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  ItremainedinallrespectsasIhavelastdescribedit,withtheexceptionthatthemirrornolongeraffordedevidenceofrespiration。

  Anattempttodrawbloodfromthearmfailed。Ishouldmention,too,thatthislimbwasnofarthersubjecttomywill。Iendeavoredinvaintomakeitfollowthedirectionofmyhand。Theonlyrealindication,indeed,ofthemesmericinfluence,wasnowfoundinthevibratorymovementofthetongue,wheneverIaddressedM。Valdemaraquestion。Heseemedtobemakinganefforttoreply,buthadnolongersufficientvolition。ToqueriesputtohimbyanyotherpersonthanmyselfheseemedutterlyinsensiblealthoughIendeavoredtoplaceeachmemberofthecompanyinmesmericrapportwithhim。I

  believethatIhavenowrelatedallthatisnecessarytoanunderstandingofthesleep-waker’sstateatthisepoch。Othernurseswereprocured;andatteno’clockIleftthehouseincompanywiththetwophysiciansandMr。Ll。

  Intheafternoonweallcalledagaintoseethepatient。Hisconditionremainedpreciselythesame。Wehadnowsomediscussionastotheproprietyandfeasibilityofawakeninghim;butwehadlittledifficultyinagreeingthatnogoodpurposewouldbeservedbysodoing。Itwasevidentthat,sofar,deathorwhatisusuallytermeddeathhadbeenarrestedbythemesmericprocess。ItseemedcleartousallthattoawakenM。Valdemarwouldbemerelytoinsurehisinstant,oratleasthisspeedydissolution。

  FromthisperioduntilthecloseoflastweekanintervalofnearlysevenmonthswecontinuedtomakedailycallsatM。

  Valdemar’shouse,accompanied,nowandthen,bymedicalandotherfriends。Allthistimethesleeper-wakerremainedexactlyasIhavelastdescribedhim。Thenurses’attentionswerecontinual。

  ItwasonFridaylastthatwefinallyresolvedtomaketheexperimentofawakeningorattemptingtoawakenhim;anditistheperhaps

  unfortunateresultofthislatterexperimentwhichhasgivenrisetosomuchdiscussioninprivatecirclestosomuchofwhatIcannothelpthinkingunwarrantedpopularfeeling。

  ForthepurposeofrelievingM。Valdemarfromthemesmerictrance,I

  madeuseofthecustomarypasses。These,foratime,wereunsuccessful。Thefirstindicationofrevivalwasaffordedbyapartialdescentoftheiris。Itwasobserved,asespeciallyremarkable,thatthisloweringofthepupilwasaccompaniedbytheprofuseout-flowingofayellowishichorfrombeneaththelidsofapungentandhighlyoffensiveodor。

  ItwasnowsuggestedthatIshouldattempttoinfluencethepatient’sarm,asheretofore。Imadetheattemptandfailed。Dr。Fthenintimatedadesiretohavemeputaquestion。Ididso,asfollows:

  “M。Valdemar,canyouexplaintouswhatareyourfeelingsorwishesnow?”

  Therewasaninstantreturnofthehecticcirclesonthecheeks;thetonguequivered,orratherrolledviolentlyinthemouthalthoughthejawsandlipsremainedrigidasbefore;andatlengththesamehideousvoicewhichIhavealreadydescribed,brokeforth:

  “ForGod’ssake!quick!quick!putmetosleepor,quick!

  wakenme!quick!IsaytoyouthatIamdead!”

  Iwasthoroughlyunnerved,andforaninstantremainedundecidedwhattodo。AtfirstImadeanendeavortore-composethepatient;but,failinginthisthroughtotalabeyanceofthewill,Iretracedmystepsandasearnestlystruggledtoawakenhim。InthisattemptI

  soonsawthatIshouldbesuccessfuloratleastIsoonfanciedthatmysuccesswouldbecompleteandIamsurethatallintheroomwerepreparedtoseethepatientawaken。

  Forwhatreallyoccurred,however,itisquiteimpossiblethatanyhumanbeingcouldhavebeenprepared。

  AsIrapidlymadethemesmericpasses,amidejaculationsof“dead!

  dead!”absolutelyburstingfromthetongueandnotfromthelipsofthesufferer,hiswholeframeatoncewithinthespaceofasingleminute,orevenless,shrunkcrumbledabsolutelyrottedawaybeneathmyhands。Uponthebed,beforethatwholecompany,therelayanearlyliquidmassofloathsomeofdetestableputridity。

