\"Iamthewidowofaprovincialdoctor,withanincomeofjusttwohundredandthirtypoundsperannum,\"sheargued。\"Thesensiblethingformetodoistomakethebestofit,andtoworrymyselfaboutthesehighandmightyrelationsofmineaslittleastheyhaveeverworriedthemselvesaboutme。\"
Thestrangerappearedunabletothinkofanythingworthsaying。
\"Ihaveotherconnections,\"rememberedSirWilliam’scousin;\"thoseofmypoorhusband,towhominsteadofbeingthe’poorrelation’Icouldbethefairygod—mama。Theyaremypeople——orwouldbe,\"addedSirWilliam’scousintartly,\"ifIwasn’tavulgarsnob。\"
Sheflushedtheinstantshehadsaidthewordsand,rising,commencedpreparationsforahurrieddeparture。
\"NowitseemsIamdrivingyouaway,\"sighedthestranger。
\"Havingbeencalleda’vulgarsnob,’\"retortedtheladywithsomeheat,\"IthinkitabouttimeIwent。\"
\"Thewordswereyourown,\"thestrangerremindedher。
\"WhateverImayhavethought,\"remarkedtheindignantdame,\"nolady——leastofallinthepresenceofatotalstranger——wouldhavecalledherself——\"Thepoordamepaused,bewildered。\"Thereissomethingverycuriousthematterwithmethisevening,thatIcannotunderstand,\"sheexplained,\"Iseemquiteunabletoavoidinsultingmyself。\"
Stillsurroundedbybewilderment,shewishedthestrangergood—night,hopingthatwhennexttheymetshewouldbemoreherself。Thestranger,hopingsoalso,openedthedoorandcloseditagainbehindher。
\"Tellme,\"laughedMissDevine,whobysheerforceoftalentwascontrivingtowringharmonyfromthereluctantpiano,\"howdidyoumanagetodoit?Ishouldliketoknow。\"
\"HowdidIdowhat?\"inquiredthestranger。
\"Contrivetogetridsoquicklyofthosetwooldfrumps?\"
\"Howwellyouplay!\"observedthestranger。\"IknewyouhadgeniusformusicthemomentIsawyou。\"
\"Howcouldyoutell?\"
\"Itiswrittensoclearlyinyourface。\"
Thegirllaughed,wellpleased。\"Youseemtohavelostnotimeinstudyingmyface。\"
\"Itisabeautifulandinterestingface,\"observedthestranger。
Sheswungroundsharplyonthestoolandtheireyesmet。
\"Youcanreadfaces?\"
\"Yes。\"
\"Tellme,whatelsedoyoureadinmine?\"
\"Frankness,courage——\"
\"Ah,yes,allthevirtues。Perhaps。Wewilltakethemforgranted。\"
Itwasoddhowseriousthegirlhadsuddenlybecome。\"Tellmethereverseside。\"
\"Iseenoreverseside,\"repliedthestranger。\"Iseebutafairgirl,burstingintonoblewomanhood。\"
\"Andnothingelse?Youreadnotraceofgreed,ofvanity,ofsordidness,of——\"Anangrylaughescapedherlips。\"Andyouareareaderoffaces!\"
\"Areaderoffaces。\"Thestrangersmiled。\"Doyouknowwhatiswrittenuponyoursatthisverymoment?Aloveoftruththatisalmostfierce,scornoflies,scornofhypocrisy,thedesireforallthingspure,contemptofallthingsthatarecontemptible——especiallyofsuchthingsasarecontemptibleinwoman。Tellme,doInotreadaright?\"
Iwonder,thoughtthegirl,isthatwhythosetwoothersbothhurriedfromtheroom?Doeseveryonefeelashamedofthelittlenessthatisinthemwhenlookedatbythoseclear,believingeyesofyours?
