第30章
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  Oppositethewharftherewasstuckinthewidegableofatwo-storiedbuildingalanternwhich,flickering,diffusedbutadull,anaemiclightfromitsdirtypanes,whileoverthelongstripofthebrokensignboardofthebuildingtherecouldbeseenstraggling,andexecutedinlargeyellowletters,thewords,“Tavernand-“Nomoreofthelegendthanthiswasvisible。

  Lanternswerehangingintwoorthreeotherspotsinthedrowsylittletown;andwherevertheirmurkystainsoflighthungsuspendedintheairtherestoodoutinreliefamedleyofgables,drab-tintedtrees,andfalsewindowsinwhitepaint,onwallsofadullslatecolour。

  SomehowIfoundcontemplationofthescenedepressing。

  Meanwhilethevesselcontinuedtoemitsteamassherockedtoandfrowithacreakingofwood,aslap-slappingofwater,andascrubbingofhersidesagainstthewharf。Atlengthsomeoneejaculatedsurlily:

  “Fool,youmustbeasleep!Thewinch,yousay?Why,thewinchisatthestern,damnyou!“

  “Offagain,thanktheLord!“addedtheraspingvoicealreadyheardfrombehindthebales,whiletoitanequallyfamiliarvoicerejoinedwithayawn:

  “It’stimeweWEREoff!“

  Saidahoarsevoice:

  “Lookhere,youngfellow。Whatwasitheshouted?“

  Hastilyandinarticulately,withagreatdealofsmackingofthelipsandstuttering,someonereplied:

  “Heshouted:’Kinsmen,donotkillme!Havesomemercy,forChrist’ssake,andIwillmakeovertoyoueverything——yes,everythingintoyourgoodhandsforever!Onlyletmegoaway,andexpiatemysins,andsavemysoulthroughprayer。Aye,I

  willgoonapilgrimage,andremainhiddenmylifelong,totheveryend。Nevershallyouhearofmeagain,norseeme。’ThenUnclePetercaughthimablowonthehead,andhisbloodsplashedoutuponme。AshefellI——well,Iranaway,andmadeforthetavern,whereIknockedatthedoorandshouted:

  ’Sister,theyhavekilledourfather!’Uponthat,sheputherheadoutofthewindow,butonlysaid:’Thatmerelymeansthattherascalismakinganexcuseforvodka。’……Aye,aterribletimeitwas——wasthatnight!AndhowfrightenedIfelt!Atfirst,Imadeforthegarret,butpresentlythoughttomyself:’No;

  theywouldsoonfindmethere,andputmetoanendaswell,forIamtheheirdirect,andshouldbethefirsttosucceedtotheproperty。’SoIcrawledontotheroof,andtherelayhiddenbehindthechimney-stack,holdingonwitharmsandlegs,whileunabletospeakforsheerterror。“

  “Whatwereyouafraidof?“abrusquevoiceinterrupted。

  “WhatwasIafraidof?“

  “Atallevents,youjoinedyouruncleinkillingyourfather,didn’tyou?“

  “Insuchanhouronehasnottimetothink——onejustkillsamanbecauseonecan’thelponeself,orbecauseitseemssoeasytokill。“

  “True,“thehoarservoicecommentedindullandponderousaccents。“Whenoncebloodhasflowedthefactleadstomoreblood,andifamanhasstartedouttokill,hecaresnothingforanyreason——hefindsgoodenoughthereasonwhichcomesfirsttohishand。“

  “Butifthisyoungfellowisspeakingthetruth,hehadaBUSINESSreason——though,properlyspeaking,evenpropertyoughtnottoprovokequarrels。“

  “Similarlyoneoughtnottokilljustwhenonechooses。Folkwhocommitsuchcrimesshouldhavejusticemetedouttothem。“

  “Yes,butitisdifficultalwaystoobtainsuchjustice。Forinstance,thisyoungfellowseemstohavespentoverayearinprisonfornothing。“

  “’Fornothing’?Why,didhenotenticehisfatherintothehut,andthenshutthedooruponhim,andthrowacoatoverhishead?Hehassaidsohimself。’Fornothing,’indeed!“

  Uponthistherapidstreamofsobbed,disconnectedwords,whichI

  hadheardbeforefromsomespeakerpouredforthanew。Somehow,I

  guessedthatitcamefromthemaninthedirtyboots,asoncemoreherecountedthestoryofthemurder。

