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  ’Youkeepyouropinionstoyourself,’Ireplied;

  becauseIknewthedear,andherlittlebitsofjealousy;’ithappensthatyouarequitewrong,thistime。Lorna,comewithme,mydarling。’

  ’Ohyes,Lorna;gowithhim,’criedLizzie,droppingherlip,inawaywhichyoumustseetoknowitsmeaning;’Johnwantsnobodynowbutyou;andnonecanfindfaultwithhistaste,dear。’

  ’Youlittlefool,Ishouldthinknot,’Ianswered,veryrudely;for,betwixtthelotofthem,myLorna’seyelasheswerequivering;’now,dearestangel,comewithme;andsnapyourhandsatthewholeofthem。’

  Myangeldidcome,withasigh,andthenwithasmile,whenwewerealone;butwithoutanyunangelicattemptatsnappinghersweetwhitefingers。

  TheselittlethingsareenoughtoshowthatwhileeveryonesoadmiredLorna,andsokindlytooktoher,stilltherewould,justnowandthen,bepettyandpaltryflashesofjealousyconcerningher;andperhapsitcouldnotbeotherwiseamongsomanywomen。However,wewerealwaysdoublykindtoherafterwards;andalthoughhermindwassosensitiveandquickthatshemusthavesuffered,sheneverallowedustoperceiveit,norloweredherselfbyresentingit。

  PossiblyImayhavementionedthatlittleRuthHuckabackhadbeenasked,andhadevenpromisedtospendherChristmaswithus;andthiswasthemoredesirable,becauseshehadleftusthroughsomeoffence,orsorrow,aboutthingssaidofher。Nowmydearmother,beingthekindestandbest-heartedofallwomen,couldnotbearthatpoordearRuthwhowouldsomedayhavesuchafortune,shouldbeentirelylosttous。’Itisourduty,mydearchildren,’shesaidmorethanonceaboutit,’toforgiveandforget,asfreelyaswehopetohaveitdonetous。IfdearlittleRuthhasnotbehavedquiteaswemighthaveexpected,greatallowanceshouldbemadeforagirlwithsomuchmoney。Designingpeoplegetholdofher,andflatterher,andcoaxher,toobtainabaseinfluenceoverher;sothatwhenshefallsamongsimplefolk,whospeakthehonesttruthofher,nowonderthepoorchildisvexed,andgivesherselfairs,andsoon。

  Ruthcanbeveryusefultousinanumberoflittleways;andIconsideritquiteadutytopardonherfreakofpetulance。’

  NowoneofthelittlewaysinwhichRuthhadbeenveryuseful,wasthepurchaseofthescarletfeathersoftheflamingbird;andnowthatthehousewasquitesafefromattack,andthemarkonmyforeheadwashealing,I

  wasbegged,overandoveragain,togoandseeRuth,andmakeallthingsstraight,andpayforthegorgeousplumage。ThislastIwasverydesiroustodo,thatI

  mightknowthepriceofit,havingmadeasmallbetonthesubjectwithAnnie;andhavingheldcounselwithmyself,whetherornotitwerepossibletogetsomethingofthekindforLorna,ofstillmoredistinguishedappearance。Ofcourseshecouldnotwearscarletasyet,evenifIhadwishedit;butIbelievedthatpeopleoffashionoftenworepurpleformourning;

  purpletoowastheroyalcolour,andLornawasbyrightaqueen;thereforeIwasquiteresolvedtoransackUncleReuben’sstores,insearchofsomebrightpurplebird,ifnaturehadkindlyprovidedone。

  Allthis,however,Ikepttomyself,intendingtotrustRuthHuckaback,andnooneelseinthematter。Andso,onebeautifulspringmorning,whenalltheearthwaskissedwithscent,andalltheaircaressedwithsong,upthelaneIstoutlyrode,wellarmed,andwellprovided。

  Nowthoughitispartofmylifetoheed,itisnopartofmytaletotell,howthewheatwascomingon。I

  reckonthatyou,whoreadthisstory,afterIamdeadandgoneandbeforethatnoneshallreadit,willsay,’Tush!Whatishiswheattous?Wearenotwheat:

  wearehumanbeings:andallwecareforishumandoings。’Thismaybeverygoodargument,andinthemain,Ibelievethatitisso。Nevertheless,ifamanistotellonlywhathethoughtanddid,andnotwhatcamearoundhim,hemustnotmentionhisownclothes,whichhisfatherandmotherboughtforhim。Andmorethanmyownclothestome,ay,andasmuchasmyownskin,aretheworksofnatureroundabout,whereofamanisthesmallest。

