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  “Sitdownandtalktome,“shemurmured。“Doyouremembertheolddays,whenyouwereaverytimidyoungsecretaryofSirGeorgeNomsom,andIwasamaid-of-honourattheVienneseCourt?Dearme,howyouhavechanged!“

  “Time,“hesaid,“willnotstandstillforallofus。Yetmymemorytellsmehowpossibleitwouldbe-forindeedthosedaysseembutasyesterday。“

  Helookedupatherwithasuddenjealousy。Histoneshookwithpassion。NoonewouldhaverecognisedBrottnow。Inhisfiercesthourofdebate,hishourofgreatesttrial,hehadwornhismask,alwaysmasterofhimselfandhisspeech。Andnowhehadcastitoff。Hiseyeswerehungry,hislipstwitched。

  “Asyesterday!Lucille,IcouldkillyouwhenIthinkofthosedays。Fortwentyyearsyourkisshaslainuponmylips-andyou-withyou-ithasbeendifferent。“

  Shelaughedsoftlyuponhim,laughedmorewithhereyesthanwithherlips。Shewatchedhimcuriously。

  “Dearme!“shemurmured,“whatwouldyouhave?Iamawoman-I

  havebeenawomanallmydays,andthememoryofonekissgrowscold。

  SoIwilladmitthatwithme-ithasbeendifferent。Come!Whatthen?“

  Hegroaned。

  “Iwonder,“hesaid,“whatmiserablefate,whatcursedstrokeoffortunebroughtyouoncemoreintomylife?“

  Shethrewherheadbackandlaughedathim,thistimeheartily,unaffectedly。

  “Whatadorablecandour!“sheexclaimed。“Mydearfriend,howamiableyouare。“

  Helookedathersteadfastly,andsomehowthelaughdiedawayfromherlips。

  “Lucille,willyoumarryme?“

  “Marryyou?I?Certainlynot。“

  “Andwhynot?“

  “Forascoreofreasons,ifyouwantthem,“sheanswered。“First,becauseIthinkitisdelightfultohaveyouforafriend。Icanneverquitetellwhatyouaregoingtodoorsay。AsahusbandI

  amalmostsurethatyouwouldbemonotonous。Butthen,howcouldyouavoidit?Itismadnesstothinkofdestroyingapleasantfriendshipinsuchamanner。“

  “Youaremockingme,“hesaidsadly。

  “Well,“shesaid,“whynot?Yourownproposalisamockery。

  “Amockery!Myproposal!“

  “Yes,“sheansweredsteadily。“Youknowquitewellthattheverythoughtofsuchathingbetweenyouandmeisanabsurdity。I

  abhoryourpolitics,Idetestyourparty。Youareambitious,I

  know。YouintendtobePrimeMinister,apeople’sPrimeMinister。

  Well,formypart,Ihatethepeople。Iamanaristocrat。AsyourwifeIshouldbeinaperfectlyridiculousposition。Howfoolish!Youhaveledmeintotalkingofthisthingseriously。

  Letusforgetallthisrubbish。“

  Hestoodbeforeher-waitingpatiently,hismouthcloseset,hismannerdoggedwithpurpose。

  “Itisnotrubbish,“hesaid。“ItistruethatIshallbePrimeMinister。Itistruealsothatyouwillbemywife。“

  Sheshrankbackfromhim-uneasily。Thefireinhiseyes,theringinhistonedistressedher。

  “Asformypolitics,youdonotunderstandthem。Butyoushall!I

  willconvertyoutomywayofthinking。Yes,Iwilldothat。Thecauseofthepeople,offreedom,istheonegreatimpulsewhichbeatsthroughalltheworld。Youtooshallhearit。“

  “Thankyou,“shesaid。“Ihavenowishtohearit。Idonotbelieveinwhatyoucallfreedomforthepeople。IhavediscoveredinAmericahowuncomfortableapeople’scountrycanhe。“

  “YetyoumarriedanAmerican。YoucallyourselfstilltheCountessRadantz……butyoumarriedMr。JamesB。Peterson!“

  “Itistrue,myfriend,“sheanswered。“ButtheAmericaninquestionwasapersonofcultureandintelligence,andathearthewasnomoreademocratthanIam。Further,Iamanextravagantwoman,andhewasamillionaire。“

