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  ’Yourwork——bah!No,Ididn’tmeanthatIt’sallright,dearOfcourseyoumustdoyourwork,and——IthinkI’llsaygood-byeforthisweek。’

  ’Won’tyouevenstayfortea?

  ’No,thankyouHaveIyourleavetogo,dear?There’snothingmoreyouparticularlywantmetodo,andtheline-workdoesn’tmatter。’

  ’Iwishyoucouldstay,andthenwecouldtalkovermypictureIfonlyonesinglepicture’sasuccess,itdrawsattentiontoalltheothersI

  knowsomeofmyworkisgood,ifonlypeoplecouldseeAndyouneedn’thavebeensorudeaboutit。’

  ’I’msorryWe’lltalktheMelancoliaoversomeoneoftheotherSundays。

  Therearefourmore——yes,one,two,three,four——beforeyougo。

  Good-bye,Maisie。’

  Maisiestoodbythestudiowindow,thinking,tillthered-hairedgirlreturned,alittlewhiteatthecornersofherlips。

  ’Dick’sgoneoff,’saidMaisie’JustwhenIwantedtotalkaboutthepictureIsn’titselfishofhim?’

  Hercompanionopenedherlipsasiftospeak,shutthemagain,andwentonreadingTheCityofDreadfulNight-

  DickwasinthePark,walkingroundandroundatreethathehadchosenashisconfidanteformanySundayspastHewasswearingaudibly,andwhenhefoundthattheinfirmitiesoftheEnglishtonguehemmedinhisrage,hesoughtconsolationinArabic,whichisexpresslydesignedfortheuseoftheafflictedHewasnotpleasedwiththerewardofhispatientservice;norwashepleasedwithhimself;anditwaslongbeforehearrivedatthepropositionthatthequeencoulddonowrong。

  ’It’salosinggame,’hesaid’I’mworthnothingwhenawhimofhersisinquestionButinalosinggameatPortSaidweusedtodoublethestakesandgoonShedoaMelancolia!Shehasn’tthepower,ortheinsight,orthetrainingOnlythedesireShe’scursedwiththecurseofReubenShewon’tdoline-work,becauseitmeansrealwork;andyetshe’sstrongerthanIamI’llmakeherunderstandthatIcanbeatheronherownMelancoliaEventhenshewouldn’tcareShesaysIcanonlydobloodandbonesIdon’tbelieveshehasbloodinherveinsAllthesameI

  loverher;andImustgoonlovingher;andifIcanhumbleherinordinatevanityIwillI’lldoaMelancoliathatshallbesomethinglikeaMelancolia——“theMelancoliathattranscendsallwit。”I’lldoitatonce,con——blessher。’

  Hediscoveredthatthenotionwouldnotcometoorder,andthathecouldnotfreehismindforanhourfromthethoughtofMaisie’sdepartureHetookverysmallinterestinherroughstudiesfortheMelancoliawhensheshowedthemnextweekTheSundayswereracingpast,andthetimewasathandwhenallthechurchbellsinLondoncouldnotringMaisiebacktohimOnceortwicehesaidsomethingtoBinkieabout’hermaphroditicfutilities,’butthelittledogreceivedsomanyconfidencesbothfromTorpenhowandDickthathedidnottroublehistulip-earstolisten。

  DickwaspermittedtoseethegirlsoffTheyweregoingbytheDovernight-boat;andtheyhopedtoreturninAugustItwasthenFebruary,andDickfeltthathewasbeinghardlyusedMaisiewassobusystrippingthesmallhouseacrossthePark,andpackinghercanvases,thatshehadnottimeforthoughtDickwentdowntoDoverandwastedadaytherefrettingoverawonderfulpossibilityWouldMaisieattheverylastallowhimonesmallkiss?Hereflectedthathemightcaptureherbythestrongarm,ashehadseemwomencapturedintheSouthernSoudan,andleadheraway;butMaisiewouldneverbeledShewouldturnhergrayeyesuponhimandsay,’Dick,howselfishyouare!’ThenhiscouragewouldfailhimItwouldbebetter,afterall,tobegforthatkiss。

  Maisielookedmorethanusuallykissableasshesteppedfromthenight-mailontothewindypier,inagraywaterproofandalittlegrayclothtravelling-capThered-hairedgirlwasnotsolovelyHergreeneyeswerehollowandherlipsweredryDicksawthetrunksaboard,andwenttoMaisie’ssideinthedarknessunderthebridgeThemail-bagswerethunderingintotheforehold,andthered-hairedgirlwaswatchingthem。

  ’You’llhavearoughpassageto-night,’saidDick’It’sblowingoutsideI

  supposeImaycomeoverandseeyouifI’mgood?’

