ThecasewasworsewiththeMajor——nothingIcoulddowouldkeepHIM
down,sothathebecameusefulonlyfortherepresentationofbrawnygiants。Iadoredvarietyandrange,Icherishedhumanaccidents,theillustrativenote;Iwantedtocharacteriseclosely,andthethingintheworldImosthatedwasthedangerofbeingriddenbyatype。I
hadquarrelledwithsomeofmyfriendsaboutit——IhadpartedcompanywiththemformaintainingthatoneHADtobe,andthatifthetypewasbeautiful(witnessRaphaelandLeonardo),theservitudewasonlyagain。IwasneitherLeonardonorRaphael;Imightonlybeapresumptuousyoungmodernsearcher,butIheldthateverythingwastobesacrificedsoonerthancharacter。WhentheyaverredthatthehauntingtypeinquestioncouldeasilyBEcharacter,Iretorted,perhapssuperficially:\"Whose?\"Itcouldn’tbeeverybody’s——itmightendinbeingnobody’s。
AfterIhaddrawnMrs。MonarchadozentimesIperceivedmoreclearlythanbeforethatthevalueofsuchamodelasMissChurmresidedpreciselyinthefactthatshehadnopositivestamp,combinedofcoursewiththeotherfactthatwhatshedidhavewasacuriousandinexplicabletalentforimitation。Herusualappearancewaslikeacurtainwhichshecoulddrawupatrequestforacapitalperformance。
Thisperformancewassimplysuggestive;butitwasawordtothewise——itwasvividandpretty。Sometimes,even,Ithoughtit,thoughshewasplainherself,tooinsipidlypretty;Imadeitareproachtoherthatthefiguresdrawnfromherweremonotonously(betement,asweusedtosay)graceful。Nothingmadehermoreangry:itwassomuchherpridetofeelthatshecouldsitforcharactersthathadnothingincommonwitheachother。Shewouldaccusemeatsuchmomentsoftakingawayher\"reputytion。\"
Itsufferedacertainshrinkage,thisqueerquantity,fromtherepeatedvisitsofmynewfriends。MissChurmwasgreatlyindemand,neverinwantofemployment,soIhadnoscrupleinputtingheroffoccasionally,totrythemmoreatmyease。Itwascertainlyamusingatfirsttodotherealthing——itwasamusingtodoMajorMonarch’strousers。TheyWEREtherealthing,evenifhedidcomeoutcolossal。Itwasamusingtodohiswife’sbackhair(itwassomathematicallyneat,)andtheparticular\"smart\"tensionofhertightstays。Shelentherselfespeciallytopositionsinwhichthefacewassomewhatavertedorblurred;sheaboundedinlady—likebackviewsandprofilsperdus。Whenshestooderectshetooknaturallyoneoftheattitudesinwhichcourt—paintersrepresentqueensandprincesses;sothatIfoundmyselfwonderingwhether,todrawoutthisaccomplishment,Icouldn’tgettheeditoroftheCheapsidetopublishareallyroyalromance,\"ATaleofBuckinghamPalace。\"
Sometimes,however,therealthingandthemake—believecameintocontact;bywhichImeanthatMissChurm,keepinganappointmentorcomingtomakeoneondayswhenIhadmuchworkinhand,encounteredherinvidiousrivals。Theencounterwasnotontheirpart,fortheynoticedhernomorethanifshehadbeenthehousemaid;notfromintentionalloftiness,butsimplybecause,asyet,professionally,theydidn’tknowhowtofraternise,asIcouldguessthattheywouldhaveliked——oratleastthattheMajorwould。Theycouldn’ttalkabouttheomnibus——theyalwayswalked;andtheydidn’tknowwhatelsetotry——shewasn’tinterestedingoodtrainsorcheapclaret。
Besides,theymusthavefelt——intheair——thatshewasamusedatthem,secretlyderisiveoftheireverknowinghow。Shewasnotapersontoconcealherscepticismifshehadhadachancetoshowit。
OntheotherhandMrs。Monarchdidn’tthinkhertidy;forwhyelsedidshetakepainstosaytome(itwasgoingoutoftheway,forMrs。Monarch),thatshedidn’tlikedirtywomen?
