JOHNFORSTER。
Inacknowledgmentoftheserviceswhichhehasrenderedtothecauseofliteraturebyhis“LifeofGoldsmith;“andinaffectionateremembranceofafriendshipwhichisassociatedwithsomeofthehappiestyearsofmylife。
READERSingeneral——onwhosefriendlyreceptionexperiencehasgivenmesomereasontorely——will,Iventuretohope,appreciatewhatevermerittheremaybeinthisstorywithoutanyprefatorypleadingforitonmypart。Theywill,Ithink,seethatithasnotbeenhastilymeditatedoridlywroughtout。Theywilljudgeitaccordingly,andIasknomore。
Readersinparticularwill,Ihavesomereasontosuppose,behereandtheredisturbed,perhapsevenoffended,byfindingthat“Armadale“oversteps,inmorethanonedirection,thenarrowlimitswithinwhichtheyaredisposedtorestrictthedevelopmentofmodernfiction——iftheycan。
NothingthatIcouldsaytothesepersonsherewouldhelpmewiththemasTimewillhelpmeifmyworklasts。Iamnotafraidofmydesignbeingpermanentlymisunderstood,providedtheexecutionhasdoneitanysortofjustice。Estimatedbytheclap-trapmoralityofthepresentday,thismaybeaverydaringbook。
JudgedbytheChristianmoralitywhichisofalltime,itisonlyabookthatisdaringenoughtospeakthetruth。
LONDON,April,1866。
ARMADALE。
PROLOGUE。
CHAPTERI。
THETRAVELERS。
ITwastheopeningoftheseasonofeighteenhundredandthirty-two,attheBathsofWILDBAD。
TheeveningshadowswerebeginningtogatheroverthequietlittleGermantown,andthediligencewasexpectedeveryminute。
Beforethedooroftheprincipalinn,waitingthearrivalofthefirstvisitorsoftheyear,wereassembledthethreenotablepersonagesofWildbad,accompaniedbytheirwives——themayor,representingtheinhabitants;thedoctor,representingthewaters;thelandlord,representinghisownestablishment。Beyondthisselectcircle,groupedsnuglyaboutthetrimlittlesquareinfrontoftheinn,appearedthetowns-peopleingeneral,mixedhereandtherewiththecountrypeople,intheirquaintGermancostume,placidlyexpectantofthediligence——themeninshortblackjackets,tightblackbreeches,andthree-corneredbeaverhats;thewomenwiththeirlonglighthairhanginginonethicklyplaitedtailbehindthem,andthewaistsoftheirshortwoolengownsinsertedmodestlyintheregionoftheirshoulder-blades。
Roundtheouteredgeoftheassemblagethusformed,flyingdetachmentsofplumpwhite-headedchildrencareeredinperpetualmotion;while,mysteriouslyapartfromtherestoftheinhabitants,themusiciansoftheBathsstoodcollectedinonelostcorner,waitingtheappearanceofthefirstvisitorstoplaythefirsttuneoftheseasonintheformofaserenade。ThelightofaMayeveningwasstillbrightonthetopsofthegreatwoodedhillswatchinghighoverthetownontherighthandandtheleft;
andthecoolbreezethatcomesbeforesunsetcamekeenlyfragrantherewiththebalsamicodorofthefirstoftheBlackForest。
“Mr。Landlord。”saidthemayor’swifegivingthelandlordhistitle,“haveyouanyforeignguestscomingonthisfirstdayoftheseason?”
“MadameMayoress。”repliedthelandlordreturningthecompliment,“Ihavetwo。Theyhavewritten——theonebythehandofhisservant,theotherbyhisownhandapparently——toordertheirrooms;andtheyarefromEngland,both,asIthinkbytheirnames。Ifyouaskmetopronouncethosenames,mytonguehesitates;ifyouaskmetospellthem,heretheyare,letterbyletter,firstandsecondintheirorderastheycome。First,ahigh-bornstrangerbytitleMisterwhointroduceshimselfineightletters,A,r,m,a,d,a,l,e——andcomesillinhisowncarriage。Second,ahigh-bornstrangerbytitleMisteralso,whointroduceshimselfinfourletters——N,e,a,l——andcomesillinthediligence。HisexcellencyoftheeightletterswritestomebyhisservantinFrench;hisexcellencyofthefourletterswritestomeinGerman。Theroomsofbothareready。Iknownomore。”
“Perhaps。”suggestedthemayor’swife,“Mr。Doctorhasheardfromoneorbothoftheseillustriousstrangers?”
“Fromoneonly,MadamMayoress;butnot,strictlyspeaking,fromthepersonhimself。Ihavereceivedamedicalreportofhisexcellencyoftheeightletters,andhiscaseseemsabadone。
Godhelphim!“
“Thediligence!“criedachildfromtheoutskirtsofthecrowd。
Themusiciansseizedtheirinstruments,andsilencefellonthewholecommunity。Fromfarawayinthewindingsoftheforestgorge,theringofhorses’bellscamefaintlyclearthroughtheeveningstillness。Whichcarriagewasapproaching——theprivatecarriagewithMr。Armadale,orthepubliccarriagewithMr。Neal?
“Play,myfriends!“criedthemayortothemusicians。“Publicorprivate,herearethefirstsickpeopleoftheseason。Letthemfinduscheerful。”
Thebandplayedalivelydancetune,andthechildreninthesquarefooteditmerrilytothemusic。Atthesamemoment,theireldersneartheinndoordrewaside,anddisclosedthefirstshadowofgloomthatfelloverthegayetyandbeautyofthescene。Throughtheopeningmadeoneitherhand,alittleprocessionofstoutcountrygirlsadvanced,eachdrawingafterheranemptychaironwheels;eachinwaitingandknittingwhileshewaitedfortheparalyzedwretcheswhocamehelplessbyhundredsthen——whocomehelplessbythousandsnow——tothewatersofWildbadforrelief。
Whilethebandplayed,whilethechildrendanced,whilethebuzzofmanytalkersdeepened,whilethestrongyoungnursesofthecomingcripplesknittedimpenetrably,awoman’sinsatiablecuriosityaboutotherwomenasserteditselfinthemayor’swife。
Shedrewthelandladyaside,andwhisperedaquestiontoheronthespot。
“Awordmore,ma’am。”saidthemayor’swife,“aboutthetwostrangersfromEngland。Aretheirlettersexplicit?Havetheygotanyladieswiththem?”
