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  DuringthefouryearsofmylifeinVenicetheliteraryintentionwaspresentwithmeatalltimesandinallplaces。Iwrotemanythingsinverse,whichIsenttothemagazinesineverypartoftheEnglish—

  speakingworld,buttheycameunerringlybacktome,exceptinthreeinstancesonly,whentheywerekeptbytheeditorswhofinallyprintedthem。OneofthesepieceswaspublishedintheAtlanticMonthly;anotherinHarpersMagazine;thethirdwasgotintotheNewYorkLedgerthroughthekindnessofDoctorEdwardEverettHale,whousedIknownotwhatmightymagictothatend。Ihadnotyetmethim;butheinterestedhimselfinmyballadasifithadbeenhisown。Hisbrother,CharlesHale,laterConsul—GeneralforEgypt,whomIsawalmosteverymomentofthetwovisitshepaidVeniceinmytime,hadsentittohim,aftercopyingitinhisownlarge,fairhand,sothatitcouldberead。

  HewasnotquiteofthatliteraryBostonwhichIsofondlyrememberedmyglimpsesof;hewasratherofajournalisticandliteraryBostonwhichI

  hadneverknown;buthewasofBoston,afterall。HehadbeeninLowell’sclassesatHarvard;hehadoftenmetLongfellowinCambridge;heknewDoctorHolmes,ofcourse;andheletmetalkofmyidolstomyheart’scontent。Ithinkhemusthavebeenamusedbymyraptures;mostpeoplewouldhavebeen;buthewaskindandpatient,andhelistenedtomewithasweetintelligencewhichIshallalwaysgratefullyremember。

  Hediedtooyoung,withhislife’spossibilitiesmainlyunfulfilled;butnonewhoknewhimcouldfailtoimaginethem,ortolovehimforwhathewas。

  I。

  Besidesthosefewpitifulsuccesses,IhadnothingbutdefeatsinthesortofliteraturewhichIsupposedwastobemycalling,andthedefeatsthrewmeuponprose;forsomesortofliterarything,ifnotone,thenanother,ImustdoifIlived;andIbegantowritethosestudiesofVenetianlifewhichafterwardsbecameabook,andwhichIcontributedasletterstothe’BostonAdvertiser’,aftervainlyofferingthemtomoreaestheticperiodicals。However,Idonotimaginethatitwasaverysmilingtimeforanyliteraryendeavorerathomeinthelife—and—deathcivilwarthenwaging。SomefewyoungmenarosewhomadethemselvesheardamidthedinofarmsevenasfarasVenice,butmostofthesewerehushedlongago。IfancyTheodoreWinthrop,whobegantospeak,asitwere,fromhissoldier’sgrave,sosoondidhisdeathfollowtheearliestrecognitionbythepublic,andsomanywerehisposthumousworks,waschiefofthese;buttherewereotherswhomthepresentreadersmustmakegreaterefforttoremember。ForceytheWillson,whowroteTheOldSergeant,becameknownfortherarequalityofhispoetry;andnowandthentherecameapoemfromAldrich,orStedman,orStoddard。Thegreatnewseriesofthe’BiglowPapers’gatheredvolumewiththeforcetheyhadfromthebeginning。TheAutocratwasofteninthepagesoftheAtlantic,whereoneoftenfoundWhittierandEmerson,withmanyafreshnamenowfaded。InWashingtonthePiattswerewritingsomeofthemostbeautifulverseofthewar,andBrownellwassoundinghisbattlelyricslikesomanytrumpetblasts。Thefictionwhichfollowedthewarwasyetalltocome。Whateverwasdoneinanykindhadsomehintofthewarinit,inevitably;thoughintheveryheartofitLongfellowwassettingabouthisgreatversionofDantepeacefully,prayerfully,ashehastoldinthenoblesonnetswhichregisterthemoodofhisundertaking。

  AtVenice,ifIwasbeyondtherangeofliteraryrecognitionIwasindirectrelationswithoneofourgreatestliterarymen,whowasagainofthatliteraryBostonwhichmainlyrepresentedAmericanliteraturetome。

  TheofficialchiefoftheconsulatVenicewastheUnitedStatesMinisteratVienna,andinmytimethisministerwasJohnLothropMotley,thehistorian。Hewasremoved,later,bythatJohnsonadministrationwhichfollowedLincoln’ssoforgottenlythatInameitwithasenseofsomethingalmostprehistoric。Amongitsworsterrorswastheattempteddiscreditofamanwhohadgivenlustretoournamebyhiswork,andwhowasanardentpatriotaswellasaccomplishedscholar。HevisitedVeniceduringmyfirstyear,whichwasthedarkestperiodofthecivilwar,andIrememberwithwhatinstantsecurity,nottosayseverity,herebukedmyscarcelywhisperedmisgivingsoftheend,whenIventuredtoaskhimwhathethoughtitwouldbe。AustriahadneverrecognizedtheSecessionistsasbelligerents,andinthecomplicationswithFranceandEnglandtherewaslittleforourministerbuttosharethehomeindignationatthesympathyofthosepowerswiththeSouth。InMotleythiswasheightenedbythatfeelingofastonishment,ofwoundedfaith,whichallAmericanswithEnglishfriendshipsexperiencedinthosedays,andwhichhe,whoseEnglishfriendshipsweremany,experiencedinpeculiardegree。