Onedaywhenmyyoungladyhappenedtobepresentwithmyothersitters(sheevendroppedin,whenitwasconvenient,forachat),I
askedhertobesogoodastolendahandingettingtea——aservicewithwhichshewasfamiliarandwhichwasoneofaclassthat,livingasIdidinasmallway,withslenderdomesticresources,Ioftenappealedtomymodelstorender。Theylikedtolayhandsonmyproperty,tobreakthesitting,andsometimesthechina——ImadethemfeelBohemian。ThenexttimeIsawMissChurmafterthisincidentshesurprisedmegreatlybymakingasceneaboutit——sheaccusedmeofhavingwishedtohumiliateher。Shehadnotresentedtheoutrageatthetime,buthadseemedobligingandamused,enjoyingthecomedyofaskingMrs。Monarch,whosatvagueandsilent,whethershewouldhavecreamandsugar,andputtinganexaggeratedsimperintothequestion。Shehadtriedintonations——asifshetoowishedtopassfortherealthing;tillIwasafraidmyothervisitorswouldtakeoffence。
Oh,THEYweredeterminednottodothis;andtheirtouchingpatiencewasthemeasureoftheirgreatneed。Theywouldsitbythehour,uncomplaining,tillIwasreadytousethem;theywouldcomebackonthechanceofbeingwantedandwouldwalkawaycheerfullyiftheywerenot。Iusedtogotothedoorwiththemtoseeinwhatmagnificentordertheyretreated。Itriedtofindotheremploymentforthem——Iintroducedthemtoseveralartists。Buttheydidn’t\"take,\"forreasonsIcouldappreciate,andIbecameconscious,ratheranxiously,thataftersuchdisappointmentstheyfellbackuponmewithaheavierweight。TheydidmethehonourtothinkthatitwasIwhowasmostTHEIRform。Theywerenotpicturesqueenoughforthepainters,andinthosedaystherewerenotsomanyseriousworkersinblackandwhite。Besides,theyhadaneyetothegreatjobIhadmentionedtothem——theyhadsecretlysettheirheartsonsupplyingtherightessenceformypictorialvindicationofourfinenovelist。TheyknewthatforthisundertakingIshouldwantnocostume—effects,noneofthefripperyofpastages——thatitwasacaseinwhicheverythingwouldbecontemporaryandsatiricaland,presumably,genteel。IfIcouldworkthemintoittheirfuturewouldbeassured,forthelabourwouldofcoursebelongandtheoccupationsteady。
OnedayMrs。Monarchcamewithoutherhusband——sheexplainedhisabsencebyhishavinghadtogototheCity。Whileshesatthereinherusualanxiousstiffnesstherecame,atthedoor,aknockwhichI
immediatelyrecognisedasthesubduedappealofamodeloutofwork。
ItwasfollowedbytheentranceofayoungmanwhomIeasilyperceivedtobeaforeignerandwhoprovedinfactanItalianacquaintedwithnoEnglishwordbutmyname,whichheutteredinawaythatmadeitseemtoincludeallothers。Ihadnotthenvisitedhiscountry,norwasIproficientinhistongue;butashewasnotsomeanlyconstituted——whatItalianis?——astodependonlyonthatmemberforexpressionheconveyedtome,infamiliarbutgracefulmimicry,thathewasinsearchofexactlytheemploymentinwhichtheladybeforemewasengaged。Iwasnotstruckwithhimatfirst,andwhileIcontinuedtodrawIemittedroughsoundsofdiscouragementanddismissal。