“Theonebythediligence——no。”repliedthelandlady。“Buttheonebytheprivatecarriage——yes。Hecomeswithachild;hecomeswithanurse;and。”concludedthelandlady,skillfullykeepingthemainpointofinteresttillthelast,“hecomeswithaWife。”
Themayoressbrightened;thedoctoressassistingattheconferencebrightened;thelandladynoddedsignificantly。Inthemindsofallthreethesamethoughtstartedintolifeatthesamemoment——“WeshallseetheFashions!“
Inaminutemore,therewasasuddenmovementinthecrowd;andachorusofvoicesproclaimedthatthetravelerswereathand。
Bythistimethecomingvehiclewasinsight,andallfurtherdoubtwasatanend。Itwasthediligencethatnowapproachedbythelongstreetleadingintothesquare——thediligenceinadazzlingnewcoatofyellowpaintthatdeliveredthefirstvisitorsoftheseasonattheinndoor。Ofthetentravelersreleasedfromthemiddlecompartmentandthebackcompartmentofthecarriage——allfromvariouspartsofGermany——threewereliftedouthelpless,andwereplacedinthechairsonwheelstobedrawntotheirlodgingsinthetown。Thefrontcompartmentcontainedtwopassengersonly——Mr。Nealandhistravelingservant。Withanarmoneithersidetoassisthim,thestrangerwhosemaladyappearedtobelocallyconfinedtoalamenessinoneofhisfeetsucceededindescendingthestepsofthecarriageeasilyenough。Whilehesteadiedhimselfonthepavementbythehelpofhisstick——lookingnotover-patientlytowardthemusicianswhowereserenadinghimwiththewaltzin“DerFreischutz“——hispersonalappearanceratherdampedtheenthusiasmofthefriendlylittlecircleassembledtowelcomehim。Hewasalean,tall,serious,middle-agedman,withacoldgrayeyeandalongupperlip,withoverhangingeyebrowsandhighcheek-bones;amanwholookedwhathewas——everyinchaScotchman。
“Whereistheproprietorofthishotel?”heasked,speakingintheGermanlanguage,withafluentreadinessofexpression,andanicycoldnessofmanner。“Fetchthedoctor。”hecontinued,whenthelandlordhadpresentedhimself,“Iwanttoseehimimmediately。”
“Iamherealready,sir。”saidthedoctor,advancingfromthecircleoffriends,“andmyservicesareentirelyatyourdisposal。”
“Thankyou。”saidMr。Neal,lookingatthedoctor,astherestofuslookatadogwhenwehavewhistledandthedoghascome。“I
shallbegladtoconsultyouto-morrowmorning,atteno’clock,aboutmyowncase。IonlywanttotroubleyounowwithamessagewhichIhaveundertakentodeliver。Weovertookatravelingcarriageontheroadherewithagentlemaninit——anEnglishman,Ibelieve——whoappearedtobeseriouslyill。Aladywhowaswithhimbeggedmetoseeyouimmediatelyonmyarrival,andtosecureyourprofessionalassistanceinremovingthepatientfromthecarriage。Theircourierhasmetwithanaccident,andhasbeenleftbehindontheroad,andtheyareobligedtotravelveryslowly。Ifyouarehereinanhour,youwillbehereintimetoreceivethem。Thatisthemessage。Whoisthisgentlemanwhoappearstobeanxioustospeaktome?Themayor?Ifyouwishtoseemypassport,sir,myservantwillshowittoyou。No?Youwishtowelcomemetotheplace,andtoofferyourservices?Iaminfinitelyflattered。Ifyouhaveanyauthoritytoshortentheperformancesofyourtownband,youwouldbedoingmeakindnesstoexertit。Mynervesareirritable,andIdislikemusic。Whereisthelandlord?No;Iwanttoseemyrooms。Idon’twantyourarm;Icangetupstairswiththehelpofmystick。Mr。MayorandMr。Doctor,weneednotdetainoneanotheranylonger。Iwishyougood-night。”
BothmayoranddoctorlookedaftertheScotchmanashelimpedupstairs,andshooktheirheadstogetherinmutedisapprovalofhim。Theladies,asusual,wentastepfurther,andexpressedtheiropinionsopenlyintheplainestwords。Thecaseunderconsiderationsofaras_they_wereconcernedwasthescandalouscaseofamanwhohadpassedthemoverentirelywithoutnotice。Mrs。Mayorcouldonlyattributesuchanoutragetothenativeferocityofasavage。Mrs。Doctortookastrongerviewstill,andconsidereditasproceedingfromtheinbredbrutalityofahog。
Thehourofwaitingforthetraveling-carriageworeon,andthecreepingnightstoleupthehillsidessoftly。Onebyonethestarsappeared,andthefirstlightstwinkledinthewindowsoftheinn。Asthedarknesscame,thelastidlersdesertedthesquare;asthedarknesscame,themightysilenceoftheforestaboveflowedinonthevalley,andstrangelyandsuddenlyhushedthelonelylittletown。
Thehourofwaitingworeout,andthefigureofthedoctor,walkingbackwardandforwardanxiously,wasstilltheonlylivingfigureleftinthesquare。Fiveminutes,tenminutes,twentyminutes,werecountedoutbythedoctor’swatch,beforethefirstsoundcamethroughthenightsilencetowarnhimoftheapproachingcarriage。Slowlyitemergedintothesquare,atthewalkingpaceofthehorses,anddrewup,asahearsemighthavedrawnup,atthedooroftheinn。
“Isthedoctorhere?”askedawoman’svoice,speaking,outofthedarknessofthecarriage,intheFrenchlanguage。
“Iamhere,madam。”repliedthedoctor,takingalightfromthelandlord’shandandopeningthecarriagedoor。
Thefirstfacethatthelightfellonwasthefaceoftheladywhohadjustspoken——ayoung,darklybeautifulwoman,withthetearsstandingthickandbrightinhereagerblackeyes。Thesecondfacerevealedwasthefaceofashriveledoldnegress,sittingoppositetheladyonthebackseat。Thethirdwasthefaceofalittlesleepingchildinthenegress’slap。Withaquickgestureofimpatience,theladysignedtothenursetoleavethecarriagefirstwiththechild。“Praytakethemoutoftheway。”shesaidtothelandlady;“praytakethemtotheirroom。”Shegotoutherselfwhenherrequesthadbeencompliedwith。Thenthelightfellclearforthefirsttimeonthefurthersideofthecarriage,andthefourthtravelerwasdisclosedtoview。
Helayhelplessonamattress,supportedbyastretcher;hishair,longanddisordered,underablackskull-cap;hiseyeswideopen,rollingtoandfroceaselesslyanxious;therestofhisfaceasvoidofallexpressionofthecharacterwithinhim,andthethoughtwithinhim,asifhehadbeendead。Therewasnolookingathimnow,andguessingwhathemightoncehavebeen。
Theleadenblankofhisfacemeteveryquestionastohisage,hisrank,histemper,andhislookswhichthatfacemightoncehaveanswered,inimpenetrablesilence。Nothingspokeforhimnowbuttheshockthathadstruckhimwiththedeath-in-lifeofparalysis。Thedoctor’seyequestionedhislowerlimbs,andDeath-in-Lifeanswered,_Iamhere。_Thedoctor’seye,risingattentivelybywayofhishandsandarms,questionedupwardandupwardtothemusclesroundhismouth,andDeath-in-Lifeanswered,_Iamcoming。_
Inthefaceofacalamitysounsparingandsodreadful,therewasnothingtobesaid。Thesilentsympathyofhelpwasallthatcouldbeofferedtothewomanwhostoodweepingatthecarriagedoor。
Astheyborehimonhisbedacrossthehallofthehotel,hiswanderingeyesencounteredthefaceofhiswife。Theyrestedonherforamoment,andinthatmomenthespoke。
“Thechild?”hesaidinEnglish,withaslow,thick,laboringarticulation。
“Thechildissafeupstairs。”sheanswered,faintly。
“Mydesk?”
