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  SometimebeforeMr。Huntingdon’sdeath,LadyLowboroughelopedwithanothergallanttothecontinent,where,havinglivedawhileinrecklessgaietyanddissipation,theyquarrelledandparted。Shewentdashingonforaseason,butyearscameandmoneywent:shesunk,atlength,indifficultyanddebt,disgraceandmisery;anddiedatlast,asIhaveheard,inpenury,neglect,andutterwretchedness。Butthismightbeonlyareport:shemaybelivingyetforanythingI,oranyofherrelativesorformeracquaintancescantell;fortheyhavealllostsightofherlongyearsago,andwouldasthoroughlyforgetheriftheycould。Herhusband,however,uponthissecondmisdemeanour,immediatelysoughtandobtainedadivorce,and,notlongafter,marriedagain。Itwaswellhedid,forLordLowborough,moroseandmoodyasheseemed,wasnotthemanforabachelor’slife。Nopublicinterests,noambitiousprojects,oractivepursuits,——ortiesoffriendshipevenifhehadhadanyfriends,couldcompensatetohimfortheabsenceofdomesticcomfortsandendearments。Hehadasonandanominaldaughter,itistrue,buttheytoopainfullyremindedhimoftheirmother,andtheunfortunatelittleAnnabellawasasourceofperpetualbitternesstohissoul。Hehadobligedhimselftotreatherwithpaternalkindness:hehadforcedhimselfnottohateher,andeven,perhaps,tofeelsomedegreeofkindlyregardforher,atlast,inreturnforherartlessandunsuspectingattachmenttohimself;butthebitternessofhisself-condemnationforhisinwardfeelingstowardsthatinnocentbeing,hisconstantstrugglestosubduetheevilpromptingsofhisnatureforitwasnotagenerousone,thoughpartlyguessedatbythosewhoknewhim,couldbeknowntoGodandhisownheartalone;——soalsowasthehardnessofhisconflictswiththetemptationtoreturntotheviceofhisyouth,andseekoblivionforpastcalamities,anddeadnesstothepresentmiseryofablightedheart,ajoyless,friendlesslife,andamorbidlydisconsolatemind,byyieldingagaintothatinsidiousfoetohealth,andsense,andvirtue,whichhadsodeplorablyenslavedanddegradedhimbefore。

  Thesecondobjectofhischoicewaswidelydifferentfromthefirst。Somewonderedathistaste;someevenridiculedit——butinthistheirfollywasmoreapparentthanhis。Theladywasabouthisownage——i。e。

  betweenthirtyandforty——remarkableneitherforbeautynorwealth,norbrilliantaccomplishments;noranyotherthingthatIeverheardof,exceptgenuinegoodsense,unswervingintegrity,activepiety,warmheartedbenevolence,andafundofcheerfulspirits。Thesequalitieshowever,asyoumayreadilyimagine,combinedtorenderheranexcellentmothertothechildren,andaninvaluablewifetohislordship。He,withhisusualself-depreciationorappreciation?thoughtheraworldtoogoodforhim,andwhilehewonderedatthekindnessofProvidenceinconferringsuchagiftuponhim,andevenathertasteinpreferringhimtoothermen,hedidhisbesttoreciprocatethegoodshedidhim,andsofarsucceededthatshewas,andIbelievestillis,oneofthehappiestandfondestwivesinEngland;andallwhoquestionthegoodtasteofeitherpartner,maybethankfuliftheirrespectiveselectionsaffordthemhalfthegenuinesatisfactionintheend,orrepaytheirpreferencewithaffectionhalfaslastingandsincere。

  Ifyouareatallinterestedinthefateofthatlowscoundrel,Grimsby,Icanonlytellyouthathewentfrombadtoworse,sinkingfrombathostobathosofviceandvillany,consortingonlywiththeworstmembersofhisclubandthelowestdregsofsociety——happilyfortherestoftheworld——andatlastmethisendinadrunkenbrawlfromthehands,itissaid,ofsomebrotherscoundrelhehadcheatedatplay。

  AsforMr。Hattersley,hehadneverwhollyforgottenhisresolutionto`comeoutfromamongthem,’andbehavelikeamanandaChristian,andthelastillnessanddeathofhisoncejollyfriendHuntingdon,sodeeplyandseriouslyimpressedhimwiththeeviloftheirformerpractices,thatheneverneededanotherlessonofthekind。Avoidingthetemptationsofthetown,hecontinuedtopasshislifeinthecountryimmersedintheusualpursuitsofahearty,activecountrygentleman;hisoccupationsbeingthoseoffarming,andbreedinghorsesandcattle,diversifiedwithalittlehuntingandshooting,andenlivenedbytheoccasionalcompanionshipofhisfriendsbetterfriendsthanthoseofhisyouth,andthesocietyofhishappylittlewifenowcheerfulandconfidingasheartcouldwish

  andhisfinefamilyofstalwartsonsandbloomingdaughters。Hisfather,thebanker,havingdiedsomeyearsagoandlefthimallhisriches,hehasnowfullscopefortheexerciseofhisprevailingtastes,andIneednottellyouthatRalphHattersley,Esqr。,iscelebratedthroughoutthecountryforhisnoblebreedofhorses。