Theideaoccurredtoher:\"Papaseemedtohaveagooddealtosaytoyouduringdinner。Tellme,whatwereyoutalkingabout?\"
\"Themilitarylookinggentlemanuponmyleft?Wetalkedaboutyourmotherprincipally。\"
\"Iamsorry,\"returnedthegirl,wishfulnowshehadnotaskedthequestion。\"Iwashopinghemighthavechosenanothertopicforthefirstevening!\"
\"Hedidtryoneortwo,\"admittedthestranger;\"butIhavebeenabouttheworldsolittle,Iwasgladwhenhetalkedtomeabouthimself。I
feelweshallbefriends。Hespokesonicely,too,aboutMrs。
Devine。\"
\"Indeed,\"commentedthegirl。
\"Hetoldmehehadbeenmarriedfortwentyyearsandhadneverregretteditbutonce!\"
Herblackeyesflasheduponhim,butmeetinghis,thesuspiciondiedfromthem。Sheturnedasidetohidehersmile。
\"Soheregrettedit——once。\"
\"Onlyonce,\"explainedthestranger,\"inapassingirritablemood。Itwassofrankofhimtoadmitit。Hetoldme——Ithinkhehastakenalikingtome。Indeedhehintedasmuch。Hesaidhedidnotoftengetanopportnnityoftalkingtoamanlikemyself——hetoldmethatheandyourmother,whentheytraveltogether,arealwaysmistakenforahoneymooncouple。Someoftheexperiencesherelatedtomewerereallyquiteamusing。\"Thestrangerlaughedatrecollectionofthem——\"thatevenhere,inthisplace,theyaregenerallyreferredtoas’DarbyandJoan。’\"
\"Yes,\"saidthegirl,\"thatistrue。Mr。Longcordgavethemthatname,thesecondeveningafterourarrival。Itwasconsideredclever——butratherobviousIthoughtmyself。\"
\"Nothing——soitseemstome,\"saidthestranger,\"ismorebeautifulthanthelovethathasweatheredthestormsoflife。Thesweet,tenderblossomthatflowersintheheartoftheyoung——inheartssuchasyours——that,too,isbeautiful。Theloveoftheyoungfortheyoung,thatisthebeginningoflife。Buttheloveoftheoldfortheold,thatisthebeginningof——ofthingslonger。\"
\"Youseemtofindallthingsbeautiful,\"thegirlgrumbled。
\"Butarenotallthingsbeautiful?\"demandedthestranger。
TheColonelhadfinishedhispaper。\"Youtwoareengagedinaveryabsorbingconversation,\"observedtheColonel,approachingthem。
\"WewerediscussingDarbiesandJoans,\"explainedhisdaughter。\"Howbeautifulisthelovethathasweatheredthestormsoflife!\"
\"Ah!\"smiledtheColonel,\"thatishardlyfair。Myfriendhasbeenrepeatingtocynicalyouththeconfessionsofanamoroushusband’saffectionforhismiddle—agedandsomewhat——\"TheColonelinplayfulmoodlaidhishanduponthestranger’sshoulder,anactionthatnecessitatedhislookingstraightintothestranger’seyes。TheColoneldrewhimselfupstifflyandturnedscarlet。
SomebodywascallingtheColonelacad。Notonlythat,butwasexplainingquiteclearly,sothattheColonelcouldseeitforhimself,whyhewasacad。
\"Thatyouandyourwifeleadacatanddogexistenceisadisgracetobothofyou。Atleastyoumighthavethedecencytotryandhideitfromtheworld——notmakeajestofyourshametoeverypassingstranger。Youareacad,sir,acad!\"
Whowasdaringtosaythesethings?Notthestranger,hislipshadnotmoved。Besides,itwasnothisvoice。IndeeditsoundedmuchmorelikethevoiceoftheColonelhimself。TheColonellookedfromthestrangertohisdaughter,fromhisdaughterbacktothestranger。
Clearlytheyhadnotheardthevoice——amerehallucination。TheColonelbreathedagain。
Yettheimpressionremainingwasnottobeshakenoff。Undoubtedlyitwasbadtastetohavejokedtothestrangeruponsuchasubject。Nogentlemanwouldhavedoneso。
Butthennogentlemanwouldhavepermittedsuchajesttobepossible。
Nogentlemanwouldbeforeverwranglingwithhiswife——certainlyneverinpublic。Howeverirritatingthewoman,agentlemanwouldhaveexercisedself—control。
Mrs。Devinehadrisen,wascomingslowlyacrosstheroom。FearlaidholdoftheColonel。Shewasgoingtoaddresssomeaggravatingremarktohim——hecouldseeitinhereye——whichwouldirritatehimintosavageretort。
Eventhisprizeidiotofastrangerwouldunderstandwhyboarding—housewitshaddubbedthem\"DarbyandJoan,\"wouldgraspthefactthatthegallantColonelhadthoughtitamusing,inconversationwithatableacquaintance,toholdhisownwifeuptoridicule。
\"Mydear,\"criedtheColonel,hurryingtospeakfirst,\"doesnotthisroomstrikeyouascold?Letmefetchyouashawl。\"
Itwasuseless:theColonelfeltit。Ithadbeentoolongthecustomofbothofthemtoprefacewithpolitenesstheirdeadliestinsultstoeachother。Shecameon,thinkingofasuitablereply:suitablefromherpointofview,thatis。Inanothermomentthetruthwouldbeout。
Awild,fantasticpossibilityflashedthroughtheColonel’sbrain:Iftohim,whynottoher?