  FORthemostwild,yetmosthomelynarrativewhichIamabouttopen,Ineitherexpectnorsolicitbelief。MadindeedwouldIbetoexpectit,inacasewheremyverysensesrejecttheirownevidence。

  Yet,madamInot-andverysurelydoInotdream。Butto-morrowI

  die,andto-dayIwouldunburthenmysoul。Myimmediatepurposeistoplacebeforetheworld,plainly,succinctly,andwithoutcomment,aseriesofmerehouseholdevents。Intheirconsequences,theseeventshaveterrified-havetortured-havedestroyedme。YetIwillnotattempttoexpoundthem。Tome,theyhavepresentedlittlebutHorror-tomanytheywillseemlessterriblethan_barroques_。Hereafter,perhaps,someintellectmaybefoundwhichwillreducemyphantasmtothecommon-place-someintellectmorecalm,morelogical,andfarlessexcitablethanmyown,whichwillperceive,inthecircumstancesIdetailwithawe,nothingmorethananordinarysuccessionofverynaturalcausesandeffects。

  FrommyinfancyIwasnotedforthedocilityandhumanityofmydisposition。Mytendernessofheartwasevensoconspicuousastomakemethejestofmycompanions。Iwasespeciallyfondofanimals,andwasindulgedbymyparentswithagreatvarietyofpets。WiththeseIspentmostofmytime,andneverwassohappyaswhenfeedingandcaressingthem。Thispeculiarityofcharactergrewwithmygrowth,andinmymanhood,Iderivedfromitoneofmyprincipalsourcesofpleasure。Tothosewhohavecherishedanaffectionforafaithfulandsagaciousdog,Ineedhardlybeatthetroubleofexplainingthenatureortheintensityofthegratificationthusderivable。Thereissomethingintheunselfishandself-sacrificingloveofabrute,whichgoesdirectlytotheheartofhimwhohashadfrequentoccasiontotestthepaltryfriendshipandgossamerfidelityofmere_Man_。

  Imarriedearly,andwashappytofindinmywifeadispositionnotuncongenialwithmyown。Observingmypartialityfordomesticpets,shelostnoopportunityofprocuringthoseofthemostagreeablekind。Wehadbirds,gold-fish,afinedog,rabbits,asmallmonkey,and_acat_。

  Thislatterwasaremarkablylargeandbeautifulanimal,entirelyblack,andsagacioustoanastonishingdegree。Inspeakingofhisintelligence,mywife,whoatheartwasnotalittletincturedwithsuperstition,madefrequentallusiontotheancientpopularnotion,whichregardedallblackcatsaswitchesindisguise。Notthatshewasever_serious_uponthispoint-andImentionthematteratallfornobetterreasonthanthatithappens,justnow,toberemembered。

  Pluto-thiswasthecat’sname-wasmyfavoritepetandplaymate。Ialonefedhim,andheattendedmewhereverIwentaboutthehouse。ItwasevenwithdifficultythatIcouldpreventhimfromfollowingmethroughthestreets。

  Ourfriendshiplasted,inthismanner,forseveralyears,duringwhichmygeneraltemperamentandcharacter-throughtheinstrumentalityoftheFiendIntemperance-hadIblushtoconfessitexperiencedaradicalalterationfortheworse。Igrew,daybyday,moremoody,moreirritable,moreregardlessofthefeelingsofothers。Isufferedmyselftouseintemperatelanguagetomywife。Atlength,Ievenofferedherpersonalviolence。Mypets,ofcourse,weremadetofeelthechangeinmydisposition。Inotonlyneglected,butill-usedthem。ForPluto,however,Istillretainedsufficientregardtorestrainmefrommaltreatinghim,asImadenoscrupleofmaltreatingtherabbits,themonkey,oreventhedog,whenbyaccident,orthroughaffection,theycameinmyway。Butmydiseasegrewuponme-forwhatdiseaseislikeAlcohol!-andatlengthevenPluto,whowasnowbecomingold,andconsequentlysomewhatpeevish-

  evenPlutobegantoexperiencetheeffectsofmyilltemper。

  Onenight,returninghome,muchintoxicated,fromoneofmyhauntsabouttown,Ifanciedthatthecatavoidedmypresence。I

  seizedhim;when,inhisfrightatmyviolence,heinflictedaslightwounduponmyhandwithhisteeth。Thefuryofademoninstantlypossessedme。Iknewmyselfnolonger。Myoriginalsoulseemed,atonce,totakeitsflightfrommybodyandamorethanfiendishmalevolence,gin-nurtured,thrilledeveryfibreofmyframe。Itookfrommywaistcoat-pocketapen-knife,openedit,graspedthepoorbeastbythethroat,anddeliberatelycutoneofitseyesfromthesocket!Iblush,Iburn,Ishudder,whileIpenthedamnableatrocity。

