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  “HewasgoingtowriteaboutitforthatpaperinParis。”Thegirlhadtheeffectofgatheringhercourageupforaboldplunge。Shelookedsteadilyatherfather,andadded:“Hesaidhecamebackbecausehecouldn’thelpit。He——wishedtospeakwithme,HesaidheknewhehadnorighttosupposeIcaredanythingaboutwhathadhappenedwithhimandMr。Stoller。Hewantedtocomebackandtellme——that。”

  Herfatherwaitedforhertogoon,butapparentlyshewasgoingtoleavethewordtohim,now。Hehesitatedtotakeit,butheaskedatlastwithamildnessthatseemedtosurpriseher,“Haveyouheardanythingfromhimsince?”

  “No。”

  “Whereishe?”

  “Idon’tknow。ItoldhimIcouldnotsaywhathewished;thatImusttellyouaboutit。”

  ThecasewaslesssimplethanitwouldoncehavebeenforGeneralTriscoe。Therewasstillhisaffectionforhisdaughter,hiswishforherhappiness,butthishadalwaysbeensubordinatetohissenseofhisowninterestandcomfort,andaquestionhadrecentlyarisenwhichputhispaternalloveanddutyinanewlight。Hewasnomoreexplicitwithhimselfthanothermenare,andthemostwhichcouldeverbesaidofhimwithoutinjusticewasthatinhisdependenceuponherhewouldratherhavekepthisdaughtertohimselfifshecouldnothavebeenveryprosperouslymarried。Ontheotherhand,ifhedislikedthemanforwhomshenowhardlyhidherliking,hewasnotjustthenreadytogotoextremesconcerninghim。

  “Hewasveryanxious。”shewenton,“thatyoushouldknowjusthowitwas。Hethinkseverythingofyourjudgmentand——and——opinion。”Thegeneralmadeaconsentingnoiseinhisthroat。“Hesaidthathedidnotwishmeto’whitewash’himtoyou。Hedidn’tthinkhehaddoneright;hedidn’texcusehimself,oraskyoutoexcusehimunlessyoucouldfromthestand-pointofagentleman。”

  Thegeneralmadealessconsentingnoiseinhisthroat,andasked,“Howdoyoulookatit,yourself,Agatha?”

  “Idon’tbelieveIquiteunderstandit;butMrs。March——“

  “Oh,Mrs。March!”thegeneralsnorted。

  “——saysthatMr。MarchdoesnotthinksobadlyofitasMr。Burnamydoes。”

  “Idoubtit。Atanyrate,IunderstoodMarchquitedifferently。”

  “ShesaysthathethinkshebehavedverynoblyafterwardswhenMr。

  Stollerwantedhimtohelphimputafalsecomplexiononit;thatitwasallthemoredifficultforhimtodorightthen,becauseofhisremorseforwhathehaddonebefore。”Asshespokeonshehadbecomemoreeager。

  “There’ssomethinginthat。”thegeneraladmitted,withacandorthathemadethemostofbothtohimselfandtoher。“ButIshouldliketoknowwhatStollerhadtosayofitall。Isthereanything。”heinquired,“anyreasonwhyIneedbemoreexplicitaboutit,justnow?”

  “N——no。Only,Ithought——Hethinkssomuchofyouropinionthat——if——“

  “Oh,hecanverywellaffordtowait。Ifhevaluesmyopinionsohighlyhecangivemetimetomakeupmymind。”

  “Ofcourse——“

  “AndI’mnotresponsible。”thegeneralcontinued,significantly,“forthedelayaltogether。Ifyouhadtoldmethisbefore——Now,Idon’tknowwhetherStollerisstillintown。”

  Hewasnotbehavingopenlywithher;butshehadnotbehavedopenlywithhim。Sheownedthattoherself,andshegotwhatcomfortshecouldfromhismakingtheaffairaquestionofwhatBurnamyhaddonetoStollerratherthanofwhatBurnamyhadsaidtoher,andwhatshehadansweredhim。Ifshewasnotperfectlyclearastowhatshewantedtodo,orwishedtohavehappen,therewasnowtimeandplaceinwhichshecoulddelayandmakesure。Theacceptedtheoryofsuchmattersisthatpeopleknowtheirmindsfromthebeginning,andthattheydonotchangethem。

  Butexperienceseemstocontradictthistheory,orelsepeopleoftenactcontrarytotheirconvictionsandimpulses。Ifthestatisticswereaccessible,itmightbefoundthatmanypotentialengagementshoveredinadoubtfulair,andbeforetheytouchedtheearthinactualpromiseweredissipatedbytheplayofmeteorologicalchances。

  WhenGeneralTriscoeputdownhisnapkininrisinghesaidthathewouldsteproundtoPupp’sandseeifStollerwerestillthere。ButonthewayhesteppeduptoMrs。Adding’shotelonthehill,andhecameback,afteranintervalwhichheseemednottohavefoundlong,toreportrathercasuallythatStollerhadleftCarlsbadthedaybefore。BythistimethefactseemednottoconcernAgathaherselfveryvitally。

  HeaskediftheMarcheshadleftanyaddresswithher,andsheansweredthattheyhadnot。TheyweregoingtospendafewdaysinNuremberg,andthenpushontoHollandforMr。March’safter-cure。TherewasnorelevanceinhisquestionunlessitintimatedhisbeliefthatshewasinconfidentialcorrespondencewithMrs。March,andshemetthisbysayingthatshewasgoingtowriteherincareoftheirbankers;sheaskedwhetherhewishedtosendanyword。

  “No。Iunderstand。”heintimated,“thatthereisnothingatallinthenatureofa——a——anunderstanding,then,with——“

  “No,nothing。”

  “Hm!”Thegeneralwaitedamoment。Thenheventured,“Doyoucaretosay——doyouwishmetoknow——howhetookit?”

