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  `Haveyoudone?’askedmycompanionquietly。

  `Yes;——Iknowyouhatemeformyimpertinence,butIdon’tcareifitonlyconducestopreserveyoufromthatfatalmistake。’

  `Well!’returnedhe,witharatherwintrysmile——`I’mgladyouhaveovercome,orforgottenyourownafflictionssofarastobeabletostudysodeeplytheaffairsofothers,andtroubleyourhead,sounnecessarily,aboutthefanciedorpossiblecalamitiesoftheirfuturelife。’

  Weparted——somewhatcoldlyagain;butstillwedidnotceasetobefriends;andmywell-meantwarning,thoughitmighthavebeenmorejudiciouslydelivered,aswellasmorethankfullyreceived,wasnotwhollyunproductiveofthedesiredeffect:hisvisittotheWilsonswasnotrepeated,and,though,inoursubsequentinterviews,henevermentionedhernametome,norItohim,——Ihavereasontobelieveheponderedmywordsinhismind,eagerlythoughcovertlysoughtinformationrespectingthefairladyfromotherquarters,secretlycomparedmycharacterofherwithwhathehadhimselfobservedandwhatheheardfromothers,andfinallycametotheconclusionthat,allthingsconsidered,shehadmuchbetterremainMissWilsonofRyecoteFarm,thanbetransmutedintoMrs。LawrenceofWoodfordHall。Ibelieve,too,thathesoonlearnedtocontemplatewithsecretamazementhisformerpredilection,andtocongratulatehimselfontheluckyescapehehadmade;butheneverconfessedittome,orhintedonewordofacknowledgmentforthepartIhadhadinhisdeliverance——butthiswasnotsurprisingtoanyonethatknewhimasIdid。

  AsforJaneWilson,she,ofcourse,wasdisappointedandembitteredbythesuddencoldneglect,andultimatedesertionofherformeradmirer。

  HadIdonewrongtoblighthercherishedhopes?Ithinknot;andcertainlymyconsciencehasneveraccusedme,fromthatdaytothis,ofanyevildesigninthematter。

  TheTenantofWildfellHall:Chapter47CHAPTERXLVIISTARTLINGINTELLIGENCEOnemorning,aboutthebeginningofNovember,whileIwasinditingsomebusinessletters,shortlyafterbreakfast,ElizaMillwardcametocalluponmysister。RosehadneitherthediscriminationnorthevirulencetoregardthelittledemonasIdid,andtheystillpreservedtheirformerintimacy。Atthemomentofherarrival,however,therewasnooneintheroombutFergusandmyself,mymotherandsisterbeingbothofthemabsent,`onhouseholdcaresintent;“butIwasnotgoingtolaymyselfoutforheramusement,whoeverelsemightsoincline:Imerelyhonouredherwithacarelesssalutationandafewwordsofcourse,’andthenwentonwithmywriting,leavingmybrothertobemorepoliteifhechose。Butshewantedtoteazeme。

  `Whatapleasureitistofindyouathome,Mr。Markham!’saidshe,withadisingenuouslymalicioussmile。`Isoseldomseeyounow,foryounevercometothevicarage。PapaisquiteoffendedIcantellyou,’

  sheaddedplayfully,lookingintomyfacewithanimpertinentlaugh,assheseatedherself,halfbesideandhalfbeforemydesk,offthecornerofthetable。

  `Ihavehadagooddealtodooflate,’saidI,withoutlookingupfrommyletter。

  `Haveyouindeed!Somebodysaidyouhadbeenstrangelyneglectingyourbusinesstheselastfewmonths。’

  `Somebodysaidwrong,for,theselasttwomonthsespecially,Ihavebeenparticularlyploddinganddiligent。’

  `Ah!Well,there’snothinglikeactiveemployment,Isuppose,toconsoletheafflicted;——and,excuseme,Mr。Markham,butyoulooksoveryfarfromwell,andhavebeen,byallaccounts,somoodyandthoughtfuloflate,——Icouldalmostthinkyouhavesomesecretcarepreyingonyourspirits。Formerly,’saidshetimidly,`Icouldhaveventuredtoaskyouwhatitwas,andwhatIcoulddotocomfortyou:Idarenotdoitnow。’

  `You’reverykind,MissEliza。WhenIthinkyoucandoanythingtocomfortme,I’llmakeboldtotellyou。’

  `Praydo——IsupposeImayn’tguesswhatitisthattroublesyou?’

