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  AdayorsoafterwehadgottoworkuponthequapIfoundmyselfsosleeplessandmiserablethattheshipbecameunendurable。

  JustbeforetherushofsunriseIborrowedPollack’sgun,walkeddowntheplanks,clamberedoverthequapheapsandprowledalongthebeach。Iwentperhapsamileandahalfthatdayandsomedistancebeyondtheruinsoftheoldstation。Ibecameinterestedinthedesolationaboutme,andfoundwhenIreturnedthatIwasabletosleepfornearlyanhour。Itwasdelightfultohavebeenaloneforsolong,——nocaptain,noPollack,noone。

  AccordinglyIrepeatedthisexpeditionthenextmorningandthenextuntilitbecameacustomwithme。Therewaslittleformetodooncethediggingandwheelingwasorganised,andsotheseprowlingsofminegrewlongerandlonger,andpresentlyIbegantotakefoodwithme。

  Ipushedthesewalksfarbeyondtheareadesolatedbythequap。

  Ontheedgesofthatwasfirstazoneofstuntedvegetation,thenasortofswampyjunglethatwasdifficulttopenetrate,andthenthebeginningsoftheforest,asceneofhugetreestemsandtangledcreeperropesandrootsmingledwithoozymud。HereI

  usedtoloafinastatebetweenbotanisingandreverie——alwaysveryanxioustoknowwhatwasupaboveinthesunlight——andhereitwasImurderedaman。

  Itwasthemostunmeaningandpurposelessmurderimaginable。

  EvenasIwritedownitswell-rememberedparticularstherecomesagainthesenseofitsstrangeness,itspointlessness,itsincompatibilitywithanyoftheneatanddefinitetheoriespeopleholdaboutlifeandthemeaningoftheworld。IdidthisthingandIwanttotellofmydoingit,butwhyIdiditandparticularlywhyIshouldbeheldresponsibleforitIcannotexplain。

  ThatmorningIhadcomeuponatrackintheforest,andithadoccurredtomeasadisagreeableideathatthiswasahumanpathway。Ididn’twanttocomeuponanyhumanbeings。ThelessourexpeditionsawoftheAfricanpopulationthebetterforitsprospects。Thusfarwehadbeensingularlyfreefromnativepestering。SoIturnedbackandwasmakingmywayovermudandrootsanddeadfrondsandpetalsscatteredfromthegreenworldabovewhenabruptlyIsawmyvictim。

  Ibecameawareofhimperhapsfortyfeetoffstandingquitestillandregardingme。

  Hewasn’tbyanymeansaprettyfigure。Hewasveryblackandnakedexceptforadirtyloin-cloth,hislegswereill-shapedandhistoesspreadwideandtheupperedgeofhisclothandagirdleofstringcuthisclumsyabdomenintofolds。Hisforeheadwaslow,hisnoseveryflatandhislowerlipswollenandpurplish-red。Hishairwasshortandfuzzy,andabouthisneckwasastringandalittlepurseofskin。Hecarriedamusket,andapowder-flaskwasstuckinhisgirdle。Itwasacuriousconfrontation。ThereopposedtohimstoodI,alittlesoiled,perhaps,butstillaratherelaboratelycivilisedhumanbeing,born,bredandtrainedinavaguetradition。Inmyhandwasanunaccustomedgun。Andeachofuswasessentiallyateeming,vividbrain,tenselyexcitedbytheencounter,quiteunawareoftheother’smentalcontentorwhattodowithhim。

  Hesteppedbackapaceorso,stumbledandturnedtorun。

  “Stop。”Icried;“stop,youfool!”andstartedtorunafterhim,shoutingsuchthingsinEnglish。ButIwasnomatchforhimovertherootsandmud。

  Ihadapreposterousidea。“Hemustn’tgetawayandtellthem!”

  AndwiththatinstantlyIbroughtbothfeettogether,raisedmygun,aimedquitecoolly,drewthetriggercarefullyandshothimneatlyintheback。

  Isaw,andsawwithaleapofpureexaltation,thesmashofmybulletbetweenhisshoulderblades。“Gothim。”saidI,droppingmygunanddownhefloppedanddiedwithoutagroan。“ByJove!”

  Icriedwithnoteofsurprise,“I’vekilledhim!”Ilookedaboutmeandthenwentforwardcautiously,inamoodbetweencuriosityandastonishment,tolookatthismanwhosesoulIhadflungsounceremoniouslyoutofourcommonworld。Iwenttohim,notasonegoestosomethingonehasmadeordone,butasoneapproachessomethingfound。

  Hewasfrightfullysmashedoutinfront;hemusthavediedintheinstant。Istoopedandraisedhimbyhisshoulderandrealisedthat。Idroppedhim,andstoodaboutandpeeredaboutmethroughthetrees。“Myword!”Isaid。Hewastheseconddeadhumanbeing——apart,Imean,fromsurgicalpropertiesandmummiesandcommonshowsofthatsort——thatIhaveeverseen。Istoodoverhimwondering,wonderingbeyondmeasure。

  Apracticalideacameintothatconfusion。Hadanyoneheardthegun?

  Ireloaded。

  AfteratimeIfeltsecurer,andgavemymindagaintothedeadI

  hadkilled。WhatmustIdo?