  Idriftedaboutwithhiminhisgondola,andrefreshedmyself,longa—hungeredforsuchtalk,withhistalkofliterarylifeinLondon。

  ThroughsomeacquaintanceIhadmadeinVeniceIwasabletobeofusetohimingettingdocumentscopiedforhimintheVenetianArchives,especiallytheRelationsoftheVenetianAmbassadorsatdifferentcourtsduringtheperiodandeventshewasstudying。Allsuchpaperspassedthroughmyhandsintransmissiontothehistorian,thoughnowIdonotquiteknowwhytheyneedhavedoneso;butperhapshewaswillingtogivemethepleasureofbeingapartner,howeverhumble,intheenterprise。

  Myrecollectionofhimisofcourtesytoafaryoungermanunqualifiedbypatronage,andofapresenceofsingulardignityandgrace。HewasoneofthehandsomestmenIeversaw,withbeautifuleyes,afineblondbeardofmodishcut,andasensitivenose,straightandfine。Hewasaltogetherafigureofworldlysplendor;andIhadreasontoknowthathedidnotletthecreditofournationsufferatthemostaristocraticcourtinEuropeforwantofafitdiplomaticcostume,whensomeofourministersweretryingtomaketheirofficedoitsfulleffectuponalloccasionsin\"thedressofanAmericangentleman。\"ThemorningafterhisarrivalMr。Motleycametomewithahandfulofnewspaperswhich,accordingtotheAustriancustomatthatday,hadbeenopenedintheVenetianpost—office。Hewishedmetoprotestagainstthisonhisbehalfasaninfringementofhisdiplomaticextra—territoriality,andIproposedtogoatoncetothedirectorofthepost:Ihadmyselfsufferedinthesameway,andthoughIknewthatamereconsulwashelpless,Iwaswillingtoseethedouble—headedeagletroddenunderfootbyaMinisterPlenipotentiary。Mr。Motleysaidthathewouldgowithme,andweputoffinhisgondolatothepost—office。Thedirectorreceiveduswiththeutmostdeference。Headmittedtheirregularitywhichtheministercomplainedof,anddeclaredthathehadnochoicebuttoopeneveryforeignnewspaper,towhomsoeveraddressed。Hesuggested,however,thatiftheministermadehisappealtotheLieutenant—GovernorofVenice,CountToggenburgwouldnodoubtinstantlyordertheexemptionofhisnewspapersfromthegeneralrule。

  Mr。MotleysaidhewouldgivehimselfthepleasureofcallingupontheLieutenant—Governor,and\"Howfortunate,\"headded,whenweweregotbackintothegondola,\"thatIshouldhavehappenedtobringmycourtdresswithme!\"Ididnotseetheencounterofthehighcontendingpowers,butIknowthatitendedinacompletevictoryforourminister。

  IhadnofurtheractiverelationsofanofficialkindwithMr。Motley,exceptinthecaseofanaturalizedAmericancitizen,whosepropertywasslowlybutsurelywastingawayinthekeepingoftheVenetiancourts。

  Anorderhadatlastbeengivenforthesurrenderoftheremnanttotheowner;buttheLombardo—VenetianauthoritiesinsistedthatthisshouldbedonethroughtheUnitedStatesMinisteratVienna,andMr。MotleyheldasfirmlythatitmustbedonethroughtheUnitedStatesConsulatVenice。

  IcouldonlyreporttohimfromtimetotimetheunyieldingattitudeoftheCivilTribunal,andatlastheconsented,ashewrote,\"toactofficiously,notofficially,inthematter,\"andthehaplessclaimantgotwhatwasleftofhisestate。

  IhadaglimpseofthehistorianafterwardsinBoston,butitwasonlyforamoment,justbeforehisappointmenttoEngland,wherehewasmadetosufferforSumnerinhisquarrelwithGrant。Thatinjusticecrownedtheinjurieshiscountryhaddoneamostfaithfulpatriotandhigh—

  spiritedgentleman,whosefameasanhistorianoncefilledtheearoftheEnglish—speakingworld。Hisbooksseemedtohavebeenwritteninaspiritalreadynolongermodern;andIdidnotfindthegreatestofthemsomovingasIexpectedwhenIcametoitwithalltheardorofmyadmirationforthehistorian。WilliamtheSilentseemedtome,byhisworshipper’sownshowing,scarcelylevelwiththepopularmovementwhichhedidnotsomuchdirectasfollow;butitisagooddealforaprincetobeableeventofollowhispeople;anditcannotbesaidthatMotleydoesnotfullyrecognizethegreatnessoftheDutchpeople,thoughhemayseethePrinceofOrangetoolarge。Thestudyoftheircharactermadeatleastatheoreticaldemocratofascholarwhoseinstinctswerenotperhapsdemocratic,andhissympathywiththatbravelittlerepublicbetweenthedikesstrengthenedhiminhisfealtytothegreatcommonwealthbetweentheoceans。Ibelievethatsofarashewasofanypoliticaltradition,hewasoftheoldBostonWhigtradition;butwhenI

  methimatVenicehewasintheglowofagenerousprideinourwarasawaragainstslavery。Hespokeofthenegroesandtheirsimple—hearted,single—mindeddevotiontotheUnioncauseintermsthatanoriginalabolitionistmighthaveused,atatimewhenoriginalabolitionistswerenotsomanyastheyhavesincebecome。

