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  `Noonecanblameyouforsuchanavowal,’repliedhegravely;

  `noteventhegentlementhemselves,Iimagine。I’lljusttellyou,’hecontinued,asifactuatedbyasuddenresolution,`whatwassaidlastnightinthedining-room,afteryouleftus——perhapsyouwillnotminditasyou’resoveryphilosophicaloncertainpoints,’headdedwithaslightsneer。`TheyweretalkingaboutLordLowboroughandhisdelectablelady,thecauseofwhosesuddendepartureisnosecretamongstthem;andhercharacterissowellknowntothemall,that,nearlyrelatedtomeassheis,Icouldnotattempttodefendit——Godcurseme,’hemuttered,parparenthèse,`ifIdon’thavevengeanceforthis!Ifthevillainmustdisgracethefamily,mustheblazonitabroadtoeverylow-bredknaveofhisacquaintance?——Ibegyourpardon,Mrs。Huntingdon。

  Well,theyweretalkingofthesethings,andsomeofthemremarkedthat,asshewasseparatedfromherhusband,hemightseeheragainwhenhepleased。’

  `“Thankyou。”saidhe;“I’vehadenoughofherforthepresent:

  I’llnottroubletoseeher,unlessshecomestome。”

  `“Thenwhatdoyoumeantodo,Huntingdon,whenwe’regone?”saidRalphHattersley。“Doyoumeantoturnfromtheerrorofyourways,andbeagoodhusband,agoodfather,andsoforth——asIdo,whenIgetshutofyouandalltheserollickingdevilsyoucallyourfriends?Ithinkit’stime;andyourwifeisfiftytimestoogoodforyou,youknow——“

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  `Andheaddedsomepraiseofyou,whichyouwouldnotthankmeforrepeating——orhimforuttering;proclaimingitaloud,ashedid,withoutdelicacyordiscrimination,inanaudiencewhereitseemedprofanationtoutteryourname——himselfutterlyincapableofunderstandingorappreciatingyourrealexcellencies。Huntingdonmeanwhile,satquietlydrinkinghiswine,orlookingsmilinglyintohisglassandofferingnointerruptionorreply,tillHattersleyshoutedout,——

  `“Doyouhearme,man?”

  `“Yes,goon。”saidhe。

  `“Nay,I’vedone。”repliedtheother:“Ionlywanttoknowifyouintendtotakemyadvice。”

  `“Whatadvice?”

  `“Toturnoveranewleaf,youdouble-dyedscoundrel。”shoutedRalph,“andbegyourwife’spardon,andbeagoodboyforthefuture。”

  `“Mywife!whatwife?Ihavenowife。”repliedHuntingdon,lookinginnocentlyupfromhisglass——“orifIhave,lookyougentlemen,Ivaluehersohighlythatanyoneamongyou,thatcanfancyher,mayhaveherandwelcome——youmay,byJoveandmyblessingintothebargain!”

  `I——hem——someoneaskedifhereallymeantwhathesaid,uponwhich,hesolemnlysworehedid,andnomistake——Whatdoyouthinkofthat,Mrs。Huntingdon?’askedMr。Hargrave,afterashortpause,duringwhichIhadfelthewaskeenlyexaminingmyhalf-avertedface。

  `Isay,’repliedI,calmly,`thatwhatheprizessolightly,willnotbelonginhispossession。’

  `Youcannotmeanthatyouwillbreakyourheartanddieforthedetestableconductofaninfamousvillainlikethat!’

  `Bynomeans:myheartistoothoroughlydriedtobebrokeninahurry,andImeantoliveaslongasIcan。’

  `Willyouleavehimthen?’

  `Yes。’

  `When——andhow?’askedhe,eagerly。

  `WhenIamready,andhowIcanmanageitmosteffectually。’

  `Butyourchild?’

  `Mychildgoeswithme。’

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  `Hewillnotallowit。’

  `Ishallnotaskhim。’

  `Ah,then,itisasecretflightyoumeditate!——butwithwhom,Mrs。Huntingdon?’

  `Withmyson——and,possibly,hisnurse。’

  `Alone——andunprotected!Butwherecanyougo?Whatcanyoudo?