  “Andyou,afterhisdeath,withoutnecessity-wenttoburyyourselfinhiscountry。“

  “Whynot?“

  “Iamjealousofeveryyearofyourlifewhichlieshiddenfromme,“

  hesaidslowly。

  “Dearme-howuncomfortable!“

  “Beforeyou-reappeared,“hesaid,“Ihadlearnt,yesIhadlearnttodowithoutyou。Ihadsealeduptheonechapterofmylifewhichhadinitanythingtodowithsentiment。Yourcominghasalteredallthat。Youhavedisturbedthefocusofmyambitions。

  Lucille!Ihavelovedyouformorethanhalfalifetime。Isn’tittimeIhadmyreward?“

  Hetookaquicksteptowardsher。Inhistonewastheringofmastery,thelightinhiseyeswascompelling。Sheshrankback,butheseizedoneofherhands。Itlaybetweenhis,acolddeadthing。

  “Whathavemypoliticstodowithit?“heaskedfiercely。“YouarenotanEnglishwoman。BecontentthatIshallsetyoufarabovethesegodsofmylaterlife。Thereismyworktobedone,andI

  shalldoit。Letmebejudgeofthesethings。Believemethatitisagreatwork。Ifyouareambitious-giveyourambitionsintomykeeping,andIwillgratifythem。OnlyIcannotbearthissuspense-thesechangingmoods。Marryme-nowatonce,orsendmebacktotheoldlife。“

  Shedrewherfingersaway,andsankdownintohereasy-chair。Herheadwasburiedinherhands。Wasshethinkingorweeping?Hecouldnotdecide。Whilehehesitatedshelookedup,andhesawthattherewasnotraceoftearsuponherface。

  “Youaretoomasterful,“shesaidgently。“Iwillnotmarryyou。

  Iwillnotgivemyselfbodyandsoultoanyman。Yetthatiswhatyouask。Iamnotagirl。Myopinionsareasdeartomeintheirwayasyoursaretoyou。Youwantmetoclosemyeyeswhileyoudropsugarplumsintomymouth。Thatisnotmyideaoflife。I

  thinkthatyouhadbettergoaway。Letusforgetthesethings。“

  “Verywell,“heanswered。“Itshallbeasyousay。“Hedidnotwaitforhertoring,nordidheattemptanysortoffarewell。Hesimplytookuphishat,andbeforeshecouldrealisehisintentionhehadlefttheroom。Lucillesatquitestill,lookingintothefire。

  “Ifonly,“shemurmured,“ifonlythisweretheend。“

  Dusonenteredthesitting-room,noiselessasever,withpale,passionlessface,theabsoluteprototypeoftheperfectFrenchservant,towhomanyexpressionofvigorouslifeseemstosavourofpresumption。Hecarriedasmallsilversalver,onwhichreposedacard。

  “Thegentlemanisintheante-room,sir,“heannounced。

  Mr。Sabintookupthecardandstudiedit。

  “LordRobertFoulkes。“

  “DoIknowthisgentleman,Duson?“Mr。Sabinasked。

  “Nottomyknowledge,sir,“themananswered。

  “Youmustshowhimin,“Mr。Sabinsaid,withasigh。“Inthiscountryonemustneverberudetoalord。“

  Dusonobeyed。LordRobertFoulkeswasasmallyoungman,verycarefullygroomed,nondescriptinappearance。HesmiledpleasantlyatMr。Sabinanddrewoffhisgloves。

  “Howdoyoudo,Mr。Sabin?“hesaid。“Don’trememberme,Idaresay。

  MetyouonceortwicelasttimeyouwereinLondon。IwishIcouldsaythatIwasgladtoseeyouhereagain。“

  Mr。Sabin’sforeheadlostitswrinkle。Heknewwherehewasnow。

  “Sitdown,LordRobert,“hebegged。“Idonotrememberyou,itistrue,butIamgettinganoldman。Mymemorysometimesplaysmestrangetricks。“

  TheyoungmanlookedatMr。Sabinandlaughedsoftly。Indeed,Mr。Sabinhadverylittletheappearanceofanoldman。Hewasleaningwithbothhandsclaspeduponhisstick,hisfacealert,hiseyesbrightandsearching。

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