  Fortherest,IfancyitwasverywellforustoberepresentedatViennainthosedaysbyanidealdemocratwhowasalsoarealswell,andwhowasnotlikelytodiscreditussociallywhenwesomuchneededtobewellthoughtofineveryway。

  AtacourtwherethefamilyofCountSchmerling,thePrimeMinister,couldnotbereceivedforwantoftherequisitedescents,itwaswelltohaveaministerwhowouldnotcommitthemistakeofinvitingtheFirstSocietytomeettheSecondSociety,asaformerEnvoyExtraordinaryhaddone,withtheeffectoffindinghimselfleftentirelytotheSecondSocietyduringtherestofhisstayinVienna。

  II。

  OneofmyconsularcolleaguesunderMotleywasanotherhistorian,ofnosuchpopularity,indeed,norevenofsuchsuccess,butperhapsnotofinferiorpowers。ThiswasRichardHildreth,atTrieste,theauthorofoneofthesincerestifnotthetruesthistoriesoftheUnitedStates,accordingtothetestimonybothofhislikingandhismislikingcritics。

  Ihaveneverreadhishistory,andIspeakofitonlyatsecondhand;butIhadread,beforeImethim,hisnovelof’ArchyMoore,orTheWhiteSlave’,whichleftanindelibleimpressionofhisimaginativeverityuponme。TheimpressionisstillsodeepthatafterthelapseofnearlyfortyyearssinceIsawthebook,Ihavenomisgivinginspeakingofitasapowerfulpieceofrealism。Ittreatedpassionately,intensely,thoughwithasuperficialcoldness,ofwrongsnowsoremotefromusintheabolitionofslaverythatitisuselesstohopeitwilleverbeggenerallyreadhereafter,butitcansafelybepraisedtoanyonewhowishestostudythatbygonecondition,andtheliteraturewhichgrewoutofit。Ifancyitdidnotlackrecognitioninitstime,altogether,forIusedtoseeitinItalianandFrenchtranslationsonthebookstalls。

  Ibelieveneitherhishistorynorhisnovelbroughttheauthormoregainthanfame。HehadwornhimselfoutonanewspaperwhenhegothisappointmentatTrieste,andIsawhimintheshadowofthecloudthatwaswhollytodarkenhimbeforehedied。Hewasatallthinman,absent,silent:alreadyaphantomofhimself,butwithascholarlyserenityanddignityamidsttheruin,whentheworstcame。

  IfirstsawhimattheprettyvillawherehelivedinthesuburbsofTrieste,andwhereIpassedseveraldays,andIrememberhimalwaysreading,reading,reading。Hecouldwithdifficultyberousedfromhisbookbysomestrenuousappealfromhisfamilytohisconscienceasahost。ThelastnighthesatwithParadiseLostinhishand,andnothingcouldwinhimfromittillhehadfinishedit。Thenherosetogotobed。Wouldnothebidhispartingguestgood—bye?Theideaoffarewellperhapsdimlypenetratedtohim。Herespondedwithoutlookinground,\"They,handinhand,withwanderingstepsandslow,ThroughEdentooktheirsolitaryway,\"

  andsolefttheroom。

  Ihadearlierhadsomedealingswithhimasafellow—consulconcerningadeserterfromanAmericanshipwhomIinheritedfrommypredecessoratVenice。Themanhadalreadybeenfourorfivemonthsinprison,andhewasinafairwaytoendhislifethere;foritisourlawthatadesertingsailormustbekeptintheconsul’scustodytillsomevesselofourflagarrives,whentheconsulcanobligethemastertotakethedeserterandlethimworkhispassagehome。SuchavesselrarelycametoVeniceevenintimesofpeace,andintimesofwartherewasnohopeofany。SoIgotleaveoftheconsulatTriestetotransfermycaptivetothatport,wherenowandthenanAmericanshipdidtouch。Theflagdeterminesthenationalityofthesailor,andthisunhappywretchwastheoreticallyourfellow—citizen;butwhenhegottoTriestehemadeacleanbreastofittotheconsul。HeconfessedthatwhenheshippedunderourflaghewasadeserterfromaBritishregimentatMalta;andhebeggedpiteouslynottobesenthometoAmerica,wherehehadneverbeeninhislife,noreverwishedtobe。HewishedtobesentbacktohisregimentatMalta,andtowhateverfateawaitedhimthere。Thecasecertainlyhaditsembarrassments;buttheAmericanconsulcontrivedtoletourpresumptivecompatriotslipintothekeepingoftheBritishconsul,whopromptlyshippedhimtoMalta。InviewofthestrainedrelationsbetweenEnglandandAmericaatthattimethiswasapieceofmasterlydiplomacy。

