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  forayounggirlisoftendupedbyoneorotherofthesehallucinations。ThereforeIdonotblameyou。Thesensationsyoufeel,therushofsensibilitywhichhascomefromitshiddensourceuponyourheartanduponyourmind,thehappinesswithwhichyouthinkofSavinien,areallnatural。But,mydarlingchild,societydemands,asourgoodabbehastoldus,thesacrificeofmanynaturalinclinations。

  Thedestiniesofmenandwomendiffer。IwasabletochooseUrsulaMirouetformywife;IcouldgotoherandsaythatIlovedher;butayounggirlisfalsetoherselfifsheaskstheloveofthemansheloves。Awomanhasnottherightwhichmenhavetoseektheaccomplishmentofherhopesinopenday。Modestyistoher——abovealltoyou,myUrsula,——theinsurmountablebarrierwhichprotectsthesecretsofherheart。YourhesitationinconfidingtomethesefirstemotionsshowsmeyouwouldsuffercrueltortureratherthanadmittoSavinien——“

  “Oh,yes!“shesaid。

  “But,mychild,youmustdomore。Youmustrepressthesefeelings;youmustforgetthem。“

  “Why?“

  “Because,mydarling,youmustloveonlythemanyoumarry;and,evenifMonsieurSaviniendePortenduerelovedyou——“

  “Ineverthoughtofit。“

  “Butlisten:evenifhelovedyou,evenifhismotheraskedmetogivehimyourhand,IshouldnotconsenttothemarriageuntilIhadsubjectedhimtoalongandthoroughprobation。Hisconducthasbeensuchastomakefamiliesdistrusthimandtoputobstaclesbetweenhimselfandheiresseswhichcannotbeeasilyovercome。“

  AsoftsmilecameinplaceoftearsonUrsula’ssweetfaceasshesaid,“Thenpovertyisgoodsometimes。“

  Thedoctorcouldfindnoanswertosuchinnocence。

  “Whathashedone,godfather?“sheasked。

  “Intwoyears,mytreasure,hehasincurredonehundredandtwentythousandfrancsofdebt。HehashadthefollytogethimselflockedupinSaint-Pelagie,thedebtor’sprison;animproprietywhichwillalwaysbe,inthesedays,adiscredittohim。Aspendthriftwhoiswillingtoplungehispoormotherintopovertyanddistressmightcausehiswife,asyourpoorfatherdid,todieofdespair。“

  “Don’tyouthinkhewilldobetter?“sheasked。

  “Ifhismotherpayshisdebtshewillbepenniless,andIdon’tknowaworsepunishmentthantobeanoblemanwithoutmeans。“

  ThisanswermadeUrsulathoughtful;shedriedhertears,andsaid:——

  “Ifyoucansavehim,savehim,godfather;thatservicewillgiveyouarighttoadvisehim;youcanremonstrate——“

  “Yes,“saidthedoctor,imitatingher,“andthenhecancomehere,andtheoldladywillcomehere,andweshallseethem,and——“

  “Iwasthinkingonlyofhim,“saidUrsula,blushing。

  “Don’tthinkofhim,mychild;itwouldbefolly,“saidthedoctorgravely。“MadamedePortenduere,whowasaKergarouet,wouldneverconsent,evenifshehadtoliveonthreehundredfrancsayear,tothemarriageofherson,theVicomteSaviniendePortenduere,withwhom?——withUrsulaMirouet,daughterofabandsmaninaregiment,withoutmoney,andwhosefather——alas!Imustnowtellyouall——wasthebastardsonofanorganist,myfather-in-law。“

  “Ogodfather!youareright;weareequalonlyinthesightofGod。I

  willnotthinkofhimagain——exceptinmyprayers,“shesaid,amidthesobswhichthispainfulrevelationexcited。“Givehimwhatyoumeanttogiveme——whatcanapoorgirllikemewant?——ah,inprison,he!——“

  “OffertoGodyourdisappointments,andperhapshewillhelpus。“

  Therewassilenceforsomeminutes。WhenUrsula,whoatfirstdidnotdaretolookathergodfather,raisedhereyes,herheartwasdeeplymovedtoseethetearswhichwererollingdownhiswitheredcheeks。

  Thetearsofoldmenareasterribleasthoseofchildrenarenatural。

  “Ohwhatisit?“criedUrsula,flingingherselfathisfeetandkissinghishands。“Areyounotsureofme?“

  “I,wholongedtogratifyallyourwishes,itisIwhoamobligedtocausethefirstgreatsorrowofyourlife!“hesaid。“Isufferasmuchasyou。Ineverweptbefore,exceptwhenIlostmychildren——and,Ursula——Yes,“hecriedsuddenly,“Iwilldoallyoudesire!“

  Ursulagavehim,throughhertearsalookthatwasvividaslightning。

  Shesmiled。

  “Letusgointothesalon,darling,“saidthedoctor。“Trytokeepthesecretofallthistoyourself,“headded,leavingheraloneforamomentinhisstudy。

  Hefelthimselfsoweakbeforethatheavenlysmilethathefearedhemightsayawordofhopeandthusmisleadher。

  MadamedePortenduerewasatthismomentalonewiththeabbeinherfrigidlittlesalononthegroundfloor,havingfinishedtherecitalofhertroublestothegoodpriest,heronlyfriend。Sheheldinherhandsomeletterswhichhehadjustreturnedtoherafterreadingthem;theselettershadbroughthertroublestoaclimax。Seatedonhersofabesideasquaretablecoveredwiththeremainsofadessert,theoldladywaslookingattheabbe,whosatontheothersideofthetable,doubledupinhisarmchairandstrokinghischinwiththegesturecommontovaletsonthestage,mathematicians,andpriests,——asignofprofoundmeditationonaproblemthatwasdifficulttosolve。