“Itisinmyhands。Look!Iwon’ttrustittoanybody;Iamtakingcareofitforyoumyself。”
Heclosedhiseyesforthefirsttimeafterthatanswer,andsaidnomore。Tenderlyandskillfullyhewascarriedupthestairs,withhiswifeononesideofhim,andthedoctorominouslysilentontheother。Thelandlordandtheservantsfollowingsawthedoorofhisroomopenandcloseonhim;heardtheladyburstoutcryinghystericallyassoonasshewasalonewiththedoctorandthesickman;sawthedoctorcomeout,halfanhourlater,withhisruddyfaceashadepalerthanusual;pressedhimeagerlyforinformation,andreceivedbutoneanswertoalltheirinquiries——“WaittillIhaveseenhimto-morrow。Askmenothingto-night。”Theyallknewthedoctor’sways,andtheyauguredillwhenheleftthemhurriedlywiththatreply。
SothetwofirstEnglishvisitorsoftheyearcametotheBathsofWildbadintheseasonofeighteenhundredandthirty-two。
CHAPTERII。
THESOLIDSIDEOFTHESCOTCHCHARACTER。
ATteno’clockthenextmorning,Mr。Neal——waitingforthemedicalvisitwhichhehadhimselfappointedforthathour——lookedathiswatch,anddiscovered,tohisamazement,thathewaswaitinginvain。Itwascloseonelevenwhenthedooropenedatlast,andthedoctorenteredtheroom。
“Iappointedteno’clockforyourvisit。”saidMr。Neal。“Inmycountry,amedicalmanisapunctualman。”
“Inmycountry。”returnedthedoctor,withouttheleastill-humor,“amedicalmanisexactlylikeothermen——heisatthemercyofaccidents。Praygrantmeyourpardon,sir,forbeingsolongaftermytime;Ihavebeendetainedbyaverydistressingcase——thecaseofMr。Armadale,whosetraveling-carriageyoupassedontheroadyesterday。”
Mr。Neallookedathismedicalattendantwithasoursurprise。
Therewasalatentanxietyinthedoctor’seye,alatentpreoccupationinthedoctor’smanner,whichhewasatalosstoaccountfor。Foramomentthetwofacesconfrontedeachothersilently,inmarkednationalcontrast——theScotchman’s,longandlean,hardandregular;theGerman’s,plumpandflorid,softandshapeless。Onefacelookedasifithadneverbeenyoung;theother,asifitwouldnevergrowold。
“MightIventuretoremindyou。”saidMr。Neal,“thatthecasenowunderconsiderationisMYcase,andnotMr。Armadale’s?”
“Certainly。”repliedthedoctor,stillvacillatingbetweenthecasehehadcometoseeandthecasehehadjustleft。“Youappeartobesufferingfromlameness;letmelookatyourfoot。”
Mr。Neal’smalady,howeverseriousitmightbeinhisownestimation,wasofnoextraordinaryimportanceinamedicalpointofview。Hewassufferingfromarheumaticaffectionoftheankle-joint。Thenecessaryquestionswereaskedandansweredandthenecessarybathswereprescribed。Intenminutestheconsultationwasatanend,andthepatientwaswaitinginsignificantsilenceforthemedicaladvisertotakehisleave。
“Icannotconcealfrommyself。”saidthedoctor,rising,andhesitatingalittle,“thatIamintrudingonyou。ButIamcompelledtobegyourindulgenceifIreturntothesubjectofMr。Armadale。”
“MayIaskwhatcompelsyou?”
“ThedutywhichIoweasaChristian。”answeredthedoctor,“toadyingman。”
Mr。Nealstarted。Thosewhotouchedhissenseofreligiousdutytouchedthequickestsenseinhisnature。
“Youhaveestablishedyourclaimonmyattention。”hesaid,gravely。“Mytimeisyours。”
“Iwillnotabuseyourkindness。”repliedthedoctor,resuminghischair。“IwillbeasshortasIcan。Mr。Armadale’scaseisbrieflythis:HehaspassedthegreaterpartofhislifeintheWestIndies——awildlife,andaviciouslife,byhisownconfession。Shortlyafterhismarriage——nowsomethreeyearssince——thefirstsymptomsofanapproachingparalyticaffectionbegantoshowthemselves,andhismedicaladvisersorderedhimawaytotrytheclimateofEurope。SinceleavingtheWestIndieshehaslivedprincipallyinItaly,withnobenefittohishealth。
FromItaly,beforethelastseizureattackedhim,heremovedtoSwitzerland,andfromSwitzerlandhehasbeensenttothisplace。
SomuchIknowfromhisdoctor’sreport;therestIcantellyoufrommyownpersonalexperience。Mr。ArmadalehasbeensenttoWildbadtoolate:heisvirtuallyadeadman。Theparalysisisfastspreadingupward,anddiseaseofthelowerpartofthespinehasalreadytakenplace。Hecanstillmovehishandsalittle,buthecanholdnothinginhisfingers。Hecanstillarticulate,buthemaywakespeechlessto-morrowornextday。IfIgivehimaweekmoretolive,IgivehimwhatIhonestlybelievetobetheutmostlengthofhisspan。AthisownrequestItoldhim,ascarefullyandastenderlyasIcould,whatIhavejusttoldyou。
Theresultwasverydistressing;theviolenceofthepatient’sagitationwasaviolencewhichIdespairofdescribingtoyou。I
tookthelibertyofaskinghimwhetherhisaffairswereunsettled。Nothingofthesort。HiswillisinthehandsofhisexecutorinLondon,andheleaveshiswifeandchildwellprovidedfor。Mynextquestionsucceededbetter;ithitthemark:
’Haveyousomethingonyourmindtodobeforeyoudiewhichisnotdoneyet?’Hegaveagreatgaspofrelief,whichsaid,asnowordscouldhavesaidit,Yes。’CanIhelpyou?’’Yes。IhavesomethingtowritethatI_must_write;canyoumakemeholdapen?’