  BesidesmyoldOhio—timefriendMoncureD。Conway,whopaidusavisit,andinhisimmediaterelationswithliteraryBostonseemedtobringthemountaintoMahomet,IsawnooneelsemoreliterarythanHenryWardBeecher。HewaspassingthroughVeniceonhiswaytothoseeffortsinEnglandinbehalfoftheUnionwhichhadacertaingreateffectatthetime;andinthetinyparlorofourapartmentontheGrandCanal,Icanstillseehimsittingathletic,almostpugilistic,ofpresence,withhisstrongface,butkind,framedinlonghairthatsweptabovehismassiveforehead,andfelltothelevelofhishumorouslysmilingmouth。Hiseyesquaintlygleamedatthethingswetoldhimofourlifeinthestrangeplace;butheonlypartlyrelaxedfromhisstrenuouspose,andthehandsthatlayuponhiskneeswereclinched。Afterwards,ashepassedourbalconyinagondola,heliftedthebraveredfezhewaswearing(manypeopleworethefezforonecapriceoranother)andsalutedoureagleandus:wewereoftenonthebalconybehindtheshieldtoattesttheauthenticityoftheAmericaneagle。

  III。

  BeforeIleftVenice,however,therecameaturninmyliteraryluck,andfromthehandIcouldmosthavewishedtoreversetheadversewheeloffortune。IhadlaboredoutwithgreatpainsapaperonrecentItaliancomedy,whichIsenttoLowell,thenwithhisfriendProfessorNortonjointlyeditoroftheNorthAmericanReview;andhetookitandwrotemeoneofhisloveliestlettersaboutit,consolingmeinaninstantforallthedefeatIhadundergone,andmakingitsweetandworthytohavelivedthroughthatmisery。Itisoneofthehardconditionsofthisstatethatwhilewecanmostlymakeouttoletpeopletastethelastdropofbitternessandill—willthatisinus,ourloveandgratitudeareonlysemi—articulateatthebest,andusuallyaltogethertongue—tied。AsoftenasItriedafterwardstotellLowellofthebenediction,thesalvation,hisletterwastome,Ifailed。Butperhapshewouldnothaveunderstood,ifIhadspokenoutallthatwasinmewiththefulnessI

  couldhavegivenaresentment。Hismessagecameafteryearsofthwartedendeavor,andreinstatedmeinthebeliefthatIcouldstilldosomethinginliterature。Tobesure,thelettersintheAdvertiserhadbeguntomaketheirimpression;amongthefirstgreatpleasurestheybroughtmewasarecognitionfrommydiplomaticchiefatVienna;butIvaluedmyadmissiontotheNorthAmericanpeculiarlybecauseitwasLowellletmein,andbecauseIfeltthatinhischargeitmustbetheplaceofhighesthonor。Hespokeofthepayformyarticle,inhisletter,andaskedmewhereheshouldsendit,andIanswered,tomyfather—in—law,whoputitinhissavings—bank,wherehelived,inBrattleboro,Vermont。Thereitremained,andIforgotallaboutit,sothatwhenhisaffairsweresettledsomeyearslaterandIwasnotifiedthattherewasasumtomycreditinthebank,Isaid,withtheconfidenceIhavenearlyalwaysfeltwhenwrong,thatIhadnomoneythere。Theproofofmyerrorwassentmeinacheck,andthenIbethoughtmeofthepayfor\"RecentItalianComedy。\"

  ItwasnotadaywhenIcouldreallyaffordtoforgetmoneydueme,butthenitwasnotagreatdealofmoney。TheReviewwasaspoorasitwasproud,andIhadtwodollarsaprintedpageformypaper。ButthiswasmorethanIgotfromtheAdvertiser,whichgavemefivedollarsacolumnformyletters,printedinatypesofinethatthemoney,whentranslatedfromgreenbacksintogoldatadiscountof$2。80,musthavebeenaboutadollarathousandwords。However,Iwasrichlycontentwiththat,andwouldgladlyhaveletthemhavethelettersfornothing。

  BeforeIleftVeniceIhadmademysketchesintoabook,whichIsentontoMessrs。Trubner&Co。,inLondon。TheyhadconsentedtolookatittoobligemyfriendConway,whoduringhissojournwithusinVenice,beforehissettlementinLondon,hadbeenforcedtolistentosomeofit。Theyansweredmeinduetimethattheywouldpublishaneditionofathousand,athalfprofits,ifIcouldgetsomeAmericanhousetotakefivehundredcopies。WhenIstoppedinLondonIhadsolittlehopeofbeingabletodothisthatIaskedtheTrubnersifImight,withoutlosingtheiroffer,trytogetsomeotherLondonhousetopublishmybook。TheysaidYes,almostjoyously;andIbegantotakemymanuscriptabout。Atmostplacestheywouldnotlookatmeorit,andtheynowhereconsentedtoreadit。