  Thetearscameintothegirl’seyes,butshegovernedherselftosay,“He——hewasdisappointed。”

  “Hehadnorighttobedisappointed。”

  Itwasaquestion,andsheanswered:“Hethoughthehad。Hesaid——thathewouldn’t——troublemeanymore。”

  Thegeneraldidnotaskatonce,“Andyoudon’tknowwhereheisnow——youhaven’theardanythingfromhimsince?”

  Agathaflashedthroughhertears,“Papa!”

  “Oh!Ibegyourpardon。Ithinkyoutoldme。”

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  byWilliamDeanHowellsPARTIII。

  Atthefirststationwherethetrainstopped,ayoungGermanbowedhimselfintothecompartmentwiththeMarches,andsovisiblyresistedanimpulsetosmokethatMarchbeggedhimtolighthiscigarette。Inthetalkwhichthisfriendlyovertureledtobetweenthemheexplainedthathewasarailwayarchitect,employedbythegovernmentonthatlineofroad,andwastravellingofficially。MarchspokeofNuremberg;heownedthesortofsurfeithehadsufferedfromitsexcessivemediaevalism,andtheyoungmansaiditwaspartofthenewimperialpatriotismtocherishtheGothicthroughoutGermany;noothersortofarchitecturewaspermittedinNuremberg。ButtheywouldfindenoughclassicismatAnsbach,hepromisedthem,andheenteredwithsympatheticintelligenceintotheirwishtoseethisformercapitalwhenMarchtoldhimtheyweregoingtostopthere,inhopesofsomethingtypicaloftheolddisjointedGermanyofthepettyprincipalities,thelittlepaternaldespotismsnowextinct。

  Astheytalkedon,partlyinGermanandpartlyinEnglish,theirpurposeinvisitingAnsbachappearedtotheMarchesmoremeditatedthanitwas。

  Infactitwassomewhataccidental;AnsbachwasnearNuremberg;itwasnotmuchoutofthewaytoHolland。Theytookmoreandmorecredittothemselvesforareasonedanddefinitemotive,inthelightoftheircompanion’senthusiasmfortheplace,anditscharmbeganforthemwiththedrivefromthestationthroughstreetswhosesentimentwasbothItalianandFrench,andwheretherewasayellowishcastinthegrayofthearchitecturewhichwasalmostMantuan。Theyrestedtheirsensibilities,sobruisedandfrettedbyGothicanglesandpoints,againstthesmoothsurfacesoftheprevailingclassicisticfacadesofthehousesastheypassed,andwhentheyarrivedattheirhotel,anoldmansionofVersaillestype,frontingonalongirregularsquareplantedwithpollardsycamores,theysaidthatitmightaswellhavebeenLucca。

  ThearchwayandstairwayofthehotelweredrapedwiththeBavariancolors,andtheywereobscurelyflatteredtolearnthatPrinceLeopold,thebrotherofthePrince-Regentofthekingdom,hadtakenroomsthere,onhiswaytothemanoeuvresatNuremberg,andwasmomentlyexpectedwithhissuite。Theyrealizedthattheywerenotoftheprincelyparty,however,whentheyweretoldthathehadsolepossessionofthedining-

  room,andtheywentouttoanotherhotel,andhadtheirsupperinkeepingdelightfullynative。Peopleseemedtocometheretowritetheirlettersandmakeuptheiraccounts,aswellastoeattheirsuppers;theycalledforstationerylikecharactersinoldcomedy,andtheclatterofcrockeryandthescratchingofpenswentontogether;andfortuneofferedtheMarchesadelicatereparationfortheirexclusionfromtheirownhotelinthecoldpopularreceptionoftheprincewhichtheygotbackjustintimetowitness。Averysmallgroupofpeople,mostlywomenandboys,hadgatheredtoseehimarrive,buttherewasnocheeringoranysignofpublicinterest。Perhapshepersonallymeritednone;helookedadull,sadman,withhisplain,stubbedfeatures;andafterhehadmountedtohisapartment,theofficersofhisstaffstoodquiteacrossthelanding,andbarredthepassageoftheAmericans,ignoringevenMrs。March’spresence,astheytalkedtogether。

  “Well,mydear。”saidherhusband,“hereyouhaveitatlast。Thisiswhatyou’vebeenlivingfor,eversincewecametoGermany。It’sagreatmoment。”

  “Yes。Whatareyougoingtodo?”

  “Who?I?Oh,nothing!Thisisyouraffair;it’sforyoutoact。”

  Ifshehadbeenyoung,shemighthavewitheredthemwithaglance;shedoubtednowifherdimeyeswouldhaveanysuchpower;butsheadvancedsteadilyuponthem,andthentheofficersseemedawareofher,andstoodaside。

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