“HemightaswellhaveaskedmeifIcouldperformamiracle。I
couldonlysayNo。’IfIdictatethewords,’hewenton,’canyouwritewhatItellyoutowrite?’OncemoreIcouldonlysayNo。I
understandalittleEnglish,butIcanneitherspeakitnorwriteit。Mr。ArmadaleunderstandsFrenchwhenitisspokenasIspeakittohimslowly,buthecannotexpresshimselfinthatlanguage;andofGermanheistotallyignorant。Inthisdifficulty,Isaid,whatanyoneelseinmysituationwouldhavesaid:’Whyask_me?_thereisMrs。Armadaleatyourserviceinthenextroom。’BeforeIcouldgetupfrommychairtofetchher,hestoppedme——notbywords,butbyalookofhorrorwhichfixedme,bymainforceofastonishment,inmyplace。’Surely,’Isaid,’yourwifeisthefittestpersontowriteforyouasyoudesire?’
’Thelastpersonunderheaven!’heanswered。’What!’Isaid,’youaskme,aforeignerandastranger,towritewordsatyourdictationwhichyoukeepasecretfromyourwife!’Conceivemyastonishmentwhenheansweredme,withoutamoment’shesitation,’Yes!’Isatlost;Isatsilent。’If_you_can’twriteEnglish,’
hesaid,’findsomebodywhocan。’Itriedtoremonstrate。Heburstintoadreadfulmoaningcry——adumbentreaty,liketheentreatyofadog。’Hush!hush!’Isaid,’Iwillfindsomebody。’
’To-day!’hebrokeout,’beforemyspeechfailsme,likemyhand。’’To-day,inanhour’stime。’Heshuthiseyes;hequietedhimselfinstantly。’WhileIamwaitingforyou,’hesaid,’letmeseemylittleboy。’Hehadshownnotendernesswhenhespokeofhiswife,butIsawthetearsonhischeekswhenheaskedforhischild。Myprofession,sir,hasnotmademesohardamanasyoumightthink;andmydoctor’sheartwasasheavy,whenIwentouttofetchthechild,asifIhadnotbeenadoctoratall。Iamafraidyouthinkthisratherweakonmypart?”
ThedoctorlookedappealinglyatMr。Neal。HemightaswellhavelookedatarockintheBlackForest。Mr。NealentirelydeclinedtobedrawnbyanydoctorinChristendomoutoftheregionsofplainfact。
“Goon。”hesaid。“Ipresumeyouhavenottoldmeallthatyouhavetotellme,yet?”
“Surelyyouunderstandmyobjectincominghere,now?”returnedtheother“Yourobjectisplainenough,atlast。Youinvitemetoconnectmyselfblindfoldwithamatterwhichisinthelastdegreesuspicious,sofar。IdeclinegivingyouanyansweruntilIknowmorethanIknownow。Didyouthinkitnecessarytoinformthisman’swifeofwhathadpassedbetweenyou,andtoaskherforanexplanation?”
“OfcourseIthoughtitnecessary!“saidthedoctor,indignantatthereflectiononhishumanitywhichthequestionseemedtoimply。“IfeverIsawawomanfondofherhusband,andsorryforherhusband,itisthisunhappyMrs。Armadale。Assoonaswewereleftalonetogether,Isatdownbyherside,andItookherhandinmine。Whynot?Iamanuglyoldman,andImayallowmyselfsuchlibertiesasthese!“
“Excuseme。”saidtheimpenetrableScotchman。“Ibegtosuggestthatyouarelosingthethreadofthenarrative。”
“Nothingmorelikely。”returnedthedoctor,recoveringhisgoodhumor。“Itisinthehabitofmynationtobeperpetuallylosingthethread;anditisevidentlyinthehabitofyours,sir,tobeperpetuallyfindingit。Whatanexamplehereoftheorderoftheuniverse,andtheeverlastingfitnessofthings!“
“Willyouobligeme,onceforall,byconfiningyourselftothefacts。”persistedMr。Neal,frowningimpatiently。“MayIinquire,formyowninformation,whetherMrs。Armadalecouldtellyouwhatitisherhusbandwishesmetowrite,andwhyitisthatherefusestoletherwriteforhim?”
“Thereismythreadfound——andthankyouforfindingit!“saidthedoctor。“YoushallhearwhatMrs。Armadalehadtotellme,inMrs。Armadale’sownwords。’Thecausethatnowshutsmeoutofhisconfidence,’shesaid,’is,Ifirmlybelieve,thesamecausethathasalwaysshutmeoutofhisheart。Iamthewifehehaswedded,butIamnotthewomanheloves。Iknewwhenhemarriedmethatanothermanhadwonfromhimthewomanheloved。I
thoughtIcouldmakehimforgether。IhopedwhenImarriedhim;
IhopedagainwhenIborehimason。NeedItellyoutheendofmyhopes——youhaveseenitforyourself。’Wait,sir,Ientreatyou!Ihavenotlostthethreadagain;Iamfollowingitinchbyinch。’Isthisallyouknow?’Iasked。’AllIknew,’shesaid,’tillashorttimesince。ItwaswhenwewereinSwitzerland,andwhenhisillnesswasnearlyatitsworst,thatnewscametohimbyaccidentofthatotherwomanwhohasbeentheshadowandthepoisonofmylife——newsthatshelikemehadborneherhusbandason。Ontheinstantofhismakingthatdiscovery——atriflingdiscovery,ifevertherewasoneyet——amortalfearseizedonhim:notforme,notforhimself;afearforhisownchild。Thesamedaywithoutawordtomehesentforthedoctor。Iwasmean,wicked,whatyouplease——Ilistenedatthedoor。Iheardhimsay:_Ihavesomethingtotellmyson,whenmysongrowsoldenoughtounderstandme。ShallIlivetotellit?_Thedoctorwouldsaynothingcertain。Thesamenightstillwithoutawordtomehelockedhimselfintohisroom。Whatwouldanywoman,treatedasIwas,havedoneinmyplace?ShewouldhavedoneasI
did——shewouldhavelistenedagain。Iheardhimsaytohimself:
_Ishallnotlivetotellit:Imust;writeitbeforeIdie。_I
heardhispenscrape,scrape,scrapeoverthepaper;Iheardhimgroaningandsobbingashewrote;IimploredhimforGod’ssaketoletmein。Thecruelpenwentscrape,scrape,scrape;thecruelpenwasalltheanswerhegaveme。Iwaitedatthedoor——hours——Idon’tknowhowlong。Onasudden,thepenstopped;
andIheardnomore。Iwhisperedthroughthekeyholesoftly;I
saidIwascoldandwearywithwaiting;Isaid,Oh,mylove,letmein!Noteventhecruelpenansweredmenow:silenceansweredme。WithallthestrengthofmymiserablehandsIbeatatthedoor。Theservantscameupandbrokeitin。Weweretoolate;theharmwasdone。Overthatfatalletter,thestrokehadstruckhim——overthatfatalletter,wefoundhimparalyzedasyouseehimnow。ThosewordswhichhewantsyoutowritearethewordshewouldhavewrittenhimselfifthestrokehadsparedhimtillthemorningFromthattimetothistherehasbeenablankplaceleftintheletter;anditisthatblankplacewhichhehasjustaskedyoutofillup。’——InthosewordsMrs。Armadalespoketome;inthosewordsyouhavethesumandsubstanceofalltheinformationIcangive。Say,ifyouplease,sir,haveIkeptthethreadatlast?HaveIshownyouthenecessitywhichbringsmeherefromyourcountryman’sdeath-bed?”
