第19章
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  “That’stheonlywayweeverwillgo。Youcan’tsitonthebankandthinkaboutit。Youhavetoplunge。That’sthewayI’vealwaysdone,andit’stherightwayforpeoplelikeyouandme。There’snothingsodangerousassittingstill。You’veonlygotonelife,oneyouth,andyoucanletitslipthroughyourfingersifyouwantto;nothingeasier。Mostpeopledothat。

  You’dbebetterofftrampingtheroadswithmethanyouarehere。“Nilsheldbackherheadandlookedintohereyes。“ButI’mnotthatkindofatramp,Clara。Youwon’thavetotakeinsewing。I’mwithaNorwegianshippingline;cameoveronbusinesswiththeNewYorkoffices,butnowI’mgoingstraightbacktoBergen。IexpectI’vegotasmuchmoneyastheEricsons。

  Fathersentmealittletogetstarted。Theyneverknewaboutthat。There,Ihadn’tmeanttotellyou;Iwantedyoutocomeonyourownnerve。“

  Claralookedoffacrossthefields。“Itisn’tthat,Nils,butsomethingseemstoholdme。I’mafraidtopullagainstit。

  Itcomesoutoftheground,Ithink。“

  “Iknowallaboutthat。Onehastotearloose。You’renotneededhere。Yourfatherwillunderstand;he’smadelikeus。AsforOlaf,Johannawilltakebettercareofhimthaneveryoucould。It’snowornever,ClaraVavrika。Mybag’satthestation;Ismuggleditthereyesterday。“

  Claraclungtohimandhidherfaceagainsthisshoulder。

  “Nottonight,“shewhispered。“Sithereandtalktometonight。

  Idon’twanttogoanywheretonight。Imayneverloveyoulikethisagain。“

  Nilslaughedthroughhisteeth。“Youcan’tcomethatonme。

  That’snotmyway,ClaraVavrika。Eric’smareisovertherebehindthestacks,andI’moffonthemidnight。It’sgoodbye,oroffacrosstheworldwithme。Mycarriagewon’twait。I’vewrittenalettertoOlaf,I’llmailitintown。Whenhereadsithewon’tbotherus——notifIknowhim。He’dratherhavetheland。Besides,IcoulddemandaninvestigationofhisadministrationofCousinHenrik’sestate,andthatwouldbebadforapublicman。You’venoclothes,Iknow;butyoucansituptonight,andwecangeteverythingontheway。Where’syourolddash,ClaraVavrika?What’sbecomeofyourBohemianblood?Iusedtothinkyouhadcourageenoughforanything。Where’syournerve——whatareyouwaitingfor?“

  Claradrewbackherhead,andhesawtheslumberousfireinhereyes。“Foryoutosayonething,NilsEricson。“

  “Ineversaythatthingtoanywoman,ClaraVavrika。“Heleanedback,liftedhergentlyfromtheground,andwhisperedthroughhisteeth:“ButI’llnever,neverletyougo,nottoanymanonearthbutme!Doyouunderstandme?Now,waithere。“

  Clarasankdownonasheafofwheatandcoveredherfacewithherhands。Shedidnotknowwhatshewasgoingtodo——

  whethershewouldgoorstay。Thegreat,silentcountryseemedtolayaspelluponher。Thegroundseemedtoholdherasifbyroots。Herkneesweresoftunderher。Shefeltasifshecouldnotbearseparationfromheroldsorrows,fromherolddiscontent。

  Theyweredeartoher,theyhadkeptheralive,theywereapartofher。Therewouldbenothingleftofherifshewerewrenchedawayfromthem。Nevercouldshepassbeyondthatskylineagainstwhichherrestlessnesshadbeatsomanytimes。Shefeltasifhersoulhadbuiltitselfanestthereonthathorizonatwhichshelookedeverymorningandeveryevening,anditwasdeartoher,inexpressiblydear。Shepressedherfingersagainsthereyeballstoshutitout。Besidehersheheardthetrampingofhorsesinthesoftearth。Nilssaidnothingtoher。Heputhishandsunderherarmsandliftedherlightlytohersaddle。Thenheswunghimselfintohisown。

  “Weshallhavetoridefasttocatchthemidnighttrain。A

  lastgallop,ClaraVavrika。Forward!“

  Therewasastart,athudofhoofsalongthemoonlitroad,twodarkshadowsgoingoverthehill;andthenthegreat,stilllandstretcheduntroubledundertheazurenight。Twoshadowshadpassed。

  AyearaftertheflightofOlafEricson’swife,thenighttrainwassteamingacrosstheplainsofIowa。Theconductorwashurryingthroughoneofthedaycoaches,hislanternonhisarm,whenalank,fair-hairedboysatupinoneoftheplushseatsandtweakedhimbythecoat。

  “Whatisthenextstop,please,sir?“

  “RedOak,Iowa。ButyougothroughtoChicago,don’tyou?“

  Helookeddown,andnoticedthattheboy’seyeswereredandhisfacewasdrawn,asifhewereintrouble。

