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  Whistlingfromoffthesea,thewindwaschargedwithmoist,saltspray,anddashingfoamingbillowsashorewiththeirwhitemanesfullofsnakelike,gleamingblackribandsofseaweed,andcausingtherockstorumbleangrilyinresponse,andthetreestorustlewithadry,agitatedsoundastheirtopsswayedtoandfro,andtheirtrunksbentearthwardsasthoughtheywouldfainreeveuptheirroots,andbetakethemwhitherthemountainsstoodveiledinatogaofheavy,darkmist。

  Overtheseathecloudswerehurryingtowardsthelandaseverandanontheyrentthemselvesintostrips,andrevealedfathomlessabyssesofbluewhereintheautumnsunburneduneasily,andsentcloud-shadowsglidingoverthepuckeredwasteofwaters,until,theshorereached,thewindfurtherharriedthemassesofvapourtowardsthesharpflanksofthemountains,and,afterdrawingthemupanddowntheslopes,relegatedthemtoclefts,andleftthemsteamingthere。

  Therewasaboutthewholescenealouringappearance,anappearanceasthougheverythingwerecontendingwitheverything,asnowallthingsturnedsullenlydark,andnowallthingsemittedadullsheenwhichalmostblindedtheeyes。Alongthenarrowroad,aroadprotectedfromtheseabyalineofwave-

  washeddykes,somewitheredleavesofoakandwildcherrywerescuddinginmutualchaseofoneanother;withthegeneralresultthatthecombinedsoundsofsplashingandrustlingandhowlingcametomergethemselvesintoasingledinwhichissuedasasongwitharhythmmarkedbythemeasuredblowsofthewavesastheystrucktherocks。

  “Zmiulan,theKingoftheOcean,isabroad!“shoutedmyfellowtravellerinmyear。Hewasatall,round-shoulderedmanofchildishlychubbyfeaturesandboyishlybright,transparenteyes。

  “WHOdoyousayisabroad?“Iqueried。

  “KingZmiulan。“

  Neverhavingheardofthemonarch,Imadenoreply。

  Theextenttowhichthewindbuffetedusmighthaveledonetosupposethatitsprimaryobjectivewastodeflectoursteps,andturntheminthedirectionofthemountains。Indeed,attimesitspressurewassostrongthatwehadnochoicebuttohalt,toturnourbackstothesea,and,withfeetplantedapart,topriseourselvesagainstoursticks,andsoremain,poisedonthreelegs,untilwewerepastanyriskofbeingoverwhelmedwiththesoftincubusofthetempest,andhavingourcoatstornfromourshoulders。

  Atintervalssuchgaspswouldcomefrommycompanionthathemightwellhavebeenstandingonthedrying-boardofabath。Nor,astheydidso,washisappearanceaughtbutcomical,seeingthathisears,appendageslargeandshaggylikeadog’s,andindifferentlyshieldedwithashabbyoldcap,keptbeingpushedforwardbythewinduntilhissmallheadboreanabsurdresemblancetoachinabowl。Andthat,tocompletetheresemblance,hislongandmassivenose,afeaturegrosslydisproportionatetotherestofhisdiminutiveface,mightequallywellhavepassedforthespoutofthereceptacleindicated。

  Yetafaceoutofthecommonitwas,likethewholeofhispersonality。AndthiswasthefactwhichhadcaptivatedmefromthemomentwhenIhadbeheldhimparticipatinginavigilserviceheldintheneighbouringchurchofthemonasteryofNewAthos。

  There,spare,butwithhiswitheredformerect,andhisheadslightlytilted,hehadbeengazingattheCrucifixwitharadiantsmile,andmovinghisthinlipsinasortofwhispered,confidential,friendlyconversationwiththeSaviour。Indeed,somuchhadtheman’ssmooth,roundfeaturesfeaturesasbeardlessasthoseofaSkopetz[AmemberoftheSkoptzi,anon-Orthodoxsectthemembersofwhich“domakeofthemselveseunuchsfortheLord’ssake。“],savefortwobrighttuftsatthecornersofthemouthbeeninstinctwithintimacy,withaconsciousnessofactuallybeinginthepresenceoftheSonofGod,thatthespectacle,transcendinganythingofthekindthatmyeyeshadbeforebeheld,hadledme,withitstotalabsenceofthecustomarylaboured,servile,pusillanimousattitudetowardstheAlmightywhichIhadgenerallyfoundtobetherule,toaccordthemanmywholeinterest,and,aslongastheservicehadlasted,tokeepaneyeupononewhocouldthusconversewithGodwithoutrenderingHimconstantobeisance,oragainandagainmakingthesignofthecross,orinvariablymakingittotheaccompanimentofgroansandtearswhichhadalwayshithertoobtrudeditselfuponmynotice。

  AgainhadIencounteredthemanwhenIhadhadsupperattheworkmen’sbarraque,andthenproceededtothemonastery’sguest-

  chamber。Seatedatatableunderacircleoflightfallingfromalampsuspendedfromtheceiling,hehadgatheredaroundhimaknotofpilgrimsandtheirwomen,andwasholdingforthinlow,cheerfultonesthatyethadinthemthetelling,incisivenoteofthepreacher,ofthemanwhofrequentlyconverseswithhisfellowmen。