\"Letitia,\"criedtheColonel,andthetoneofhisvoicesurprisedherintosilence,\"Iwantyoutolookcloselyatourfriend。Doeshenotremindyouofsomeone?\"
Mrs。Devine,sourged,lookedatthestrangerlongandhard。\"Yes,\"
shemurmured,turningtoherhusband,\"hedoes,whoisit?\"
\"Icannotfixit,\"repliedtheColonel;\"Ithoughtthatmaybeyouwouldremember。\"
\"Itwillcometome,\"musedMrs。Devine。\"Itissomeone——yearsago,whenIwasagirl——inDevonshire。Thankyou,ifitisn’ttroublingyou,Harry。Ileftitinthedining—room。\"
Itwas,asMr。AugustusLongcordexplainedtohispartnerIsidore,thecolossalfoolishnessofthestrangerthatwasthecauseofallthetrouble。\"Givemeaman,whocantakecareofhimself——orthinkshecan,\"declaredAugustusLongcord,\"andIampreparedtogiveagoodaccountofmyself。Butwhenahelplessbabyrefuseseventolookatwhatyoucallyourfigures,tellsyouthatyourmerewordissufficientforhim,andhandsyouoverhischeque—booktofillupforyourself——well,itisn’tplayingthegame。\"
\"Auguthuth,\"wasthecurtcommentofhispartner,\"you’reafool。\"
\"Allright,myboy,youtry,\"suggestedAugustus。
\"JuthtwhatImeantodo,\"assertedhispartner。
\"Well,\"demandedAugustusoneeveninglater,meetingIsidoreascendingthestairsafteralongtalkwiththestrangerinthedining—roomwiththedoorshut。
\"Oh,don’tarthme,\"retortedIsidore,\"thillyath,thathwhatheith。\"
\"Whatdidhesay?\"
\"Whatdidhethay!talkedabouttheJewth:whatagrandrathetheywere——howpeoplemithjudgedthem:allthatthortofrot。
\"ThaidthomeofthemoththonorablemenhehadevermethadbeenJewth。ThoughtIwathoneof’em!\"
\"Well,didyougetanythingoutofhim?\"
\"Getanythingoutofhim。Ofcourthenot。Couldn’tverywellthellthewholerathe,athitwere,foracoupleofhundredpoundth,afterthat。Didn’ttheemworthit。\"
ThereweremanythingsForty—eightBloomsburySquarecamegraduallytotheconclusionwerenotworththedoing:——Snatchingatthegravy;
pouncingoutofone’sturnuponthevegetablesandhelpingoneselftomorethanone’sfairshare;manoeuveringfortheeasy—chair;sittingontheeveningpaperwhilepretendingnottohaveseenit——allsuch—liketiresomebitsofbusiness。Forthelittleonemadeoutofit,reallyitwasnotworththebother。Grumblingeverlastinglyatone’sfood;grumblingeverlastinglyatmostthings;abusingPennycherrybehindherback;abusing,forachange,one’sfellow—boarders;squabblingwithone’sfellow—boardersaboutnothinginparticular;sneeringatone’sfellow—boarders;talkingscandalofone’sfellow—boarders;makingsenselessjokesaboutone’sfellow—boarders;talkingbigaboutoneself,nobodybelievingone——allsuch—likevulgarities。Otherboarding—housesmightindulgeinthem:
Forty—eightBloomsburySquarehaditsdignitytoconsider。
Thetruthis,Forty—eightBloomsburySquarewascomingtoaverygoodopinionofitself:forthewhichnotBloomsburySquaresomuchasthestrangermustbeblamed。ThestrangerhadarrivedatForty—eightBloomsburySquarewiththepreconceivedidea——whereobtainedfromHeavenknows——thatitsseeminglycommonplace,mean—minded,coarse—fibredoccupantswereinrealityladiesandgentlemenofthefirstwater;andtimeandobservationhadapparentlyonlystrengthenedthisabsurdidea。Thenaturalresultwas,Forty—eightBloomsburySquarewascomingroundtothestranger’sopinionofitself。
