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  Thenineholeshadbeenplayed,andbyasinglestrokeBarbarahadwonthematch,whichpleasedherverymuch,forshehaddoneherbest,andwithsuchheavyoddsinhisfavourSirRobert,whohadalsodonehisbest,wasnomeanopponent,evenforaplayerofherskill。Indeedthefighthadbeenquiteearnest,foreachpartyknewthatitwasbutapreludetoanotherandmoreseriousfight,andlookedupontheresultasinsomesenseanomen。

  “Iamconquered,“hesaidinavoiceinwhichvexationstruggledwithalaugh,“andbyawomanoverwhomIhadanadvantage。Itishumiliating,forIconfessIdonotlikebeingbeaten。“

  “Don’tyouthinkthatwomengenerallywiniftheymeanto?“askedBarbara。“Ibelievethatwhentheyfail,whichisoftenenough,itisbecausetheydon’tcare,orcan’tmakeuptheirminds。Awomaninearnestisadangerousantagonist。“

  “Yes,“heanswered,“orthebestofallies。“Thenhegavetheclubsandhalf-a-crowntothecaddies,andwhentheywereoutofhearing,added,“MissChampers,Ihavebeenwonderingforsometimewhetheritispossiblethatyouwouldbecomesuchanallytome。“

  “Iknownothingofbusiness,SirRobert;mytastesdonotliethatway。“

  “YouknowwellthatIwasnotspeakingofbusiness,MissChampers。I

  wasspeakingofanotherkindofpartnership,thatwhichNaturehasordainedbetweenmenandwomen——marriage。Willyouacceptmeasahusband?“

  Sheopenedherlipstospeak,butheliftedhishandandwenton。

  “Listenbeforeyougivethatreadyanswerwhichitissohardtorecall,orsmoothaway。Iknowallmydisadvantages,myyears,whichtoyoumayseemmany;mymodestorigin;mytrade,which,notaltogetherwithoutreason,youdespiseanddislike。Well,thefirsttwocannotbechangedexceptfortheworse;thesecondcanbe,andalreadyis,buriedbeneaththegoldandermineofwealthandtitles。

  WhatdoesitmatterifIamthesonofaCityclerkwhoneverearnedmorethan£2aweekandwasborninatenementatBattersea,whenIamoneoftherichmenofthisrichlandandshalldieapeerinapalace,leavingmillionsandhonourstomychildren?Asforthethird,myoccupation,Iampreparedtogiveitup。Ithasservedmyturn,andafternextweekIshallhaveearnedtheamountthatyearsagoI

  determinedtoearn。Thenceforth,setabovetheaccidentsoffortune,I

  proposetodevotemyselftohigheraims,thoseoflegitimateambition。

  SofarasmytimewouldallowIhavealreadytakensomeshareinpoliticsasaworker;IintendtocontinueinthemasarulerwhichI

  stillhavethehealthandabilitytodo。ImeantobeoneofthefirstmeninthisEmpire,toridetopowerovertheheadsofallthenonentitieswhoseonlyclaimupontheconfidenceoftheircountrymenisthattheywereborninacertainclass,withmoneyintheirpocketsandwithouttheneedtospendthebestoftheirmanhoodinwork。WithyouatmysideIcandoallthesethingsandmore,andsuchisthefuturethatIhavetoofferyou。“

  Againshewouldhavebrokeninuponhisspeechandagainhestoppedher,readingtheunspokenansweronherlips。

  “Listen:Ihavenottoldyouall。PerhapsIhaveputfirstwhatshouldhavecomelast。IhavenottoldyouthatIloveyouearnestlyandsincerely,withthesettled,unalterablelovethatsometimescomestomeninmiddle-agewhohaveneverturnedtheirthoughtthatwaybefore。

  Iwillnotattempttherhapsodiesofpassionwhichatmytimeoflifemightsoundfoolishoroutofplace;yetitistruethatIamfilledwiththispassionwhichhasdescendedonmeandtakenpossessionofme。Iwhooftenhavelaughedatsuchthingsinothermen,adoreyou。

  Youareajoytomyeyes。Ifyouarenotintheroom,formeitisempty。Iadmiretheuprightnessofyourcharacter,andevenyourprejudices,andtoyourstandardIdesiretoapproximatemyown。I

  thinkthatnomancaneverloveyouquitesowellasIdo,BarbaraChampers。Nowspeak。Iamreadytomeetthebestortheworst。“

  AfterherfashionBarbaralookedhimstraightinthefacewithhersteadyeyes,andansweredgentlyenough,fortheman’smethodofpresentinghiscase,elaborateandpreparedthoughitevidentlywas,hadtouchedher。

  “Ifearitistheworst,SirRobert。Therearehundredsofwomensuperiortomyselfineverywaywhowouldbegladtogiveyouthehelpandcompanionshipyouask,withtheirheartsthrownin。Chooseoneofthem,forIcannotdoso。“

  Heheardandforthefirsttimehisfacebroke,asitwere。Allthiswhileithadremainedmasklikeandimmovable,evenwhenhespokeofhislove,butnowitbrokeasicebreaksatthepressureofasuddenfloodbeneath,andshesawthedepthsandeddiesofhisnatureandunderstoodtheirstrength。Notthatherevealedtheminspeech,angryorpleading,forthatremainedcalmandmeasuredenough。Shedidnothear,shesaw,andeventhenitwasmarvelloustoherthatamerechangeinaman’sexpressioncouldexplainsomuch。