  Thislittlesalon,lightedbytwowindowsonthestreetandfinishedwithawainscotpaintedgray,wassodampthatthelowerpanelsshowedthegeometricalcracksofrottenwoodwhenthepaintnolongerbindsit。Thered-tiledfloor,polishedbytheoldlady’soneservant,required,forcomfort’ssake,beforeeachseatsmallroundmatsofbrownstraw,ononeofwhichtheabbewasnowrestinghisfeet。Theolddamaskcurtainsoflightgreenwithgreenflowersweredrawn,andtheoutsideblindshadbeenclosed。Twowaxcandleslightedthetable,leavingtherestoftheroominsemi-obscurity。IsitnecessarytosaythatbetweenthetwowindowswasafinepastelbyLatourrepresentingthefamousAdmiraldePortenduere,therivaloftheSuffren,Guichen,KergarouetandSimeusenavalheroes?OnthepaneledwalloppositetothefireplacewereportraitsoftheVicomtedePortenduereandofthemotheroftheoldlady,aKergarouet-Ploegat。Savinien’sgreat-unclewasthereforetheVice-admiraldeKergarouet,andhiscousinwastheComtedePortenduere,grandsonoftheadmiral,——bothofthemveryrich。

  TheVice-admiraldeKergarouetlivedinParisandtheComtedePortenduereatthechateauofthatnameinDauphine。Thecountrepresentedtheelderbranch,andSavinienwastheonlyscionoftheyounger。Thecount,whowasoverfortyyearsofageandmarriedtoarichwife,hadthreechildren。Hisfortune,increasedbyvariouslegacies,amounted,itwassaid,tosixtythousandfrancsayear。AsdeputyfromIserehepassedhiswintersinParis,wherehehadboughtthehoteldePortenduerewiththeindemnitiesheobtainedundertheVillelelaw。Thevice-admiralhadrecentlymarriedhisniecebymarriage,forthesolepurposeofsecuringhismoneytoher。

  Thefaultsoftheyoungviscountwerethereforelikelytocosthimthefavoroftwopowerfulprotectors。IfSavinienhadenteredthenavy,youngandhandsomeashewas,withafamousname,andbackedbytheinfluenceofanadmiralandadeputy,hemight,attwenty-threeyearsofage,beenalieutenant;buthismother,unwillingthatheronlysonshouldgointoeithernavalormilitaryservice,hadkepthimatNemoursunderthetutelageofoneoftheAbbeChaperon’sassistants,hopingthatshecouldkeephimnearheruntilherdeath。Shemeanttomarryhimtoademoiselled’Aiglemontwithafortuneoftwelvethousandfrancsayear;towhosehandthenameofPortenduereandthefarmatBordieresenabledhimtopretend。Thisnarrowbutjudiciousplan,whichwouldhavecarriedthefamilytoasecondgeneration,wasalreadybalkedbyevents。Thed’Aiglemontswereruined,andoneofthedaughters,Helene,haddisappeared,andthemysteryofherdisappearancewasneversolved。

  Thewearinessofalifewithoutatmosphere,withoutprospects,withoutaction,withoutothernourishmentthantheloveofasonforhismother,soworkeduponSavinienthathebursthischains,gentleastheywere,andsworethathewouldneverliveintheprovinces——

  comprehending,ratherlate,thathisfuturefatewasnottobeintheRuedesBourgeois。Attwenty-oneyearsofagehelefthismother’shousetomakeacquaintancewithhisrelations,andtryhisluckinParis。ThecontrastbetweenlifeinParisandlifeinNemourswaslikelytobefataltoayoungmanoftwenty-one,free,withnoonetosayhimnay,naturallyeagerforpleasure,andforwhomhisnameandhisconnectionsopenedthedoorsofallthesalons。Quiteconvincedthathismotherhadthesavingsofmanyyearsinherstrong-box,SaviniensoonspentthesixthousandfrancswhichshehadgivenhimtoseeParis。Thatsumdidnotdefrayhisexpensesforsixmonths,andhesoonoweddoublethatsumtohishotel,histailor,hisbootmaker,tothemanfromwhomhehiredhiscarriagesandhorses,toajeweler,——

  inshort,toallthosetradersandshopkeeperswhocontributetotheluxuryofyoungmen。

  Hehadonlyjustsucceededinmakinghimselfknown,andhadscarcelylearnedhowtoconverse,howtopresenthimselfinasalon,howtowearhiswaistcoatsandchoosethemandtoorderhiscoatsandtiehiscravat,beforehefoundhimselfindebtforoverthirtythousandfrancs,whilestillseekingtherightphrasesinwhichtodeclarehisloveforthesisteroftheMarquisdeRonquerolles,theelegantMadamedeSerizy,whoseyouthhadbeenatitsclimaxduringtheEmpire。

  “Howisthatyouallmanage?“askedSavinienoneday,attheendofagaybreakfastwithaknotofyoungdandies,withwhomhewasintimateastheyoungmenofthepresentdayareintimatewitheachother,allaimingforthesamethingandallclaiminganimpossibleequality。

  “YouwerenoricherthanIandyetyougetalongwithoutanxiety;youcontrivetomaintainyourselves,whileasformeImakenothingbutdebts。“

  “Weallbeganthatway,“answeredRastignac,laughing,andthelaughwasechoedbyLuciendeRubempre,MaximedeTrailles,EmileBlondet,andothersofthefashionableyoungmenoftheday。

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