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  \"Iamthewidowofaprovincialdoctor,withanincomeofjusttwohundredandthirtypoundsperannum,\"sheargued。\"Thesensiblethingformetodoistomakethebestofit,andtoworrymyselfaboutthesehighandmightyrelationsofmineaslittleastheyhaveeverworriedthemselvesaboutme。\"

  Thestrangerappearedunabletothinkofanythingworthsaying。

  \"Ihaveotherconnections,\"rememberedSirWilliam’scousin;\"thoseofmypoorhusband,towhominsteadofbeingthe’poorrelation’Icouldbethefairygod—mama。Theyaremypeople——orwouldbe,\"addedSirWilliam’scousintartly,\"ifIwasn’tavulgarsnob。\"

  Sheflushedtheinstantshehadsaidthewordsand,rising,commencedpreparationsforahurrieddeparture。

  \"NowitseemsIamdrivingyouaway,\"sighedthestranger。

  \"Havingbeencalleda’vulgarsnob,’\"retortedtheladywithsomeheat,\"IthinkitabouttimeIwent。\"

  \"Thewordswereyourown,\"thestrangerremindedher。

  \"WhateverImayhavethought,\"remarkedtheindignantdame,\"nolady——leastofallinthepresenceofatotalstranger——wouldhavecalledherself——\"Thepoordamepaused,bewildered。\"Thereissomethingverycuriousthematterwithmethisevening,thatIcannotunderstand,\"sheexplained,\"Iseemquiteunabletoavoidinsultingmyself。\"

  Stillsurroundedbybewilderment,shewishedthestrangergood—night,hopingthatwhennexttheymetshewouldbemoreherself。Thestranger,hopingsoalso,openedthedoorandcloseditagainbehindher。

  \"Tellme,\"laughedMissDevine,whobysheerforceoftalentwascontrivingtowringharmonyfromthereluctantpiano,\"howdidyoumanagetodoit?Ishouldliketoknow。\"

  \"HowdidIdowhat?\"inquiredthestranger。

  \"Contrivetogetridsoquicklyofthosetwooldfrumps?\"

  \"Howwellyouplay!\"observedthestranger。\"IknewyouhadgeniusformusicthemomentIsawyou。\"

  \"Howcouldyoutell?\"

  \"Itiswrittensoclearlyinyourface。\"

  Thegirllaughed,wellpleased。\"Youseemtohavelostnotimeinstudyingmyface。\"

  \"Itisabeautifulandinterestingface,\"observedthestranger。

  Sheswungroundsharplyonthestoolandtheireyesmet。

  \"Youcanreadfaces?\"

  \"Yes。\"

  \"Tellme,whatelsedoyoureadinmine?\"

  \"Frankness,courage——\"

  \"Ah,yes,allthevirtues。Perhaps。Wewilltakethemforgranted。\"

  Itwasoddhowseriousthegirlhadsuddenlybecome。\"Tellmethereverseside。\"

  \"Iseenoreverseside,\"repliedthestranger。\"Iseebutafairgirl,burstingintonoblewomanhood。\"

  \"Andnothingelse?Youreadnotraceofgreed,ofvanity,ofsordidness,of——\"Anangrylaughescapedherlips。\"Andyouareareaderoffaces!\"

  \"Areaderoffaces。\"Thestrangersmiled。\"Doyouknowwhatiswrittenuponyoursatthisverymoment?Aloveoftruththatisalmostfierce,scornoflies,scornofhypocrisy,thedesireforallthingspure,contemptofallthingsthatarecontemptible——especiallyofsuchthingsasarecontemptibleinwoman。Tellme,doInotreadaright?\"

  Iwonder,thoughtthegirl,isthatwhythosetwoothersbothhurriedfromtheroom?Doeseveryonefeelashamedofthelittlenessthatisinthemwhenlookedatbythoseclear,believingeyesofyours?