  Hewillfollowyouandbringyouback。’

  `Ihavelaidmyplanstoowellforthat。LetmeoncegetclearofGrassdale,andIshallconsidermyselfsafe。’

  Mr。Hargraveadvancedonesteptowardsme,lookedmeintheface,anddrewinhisbreathtospeak;butthatlook,thatheightenedcolour,thatsuddensparkleoftheeyemademybloodriseinwrath:Iabruptlyturnedaway,and,snatchingupmybrush,begantodashawayatmycanvasswithrathertoomuchenergyforthegoodofthepicture。

  `Mrs。Huntingdon,’saidhewithbittersolemnity,`youarecruel——crueltome——crueltoyourself。’

  `Mr。Hargrave,rememberyourpromise。’

  `Imustspeak——myheartwillburstifIdon’t!Ihavebeensilentlongenough——andyoumusthearme!’criedheboldlyinterceptingmyretreattothedoor。`Youtellmeyouowenoallegiancetoyourhusband;

  heopenlydeclareshimselfwearyofyou,andcalmlygivesyouuptoanybodythatwilltakeyou;youareabouttoleavehim;noonewillbelievethatyougoalone——alltheworldwillsay,“Shehaslefthimatlast,andwhocanwonderatit?Fewcanblameher,fewerstillcanpityhim;butwhoisthecompanionofherflight?”Thusyouwillhavenocreditforyourvirtueifyoucallitsuch:evenyourbestfriendswillnotbelieveinit;because,itismonstrous,andnottobecredited——butbythosewhosufferfromtheeffectsofit,suchcrueltormentsthattheyknowittobeindeedreality——Butwhatcanyoudointhecold,roughworldalone?

  you,ayoungandinexperiencedwoman,delicatelynurtured,andutterly——’

  `Inaword,youwouldadvisemetostaywhereIam,’interruptedI。`Well,I’llseeaboutit。’

  `Byallmeans,leavehim!’criedheearnestly,`butNOT

  alone!Helen!letmeprotectyou!’

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  `Never!——whileHeavensparesmyreason,’repliedI,snatchingawaythehandhehadpresumedtoseizeandpressbetweenhisown。Buthewasinforitnow;hehadfairlybrokenthebarrier:hewascompletelyroused,anddeterminedtohazardallforvictory。

  `Imustnotbedenied!’exclaimedhevehemently;andseizingbothmyhands,heheldthemverytight,butdroppeduponhisknee,andlookedupinmyfacewithahalf-imploring,half-imperiousgaze。`Youhavenoreasonnow:youareflyinginthefaceofHeaven’sdecrees。GodhasdesignedmetobeyourcomfortandProtector——Ifeelit——IknowitascertainlyasifavoicefromHeavendeclared“Yetwainshallbeoneflesh“——andyouspurnmefromyou——

  `Letmego,Mr。Hargrave!’saidIsternly。Butheonlytightenedhisgrasp。

  `Letmego!’Irepeated,quiveringwithindignation。

  Hisfacewasalmostoppositethewindowasheknelt。Withaslightstart,Isawhimglancetowardsit;andthenagleamofmalicioustriumphlituphiscountenance。Lookingovermyshoulder,Ibeheldashadowjustretiringroundthecorner。

  `ThatisGrimsby,’saidhedeliberately。`HewillreportwhathehasseentoHuntingdonandalltherest,withsuchembellishmentsashethinksproper。Hehasnoloveforyou,Mrs。Huntingdon——noreverenceforyoursex——nobeliefinvirtue——noadmirationforitsimage。Hewillgivesuchaversionofthisstoryaswillleavenodoubtatall,aboutyourcharacter,inthemindsofthosewhohearit。Yourfairfameisgone;

  andnothingthatIoryoucansaycaneverretrieveit。Butgivemethepowertoprotectyou,andshowmethevillainthatdarestoinsult!’

  `Noonehaseverdaredtoinsultmeasyouaredoingnow!’saidI,atlengthreleasingmyhands,andrecoilingfromhim。

  `Idonotinsultyou,’criedhe:`Iworshipyou。Youaremyangel——mydivinity!Ilaymypowersatyourfeet——andyoumustandshallacceptthem!’

  heexclaimedimpetuously,startingtohisfeet——Imillbeyourconsoleranddefender!andifyourconscienceupbraidyouforit,sayIovercameyouandyoucouldnotchoosebutyield!’

