UponthewholeheblamedHeinelessthanGermanyandheaccusedheroftakingashabbyrevenge,intryingtoforgethim;intheheatofhisresentmentthatthereshouldbenorecordofHeineinthecitywherehewasborn,MarchcamenearignoringhimselfthefactthatthepoetFreiligrathwasalsobornthere。AsforthefamousDusseldorfschoolofpainting,whichoncefilledtheworldwiththeworstart,herejoicedthatitwasnowsodead,andhegrudgedtheglancewhichthebeautyofthenewArtAcademyextortedfromhim。ItisintheFrenchtaste,andissofaramonumenttothecontinuanceinonesortofthatFrenchsupremacy,ofwhichinanothersortanotherdenkmalcelebratestheoverthrow。DusseldorfisnotcontentwiththedenkmaloftheKaiseronhorseback,withthetwoVictoriesforgrooms;thereisasecond,whichtheMarchesfoundwhentheystrolledoutagainlateintheafternoon。Itisinthelovelyparkwhichliesintheheartofthecity,andtheyfeltinitspresencetheonlyemotionofsympathywhichthemanypatrioticmonumentsofGermanyawakenedinthem。Ithaddignityandrepose,whichtheseneverhadelsewhere;butitwasperhapsnotsomuchforthedyingwarriorandthepityinglionofthesculpturethattheirheartsweremovedasforthegentleandmournfulhumanityoftheinscription,whichdroppedintoequivalentEnglishverseinMarch’snote-book:
FamewasenoughfortheVictors,andgloryandverdurouslaurel;
Tearsbytheirmothersweptfoundedthisimageofstone。
Tothistheycouldforgivethevauntingrecord,onthereverse,oftheGermansoldierswhodiedheroesinthewarwithFrance,thewarwithAustria,andeventhewarwithpoorlittleDenmark!
Themorninghadbeenbrightandwarm,anditwasjustthattheafternoonshouldbedimandcold,withapalesunlookingthroughaSeptembermist,whichseemedtodeepentheseclusionandsilenceoftheforestreaches;
fortheparkwasreallyaforestoftheGermansort,asparksareapttobeinGermany。Butitwasbeautiful,andtheystrayedthroughit,andsometimessatdownonthebenchesinitsdampshadows,andsaidhowmuchseemedtobedoneinGermanyforthepeople’scomfortandpleasure。Inwhatwastheirownexplicitly,aswellaswhatwastacitlytheirs,theywerenotsorestrictedaswewereathome,andespeciallythechildrenseemedmadefondlyandlovinglyfreeofallpublicthings。TheMarchesmettroopsofthemintheforest,astheystrolledslowlybackbythewindingDusseltothegardenedavenueleadingtothepark,andtheyfoundthemeverywheregayandjoyful。Buttheireldersseemedsubdued,andweresilent。ThestrangersheardnosoundoflaughterinthestreetsofDusseldorf,andtheysawnosmilingexceptonthepartofaveryoldcouple,whosemeetingtheywitnessedandwhogrinnedandcackledateachotherliketwochildrenastheyshookhands。Perhapstheywereindeedchildrenofthatsadsecondchildhoodwhichonewouldrathernotblossombackinto。
InAmerica,lifeisyetajokewithus,evenwhenitisgrotesqueandshameful,asitsooftenis;forwethinkwecanmakeitrightwhenwechoose。ButthereisnojokinginGermany,betweenthefirstandsecondchildhoods,unlessbehindcloseddoors。Eventhere,peopledonotjokeabovetheirbreathaboutkingsandemperors。Iftheyjokeabouttheminprint,theytakeouttheirlaughinjail,forthepresslawsareseverelyenforced,andtheprisonsarefullofableeditors,seriousaswellascomic。Lese-majestyisacrimethatsearchessinnersoutineverywalkoflife,anditissaidthatinfamilyjarsahusbandsometimeshasthelastwordofhiswifebyaccusingherofblasphemingthesovereign,andsohavinghersilencedforthreemonthsatleastbehindpenitentialbars。
“Think。”saidMarch,“howsimplyIcouldadjustanydifferencesofopinionbetweenusinDusseldorf。”
“Don’t!”hiswifeimploredwithaburstoffeelingwhichsurprisedhim。
“Iwanttogohome!”