  AndnowIwilltellyou,althoughmostlikelyonlytobelaughedat,becauseIcannotputitinthestyleofMr。Dryden——whomtocomparetoShakespeare!butifonceIbeginuponthat,youwillneverhearthelastofme——nevertheless,Iwilltellyouthis;notwishingtoberude,butonlyjustbecauseIknowit;themoreamancanflinghisarmssotosayroundNature’sneck,themorehecanuponherbosom,likeaninfant,lieandsuck,——themorethatmanshallearnthetrustandloveofallhisfellowmen。

  Inthismatterisnojealousywhenthemanisdead;

  becausethereafterallothersknowhowmuchofthemilkbehad;andhecansucknolonger;andtheyvaluehimaccordingly,forthenourishmentheistothem。Evenaswhenwekeeparoasterofthesucking-pigs,wechoose,andpraiseattablemost,thefavouriteofitsmother。FiftytimeshaveIseenthis,andsmiled,andpraisedourpeople’staste,andofferedthemmoreofthevitals。

  NowhereamIuponShakespearewhodied,ofhisownfruition,attheageoffifty-two,yetlivedmorethanfiftythousandmen,withinhislittlespanoflife,whenallthewhileIoughttoberidingashardasI

  cantoDulverton。But,totellthetruth,Icouldnotridehard,beingheldateveryturn,andoftenwithoutanyturnatall,bythebeautyofthingsaroundme。

  Thesethingsgrowuponamanifoncehestopstonoticethem。

  Itwantedyettwohourstonoon,whenIcametoMasterHuckaback’sdoor,andstruckthepanelssmartly。

  Knowingnothingoftheirmanners,onlythatpeopleinatowncouldnotbeexpectedtoentertainaswedoinfarm-houses,having,moreover,keenexpectationofMasterHuckaback’savarice,Ihadbroughtsomestufftoeat,madebyAnnie,andpackedbyLorna,andrequiringnothinkingaboutit。

  Ruthherselfcameandletmein,blushingveryheartily;forwhichcolourIpraisedherhealth,andmypraisesheightenedit。Thatlittlethinghadlovelyeyes,andcouldbetrustedthoroughly。Idolikeanobstinatelittlewoman,whensheissurethatsheisright。AndindeediflovehadneverspedmestraighttotheheartofLornacomparedtowhom,Ruthwasnomorethanthethiefistothecandle,whoknowsbutwhatImighthaveyieldedtothelawofnature,thatthoroughtrimmerofbalances,andverifiedtheproverbthatthegiantlovesthedwarf?

  ’Itaketheprivilege,MistressRuth,ofsalutingyouaccordingtokinship,andtheorderingoftheCanons。’

  AndtherewithIbussedherwell,andputmyarmaroundherwaist,beingsoterriblyrestrictedinthematterofLorna,andknowingtheuseofpractice。NotthatI

  hadanywarmth——allthatwasdarlingLorna’s——onlyoutofpuregallantry,andmyknowledgeofLondonfashions。

  Ruthblushedtosuchapitchatthis,andlookedupatmewithsuchagleam;asifImusthavemyownway;

  thatallmyloveofkissingsunk,andIfeltthatIwaswrongingher。Onlymymotherhadtoldme,whenthegirlswereoutoftheway,todoallIcouldtopleasedarlingRuth,andIhadgoneaboutitaccordingly。

  NowRuthasyethadneverheardawordaboutdearLorna;andwhensheledmeintothekitchenwhereeverythinglookedbeautiful,andtoldmenottomind,foramoment,aboutthescrubbingofmyboots,becauseshewouldonlybetoogladtocleanitallupafterme,andtoldmehowgladshewastoseeme,blushingmoreateveryword,andrecallingsomeofthem,andstoopingdownforpotsandpans,whenIlookedathertooruddily——allthesethingscameuponmeso,withoutanylegalnotice,thatIcouldonlylookatRuth,andthinkhowverygoodshewas,andhowbrightherhandleswere;

  andwonderifIhadwrongedher。Onceortwice,I

  began——thisIsayuponmyhonour——toendeavourtoexplainexactly,howwewereatPlover’sBarrows;howweallhadbeenboundtofight,andhaddefeatedtheenemy,keepingtheirqueenamongstus。ButRuthwouldmakesomegreatmistakebetweenLornaandGwennyCarfax,andgavemenochancetosetheraright,andcaredaboutnothingmuch,exceptsomenewsofSallySnowe。