  “Yes。ButIwaswonderingwhetherIcouldgetoffatthenextplaceandgetatrainbacktoOmaha。“

  “Well,Isupposeyoucould。LiveinOmaha?“

  “No。InthewesternpartoftheState。HowsoondowegettoRedOak?“

  “Fortyminutes。You’dbettermakeupyourmind,soIcantellthebaggagemantoputyourtrunkoff。“

  “Oh,nevermindaboutthat!Imean,Ihaven’tgotany,“theboyadded,blushing。

  “Runaway,“theconductorthought,asheslammedthecoachdoorbehindhim。

  EricEricsoncrumpleddowninhisseatandputhisbrownhandtohisforehead。Hehadbeencrying,andhehadhadnosupper,andhisheadwasachingviolently。“Oh,whatshallIdo?“hethought,ashelookeddullydownathisbigshoes。“Nilswillbeashamedofme;Ihaven’tgotanyspunk。“

  EversinceNilshadrunawaywithhisbrother’swife,lifeathomehadbeenhardforlittleEric。HismotherandOlafbothsuspectedhimofcomplicity。Mrs。Ericsonwasharshandfaultfinding,constantlywoundingtheboy’spride;andOlafwasalwayssettingheragainsthim。

  JoeVavrikaheardoftenfromhisdaughter。Clarahadalwaysbeenfondofherfather,andhappinessmadeherkinder。ShewrotehimlongaccountsofthevoyagetoBergen,andofthetripsheandNilstookthroughBohemiatothelittletownwhereherfatherhadgrownupandwheresheherselfwasborn。Shevisitedallherkinsmenthere,andsentherfathernewsofhisbrother,whowasapriest;ofhissister,whohadmarriedahorse-breeder——oftheirbigfarmandtheirmanychildren。TheselettersJoealwaysmanagedtoreadtolittleEric。TheycontainedmessagesforEricandHilda。Clarasentpresents,too,whichEricneverdaredtotakehomeandwhichpoorlittleHildaneverevensaw,thoughshelovedtohearErictellaboutthemwhentheywereoutgettingtheeggstogether。ButOlafoncesawEriccomingoutofVavrika’shouse——

  theoldmanhadneveraskedtheboytocomeintohissaloon——andOlafwentstraighttohismotherandtoldher。ThatnightMrs。

  EricsoncametoEric’sroomafterhewasinbedandmadeaterriblescene。Shecouldbeveryterrifyingwhenshewasreallyangry。

  SheforbadehimevertospeaktoVavrikaagain,andafterthatnightshewouldnotallowhimtogototownalone。SoitwasalongwhilebeforeEricgotanymorenewsofhisbrother。ButoldJoesuspectedwhatwasgoingon,andhecarriedClara’slettersaboutinhispocket。OneSundayhedroveouttoseeaGermanfriendofhis,andchancedtocatchsightofEric,sittingbythecattlepondinthebigpasture。TheywenttogetherintoFritzOberlies’barn,andreadthelettersandtalkedthingsover。Ericadmittedthatthingsweregettinghardforhimathome。ThatverynightoldJoesatdownandlaboriouslypennedastatementofthecasetohisdaughter。

  ThingsgotnobetterforEric。HismotherandOlaffeltthat,howevercloselyhewaswatched,hestill,astheysaid,“heard。“Mrs。Ericsoncouldnotadmitneutrality。ShehadsentJohannaVavrikapackingbacktoherbrother’s,thoughOlafwouldmuchratherhavekeptherthanAnders’eldestdaughter,whomMrs。

  Ericsoninstalledinherplace。Hewasnotsohighhandedashismother,andheoncesulkilytoldherthatshemightbetterhavetaughthergranddaughtertocookbeforeshesentJohannaaway。

  Olafcouldhaveborneagooddealforthesakeofprunesspicedinhoney,thesecretofwhichJohannahadtakenawaywithher。

  AtlasttwoletterscametoJoeVavrika:onefromNils,enclosingapostalorderformoneytopayEric’spassagetoBergen,andonefromClara,sayingthatNilshadaplaceforEricintheofficesofhiscompany,thathewastolivewiththem,andthattheywereonlywaitingforhimtocome。HewastoleaveNewYorkononeoftheboatsofNils’ownline;thecaptainwasoneoftheirfriends,andEricwastomakehimselfknownatonce。

  Nils’directionsweresoexplicitthatababycouldhavefollowedthem,Ericfelt。Andherehewas,nearingRedOak,Iowa,androckingbackwardandforwardindespair。Neverhadhelovedhisbrothersomuch,andneverhadthebigworldcalledtohimsohard。Buttherewasalumpinhisthroatwhichwouldnotgodown。Eversincenightfallhehadbeentormentedbythethoughtofhismother,aloneinthatbighousethathadsentforthsomanymen。Herunkindnessnowseemedsolittle,andherlonelinesssogreat。Herememberedeverythingshehadeverdoneforhim:howfrightenedshehadbeenwhenhetorehishandinthecorn-sheller,andhowshewouldn’tletOlafscoldhim。WhenNilswentawayhedidn’tleavehismotherallalone,orhewouldneverhavegone。Ericfeltsureofthat。

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