Hestoodhisground,however,notimportunately,butwithadumb,dog—likefidelityinhiseyeswhichamountedtoinnocentimpudence——themannerofadevotedservant(hemighthavebeeninthehouseforyears),unjustlysuspected。SuddenlyIsawthatthisveryattitudeandexpressionmadeapicture,whereuponItoldhimtositdownandwaittillIshouldbefree。Therewasanotherpictureinthewayheobeyedme,andIobservedasIworkedthattherewereothersstillinthewayhelookedwonderingly,withhisheadthrownback,aboutthehighstudio。HemighthavebeencrossinghimselfinSt。Peter’s。BeforeIfinishedIsaidtomyself:\"Thefellow’sabankruptorange—monger,buthe’satreasure。\"
WhenMrs。Monarchwithdrewhepassedacrosstheroomlikeaflashtoopenthedoorforher,standingtherewiththerapt,puregazeoftheyoungDantespellboundbytheyoungBeatrice。AsIneverinsisted,insuchsituations,ontheblanknessoftheBritishdomestic,I
reflectedthathehadthemakingofaservant(andIneededone,butcouldn’tpayhimtobeonlythat),aswellasofamodel;inshortI
madeupmymindtoadoptmybrightadventurerifhewouldagreetoofficiateinthedoublecapacity。Hejumpedatmyoffer,andintheeventmyrashness(forIhadknownnothingabouthim),wasnotbroughthometome。Heprovedasympatheticthoughadesultoryministrant,andhadinawonderfuldegreethesentimentdelapose。
Itwasuncultivated,instinctive;apartofthehappyinstinctwhichhadguidedhimtomydoorandhelpedhimtospelloutmynameonthecardnailedtoit。Hehadhadnootherintroductiontomethanaguess,fromtheshapeofmyhighnorthwindow,seenoutside,thatmyplacewasastudioandthatasastudioitwouldcontainanartist。
HehadwanderedtoEnglandinsearchoffortune,likeotheritinerants,andhadembarked,withapartnerandasmallgreenhandcart,onthesaleofpennyices。Theiceshadmeltedawayandthepartnerhaddissolvedintheirtrain。MyyoungmanworetightyellowtrouserswithreddishstripesandhisnamewasOronte。Hewassallowbutfair,andwhenIputhimintosomeoldclothesofmyownhelookedlikeanEnglishman。HewasasgoodasMissChurm,whocouldlook,whenrequired,likeanItalian。
CHAPTERIV。
IthoughtMrs。Monarch’sfaceslightlyconvulsedwhen,onhercomingbackwithherhusband,shefoundOronteinstalled。ItwasstrangetohavetorecogniseinascrapofalazzaroneacompetitortohermagnificentMajor。Itwasshewhoscenteddangerfirst,fortheMajorwasanecdoticallyunconscious。ButOrontegaveustea,withahundredeagerconfusions(hehadneverseensuchaqueerprocess),andIthinkshethoughtbetterofmeforhavingatlastan\"establishment。\"TheysawacoupleofdrawingsthatIhadmadeoftheestablishment,andMrs。Monarchhintedthatitneverwouldhavestruckherthathehadsatforthem。\"NowthedrawingsyoumakefromUS,theylookexactlylikeus,\"sheremindedme,smilingintriumph;
