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  bonnet,shawl,andgownallofwhite——was,sofarasIcouldguess,certainlynotcomposedofverydelicateorveryexpensivematerials。Herfigurewasslight,andratherabovetheaverageheight——hergaitandactionsfreefromtheslightestapproachtoextravagance。ThiswasallthatIcouldobserveofherinthedimlightandundertheperplexinglystrangecircumstancesofourmeeting。Whatsortofawomanshewas,andhowshecametobeoutaloneinthehigh-road,anhouraftermidnight,Ialtogetherfailedtoguess。TheonethingofwhichIfeltcertainwas,thatthegrossestofmankindcouldnothavemisconstruedhermotiveinspeaking,evenatthatsuspiciouslylatehourandinthatsuspiciouslylonelyplace。

  `Didyouhearme?’shesaid,stillquietlyandrapidly,andwithouttheleastfretfulnessorimpatience。`IaskedifthatwasthewaytoLondon。’

  `Yes,’Ireplied,`thatistheway:itleadstoStJohn’sWoodandtheRegent’sPark。Youmustexcusemynotansweringyoubefore。Iwasratherstartledbyyoursuddenappearanceintheroad;andIam,evennow,quiteunabletoaccountforit。’

  `Youdon’tsuspectmeofdoinganythingwrong,doyou?Ihavedonenothingwrong。Ihavemetwithanaccident——Iamveryunfortunateinbeingherealonesolate。Whydoyoususpectmeofdoingwrong?’

  Shespokewithunnecessaryearnestnessandagitation,andshrankbackfrommeseveralplaces。Ididmybesttoreassureher。

  `Praydon’tsupposethatIhaveanyideaofsuspectingyou,’Isaid,`oranyotherwishthantobeofassistancetoyou,ifIcan。Ionlywonderedatyourappearanceintheroad,becauseitseemedtometobeemptytheinstantbeforeIsawyou。’

  Sheturned,andpointedbacktoaplaceatthejunctionoftheroadtoLondonandtheroadtoHampstead,wheretherewasagapinthehedge。

  `Iheardyoucoming,’shesaid,`andhidtheretoseewhatsortofmanyouwere,beforeIriskedspeaking。Idoubtedandfearedaboutittillyoupassed;andthenIwasobligedtostealafteryou,andtouchyou。’

  Stealaftermeandtouchme?Whynotcalltome?Strange,tosaytheleastofit`MayItrustyou?’sheasked。`Youdon’tthinktheworseofmebecauseIhavemetwithanaccident?’Shestoppedinconfusion;shiftedherbagfromonehandtotheother;andsighedbitterly。

  Thelonelinessandhelplessnessofthewomantouchedme。Thenaturalimpulsetoassistherandtosparehergotthebetterofthejudgment,thecaution,theworldlytact,whichanolder,wiser,andcoldermanmighthavesummonedtohelphiminthisstrangeemergency。

  `Youmaytrustmeforanyharmlesspurposes,’Isaid。`Ifittroublesyoutoexplainyourstrangesituationtome,don’tthinkofreturningtothesubjectagain。Ihavenorighttoaskyouforanyexplanations。TellmehowIcanhelpyou;andifIcan,Iwill。’

  `Youareverykind,andIamvery,verythankfulltohavemetyou。’

  ThefirsttouchofwomanlytendernessthatIhadheardfromhertrembledinhervoiceasshesaidthewords:butnotearsglistenedinthoselarge,wistfullyattentiveeyesofhers,whichwerestillfixedonme,`IhaveonlybeeninLondononcebefore,’shewenton,moreandmorerapidly,`andIknownothingaboutthatsideofit,yonder。CanISetafly,oracarriageofanykind?Isittoolate?Idon’tknow。Ifyoucouldshowmewheretogetafly——andifyouwillonlypromisenottointerferewithme,andtoletmeleaveyou,whenandhowIplease——IhaveafriendinLondonwhowillbegladtoreceiveme——Iwantnothingelse——willyoupromise?’

  Shelookedanxiouslyupanddowntheroad;shiftedherbagagainfromonehandtotheother;repeatedthewords,`Willyoupromise?’andlookedhardinmyface,withapleadingfearandconfusionthatittroubledmetosee。

  WhatcouldIdo?Herewasastrangerutterlyandhelplesslyatmymercy——andthatstrangeraforlornwoman。Nohousewasnear;noonewaspassingwhomIcouldconsult;andnoearthlyrightexistedonmyparttogivemeapowerofcontroloverher,evenifIhadknownhowtoexerciseit。I

  tracetheselines,self-distrustfully,withtheshadowsofaftereventsdarkeningtheverypaperIwriteon;andstillIsay,whatcouldIdo?

  WhatIdiddo,wastotryandgaintimebyquestioningher。

  `AreyousurethatyourfriendinLondonwillreceiveyouatsuchalatehourasthis?’Isaid。

  `Quitesure。OnlysayyouwillletmeleaveyouwhenandhowIplease——onlysayyouwon’tinterferewithme。Willyoupromise?’

  Assherepeatedthewordsforthethirdtime,shecarneclosetomeandlaidherhand,withasuddengentlestealthiness,onmybosom——athinhand;acoldhandwhenIremoveditwithmineevenonthatsultrynight。RememberthatIwasyoung;rememberthatthehandwhichtouchedmewasawoman’s。

  `Willyoupromise?’