  ’Youmustn’tIshallbebusyAtleast,ifIwantyouI’llsendforyouButIshallwritefromVitry-sur-MarneIshallhaveheapsofthingstoconsultyouaboutOh,Dick,youhavebeensogoodtome!——sogoodtome!’

  ’Thankyouforthat,dearIthasn’tmadeanydifference,hasit?’

  ’Ican’ttellafibIthasn’t——inthatwayButdon’tthinkI’mnotgrateful。’

  ’Damnthegratitude!’saidDick,huskily,tothepaddle-box。

  ’What’stheuseofworrying?YouknowIshouldruinyourlife,andyou’druinmine,asthingsarenowYourememberwhatyousaidwhenyouweresoangrythatdayinthePark?Oneofushastobebroken。

  Can’tyouwaittillthatdaycomes?’

  ’No,loveIwantyouunbroken——alltomyself。’

  Maisieshookherhead’MypoorDick,whatcanIsay!’

  ’Don’tsayanythingGivemeakissOnlyonekiss,MaisieI’llswearI

  won’ttakeanymoreYoumightaswell,andthenIcanbesureyou’regrateful。’

  Maisieputhercheekforward,andDicktookhisrewardinthedarkness。

  Itwasonlyonekiss,but,sincetherewasnotime-limitspecified,itwasalongoneMaisiewrenchedherselffreeangrily,andDickstoodabashedandtinglingfromheadtotoe。

  ’Good-bye,darlingIdidn’tmeantoscareyouI’msorry。

  Only——keepwellanddogoodwork,——speciallytheMelancoliaI’mgoingtodoone,tooRemembermetoKami,andbecarefulwhatyoudrink。

  Countrydrinking-waterisbadeverywhere,butit’sworseinFranceWritetomeifyouwantanything,andgood-byeSaygood-byetothewhatever-you-call-umgirl,and——can’tIhaveanotherkiss?No。

  You’requiterightGood-bye。’

  Ashouldtoldhimthatitwasnotseemlytochargeofthemail-baginclineHereachedthepierasthesteamerbegantomoveoff,andhefollowedherwithhisheart。

  ’Andthere’snothing——nothinginthewideworld——tokeepusapartexceptherobstinacyTheseCalaisnight-boatsaremuchtoosmallI’llgetTorptowritetothepapersaboutitShe’sbeginningtopitchalready。’

  MaisiestoodwhereDickhadlefthertillsheheardalittlegaspingcoughatherelbowThered-hairedgirl’seyeswerealightwithcoldflame。

  ’Hekissedyou!’shesaid’Howcouldyoulethim,whenhewasn’tanythingtoyou?Howdaredyoutotakeakissfromhim?Oh,Maisie,let’sgototheladies’cabinI’msick,——deadlysick。’

  ’Wearen’tintoopenwateryetGodown,dear,andI’llstayhereI

  don’tlikethesmelloftheenginesPoorDick!Hedeservedone,——onlyone。

  ButIdidn’tthinkhe’dfrightenmeso。’

  Dickreturnedtotownnextdayjustintimeforlunch,forwhichhehadtelegraphedTohisdisgust,therewereonlyemptyplatesinthestudio。

  Helifteduphisvoicelikethebearsinthefairy-tale,andTorpenhowentered,lookingguilty。

  ’H’sh!’saidhe’Don’tmakesuchanoiseItookitComeintomyrooms,andI’llshowyouwhy。’

  Dickpausedamazedatthethreshold,foronTorpenhow’ssofalayagirlasleepandbreathingheavilyThelittlecheapsailor-hat,theblue-and-whitedress,fitterforJunethanforFebruary,dabbledwithmudattheskirts,thejackettrimmedwithimitationAstrakhanandrippedattheshoulder-seams,theone-and-elevenpennyumbrella,and,aboveall,thedisgracefulconditionofthekid-toppedboots,declaredallthings。

  ’Oh,Isay,oldman,thisistoobad!Youmustn’tbringthissortuphere。

  Theystealthingsfromtherooms。’

  ’Itlooksbad,Iadmit,butIwascominginafterlunch,andshestaggeredintothehallIthoughtshewasdrunkatfirst,butitwascollapseI

  couldn’tleaveherasshewas,soIbroughtheruphereandgaveheryourlunchShewasfaintingfromwantoffoodShewentfastasleeptheminuteshehadfinished。’

  ’IknowsomethingofthatcomplaintShe’sbeenlivingonsausages,I

  supposeTorp,youshouldhavehandedherovertoapolicemanforpresumingtofaintinarespectablehousePoorlittlewretch!Lookattheface!Thereisn’tanounceofimmoralityinitOnlyfolly,——slack,fatuous,feeble,futilefollyIt’satypicalheadD’younoticehowtheskullbeginstoshowthroughthefleshpaddingonthefaceandcheek-bone?’