Mrs。Pennycherry,thestrangerwouldpersistinregardingasaladybornandbred,compelledbycircumstancesoverwhichshehadnocontroltofillanarduousbuthonorablepositionofmiddle—classsociety——asortoffoster—mother,towhomwereduethethanksandgratitudeofherpromiscuousfamily;andthisviewofherselfMrs。
Pennycherrynowclungtowithobstinateconviction。Thereweredisadvantagesattaching,buttheseMrs。Pennycherryappearedpreparedtosuffercheerfully。Aladybornandbredcannotchargeotherladiesandgentlemenforcoalsandcandlestheyhaveneverburnt;afoster—mothercannotpalmoffuponherchildrenNewZealandmuttonforSouthdown。Amerelodging—house—keepercanplaythesetricks,andpockettheprofits。Butaladyfeelsshecannot:Mrs。Pennycherryfeltshenolongercould。
TothestrangerMissKitewasawittyanddelightfulconversationalistofmostattractivepersonality。MissKitehadonefailing:itwaslackofvanity。Shewasunawareofherowndelicateandrefinedbeauty。IfMissKitecouldonlyseeherselfwithhis,thestranger’seyes,themodestythatrenderedherdistrustfulofhernaturalcharmswouldfallfromher。ThestrangerwassosureofitMissKitedeterminedtoputittothetest。Oneevening,anhourbeforedinner,thereenteredthedrawing—room,whenthestrangeronlywasthereandbeforethegaswaslighted,apleasant,good—lookinglady,somewhatpale,withneatly—arrangedbrownhair,whodemandedofthestrangerifheknewher。Allherbodywastrembling,andhervoiceseemedinclinedtorunawayfromherandbecomeasob。Butwhenthestranger,lookingstraightintohereyes,toldherthatfromthelikenesshethoughtshemustbeMissKite’syoungersister,butmuchprettier,itbecamealaughinstead:andthateveningthegolden—hairedMissKitedisappearednevertoshowherhigh—colouredfaceagain;andwhatperhaps,morethanallelse,mighthaveimpressedsomeformerhabitueofForty—eightBloomsburySquarewithawe,itwasthatnooneinthehousemadeevenapassinginquiryconcerningher。
SirWilliam’scousinthestrangerthoughtanacquisitiontoanyboarding—house。Aladyofhigh—classfamily!Therewasnothingoutwardorvisibleperhapstotellyouthatshewasofhigh—classfamily。Sheherself,naturally,wouldnotmentionthefact,yetsomehowyoufeltit。Unconsciouslyshesetahigh—classtone,diffusedanatmosphereofgentlemanners。Notthatthestrangerhadsaidthisinsomanywords;SirWilliam’scousingatheredthathethoughtit,andfeltherselfinagreementwithhim。
ForMr。Longcordandhispartner,asrepresentativesofthebesttypeofbusinessmen,thestrangerhadagreatrespect。Withwhatunfortunateresultstothemselveshasbeennoted。ThecuriousthingisthattheFirmappearedcontentwiththepricetheyhadpaidforthestranger’sgoodopinion——hadeven,itwasrumoured,acquiredatasteforhonestmen’srespect——thatinthelongrunwaslikelytocostthemdear。Butweallhaveourpetextravagance。
TheColonelandMrs。Devinebothsufferedagooddealatfirstfromthenecessityimposeduponthemoflearning,somewhatlateinlife,newtricks。Intheprivacyoftheirownapartmenttheycondoledwithoneanother。