andIrecognisedthatthiswasindeedjusttheirdefect。WhenIdrewtheMonarchsIcouldn’t,somehow,getawayfromthem——getintothecharacterIwantedtorepresent;andIhadnottheleastdesiremymodelshouldbediscoverableinmypicture。MissChurmneverwas,andMrs。MonarchthoughtIhidher,veryproperly,becauseshewasvulgar;whereasifshewaslostitwasonlyasthedeadwhogotoheavenarelost——inthegainofanangelthemore。
BythistimeIhadgotacertainstartwith\"RutlandRamsay,\"thefirstnovelinthegreatprojectedseries;thatisIhadproducedadozendrawings,severalwiththehelpoftheMajorandhiswife,andIhadsenttheminforapproval。Myunderstandingwiththepublishers,asIhavealreadyhinted,hadbeenthatIwastobelefttodomywork,inthisparticularcase,asIliked,withthewholebookcommittedtome;butmyconnectionwiththerestoftheserieswasonlycontingent。Thereweremomentswhen,frankly,itWASacomforttohavetherealthingunderone’shand;fortherewerecharactersin\"RutlandRamsay\"thatwereverymuchlikeit。TherewerepeoplepresumablyasstraightastheMajorandwomenofasgoodafashionasMrs。Monarch。Therewasagreatdealofcountry—houselife——treated,itistrue,inafine,fanciful,ironical,generalisedway——andtherewasaconsiderableimplicationofknickerbockersandkilts。TherewerecertainthingsIhadtosettleattheoutset;suchthingsforinstanceastheexactappearanceofthehero,theparticularbloomoftheheroine。Theauthorofcoursegavemealead,buttherewasamarginforinterpretation。ItooktheMonarchsintomyconfidence,ItoldthemfranklywhatIwasabout,Imentionedmyembarrassmentsandalternatives。\"Oh,takeHIM!\"Mrs。Monarchmurmuredsweetly,lookingatherhusband;and\"Whatcouldyouwantbetterthanmywife?\"theMajorinquired,withthecomfortablecandourthatnowprevailedbetweenus。
Iwasnotobligedtoanswertheseremarks——Iwasonlyobligedtoplacemysitters。Iwasnoteasyinmind,andIpostponed,alittletimidlyperhaps,thesolutionofthequestion。Thebookwasalargecanvas,theotherfigureswerenumerous,andIworkedoffatfirstsomeoftheepisodesinwhichtheheroandtheheroinewerenotconcerned。WhenonceIhadsetTHEMupIshouldhavetosticktothem——Icouldn’tmakemyyoungmansevenfeethighinoneplaceandfivefeetnineinanother。Iinclinedonthewholetothelattermeasurement,thoughtheMajormorethanonceremindedmethatHE
lookedaboutasyoungasanyone。Itwasindeedquitepossibletoarrangehim,forthefigure,sothatitwouldhavebeendifficulttodetecthisage。AfterthespontaneousOrontehadbeenwithmeamonth,andafterIhadgivenhimtounderstandseveraldifferenttimesthathisnativeexuberancewouldpresentlyconstituteaninsurmountablebarriertoourfurtherintercourse,Iwakedtoasenseofhisheroiccapacity。Hewasonlyfivefeetseven,buttheremainingincheswerelatent。Itriedhimalmostsecretlyatfirst,forIwasreallyratherafraidofthejudgmentmyothermodelswouldpassonsuchachoice。IftheyregardedMissChurmaslittlebetterthanasnare,whatwouldtheythinkoftherepresentationbyapersonsolittletherealthingasanItalianstreet—vendorofaprotagonistformedbyapublicschool?