  Thehousepromptestinrefusingtoconsideritafterwardspiratedoneofmynovels,andwithsomeexpressionsofgoodintentioninthatdirection,neverpaidmeanythingforit;thoughIbelievetheEnglishstillthinkthatthissortofbehaviorwaspeculiartotheAmericanpublisherintheoldbuccaneeringtimes。IwasgladtogobacktotheTrubnerswithmybook,andonmywayacrosstheAtlanticImetapublisherwhofinallyagreedtotakethosefivehundredcopies。ThiswasMr。M。M。Hurd,ofHurd&Houghton,ahousethennewlyestablishedinNewYorkandCambridge。Weplayedring—tossandshuffleboardtogether,andbecameofafriendshipwhichlaststothisday。Butitwasnottillsomemonthslater,whenIsawhiminNewYork,thatheconsentedtopublishmybook。

  Irememberhowhesaid,withanairofvaguemisgiving,andaneffectoftryingtojustifyhimselfinanimprudence,thatitwasnotagreatmatteranyway。Iperceivedthathehadnofaithinit,andtotellthetruthIhadnotmuchmyself。Butthebookhadaninstantsuccess,andithasgoneonfromeditiontoeditioneversince。TherewasjustthentheinterestofanotwhollygeneroussurpriseatAmericanthingsamongtheEnglish。OursuccessinputtingdownthegreatConfederaterebellionhadcaughtthefancyofourcousins,andIthinkitwastothismoodoftheirsthatIowedlargelythekindnesstheyshowedmybook。TherewerelongandcordialreviewsinallthegreatLondonjournals,whichIusedtocarryaboutwithmelikelove—letters;whenItriedtoshowthemtootherpeople,Icouldnotunderstandtheircoldnessconcerningthem。

  AtBoston,wherewelandedonourreturnhome,therewasamomentwhenitseemedasifmysmalldestinymightbelinkedatoncewiththatofthecitywhichlaterbecamemyhome。IranintotheofficeoftheAdvertisertoaskwhathadbecomeofsomesketchesofItaliantravelIhadsentthepaper,andthemanagingeditormademepromisenottotakeaplaceanywherebeforeIhadheardfromhim。Igladlypromised,butIdidnothearfromhim,andwhenIreturnedtoBostonafortnightlater,Ifoundthatafatalpartnerhadrefusedtoagreewithhiminengagingmeuponthepaper。Theyevengavemebackhalfadozenunprintedlettersofmine,andIpublishedthemintheNation,ofNewYork,andafterwardsinthebookcalledItalianJourneys。

  ButafterIhadencounteredfortuneinthisfrowningdisguise,IhadamostjoyfullittlevisitwithLowell,whichmademeforgettherewasanythingintheworldbutthedelightandgloryofsittingwithhiminhisstudyatElmwoodandhearinghimtalk。ItmusthavebeenmyfreshnessfromItalywhichmadehimtalkchieflyofhisownhappydaysinthelandwhichsosympatheticallybrevetsallitsloversfellow—citizens。

  Atanyratehewouldtalkofhardlyanythingelse,andhetalkedlateintothenight,andearlyintothemorning。Abouttwoo’clock,whenallthehousewasstill,helightedacandle,andwentdownintothecellar,andcamebackwithcertainbottlesunderhisarms。Ihadnotaverylearnedpalateinthosedays(orinthese,forthatmatter),butIknewenoughofwinetounderstandthatthesebottleshadbeenchosenuponthatprinciplewhichLongfellowputinverse,andusedtorepeatwithahumorousliftingoftheeyebrowsandhollowingofthevoice:

  \"Ifyouhaveafriendtodine,Givehimyourbestwine;

  Ifyouhavetwo,Thesecond—bestwilldo。\"

  Aswesatintheirmellowafterglow,Lowellspoketomeofmyownlifeandprospects,wiselyandtruly,ashealwaysspoke。Hesaidthatitwasenoughforamanwhohadstuffinhimtobeknowntotwoorthreepeople,fortheywouldnotsufferhimtobeforgotten,anditwouldrestwithhimselftogeton。ItoldhimthatthoughIhadnotgivenupmyplaceatVenice,Iwasnotgoingback,ifIcouldfindanythingtodoathome,andIwasnowonmywaytoOhio,whereIshouldtrymybesttofindsomething;attheworst,Icouldturntomytradeofprinter。Hedidnotthinkitneedevercometothat;andhesaidthathebelievedIshouldhaveanadvantagewithreaders,ifnotwitheditors,inhailingfromtheWest;Ishouldbemoreofanovelty。IknewverywellthateveninmyownWestIshouldnothavethisadvantageunlessIappearedtherewithanEasternimprint,butIcouldnotwishtourgemymisgivingagainsthisfaith。WasInotalreadyrichlysuccessful?Whatbetterthingpersonallycouldbefallme,ifIlivedforeverafteronmilkandhoney,thantobesittingtherewithmyhero,mymaster,andhavinghimtalktomeasifwewereequalindeedandinfame?

