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  “Butyoudidn’tgetoutofbedtotellmethat,“headdedseverely。

  “Igotoutofbed,“saidHewetvaguely,“merelytotalkIsuppose。“

  “MeanwhileIshallundress,“saidHirst。Whennakedofallbuthisshirt,andbentoverthebasin,Mr。Hirstnolongerimpressedonewiththemajestyofhisintellect,butwiththepathosofhisyoungyetuglybody,forhestooped,andhewassothinthatthereweredarklinesbetweenthedifferentbonesofhisneckandshoulders。

  “Womeninterestme,“saidHewet,who,sittingonthebedwithhischinrestingonhisknees,paidnoattentiontotheundressingofMr。Hirst。

  “They’resostupid,“saidHirst。“You’resittingonmypyjamas。“

  “Isupposethey_are_stupid?“Hewetwondered。

  “Therecan’tbetwoopinionsaboutthat,Iimagine,“saidHirst,hoppingbrisklyacrosstheroom,“unlessyou’reinlove——thatfatwomanWarrington?“heenquired。

  “Notonefatwoman——allfatwomen,“Hewetsighed。

  “ThewomenIsawto-nightwerenotfat,“saidHirst,whowastakingadvantageofHewet’scompanytocuthistoe-nails。

  “Describethem,“saidHewet。

  “YouknowIcan’tdescribethings!“saidHirst。“Theyweremuchlikeotherwomen,Ishouldthink。Theyalwaysare。“

  “No;that’swherewediffer,“saidHewet。“Isayeverything’sdifferent。

  Notwopeopleareintheleastthesame。Takeyouandmenow。“

  “SoIusedtothinkonce,“saidHirst。“Butnowthey’realltypes。

  Don’ttakeus,——takethishotel。Youcoulddrawcirclesroundthewholelotofthem,andthey’dneverstrayoutside。“

  “Youcankillahenbydoingthat“,Hewetmurmured。

  “Mr。HughlingElliot,Mrs。HughlingElliot,MissAllan,Mr。andMrs。Thornbury——onecircle,“Hirstcontinued。“MissWarrington,Mr。ArthurVenning,Mr。Perrott,EvelynM。anothercircle;

  thenthereareawholelotofnatives;finallyourselves。“

  “Areweallaloneinourcircle?“askedHewet。

  “Quitealone,“saidHirst。“Youtrytogetout,butyoucan’t。

  Youonlymakeamessofthingsbytrying。“

  “I’mnotaheninacircle,“saidHewet。“I’madoveonatree-top。“

  “Iwonderifthisiswhattheycallaningrowingtoe-nail?“

  saidHirst,examiningthebigtoeonhisleftfoot。

  “Iflitfrombranchtobranch,“continuedHewet。“Theworldisprofoundlypleasant。“Helaybackonthebed,uponhisarms。

  “Iwonderifit’sreallynicetobeasvagueasyouare?“askedHirst,lookingathim。“It’sthelackofcontinuity——that’swhat’ssooddboutyou,“hewenton。“Attheageoftwenty-seven,whichisnearlythirty,youseemtohavedrawnnoconclusions。

  Apartyofoldwomenexcitesyoustillasthoughyouwerethree。“

  Hewetcontemplatedtheangularyoungmanwhowasneatlybrushingtherimsofhistoe-nailsintothefire-placeinsilenceforamoment。

  “Irespectyou,Hirst,“heremarked。

  “Ienvyyou——somethings,“saidHirst。“One:yourcapacityfornotthinking;two:peoplelikeyoubetterthantheylikeme。

  Womenlikeyou,Isuppose。“

  “Iwonderwhetherthatisn’treallywhatmattersmost?“saidHewet。

  Lyingnowflatonthebedhewavedhishandinvaguecirclesabovehim。

  “Ofcourseitis,“saidHirst。“Butthat’snotthedifficulty。

  Thedifficultyis,isn’tit,tofindanappropriateobject?“

  “Therearenofemalehensinyourcircle?“askedHewet。

  “Nottheghostofone,“saidHirst。

  AlthoughtheyhadknowneachotherforthreeyearsHirsthadneveryetheardthetruestoryofHewet’sloves。Ingeneralconversationitwastakenforgrantedthattheyweremany,butinprivatethesubjectwasallowedtolapse。Thefactthathehadmoneyenoughtodonowork,andthathehadleftCambridgeaftertwotermsowingtoadifferencewiththeauthorities,andhadthentravelledanddrifted,madehislifestrangeatmanypointswherehisfriends’

  livesweremuchofapiece。

  “Idon’tseeyourcircles——Idon’tseethem,“Hewetcontinued。

  “Iseeathinglikeateetotumspinninginandout——knockingintothings——

  dashingfromsidetoside——collectingnumbers——moreandmoreandmore,tillthewholeplaceisthickwiththem。Roundandroundtheygo——

  outthere,overtherim——outofsight。“

  Hisfingersshowedthatthewaltzingteetotumshadspunovertheedgeofthecounterpaneandfallenoffthebedintoinfinity。

  “Couldyoucontemplatethreeweeksaloneinthishotel?“askedHirst,afteramoment’spause。

  Hewetproceededtothink。

  “Thetruthofitisthatoneneverisalone,andoneneverisincompany,“heconcluded。

  “Meaning?“saidHirst。

  “Meaning?Oh,somethingaboutbubbles——auras——whatd’youcall’em?