  TheTenantofWildfellHall:Chapter51CHAPTERLIANUNEXPECTEDOCCURRENCEWewillnowturntoacertainstill,cold,cloudyafternoonaboutthecommencementofDecember,whenthefirstfallofsnowlaythinlyscatteredovertheblightedfieldsandfrozenroads,orstoredmorethicklyinthehollowsofthedeepcartrutsandfootstepsofmenandhorses,impressedinthenowpetrifiedmireoflastmonth’sdrenchingrains。Irememberitwell,forIwaswalkinghomefromthevicarage,withnolessremarkableapersonagethanMissElizaMillwardbymyside。Ihadbeentocalluponheriather,——asacrificetocivilityundertakenentirelytopleasemymother,notmyself,forIhatedtogonearthehouse;notmerelyonaccountofmyantipathytotheoncesobewitchingEliza,butbecauseIhadnothalfforgiventheoldgentlemanhimselfforhisillopinionofMrs。Huntingdon;forthoughnowconstrainedtoacknowledgehimselfmistakeninhisformerjudgment,hestillmaintainedthatshehaddonewrongtoleaveherhusband;itwasaviolationofhersacreddutiesasawife,andatemptingofProvidencebylayingherselfopentotemptation;andnothingshortofbodilyill-usageandthatofnotriflingnaturecouldexcusesuchastep——oreventhat,forinsuchacasesheoughttoappealtothelawsforprotection。ButitwasnotofhimIintendedtospeak;itwasofhisdaughterEliza。JustasIwastakingleaveofthevicar,sheenteredtheroom,readyequippedforawalk。

  `Iwasjustcomingtoseeyoursister,Mr。Markham,’saidshe;

  `andsoifyouhavenoobjection,I’llaccompanyyouhome。IlikecompanywhenI’mwalkingout——don’tyou?’

  `Yes,whenit’sagreeable。’

  `Thatofcourse,’rejoinedtheyounglady,smilingarchly。Soweproceededtogether。

  `ShallIfindRoseathome,doyouthink?’saidshe,asweclosedthegardengate,andsetourfacestowardsLirden-car。

  `Ibelieveso。’

  `ItrustIshall,forI’vealittlebitofnewsforher——ifyouhaven’tforestalledme。’

  `I?’

  `Yes:doyouknowwhatMr。Lawrenceisgonefor?’Shelookedupanxiouslyformyreply。

  `Ishegone?’saidI,andherfacebrightened。

  `Ah!thenhehasn’ttoldyouabouthissister?’

  `Whatofher?’Idemanded,interrorlestsomeevilshouldhavebefallenher。

  `Oh,Mr。Markham,howyoublush!’criedshewithatormentinglaugh。`Ha,ha,youhavenotforgottenheryet!Butyouhadbetterbequickaboutit,Icantellyou,foralas,alas!——she’sgoingtobemarriednextThursday!’

  `No,MissEliza!that’sfalse。’

  `Doyouchargemewithafalsehood,sir?’

  `Youaremisinformed。’

  `AmI?Doyouknowbetterthen?’

  `IthinkIdo。’

  `Whatmakesyoulooksopalethen?’saidshe,smilingwithdelightatmyemotion。`Isitangeratpoormefortellingsuchafib?Well,I

  only“tellthetaleas’twastoldtome:“Idon’tvouchforthetruthofit;butatthesametime,Idon’tseewhatreasonSarahshouldhavefordeceivingme,orherinformantfordeceivingher;andthatwaswhatshetoldmethefootmantoldher:——thatMrs。HuntingdonwasgoingtobemarriedonThursday,andMr。Lawrencewasgonetothewedding。Shedidtellmethenameofthegentleman,butI’veforgottenthat。Perhapsyoucanassistmetorememberit。Istherenotsomeonethatlivesnear——orfrequentlyvisitstheneighbourhood,thathaslongbeenattachedtoher?aMr——ohdear!——Mr——’

  `Hargrave?’suggestedI,withabittersmile。

  `You’reright!’criedshe,`thatwastheveryname。’

  `Impossible,MissEliza!’Iexclaimedinatonethatmadeherstart。

  `Well,youknow,that’swhattheytoldme,’saidshe,composedlystaringmeintheface。Andthenshebrokeoutintoalongshrilllaughthatputmetomywits’endwithfury。