  Thecat—birdcalledinthesyringathicketathisdoor,beforewesaidthegood—nightwhichwasgoodmorning,usingthesweetItalianwords,andbiddingeachotherthe’Dormabene’whichhasthequalityofabenediction。Heheldmyhand,andlookedintomyeyeswiththesunnykindnesswhichneverfailedme,worthyorunworthy;andIwentawaytobed。Butnottosleep;onlytodreamsuchdreamsasfilltheheartofyouthwhentherecognitionofitsendeavorhascomefromtheachievementitholdshighestandbest。

  IV。

  IfoundnothingtodoinOhio;someplacesthatIheardofprovedimpossibleonewayoranother,inColumbusandCleveland,andCincinnati;

  therewasalwaysthefatalpartner;andafterthreeweeksIwasagainintheEast。IcametoNewYork,resolvedtofightmywayin,somewhere,andIdidnotrestamomentbeforeIbeganthefight。

  MynotionwasthatwhichafterwardsbecameBartleyHubbard’s。\"Getabasis,\"saidthesofteningcynicoftheSaturdayPress,whenIadvisedwithhim,amongotheracquaintances。\"Getasalariedplace,somethingregularonsomepaper,andthenyoucaneasilymakeuptherest。\"ButitwasamonthbeforeIachievedthisvantage,andthenIgotitinaquarterwhereIhadnotlookedforit。IwroteeditorialsonEuropeanandliterarytopicsfordifferentpapers,butmostlyfortheTimes,andtheypaidmewellandmorethanwell;butIwasnowhereofferedabasis,thoughonceIgotsofartowardsitastosecureapersonalinterviewwiththeeditor—in—chief,whomademefeelthatIhadseldommetsobusyaman。Hepraisedsomeworkofminethathehadreadinhispaper,butI

  wasneverrecalledtohispresence;andnowIthinkhejudgedrightlythatIshouldnotbealastinglygoodjournalist。Mypointofviewwasartistic;Iwantedtimetopreparemyeffects。

  Therewasanotherandclearerprospectopenedtomeonaliterarypaper,thennewlycometothelight,butlongsincegoneoutinthedark。Hereagainmyworkwastaken,andlikedsomuchthatIwasofferedthebasis(attwentydollarsaweek)thatIdesired;IwasevenassignedtoadeskwhereIshouldwriteintheoffice;andthenextmorningIcamejoyfullydowntoSpruceStreettooccupyit。ButIwasmetatthedoorbyoneoftheeditors,whosaidlightly,asifitwereatriflingaffair,\"Well,we’veconcludedtowaivetheideaofanengagement,\"andoncemoremybrighthopesofabasisdispersedthemselves。Isaid,withwhatcalmIcould,thattheymustdowhattheythoughtbest,andIwentonskirmishingbaselesslyaboutforthisandtheotherpaperswhichhadbeenbuyingmymaterial。

  Ihadbegunprintinginthe’Nation’thoselettersaboutmyItalianjourneysleftoverfromtheBostonAdvertiser;theyhadbeenlikedintheoffice,andonedaytheeditorastonishedanddelightedmebyaskinghowIwouldfancygivingupoutsideworktocomethereandwriteonlyforthe’Nation’。Weaveragedmygainsfromallsourcesatfortydollarsaweek,andIhadmybasisasunexpectedlyasifIhaddroppeduponitfromtheskies。

  ThismusthavebeensometimeinNovember,andthenextthreeorfourmonthswereashappyatimeformeasIhaveeverknown。IkeptonprintingmyItalianmaterialintheNation;Iwrotecriticismsforit(notverygoodcriticisms,Ithinknow),andIamusedmyselfverymuchwiththetreatmentofsocialphasesandeventsinadepartmentwhichgrewupundermyhand。Myassociationspersonallywereofthemostagreeablekind。Iworkedwithjoy,withardor,andIlikedsomuchtobethere,inthatplaceandinthatcompany,thatIhatedtohaveeachdaycometoanend。

  IbelievedthatmylineswerecastinNewYorkforgoodandall;andI

  renewedmyrelationswiththeliteraryfriendsIhadmadebeforegoingabroad。Ioftenstopped,onmywayuptown,atanapartmenttheStoddardshadinLafayettePlace,ornearit;IsawStedman,andreasonedhigh,tomyheart’scontent,ofliterarythingswiththemandhim。

  WiththewinterBayardTaylorcameonfromhishomeinKennettandtookanapartmentinEastTwelfthStreet,andonceaweekMrs。Taylorandhereceivedalltheirfriendsthere,withasimpleandcharminghospitality。

  Therewasanotherhousewhichwemuchresortedto——thehouseofJamesLorrimerGraham,afterwardsConsul—GeneralatFlorence,wherehedied。

