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  “It’sworsethanKenby。”shesaidwithasigh。“YouknowItoldyouatCarlsbadIthoughtthatric1icnlousoldthingwasmakinguptoMrs。

  Adding。”

  “Kenby?Whyofco——“

  “Don’tbestupid,mydear!No,notKenby:GeneralTriscoe。Iwishyoucouldhavebeenheretoseehimpayingherallsort;ofsillyattentions,andhearhimmakinghercompliments。”

  “Thankyou。IthinkI’mjustaswellwithoutit。Didshepayhimsillyattentionsandcompliments,too?”

  “That’stheonlythingthatcanmakemeforgiveherforhiswantingher。

  Shewaskeepinghimatarm’s-lengththewholetime,andshewasdoingitsoasnottomakehimcontemptiblebeforehisdaughter。”

  “Itmusthavebeenhard。AndRose?”

  “Rosedidn’tseemverywell。Helooksthinandpale;buthe’ssweeterthanever。She’scertainlycommonerclaythanRose。No,Iwon’tsaythat!It’sreallynothingbutGeneralTriscoe’sbeinganoldgooseaboutherthatmakesherseemso,anditisn’tfair。”

  MarchwentdowntohiscoffeeinthemorningwiththedelicatedutyoftellingKenbythatMrs。Addingwasintown。Kenbyseemedtothinkitquitenaturalsheshouldwishtoseethemanoeuvres,andnotatallstrangethatsheshouldcometothemwithGeneralTriscoeandhisdaughter。HeaskedifMarchwouldnotgowithhimtocalluponherafterbreakfast,andasthiswasinthelineofhisowninstructionsfromMrs。

  March,hewent。

  TheyfoundMrs。AddingwiththeTriscoes,andMarchsawnothingthatwasnotmerelyfriendly,oratthemostfatherly,inthegeneral’sbehaviortowardher。IfMrs。AddingorMissTriscoesawmore,theyhiditinaguiseofsisterlyaffectionforeachother。Atthemostthegeneralshowedagayetywhichonewouldnothaveexpectedofhimunderanyconditions,andwhichthefactthatheandRosehadkepteachotherawakeagooddealthenightbeforeseemedsolittleadaptedtocallout。HejokedwithRoseabouttheirroomandtheirbeds,andputonacomraderywithhimthatwasnotaperfectfit,andthatsufferedbycontrastwiththepleasureoftheboyandKenbyinmeeting。TherewasacertainquestionintheattitudeofMrs。AddingtillMarchhelpedKenbytoaccountforhispresence;thensherelaxedinaneffectofsecuritysotacitthatwordsoverstateit,andbegantomakefunofRose。

  MarchcouldnotfindthatMissTriscoelookedunhappy,ashiswifehadsaid;hethoughtsimplythatshehadgrownplainer;butwhenhereportedthis,shelostherpatiencewithhim。Inagirl,shesaid,plainnesswasunhappiness;andshewishedtoknowwhenhewouldeverlearntolookaninchbelowthesurface:ShewassurethatAgathaTriscoehadnotheardfromBurnamysincetheEmperor’sbirthday;thatshewasatswords’-pointswithherfather,andsodesperatethatshedidnotcarewhatbecameofher。

  HehadleftKenbywiththeothers,andnow,afterhiswifehadtalkedherselftiredofthemall,heproposedgoingoutagaintolookaboutthecity,wheretherewasnothingforthemomenttoremindthemofthepresenceoftheirfriendsorevenoftheirexistence。Sheansweredthatshewasworryingaboutallthosepeople,andtryingtoworkouttheirproblemforthem。Heaskedwhyshedidnotletthemworkitoutthemselvesastheywouldhavetodo,afterallherworry,andshesaidthatwherehersympathyhadbeenexcitedshecouldnotstopworrying,whetheritdidanygoodornot,andshecouldnotrespectanyonewhocoulddropthingssocompletelyoutofhismindashecould;shehadneverbeenabletorespectthatinhim。

  “Iknow,mydear。”heassented。“ButIdon’tthinkit’saquestionofmoralresponsibility;it’saquestionofmentalstructure,isn’tit?

  Yourconsciousnessisn’tbuiltinthought-tightcompartments,andoneemotiongoesallthroughit,andsinksyou;butIsimplyclosethedoorsandshuttheemotionin,andkeepon。”

  Thefancypleasedhimsomuchthatheworkeditoutinallitsimplications,andcouldnot,aftertheirlongexperienceofeachother,realizethatshewasnotenjoyingthejoketoo,tillshesaidshesawthathemerelywishedtotease。Then,toolate,hetriedtoshareherworry;butsheprotestedthatshewasnotworryingatall;thatshecarednothingaboutthosepeople:thatshewasnervous,shewastired;andshewishedhewouldleaveher,andgooutalone。

  Hefoundhimselfinthestreetagain,andheperceivedthathemustbewalkingfastwhenavoicecalledhimbyname,andaskedhimwhathishurrywas。ThevoicewasStoller’s,whogotintostepwithhimandfollowedthefirstwithasecondquestion。

  “Madeupyourmindtogotothemanoeuvreswithme?”

