第73章
加入书架 A- A+
点击下载App,搜索"Their Silver Wedding Journey",免费读到尾

  UponthewholeheblamedHeinelessthanGermanyandheaccusedheroftakingashabbyrevenge,intryingtoforgethim;intheheatofhisresentmentthatthereshouldbenorecordofHeineinthecitywherehewasborn,MarchcamenearignoringhimselfthefactthatthepoetFreiligrathwasalsobornthere。AsforthefamousDusseldorfschoolofpainting,whichoncefilledtheworldwiththeworstart,herejoicedthatitwasnowsodead,andhegrudgedtheglancewhichthebeautyofthenewArtAcademyextortedfromhim。ItisintheFrenchtaste,andissofaramonumenttothecontinuanceinonesortofthatFrenchsupremacy,ofwhichinanothersortanotherdenkmalcelebratestheoverthrow。DusseldorfisnotcontentwiththedenkmaloftheKaiseronhorseback,withthetwoVictoriesforgrooms;thereisasecond,whichtheMarchesfoundwhentheystrolledoutagainlateintheafternoon。Itisinthelovelyparkwhichliesintheheartofthecity,andtheyfeltinitspresencetheonlyemotionofsympathywhichthemanypatrioticmonumentsofGermanyawakenedinthem。Ithaddignityandrepose,whichtheseneverhadelsewhere;butitwasperhapsnotsomuchforthedyingwarriorandthepityinglionofthesculpturethattheirheartsweremovedasforthegentleandmournfulhumanityoftheinscription,whichdroppedintoequivalentEnglishverseinMarch’snote-book:

  FamewasenoughfortheVictors,andgloryandverdurouslaurel;

  Tearsbytheirmothersweptfoundedthisimageofstone。

  Tothistheycouldforgivethevauntingrecord,onthereverse,oftheGermansoldierswhodiedheroesinthewarwithFrance,thewarwithAustria,andeventhewarwithpoorlittleDenmark!

  Themorninghadbeenbrightandwarm,anditwasjustthattheafternoonshouldbedimandcold,withapalesunlookingthroughaSeptembermist,whichseemedtodeepentheseclusionandsilenceoftheforestreaches;

  fortheparkwasreallyaforestoftheGermansort,asparksareapttobeinGermany。Butitwasbeautiful,andtheystrayedthroughit,andsometimessatdownonthebenchesinitsdampshadows,andsaidhowmuchseemedtobedoneinGermanyforthepeople’scomfortandpleasure。Inwhatwastheirownexplicitly,aswellaswhatwastacitlytheirs,theywerenotsorestrictedaswewereathome,andespeciallythechildrenseemedmadefondlyandlovinglyfreeofallpublicthings。TheMarchesmettroopsofthemintheforest,astheystrolledslowlybackbythewindingDusseltothegardenedavenueleadingtothepark,andtheyfoundthemeverywheregayandjoyful。Buttheireldersseemedsubdued,andweresilent。ThestrangersheardnosoundoflaughterinthestreetsofDusseldorf,andtheysawnosmilingexceptonthepartofaveryoldcouple,whosemeetingtheywitnessedandwhogrinnedandcackledateachotherliketwochildrenastheyshookhands。Perhapstheywereindeedchildrenofthatsadsecondchildhoodwhichonewouldrathernotblossombackinto。

  InAmerica,lifeisyetajokewithus,evenwhenitisgrotesqueandshameful,asitsooftenis;forwethinkwecanmakeitrightwhenwechoose。ButthereisnojokinginGermany,betweenthefirstandsecondchildhoods,unlessbehindcloseddoors。Eventhere,peopledonotjokeabovetheirbreathaboutkingsandemperors。Iftheyjokeabouttheminprint,theytakeouttheirlaughinjail,forthepresslawsareseverelyenforced,andtheprisonsarefullofableeditors,seriousaswellascomic。Lese-majestyisacrimethatsearchessinnersoutineverywalkoflife,anditissaidthatinfamilyjarsahusbandsometimeshasthelastwordofhiswifebyaccusingherofblasphemingthesovereign,andsohavinghersilencedforthreemonthsatleastbehindpenitentialbars。

  “Think。”saidMarch,“howsimplyIcouldadjustanydifferencesofopinionbetweenusinDusseldorf。”

  “Don’t!”hiswifeimploredwithaburstoffeelingwhichsurprisedhim。

  “Iwanttogohome!”