  Youcan’tseemybubble;Ican’tseeyours;allweseeofeachotherisaspeck,likethewickinthemiddleofthatflame。

  Theflamegoesaboutwithuseverywhere;it’snotourselvesexactly,butwhatwefeel;theworldisshort,orpeoplemainly;allkindsofpeople。“

  “Anicestreakybubbleyoursmustbe!“saidHirst。

  “Andsupposingmybubblecouldrunintosomeoneelse’sbubble——“

  “Andtheybothburst?“putinHirst。

  “Then——then——then——“ponderedHewet,asiftohimself,“itwouldbeane-nor-mousworld,“hesaid,stretchinghisarmstotheirfullwidth,asthoughevensotheycouldhardlyclaspthebillowyuniverse,forwhenhewaswithHirsthealwaysfeltunusuallysanguineandvague。

  “Idon’tthinkyoualtogetherasfoolishasIusedto,Hewet,“

  saidHirst。“Youdon’tknowwhatyoumeanbutyoutrytosayit。“

  “Butaren’tyouenjoyingyourselfhere?“askedHewet。

  “Onthewhole——yes,“saidHirst。“Ilikeobservingpeople。

  Ilikelookingatthings。Thiscountryisamazinglybeautiful。

  Didyounoticehowthetopofthemountainturnedyellowto-night?

  Reallywemusttakeourlunchandspendthedayout。You’regettingdisgustinglyfat。“HepointedatthecalfofHewet’sbareleg。

  “We’llgetupanexpedition,“saidHewetenergetically。“We’llasktheentirehotel。We’llhiredonkeysand——“

  “Oh,Lord!“saidHirst,“doshutit!IcanseeMissWarringtonandMissAllanandMrs。Elliotandtherestsquattingonthestonesandquacking,’Howjolly!’“

  “We’llaskVenningandPerrottandMissMurgatroyd——everyonewecanlayhandson,“wentonHewet。“What’sthenameofthelittleoldgrasshopperwiththeeyeglasses?Pepper?——Peppershallleadus。“

  “ThankGod,you’llnevergetthedonkeys,“saidHirst。

  “Imustmakeanoteofthat,“saidHewet,slowlydroppinghisfeettothefloor。“HirstescortsMissWarrington;Pepperadvancesaloneonawhiteass;provisionsequallydistributed——orshallwehireamule?

  Thematrons——there’sMrs。Paley,byJove!——shareacarriage。“

  “That’swhereyou’llgowrong,“saidHirst。“Puttingvirginsamongmatrons。“

  “Howlongshouldyouthinkthatanexpeditionlikethatwouldtake,Hirst?“askedHewet。

  “FromtwelvetosixteenhoursIwouldsay,“saidHirst。“Thetimeusuallyoccupiedbyafirstconfinement。“

  “Itwillneedconsiderableorganisation,“saidHewet。Hewasnowpaddingsoftlyroundtheroom,andstoppedtostirthebooksonthetable。Theylayheapedoneuponanother。

  “Weshallwantsomepoetstoo,“heremarked。“NotGibbon;no;

  d’youhappentohave_Modern__Love_or_John__Donne_?Yousee,Icontemplatepauseswhenpeoplegettiredoflookingattheview,andthenitwouldbenicetoreadsomethingratherdifficultaloud。“

  “Mrs。Paley_will_enjoyherself,“saidHirst。

  “Mrs。Paleywillenjoyitcertainly,“saidHewet。“It’soneofthesaddestthingsIknow——thewayelderlyladiesceasetoreadpoetry。

  Andyethowappropriatethisis:

  IspeakasonewhoplumbsLife’sdimprofound,OnewhoatlengthcansoundClearviewsandcertain。

  But——afterlovewhatcomes?

