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  “Youneedtherest。”saidtheBusinessEnd;“andyourwifewantsyoutogo,aswellasyourdoctor。Besides,it’syourSabbaticalyear,andyou,couldsendbackalotofstuffforthemagazine。”

  “IsthatyournotionofaSabbaticalyear?“askedtheeditor。

  “No;Ithrowthatoutasabaittoyourconscience。Youneedn’twritealinewhileyou’regone。Iwishyouwouldn’tforyourownsake;althougheverynumberthathasn’tgotyouinitisabacknumberforme。”

  “That’sveryniceofyou,Fulkerson。”saidtheeditor。“Isupposeyourealizethatit’snineyearssincewetook’EveryOtherWeek’fromDryfoos?”

  “Well,thatmakesitallthemoreSabbatical。”saidFulkerson。“Thetwoextrayearsthatyou’veputinhere,overandabovetheoldstyleSabbaticalseven,arejustsomuchmoretoyourcredit。Itwasyourrighttogo,twoyearsago,andnowit’syourduty。Couldn’tyoulookatitinthatlight?”

  “IdaresayMrs。Marchcould。”theeditorassented。“Idon’tbelieveshecouldbebroughttoregarditasapleasureonanyotherterms。”

  “Ofcoursenot。”saidFulkerson。“Ifyouwon’ttakeayear,takethreemonths,andcallitaSabbaticalsummer;butgo,anyway。Youcanmakeuphalfadozennumbersahead,andTom,here,knowsyourwayssowellthatyouneedn’tthinkabout’EveryOtherWeek’fromthetimeyoustarttillthetimeyoutrytobribethecustomsinspectorwhenyougetback。Icantakeahackattheeditingmyself,ifTom’sinspirationgivesout,andputalittleofmyadvertisingfireintothething。”Helaidhishandontheshoulderoftheyoungfellowwhostoodsmilingby,andpushedandshookhiminthelikingtherewasbetweenthem。“Nowyougo,March!

  Mrs。FulkersonfeelsjustasIdoaboutit;wehadouroutinglastyear,andwewantMrs。Marchandyoutohaveyours。Youletmegodownandengageyourpassage,and——“

  “No,no!”theeditorrebelled。“I’llthinkaboutit;“butasheturnedtotheworkhewassofondofandsowearyof,hetriednottothinkofthequestionagain,tillheclosedhisdeskintheafternoon,andstartedtowalkhome;thedoctorhadsaidheoughttowalk,andhedidso,thoughhelongedtoride,andlookedwistfullyatthepassingcars。

  Heknewhewasinarut,ashiswifeoftensaid;butifitwasarut,itwasasupporttoo;itkepthimfromwobbling:Shealwaystalkedasifthefloweryfieldsofyouthlayoneithersideofthedustyroadhehadbeengoingsolong,andhehadbuttostepasidefromit,tobeamongthebutterfliesandbuttercupsagain;hesometimesindulgedthisillusion,himself,inacertainironicalspiritwhichcaressedwhileitmockedthenotion。Theyhadatacitagreementthattheiryouth,iftheywereevertofinditagain,wastobelookedforinEurope,wheretheymetwhentheywereyoung,andtheyhadneverbeenquitewithoutthehopeofgoingbackthere,someday,foralongsojourn。Theyhadnotseenthetimewhentheycoulddoso;theyweredreamers,but,astheyrecognized,evendreamingisnotfreefromcare;andinhisdreamMarchhadbeenobligedtoworkprettysteadily,ifnottoointensely。Hehadbeenforcedtoforegothedistinctlyliteraryambitionwithwhichhehadstartedinlifebecausehehadtheircommonlivingtomake,andhecouldnotmakeitbywritinggracefulverse,orevengracefulprose。Hehadbeenmanyyearsinasufficientlydistastefulbusiness,andhehadlostanythoughtofleavingitwhenitlefthim,perhapsbecausehisholdonithadalwaysbeenratherlax,andhehadnotbeenabletoconcealthathedislikedit。