  ’Whatacold-bloodedbarbarianitis!Don’thitawomanwhenshe’sdownCan’twedoanything?Shewassimplydroppingwithstarvation。

  Shealmostfellintomyarms,andwhenshegottothefoodsheatelikeawildbeastItwashorrible。’

  ’Icangivehermoney,whichshewouldprobablyspendindrinks。

  Isshegoingtosleepforever?’

  Thegirlopenedhereyesandglaredatthemenbetweenterrorandeffrontery。

  ’Feelingbetter?’saidTorpenhow。

  ’YesThankyouTherearen’tmanygentlementhatareaskindasyouareThankyou。’

  ’Whendidyouleaveservice?’saidDick,whohadbeenwatchingthescarredandchappedhands。

  ’HowdidyouknowIwasinservice?IwasGeneralservantI

  didn’tlikeit。’

  ’Andhowdoyoulikebeingyourownmistress?’

  ’DoIlookasifIlikedit?’

  ’IsupposenotOnemomentWouldyoubegoodenoughtoturnyourfacetothewindow?’

  Thegirlobeyed,andDickwatchedherfacekeenly,——sokeenlythatshemadeasiftohidebehindTorpenhow。

  ’Theeyeshaveit,’saidDick,walkingupanddown’TheyaresuperbeyesformybusinessAnd,afterall,everyheaddependsontheeyesThishasbeensentfromheaventomakeupfor——whatwastakenaway。

  Nowtheweeklystrain’soffmyshoulders,Icangettoworkinearnest。

  EvidentlysentfromheavenYesRaiseyourchinalittle,please。’

  ’Gently,oldman,gentlyYou’rescaringsomebodyoutofherwits,’

  saidTorpenhow,whocouldseethegirltrembling。

  ’Don’tlethimhitme!Oh,pleasedon’tlethimhitme!I’vebeenhitcruelto-daybecauseIspoketoamanDon’tlethimlookatmelikethat!

  He’sreg’larwicked,thatoneDon’tlethimlookatmelikethat,neither!

  Oh,I

  feelasifIhadn’tnothingonwhenhelooksatmelikethat!’

  Theoverstrainednervesinthefrailbodygaveway,andthegirlweptlikealittlechildandbegantoscreamDickthrewopenthewindow,andTorpenhowflungthedoorback。

  ’Thereyouare,’saidDick,soothingly’Myfriendherecancallforapoliceman,andyoucanrunthroughthatdoorNobodyisgoingtohurtyou。’

  Thegirlsobbedconvulsivelyforafewminutes,andthentriedtolaugh。

  ’NothingintheworldtohurtyouNowlistentomeforaminute。

  I’mwhattheycallanartistbyprofessionYouknowwhatartistsdo?’

  ’Theydrawthethingsinredandblackinkonthepop-shoplabels。’

  ’IdaresayIhaven’trisentopop-shoplabelsyetThosearedonebytheAcademiciansIwanttodrawyourhead。’

  ’Whatfor?’

  ’Becauseit’sprettyThatiswhyyouwillcometotheroomacrossthelandingthreetimesaweekateleveninthemorning,andI’llgiveyouthreequidaweekjustforsittingstillandbeingdrawnAndthere’saquidonaccount。’

  ’Fornothing?Oh,my!’Thegirlturnedthesovereigninherhand,andwithmorefoolishtears,’Ain’tneithero’youtwogentlemenafraidofmybilkingyou?’

  ’NoOnlyuglygirlsdothatTryandrememberthisplaceAnd,bytheway,what’syourname?’

  ’I’mBessic,——Bessie——It’snousegivingtherestBessieBroke,——Stone-broke,ifyoulikeWhat’syournames?Butthere,——nooneevergivestherealones。’

  DickconsultedTorpenhowwithhiseyes。

  ’Myname’sHeldar,andmyfriend’scalledTorpenhow;andyoumustbesuretocomehereWheredoyoulive?’

  ’South-the-water,——oneroom,——fiveandsixpenceaweekAren’tyoumakingfunofmeaboutthatthreequid?’

  ’You’llseelateronAnd,Bessie,nexttimeyoucome,remember,youneedn’twearthatpaintIt’sbadfortheskin,andIhaveallthecoloursyou’llbelikelytoneed。’

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