“Thusfar。”saidMr。Neal,“youmerelyshowmethatyouareexcitingyourself。Thisistooseriousamattertobetreatedasyouaretreatingitnow。YouhaveinvolvedMeinthebusiness,andIinsistonseeingmywayplainly。Don’traiseyourhands;
yourhandsarenotapartofthequestion。IfIamtobeconcernedinthecompletionofthismysteriousletter,itisonlyanactofjustifiableprudenceonmyparttoinquirewhattheletterisabout。Mrs。Armadaleappearstohavefavoredyouwithaninfinitenumberofdomesticparticulars——inreturn,Ipresume,foryourpoliteattentionintakingherbythehand。MayIaskwhatshecouldtellyouaboutherhusband’sletter,sofarasherhusbandhaswrittenit?”
“Mrs。Armadalecouldtellmenothing。”repliedthedoctor,withasuddenformalityinhismanner,whichshowedthathisforbearancewasatlastfailinghim。“Beforeshewascomposedenoughtothinkoftheletter,herhusbandhadaskedforit,andhadcausedittobelockedupinhisdesk。Sheknowsthathehassince,timeaftertime,triedtofinishit,andthat,timeaftertime,thepenhasdroppedfromhisfingers。Sheknows,whenallotherhopeofhisrestorationwasatanend,thathismedicaladvisersencouragedhimtohopeinthefamouswatersofthisplace。Andlast,sheknowshowthathopehasended;forsheknowswhatItoldherhusbandthismorning。”
ThefrownwhichhadbeengatheringlatterlyonMr。Neal’sfacedeepenedanddarkened。Helookedatthedoctorasifthedoctorhadpersonallyoffendedhim。
“ThemoreIthinkofthepositionyouareaskingmetotake。”hesaid,“thelessIlikeit。CanyouundertaketosaypositivelythatMr。Armadaleisinhisrightmind?”
“Yes;aspositivelyaswordscansayit。”
“Doeshiswifesanctionyourcomingheretorequestmyinterference?”
“Hiswifesendsmetoyou——theonlyEnglishmaninWildbad——towriteforyourdyingcountrymanwhathecannotwriteforhimself;
andwhatnooneelseinthisplacebutyoucanwriteforhim。”
ThatanswerdroveMr。Nealbacktothelastinchofgroundlefthimtostandon。EvenonthatinchtheScotchmanresistedstill。
“Waitalittle!“hesaid。“Youputitstrongly;letusbequitesureyouputitcorrectlyaswell。Letusbequitesurethereisnobodytotakethisresponsibilitybutmyself。ThereisamayorinWildbad,tobeginwith——amanwhopossessesanofficialcharactertojustifyhisinterference。”
“Amanofathousand。”saidthedoctor。“Withonefault——heknowsnolanguagebuthisown。”
“ThereisanEnglishlegationatStuttgart。”persistedMr。Neal。
“AndtherearemilesonmilesoftheforestbetweenthisandStuttgart。”rejoinedthedoctor。“Ifwesentthismoment,wecouldgetnohelpfromthelegationbeforeto-morrow;anditisaslikelyasnot,inthestateofthisdyingman’sarticulation,thatto-morrowmayfindhimspeechless。Idon’tknowwhetherhislastwishesarewishesharmlesstohischildandtoothers,wisheshurtfultohischildandtoothers;butI_do_knowthattheymustbefulfilledatonceornever,andthatyouaretheonlymanthatcanhelphim。”
Thatopendeclarationbroughtthediscussiontoaclose。ItfixedMr。NealfastbetweenthetwoalternativesofsayingYes,andcommittinganactofimprudence,orofsayingNo,andcommittinganactofinhumanity。Therewasasilenceofsomeminutes。TheScotchmansteadilyreflected;andtheGermansteadilywatchedhim。
TheresponsibilityofsayingthenextwordsrestedonMr。Neal,andincourseoftimeMr。Nealtookit。Herosefromhischairwithasullensenseofinjuryloweringonhisheavyeyebrows,andworkingsourlyinthelinesatthecornersofhismouth。
“Mypositionisforcedonme。”hesaid。“Ihavenochoicebuttoacceptit。”
Thedoctor’simpulsivenatureroseinrevoltagainstthemercilessbrevityandgracelessnessofthatreply。“IwishtoGod。”hebrokeoutfervently,“IknewEnglishenoughtotakeyourplaceatMr。Armadale’sbedside!“
“BatingyourtakingthenameoftheAlmightyinvain。”answeredtheScotchman,“Ientirelyagreewithyou。Iwishyoudid。”
Withoutanotherwordoneitherside,theylefttheroomtogether——thedoctorleadingtheway。
CHAPTERIII。
THEWRECKOFTHETIMBERSHIP。
NOoneansweredthedoctor’sknockwhenheandhiscompanionreachedtheantechamberdoorofMr。Armadale’sapartments。Theyenteredunannounced;andwhentheylookedintothesitting-room,thesitting-roomwasempty。
“ImustseeMrs。Armadale。”saidMr。Neal。“IdeclineactinginthematterunlessMrs。Armadaleauthorizesmyinterferencewithherownlips。”
“Mrs。Armadaleisprobablywithherhusband。”repliedthedoctor。
Heapproachedadoorattheinnerendofthesitting-roomwhilehespoke——hesitated——and,turningroundagain,lookedathissourcompanionanxiously。“IamafraidIspokealittleharshly,sir,whenwewereleavingyourroom。”hesaid。“Ibegyourpardonforit,withallmyheart。Beforethispoorafflictedladycomesin,willyou——willyouexcusemyaskingyourutmostgentlenessandconsiderationforher?”
“No,sir。”retortedtheotherharshly;“Iwon’texcuseyou。WhatrighthaveIgivenyoutothinkmewantingingentlenessandconsiderationtowardanybody?”