  Atanyrate,hewassupplantedinhisinsuranceagencyatBostonbyasubordinateinhisoffice,andthoughhewasatthesametimeofferedaplaceofnominalcreditintheemployofthecompany,hewasabletodeclineitingraceofachancewhichunitedthecharmofcongenialworkwiththesolidadvantageofabettersalarythanhehadbeengettingforworkhehated。Itwasanincrediblechance,butitwasrenderedappreciablyrealbythenecessityitinvolvedthattheyshouldleaveBoston,wheretheyhadlivedalltheirmarriedlife,whereMrs。Marchaswellastheirchildrenwasborn,andwherealltheirtenderandfamiliartieswere,andcometoNewYork,wheretheliteraryenterprisewhichformedhischancewastobefounded。

  Itwasthenamagazineofanewsort,whichhisbusinesspartnerhadimaginedinsuchleisureasthemanagementofanewspapersyndicateaffordedhim,andhadalwaysthoughtofgettingMarchtoedit。Themagazinewhichisalsoabookhassincebeenrealizedelsewhereonmoreorlessprosperousterms,butnotforanylongperiod,and’EveryOtherWeek’wasapparently——theonlyperiodicalofthekindconditionedforsurvival。Itwasatfirstbackedbyunlimitedcapital,andithadtheinstantfavorofapopularmood,whichhassincechanged,butwhichdidnotchangesosoonthatthemagazinehadnottimetoestablishitselfinawideacceptance。Itwasnownolongeranovelty,itwasnolongerinthemaidenblushofitsfirstsuccess,butithadentereduponitssecondyouthwiththereasonablehopeofmanyyearsofprosperitybeforeit。Infactitwasaverycomfortablelivingforallconcerned,andtheMarcheshadtheconditions,almostdismayinglyperfect,inwhichtheyhadoftenpromisedthemselvestogoandbeyoungagaininEurope,whentheyrebelledatfindingthemselveselderlyinAmerica。Theirdaughterwasmarried,andsoverymuchtohermother’smindthatshedidnotworryabouther,eventhoughshelivedsofarawayasChicago,stillawildfrontiertowntoherBostonimagination;andtheirson,assoonasheleftcollege,hadtakenholdon’EveryOtherWeek’,underhisfather’sinstruction,withazealandintelligencewhichwonhimFulkerson’spraiseasachipoftheoldblock。Thesetwolikedeachother,andworkedintoeachother’shandsascordiallyandaptlyasFulkersonandMarchhadeverdone。ItamusedthefathertoseehissonofferingFulkersonthesamedeferencewhichtheBusinessEndpaidtoseniorityinMarchhimself;butinfact,Fulkerson’sforeheadwasgetting,ashesaid,moreintellectualeveryday;andtheyearswerepushingthemallalongtogether。

  Still,Marchhadkeptonintheoldrut,andonedayhefelldowninit。

  Hehadalongsickness,andwhenhewaswellofit,hewassoslowingettinghisgripofworkagainthathewassometimesdeeplydiscouraged。

  Hiswifesharedhisdepression,whetherheshowedorwhetherhehidit,andwhenthedoctoradvisedhisgoingabroad,sheabettedthedoctorwithallthestrengthofawoman’shygienicintuitions。Marchhimselfwillinglyconsented,atfirst;butassoonashegotstrengthforhiswork,hebegantotemporizeandtodemur。HesaidthathebelieveditwoulddohimjustasmuchgoodtogotoSaratoga,wheretheyalwayshadsuchagoodtime,astogotoCarlsbad;andMrs。Marchhadbeenobligedseveraltimestoleavehimtohisownundoing;shealwaystookhimmorevigorouslyinhandafterwards。

  Whenhegothomefromthe’EveryOtherWeek’office,theafternoonofthattalkwiththeBusinessEnd,hewantedtolaughwithhiswifeatFulkerson’snotionofaSabbaticalyear。Shedidnotthinkitwassoverydroll;sheevenurgeditseriouslyagainsthim,asifshehadnowtheauthorityofHolyWritforforcinghimabroad;shefoundnorelishofabsurdityintheideathatitwashisdutytotakethisrestwhichhadbeenhisrightbefore。

  Heabandonedhimselftoafancywhichhadbeenworkingtothesurfaceofhisthought。“WecouldcallitourSilverWeddingJourney,andgoroundtoalltheoldplaces,andseetheminthereflectedlightofthepast。”

  “Oh,wecould!”sheresponded,passionately;andhehadnowthedelicateresponsibilityofpersuadingherthathewasjoking。

  HecouldthinkofnothingbetterthanareturntoFulkerson’sabsurdity。

  “ItwouldbeourSilverWeddingJourneyjustasitwouldbemySabbaticalyear——agooddealafterdate。ButIsupposethatwouldmakeitallthemoresilvery。”

  Shefalteredinherelation。“Didn’tyousayaSabbaticalyearyourself?”shedemanded。

  “Fulkersonsaidit;butitwasafigurativeexpression。”

  “AndIsupposetheSilverWeddingJourneywasafigurativeexpressiontoo!”