  Theyhadbeentalkingovertheirday,andplanningtheirjourneytoHollandforthemorrow,whenitcametothisoutburstfromherinthelasthalf-hourbeforebedwhichtheysatprolongingbesidetheirstove。

  “What!AndnotgotoHolland?Whatistobecomeofmyafter-cure?”

  “Oh,it’stoolateforthat,now。We’veusedupthemonthrunningabout,andtiringourselvestodeath。Ishouldliketorestaweek——togetintomyberthontheNorumbiaandrest!”

  “IguesstheSeptembergaleswouldhavesomethingtosayaboutthat。”

  “IwouldrisktheSeptembergales。”

  InthemorningMarchcamehomefromhisbankersgaywiththeday’sprovisionalsunshineinhisheart,andjoyouslyexpectantofhiswife’spleasureinthelettershewasbringing。Therewasonefromeachoftheirchildren,andtherewasonefromFulkerson,whichMarchopenedandreadonthestreet,soastointerceptanyunpleasantnewstheremightbeinthem;thereweretwolettersforMrs。MarchwhichheknewwithoutopeningwerefromMissTriscoeandMrs。Addingrespectively;Mrs。

  Adding’s,fromthepostmarks,seemedtohavebeenfollowingthemaboutforsometime。

  “They’reallrightathome。”hesaid。“Doseewhatthosepeoplehavebeendoing。”

  “Ibelieve。”shesaid,takingaknifefromthebreakfasttraybesideherbedtocuttheenvelopes,“thatyou’vereallycaredmoreaboutthemallalongthanIhave。”

  “No,I’veonlybeenanxioustobedonewiththem。”

  Shegotthelettersopen,andholdingoneofthemupineachhandshereadthemimpartiallyandsimultaneously;thensheflungthembothdown,andturnedherfaceintoherpillowwithanimpulseofherinalienablegirlishness。“Well,itistoosilly。”

  Marchfeltauthorizedtotakethemupandreadthemconsecutively;whenhehaddone,sohedidnotdifferfromhiswife。Inonecase,AgathahadwrittentoherdearMrs。MarchthatsheandBurnamyhadjustthateveningbecomeengaged;Mrs。Adding,onherpartownedafartherstep,andannouncedhermarriagetoMr。Kenby。FollowingimmemorialusageinsuchmattersKenbyhadaddedapostscriptaffirminghishappinessinunsparingterms,andinAgatha’slettertherewasanavowaloflikeeffectfromBurnamy。AgathahintedherbeliefthatherfatherwouldsooncometoregardBurnamyasshedid;andMrs。Addingprofessedacertainhumiliationinhavingrealizedthat,afterallhermisgivingabouthim,Roseseemedratherrelievedthanotherwise,asifheweregladtohaveheroffhishands。

  “Well。”saidMarch,“withthesetroublesomeaffairssettled,Idon’tseewhatthereistokeepusinEuropeanylonger,unlessit’stheconsensusofopinioninTom,Bella,andFulkerson,thatweoughttostaythewinter。”

  “Staythewinter!”Mrs。Marchrosefromherpillow,andclutchedthehomeletterstoherfromtheabeyanceinwhichtheyhadfallenonthecoverletwhileshewasdealingwiththeothers。“Whatdoyoumean?”