IfIwentalittleinfearofthemitwasnotbecausetheybulliedme,becausetheyhadgotanoppressivefoothold,butbecauseintheirreallypatheticdecorumandmysteriouslypermanentnewnesstheycountedonmesointensely。IwasthereforeverygladwhenJackHawleycamehome:hewasalwaysofsuchgoodcounsel。Hepaintedbadlyhimself,buttherewasnoonelikehimforputtinghisfingerontheplace。HehadbeenabsentfromEnglandforayear;hehadbeensomewhere——Idon’trememberwhere——togetafresheye。Iwasinagooddealofdreadofanysuchorgan,butwewereoldfriends;hehadbeenawayformonthsandasenseofemptinesswascreepingintomylife。Ihadn’tdodgedamissileforayear。
Hecamebackwithafresheye,butwiththesameoldblackvelvetblouse,andthefirsteveninghespentinmystudiowesmokedcigarettestillthesmallhours。Hehaddonenoworkhimself,hehadonlygottheeye;sothefieldwasclearfortheproductionofmylittlethings。HewantedtoseewhatIhaddonefortheCheapside,buthewasdisappointedintheexhibition。Thatatleastseemedthemeaningoftwoorthreecomprehensivegroanswhich,asheloungedonmybigdivan,onafoldedleg,lookingatmylatestdrawings,issuedfromhislipswiththesmokeofthecigarette。
\"What’sthematterwithyou?\"Iasked。
\"What’sthematterwithYOU?\"
\"NothingsavethatI’mmystified。\"
\"Youareindeed。You’requiteoffthehinge。What’sthemeaningofthisnewfad?\"Andhetossedme,withvisibleirreverence,adrawinginwhichIhappenedtohavedepictedbothmymajesticmodels。I
askedifhedidn’tthinkitgood,andherepliedthatitstruckhimasexecrable,giventhesortofthingIhadalwaysrepresentedmyselftohimaswishingtoarriveat;butIletthatpass,Iwassoanxioustoseeexactlywhathemeant。Thetwofiguresinthepicturelookedcolossal,butIsupposedthiswasNOTwhathemeant,inasmuchas,foraughtheknewtothecontrary,Imighthavebeentryingforthat。I
maintainedthatIwasworkingexactlyinthesamewayaswhenhelasthaddonemethehonourtocommendme。\"Well,there’sabigholesomewhere,\"heanswered;\"waitabitandI’lldiscoverit。\"I
dependeduponhimtodoso:whereelsewasthefresheye?Butheproducedatlastnothingmoreluminousthan\"Idon’tknow——Idon’tlikeyourtypes。\"Thiswaslame,foracriticwhohadneverconsentedtodiscusswithmeanythingbutthequestionofexecution,thedirectionofstrokesandthemysteryofvalues。
\"Inthedrawingsyou’vebeenlookingatIthinkmytypesareveryhandsome。\"
\"Oh,theywon’tdo!\"
\"I’vehadacoupleofnewmodels。\"
\"Iseeyouhave。THEYwon’tdo。\"
\"Areyouverysureofthat?\"
\"Absolutely——they’restupid。\"
\"Youmean_I_am——forIoughttogetroundthat。\"
\"YouCAN’T——withsuchpeople。Whoarethey?\"
Itoldhim,asfaraswasnecessary,andhedeclared,heartlessly:
\"Cesontdesgensqu’ilfautmettrealaporte。\"
\"You’veneverseenthem;they’reawfullygood,\"Icompassionatelyobjected。
\"Notseenthem?Why,allthisrecentworkofyoursdropstopieceswiththem。It’sallIwanttoseeofthem。\"
\"Nooneelsehassaidanythingagainstit——theCheapsidepeoplearepleased。\"
\"Everyoneelseisanass,andtheCheapsidepeoplethebiggestassesofall。Come,don’tpretend,atthistimeofday,tohaveprettyillusionsaboutthepublic,especiallyaboutpublishersandeditors。
It’snotforSUCHanimalsyouwork——it’sforthosewhoknow,colorochesanno;sokeepstraightforMEifyoucan’tkeepstraightforyourself。There’sacertainsortofthingyoutriedforfromthefirst——andaverygoodthingitis。Butthistwaddleisn’tINit。\"