  Theideaoccurredtoher:\"Papaseemedtohaveagooddealtosaytoyouduringdinner。Tellme,whatwereyoutalkingabout?\"

  \"Themilitarylookinggentlemanuponmyleft?Wetalkedaboutyourmotherprincipally。\"

  \"Iamsorry,\"returnedthegirl,wishfulnowshehadnotaskedthequestion。\"Iwashopinghemighthavechosenanothertopicforthefirstevening!\"

  \"Hedidtryoneortwo,\"admittedthestranger;\"butIhavebeenabouttheworldsolittle,Iwasgladwhenhetalkedtomeabouthimself。I

  feelweshallbefriends。Hespokesonicely,too,aboutMrs。

  Devine。\"

  \"Indeed,\"commentedthegirl。

  \"Hetoldmehehadbeenmarriedfortwentyyearsandhadneverregretteditbutonce!\"

  Herblackeyesflasheduponhim,butmeetinghis,thesuspiciondiedfromthem。Sheturnedasidetohidehersmile。

  \"Soheregrettedit——once。\"

  \"Onlyonce,\"explainedthestranger,\"inapassingirritablemood。Itwassofrankofhimtoadmitit。Hetoldme——Ithinkhehastakenalikingtome。Indeedhehintedasmuch。Hesaidhedidnotoftengetanopportnnityoftalkingtoamanlikemyself——hetoldmethatheandyourmother,whentheytraveltogether,arealwaysmistakenforahoneymooncouple。Someoftheexperiencesherelatedtomewerereallyquiteamusing。\"Thestrangerlaughedatrecollectionofthem——\"thatevenhere,inthisplace,theyaregenerallyreferredtoas’DarbyandJoan。’\"

  \"Yes,\"saidthegirl,\"thatistrue。Mr。Longcordgavethemthatname,thesecondeveningafterourarrival。Itwasconsideredclever——butratherobviousIthoughtmyself。\"

  \"Nothing——soitseemstome,\"saidthestranger,\"ismorebeautifulthanthelovethathasweatheredthestormsoflife。Thesweet,tenderblossomthatflowersintheheartoftheyoung——inheartssuchasyours——that,too,isbeautiful。Theloveoftheyoungfortheyoung,thatisthebeginningoflife。Buttheloveoftheoldfortheold,thatisthebeginningof——ofthingslonger。\"

  \"Youseemtofindallthingsbeautiful,\"thegirlgrumbled。

  \"Butarenotallthingsbeautiful?\"demandedthestranger。

  TheColonelhadfinishedhispaper。\"Youtwoareengagedinaveryabsorbingconversation,\"observedtheColonel,approachingthem。

  \"WewerediscussingDarbiesandJoans,\"explainedhisdaughter。\"Howbeautifulisthelovethathasweatheredthestormsoflife!\"

  \"Ah!\"smiledtheColonel,\"thatishardlyfair。Myfriendhasbeenrepeatingtocynicalyouththeconfessionsofanamoroushusband’saffectionforhismiddle—agedandsomewhat——\"TheColonelinplayfulmoodlaidhishanduponthestranger’sshoulder,anactionthatnecessitatedhislookingstraightintothestranger’seyes。TheColoneldrewhimselfupstifflyandturnedscarlet。

  SomebodywascallingtheColonelacad。Notonlythat,butwasexplainingquiteclearly,sothattheColonelcouldseeitforhimself,whyhewasacad。

  \"Thatyouandyourwifeleadacatanddogexistenceisadisgracetobothofyou。Atleastyoumighthavethedecencytotryandhideitfromtheworld——notmakeajestofyourshametoeverypassingstranger。Youareacad,sir,acad!\"

  Whowasdaringtosaythesethings?Notthestranger,hislipshadnotmoved。Besides,itwasnothisvoice。IndeeditsoundedmuchmorelikethevoiceoftheColonelhimself。TheColonellookedfromthestrangertohisdaughter,fromhisdaughterbacktothestranger。

  Clearlytheyhadnotheardthevoice——amerehallucination。TheColonelbreathedagain。

  Yettheimpressionremainingwasnottobeshakenoff。Undoubtedlyitwasbadtastetohavejokedtothestrangeruponsuchasubject。Nogentlemanwouldhavedoneso。

  Butthennogentlemanwouldhavepermittedsuchajesttobepossible。

  Nogentlemanwouldbeforeverwranglingwithhiswife——certainlyneverinpublic。Howeverirritatingthewoman,agentlemanwouldhaveexercisedself—control。

