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  Thenheplacidlydismissedthematter,andwentonwithhisdailyaffairs。BythistimeEllaathomehadcometoadetermination。

  Mrs。Hooper,insendingthehairandphotograph,hadinformedherofthedayofthefuneral;andasthemorningandnoonworeonanoverpoweringwishtoknowwheretheywerelayinghimtookpossessionofthesympatheticwoman。Caringverylittlenowwhatherhusbandoranyoneelsemightthinkofhereccentricities;shewroteMarchmillabriefnote,statingthatshewascalledawayfortheafternoonandevening,butwouldreturnonthefollowingmorning。

  Thissheleftonhisdesk,andhavinggiventhesameinformationtotheservants,wentoutofthehouseonfoot。

  WhenMr。Marchmillreachedhomeearlyintheafternoontheservantslookedanxious。Thenursetookhimprivatelyaside,andhintedthathermistress’ssadnessduringthepastfewdayshadbeensuchthatshefearedshehadgoneouttodrownherself。Marchmillreflected。

  Uponthewholehethoughtthatshehadnotdonethat。Withoutsayingwhitherhewasboundhealsostartedoff,tellingthemnottositupforhim。Hedrovetotherailway-station,andtookaticketforSolentsea。

  Itwasdarkwhenhereachedtheplace,thoughhehadcomebyafasttrain,andheknewthatifhiswifehadprecededhimthitheritcouldonlyhavebeenbyaslowertrain,arrivingnotagreatwhilebeforehisown。TheseasonatSolentseawasnowpast:theparadewasgloomy,andtheflyswerefewandcheap。HeaskedthewaytotheCemetery,andsoonreachedit。Thegatewaslocked,butthekeeperlethimin,declaring,however,thattherewasnobodywithintheprecincts。Althoughitwasnotlate,theautumnaldarknesshadnowbecomeintense;andhefoundsomedifficultyinkeepingtotheserpentinepathwhichledtothequarterwhere,asthemanhadtoldhim,theoneortwointermentsforthedayhadtakenplace。Hesteppeduponthegrass,and,stumblingoversomepegs,stoopednowandthentodiscernifpossibleafigureagainstthesky。

  Hecouldseenone;butlightingonaspotwherethesoilwastrodden,beheldacrouchingobjectbesideanewlymadegrave。Sheheardhim,andsprangup。

  ’Ell,howsillythisis!’hesaidindignantly。’Runningawayfromhome——Ineverheardsuchathing!OfcourseIamnotjealousofthisunfortunateman;butitistooridiculousthatyou,amarriedwomanwiththreechildrenandafourthcoming,shouldgolosingyourheadlikethisoveradeadlover!……Doyouknowyouwerelockedin?Youmightnothavebeenabletogetoutallnight。’

  Shedidnotanswer。

  ’Ihopeitdidn’tgofarbetweenyouandhim,foryourownsake。’

  ’Don’tinsultme,Will。’

  ’Mind,Iwon’thaveanymoreofthissortofthing;doyouhear?’

  ’Verywell,’shesaid。

  Hedrewherarmwithinhisown,andconductedheroutoftheCemetery。Itwasimpossibletogetbackthatnight;andnotwishingtoberecognizedintheirpresentsorrycondition,hetookhertoamiserablelittlecoffee-houseclosetothestation,whencetheydepartedearlyinthemorning,travellingalmostwithoutspeaking,underthesensethatitwasoneofthosedrearysituationsoccurringinmarriedlifewhichwordscouldnotmend,andreachingtheirowndooratnoon。

  Themonthspassed,andneitherofthetwaineverventuredtostartaconversationuponthisepisode。Ellaseemedtobeonlytoofrequentlyinasadandlistlessmood,whichmightalmosthavebeencalledpining。Thetimewasapproachingwhenshewouldhavetoundergothestressofchildbirthforafourthtime,andthatapparentlydidnottendtoraiseherspirits。

  ’Idon’tthinkIshallgetoveritthistime!’shesaidoneday。

  ’Pooh!whatchildishforeboding!Whyshouldn’titbeaswellnowasever?’

  Sheshookherhead。’IfeelalmostsureIamgoingtodie;andI

  shouldbeglad,ifitwerenotforNelly,andFrank,andTiny。’

  ’Andme!’

  ’You’llsoonfindsomebodytofillmyplace,’shemurmured,withasadsmile。’Andyou’llhaveaperfectrightto;Iassureyouofthat。’

  ’Ell,youarenotthinkingstillaboutthat——poeticalfriendofyours?’

  Sheneitheradmittednordeniedthecharge。’Iamnotgoingtogetovermyillnessthistime,’shereiterated。’SomethingtellsmeI

  shan’t。’

  Thisviewofthingswasratherabadbeginning,asitusuallyis;

  and,infact,sixweekslater,inthemonthofMay,shewaslyinginherroom,pulselessandbloodless,withhardlystrengthenoughlefttofollowuponefeeblebreathwithanother,theinfantforwhoseunnecessarylifeshewasslowlypartingwithherownbeingfatandwell。JustbeforeherdeathshespoketoMarchmillsoftly:-

  ’Will,Iwanttoconfesstoyoutheentirecircumstancesofthat——

  aboutyouknowwhat——thattimewevisitedSolentsea。Ican’ttellwhatpossessedme——howIcouldforgetyouso,myhusband!ButIhadgotintoamorbidstate:Ithoughtyouhadbeenunkind;thatyouhadneglectedme;thatyouweren’tuptomyintellectuallevel,whilehewas,andfaraboveit。Iwantedafullerappreciator,perhaps,ratherthananotherlover——’

  Shecouldgetnofurtherthenforveryexhaustion;andshewentoffinsuddencollapseafewhourslater,withouthavingsaidanythingmoretoherhusbandonthesubjectofherloveforthepoet。