WhenItalkedwithHawleylaterabout\"RutlandRamsay\"anditspossiblesuccessorshedeclaredthatImustgetbackintomyboatagainorIwouldgotothebottom。Hisvoiceinshortwasthevoiceofwarning。
Inotedthewarning,butIdidn’tturnmyfriendsoutofdoors。Theyboredmeagooddeal;buttheveryfactthattheyboredmeadmonishedmenottosacrificethem——iftherewasanythingtobedonewiththem—
—simplytoirritation。AsIlookbackatthisphasetheyseemtometohavepervadedmylifenotalittle。Ihaveavisionofthemasmostofthetimeinmystudio,seated,againstthewall,onanoldvelvetbenchtobeoutoftheway,andlookinglikeapairofpatientcourtiersinaroyalante—chamber。Iamconvincedthatduringthecoldestweeksofthewintertheyheldtheirgroundbecauseitsavedthemfire。Theirnewnesswaslosingitsgloss,anditwasimpossiblenottofeelthattheywereobjectsofcharity。WheneverMissChurmarrivedtheywentaway,andafterIwasfairlylaunchedin\"RutlandRamsay\"MissChurmarrivedprettyoften。TheymanagedtoexpresstometacitlythattheysupposedIwantedherforthelowlifeofthebook,andIletthemsupposeit,sincetheyhadattemptedtostudythework——itwaslyingaboutthestudio——withoutdiscoveringthatitdealtonlywiththehighestcircles。Theyhaddippedintothemostbrilliantofournovelistswithoutdecipheringmanypassages。I
stilltookanhourfromthem,nowandagain,inspiteofJackHawley’swarning:itwouldbetimeenoughtodismissthem,ifdismissalshouldbenecessary,whentherigouroftheseasonwasover。Hawleyhadmadetheiracquaintance——hehadmetthematmyfireside——andthoughtthemaridiculouspair。Learningthathewasapaintertheytriedtoapproachhim,toshowhimtoothattheyweretherealthing;buthelookedatthem,acrossthebigroom,asiftheyweremilesaway:theywereacompendiumofeverythingthathemostobjectedtointhesocialsystemofhiscountry。Suchpeopleasthat,allconventionandpatent—leather,withejaculationsthatstoppedconversation,hadnobusinessinastudio。Astudiowasaplacetolearntosee,andhowcouldyouseethroughapairoffeatherbeds?
ThemaininconvenienceIsufferedattheirhandswasthat,atfirst,Iwasshyoflettingthemdiscoverhowmyartfullittleservanthadbeguntosittomefor\"RutlandRamsay。\"TheyknewthatIhadbeenoddenough(theywerepreparedbythistimetoallowodditytoartists,)topickaforeignvagabondoutofthestreets,whenImighthavehadapersonwithwhiskersandcredentials;butitwassometimebeforetheylearnedhowhighIratedhisaccomplishments。Theyfoundhiminanattitudemorethanonce,buttheyneverdoubtedIwasdoinghimasanorgan—grinder。Therewereseveralthingstheyneverguessed,andoneofthemwasthatforastrikingsceneinthenovel,inwhichafootmanbrieflyfigured,itoccurredtometomakeuseofMajorMonarchasthemenial。Ikeptputtingthisoff,Ididn’tliketoaskhimtodonthelivery——besidesthedifficultyoffindingaliverytofithim。Atlast,onedaylateinthewinter,whenIwasatworkonthedespisedOronte(hecaughtone’sideainaninstant),andwasintheglowoffeelingthatIwasgoingverystraight,theycamein,theMajorandhiswife,withtheirsocietylaughaboutnothing(therewaslessandlesstolaughat),likecountry—callers——
theyalwaysremindedmeofthat——whohavewalkedacrosstheparkafterchurchandarepresentlypersuadedtostaytoluncheon。
Luncheonwasover,buttheycouldstaytotea——Iknewtheywantedit。