  Whenreasonreturnedwiththemorning-whenIhadsleptoffthefumesofthenight’sdebauch-Iexperiencedasentimenthalfofhorror,halfofremorse,forthecrimeofwhichIhadbeenguilty;

  butitwas,atbest,afeebleandequivocalfeeling,andthesoulremaineduntouched。Iagainplungedintoexcess,andsoondrownedinwineallmemoryofthedeed。

  Inthemeantimethecatslowlyrecovered。Thesocketofthelosteyepresented,itistrue,afrightfulappearance,buthenolongerappearedtosufferanypain。Hewentaboutthehouseasusual,but,asmightbeexpected,fledinextremeterroratmyapproach。Ihadsomuchofmyoldheartleft,astobeatfirstgrievedbythisevidentdislikeonthepartofacreaturewhichhadoncesolovedme。Butthisfeelingsoongaveplacetoirritation。Andthencame,asiftomyfinalandirrevocableoverthrow,thespiritofPERVERSENESS。Ofthisspiritphilosophytakesnoaccount。YetIamnotmoresurethatmysoullives,thanIamthatperversenessisoneoftheprimitiveimpulsesofthehumanheart-oneoftheindivisibleprimaryfaculties,orsentiments,whichgivedirectiontothecharacterofMan。Whohasnot,ahundredtimes,foundhimselfcommittingavileorasillyaction,fornootherreasonthanbecauseheknowsheshouldnot?Havewenotaperpetualinclination,intheteethofourbestjudgment,toviolatethatwhichis_Law_,merelybecauseweunderstandittobesuch?Thisspiritofperverseness,Isay,cametomyfinaloverthrow。Itwasthisunfathomablelongingofthesoul_tovexitself_-toofferviolencetoitsownnature-todowrongforthewrong’ssakeonly-thaturgedmetocontinueandfinallytoconsummatetheinjuryIhadinflictedupontheunoffendingbrute。Onemorning,incoolblood,Islippedanooseaboutitsneckandhungittothelimbofatree;-hungitwiththetearsstreamingfrommyeyes,andwiththebitterestremorseatmyheart;-hungit_because_

  Iknewthatithadlovedme,and_because_Ifeltithadgivenmenoreasonofoffence;-hungit_because_IknewthatinsodoingIwascommittingasin-adeadlysinthatwouldsojeopardizemyimmortalsoulastoplaceit-ifsuchathingworepossible-evenbeyondthereachoftheinfinitemercyoftheMostMercifulandMostTerribleGod。

  Onthenightofthedayonwhichthiscrueldeedwasdone,Iwasarousedfromsleepbythecryoffire。Thecurtainsofmybedwereinflames。Thewholehousewasblazing。Itwaswithgreatdifficultythatmywife,aservant,andmyself,madeourescapefromtheconflagration。Thedestructionwascomplete。Myentireworldlywealthwasswallowedup,andIresignedmyselfthenceforwardtodespair。

  Iamabovetheweaknessofseekingtoestablishasequenceofcauseandeffect,betweenthedisasterandtheatrocity。ButIamdetailingachainoffacts-andwishnottoleaveevenapossiblelinkimperfect。Onthedaysucceedingthefire,Ivisitedtheruins。

  Thewalls,withoneexception,hadfallenin。Thisexceptionwasfoundinacompartmentwall,notverythick,whichstoodaboutthemiddleofthehouse,andagainstwhichhadrestedtheheadofmybed。

  Theplasteringhadhere,ingreatmeasure,resistedtheactionofthefire-afactwhichIattributedtoitshavingbeenrecentlyspread。

  Aboutthiswalladensecrowdwerecollected,andmanypersonsseemedtobeexaminingaparticularportionofitwithveryminuteandeagerattention。Thewords“strange!”“singular!”andothersimilarexpressions,excitedmycuriosity。Iapproachedandsaw,asifgravenin_basrelief_uponthewhitesurface,thefigureofagigantic_cat_。Theimpressionwasgivenwithanaccuracytrulymarvellous。

  Therewasaropeabouttheanimal’sneck。

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