  Mrs。Devinehadrisen,wascomingslowlyacrosstheroom。FearlaidholdoftheColonel。Shewasgoingtoaddresssomeaggravatingremarktohim——hecouldseeitinhereye——whichwouldirritatehimintosavageretort。

  Eventhisprizeidiotofastrangerwouldunderstandwhyboarding—housewitshaddubbedthem\"DarbyandJoan,\"wouldgraspthefactthatthegallantColonelhadthoughtitamusing,inconversationwithatableacquaintance,toholdhisownwifeuptoridicule。

  \"Mydear,\"criedtheColonel,hurryingtospeakfirst,\"doesnotthisroomstrikeyouascold?Letmefetchyouashawl。\"

  Itwasuseless:theColonelfeltit。Ithadbeentoolongthecustomofbothofthemtoprefacewithpolitenesstheirdeadliestinsultstoeachother。Shecameon,thinkingofasuitablereply:suitablefromherpointofview,thatis。Inanothermomentthetruthwouldbeout。

  Awild,fantasticpossibilityflashedthroughtheColonel’sbrain:Iftohim,whynottoher?

  \"Letitia,\"criedtheColonel,andthetoneofhisvoicesurprisedherintosilence,\"Iwantyoutolookcloselyatourfriend。Doeshenotremindyouofsomeone?\"

  Mrs。Devine,sourged,lookedatthestrangerlongandhard。\"Yes,\"

  shemurmured,turningtoherhusband,\"hedoes,whoisit?\"

  \"Icannotfixit,\"repliedtheColonel;\"Ithoughtthatmaybeyouwouldremember。\"

  \"Itwillcometome,\"musedMrs。Devine。\"Itissomeone——yearsago,whenIwasagirl——inDevonshire。Thankyou,ifitisn’ttroublingyou,Harry。Ileftitinthedining—room。\"

  Itwas,asMr。AugustusLongcordexplainedtohispartnerIsidore,thecolossalfoolishnessofthestrangerthatwasthecauseofallthetrouble。\"Givemeaman,whocantakecareofhimself——orthinkshecan,\"declaredAugustusLongcord,\"andIampreparedtogiveagoodaccountofmyself。Butwhenahelplessbabyrefuseseventolookatwhatyoucallyourfigures,tellsyouthatyourmerewordissufficientforhim,andhandsyouoverhischeque—booktofillupforyourself——well,itisn’tplayingthegame。\"

  \"Auguthuth,\"wasthecurtcommentofhispartner,\"you’reafool。\"

  \"Allright,myboy,youtry,\"suggestedAugustus。

  \"JuthtwhatImeantodo,\"assertedhispartner。

  \"Well,\"demandedAugustusoneeveninglater,meetingIsidoreascendingthestairsafteralongtalkwiththestrangerinthedining—roomwiththedoorshut。

  \"Oh,don’tarthme,\"retortedIsidore,\"thillyath,thathwhatheith。\"

  \"Whatdidhesay?\"

  \"Whatdidhethay!talkedabouttheJewth:whatagrandrathetheywere——howpeoplemithjudgedthem:allthatthortofrot。

  \"ThaidthomeofthemoththonorablemenhehadevermethadbeenJewth。ThoughtIwathoneof’em!\"

  \"Well,didyougetanythingoutofhim?\"

  \"Getanythingoutofhim。Ofcourthenot。Couldn’tverywellthellthewholerathe,athitwere,foracoupleofhundredpoundth,afterthat。Didn’ttheemworthit。\"

  ThereweremanythingsForty—eightBloomsburySquarecamegraduallytotheconclusionwerenotworththedoing:——Snatchingatthegravy;

  pouncingoutofone’sturnuponthevegetablesandhelpingoneselftomorethanone’sfairshare;manoeuveringfortheeasy—chair;sittingontheeveningpaperwhilepretendingnottohaveseenit——allsuch—liketiresomebitsofbusiness。Forthelittleonemadeoutofit,reallyitwasnotworththebother。Grumblingeverlastinglyatone’sfood;grumblingeverlastinglyatmostthings;abusingPennycherrybehindherback;abusing,forachange,one’sfellow—boarders;squabblingwithone’sfellow—boardersaboutnothinginparticular;sneeringatone’sfellow—boarders;talkingscandalofone’sfellow—boarders;makingsenselessjokesaboutone’sfellow—boarders;talkingbigaboutoneself,nobodybelievingone——allsuch—likevulgarities。Otherboarding—housesmightindulgeinthem:

  Forty—eightBloomsburySquarehaditsdignitytoconsider。

  Thetruthis,Forty—eightBloomsburySquarewascomingtoaverygoodopinionofitself:forthewhichnotBloomsburySquaresomuchasthestrangermustbeblamed。ThestrangerhadarrivedatForty—eightBloomsburySquarewiththepreconceivedidea——whereobtainedfromHeavenknows——thatitsseeminglycommonplace,mean—minded,coarse—fibredoccupantswereinrealityladiesandgentlemenofthefirstwater;andtimeandobservationhadapparentlyonlystrengthenedthisabsurdidea。Thenaturalresultwas,Forty—eightBloomsburySquarewascomingroundtothestranger’sopinionofitself。

  Mrs。Pennycherry,thestrangerwouldpersistinregardingasaladybornandbred,compelledbycircumstancesoverwhichshehadnocontroltofillanarduousbuthonorablepositionofmiddle—classsociety——asortoffoster—mother,towhomwereduethethanksandgratitudeofherpromiscuousfamily;andthisviewofherselfMrs。

  Pennycherrynowclungtowithobstinateconviction。Thereweredisadvantagesattaching,buttheseMrs。Pennycherryappearedpreparedtosuffercheerfully。Aladybornandbredcannotchargeotherladiesandgentlemenforcoalsandcandlestheyhaveneverburnt;afoster—mothercannotpalmoffuponherchildrenNewZealandmuttonforSouthdown。Amerelodging—house—keepercanplaythesetricks,andpockettheprofits。Butaladyfeelsshecannot:Mrs。Pennycherryfeltshenolongercould。

  TothestrangerMissKitewasawittyanddelightfulconversationalistofmostattractivepersonality。MissKitehadonefailing:itwaslackofvanity。Shewasunawareofherowndelicateandrefinedbeauty。IfMissKitecouldonlyseeherselfwithhis,thestranger’seyes,themodestythatrenderedherdistrustfulofhernaturalcharmswouldfallfromher。ThestrangerwassosureofitMissKitedeterminedtoputittothetest。Oneevening,anhourbeforedinner,thereenteredthedrawing—room,whenthestrangeronlywasthereandbeforethegaswaslighted,apleasant,good—lookinglady,somewhatpale,withneatly—arrangedbrownhair,whodemandedofthestrangerifheknewher。Allherbodywastrembling,andhervoiceseemedinclinedtorunawayfromherandbecomeasob。Butwhenthestranger,lookingstraightintohereyes,toldherthatfromthelikenesshethoughtshemustbeMissKite’syoungersister,butmuchprettier,itbecamealaughinstead:andthateveningthegolden—hairedMissKitedisappearednevertoshowherhigh—colouredfaceagain;andwhatperhaps,morethanallelse,mighthaveimpressedsomeformerhabitueofForty—eightBloomsburySquarewithawe,itwasthatnooneinthehousemadeevenapassinginquiryconcerningher。

  SirWilliam’scousinthestrangerthoughtanacquisitiontoanyboarding—house。Aladyofhigh—classfamily!Therewasnothingoutwardorvisibleperhapstotellyouthatshewasofhigh—classfamily。Sheherself,naturally,wouldnotmentionthefact,yetsomehowyoufeltit。Unconsciouslyshesetahigh—classtone,diffusedanatmosphereofgentlemanners。Notthatthestrangerhadsaidthisinsomanywords;SirWilliam’scousingatheredthathethoughtit,andfeltherselfinagreementwithhim。