  `Really,youmustexcuseme,’criedshe:`Iknowit’sveryrude,butha,ha,ha!——Didyouthinktomarryheryourself?Dear,dear,whatapity!ha,ha,ha!——Gracious,Mr。Markham!areyougoingtofaint?Omercy!

  shallIcallthisman?Here,Jacob——’Butcheckingthewordonherlips,Iseizedherarmandgaveit,Ithink,aprettyseveresqueeze,forsheshrankintoherselfwithafaintcryofpainorterror;butthespiritwithinherwasnotsubdued:instantlyrallying,shecontinued,withwellfeignedconcern——

  `WhatcanIdoforyou?Willyouhavesomewater——somebrandy?——I

  daresaytheyhavesomeinthepublic-housedownthere,ifyou’llletmerun。’

  `Havedonewiththisnonsense!’criedIsternly。Shelookedconfounded——almostfrightenedagain,foramoment。`YouknowIhatesuchjests,’Icontinued。

  `Jestsindeed!Iwasn’tjesting!’

  `Youwerelaughing,atallevents;andIdon’tliketobelaughedat,’returnedI,makingviolenteffortstospeakwithproperdignityandcomposure,andtosaynothingbutwhatwascoherentandsensible。`Andsinceyouareinsuchamerrymood,MissEliza,youmustbegoodenoughcompanyforyourself,andthereforeIshallleaveyoutofinishyourwalkalone——for,nowIthinkofit,Ihavebusinesselsewhere;sogoodevening。’

  WiththatIlefthersmotheringhermaliciouslaughterandturnedasideintothefields,springingupthebank,andpushingthroughthenearestgapinthehedge。Determinedatoncetoprovethetruth——orratherthefalsehoodofherstory,IhastenedtoWoodfordasfastasmylegscouldcarryme——first,veeringroundbyacircuitouscourse,butthemomentI

  wasoutofsightofmyfairtormentor,cuttingawayacrossthecountry,justasabirdmightfly——overpasturelandandfallow,andstubble,andlane——clearinghedgesandditches,andhurdles,tillIcametotheyoungsquire’sgates。NevertillnowhadIknownthefullfervourofmylove——thefullstrengthofmyhopes,notwhollycrushedeveninmyhoursofdeepestdespondency,alwaystenaciouslyclingingtothethoughtthatonedayshemightbemine——orifnotthat,atleastthatsomethingofmymemory,someslightremembranceofourfriendshipandourlovewouldbeforevercherishedinherheart。Imarcheduptothedoor,determinedifIsawthemaster,toquestionhimboldlyconcerninghissister,towaitandhesitatenolonger,butcastfalsedelicacyandstupidpridebehindmyback,andknowmyfateatonce。

  `IsMr。Lawrenceathome?’Ieagerlyaskedoftheservantthatopenedthedoor。

  `Nosir,masterwentyesterday,’repliedhe,lookingveryalert。

  `Wentwhere?’

  `ToGrassdale,sir——wasn’tyouaware,sir?He’sveryclose,ismaster,’saidthefellowwithafoolish,simperinggrin。`Isuppose,sir——’

  ButIturnedandlefthim,withoutwaitingtohearwhathesupposed。

  Iwasnotgoingtostandtheretoexposemytorturedfeelingstotheinsolentlaughterandimpertinentcuriosityofafellowlikethat。

  Butwhatwastobedonenow?Coulditbepossiblethatshehadleftmeforthatman?Icouldnotbelieveit。Meshemightforsake,butnottogiveherselftohim!Well,Iwouldknowthetruth——tonoconcernsofdailylifecouldIattend;whilethistempestofdoubtanddread,ofjealousyandragedistractedme。IwouldtakethemorningcoachfromL——theeveningonewouldbealreadygone,andflytoGrassdale,Imustbetherebeforethemarriage。Andwhy?Becauseathoughtstruckme,thatperhapsImightpreventit——thatifIdidnot,sheandImightbothlamentittothelatestmomentofourlives。Itstruckmethatsomeonemighthavebeliedmetoher:perhapsherbrother——yes,nodoubtherbrotherhadpersuadedherthatIwasfalseandfaithless,andtakingadvantageofhernaturalindignation,andperhapsherdespondingcarelessnessaboutherfuturelife,hadurgedher,artfully,cruellyon,tothisothermarriageinordertosecureherfromme。Ifthiswasthecase,andifsheshouldonlydiscoverhermistakewhentoolatetorepairit——towhatalifeofmiseryandvainregretmightshebedoomedaswellasme!andwhatremorseforme,tothinkmyfoolishscrupleshadinduceditall!Oh,Imustseeher——shemustknowmytruthevenifItolditatthechurchdoor!Imightpassforamadmanoranimpertinentfool——evenshemightbeoffendedatsuchaninterruption,oratleastmighttellmeitwasnowtoolat——butifIcouldsaveher!ifshemightbemintwastoorapturousathought!

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