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  honesty,goodness,manliness,tenderness,devotion,forheronlyexistedintheirpuritynowinthebreastsofunvarnishedmen;andherewasonewhohadmanifestedthemtowardsherfromhisyouthup。

  Therewas,further,thatnever-ceasingpityinhersoulforGilesasamanwhomshehadwronged——amanwhohadbeenunfortunateinhisworldlytransactions;while,notwithoutatouchofsublimity,hehad,likeHoratio,bornehimselfthroughouthisscathing“Asone,insufferingall,thatsuffersnothing。”

  Itwastheseperceptions,andnosubtlecatchingofherhusband’smurmurs,thathadbredtheabstractionvisibleinher。

  WhenherfatherapproachedthehouseafterwitnessingtheinterviewbetweenFitzpiersandMrs。Charmond,Gracewaslookingoutofhersitting-roomwindow,asifshehadnothingtodo,orthinkof,orcarefor。Hestoodstill。

  “Ah,Grace。”hesaid,regardingherfixedly。

  “Yes,father。”shemurmured。

  “Waitingforyourdearhusband?”heinquired,speakingwiththesarcasmofpitifulaffection。

  “Ohno——notespecially。Hehasagreatmanypatientstoseethisafternoon。”

  Melburycamequiteclose。“Grace,what’stheuseoftalkinglikethat,whenyouknow——Here,comedownandwalkwithmeoutinthegarden,child。”

  Heunfastenedthedoorintheivy-lacedwall,andwaited。Thisapparentindifferencealarmedhim。HewouldfarratherthatshehadrushedinallthefireofjealousytoHintockHouse,regardlessofconventionality,confrontedandattackedFeliceCharmondunguibusetrostro,andaccusedhereveninexaggeratedshapeofstealingawayherhusband。Suchastormmighthaveclearedtheair。

  Sheemergedinaminuteortwo,andtheywentinsidetogether。

  “YouknowaswellasIdo。”heresumed,“thatthereissomethingthreateningmischieftoyourlife;andyetyoupretendyoudonot。

  DoyousupposeIdon’tseethetroubleinyourfaceeveryday?I

  amverysurethatthisquietudeiswrongconductinyou。Youshouldlookmoreintomatters。”

  “Iamquietbecausemysadnessisnotofanaturetostirmetoaction。”

  Melburywantedtoaskheradozenquestions——didshenotfeeljealous?wasshenotindignant?butanaturaldelicacyrestrainedhim。“Youareverytameandlet-alone,Iamboundtosay。”heremarked,pointedly。

  “IamwhatIfeel,father。”sherepeated。

  Heglancedather,andtherereturneduponhismindthesceneofherofferingtowedWinterborneinsteadofFitzpiersinthelastdaysbeforehermarriage;andheaskedhimselfifitcouldbethefactthatshelovedWinterborne,nowthatshehadlosthim,morethanshehadeverdonewhenshewascomparativelyfreetochoosehim。

  “Whatwouldyouhavemedo?”sheasked,inalowvoice。

  Herecalledhismindfromtheretrospectivepaintothepracticalmatterbeforethem。“IwouldhaveyougotoMrs。Charmond。”hesaid。

  “GotoMrs。Charmond——whatfor?”saidshe。

  “Well——ifImustspeakplain,dearGrace——toaskher,appealtoherinthenameofyourcommonwomanhood,andyourmanylikesentimentsonthings,nottomakeunhappinessbetweenyouandyourhusband。Itlieswithherentirelytodooneortheother——thatI

  cansee。”

  Grace’sfacehadheatedatherfather’swords,andtheveryrustleofherskirtsuponthebox-edgingbespokehauteur。“Ishallnotthinkofgoingtoher,father——ofcourseIcouldnot!”sheanswered。

  “Why——don’t’eewanttobehappierthanyoubeatpresent?”saidMelbury,moremovedonheraccountthanshewasherself。

  “Idon’twishtobemorehumiliated。IfIhaveanythingtobearI

  canbearitinsilence。”

  “But,mydearmaid,youaretooyoung——youdon’tknowwhatthepresentstateofthingsmayleadto。Justseetheharmdonea’ready!YourhusbandwouldhavegoneawaytoBudmouthtoabiggerpracticeifithadnotbeenforthis。Althoughithasgonesuchalittleway,itispoisoningyourfutureevennow。Mrs。Charmondisthoughtlesslybad,notbadbycalculation;andjustawordtohernowmightsave’eeapeckofwoes。”

