ForamomentthesightofherterrormadeeventheWandererafraid。
Whatwasthehorrorshebeheldinthishauntedshrine,wherewasnonesavethemselvesalone?Whatwaswiththemintheshrine?
ThenhesawthathereyeswerefixedonhisgoldenarmourwhichParisoncehadworn,onthegoldenshieldwiththeblazonoftheWhiteBull,onthegoldenhelm,whosevisorwasdownsothatitquitehidhiseyesandhisface——andthenatlasthervoicebrokefromher:
“/Paris!Paris!Paris!/HasDeathlostholdofthee?Hastthoucometodragmebacktotheeandtoshame?Paris,deadParis!Whogavetheecouragetopasstheshadowsofmenwhomonearththouhadstnotdaredtofaceinwar?“
Thenshewrungherhands,andlaughedaloudwiththeemptylaughoffear。
AthoughtcameintothatcraftymindoftheWanderer’s,andheansweredher,notinhisownvoice,butinthesmooth,soft,mockingvoiceofthetraitor,Paris,whomhehadheardforswearhimselfintheoathbeforeIlios。
“So,lady,thouhastnotyetforgivenParis?Thouweavesttheancientweb,thousingesttheancientsongs——artthoustillunkindasofold?“
“Whyartthoucomebacktotauntme?“shesaid,andnowshespokeasifanoldfamiliarfearandhorrorwerelayingholdofherandmasteringheragain,afterlongfreedom。“Wasitnotenoughtobetraymeinthesemblanceofmyweddedlord?Whydostthoumock?“
“Inloveallartsarefair,“heansweredinthevoiceofParis。“Manyhavelovedthee,Lady,andtheyarealldeadforthysake,andnolovebutminehasbeenmorestrongthandeath。Thereisnonetoblameusnow,andnonetohinder。Troyisdown,theheroesarewhitedust;onlyLovelivesyet。Wiltthounotlearn,Lady,howashadowcanlove?“
Shehadlistenedwithherheadbowed,butnowsheleapedupwithblazingeyesandfaceoffire。
“Begone!“shesaid,“theheroesaredeadformysake,andtomyshame,buttheshameislivingyet。Begone!Neverinlifeordeathshallmylipstouchthefalselipsthatliedawaymyhonour,andthefalsefacethatworethefavourofmylord’s。“
Foritwasbyshape-shiftingandmagicart,aspoetstell,thatParisfirstbeguiledFairHelen。
ThentheWandererspokeagainwiththesweet,smoothvoiceofParis,sonofPriam。
“AsIpasseduptheshrinewherethyglorydwells,Helen,Iheardtheesing。Andthoudidstsingofthewakingofthyheart,ofthearisingofLovewithinthysoul,andofthecomingofoneforwhomthoudostwait,whomthoudidstlovelongsinceandshaltloveforevermore。
Andasthousangest,Icame,IParis,whowasthylove,andwhoamthylove,andwhoaloneofghostsandmenshallbethyloveagain。Wiltthoustillbidmego?“
“Isang,“sheanswered,“yes,astheGodsputitinmyheartsoIsang——forindeeditseemedtomethatonecamewhowasmyloveofold,andwhomaloneImustlove,aloneforever。Butthouwastnotinmyheart,thoufalseParis!Nay,Iwilltellthee,andwiththenamewillscaretheebacktoHell。HewasinmyheartwhomonceasamaidIsawdrivinginhischariotthroughthefordofEurotaswhileIborewaterfromthewell。HewasinmyheartwhomonceIsawinTroy,whenhecreptthithercladinbeggar’sguise。Ay,Paris,Iwillnamehimbyhisname,forthoughheislongdead,yethimalonemethinksIlovedfromtheveryfirst,andhimaloneIshalllovetillmydeathlessnessisdone——Odysseus,sonofLaertes,OdysseusofIthaca,hewasnamedamongmen,andOdysseuswasinmyheartasIsangandinmyheartheshalleverbe,thoughtheGodsintheirwrathhavegivenmetoothers,tomyshame,andagainstmywill。“
NowwhentheWandererheardherspeak,andheardhisownnameuponherlips,andknewthattheGoldenHelenlovedhimalone,itseemedtohimasthoughhisheartwouldbursthisharness。Nowordcouldhefindinhishearttospeak,butheraisedthevisorofhishelm。
Shelooked——shesawandknewhimforOdysseus——evenOdysseusofIthaca。Theninturnshehidhereyeswithherhands,andspeakingthroughthemsaid:
“Oh,Paris!everwastthoufalse,but,ghostorman,ofallthyshamesthisistheshamefullest。Thouhasttakenthelikenessofaherodead,andthouhastheardmespeaksuchwordsofhimasHelenneverspokebefore。Fieonthee,Paris!fieonthee!whowouldesttrickmeintoshameasoncebeforethoudidsttrickmeintheshapeofMenelaus,whowasmylord。NowIwillcallonZeustoblasttheewithhisbolts。
Nay,notonZeuswillIcall,butonOdysseus’self。/Odysseus!