Thefitwasonme,however,andIcouldn’tletmyardourcoolandmyworkwait,withthefadingdaylight,whilemymodelpreparedit。SoIaskedMrs。Monarchifshewouldmindlayingitout——arequestwhich,foraninstant,broughtallthebloodtoherface。Hereyeswereonherhusband’sforasecond,andsomemutetelegraphypassedbetweenthem。Theirfollywasoverthenextinstant;hischeerfulshrewdnessputanendtoit。Sofarfrompityingtheirwoundedpride,Imustadd,IwasmovedtogiveitascompletealessonasI
could。Theybustledabouttogetherandgotoutthecupsandsaucersandmadethekettleboil。Iknowtheyfeltasiftheywerewaitingonmyservant,andwhentheteawaspreparedIsaid:\"He’llhaveacup,please——he’stired。\"Mrs。Monarchbroughthimonewherehestood,andhetookitfromherasifhehadbeenagentlemanataparty,squeezingacrush—hatwithanelbow。
Thenitcameovermethatshehadmadeagreateffortforme——madeitwithakindofnobleness——andthatIowedheracompensation。EachtimeIsawherafterthisIwonderedwhatthecompensationcouldbe。
Icouldn’tgoondoingthewrongthingtoobligethem。Oh,itWAS
thewrongthing,thestampoftheworkforwhichtheysat——Hawleywasnottheonlypersontosayitnow。IsentinalargenumberofthedrawingsIhadmadefor\"RutlandRamsay,\"andIreceivedawarningthatwasmoretothepointthanHawley’s。TheartisticadviserofthehouseforwhichIwasworkingwasofopinionthatmanyofmyillustrationswerenotwhathadbeenlookedfor。MostoftheseillustrationswerethesubjectsinwhichtheMonarchshadfigured。
WithoutgoingintothequestionofwhatHADbeenlookedfor,IsawatthisrateIshouldn’tgettheotherbookstodo。IhurledmyselfindespairuponMissChurm,Iputherthroughallherpaces。InotonlyadoptedOrontepubliclyasmyhero,butonemorningwhentheMajorlookedintoseeifIdidn’trequirehimtofinishafigurefortheCheapside,forwhichhehadbeguntosittheweekbefore,ItoldhimthatIhadchangedmymind——Iwoulddothedrawingfrommyman。Atthismyvisitorturnedpaleandstoodlookingatme。\"IsHEyourideaofanEnglishgentleman?\"heasked。
Iwasdisappointed,Iwasnervous,Iwantedtogetonwithmywork;
soIrepliedwithirritation:\"Oh,mydearMajor——Ican’tberuinedforYOU!\"
Hestoodanothermoment;then,withoutaword,hequittedthestudio。
Idrewalongbreathwhenhewasgone,forIsaidtomyselfthatI
shouldn’tseehimagain。IhadnottoldhimdefinitelythatIwasindangerofhavingmyworkrejected,butIwasvexedathisnothavingfeltthecatastropheintheair,readwithmethemoralofourfruitlesscollaboration,thelessonthat,inthedeceptiveatmosphereofart,eventhehighestrespectabilitymayfailofbeingplastic。
Ididn’towemyfriendsmoney,butIdidseethemagain。Theyre—
appearedtogether,threedayslater,andunderthecircumstancestherewassomethingtragicinthefact。Itwasaprooftomethattheycouldfindnothingelseinlifetodo。Theyhadthreshedthematteroutinadismalconference——theyhaddigestedthebadnewsthattheywerenotinfortheseries。IftheywerenotusefultomeevenfortheCheapsidetheirfunctionseemeddifficulttodetermine,andIcouldonlyjudgeatfirstthattheyhadcome,forgivingly,decorously,totakealastleave。ThismademerejoiceinsecretthatIhadlittleleisureforascene;forIhadplacedbothmyothermodelsinpositiontogetherandIwaspeggingawayatadrawingfromwhichIhopedtoderiveglory。IthadbeensuggestedbythepassageinwhichRutlandRamsay,drawingupachairtoArtemisia’spiano—
stool,saysextraordinarythingstoherwhilesheostensiblyfingersoutadifficultpieceofmusic。IhaddoneMissChurmatthepianobefore——itwasanattitudeinwhichsheknewhowtotakeonanabsolutelypoeticgrace。Iwishedthetwofiguresto\"compose\"
