisheduptheresttosuchapitchoflustre,thatLordClarendonhimselfneedscarcehavebeenashamedofthem。Andthoughthiscostagreatdealofale,andevenofstrongwatersforLizziewouldhaveitthedutyofacritictostandtreattotheauthor,andthoughitwasotherwiseaplague,asgivingthemaidsuchairsofpatronage,andsuchpretencetopolitics;

  yettherewasnostoppingit,withouttheriskofmortaloffencetobothwriterandreviewer。Ourmotheralso,whiledisapprovingLizzie’slongstayinthesaddle-roomonaFridaynightandaSaturday,andinsistingthatBettyshouldbethere,wasneverthelessasproudasneedbe,thattheKingshouldreadourEliza’swritings——atleastsotheinnocentsoulbelieved——andwealllookedforwardtosomethinggreatasthefruitofallthishistory。Andsomethinggreatdidcomeofit,thoughnotasweexpected;forthesereports,orasmanyofthemaswereeveropened,stoodusingoodsteadthenextyear,whenwewereaccusedofharbouringandcomfortingguiltyrebels。

  NowthereasonwhytheDoonesdidnotattackuswasthattheywerepreparingtomeetanotherandmorepowerfulassaultupontheirfortress;beingassuredthattheirrepulseofKing’stroopscouldnotbelookedoverwhenbroughtbeforetheauthorities。Andnodoubttheywereright;foralthoughtheconflictsintheGovernmentduringthatsummerandautumnhaddelayedthematteryetpositiveordershadbeenissuedthattheseoutlawsandmalefactorsshouldatanypricebebroughttojustice;whenthesuddendeathofKingCharlestheSecondthrewallthingsintoconfusion,andallmindsintoapanic。

  Weheardofitfirstinchurch,onSunday,theeighthdayofFebruary,1684-5,fromacousinofJohnFry,whohadriddenoveronpurposefromPorlock。Hecameinjustbeforetheanthem,splashedandheatedfromhisride,sothateveryoneturnedandlookedathim。Hewantedtocreateastirknowinghowmuchwouldbemadeofhim,andhetookthebestwaytodoit。Forhelettheanthemgobyveryquietly——orratherIshouldsayverypleasingly,forourchoirwasexceedingproudofitself,andIsangbasstwiceasloudasabull,tobeattheclerkwiththeclarionet——andthenjustasParsonBowden,withalookofprideathisminstrels,waskneelingdowntobegintheprayerfortheKing’sMostExcellentMajestyforheneverreadthelitany,exceptuponEasterSunday,upjumpsyoungSamFry,andshouts,——

  ’Iforbidthatthereprai-er。’

  ’What!’criedtheparson,risingslowly,andlookingforsomeonetoshutthedoor:’havewearebelinthecongregation?’Fortheparsonwasgrowingshort-sightednow,andknewnotSamFryatthatdistance。

  ’No,’repliedSam,notawhitabashedbythestaringofalltheparish;’norebel,parson;butamanwhomislaikethpoperyandmurder。Thatthereprai-erbeaprai-erforthedead。’

  ’Nay,’criedtheparson,nowrecognisingandknowinghimtobeourJohn’sfirstcousin,’youdonotmeantosay,Sam,thatHisGraciousMajestyisdead!’

  ’Deadasasto-un:poisonedbytheyPapishers。’AndSamrubbedhishandswithenjoyment,attheeffecthehadproduced。

  ’Rememberwhereyouare,Sam,’saidParsonBowdensolemnly;’whendidthismostsadthinghappen?TheKingistheheadoftheChurch,SamFry;whendidheleaveher?’

  ’Dayaforeyesterday。Twelveo’clock。Warn’tusquicktohearof’un?’

  ’Can’tbe,’saidtheminister:’thetidingscanneverhavecomesosoon。Anyhow,hewillwantitallthemore。LetusprayforHisGraciousMajesty。’

  Andwiththatheproceededasusual;butnobodycried’Amen,’forfearofbeingentangledwithPopery。Butaftergivingforthhistext,ourparsonsaidafewwordsoutofbook,aboutthemanyvirtuesofHisMajesty,andself-denial,anddevotion,comparinghispiousmirthtothedancingofthepatriarchDavidbeforethearkofthecovenant;andheadded,withsomeseverity,thatifhisflockwouldnotjointheirpastorwhowasmuchmorelikelytojudgearightinprayingfortheKing,theleasttheycoulddoonreturninghomewastopraythattheKingmightnotbedead,ashisenemieshadasserted。

  Nowwhentheservicewasover,wekilledtheKing,andwebroughthimtolife,atleastfiftytimesinthechurchyard:andSamFrywasmountedonahighgravestone,totelleveryoneallheknewofit。Butheknewnomorethanhehadtoldusinthechurch,asbeforerepeated:uponwhichweweremuchdisappointedwithhim,andinclinedtodisbelievehim;untilhehappilyrememberedthatHisMajestyhaddiedingreatpain,withbluespotsonhisbreastandblackspotsallacrosshisback,andtheseintheformofacross,byreasonofPapistshavingpoisonedhim。WhenSamcalledthistohisremembranceortohisimaginationhewasoverwhelmed,atonce,withsomanyinvitationstodinner,thathescarceknewwhichofthemtoaccept;

  butdecidedinourfavour。

  GrievingmuchforthelossoftheKing,howevergreatlyitmightbeastheparsonhaddeclareditwas,whiletellingustoprayagainstitfortheroyalbenefit,I

  resolvedtoridetoPorlockmyself,directlyafterdinner,andmakesurewhetherheweredead,ornot。

  ForitwasnotbyanymeanshardtosupposethatSamFry,beingJohn’sfirstcousin,mighthaveinheritedeitherfromgrandfatherorgrandmothersomeofthosegiftswhichhadmadeourJohnsofamousformendacity。

  AtPorlockIfoundthatitwastootrue;andthewomenofthetownwereingreatdistress,fortheKinghadalwaysbeenpopularwiththem:themen,ontheotherhand,wereforecastingwhatwouldbelikelytoensue。

  AndImyselfwasofthisnumber,ridingsadlyhomeagain;althoughboundtotheKingaschurchwardennow;

  whichdignity,nexttotheparson’sinrank,iswithusasitoughttobeineverygoodparishhereditary。

  Forwhocansticktothechurchlikethemanwhosefatherstucktoitbeforehim;andwhoknowsallthelittleins,andgreatouts,whichmustinthesetroubloustimescomeacross?

  Butthoughappointedatlast,byvirtueofbeingbestfarmerintheparishaswellasbyviceofmismanagementonthepartofmymother,andNicholasSnowe,whohadthoroughlymuxedupeverything,beingtooquick-headed;yet,whileIdwelledwithprideuponthefactthatIstoodintheKing’sshoes,asthemanagerandpromoteroftheChurchofEngland,andI

  knewthatwemustmissHisMajestywhosearmswereabovetheCommandments,astheleaderofourthoughtsinchurch,andhandsomeuponaguinea;neverthelessI

  keptonthinkinghowhisdeathwouldactonme。

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