Thedoctorsawitwasuseless。“Ibegyourpardonagain。”hesaid,resignedly,andlefttheunapproachablestrangertohimself。
Mr。Nealwalkedtothewindow,andstoodthere,withhiseyesmechanicallyfixedontheprospect,composinghismindforthecominginterview。
Itwasmidday;thesunshonebrightandwarm;andallthelittleworldofWildbadwasaliveandmerryinthegenialspringtime。
Nowandagainheavywagons,withblack-facedcartersincharge,rolledbythewindow,bearingtheirpreciousladingofcharcoalfromtheforest。Nowandagain,hurledovertheheadlongcurrentofthestreamthatrunsthroughthetown,greatlengthsoftimber,looselystrungtogetherininterminableseries——withthebootedraftsmen,poleinhand,poisedwatchfulateitherend——shotswiftandserpent-likepastthehousesontheircoursetothedistantRhine。Highandsteepabovethegabledwoodenbuildingsontheriver-bank,thegreathillsides,crestedblackwithfirs,shonetotheshiningheavensinagloryoflustrousgreen。Inandout,wheretheforestfoot-pathswoundfromthegrassthroughthetrees,fromthetreesoverthegrass,thebrightspringdressesofwomenandchildren,onthesearchforwildflowers,traveledtoandfrointheloftydistancelikespotsofmovinglight。Below,onthewalkbythestreamside,theboothsofthelittlebazarthathadopenedpunctuallywiththeopeningseasonshowedalltheirglitteringtrinkets,andflutteredinthebalmyairtheirsplendorofmany-coloredflags。
Longingly,herethechildrenlookedattheshow;patientlythesunburnedlassespliedtheirknittingastheypacedthewalk;
courteouslythepassingtownspeople,byfoursandfives,andthepassingvisitors,byonesandtwos,greetedeachother,hatinhand;andslowly,slowly,thecrippleandthehelplessintheirchairsonwheelscameoutinthecheerfulnoontidewiththerest,andtooktheirshareoftheblessedlightthatcheers,oftheblessedsunthatshinesforall。
OnthisscenetheScotchmanlooked,witheyesthatnevernoteditsbeauty,withamindfarawayfromeverylessonthatittaught。Onebyonehemeditatedthewordsheshouldsaywhenthewifecamein。Onebyoneheponderedovertheconditionshemightimposebeforehetookthepeninhandatthehusband’sbedside。
“Mrs。Armadaleishere。”saidthedoctor’svoice,interposingsuddenlybetweenhisreflectionsandhimself。
Heturnedontheinstant,andsawbeforehim,withthepuremiddaylightshiningfullonher,awomanofthemixedbloodoftheEuropeanandtheAfricanrace,withtheNortherndelicacyintheshapeofherface,andtheSouthernrichnessinitscolor——awomanintheprimeofherbeauty,whomovedwithaninbredgrace,wholookedwithaninbredfascination,whoselarge,languidblackeyesrestedonhimgratefully,whoselittleduskyhandoffereditselftohiminmuteexpressionofherthanks,withthewelcomethatisgiventothecomingofafriend。ForthefirsttimeinhislifetheScotchmanwastakenbysurprise。Everyself-preservativewordthathehadbeenmeditatingbutaninstantsincedroppedoutofhismemory。Histhriceimpenetrablearmorofhabitualsuspicion,habitualself-discipline,andhabitualreserve,whichhadneverfallenfromhiminawoman’spresencebefore,fellfromhiminthiswoman’spresence,andbroughthimtohisknees,aconqueredman。Hetookthehandsheofferedhim,andbowedoverithisfirsthonesthomagetothesex,insilence。
Shehesitatedonherside。Thequickfeminineperceptionwhich,inhappiercircumstances,wouldhavepouncedonthesecretofhisembarrassmentinaninstant,failedhernow。Sheattributedhisstrangereceptionofhertopride,toreluctance——toanycausebuttheunexpectedrevelationofherownbeauty。“Ihavenowordstothankyou。”shesaid,faintly,tryingtopropitiatehim。“I
shouldonlydistressyouifItriedtospeak。”Herlipbegantotremble,shedrewbackalittle,andturnedawayherheadinsilence。
Thedoctor,whohadbeenstandingapart,quietlyobservantinacorner,advancedbeforeMr。Nealcouldinterfere,andledMrs。
Armadaletoachair。“Don’tbeafraidofhim。”whisperedthegoodman,pattinghergentlyontheshoulder。“Hewashardasironinmyhands,butIthink,bythelookofhim,hewillbesoftaswaxinyours。SaythewordsItoldyoutosay,andletustakehimtoyourhusband’sroom,beforethosesharpwitsofhishavetimetorecoverthemselves。”
Sherousedhersinkingresolution,andadvancedhalf-waytothewindowtomeetMr。Neal。“Mykindfriend,thedoctor,hastoldme,sir,thatyouronlyhesitationincominghereisahesitationonmyaccount。”shesaid,herheaddroopingalittle,andherrichcolorfadingawaywhileshespoke。“Iamdeeplygrateful,butIentreatyounottothinkof_me。_Whatmyhusbandwishes——“
Hervoicefaltered;shewaitedresolutely,andrecoveredherself。
“Whatmyhusbandwishesinhislastmoments,Iwishtoo。”
ThistimeMr。Nealwascomposedenoughtoanswerher。Inlow,earnesttones,heentreatedhertosaynomore。“Iwasonlyanxioustoshowyoueveryconsideration。”hesaid。“Iamonlyanxiousnowtospareyoueverydistress。”Ashespoke,somethinglikeaglowofcolorroseslowlyonhissallowface。Hereyeswerelookingathim,softlyattentive;andhethoughtguiltilyofhismeditationsatthewindowbeforeshecamein。
Thedoctorsawhisopportunity。HeopenedthedoorthatledintoMr。Armadale’sroom,andstoodbyit,waitingsilently。Mrs。
Armadaleenteredfirst。Inaminutemorethedoorwasclosedagain;andMr。Nealstoodcommittedtotheresponsibilitythathadbeenforcedonhim——committedbeyondrecall。
Theroomwasdecoratedinthegaudycontinentalfashion,andthewarmsunlightwasshininginjoyously。Cupidsandflowerswerepaintedontheceiling;brightribbonsloopedupthewhitewindow-curtains;asmartgiltclocktickedonavelvet-coveredmantelpiece;mirrorsgleamedonthewalls,andflowersinallthecolorsoftherainbowspeckledthecarpet。Inthemidstofthefinery,andtheglitter,andthelight,laytheparalyzedman,withhiswanderingeyes,andhislifelesslowerface——hisheadproppedhighwithmanypillows;hishelplesshandslaidoutoverthebed-clotheslikethehandsofacorpse。Bythebedheadstood,grim,andold,andsilent,theshriveledblacknurse;andonthecounter-pane,betweenhisfather’soutspreadhands,laythechild,inhislittlewhitefrock,absorbedintheenjoymentofanewtoy。Whenthedooropened,andMrs。Armadaleledthewayin,theboywastossinghisplaything——asoldieronhorseback——backwardandforwardoverthehelplesshandsoneithersideofhim;andthefather’swanderingeyeswerefollowingthetoytoandfro,withastealthyandceaselessvigilance——avigilanceasofawildanimal,terribletosee。
ThemomentMr。Nealappearedinthedoorway,thoserestlesseyesstopped,lookedup,andfastenedonthestrangerwithafierceeagernessofinquiry。Slowlythemotionlesslipsstruggledintomovement。Withthick,hesitatingarticulation,theyputthequestionwhichtheeyesaskedmutely,intowords:“Areyoutheman?”