  “Idonotwishtojustifymyself,“hesaid。“Isaymerelythat,inasmuchasIwaspromisedareprieveatthetrial,Itoldeverything,andwasthereforeallowedtogofree,whilemyuncleandmybrotherweresentencedtopenalservitude。“

  “ButyouKNEWthattheyhadagreedtokillhim?“

  “Well,itismyideathatatfirsttheyintendedonlytogivehimagoodfright。Neverdidmyfatherrecognisemeashisson——alwayshecalledmeaJesuit。“

  Thegrufferofthetwovoicespulledupthespeaker。

  “Tothink,“itsaid,“thatyoucanactuallytalkaboutitall!“

  “Whyshouldn’tI?Myfatherbroughttearstotheeyesofmanyaninnocentperson。“

  “Afigforpeople’stears!Ifourcausesoftearswereoneandalltobemurdered,whatwouldthestateofthingsbecome?Shedtears,butneverblood;forbloodisnotyourstoshed。Andevenifyoushouldbelieveyourownbloodtobeyourown,knowthatitisnotso,thatyourblooddoesnotbelongtoyou,buttoSomeoneElse。“

  “Thepointinquestionwasmyfather’sproperty。Itallshowshowamanmayliveawhile,andearnhisliving,andthensuddenlygoamiss,andlosehiswits,andevenconceiveagrudgeagainsthisownfather……NowImustgetsomesleep。“

  Behindthebalesallgrewquiet。PresentlyIrosetopeerinthatdirection。Thepassengerinthebuffpea-jacketwassittinghuddledupagainstacoilofrope,withhishandsthrustintohissleeves,andhischinrestinguponhisarms。Asthemoonwasshiningstraightintohisface,Icouldseethatthelatterwasaslividasthatofacorpse,andhaditsbrowsdrawndownoveritsnarrow,insignificanteyes。

  Besidehim,andclosetomyhead,therewaslyingstretchedonthetopofthecoilofropeabroad-shoulderedpeasantinashortsmockandapairofpatchedbootsofwhitefelt。Theringletsofthewearer’scurlybeardwerethrustupwards,andhishandsclaspedbehindhishead,andwithox-likeeyeshestaredatthezenithwhereafewstarswereshining,andthemoonwasbeginningtosink。

  Atlength,inatrumpet-likevoicethoughheseemedtodohisbesttosoftenitthepeasantasked:

  “Youruncleisonthatbarge,Isuppose?“

  “Heis。Andsoismybrother。“

  “Yetyouarehere!Howstrange!“

  Thedarkbarge,towedagainstthesteamer’sblue-silverwashoffoam,wascleavingitlikeaplough,whileunderthemoonthelightsofthebargeshowedwhite,andthehullandtheprisoners’cagestoodraisedhighoutofthewaterastoourrighttheblack,indentatedbankglidedpastinsinuousconvolutions。

  Fromthewhole,soft,liquescentfluidscene,theimpressionwhichIderivedwasmelancholy。

  Itevokedinmyspiritasenseofinstability,alackofrestfulness。

  “Whyareyoutravelling?“

  “BecauseIwishtohaveawordwithhim。“

  “Withyouruncle?“

  “Yes。“

  “Abouttheproperty?“

  “Whatelse?“

  “Thenlookhere,myyoungfellow。Dropitall——bothyouruncleandtheproperty,andbetakeyourselftoamonastery,andthereliveandpray。Forifyouhaveshedblood,andespeciallyifyouhaveshedthebloodofakinsman,youwillstandforeverestrangedfromall,while,moreover,bloodshedisadangerousthing——itmayatanytimecomebackuponyou。“

  “Buttheproperty?“theyoungfellowaskedwithaliftofhishead。

  “Letitgo,“thepeasantvouchsafedasheclosedhiseyes。

  Ontheyoungerman’sfacethedowntwitchedasthoughawindhadstirredit。Heyawned,andlookedabouthimforamoment。Then,descryingmyself,hecriedinatoneofresentment:

  “Whatareyoulookingat?Andwhydoyoukeepfollowingmeabout?“

  Herethebigpeasantopenedhiseyes,and,withaglancefirstattheman,andthenatmyself,growled:

  “Lessnoisethere,youmitten-face!“

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