  IhadmadehisacquaintanceatVenicethreeyearsbefore,andIcameinformyshareofthatloveforliterarymenwhichalltheirperversitiescouldnotextinguishinhim。Itwasaveritablepassion,whichIusedtothinkhecouldnothavefeltsodeeplyifhehadbeenaliterarymanhimself。Thereweredelightfuldinnersathishouse,wherethewitoftheStoddardsshone,andTaylorbeamedwithjoyousgood—fellowshipandoverflowedwithinvention;andHuntington,longPariscorrespondentoftheTribune,humorouslytriedtotalkhimselfintotheresolutionofspendingtherestofhislifeinhisowncountry。TherewasoneeveningwhenC。P。Cranch,alwaysofamostpensivepresenceandaspect,sangthemostkillinglycomicsongs;andtherewasanothereveningwhen,afterweallwentintothelibrary,somethingtragicalhappened。EdwinBoothwasofournumber,agentle,rathersilentpersonincompany,orwithatleastlittlesocialinitiative,who,ashisfatewould,wentuptothecastofahugehandthatlayupononeoftheshelves。\"Whosehandisthis,Lorry?\"heaskedourhost,ashetookitupandturneditoverinbothhisownhands。Grahamfeignednottohear,andBoothaskedagain,\"whosehandisthis?\"ThentherewasnothingforGrahambuttosay,\"It’sLincoln’shand,\"andthemanforwhomitmeantsuchunspeakablethingsputitsoftlydownwithoutaword。

  V。

  ItwasoneofthedisappointmentsofatimewhichwasnearlyalljoythatIdidnotthenmeetamanwhomeanthardlylessthanLowellhimselfforme。GeorgeWilliamCurtiswasduringmyfirstwinterinNewYorkawayononeofthelonglecturingroundstowhichhegavesomanyofhiswinters,andIdidnotseehimtillsevenyearsafterwards,atMr。Norton’sinCambridge。HethencharacteristicallyspentmostoftheeveningindiscussinganobscurepointinBrowning’spoemof’MyLastDuchess’。

  Ihavelongforgottenwhatthepointwas,butnotthecharmofCurtis’spersonality,hisfinepresence,hisbenignpoliteness,hisalmostdeferentialtoleranceofdifferenceinopinion。AfterwardsIsawhimagainandagaininBostonandNewYork,butalwayswithasenseofsomethingelusiveinhisgraciousness,forwhichsomethinginmemusthavebeentoblame。Cold,hewasnot,eventotheyouththatinthosedayswasapttoshiverinanybutthehighertemperatures,andyetIfeltthatImadenoadvanceinhiskindnesstowardsanythinglikethefriendshipIknewintheCambridgemen。PerhapsIwassothoroughlyattunedtotheirmoodthatIcouldnotbeputinunisonwithanother;andperhapsinCurtistherewasreallynotthematerialofmuchintimacy。

  Hehadthepotentialityofpublicityinthesortofwelcomehegaveequallytoallmen;andifIaskedmoreIwasnotreasonable。Yethewasneverfarfromanymanofgood—will,andhewastheintimateofmultitudeswhoseseveralexistenceheneverdreamtof。InthissorthehadbecomemyfriendwhenhemadehisfirstgreatspeechontheKansasquestionin1855,whichwillseenasremotetotheyoungmenofthisdayastheThermopylaequestiontowhichhelikenedit。Iwashisadmirer,hislover,hisworshipperbeforethatforthethingshehaddoneinliterature,forthe’Howadji’books,andforthelovelyfantasiesof’PrueandI’,andforthesound—heartedsatireofthe’PotipharPapers’,andnowsuddenlyIlearntthatthisbrilliantandgracefultalent,thistravelledandaccomplishedgentleman,thisstarofsocietywhohaddazzledmewithhissplendorfaroffinmyWesternvillageobscurity,wasamanwiththehearttofeelthewrongsofmensolittlefriendedthenastobedeniedalltherightsofmen。Idonotrememberanypassageofthespeech,oranywordofit,butIrememberthejoy,thepridewithwhichthesoulofyouthrecognizesinthegreatnessithashonoredthegoodnessitmaylove。Merepoliticiansmightbepro—slaveryoranti—slaverywithouttouchingmeverymuch,butherewasthecitizenofaworldfargreaterthantheirs,alightoftheuniversalrepublicofletters,whowaswillingandeagertostandorfallwiththejustcause,andthatwasallinalltome。Hiscountrywasmycountry,andhiskindredmykindred,andnothingcouldhavekeptmefromfollowingafterhim。

  Hiswholelifetaughtthelessonthattheworldiswelllostwhenevertheworldiswrong;butnever,Ithink,didanylifeteachthissosweetly,sowinningly。Thewrongworlditselfmighthavebeenentreatedbyhimtoberight,forhewasoneofthefewreformerswhohavenotinsomemeasuremixedtheirloveofmanwithhateofmen;hisquarrelwaswitherror,andnotwiththepersonswhowereinit。Hewassogentlysteadfastinhisopinionsthatnooneeverthoughtofhimasafanatic,thoughmanywhoheldhisopinionswereassailedasfanatics,andsufferedtheshameiftheydidnotwinthepalmofmartyrdom。Inearlylifehewasacommunist,andthenwhenhecameoutofBrookFarmintotheworldwhichhewassowellfittedtoadorn,andwhichwouldsogladlyhavekepthimallitsown,hebecameanabolitionistintheveryteethoftheworldwhichabhorredabolitionists。Hewasabelieverinthecauseofwomen’srights,whichhasnopicturesqueness,andwhichchieflyappealstothesenseofhumorinthemenwhoneverdreamtoflaughingathim。Themanwhowasinthelastdegreeamiablewastothelastdegreeunyieldingwhereconsciencewasconcerned;thesoulwhichwassotenderhadnoweaknessinit;hislenitywasthedivinationofafinerjustice。Hishonestymadeallmentrusthimwhentheydoubtedhisopinions;hisgoodsensemadethemdoubttheirownopinions,whentheyhadaslittlequestionoftheirownhonesty。