  WilliamMarchmill,intruth,likemosthusbandsofseveralyears’

  standing,waslittledisturbedbyretrospectivejealousies,andhadnotshowntheleastanxietytopressherforconfessionsconcerningamandeadandgonebeyondanypowerofinconveniencinghimmore。

  Butwhenshehadbeenburiedacoupleofyearsitchancedonedaythat,inturningoversomeforgottenpapersthathewishedtodestroybeforehissecondwifeenteredthehouse,helightedonalockofhairinanenvelope,withthephotographofthedeceasedpoet,adatebeingwrittenonthebackinhislatewife’shand。ItwasthatofthetimetheyspentatSolentsea。

  Marchmilllookedlongandmusinglyatthehairandportrait,forsomethingstruckhim。Fetchingthelittleboywhohadbeenthedeathofhismother,nowanoisytoddler,hetookhimonhisknee,heldthelockofhairagainstthechild’shead,andsetupthephotographonthetablebehind,sothathecouldcloselycomparethefeatureseachcountenancepresented。Therewereundoubtedlystrongtracesofresemblance;thedreamyandpeculiarexpressionofthepoet’sfacesat,asthetransmittedidea,uponthechild’s,andthehairwasofthesamehue。

  ’I’mdamnedifIdidn’tthinkso!’murmuredMarchmill。’ThensheDIDplaymefalsewiththatfellowatthelodgings!Letmesee:

  thedates——thesecondweekinAugust……thethirdweekinMay……Yes……yes……Getaway,youpoorlittlebrat!Youarenothingtome!’

  AmongthefewfeaturesofagriculturalEnglandwhichretainanappearancebutlittlemodifiedbythelapseofcenturies,maybereckonedthehigh,grassyandfurzydowns,coombs,orewe-leases,astheyareindifferentlycalled,thatfillalargeareaofcertaincountiesinthesouthandsouth-west。Ifanymarkofhumanoccupationismetwithhereon,itusuallytakestheformofthesolitarycottageofsomeshepherd。

  Fiftyyearsagosuchalonelycottagestoodonsuchadown,andmaypossiblybestandingtherenow。Inspiteofitsloneliness,however,thespot,byactualmeasurement,wasnotmorethanfivemilesfromacounty-town。Yetthataffecteditlittle。Fivemilesofirregularupland,duringthelonginimicalseasons,withtheirsleets,snows,rains,andmists,affordwithdrawingspaceenoughtoisolateaTimonoraNebuchadnezzar;muchless,infairweather,topleasethatlessrepellenttribe,thepoets,philosophers,artists,andotherswho’conceiveandmeditateofpleasantthings。’

  Someoldearthencamporbarrow,someclumpoftrees,atleastsomestarvedfragmentofancienthedgeisusuallytakenadvantageofintheerectionoftheseforlorndwellings。But,inthepresentcase,suchakindofshelterhadbeendisregarded。HigherCrowstairs,asthehousewascalled,stoodquitedetachedandundefended。Theonlyreasonforitsprecisesituationseemedtobethecrossingoftwofootpathsatrightangleshardby,whichmayhavecrossedthereandthusforagoodfivehundredyears。Hencethehousewasexposedtotheelementsonallsides。But,thoughthewinduphereblewunmistakablywhenitdidblow,andtherainhithardwheneveritfell,thevariousweathersofthewinterseasonwerenotquitesoformidableonthecoombastheywereimaginedtobebydwellersonlowground。Therawrimeswerenotsoperniciousasinthehollows,andthefrostswerescarcelysosevere。Whentheshepherdandhisfamilywhotenantedthehousewerepitiedfortheirsufferingsfromtheexposure,theysaidthatuponthewholetheywerelessinconveniencedby’wuzzesandflames’hoarsesandphlegmsthanwhentheyhadlivedbythestreamofasnugneighbouringvalley。

  ThenightofMarch28,182-,waspreciselyoneofthenightsthatwerewonttocallforththeseexpressionsofcommiseration。Thelevelrainstormsmotewalls,slopes,andhedgesliketheclothyardshaftsofSenlacandCrecy。Suchsheepandoutdooranimalsashadnoshelterstoodwiththeirbuttockstothewinds;whilethetailsoflittlebirdstryingtoroostonsomescraggythornwereblowninside-outlikeumbrellas。Thegable-endofthecottagewasstainedwithwet,andtheeavesdroppingsflappedagainstthewall。Yetneverwascommiserationfortheshepherdmoremisplaced。Forthatcheerfulrusticwasentertainingalargepartyinglorificationofthechristeningofhissecondgirl。

  Theguestshadarrivedbeforetherainbegantofall,andtheywereallnowassembledinthechieforlivingroomofthedwelling。A

  glanceintotheapartmentateighto’clockonthiseventfuleveningwouldhaveresultedintheopinionthatitwasascosyandcomfortableanookascouldbewishedforinboisterousweather。

  Thecallingofitsinhabitantwasproclaimedbyanumberofhighly-

  polishedsheep-crookswithoutstemsthatwerehungornamentallyoverthefireplace,thecurlofeachshiningcrookvaryingfromtheantiquatedtypeengravedinthepatriarchalpicturesofoldfamilyBiblestothemostapprovedfashionofthelastlocalsheep-fair。

  Theroomwaslightedbyhalf-a-dozencandles,havingwicksonlyatriflesmallerthanthegreasewhichenvelopedthem,incandlesticksthatwereneverusedbutathigh-days,holy-days,andfamilyfeasts。

  Thelightswerescatteredabouttheroom,twoofthemstandingonthechimney-piece。Thispositionofcandleswasinitselfsignificant。Candlesonthechimney-piecealwaysmeantaparty。

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