\"Tomfoolnonsense,\"grumbledtheColonel,\"youandIstartingbillingandcooingatourage!\"
\"WhatIobjectto,\"saidMrs。Devine,\"isthefeelingthatsomehowI
ambeingmadetodoit。\"
\"Theideathatamanandhiswifecannothavetheirlittlejoketogetherforfearofwhatsomeimpertinentjackanapesmaythinkofthem!it’sdamnridiculous,\"theColonelexploded。
\"Evenwhenheisn’tthere,\"saidMrs。Devine,\"Iseemtoseehimlookingatmewiththosevexingeyesofhis。Reallythemanquitehauntsme。\"
\"Ihavemethimsomewhere,\"musedtheColonel,\"I’llswearI’vemethimsomewhere。Iwishtogoodnesshewouldgo。\"
AhundredthingsadaytheColonelwantedtosaytoMrs。Devine,ahundredthingsadayMrs。DevinewouldhavelikedtoobservetotheColonel。Butbythetimetheopportunityoccurred——whennobodyelsewasbytohear——allinterestinsayingthemwasgone。
\"Womenwillbewomen,\"wasthesentimentwithwhichtheColonelconsoledhimself。\"Amanmustbearwiththem——mustneverforgetthatheisagentleman。\"
\"Oh,well,Isupposethey’reallalike,\"laughedMrs。Devinetoherself,havingarrivedatthatstageofdespairwhenoneseeksrefugeincheerfulness。\"What’stheuseofputtingoneselfout——itdoesnogood,andonlyupsetsone。\"Thereisacertainsatisfactioninfeelingyouarebearingwithheroicresignationtheirritatingfolliesofothers。ColonelandMrs。Devinecametoenjoytheluxuryofmuchself—approbation。
Butthepersonseriouslyannoyedbythestranger’sbigotedbeliefintheinnategoodnessofeveryonehecameacrosswasthelanguid,handsomeMissDevine。ThestrangerwouldhaveitthatMissDevinewasanoble—souled,high—mindedyoungwoman,somethingmidwaybetweenaFloraMacdonaldandaJoanofArc。MissDevine,onthecontrary,knewherselftobeasleek,luxury—lovinganimal,quitewillingtosellherselftothebidderwhocouldofferherthefinestclothes,therichestfoods,themostsumptuoussurroundings。Suchabidderwastohandinthepersonofaretiredbookmaker,asomewhatgreasyoldgentleman,butexceedinglyrichandundoubtedlyfondofher。
MissDevine,havingmadeuphermindthatthethinghadgottobedone,wasanxiousthatitshouldbedonequickly。Andhereitwasthatthestranger’sridiculousopinionofhernotonlyirritatedbutinconveniencedher。Undertheveryeyesofaperson——howeverfoolish——convincedthatyouarepossessedofallthehighestattributesofyoursex,itisdifficulttobehaveasthoughactuatedbyonlythebasestmotives。AdozentimeshadMissDevinedeterminedtoendthematterbyformalacceptanceofherelderlyadmirer’slargeandflabbyhand,andadozentimes——thevisioninterveningofthestranger’sgrave,believingeyes——hadMissDevinerefuseddecidedanswer。Thestrangerwouldonedaydepart。Indeed,hehadtoldherhimself,hewasbutapassingtraveller。Whenhewasgoneitwouldbeeasier。Soshethoughtatthetime。
Oneafternoonthestrangerenteredtheroomwhereshewasstandingbythewindow,lookingoutuponthebarebranchesofthetreesinBloomsburySquare。Sherememberedafterwards,itwasjustsuchanotherfoggyafternoonastheafternoonofthestranger’sarrivalthreemonthsbefore。Nooneelsewasintheroom。Thestrangerclosedthedoor,andcametowardsherwiththatcurious,quick—leapingstepofhis。Hislongcoatwastightlybuttoned,andinhishandshecarriedhisoldfelthatandthemassiveknottedstickthatwasalmostastaff。