  Ineversawamansoterriblyexcited。Heprecipitatedhimselftowardsme。Isnatchedupmypalette-knifeandheldit343againsthim。

  Thisstartledhim:hestoodandgazedatmeinastonishment;IdaresayIlookedasfierceandresoluteashe。Imovedtothebellandputmyhanduponthecord。Thistamedhimstillmore。Withahalf-authoritative,half-deprecatingwaveofthehand,hesoughttodetermefromringing。

  `Standoff,then!’saidI。Hesteppedback——`Andlistentome——I

  don’tlikeyou,’Icontinued,asdeliberatelyandemphaticallyasIcould,togivethegreaterefficacytomywords;`andifIweredivorcedfrommyhusband——orifheweredead,Iwouldnotmarryyou。Therenow!Ihopeyou’resatisfied。’

  Hisfacegrewblanchedwithanger。

  `Iamsatisfied,’herepliedwithbitteremphasis,`thatyouarethemostcold-hearted,unnatural,ungratefulwomanIeveryetbeheld!’

  `Ungratefulsir?’

  `Ungrateful。’

  `No,Mr。Hargrave;Iamnot。Forallthegoodyoueverdidme,oreverwishedtodo,Imostsincerelythankyou:foralltheevilyouhavedoneme,andallyouwouldhavedone,IprayGodtopardonyou,andmakeyouofabettermind。’

  Herethedoorwasthrownopen,andMessrs。HuntingdonandHattersleyappearedwithout。Thelatterremainedinthehall,busywithhisram-rodandhisgun;theformerwalkedin,andstoodwithhisbacktothefire,surveyingMr。Hargraveandme,particularlytheformer,withasmileofinsupportablemeaning,accompaniedasitwas,bytheimpudenceofhisbrazenbrowandthesly,malicioustwinkleofhiseye。

  `Well,sir?’saidHargraveinterrogatively,andwiththeairofonepreparedtostandonthedefensive。

  `Well,sir,’returnedhishost。

  `Wewanttoknowifyou’reatlibertytojoinusinagoatthepheasants,Walter,’interposedHattersleyfromwithout。`Come!thereshallbenothingshotbesides,exceptapuss’ortwo;I’llvouchforthat。’

  Walterdidnotanswer,butwalkedtothewindowtocollecthisfaculties,Arthurutteredalowwhistle,andfollowedhimwithhiseyes。

  AslightflushofangerrosetoHargrave’scheek;butinamoment,heturnedcalmlyround,andsaidcarelessly——344

  `IcameheretobidfarewelltoMrs。Huntingdon,andtellherImustgoto-morrow。

  `Humph!You’remightysuddeninyourresolution。Whattakesyouoffsosoon,mayIask?’

  `Business,’returnedhe,repellingtheother’sincreduloussneerwithaglanceofscornfuldefiance。

  `Verygood,’wasthereply;andHargravewalkedaway。Thereupon,Mr。Huntingdon,gatheringhiscoatlapsunderhisarms,andsettinghisshoulderagainstthemantle-piece,turnedtome,and,addressingmeinalowvoice,scarcelyabovehisbreath,pouredforthavolleyofthevilestandgrossestabuseitwaspossiblefortheimaginationtoconceiveorthetonguetoutter。Ididnotattempttointerrupthim;butmyspiritkindledwithinme,andwhenhehaddone,Ireplied——

  `Ifyouraccusationweretrue,Mr。Huntingdon,howdareyoublameme?’

  `She’shitit,byJove!’criedHattersley,rearinghisgunagainstthewall;and,steppingintotheroom,hetookhispreciousfriendbythearm,andattemptedtodraghimaway。`Come,mylad,’hemuttered;`trueorfalse,you’venorighttoblameher,youknow——norhimeither;afterwhatyousaidlastnight。Socomealong。’

  TherewassomethingimpliedherethatIcouldnotendure。

  `Dareyoususpectme,Mr。Hattersley?’saidI,almostbesidemyselfwithfury。

  `Nay,nay,Isuspectnobody。It’sallright——it’sallright。SocomealongHuntingdon,youblackguard。’

  `Shecan’tdenyit!’criedthegentlemanthusaddressed,grinninginmingledrageandtriumph。`Shecan’tdenyitifherlifedependedonit!’andmutteringsomemoreabusivelanguage,hewalkedintothehall,andtookuphishatandgunfromthetable。

  `Iscorntojustifymyselftoyou!’saidI。`Butyou,’turningtoHattersley,`ifyoupresumetohaveanydoubtsonthesubject,askMr。

  Hargrave。’

  Atthis,theysimultaneouslyburstintoarudelaughthatmademywholeframetingletothefinger’sends。

  `Whereishe?I’llaskhimmyself!’saidI,advancingtowardsthem。

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