  Ishouldnotfinditeasytospeakofhimasamanoflettersonly,forhumanitywasabovethehumanitieswithhim,andweallknowhowheturnedfromthefairestcareerinliteraturetotreadthethornypathofpoliticsbecausehebelievedthatdutyledtheway,andthatgoodcitizenswereneededmorethangoodromancers。Nodoubttheyare,andyetitmustalwaysbeakeenregretwiththemenofmygenerationwhowitnessedwithsuchrapturetheearlyproofsofhistalent,thathecouldnothavedevoteditwhollytothebeautiful,andletotherslookafterthetrue。NowthatIhavesaidthisIamhalfashamedofit,forIknowwellenoughthatwhathedidwasbest;butifmyregretismean,Iwillletitremain,foritisfaithfultothemoodwhichmanyhavebeeninconcerninghim。

  Therecanbenodispute,Iamsure,astothevalueofsomeoftheresultsheachievedinthatotherpath。Hedidindeedcreateanewforusthetypeofgood—citizenship,well—nigheffacedinasordidandselfishtime,andofanhonestpoliticianandapure—mindedjournalist。Heneverreallyforsookliterature,andtheworldofactualinterestsandexperiencesaffordedhimoutlooksandperspectives,withoutwhichaestheticendeavorisself—limitedandpurblind。Hewasagreatmanofletters,hewasagreatorator,hewasagreatpoliticaljournalist,hewasagreatcitizen,hewasagreatphilanthropist。Butthatlastwordwithitsconventionalapplicationscarcelydescribesthebraveandgentlefriendofmenthathewas。Hewasonethathelpedothersbyallthathedid,andsaid,andwas,andthecircleofhisusewasaswideashisfame。Thereareothergreatmen,plentyofthem,commongreatmen,whomweknowasnamesandpowers,andwhomwewillinglylettheageshavewhentheydie,for,livingordead,theyarealikeremotefromus。Theyhaveneverbeenwithuswherewelive;butthisgreatmanwastheneighbor,thecontemporary,andthefriendofallwhoreadhimorheardhim;andevenintheswiftforgettingofthiselectricalagethestampofhispersonalitywillnotbeeffacedfromtheirmindsorhearts。

  VI。

  OfthoseeveningsattheTaylors’inNewYork,Icanrecallbesttheonewhichwasmostsignificantforme,andevenfatefullysignificant。

  Mr。andMrs。Fieldswerethere,fromBoston,andIrenewedallthepleasureofmyearliermeetingswiththem。AttheendFieldssaid,mockingly,\"Don’tdespiseBoston!\"andIanswered,asweshookhands,\"FewareworthytoliveinBoston。\"ItwasNew—Year’seve,andthatnightitcameontosnowsoheavilythatmyhorse—carcouldhardlyploughitswayuptoForty—seventhStreetthroughthedrifts。Thenextday,andthenext,Iwroteathome,becauseitwassohardtogetdown—town。ThethirddayIreachedtheofficeandfoundaletteronmydeskfromFields,askinghowIshouldliketocometoBostonandbehisassistantonthe’AtlanticMonthly’。Isubmittedthematteratoncetomychiefonthe’Nation’,andwithhisfrankgoodwillItalkeditoverwithMr。Osgood,ofTicknor&Fields,whowastoseemefurtheraboutitifIwished,whenhecametoNewYork;andthenIwenttoBostontoseeMr。Fieldsconcerningdetails。Iwastosiftallthemanuscriptsandcorrespondwithcontributors;Iwastodotheliteraryproof—readingofthemagazine;andIwastowritethefourorfivepagesofbook—notices,whichwerethenprintedattheendoftheperiodicalinfinertype;andI

  wastohavefortydollarsaweek。IsaidthatIwasgettingthatalreadyforlesswork,andthenMr。Fieldsofferedmetendollarsmore。Uponthesetermsweclosed,andonthe1stofMarch,whichwasmytwenty—ninthbirthday,IwenttoBostonandbeganmywork。IhadnotdecidedtoaccepttheplacewithoutadvisingwithLowell;hecounselledthestep,andgavemesomeshrewdandusefulsuggestions。ThewholeaffairwasconductedbyFieldswithhisunfailingtactandkindness,butitcouldnotbekeptfrommethatthequalificationIhadaspracticalprinterfortheworkwasmostvalued,ifnotthemostvalued,andthatasproof—

  readerIwasexpectedtomakeitavailonthesideofeconomy。Somewhereinlife’sfeastthecourseofhumble—piemustalwayscomein;andifI

  didnotwhollyrelishthis,bitofit,Idaresayitwasgoodforme,andIdigesteditperfectly。

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