Odysseus!/ComethoufromtheshadesandsmitethisParis,thistrickster,whoevenindeathfindswaystomockthee。“
Sheceased,andwitheyesupturnedandarmsoutstretchedmurmured,“Odysseus!Odysseus!Come。“
SlowlytheWandererdrewneartothegloryoftheGoldenHelen——
slowly,slowlyhecame,tillhisdarkeyeslookedintohereyesofblue。Thenatlasthefoundhisvoiceandspake。
“Helen!ArgiveHelen!“hesaid,“IamnoshadowcomeupfromHelltotormentthee,andofTrojanParisIknownothing。ForIamOdysseus,OdysseusofIthaca,alivingmanbeneaththesunlight。HitheramI
cometoseethee,hitherIamcometowintheetomyheart。ForyonderinIthacaAphroditevisitedmeinadream,andbademewanderoutupontheseastillatlengthIfoundthee,Helen,andsawtheRedStarblazeuponthybreast。AndIhavewandered,andIhavedared,andI
haveheardthysong,andrentthewebofFate,andIhaveseentheStar,andlo!atlast,atlast!Ifindthee。WellIsawthouknewestthearmsofParis,whowasthyhusband,andtotrytheeIspokewiththevoiceofParis,asofoldthoudidstfeignthevoicesofourwiveswhenwelayinthewoodenhorsewithinthewallsofTroy。ThusIdrewthesweetnessofthylovefromthysecretbreast,asthesundrawsoutthesweetnessoftheflowers。ButnowIdeclaremyselftobeOdysseus,cladinthemailofParis——Odysseuscomeonthislastjourneytobethyloveandlord。“Andheceased。
Shetrembledandlookedathimdoubtfully,butatlastshespoke:
“WelldoIremember,“shesaid,“thatwhenIwashedthelimbsofOdysseus,inthehallsofIlios,Imarkedagreatwhitescarbeneathhisknee。IfindeedthouartOdysseus,andnotaphantomfromtheGods,showmethatgreatscar。“
ThentheWanderersmiled,and,restinghisbuckleragainstthepillaroftheloom,drewoffhisgoldengreave,andtherewasthescarthattheboardealtwithhistuskontheParnassianhillwhenOdysseuswasaboy。
“Look,Lady,“hesaid;“isthisthescarthatoncethineeyeslookedoninthehallsofTroy?“
“Yea,“shesaid,“itistheveryscar,andnowIknowthatthouartnoghostandnolyingshape,butOdysseus’self,cometobemyloveandlord,“andshelookedmostsweetlyinhiseyes。
NowtheWandererwaverednomore,butputouthisarmstogatherhertohisheart。NowtheRedStarwashiddenonhisbreast,nowthereddropsdrippedfromtheStaruponhismail,andthefaceofherwhoistheWorld’sDesiregrewsoftintheshadowofhishelm,whilehereyesweremeltedtotearsbeneathhiskiss。TheGodssendallloverslikejoy!
Softlyshesighed,softlydrewbackfromhisarms,andherlipswereopenedtospeakwhenachangecameoverherface。Thekindeyeswerefulloffearagain,asshegazedwhere,throughthewindowoftheshrineofalabaster,thesunlightflickeredingolduponthechapelfloor。Whatwasthatwhichflickeredinthesunlight?orwasitonlythedanceofthemotesinthebeam?Therewasnoshadowcastinthesunshine;whydidshegazeasifshesawanotherwatchingthismeetingoftheirloves?Howeveritchanced,shemasteredherfear;therewasevenasmileonherlipsandmirthinhereyesassheturnedandspokeagain。
“Odysseus,thouartindeedthecunningestofmen。Thouhaststolenmysecretbythycraft;whosavetheewoulddreamofcraftinsuchanhour?ForwhenIthoughttheeParis,andthyfacewashiddenbythyhelm,IcalledonOdysseusinmyterror,asachildcriestoamother。
MethinksIhaveeverheldhimdear;alwaysIhavefoundhimreadyatneed,thoughtheGodshavewilledthattillthishourmylovemightnotbeknown,nay,nottomyownheart;soIcalledonOdysseus,andthosewordswerewrungfrommetoscarefalseParisbacktohisownplace。ButthewordsthatshouldhavedrivenParisdowntoHelldrewOdysseustomybreast。Andnowitisdone,andIwillnotgobackuponmywords,forwehavekissedourkissoftroth,beforetheimmortalGodshavewekissed,andthoseghostswhoguardthewaytoHelen,andwhomthoualonecouldstpass,asitwasfated,arewitnessestoouroath。Andnowtheghostsdepart,fornomoreneedtheyguardthebeautyofHelen。Itisgiventotheetohaveandkeep,andnowisHelenoncemoreaverywoman,foratthykissthecursewasbroken。
Ah,friend!sincemylorddiedinpleasantLaced?mon,whatthingshaveIseenandsufferedbytheGods’decree!ButtwothingsIwilltellthee,Odysseus,andthoushaltreadthemasthoumayest。Thoughneverbeforeinthylife-daysdidthylipstouchmine,yetIknowthatnotnowforthefirsttimewekiss。AndthisIknowalso,fortheGodshavesetitinmyheart,thatthoughourloveshallbeshort,andlittlejoyshallwehaveoneofanother,yetdeathshallnotendit。
For,Odysseus,IamadaughteroftheGods,andthoughIsleepandforgetthatwhichhasbeeninmysleep,andthoughmyshapechangeasbutnowitseemedtochangeintheeyesofthoseripetodie,yetI
dienot。Andforthee,thoughthouartmortal,deathshallbebutastheshortsummernightsthatmarkoffdayfromday。Forthoushaltliveagain,Odysseus,asthouhastlivedbefore,andlifebylifeweshallmeetandlovetilltheendiscome。“
AstheWandererlistenedhethoughtoncemoreofthatdreamofMeriamuntheQueen,whichthepriestReihadtoldhim。ButhesaidnothingofittoHelen;forabouttheQueenandherwordstohimitseemedwisestnottospeak。