  `Yes。’

  Oneword!Thelittlefamiliarwordthatisoneverybody’slips,everyhourintheday。Ohme!andItremble,now,whenIwriteit。

  WesetourfacestowardsLondon,andwalkedontogetherinthefirststillhourofthenewday——I,andthiswoman,whosename,whosecharacter,whosestory,whoseobjectsinlife,whoseverypresencebymyside,atthatmoment,werefathomlessmysteriestome。Itwaslikeadream。WasIWalterHartright?Wasthisthewell-known,uneventfulroad,whereholidaypeoplestrolledonSundays?HadIreallyleft,littlemorethananhoursince,thequiet,decent,conventionallydomesticatmosphereofmymother’scottage?Iwastoobewildered——tooconsciousalsoofavaguesenseofsomethinglikeself-reproach——tospeaktomystrangecompanionforsomeminutes。Itwashervoiceagainthatfirstbrokethesilencebetweenus。

  `Iwanttoaskyousomething,’shesaidsuddenly。`DoyouknowmanypeopleinLondon?’

  `Yes,agreatmany。’

  `Manymenofrankandtitle?’Therewasanunmistakabletoneofsuspicioninthestrangequestion。Ihesitatedaboutansweringit。

  `Some,’Isaid,afteramoment’ssilence。

  `Many’——shecametoafullstop,andlookedmesearchinglyintheface——`manymenoftherankofBaronet?’

  Toomuchastonishedtoreply,Iquestionedherinmyturn。

  `Whydoyouask?’

  `BecauseIhope,formyownsake,thereisoneBaronetthatyoudon’tknow。’

  `Willyoutellmehisname?’

  `Ican’t——Idaren’t——IforgetmyselfwhenImentionit。’Shespokeloudlyandalmostfiercely,raisedherclenchedhandintheair,andshookitpassionately;then,onasudden,controlledherselfagain,andadded,intonesloweredtoawhisper,`Tellmewhichofthemyouknow。’

  Icouldhardlyrefusetohumourherinsuchatrifle,andImentionedthreenames。Two,thenamesoffathersoffamilieswhosedaughtersItaught;

  one,thenameofabachelorwhohadoncetakenmeacruiseinhisyacht,tomakesketchesforhim。

  `Ah!youdon’tknowhim,’shesaid,withasighofrelief。`Areyouamanofrankandtitleyourself?’

  `Farfromit。Iamonlyadrawing-master。’

  Asthereplypassedmylips——alittlebitterly,perhaps——shetookmyarmwiththeabruptnesswhichcharacterisedallheractions。

  `Notamanofrankandtitle,’sherepeatedtoherself。`ThankGod!

  Imaytrusthim。’

  Ihadhithertocontrivedtomastermycuriosityoutofconsiderationformycompanion;butitgotthebetterofmenow。

  `Iamafraidyouhaveseriousreasontocomplainofsomemanofrankandtitle?’Isaid。`Iamafraidthebaronet,whosenameyouareunwillingtomentiontome,hasdoneyousomegrievouswrong?Ishethecauseofyourbeingouthereatthisstrangetimeofnight?’

  `Don’taskme:don’tmakemetalkofit,’sheanswered。`I’mnotfitnow。Ihavebeencruellyusedandcruellywronged。Youwillbekinderthanever,ifyouwillwalkonfast,andnotspeaktome。Isadlywanttoquietmyself,ifIcan。’

  Wemovedforwardagainataquickpace;andforhalfanhour,atleast,notawordpassedoneitherside。Fromtimetotime,beingforbiddentomakeanymoreinquiries,Istolealookatherface。Itwasalwaysthesame;thelipscloseshut,thebrowfrowning,theeyeslookingstraightforward,eagerlyandyetabsently。Wehadreachedthefirsthouses,andwerecloseonthenewWesleyancollege,beforehersetfeaturesrelaxed,andshespokeoncemore。

  `DoyouliveinLondon?’shesaid。

  `Yes。’AsIanswered,itstruckmethatshemighthaveformedsomeintentionofappealingtomeforassistanceoradvice,andthatIoughttospareherapossibledisappointmentbywarmingherofmyapproachingabsencefromhome。SoIadded,`ButtomorrowIshallbeawayfromLondonforsometime。Iamgoingintothecountry。’

  `Where?’sheasked。`Northorsouth?’

  `North——toCumberland。’

  `Cumberland!’sherepeatedthewordtenderly。`Ah!IwishIwasgoingtheretoo。IwasoncehappyinCumberland。’

  Itriedagaintolifttheveilthathungbetweenthiswomanandme。

  `Perhapsyouwereborn,’Isaid,`inthebeautifulLakecountry。’

  `No,’sheanswered。`IwasborninHampshire;butIoncewenttoschoolforalittlewhileinCumberland。Lakes?Idon’trememberanylakes。It’sLimmeridgevillage,andLimmeridgeHouse,Ishouldliketoseeagain。’

  Itwasmyturnnowtostopsuddenly。Intheexcitedstateofmycuriosity,atthatmoment,thechancereferencetoMrFairlie’splaceofresidence,onthelipsofmystrangecompanion,staggeredmewithastonishment。

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