together,intensely,andmylittleItalianhadenteredperfectlyintomyconception。Thepairwerevividlybeforeme,thepianohadbeenpulledout;itwasacharmingpictureofblendedyouthandmurmuredlove,whichIhadonlytocatchandkeep。Myvisitorsstoodandlookedatit,andIwasfriendlytothemovermyshoulder。
Theymadenoresponse,butIwasusedtosilentcompanyandwentonwithmywork,onlyalittledisconcerted(eventhoughexhilaratedbythesensethatTHISwasatleasttheidealthing),atnothavinggotridofthemafterall。PresentlyIheardMrs。Monarch’ssweetvoicebeside,orratheraboveme:\"Iwishherhairwasalittlebetterdone。\"IlookedupandshewasstaringwithastrangefixednessatMissChurm,whosebackwasturnedtoher。\"Doyoumindmyjusttouchingit?\"shewenton——aquestionwhichmademespringupforaninstant,aswiththeinstinctivefearthatshemightdotheyoungladyaharm。ButshequietedmewithaglanceIshallneverforget——
IconfessIshouldliketohavebeenabletopaintTHAT——andwentforamomenttomymodel。Shespoketohersoftly,layingahanduponhershoulderandbendingoverher;andasthegirl,understanding,gratefullyassented,shedisposedherroughcurls,withafewquickpasses,insuchawayastomakeMissChurm’sheadtwiceascharming。
ItwasoneofthemostheroicpersonalservicesIhaveeverseenrendered。ThenMrs。Monarchturnedawaywithalowsighand,lookingaboutherasifforsomethingtodo,stoopedtothefloorwithanoblehumilityandpickedupadirtyragthathaddroppedoutofmypaint—box。
TheMajormeanwhilehadalsobeenlookingforsomethingtodoand,wanderingtotheotherendofthestudio,sawbeforehimmybreakfastthings,neglected,unremoved。\"Isay,can’tIbeusefulHERE?\"hecalledouttomewithanirrepressiblequaver。IassentedwithalaughthatIfearwasawkwardandforthenexttenminutes,whileI
worked,Iheardthelightclatterofchinaandthetinkleofspoonsandglass。Mrs。Monarchassistedherhusband——theywashedupmycrockery,theyputitaway。Theywanderedoffintomylittlescullery,andIafterwardsfoundthattheyhadcleanedmyknivesandthatmyslenderstockofplatehadanunprecedentedsurface。Whenitcameoverme,thelatenteloquenceofwhattheyweredoing,Iconfessthatmydrawingwasblurredforamoment——thepictureswam。Theyhadacceptedtheirfailure,buttheycouldn’taccepttheirfate。Theyhadbowedtheirheadsinbewildermenttotheperverseandcruellawinvirtueofwhichtherealthingcouldbesomuchlesspreciousthantheunreal;buttheydidn’twanttostarve。Ifmyservantsweremymodels,mymodelsmightbemyservants。Theywouldreversetheparts——theotherswouldsitfortheladiesandgentlemen,andTHEY
woulddothework。Theywouldstillbeinthestudio——itwasanintensedumbappealtomenottoturnthemout。\"Takeuson,\"theywantedtosay——\"we’lldoANYTHING。\"
Whenallthishungbeforemetheafflatusvanished——mypencildroppedfrommyhand。MysittingwasspoiledandIgotridofmysitters,whowerealsoevidentlyrathermystifiedandawestruck。Then,alonewiththeMajorandhiswife,Ihadamostuncomfortablemoment,Heputtheirprayerintoasinglesentence:\"Isay,youknow——justletUSdoforyou,can’tyou?\"Icouldn’t——itwasdreadfultoseethememptyingmyslops;butIpretendedIcould,toobligethem,foraboutaweek。ThenIgavethemasumofmoneytogoaway;andIneversawthemagain。Iobtainedtheremainingbooks,butmyfriendHawleyrepeatsthatMajorandMrs。Monarchdidmeapermanentharm,gotmeintoasecond—ratetrick。IfitbetrueIamcontenttohavepaidtheprice——forthememory。