  Ascenethatlours,Afewsadvacanthours,Andthen,theCurtain。

  IdaresayMrs。Paleyistheonlyoneofuswhocanreallyunderstandthat。“

  “We’llaskher,“saidHirst。“Please,Hewet,ifyoumustgotobed,drawmycurtain。Fewthingsdistressmemorethanthemoonlight。“

  Hewetretreated,pressingthepoemsofThomasHardybeneathhisarm,andintheirbedsnextdoortoeachotherboththeyoungmenweresoonasleep。

  BetweentheextinctionofHewet’scandleandtherisingofaduskySpanishboywhowasthefirsttosurveythedesolationofthehotelintheearlymorning,afewhoursofsilenceintervened。Onecouldalmosthearahundredpeoplebreathingdeeply,andhoweverwakefulandrestlessitwouldhavebeenhardtoescapesleepinthemiddleofsomuchsleep。Lookingoutofthewindows,therewasonlydarknesstobeseen。Allovertheshadowedhalfoftheworldpeoplelayprone,andafewflickeringlightsinemptystreetsmarkedtheplaceswheretheircitieswerebuilt。RedandyellowomnibuseswerecrowdingeachotherinPiccadilly;sumptuouswomenwererockingatastandstill;buthereinthedarknessanowlflittedfromtreetotree,andwhenthebreezeliftedthebranchesthemoonflashedasifitwereatorch。Untilallpeopleshouldawakeagainthehouselessanimalswereabroad,thetigersandthestags,andtheelephantscomingdowninthedarknesstodrinkatpools。

  Thewindatnightblowingoverthehillsandwoodswaspurerandfresherthanthewindbyday,andtheearth,robbedofdetail,moremysteriousthantheearthcolouredanddividedbyroadsandfields。Forsixhoursthisprofoundbeautyexisted,andthenastheeastgrewwhiterandwhiterthegroundswamtothesurface,theroadswererevealed,thesmokeroseandthepeoplestirred,andthesunshoneuponthewindowsofthehotelatSantaMarinauntiltheywereuncurtained,andthegongblaringallthroughthehousegavenoticeofbreakfast。

  Directlybreakfastwasover,theladiesasusualcircledvaguely,pickinguppapersandputtingthemdownagain,aboutthehall。

  “Andwhatareyougoingtodoto-day?“askedMrs。ElliotdriftingupagainstMissWarrington。

  Mrs。Elliot,thewifeofHughlingtheOxfordDon,wasashortwoman,whoseexpressionwashabituallyplaintive。Hereyesmovedfromthingtothingasthoughtheyneverfoundanythingsufficientlypleasanttorestuponforanylengthoftime。

  “I’mgoingtotrytogetAuntEmmaoutintothetown,“saidSusan。

  “She’snotseenathingyet。“

  “Icallitsospiritedofheratherage,“saidMrs。Elliot,“comingallthiswayfromherownfireside。“

  “Yes,wealwaystellhershe’lldieonboardship,“Susanreplied。

  “Shewasbornonone,“sheadded。

  “Intheolddays,“saidMrs。Elliot,“agreatmanypeoplewere。

  Ialwayspitythepoorwomenso!We’vegotalottocomplainof!“

  Sheshookherhead。Hereyeswanderedaboutthetable,andsheremarkedirrelevantly,“ThepoorlittleQueenofHolland!

  Newspaperreporterspractically,onemaysay,atherbedroomdoor!“

  “WereyoutalkingoftheQueenofHolland?“saidthepleasantvoiceofMissAllan,whowassearchingforthethickpagesof_The_

  _Times_amongalitterofthinforeignsheets。

  “Ialwaysenvyanyonewholivesinsuchanexcessivelyflatcountry,“

  sheremarked。

  “Howverystrange!“saidMrs。Elliot。“Ifindaflatcountrysodepressing。“

  “I’mafraidyoucan’tbeveryhappyherethen,MissAllan,“

  saidSusan。

  “Onthecontrary,“saidMissAllan,“Iamexceedinglyfondofmountains。“

  Perceiving_The__Times_atsomedistance,shemovedofftosecureit。

  “Well,Imustfindmyhusband,“saidMrs。Elliot,fidgetingaway。

  “AndImustgotomyaunt,“saidMissWarrington,andtakingupthedutiesofthedaytheymovedaway。

  Whethertheflimsinessofforeignsheetsandthecoarsenessoftheirtypeisanyproofoffrivolityandignorance,thereisnodoubtthatEnglishpeoplescarceconsidernewsreadthereasnews,anymorethanaprogrammeboughtfromamaninthestreetinspiresconfidenceinwhatitsays。Averyrespectableelderlypair,havinginspectedthelongtablesofnewspapers,didnotthinkitworththeirwhiletoreadmorethantheheadlines。

  “Thedebateonthefifteenthshouldhavereachedusbynow,“

  Mrs。Thornburymurmured。Mr。Thornbury,whowasbeautifullycleanandhadredrubbedintohishandsomewornfaceliketracesofpaintonaweather-beatenwoodenfigure,lookedoverhisglassesandsawthatMissAllanhad_The__Times_。

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