  `There’snonecessity,forI’lltellyouplainly。Thethingthattroublesmethemostatpresent,isayoungladysittingatmyelbow,andpreventingmefromfinishingmyletter,andthereafter,repairingtomydailybusiness。’

  Beforeshecouldreplytothisungallantspeech,Roseenteredtheroom;andMissElizarisingtogreether,theybothseatedthemselvesnearthefire,wherethatidlelad,Fergus,wasstanding,leaninghisshoulderagainstthecornerofthechimneypiecewithhislegscrossedandhishandsinhisbreechespockets。

  `Now,Rose,I’lltellyouapieceofnews——Ihopeyou’venothearditbefore,forgood,badorindifferent,onealwayslikestobethefirsttotell——It’saboutthatsadMrs。Graham`Hush——sh——sh!’whisperedFergus,inatoneofsolemnimport。

  `“Wenevermentionher;hernameisneverheard。”’Andglancingup,Icaughthimwithhiseyeaskanceonme,andhisfingerpointedtohisforehead;

  then,winkingattheyoungladywithadolefulshakeofthehead,hewhispered——amonomania——Butdon’tmentionit——allrightbutthat。’

  `Ishouldbesorrytoinjureanyone’sfeelings,’returnedshe,speakingbelowherbreath,`anothertime,perhaps。’

  `Speakout,MissEliza!’saidI,notdeigningtonoticetheother’sbuffooneries,`youneedn’tfeartosayanythinginmypresence——thatistrue。’

  `Well,’answeredshe,`perhapsyouknowalreadythatMrs。Graham’shusbandisnotreallydead,andthatshehadrunawayfromhim?’Istarted,andfeltmyfaceglow;butIbentitovermyletter,andwentonfoldingitupassheproceeded,`butperhapsyoudidnotknowthatsheisnowgonebacktohimagain,andthataperfectreconciliationhastakenplacebetweenthem?Onlythink,’shecontinued,turningtotheconfoundedRose,`whatafoolthemanmustbe!’

  `Andwhogaveyouthispieceofintelligence,MissEliza?’saidI,interruptingmysister’sexclamations。

  `Ihaditfromaveryauthenticsource,sir。’

  `Fromwhom,mayIask?’

  `FromoneoftheservantsatWoodford。’

  `Oh!IwasnotawarethatyouwereonsuchintimatetermswithMr。Lawrence’shousehold。’

  `Itwasnotfromthemanhimself,thatIheardit;buthetolditinconfidencetoourmaidSarah,andSarahtoldittome。’

  `Inconfidence,Isuppose;andyoutellitinconfidencetous;

  butIcantellyouthatitisbutalamestoryafterall,andscarcelyonehalfofittrue。’

  WhileIspoke,Icompletedthesealinganddirectionofmyletters,withasomewhatunsteadyhand,inspiteofallmyeffortstoretaincomposure,andinspiteofmyfirmconvictionthatthestorywasalameone——thatthesupposedMrs。Graham,mostcertainly,hadnotvoluntarilygonebacktoherhusband,ordreamtofareconciliation。Mostlikely,shewasgoneaway,andthetale-bearingservant,notknowingwhatwasbecomeofher,hadconjecturedthatsuchwasthecase,andourfairvisitorhaddetaileditasacertainty,delightedwithsuchanopportunityoftormentingme。Butitwaspossible——rarelypossible,thatsomeonemighthavebetrayedher,andshehadbeentakenawaybyforce。Determinedtoknowtheworst,Ihastilypocketedmytwoletters,andmutteringsomethingaboutbeingtoolateforthepost,lefttheroom,rushedintotheyardandvociferouslycalledformyhorse。Noonebeingthere,Idraggedhimoutofthestablemyself,strappedthesaddleontohisbackandthebridleontohishead,mounted,andspeedilygallopedawaytoWoodford。Ifounditsownerpensivelystrollinginthegrounds。

  `Isyoursistergone?’weremyfirstwordsasIgraspedhishand,insteadoftheusualenquiryafterhishealth。

  `Yes;she’sgone,’washisanswer,socalmlyspoken,thatmyterrorwasatonceremoved。

  `IsupposeImayn’tknowwheresheis?’saidI,asIdidmountedandrelinquishedmyhorsetothegardener,who,beingtheonlyservantwithincall,hadbeensummonedbyhismaster,fromhisemploymentofrakingupthedeadleavesonthelawn,totakehimtothestables。

  Mycompaniongravelytookmyarm,andleadingmeawaytothegarden,thusansweredmyquestion:——

  `SheisatGrassdaleManor,in——hire。’

  `Where?’criedI,withaconvulsivestart。

  `AtGrassdaleManor。’

  `Howwasit?’Igasped。`Whobetrayedher?’