  ForMr。Longcordandhispartner,asrepresentativesofthebesttypeofbusinessmen,thestrangerhadagreatrespect。Withwhatunfortunateresultstothemselveshasbeennoted。ThecuriousthingisthattheFirmappearedcontentwiththepricetheyhadpaidforthestranger’sgoodopinion——hadeven,itwasrumoured,acquiredatasteforhonestmen’srespect——thatinthelongrunwaslikelytocostthemdear。Butweallhaveourpetextravagance。

  TheColonelandMrs。Devinebothsufferedagooddealatfirstfromthenecessityimposeduponthemoflearning,somewhatlateinlife,newtricks。Intheprivacyoftheirownapartmenttheycondoledwithoneanother。

  \"Tomfoolnonsense,\"grumbledtheColonel,\"youandIstartingbillingandcooingatourage!\"

  \"WhatIobjectto,\"saidMrs。Devine,\"isthefeelingthatsomehowI

  ambeingmadetodoit。\"

  \"Theideathatamanandhiswifecannothavetheirlittlejoketogetherforfearofwhatsomeimpertinentjackanapesmaythinkofthem!it’sdamnridiculous,\"theColonelexploded。

  \"Evenwhenheisn’tthere,\"saidMrs。Devine,\"Iseemtoseehimlookingatmewiththosevexingeyesofhis。Reallythemanquitehauntsme。\"

  \"Ihavemethimsomewhere,\"musedtheColonel,\"I’llswearI’vemethimsomewhere。Iwishtogoodnesshewouldgo。\"

  AhundredthingsadaytheColonelwantedtosaytoMrs。Devine,ahundredthingsadayMrs。DevinewouldhavelikedtoobservetotheColonel。Butbythetimetheopportunityoccurred——whennobodyelsewasbytohear——allinterestinsayingthemwasgone。

  \"Womenwillbewomen,\"wasthesentimentwithwhichtheColonelconsoledhimself。\"Amanmustbearwiththem——mustneverforgetthatheisagentleman。\"

  \"Oh,well,Isupposethey’reallalike,\"laughedMrs。Devinetoherself,havingarrivedatthatstageofdespairwhenoneseeksrefugeincheerfulness。\"What’stheuseofputtingoneselfout——itdoesnogood,andonlyupsetsone。\"Thereisacertainsatisfactioninfeelingyouarebearingwithheroicresignationtheirritatingfolliesofothers。ColonelandMrs。Devinecametoenjoytheluxuryofmuchself—approbation。

  Butthepersonseriouslyannoyedbythestranger’sbigotedbeliefintheinnategoodnessofeveryonehecameacrosswasthelanguid,handsomeMissDevine。ThestrangerwouldhaveitthatMissDevinewasanoble—souled,high—mindedyoungwoman,somethingmidwaybetweenaFloraMacdonaldandaJoanofArc。MissDevine,onthecontrary,knewherselftobeasleek,luxury—lovinganimal,quitewillingtosellherselftothebidderwhocouldofferherthefinestclothes,therichestfoods,themostsumptuoussurroundings。Suchabidderwastohandinthepersonofaretiredbookmaker,asomewhatgreasyoldgentleman,butexceedinglyrichandundoubtedlyfondofher。

  MissDevine,havingmadeuphermindthatthethinghadgottobedone,wasanxiousthatitshouldbedonequickly。Andhereitwasthatthestranger’sridiculousopinionofhernotonlyirritatedbutinconveniencedher。Undertheveryeyesofaperson——howeverfoolish——convincedthatyouarepossessedofallthehighestattributesofyoursex,itisdifficulttobehaveasthoughactuatedbyonlythebasestmotives。AdozentimeshadMissDevinedeterminedtoendthematterbyformalacceptanceofherelderlyadmirer’slargeandflabbyhand,andadozentimes——thevisioninterveningofthestranger’sgrave,believingeyes——hadMissDevinerefuseddecidedanswer。Thestrangerwouldonedaydepart。Indeed,hehadtoldherhimself,hewasbutapassingtraveller。Whenhewasgoneitwouldbeeasier。Soshethoughtatthetime。