  “Thoseareverycruelwords,“hesaid。“Aretheyunalterable?“

  “Quite。Idonotplayinsuchmatters,itwouldbewicked。“

  “MayIaskyouonequestion,foriftheanswerisinthenegative,I

  shallstillcontinuetohope?Doyoucareforanyotherman?“

  Againshelookedathimwithherfearlesseyesandanswered:

  “Yes,Iamengagedtoanotherman。“

  “ToAlanVernon?“

  Shenodded。

  “Whendidthathappen?Someyearsago?“

  “No,thismorning。“

  “GreatHeavens!“hemutteredinahoarsevoiceturninghisheadaway,“thismorning。Thenlastnightitmightnothavebeentoolate,andlastnightIshouldhavespokentoyou,Ihadarrangeditall。Yes,ifithadnotbeenforthestoryofthataccursedfetishandyouruncle’sillness,Ishouldhavespokentoyou,andperhapssucceeded。“

  “Ithinknot,“shesaid。

  Heturneduponherandnotwithstandingthetearsinhiseyestheyburnedlikefire。

  “Youthink——youthink,“hegasped,“butIknow。Ofcourseafterthismorningitwasimpossible。But,Barbara,IsaythatIwillwinyouyet。IhaveneverfailedinanyobjectthatIsetbeforemyself,anddonotsupposethatIshallfailinthis。AlthoughinawayIlikedandrespectedhim,IhavealwaysfeltthatVernonwasmyenemy,onedestinedtobringgriefandlossuponme,evenifhedidnotintendtodoso。NowIunderstandwhy,andheshalllearnthatIamstrongerthanhe。Godhelphim!Isay。“

  “IthinkHewill,“Barbaraanswered,calmly。“Youarespeakingwildly,andIunderstandthereasonandhopethatyouwillforgetyourwords,butwhetheryouforgetorremember,donotsupposethatyoufrightenme。Youmenwhohavemademoney,“shewentonwithswellingindignation,“whohavemademoneysomehow,andhaveboughthonourswiththemoneyssomehow,thinkyourselvesgreat,andinyourlittleday,yourlittle,littledaythatwillendwiththreelinesinsmalltypein/TheTimes/,youaregreatinthisvulgarland。Youcanbuywhatyouwantandpeoplecreeproundyouandaskyoufordolesandfavours,andrailwayporterscallyou’myLord’ateveryotherstep。

  Butyouforgetyourlimitationsinthisworld,andthatwhichlivesaboveyou。Yousayyouwilldothisandthat。Youshouldstudyabookwhichfewofyoueverread,whereittellsyouthatyoudonotknowwhatyouwillbeonthemorrow;thatyourlifeisevenasavapourappearingforalittletimeandthenvanishingaway。YouthinkthatyoucancrushthemantowhomIhavegivenmyheartbecauseheishonestandyouaredishonest,becauseyouarerichandheispoor,andbecausehechancestohavesucceededwhereyouhavenot。Well,formyselfandforhimIdefyyou。Doyourworstandfail,andwhenyouhavefailed,inthehourofyourextremityremembermywordsto-day。

  IfIhavegivenyoupainbyrefusingyouitisnotmyfaultandIamsorry,butwhenyouthreatenthemanwhohashonouredmewithhisloveandwhomIhonouraboveeverycreatureupontheearth,thenIthreatenback,andmaythePowerthatmadeusalljudgebetweenyouandme,asjudgeitwill,“andburstingintotearssheturnedandlefthim。

  SirRobertwatchedhergo。

  “Whatawoman!“hesaidmeditatively,“whatawoman——tohavelost。

  Wellshehassetthestakesandwewillplayoutthegame。Thecardsallseemtobeinmyhands,butitwouldnotintheleastsurprisemeifshewontherubber,fortheelementthatIcallChanceandshewouldcallsomethingelse,maycomein。Still,Ineverrefusedachallengeyetandwewillplaythegameoutwithoutpitytotheloser。“

  Thatnightthefirsttrickwasplayed。WhenhegotbacktoTheCourtSirRobertorderedhismotorcaranddepartedonurgentbusiness,eithertohisownplace,OldHall,ortoLondon,sayingonlythathehadbeensummonedawaybytelegram。Asthe70-horse-powerMercedesglidedoutofthegatesapencillednotewasputintoMr。Haswell’shand。

  Itran:“Ihavetriedandfailed——forthepresent。Byill-luckA。V。hadbeenbeforeme,onlythismorning。IfIhadnotmissedmychancelastnightowingtoyourillness,itwouldhavebeendifferent。Idonot,however,intheleastabandonmyplan,inwhichofcourseIrelyonandexpectyoursupport。KeepV。intheofficeorlethimgoasyoulike。Perhapsitwouldbebetterifyoucouldprevailuponhimtostopthereuntilaftertheflotation。Butwhateveryousayatthemoment,Itrusttoyoutoabsolutelyvetoanyengagementbetweenhimandyourniece,andtothatendtouseallyourpowersandauthorityasherguardian。

  Burnthisnote。

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