  “Itwasanotionthattemptedme;Ithoughtyouwouldenjoyit。Don’tyousupposeIshouldbegladtoo,ifwecouldgoover,andfindourselvesjustaswewerewhenwefirstmetthere?”

  “No;Idon’tbelievenowthatyoucareanythingaboutit。”

  “Well,itcouldn’tbedone,anyway;sothatdoesn’tmatter。”

  “Itcouldbedone,ifyouwereamindtothinkso。Anditwouldbethegreatestinspirationtoyou。Youarealwayslongingforsomechancetodooriginalwork,togetawayfromyourediting,butyou’veletthetimeslipbywithoutreallytryingtodoanything;Idon’tcallthoselittlestudiesofyoursinthemagazineanything;andnowyouwon’ttakethechancethat’salmostforcingitselfuponyou。Youcouldwriteanoriginalbookofthenicestkind;mixuptravelandfiction;getsomelovein。”

  “Oh,that’sthestalestkindofthing!”

  “Well,butyoucouldseeitfromaperfectlynewpointofview。Youcouldlookatitasasortofdispassionatewitness,andtreatithumorously——ofcourseitisridiculous——anddosomethingentirelyfresh。”

  “Itwouldn’twork。Itwouldbecarryingwateronbothshoulders。Thefictionwouldkillthetravel,thetravelwouldkillthefiction;theloveandthehumorwouldn’tmingleanymorethanoilandvinegar。”

  “Well,andwhatisbetterthanasalad?”

  “Butthiswouldbeallsalad-dressing,andnothingtoputiton。”Shewassilent,andheyieldedtoanotherfancy。“Wemightimaginecominguponourformerselvesoverthere,andtravellingroundwiththem——

  aweddingjourney’enpartiecarree’。”

  “Somethinglikethat。Icallitaverypoeticalidea。”shesaidwithasortofprovisionality,asifdistrustinganotherambush。

  “Itisn’tsobad。”headmitted。“Howyoungwewere,inthosedays!”

  “Tooyoungtoknowwhatagoodtimewewerehaving。”shesaid,relaxingherdoubtfortheretrospect。“Idon’tfeelasifIreallysawEurope,then;Iwastooinexperienced,tooignorant,toosimple。Iwouldliketogo,justtomakesurethatIhadbeen。”Hewassmilingagaininthewayhehadwhenanythingoccurredtohimthatamusedhim,andshedemanded,“Whatisit?”

  “Nothing。Iwaswishingwecouldgointheconsciousnessofpeoplewhoactuallyhadn’tbeenbefore——carrythemallthroughEurope,andletthemseeitintheold,simple-heartedAmericanway。”

  Sheshookherhead。“Youcouldn’t!They’veallbeen!”

  “Allbutaboutsixtyorseventymillions。”saidMarch。

  “Well,thosearejustthemillionsyoudon’tknow,andcouldn’timagine。”

  “I’mnotsosureofthat。”

  “Andevenifyoucouldimaginethem,youcouldn’tmaketheminteresting。

  Alltheinterestingoneshavebeen,anyway。”

  “Someoftheuninterestingonestoo。Iused,tomeetsomeofthatsortoverthere。IbelieveIwouldratherchanceitformypleasurewiththosethathadn’tbeen。”

  “Thenwhynotdoit?Iknowyoucouldgetsomethingoutofit。”

  “Itmightbeagoodthing。”hemused,“totakeacouplewhohadpassedtheirwholelifehereinNewYork,toopoorandtoobusyevertogo;andhadaperfectfamineforEuropeallthetime。IcouldhavethemspendtheirSundayafternoonsgoingaboardthedifferentboats,andlookinguptheiraccommodations。Icouldhavethemsail,inimagination,anddiscoveranimaginaryEurope,andgivetheirgrotesquemisconceptionsofitfromtravelsandnovelsagainstabackgroundofpurelyAmericanexperience。Weneedn’tgoabroadtomanagethat。Ithinkitwouldberathernice。”

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