  HisbluntnessmadeiteasyforMarchtoanswer:“I’mafraidmywifecouldn’tstandthedrivebackandforth。”

  “Comewithouther。”

  “Thankyou。It’sverykindofyon。I’mnotcertainthatIshallgoatall。IfIdo,Ishallrunoutbytrain,andtakemychanceswiththecrowd。”

  Stollerinsistednofurther。Hefeltnooffenceattherefusalofhisoffer,orchosetoshownone。Hesaid,withthesameuncouthabruptnessasbefore:“HeardanythingofthatfellowsinceheleftCarlsbad?”

  “Burnamy?”

  “Mm。”

  “No。”

  “Knowwhereheis?”

  “Idon’tintheleast。”

  Stollerletanothersilenceelapsewhiletheyhurriedon,beforehesaid,“Igottothinkingwhathedone-afterwards。Hewasn’tboundtolookoutforme;hemightsupposeIknewwhatIwasabout。”

  MarchturnedhisfaceandstaredinStoller’s,whichhewaslettinghangforwardashestampedheavilyon。Hadthedisasterprovedlessthanhehadfeared,anddidhestillwantBurnamy’shelpinpatchingupthebrokenpieces;ordidhereallywishtodoBurnamyjusticetohisfriend?

  InanycaseMarch’sdutywasclear。“IthinkBurnamywasboundtolookoutforyou;Mr。Stoller,andIamgladtoknowthathesawitinthesamelight。”

  “Iknowhedid。”saidStokerwithablazeasfromalong-smoulderingfury,“anddamnhim,I’mnotgoingtohaveit。I’mnotgoingto,pleadthebabyactwithhim,orwithanyman。Youtellhimso,whenyougetthechance。YoutellhimIdon’tholdhimaccountableforanythingI

  madehimdo。Thatain’tbusiness;Idon’twanthimaroundme,anymore;

  butifhewantstogobacktothepaperhecanhavehisplace。YoutellhimIstandbywhatIdone;andit’sallrightbetweenhimandme。

  Ihain’tdoneanythingaboutit,thewayIwantedhimtohelpmeto;I’veletitlay,andI’ma-goingto。Iguessitain’tgoingtodomeanyharm,afterall;ourpeoplehain’tgotverylongmemories;butifitis,letit。Youtellhimit’sallright。”

  “Idon’tknowwhereheis,Mr。Stoller,andIdon’tknowthatIcaretobethebearerofyourmessage。”saidMarch。

  “Whynot?”

  “Why,foronething,Idon’tagreewithyouthatit’sallright。YourchoosingtostandbytheconsequencesofBurnamy’swrongdoesn’tundoit。

  AsIunderstand,youdon’tpardonit——“

  Stollergulpedanddidnotansweratonce。Thenhesaid,“IstandbywhatIdone。I’mnotgoingtolethimsayIturnedhimdownfordoingwhatItoldhimto,becauseIhadn’tthesensetoknowwhatIwasabout。”

  “Ah,Idon’tthinkit’sathinghe’llliketospeakofinanycase。”saidMarch。

  Stollerlefthim,atthecornertheyhadreached,asabruptlyashehadjoinedhim,andMarchhurriedbacktohiswife,andtoldherwhathadjustpassedbetweenhimandStoller。

  Shebrokeout,“Well,Iamsurprisedatyou,mydear!Youhavealwaysaccusedmeofsuspectingpeople,andattributingbadmotives;andhereyou’verefusedeventogivethepoormanthebenefitofthedoubt。Hemerelywantedtosavehissavagepridewithyou,andthat’sallhewantstodowithBurnamy。HowcouldithurtthepoorboytoknowthatStollerdoesn’tblamehim?WhyshouldyourefusetogivehismessagetoBurnamy?

  Idon’twantyoutoridiculemeformyconscienceanymore,Basil;you’retwiceasbadasIeverwas。Don’tyouthinkthatapersoncaneverexpiateanoffence?I’veoftenheardyousaythatifanyoneownedhisfault,heputitfromhim,anditwasthesameasifithadn’tbeen;andhasn’tBurnamyownedupoverandoveragain?I’mastonishedatyou,dearest。”

  Marchwasinfactsomewhatastonishedathimselfinthelightofherreasoning;butshewentonwithsomesophistriesthatrestoredhimtohisself-righteousness。

  “IsupposeyouthinkhehasinterferedwithStoller’spoliticalambition,andinjuredhiminthatway。Well,whatifhehas?Woulditbeagoodthingtohaveamanlikethatsucceedinpolitics?You’realwayssayingthatthelowcharacterofourpoliticiansistheruinofthecountry;andI’msure。”sheadded,withaprodigiousleapoverallthesequences,“thatMr。Stollerisactingnobly;andit’syourdutytohelphimrelieveBurnamy’smind。”Atthelaughhebrokeintoshehastenedtosay,“Orifyouwon’t,Ihopeyou’llnotobjecttomydoingso,forIshall,anyway!”

  Sheroseasifsheweregoingtobeginatonce,inspiteofhislaughing;

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