  ItoccurredtomethatperhapsIoughttoburyhim。Atanyrate,Ioughttohidehim。Ireflectedcoolly,andthenputmygunwithineasyreachanddraggedhimbythearmtowardsaplacewherethemudseemedsoft,andthrusthimin。Hispowder-flaskslippedfromhisloin-cloth,andIwentbacktogetit。ThenI

  pressedhimdownwiththebuttofmyrifle。

  Afterwardsthisallseemedtomemosthorrible,butatthetimeitwasentirelyamatter-of-facttransaction。Ilookedroundforanyothervisibleevidenceofhisfate,lookedroundasonedoeswhenonepacksone’sportmanteauinanhotelbedroom。

  WhenIgotmybearings,andcarefullyreturnedtowardstheship。

  Ihadthemoodofgraveconcentrationofaboywhohaslapsedintopoaching。AndthebusinessonlybegantoassumeproperproportionsformeasIgotneartheship,toseemanyotherkindofthingthanthekillingofabirdorrabbit。

  Inthenight,however,ittookonenormousandportentousforms。“ByGod!”Icriedsuddenly,startingwideawake;“butitwasmurder!”

  Ilayafterthatwideawake,staringatmymemories。Insomeoddwaythesevisionsmixedupwithmydreamofinmyuncleinhisdespair。Theblackbodywhichsawnowdamagedandpartlyburied,butwhich,nevertheless,Inolongerfeltwasdeadbutacutelyaliveandperceiving,Imixedupwiththeochreousslashundermyuncle’sface。Itriedtodismissthishorribleobsessionfrommymind,butitprevailedoverallmyefforts。

  Thenextdaywasutterlyblackwithmysenseofthatuglycreature’sbody。Iamtheleastsuperstitiousofmen,butitdrewme。ItdrewmebackintothosethicketstotheveryplacewhereIhadhiddenhim。

  Someevilanddetestablebeasthadbeenathim,andhelaydisinterred。

  MethodicallyIburiedhisswollenandmangledcarcassagain,andreturnedtotheshipforanothernightofdreams。NextdayforallthemorningIresistedtheimpulsetogotohim,andplayednapwithPollackwithmysecretgnawingatme,andintheeveningstartedtogoandwasnearbenighted。InevertoldasoulofthemofthisthingIhaddone。

  NextdayIwentearly,andhehadgone,andtherewerehumanfootmarksanduglystainsroundthemuddyholefromwhichhehadbeendragged。

  Ireturnedtotheship,disconcertedandperplexed。Thatdayitwasthemencameaft,withblisteredhandsandfaces,andsulleneyes。Whentheyproclaimed,throughEdwards,theirspokesman,“We’vehadenoughofthis,andwemeanit。”Iansweredveryreadily,“SohaveI。Let’sgo。”

  Wewerenonetoosoon。Peoplehadbeenreconnoitringus,thetelegraphhadbeenatwork,andwewerenotfourhoursatseabeforeweranagainstthegunboatthathadbeensentdownthecoasttolookforusandthatwouldhavecaughtusbehindtheislandlikeabeastinatrap。Itwasanightofdrivingcloudthatgaveintermittentgleamsofmoonlight;thewindandseawerestrongandwewererollingalongthroughadriftofrailsandmist。Suddenlytheworldwaswhitewithmoonshine。Thegunboatcameoutasalongdarkshapewallowingonthewatertotheeast。

  ShesightedtheMaudMaryatonce,andfiredsomesortofpopguntoarrestus。

  Themateturnedtome。

  “ShallItellthecaptain?”

  “Thecaptainbedamned“saidI,andwelethimsleepthroughtwohoursofchasetillarainstormswallowedusup。Thenwechangedourcourseandsailedrightacrossthem,andbymorningonlyhersmokewasshowing。

  WewereclearofAfrica——andwiththebootyaboardIdidnotseewhatstoodbetweenusandhome。

  ForthefirsttimesinceIhadfallensickintheThamesmyspiritsrose。Iwassea-sickandphysicallydisgusted,ofcourse,butIfeltkindlyinspiteofmyqualms。SofarasI

  couldcalculatethenthesituationwassaved。IsawmyselfreturningtriumphantlyintotheThames,andnothingonearthtopreventoldCapern’sPerfectFilamentgoingonthemarketinfortnight。Ihadthemonopolyofelectriclampsbeneathmyfeet。

  Iwasreleasedfromthespellofthatbloodstainedblackbodyallmixedupwithgrey-blackmud。IwasgoingbacktobathsanddecentfoodandaeronauticsandBeatrice。IwasgoingbacktoBeatriceandmyreallifeagain——outofthiswellintowhichI

  hadfallen。Itwouldhaveneededsomethingmorethansea-sicknessandquapfevertopreventmyspiritsrising。

  ItoldthecaptainthatIagreedwithhimthattheBritishwerethescumofEurope,thewestwarddriftofallthepeople,adisgustingrabble,andIlostthreepoundsbyattenuatedretailtoPollackatha’pennynapandeuchre。

  Andthenyouknow,aswegotoutintotheAtlanticthissideofCapeVerde,theshipbegantogotopieces。Idon’tpretendforonemomenttounderstandwhathappened。ButIthinkGreiffenhagen’srecentworkontheeffectsofradiumuponligneoustissuedoesrathercarryoutmyideathatemanationsfromquaphaverapidrottingeffectuponwoodyfibre。

  Fromthefirsttherehadbeenadifferentfeelabouttheship,andasthebigwindsandwavesbegantostrainhershecommencedleaking。Soonshewasleaking——notatanyparticularpoint,buteverywhere。Shedidnotspringaleak,Imean,butwatercameinfirstofallnearthedecayingedgesofherplanks,andthenthroughthem。

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