  `Shewentofherownaccord。’

  `Impossible,Lawrence!!Shecouldnotbesofrantic!’exclaimedI,vehementlygraspinghisarm,asiftoforcehimtounsaythosehatefulwords。

  `Shedid,’persistedheinthesamegrave,collectedmannerasbefore`andnotwithoutreason,’hecontinued,gentlydisengaginghimselffrommygrasp:`Mr。Huntingdonisill。’

  `Andsoshewenttonursehim?’

  `Yes。’

  `Fool!’Icouldnothelpexclaiming——andLawrencelookedupwitharatherreproachfulglance。`Ishedyingthen?’

  `Ithinknot,Markham。’

  `Andhowmanymorenurseshashe?——Howmanyladiesaretherebesides,totakecareofhim?’

  `None:hewasalone,orshewouldnothavegone。’

  `Oh,confoundit!thisisintolerable!’

  `Whatis?Thatheshouldbealone?’

  Iattemptednoreply,forIwasnotsurethatthiscircumstancedidnotpartlyconducetomydistraction。Ithereforecontinuedtopacethewalkinsilentanguish,withmyhandpressedtomyforehead;thensuddenlypausingandturningtomycompanion,Iimpatientlyexclaimed,`Whydidshetakethisinfatuatedstep?Whatfiendpersuadedhertoit?’

  `Nothingpersuadedherbutherownsenseofduty。’

  `Humbug!’

  `Iwashalfinclinedtosaysomyself,Markham,atfirst。Iassureyouitwasnotbymyadvicethatshewent,forIdetestthatmanasferventlyasyoucando——except,indeed,thathisreformationwouldgivememuchgreaterpleasurethanhisdeath:——ButallIdidwastoinformherofthecircumstanceofhisillnesstheconsequenceofafallfromhishorseinhunting,andtotellherthatthatunhappyperson,MissMyers,hadlefthimsometimeago。

  `Itwasilldone!Now,whenhefindstheconvenienceofherpresence,hewillmakeallmanneroflyingspeechesandfalse,fairpromisesforthefuture,andshewillbelievehim,andthenherconditionwillbetentimesworseandtentimesmoreirremediablethanbefore。’

  `Theredoesnotappeartobemuchgroundforsuchapprehensionsatpresent,’saidhe,producingaletterfromhispocket:`fromtheaccountIreceivedthismorning,Ishouldsay——’

  Itwasherwriting!Byanirresistibleimpulse,Iheldoutmyhand,andthewords——`Letmeseeit,’involuntarilypassedmylips。

  Hewasevidentlyreluctanttogranttherequest,butwhilehehesitated,Isnatcheditfromhishand。Recollectingmyself,however,theminuteafter,Iofferedtorestoreit。

  `Here,takeit,’saidI,`ifyoudon’twantmetoreadit。’

  `No,’repliedhe,`youmayreaditifyoulike。’

  Ireaditandsomayyou。

  Grassdale,Nov。4th。

  DearFrederick,Iknowyouwillbeanxioustohearfromme:andIwilltellyouallIcan。Mr。Huntingdonisveryill,butnotdying,orinanyimmediatedanger;andheisratherbetteratpresentthanhewaswhenIcame。Ifoundthehouseinsadconfusion:Mrs。Greaves,Benson,everydecentservanthadleft,andthosethatwerecometosupplytheirplaceswereanegligent,disorderlyset,tosaynoworse——ImustchangethemagainifIstay。A

  professionalnurse,agrim,hardoldwoman,hadbeenhiredtoattendthewretchedinvalid。Hesuffersmuch,andhasnofortitudetobearhimthrough。

  Theimmediateinjurieshesustainedfromtheaccident,however,werenotverysevere,andwould,asthedoctorsays,havebeenbuttriflingtoamanoftemperatehabits;butwithhimitisverydifferent。Onthenightofmyarrival,whenIfirstenteredhisroom,hewaslyinginakindofhalfdelirium。HedidnotnoticemetillIspoke;andthen,hemistookmeforanother。

  `Isityou,Alice,comeagain?’hemurmured。`Whatdidyouleavemefor?’

  `ItisI,Arthur——itisHelen,yourwife,’ireplied。

  `Mywife!’saidhe,withastart——`ForHeaven’ssake,don’tmentionher——Ihavenone。deviltakeher,’hecried,amomentafter,——`andyoutoo!Whatdidyoudoitfor?’

  Isaidnomore;butobservingthathekeptgazingtowardsthefootofthebed,Iwentandsatthere,placingthelightsoastoshinefulluponme;forIthoughthemightbedying,andIwantedhimtoknowme。Foralongtime,helaysilentlylookinguponme,firstwithavacantstare,thenwithafixedgazeofstrange,growingintensity。Atlasthestartledmebysuddenlyraisinghimselfonhiselbowanddemandinginahorrifiedwhisper,withhiseyesstillfixeduponme,——`Whoisit?’

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