  WhatcouldIdowiththislittlething?Allmysenseofmodesty,andvalueformydinner,wereagainstmyover-pressingallthegracefulhintsIhadgivenaboutLorna。Ruthwasjustagirlofthatsort,whowillnotbelieveoneword,exceptfromherownseeing;notsomuchfromanydoubt,asfromthepracticeofusingeyeswhichhavebeeninbusiness。

  IaskedCousinRuthasweusedtocallher,thoughthecousinshipwasdistantwhatwasbecomeofUncleBen,andhowitwasthatweneverheardanythingoforfromhimnow。Sherepliedthatshehardlyknewwhattomakeofhergrandfather’smannerofcarryingon,forthelasthalf-yearormore。Hewasapttoleavehishome,shesaid,atanyhourofthedayornight;goingnoneknewwhither,andreturningnoonemightsaywhen。Andhisdress,inheropinion,wasenoughtofrightenahodman,ofascavengeroftheroads,insteadofthedecentsuitofkersey,orofSabbathdoeskins,suchashadwontherespectandreverenceofhisfellow-

  townsmen。Buttheworstofallthingswas,assheconfessedwithtearsinhereyes,thatthepooroldgentlemanhadsomethingweighingheavilyonhismind。

  ’Itwillshortenhisdays,CousinRidd,’shesaid,forsheneverwouldcallmeCousinJohn;’hehasnoenjoymentofanythingthatheeatsordrinks,norevenincountinghismoney,asheusedtodoallSunday;

  indeednopleasureinanything,unlessitbesmokinghispipe,andthinkingandstaringatbitsofbrownstone,whichhepulls,everynowandthen,outofhispockets。Andthebusinessheusedtotakesuchprideinisnowleftalmostentirelytotheforeman,andtome。’

  ’Andwhatwillbecomeofyou,dearRuth,ifanythinghappenstotheoldman?’

  ’IamsureIknownot,’sheansweredsimply;’andI

  cannotbeartothinkofit。Itmustdepend,Isuppose,upondeargrandfather’spleasureaboutme。’

  ’Itmustratherdepend,’saidI,thoughhavingnobusinesstosayit,’uponyourowngoodpleasure,Ruth;

  foralltheworldwillpaycourttoyou。’

  ’ThatistheverythingwhichInevercouldendure。I

  havebeggeddeargrandfathertoleavenochanceofthat。Whenhehasthreatenedmewithpoverty,ashedoessometimes,Ihavealwaysmethimtruly,withtheanswerthatIfearedonethingagreatdealworsethanpoverty;namely,tobeanheiress。ButIcannotmakehimbelieveit。Onlythinkhowstrange,CousinRidd,I

  cannotmakehimbelieveit。’

  ’Itisnotstrangeatall,’Ianswered;’consideringhowhevaluesmoney。Neitherwouldanyoneelsebelieveyou,exceptbylookingintoyourtrue,andveryprettyeyes,dear。’

  NowIbegthatnoonewillsuspectforasinglemoment,eitherthatIdidnotmeanexactlywhatIsaid,ormeantasingleatommore,orwouldnothavesaidthesame,ifLornahadbeenstandingby。WhatIhadalwayslikedinRuth,wasthecalm,straightforwardgaze,andbeautyofherlargebrowneyes。IndeedIhadspokenofthemtoLorna,astheonlyonestobecomparedthoughnotformorethanamomenttoherown,fortruthandlight,butneverfordepthandsoftness。Butnowthelittlemaidendroppedthem,andturnedaway,withoutreply。

  ’Iwillgoandseetomyhorse,’Isaid;’theboythathastakenhimseemedsurprisedathishavingnohornsonhisforehead。Perhapshewillleadhimintotheshop,andfeedhimuponbroadcloth。’

  ’Oh,heissuchastupidboy,’Ruthansweredwithgreatsympathy:’howquickofyoutoobservethatnow:andyoucallyourself“SlowJohnRidd!“Ineverdidseesuchastupidboy:sometimeshespoilsmytemper。Butyoumustbebackinhalfanhour,atthelatest,CousinRidd。YouseeIrememberwhatyouare;whenonceyougetamonghorses,orcows,orthingsofthatsort。’

  ’Thingsofthatsort!Welldone,Ruth!OnewouldthinkyouwerequiteaCockney。’

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