  Oneafternoonthestrangerenteredtheroomwhereshewasstandingbythewindow,lookingoutuponthebarebranchesofthetreesinBloomsburySquare。Sherememberedafterwards,itwasjustsuchanotherfoggyafternoonastheafternoonofthestranger’sarrivalthreemonthsbefore。Nooneelsewasintheroom。Thestrangerclosedthedoor,andcametowardsherwiththatcurious,quick—leapingstepofhis。Hislongcoatwastightlybuttoned,andinhishandshecarriedhisoldfelthatandthemassiveknottedstickthatwasalmostastaff。

  \"Ihavecometosaygood—bye,\"explainedthestranger。\"Iamgoing。\"

  \"Ishallnotseeyouagain?\"askedthegirl。

  \"Icannotsay,\"repliedthestranger。\"Butyouwillthinkofme?\"

  \"Yes,\"sheansweredwithasmile,\"Icanpromisethat。\"

  \"AndIshallalwaysrememberyou,\"promisedthestranger,\"andIwishyoueveryjoy——thejoyoflove,thejoyofahappymarriage。\"

  Thegirlwinced。\"Loveandmarriagearenotalwaysthesamething,\"

  shesaid。

  \"Notalways,\"agreedthestranger,\"butinyourcasetheywillbeone。\"

  Shelookedathim。

  \"DoyouthinkIhavenotnoticed?\"smiledthestranger,\"agallant,handsomelad,andclever。Youlovehimandhelovesyou。Icouldnothavegoneawaywithoutknowingitwaswellwithyou。\"

  Hergazewanderedtowardsthefadinglight。

  \"Ah,yes,Ilovehim,\"sheansweredpetulantly。\"Youreyescanseeclearlyenough,whentheywantto。Butonedoesnotliveonlove,inourworld。IwilltellyouthemanIamgoingtomarryifyoucaretoknow。\"Shewouldnotmeethiseyes。Shekepthergazestillfixeduponthedingytrees,themistbeyond,andspokerapidlyandvehemently:\"Themanwhocangivemeallmysoul’sdesire——moneyandthethingsthatmoneycanbuy。Youthinkmeawoman,I’monlyapig。

  Heismoist,andbreatheslikeaporpoise;withcunninginplaceofabrain,andtherestofhimmerestomach。Butheisgoodenoughforme。\"

  Shehopedthiswouldshockthestrangerandthatnow,perhaps,hewouldgo。Itirritatedhertohearhimonlylaugh。

  \"No,\"hesaid,\"youwillnotmarryhim。\"

  \"Whowillstopme?\"shecriedangrily。

  \"YourBetterSelf。\"

  Hisvoicehadastrangeringofauthority,compellinghertoturnandlookuponhisface。Yes,itwastrue,thefancythatfromtheveryfirsthadhauntedher。Shehadmethim,talkedtohim——insilentcountryroads,incrowdedcitystreets,wherewasit?Andalwaysintalkingwithhimherspirithadbeenliftedup:shehadbeen——whathehadalwaysthoughther。

  \"Therearethose,\"continuedthestranger(andforthefirsttimeshesawthathewasofanoblepresence,thathisgentle,child—likeeyescouldalsocommand),\"whoseBetterSelfliesslainbytheirownhandandtroublesthemnomore。Butyours,mychild,youhaveletgrowtoostrong;itwilleverbeyourmaster。Youmustobey。Fleefromitanditwillfollowyou;youcannotescapeit。Insultitanditwillchastiseyouwithburningshame,withstingingself—reproachfromdaytoday。\"Thesternnessfadedfromthebeautifulface,thetendernesscreptback。Helaidhishandupontheyounggirl’sshoulder。\"Youwillmarryyourlover,\"hesmiled。\"Withhimyouwillwalkthewayofsunlightandofshadow。\"

  Andthegirl,lookingupintothestrong,calmface,knewthatitwouldbeso,thatthepowerofresistingherBetterSelfhadpassedawayfromherforever。

  \"Now,\"saidthestranger,\"cometothedoorwithme。Leave—takingsarebutwastedsadness。Letmepassoutquietly。Closethedoorsoftlybehindme。\"

  Shethoughtthatperhapshewouldturnhisfaceagain,butshesawnomoreofhimthantheoddroundnessofhisbackunderthetightlybuttonedcoat,beforehefadedintothegatheringfog。

  Thensoftlysheclosedthedoor。

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