Mr。Nealadvancedtothebedside,Mrs。Armadaledrawingbackfromitasheapproached,andwaitingwiththedoctoratthefurtherendoftheroom。Thechildlookedup,toyinhand,asthestrangercamenear,openedhisbrightbrowneyesinmomentaryastonishment,andthenwentonwithhisgame。
“Ihavebeenmadeacquaintedwithyoursadsituation,sir。”saidMr。Neal;“andIhavecomeheretoplacemyservicesatyourdisposal——serviceswhichnoonebutmyself,asyourmedicalattendantinformsme,isinapositiontorenderyouinthisstrangeplace。MynameisNeal。IamawritertothesignetinEdinburgh;andImaypresumetosayformyselfthatanyconfidenceyouwishtoplaceinmewillbeconfidencenotimproperlybestowed。”
Theeyesofthebeautifulwifewerenotconfusinghimnow。Hespoketothehelplesshusbandquietlyandseriously,withouthiscustomaryharshness,andwithagravecompassioninhismannerwhichpresentedhimathisbest。Thesightofthedeath-bedhadsteadiedhim。
“Youwishmetowritesomethingforyou?”heresumed,afterwaitingforareply,andwaitinginvain。
“Yes!“saidthedyingman,withtheall-masteringimpatiencewhichhistonguewaspowerlesstoexpress,glitteringangrilyinhiseye。“Myhandisgone,andmyspeechisgoing。Write!“
Beforetherewastimetospeakagain,Mr。Nealheardtherustlingofawoman’sdress,andthequickcreakingofcastersonthecarpetbehindhim。Mrs。Armadalewasmovingthewriting-tableacrosstheroomtothefootofthebed。Ifhewastosetupthosesafeguardsofhisowndevisingthatweretobearhimharmlessthroughallresultstocome,nowwasthetime,ornever。He,kepthisbackturnedonMrs。Armadale,andputhisprecautionaryquestionatonceintheplainestterms。
“MayIask,sir,beforeItakethepeninhand,whatitisyouwishmetowrite?”
Theangryeyesoftheparalyzedmanglitteredbrighterandbrighter。Hislipsopenedandclosedagain。Hemadenoreply。
Mr。Nealtriedanotherprecautionaryquestion,inanewdirection。
“WhenIhavewrittenwhatyouwishmetowrite。”heasked,“whatistobedonewithit?”
Thistimetheanswercame:
“Sealitupinmypresence,andpostittomyex——“
Hislaboringarticulationsuddenlystoppedandhelookedpiteouslyinthequestioner’sfaceforthenextword。
“Doyoumeanyourexecutor?”
“Yes。”
“Itisaletter,Isuppose,thatIamtopost?”Therewasnoanswer。“MayIaskifitisaletteralteringyourwill?”
“Nothingofthesort。”
Mr。Nealconsideredalittle。Themysterywasthickening。Theonewayoutofit,sofar,wasthewaytracedfaintlythroughthatstrangestoryoftheunfinishedletterwhichthedoctorhadrepeatedtohiminMrs。Armadale’swords。Thenearerheapproachedhisunknownresponsibility,themoreominousitseemedofsomethingserioustocome。Shouldheriskanotherquestionbeforehepledgedhimselfirrevocably?Asthedoubtcrossedhismind,hefeltMrs。Armadale’ssilkdresstouchhimonthesidefurthestfromherhusband。Herdelicatedarkhandwaslaidgentlyonhisarm;herfulldeepAfricaneyeslookedathiminsubmissiveentreaty。“Myhusbandisveryanxious。”shewhispered。
“Willyouquiethisanxiety,sir,bytakingyourplaceatthewriting-table?”
Itwasfrom_her_lipsthattherequestcame——fromthelipsofthepersonwhohadthebestrighttohesitate,thewifewhowasexcludedfromthesecret!MostmeninMr。Neal’spositionwouldhavegivenupalltheirsafeguardsonthespot。TheScotchmangavethemallupbutone。
“Iwillwritewhatyouwishmetowrite。”hesaid,addressingMr。
Armadale。“Iwillsealitinyourpresence;andIwillpostittoyourexecutormyself。But,inengagingtodothis,ImustbegyoutorememberthatIamactingentirelyinthedark;andImustaskyoutoexcuseme,ifIreservemyownentirefreedomofaction,whenyourwishesinrelationtothewritingandthepostingoftheletterhavebeenfulfilled。”
“Doyougivemeyourpromise?”
“Ityouwantmypromise,sir,Iwillgiveit——subjecttotheconditionIhavejustnamed。”
“Takeyourcondition,andkeepyourpromise。Mydesk。”headded,lookingathiswifeforthefirsttime。
Shecrossedtheroomeagerlytofetchthedeskfromachairinacorner。Returningwithit,shemadeapassingsigntothenegress,whostillstood,grimandsilent,intheplacethatshehadoccupiedfromthefirst。Thewomanadvanced,obedienttothesign,totakethechildfromthebed。Attheinstantwhenshetouchedhim,thefather’seyes——fixedpreviouslyonthedesk——turnedonherwiththestealthyquicknessofacat。“No!“
hesaid。“No!“echoedthefreshvoiceoftheboy,stillcharmedwithhisplaything,andstilllikinghisplaceonthebed。Thenegresslefttheroom,andthechild,inhightriumph,trottedhistoysoldierupanddownonthebedclothesthatlayrumpledoverhisfather’sbreast。Hismother’slovelyfacecontractedwithapangofjealousyasshelookedathim。
“ShallIopenyourdesk?”sheasked,pushingbackthechild’splaythingsharplywhileshespoke。Anansweringlookfromherhusbandguidedherhandtotheplaceunderhispillowwherethekeywashidden。Sheopenedthedesk,anddisclosedinsidesomesmallsheetsofmanuscriptpinnedtogether。“These?”sheinquired,producingthem。
“Yes。”hesaid。“Youcangonow。”
TheScotchmansittingatthewriting-table,thedoctorstirringastimulantmixtureinacorner,lookedateachotherwithananxietyinboththeirfaceswhichtheycouldneitherofthemcontrol。Thewordsthatbanishedthewifefromtheroomwerespoken。Themomenthadcome。
“Youcangonow。”saidMr。Armadale,forthesecondtime。
Shelookedatthechild,establishedcomfortablyonthebed,andanashypalenessspreadslowlyoverherface。Shelookedatthefatalletterwhichwasasealedsecrettoher,andatortureofjealoussuspicion——suspicionofthatotherwomanwhohadbeentheshadowandthepoisonofherlife——wrunghertotheheart。Aftermovingafewstepsfromthebedside,shestopped,andcamebackagain。Armedwiththedoublecourageofherloveandherdespair,shepressedherlipsonherdyinghusband’scheek,andpleadedwithhimforthelasttime。Herburningtearsdroppedonhisfaceasshewhisperedtohim:“Oh,Allan,thinkhowIhavelovedyou!