Theyhadbeentalkingovertheirday,andplanningtheirjourneytoHollandforthemorrow,whenitcametothisoutburstfromherinthelasthalf-hourbeforebedwhichtheysatprolongingbesidetheirstove。
“What!AndnotgotoHolland?Whatistobecomeofmyafter-cure?”
“Oh,it’stoolateforthat,now。We’veusedupthemonthrunningabout,andtiringourselvestodeath。Ishouldliketorestaweek——togetintomyberthontheNorumbiaandrest!”
“IguesstheSeptembergaleswouldhavesomethingtosayaboutthat。”
“IwouldrisktheSeptembergales。”
InthemorningMarchcamehomefromhisbankersgaywiththeday’sprovisionalsunshineinhisheart,andjoyouslyexpectantofhiswife’spleasureinthelettershewasbringing。Therewasonefromeachoftheirchildren,andtherewasonefromFulkerson,whichMarchopenedandreadonthestreet,soastointerceptanyunpleasantnewstheremightbeinthem;thereweretwolettersforMrs。MarchwhichheknewwithoutopeningwerefromMissTriscoeandMrs。Addingrespectively;Mrs。
Adding’s,fromthepostmarks,seemedtohavebeenfollowingthemaboutforsometime。
“They’reallrightathome。”hesaid。“Doseewhatthosepeoplehavebeendoing。”
“Ibelieve。”shesaid,takingaknifefromthebreakfasttraybesideherbedtocuttheenvelopes,“thatyou’vereallycaredmoreaboutthemallalongthanIhave。”
“No,I’veonlybeenanxioustobedonewiththem。”
Shegotthelettersopen,andholdingoneofthemupineachhandshereadthemimpartiallyandsimultaneously;thensheflungthembothdown,andturnedherfaceintoherpillowwithanimpulseofherinalienablegirlishness。“Well,itistoosilly。”
Marchfeltauthorizedtotakethemupandreadthemconsecutively;whenhehaddone,sohedidnotdifferfromhiswife。Inonecase,AgathahadwrittentoherdearMrs。MarchthatsheandBurnamyhadjustthateveningbecomeengaged;Mrs。Adding,onherpartownedafartherstep,andannouncedhermarriagetoMr。Kenby。FollowingimmemorialusageinsuchmattersKenbyhadaddedapostscriptaffirminghishappinessinunsparingterms,andinAgatha’slettertherewasanavowaloflikeeffectfromBurnamy。AgathahintedherbeliefthatherfatherwouldsooncometoregardBurnamyasshedid;andMrs。Addingprofessedacertainhumiliationinhavingrealizedthat,afterallhermisgivingabouthim,Roseseemedratherrelievedthanotherwise,asifheweregladtohaveheroffhishands。
“Well。”saidMarch,“withthesetroublesomeaffairssettled,Idon’tseewhatthereistokeepusinEuropeanylonger,unlessit’stheconsensusofopinioninTom,Bella,andFulkerson,thatweoughttostaythewinter。”
“Staythewinter!”Mrs。Marchrosefromherpillow,andclutchedthehomeletterstoherfromtheabeyanceinwhichtheyhadfallenonthecoverletwhileshewasdealingwiththeothers。“Whatdoyoumean?”