  “Onethingitmaybebestalwaystodisclose,“hewassaying,“andanotherthingtoconceal。Ifaughtinourselvesseemsharmfulorsenseless,letusputtoourselvesthequestion:’Whyisthisso?’Contrariwiseoughtaprudentmannevertothrusthimselfforwardandsay:’HowdiscreetamI!’whilehewhomakesaparadeofhishardlot,andsays,’Goodfolk,seeyeandhearhowbittermylifeis,’alsodoeswrong。“

  Hereapilgrimwithablackbeard,abrigand’sdarkeyes,andthewastedfeaturesofanasceticrosefromthefurthersideofthetable,straightenedhisvirileframe,andsaidinadullvoice:

  “Mywifeandoneofmychildrenwereburnttodeaththroughthefallingofanoillamp。OnTHAToughtItokeepsilence?“

  Noanswerfollowed。Onlysomeonemutteredtohimself:

  “What?Again?“:untilthefirstspeaker,thespeakerseatednearthecornerofthetable,launchedintotheoppressivelulltheunhesitatingreply:

  “ThatofwhichyouspeakmaybetakentohavebeenapunishmentbyGodforsin。“

  “What?Forasincommittedbyonethreeyearsofagefor,indeed,mylittlesonwasnomore?Theaccidenthappenedofhispullingdownalampuponhimself,andofmywifeseizinghim,andherselfbeingburnttodeath。Shewasweak,too,forbutelevendayshadpassedsinceherconfinement。“

  “No。WhatImeanisthatinthataccidentyouseeapunishmentforsinscommittedbythechild’sfatherandmother。“

  Thisreplyfromthecornercamewithperfectconfidence。Theblack-beardedman,however,pretendednottohearit,butspreadouthishandsasthoughpartingtheairbeforehim,andproceededhurriedly,breathlesslytodetailthemannerinwhichhiswifeandlittleonehadmettheirdeaths。Andallthetimethathewasdoingsoonehadaninklingthatoftenbeforehadherecountedhisnarrativeofhorror,andthatoftenagainwouldherepeatit。

  Hisshaggyblackeyebrows,ashedeliveredhisspeech,metinasinglestrip,whilethewhitesofhiseyesgrewbloodshot,andtheirdull,blackpupilsneverceasedtheirnervoustwitching。

  Presentlythegloomyrecitalwasoncemoreroughly,unceremoniouslybrokeninuponbythecheerfulvoiceoftheChrist-lovingpilgrim。

  “Itisnotright,brother,“thevoicesaid,“toblameGodforuntowardaccidents,orformistakesandfolliescommittedbyourselves。“

  “ButifGodbeGod,Heisresponsibleforallthings。“

  “Notso。Concedetoyourselfthefacultyofreason。“

  “Pah!Whatavailsreasonifitcannotmakemeunderstand?“

  “CannotmakeyouunderstandWHAT?“

  “Themainpoint,thepointwhyMYwifehadtobeburntratherthanmyneighbour’s?“

  Somewhereanoldwomancommentedinspitefullydistincttones:

  “Ohho,ho!Thismancomestoamonastery,andstartsrailingassoonashegetsthere!“

  Flashinghiseyesangrily,theblack-beardedmanloweredhisheadlikeabull。Then,thinkingbetterofhisposition,andcontentinghimselfwithagesture,hestrodeswiftly,heavilytowardsthedoor。UponthistheChrist-lovingpilgrimrosewithaswayingmotion,bowedtoeveryonepresent,andsetaboutfollowinghislateinterlocutor。

  “Ithasallcomeofabrokenheart,“hesaidwithasmileashepassedme。Yetsomehowthesmileseemedtolacksympathy。

  Withadisapprovingairsomeoneelseremarked:

  “Thatfellow’sonethoughtistoenlargeandtoenlargeuponhistale。“

  “Yes,andtonopurposedoeshedoso,“addedtheChrist-lovingpilgrimashehaltedinthedoorway。“Allthatheaccomplishesbyitistowearyhimselfandothersalike。Suchexperiencesarefarbetterputbehindone。“

  PresentlyIfollowedthepairintotheforecourt,andneartheentrance-gatesheardavoicesayquietly:

  “Donotdisturbyourself,goodfather。“

  “Nevertheless“thesecondvoicewasthatoftheporterofthemonastery,FatherSeraphim,astrappingVetlugan“aspectrewalksherenightly。“

  “Nevermindifitdoes。Asregardsmyself,nospectrewouldtouchme。“

  HereImovedinthedirectionofthegates。

  “Whocomesthere?“Seraphiminquiredashethrustahairyanduncouth,butinfinitelykindly,faceclosetomine。“Oh,itistheyoungfellowfromNizhniNovgorod!Youarewastingyourtime,mygoodsir,forthewomenhaveallgonetobed。“

  Withwhichhelaughedandchuckledlikeabear。

  Beyondthewalloftheforecourtthestillnessoftheautumnnightwasthelanguidinertiaofaworldexhaustedbysummer,andthewitheredgrassandotherobjectsoftheseasonwereexhalingasweetandbracingodour,andthetreeslookinglikefragmentsofcloudwheremotionlesstheyhunginthemoist,sultryair。

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