\"Ihavecometosaygood—bye,\"explainedthestranger。\"Iamgoing。\"
\"Ishallnotseeyouagain?\"askedthegirl。
\"Icannotsay,\"repliedthestranger。\"Butyouwillthinkofme?\"
\"Yes,\"sheansweredwithasmile,\"Icanpromisethat。\"
\"AndIshallalwaysrememberyou,\"promisedthestranger,\"andIwishyoueveryjoy——thejoyoflove,thejoyofahappymarriage。\"
Thegirlwinced。\"Loveandmarriagearenotalwaysthesamething,\"
shesaid。
\"Notalways,\"agreedthestranger,\"butinyourcasetheywillbeone。\"
Shelookedathim。
\"DoyouthinkIhavenotnoticed?\"smiledthestranger,\"agallant,handsomelad,andclever。Youlovehimandhelovesyou。Icouldnothavegoneawaywithoutknowingitwaswellwithyou。\"
Hergazewanderedtowardsthefadinglight。
\"Ah,yes,Ilovehim,\"sheansweredpetulantly。\"Youreyescanseeclearlyenough,whentheywantto。Butonedoesnotliveonlove,inourworld。IwilltellyouthemanIamgoingtomarryifyoucaretoknow。\"Shewouldnotmeethiseyes。Shekepthergazestillfixeduponthedingytrees,themistbeyond,andspokerapidlyandvehemently:\"Themanwhocangivemeallmysoul’sdesire——moneyandthethingsthatmoneycanbuy。Youthinkmeawoman,I’monlyapig。
Heismoist,andbreatheslikeaporpoise;withcunninginplaceofabrain,andtherestofhimmerestomach。Butheisgoodenoughforme。\"
Shehopedthiswouldshockthestrangerandthatnow,perhaps,hewouldgo。Itirritatedhertohearhimonlylaugh。
\"No,\"hesaid,\"youwillnotmarryhim。\"
\"Whowillstopme?\"shecriedangrily。
\"YourBetterSelf。\"
Hisvoicehadastrangeringofauthority,compellinghertoturnandlookuponhisface。Yes,itwastrue,thefancythatfromtheveryfirsthadhauntedher。Shehadmethim,talkedtohim——insilentcountryroads,incrowdedcitystreets,wherewasit?Andalwaysintalkingwithhimherspirithadbeenliftedup:shehadbeen——whathehadalwaysthoughther。
\"Therearethose,\"continuedthestranger(andforthefirsttimeshesawthathewasofanoblepresence,thathisgentle,child—likeeyescouldalsocommand),\"whoseBetterSelfliesslainbytheirownhandandtroublesthemnomore。Butyours,mychild,youhaveletgrowtoostrong;itwilleverbeyourmaster。Youmustobey。Fleefromitanditwillfollowyou;youcannotescapeit。Insultitanditwillchastiseyouwithburningshame,withstingingself—reproachfromdaytoday。\"Thesternnessfadedfromthebeautifulface,thetendernesscreptback。Helaidhishandupontheyounggirl’sshoulder。\"Youwillmarryyourlover,\"hesmiled。\"Withhimyouwillwalkthewayofsunlightandofshadow。\"
Andthegirl,lookingupintothestrong,calmface,knewthatitwouldbeso,thatthepowerofresistingherBetterSelfhadpassedawayfromherforever。
\"Now,\"saidthestranger,\"cometothedoorwithme。Leave—takingsarebutwastedsadness。Letmepassoutquietly。Closethedoorsoftlybehindme。\"
Shethoughtthatperhapshewouldturnhisfaceagain,butshesawnomoreofhimthantheoddroundnessofhisbackunderthetightlybuttonedcoat,beforehefadedintothegatheringfog。
Thensoftlysheclosedthedoor。