  “Itseemstohavebeenpromptedbyahintyouletdrop,whichTomhaspassedtoBellaandFulkerson。”

  “Oh,butthatwasbeforeweleftCarlsbad!”sheprotested,whileshedevouredtheletterswithhereyes,andcontinuedtodenouncetheabsurdityofthewriters。Hersonanddaughterbothurgedthatnowtheirfatherandmotherwereoverthere,theyhadbetterstayaslongastheyenjoyedit,andthattheycertainlyoughtnottocomehomewithoutgoingtoItaly,wheretheyhadfirstmet,andrevisitingtheplaceswhichtheyhadseentogetherwhentheywereyoungengagedpeople:withoutthattheirsilverweddingjourneywouldnotbecomplete。Hersonsaidthateverythingwasgoingwellwith’EveryOtherWeek’,andbothhimselfandMr。FulkersonthoughthisfatheroughttospendthewinterinItaly,andgetathoroughrest。“Makeajobofit,March。”Fulkersonwrote,“andhaveaSabbaticalyearwhileyou’reatit。Youmaynotgetanother。”

  “Well,Icantellthem。”saidMrs。Marchindignantly,“weshallnotdoanythingofthekind。”

  “Thenyoudidn’tmeanit?”

  “Meanit!”Shestoppedherselfwithalookatherhusband,andaskedgently,“Doyouwanttostay?”

  “Well,Idon’tknow。”heansweredvaguely。Thefactwas,hewassickoftravelandofleisure;hewaslongingtobeathomeandatworkagain。

  Butiftherewastobeanyself-sacrificewhichcouldbehad,asitwere,atabargain;whichcouldbefairlydividedbetweenthem,andleavehimtheselfandherthesacrifice,hewastooexperiencedahusbandnottoseetheadvantageofit,ortorefusethemerit。“Ithoughtyouwishedtostay。”

  “Yes。”shesighed,“Idid。Ithasbeenvery,verypleasant,and,ifanything,Ihaveover-enjoyedmyself。Wehavegonerompingthroughitliketwoyoungpeople,haven’twe?”

  “Youhave。”heassented。“Ihavealwaysfelttheweightofmyyearsingettingthebaggageregistered;theyhavemadethebaggageweighmoreeverytime。”

  “AndI’veforgottenmine。Yes,Ihave。Buttheyearshaven’tforgottenme,Basil,andnowIrememberthem。I’mtired。Itdoesn’tseemasifI

  couldevergetup。ButIdaresayit’sonlyamood;itmaybeonlyacold;andifyouwishtostay,why——wewillthinkitover。”

  “No,wewon’t,mydear。”hesaid,withagenerousshameforhishypocrisyifnotwithapuregenerosity。“I’vegotallthegoodoutofitthattherewasinit,forme,andIshouldn’tgohomeanybettersixmonthshencethanIshouldnow。Italywillkeepforanothertime,andso,forthematterofthat,willHolland。”

  “No,no!”sheinterposed。“Wewon’tgiveupHolland,whateverwedo。

  Icouldn’tgohomefeelingthatIhadkeptyououtofyourafter-cure;

  andwhenwegetthere,nodoubttheseaairwillbringmeupsothatI

  shallwanttogotoItaly,too,again。Thoughitseemssofaroff,now!

  ButgoandseewhentheafternoontrainfortheHagueleaves,andIshallbeready。Mymind’squitemadeuponthatpoint。”

  “Whatabundleofenergy!”saidherhusbandlaughingdownather。

  HewentandaskedaboutthetraintotheHague,butonlytosatisfyasuperficialconscience;fornowheknewthattheywerebothofonemindaboutgoinghome。HealsolookedupthetrainsforLondon,andfoundthattheycouldgettherebywayofOstendinfourteenhours。Thenhewentbacktothebanker’s,andwiththehelpoftheParis-NewYorkChroniclewhichhefoundthere,hegotthesailingsofthefirststeamershome。AfterthathestrolledaboutthestreetsforalastimpressionofDusseldorf,butitwasratherblurredbytheconstantlyrecurringpullofhisthoughtstowardAmerica,andheendedbyturningabruptlyatacertaincorner,andgoingtohishotel。

  Hefoundhiswifedressed,butfallenagainonherbed,besidewhichherbreakfaststoodstilluntasted;hersmilerespondedwanlytohisbrightness。“I’mnotwell,mydear。”shesaid。“Idon’tbelieveIcouldgetofftotheHaguethisafternoon。”

点击下载App,搜索"Their Silver Wedding Journey",免费读到尾