“Itseemstohavebeenpromptedbyahintyouletdrop,whichTomhaspassedtoBellaandFulkerson。”
“Oh,butthatwasbeforeweleftCarlsbad!”sheprotested,whileshedevouredtheletterswithhereyes,andcontinuedtodenouncetheabsurdityofthewriters。Hersonanddaughterbothurgedthatnowtheirfatherandmotherwereoverthere,theyhadbetterstayaslongastheyenjoyedit,andthattheycertainlyoughtnottocomehomewithoutgoingtoItaly,wheretheyhadfirstmet,andrevisitingtheplaceswhichtheyhadseentogetherwhentheywereyoungengagedpeople:withoutthattheirsilverweddingjourneywouldnotbecomplete。Hersonsaidthateverythingwasgoingwellwith’EveryOtherWeek’,andbothhimselfandMr。FulkersonthoughthisfatheroughttospendthewinterinItaly,andgetathoroughrest。“Makeajobofit,March。”Fulkersonwrote,“andhaveaSabbaticalyearwhileyou’reatit。Youmaynotgetanother。”
“Well,Icantellthem。”saidMrs。Marchindignantly,“weshallnotdoanythingofthekind。”
“Thenyoudidn’tmeanit?”
“Meanit!”Shestoppedherselfwithalookatherhusband,andaskedgently,“Doyouwanttostay?”
“Well,Idon’tknow。”heansweredvaguely。Thefactwas,hewassickoftravelandofleisure;hewaslongingtobeathomeandatworkagain。
Butiftherewastobeanyself-sacrificewhichcouldbehad,asitwere,atabargain;whichcouldbefairlydividedbetweenthem,andleavehimtheselfandherthesacrifice,hewastooexperiencedahusbandnottoseetheadvantageofit,ortorefusethemerit。“Ithoughtyouwishedtostay。”
“Yes。”shesighed,“Idid。Ithasbeenvery,verypleasant,and,ifanything,Ihaveover-enjoyedmyself。Wehavegonerompingthroughitliketwoyoungpeople,haven’twe?”
“Youhave。”heassented。“Ihavealwaysfelttheweightofmyyearsingettingthebaggageregistered;theyhavemadethebaggageweighmoreeverytime。”
“AndI’veforgottenmine。Yes,Ihave。Buttheyearshaven’tforgottenme,Basil,andnowIrememberthem。I’mtired。Itdoesn’tseemasifI
couldevergetup。ButIdaresayit’sonlyamood;itmaybeonlyacold;andifyouwishtostay,why——wewillthinkitover。”
“No,wewon’t,mydear。”hesaid,withagenerousshameforhishypocrisyifnotwithapuregenerosity。“I’vegotallthegoodoutofitthattherewasinit,forme,andIshouldn’tgohomeanybettersixmonthshencethanIshouldnow。Italywillkeepforanothertime,andso,forthematterofthat,willHolland。”
“No,no!”sheinterposed。“Wewon’tgiveupHolland,whateverwedo。
Icouldn’tgohomefeelingthatIhadkeptyououtofyourafter-cure;
andwhenwegetthere,nodoubttheseaairwillbringmeupsothatI
shallwanttogotoItaly,too,again。Thoughitseemssofaroff,now!
ButgoandseewhentheafternoontrainfortheHagueleaves,andIshallbeready。Mymind’squitemadeuponthatpoint。”
“Whatabundleofenergy!”saidherhusbandlaughingdownather。
HewentandaskedaboutthetraintotheHague,butonlytosatisfyasuperficialconscience;fornowheknewthattheywerebothofonemindaboutgoinghome。HealsolookedupthetrainsforLondon,andfoundthattheycouldgettherebywayofOstendinfourteenhours。Thenhewentbacktothebanker’s,andwiththehelpoftheParis-NewYorkChroniclewhichhefoundthere,hegotthesailingsofthefirststeamershome。AfterthathestrolledaboutthestreetsforalastimpressionofDusseldorf,butitwasratherblurredbytheconstantlyrecurringpullofhisthoughtstowardAmerica,andheendedbyturningabruptlyatacertaincorner,andgoingtohishotel。
Hefoundhiswifedressed,butfallenagainonherbed,besidewhichherbreakfaststoodstilluntasted;hersmilerespondedwanlytohisbrightness。“I’mnotwell,mydear。”shesaid。“Idon’tbelieveIcouldgetofftotheHaguethisafternoon。”