  “Ah,Ilovedheronce。”saidGrace,withabrokenarticulation,“andshewouldnotcareformethen!NowInolongerloveher。

  Letherdoherworst:Idon’tcare。”

  “Yououghttocare。Youhavegotintoaverygoodpositiontostartwith。Youhavebeenwelleducated,welltended,andyouhavebecomethewifeofaprofessionalmanofunusuallygoodfamily。Surelyyououghttomakethebestofyourposition。”

  “Idon’tseethatIought。IwishIhadnevergotintoit。I

  wishyouhadnever,neverthoughtofeducatingme。IwishI

  workedinthewoodslikeMartySouth。Ihategenteellife,andI

  wanttobenobetterthanshe。”

  “Why?”saidheramazedfather。

  “Becausecultivationhasonlybroughtmeinconveniencesandtroubles。Isayagain,Iwishyouhadneversentmetothosefashionableschoolsyousetyourmindon。Itallaroseoutofthat,father。IfIhadstayedathomeIshouldhavemarried——“

  Shecloseduphermouthsuddenlyandwassilent;andbesawthatshewasnotfarfromcrying。

  Melburywasmuchgrieved。“What,andwouldyouliketohavegrownupaswebehereinHintock——knowingnomore,andwithnomorechanceofseeinggoodlifethanwehavehere?”

  “Yes。IhavenevergotanyhappinessoutsideHintockthatIknowof,andIhavesufferedmanyaheartacheatbeingsentaway。Oh,themiseryofthoseJanuarydayswhenIhadgotbacktoschool,andleftyouallhereinthewoodsohappy。IusedtowonderwhyIhadtobearit。AndIwasalwaysalittledespisedbytheothergirlsatschool,becausetheyknewwhereIcamefrom,andthatmyparentswerenotinsogoodastationastheirs。”

  Herpoorfatherwasmuchhurtatwhathethoughtheringratitudeandintractability。Hehadadmittedtohimselfbitterlyenoughthatheshouldhaveletyoungheartshavetheirway,orrathershouldhavehelpedonheraffectionforWinterborne,andgivenhertohimaccordingtohisoriginalplan;buthewasnotpreparedforherdeprecationofthoseattainmentswhosecompletionhadbeenalaborofyears,andaseveretaxuponhispurse。

  “Verywell。”hesaid,withmuchheavinessofspirit。“Ifyoudon’tliketogotoherIdon’twishtoforceyou。”

  Andsothequestionremainedforhimstill:howshouldheremedythisperilousstateofthings?Fordayshesatinamoodyattitudeoverthefire,apitcherofciderstandingonthehearthbesidehim,andhisdrinking-horninverteduponthetopofit。Hespentaweekandmorethuscomposingalettertothechiefoffender,whichhewouldeverynowandthenattempttocomplete,andsuddenlycrumpleupinhishand。

  AsFebruarymergedinMarch,andlightereveningsbrokethegloomofthewoodmen’shomewardjourney,theHintocksGreatandLittlebegantohaveearsforarumoroftheeventsoutofwhichhadgrownthetimber-dealer’stroubles。Ittooktheformofawidesprinklingofconjecture,whereinnomanknewtheexacttruth。

  Tantalizingphenomena,atonceshowingandconcealingtherealrelationshipofthepersonsconcerned,causedadiffusionofexcitedsurprise。Honestpeopleasthewoodlanderswere,itwashardlytobeexpectedthattheycouldremainimmersedinthestudyoftheirtreesandgardensamidsuchcircumstances,orsitwiththeirbacksturnedlikethegoodburghersofCoventryatthepassageofthebeautifullady。

  Rumor,forawonder,exaggeratedlittle。Therewere,infact,inthiscaseasinthousands,thewell-wornincidents,oldasthehills,which,withindividualvariations,madeamournerofAriadne,aby-wordofVashti,andacorpseoftheCountessAmy。

  Therewererencountersaccidentalandcontrived,stealthycorrespondence,suddenmisgivingsononeside,suddenself-

  reproachesontheother。Theinnerstateofthetwainwasoneasofconfusednoisethatwouldnotallowtheaccentsofcalmerreasontobeheard。Determinationstogointhisdirection,andheadlongplungesinthat;dignifiedsafeguards,undignifiedcollapses;notasinglerashstepbydeliberateintention,andallagainstjudgment。

  ItwasallthatMelburyhadexpectedandfeared。Itwasmore,forhehadoverlookedthepublicitythatwouldbelikelytoresult,asitnowhaddone。Whatshouldhedo——appealtoMrs。Charmondhimself,sinceGracewouldnot?HebethoughthimselfofWinterborne,andresolvedtoconsulthim,feelingthestrongneedofsomefriendofhisownsextowhomhemightunburdenhismind。

  Hehadentirelylostfaithinhisownjudgment。Thatjudgmentonwhichhehadreliedforsomanyyearsseemedrecently,likeafalsecompanionunmasked,tohavedisclosedunexpecteddepthsofhypocrisyandspeciousnesswhereallhadseemedsolidity。Hefeltalmostafraidtoformaconjectureontheweather,orthetime,orthefruit-promise,sogreatwashisself-abasement。

  ItwasarimyeveningwhenhesetouttolookforGiles。Thewoodsseemedtobeinacoldsweat;beadsofperspirationhungfromeverybaretwig;theskyhadnocolor,andthetreesrosebeforehimashaggard,grayphantoms,whosedaysofsubstantialitywerepassed。MelburyseldomsawWinterbornenow,buthebelievedhimtobeoccupyingalonelyhutjustbeyondtheboundaryofMrs。

  Charmond’sestate,thoughstillwithinthecircuitofthewoodland。Thetimber-merchant’sthinlegsstalkedonthroughthepale,dampscenery,hiseyesonthedeadleavesoflastyear;

  whileeverynowandthenahasty“Ay?”escapedhislipsinreplytosomebitterproposition。

  Hisnoticewasattractedbyathinbluehazeofsmoke,behindwhicharosesoundsofvoicesandchopping:bendinghisstepsthatway,hesawWinterbornejustinfrontofhim。ItjustnowhappenedthatGiles,afterbeingforalongtimeapatheticandunemployed,hadbecomeoneofthebusiestmenintheneighborhood。

  Itisoftenthus;fallenfriends,lostsightof,weexpecttofindstarving;wediscoverthemgoingonfairlywell。Withoutanysolicitation,ordesireforprofitonhispart,hehadbeenaskedtoexecuteduringthatwinteraverylargeorderforhurdlesandothercopse-ware,forwhichpurposehehadbeenobligedtobuyseveralacresofbrushwoodstanding。Hewasnowengagedinthecuttingandmanufactureofthesame,proceedingwiththeworkdailylikeanautomaton。

  Thehazel-treedidnotbelieitsnameto-day。Thewholeofthecopse-woodwherethemisthadclearedreturnedpuresttintsofthathue,amidwhichWinterbornehimselfwasintheactofmakingahurdle,thestakesbeingdrivenfirmlyintothegroundinarow,overwhichhebentandwovethetwigs。Besidehimwasasquare,compactpilelikethealtarofCain,formedofhurdlesalreadyfinished,whichbristledonallsideswiththesharppointsoftheirstakes。Atalittledistancethemeninhisemploywereassistinghimtocarryouthiscontract。Rowsofcopse-woodlayonthegroundasithadfallenundertheaxe;andashelterhadbeenconstructednearathand,infrontofwhichburnedthefirewhosesmokehadattractedhim。Theairwassodankthatthesmokehungheavy,andcreptawayamidthebusheswithoutrisingfromtheground。

  AfterwistfullyregardingWinterborneawhile,Melburydrewnearer,andbrieflyinquiredofGileshowhecametobesobusilyengaged,withanundertoneofslightsurprisethatWinterbornecouldseemsothrivingafterbeingdeprivedofGrace。Melburywasnotwithoutemotionatthemeeting;forGrace’saffairshaddividedthem,andendedtheirintimacyofoldtimes。

  Winterborneexplainedjustasbriefly,withoutraisinghiseyesfromhisoccupationofchoppingaboughthatheheldinfrontofhim。

  “’TwillbeupinAprilbeforeyougetitallcleared。”saidMelbury。

  “Yes,thereorthereabouts。”saidWinterborne,achopofthebillhookjerkingthelastwordintotwopieces。

  Therewasanotherinterval;Melburystilllookedon,achipfromWinterborne’shookoccasionallyflyingagainstthewaistcoatandlegsofhisvisitor,whotooknoheed。

  “Ah,Giles——youshouldhavebeenmypartner。Youshouldhavebeenmyson-in-law。”theoldmansaidatlast。“Itwouldhavebeenfarbetterforherandforme。”

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