thinkhowhardIhavetriedtomakeyouhappy!thinkhowsoonI
shallloseyou!Oh,myownlove!don’t,don’tsendmeaway!“
Thewordspleadedforher;thekisspleadedforher;therecollectionofthelovethathadbeengiventohim,andneverreturned,touchedtheheartofthefast-sinkingmanasnothinghadtoucheditsincethedayofhismarriage。Aheavysighbrokefromhim。Helookedather,andhesitated。
“Letmestay。”shewhispered,pressingherfaceclosertohis。
“Itwillonlydistressyou。”hewhisperedback。
“Nothingdistressesme,butbeingsentawayfrom_you!_“
Hewaited。Shesawthathewasthinking,andwaitedtoo。
“IfIletyoustayalittle——?”
“Yes!yes!“
“WillyougowhenItellyou?”
“Iwill。”
“Onyouroath?”
Thefettersthatboundhistongueseemedtobeloosenedforamomentinthegreatoutburstofanxietywhichforcedthatquestiontohislips。Hespokethosestartlingwordsashehadspokennowordsyet。
“Onmyoath!“sherepeated,and,droppingonherkneesatthebedside,passionatelykissedhishand。Thetwostrangersintheroomturnedtheirheadsawaybycommonconsent。Inthesilencethatfollowed,theonesoundstirringwasthesmallsoundofthechild’stoy,ashemovedithitherandthitheronthebed。
Thedoctorwasthefirstwhobrokethespellofstillnesswhichhadfallenonallthepersonspresent。Heapproachedthepatient,andexaminedhimanxiously。Mrs。Armadalerosefromherknees;
and,firstwaitingforherhusband’spermission,carriedthesheetsofmanuscriptwhichshehadtakenoutofthedesktothetableatwhichMr。Nealwaswaiting。Flushedandeager,morebeautifulthaneverinthevehementagitationwhichstillpossessedher,shestoopedoverhimassheputtheletterintohishands,and,seizingonthemeanstoherendwithawoman’sheadlongself-abandonmenttoherownimpulses,whisperedtohim,“Readitoutfromthebeginning。Imustandwillhearit!“Hereyesflashedtheirburninglightintohis;herbreathbeatonhischeek。Beforehecouldanswer,beforehecouldthink,shewasbackwithherhusband。Inaninstantshehadspoken,andinthatinstantherbeautyhadbenttheScotchmantoherwill。Frowninginreluctantacknowledgmentofhisowninabilitytoresisther,heturnedovertheleavesoftheletter;lookedattheblankplacewherethepenhaddroppedfromthewriter’shandandhadleftablotonthepaper;turnedbackagaintothebeginning,andsaidthewords,inthewife’sinterest,whichthewifeherselfhadputintohislips。
“Perhaps,sir,youmaywishtomakesomecorrections。”hebegan,withallhisattentionapparentlyfixedontheletter,andwitheveryoutwardappearanceoflettinghissourtemperagaingetthebetterofhim。“ShallIreadovertoyouwhatyouhavealreadywritten?”
Mrs。Armadale,sittingatthebedheadononeside,andthedoctor,withhisfingersonthepatient’spulse,sittingontheother,waitedwithwidelydifferentanxietiesfortheanswertoMr。Neal’squestion。Mr。Armadale’seyesturnedsearchinglyfromhischildtohiswife。
“You_will_hearit?”hesaid。Herbreathcameandwentquickly;
herhandstoleupandtookhis;shebowedherheadinsilence。
Herhusbandpaused,takingsecretcounselwithhisthoughts,andkeepinghiseyesfixedonhiswife。Atlasthedecided,andgavetheanswer。“Readit。”hesaid,“andstopwhenItellyou。”
Itwascloseononeo’clock,andthebellwasringingwhichsummonedthevisitorstotheirearlydinnerattheinn。Thequickbeatoffootsteps,andthegatheringhumofvoicesoutside,penetratedgaylyintotheroom,asMr。Nealspreadthemanuscriptbeforehimonthetable,andreadtheopeningsentencesinthesewords:
“Iaddressthislettertomyson,whenmysonisofanagetounderstandit。Havinglostallhopeoflivingtoseemyboygrowuptomanhood,IhavenochoicebuttowriteherewhatIwouldfainhavesaidtohimatafuturetimewithmyownlips。
“Ihavethreeobjectsinwriting。First,torevealthecircumstanceswhichattendedthemarriageofanEnglishladyofmyacquaintance,intheislandofMadeira。Secondly,tothrowthetruelightonthedeathofherhusbandashorttimeafterward,onboardtheFrenchtimbership_LaGracedeDieu。_Thirdly,towarnmysonofadangerthatliesinwaitforhim——adangerthatwillrisefromhisfather’sgravewhentheearthhasclosedoverhisfather’sashes。
“ThestoryoftheEnglishlady’smarriagebeginswithmyinheritingthegreatArmadaleproperty,andmytakingthefatalArmadalename。
“IamtheonlysurvivingsonofthelateMathewWrentmore,ofBarbadoes。Iwasbornonourfamilyestateinthatisland,andI
lostmyfatherwhenIwasstillachild。Mymotherwasblindlyfondofme;shedeniedmenothing,sheletmeliveasIpleased。
Myboyhoodandyouthwerepassedinidlenessandself-indulgence,amongpeople——slavesandhalf-castesmostly——towhommywillwaslaw。IdoubtifthereisagentlemanofmybirthandstationinallEnglandasignorantasIamatthismoment。Idoubtiftherewaseverayoungmaninthisworldwhosepassionswereleftsoentirelywithoutcontrolofanykindasminewereinthoseearlydays。
“Mymotherhadawoman’sromanticobjectiontomyfather’shomelyChristianname。IwaschristenedAllan,afterthenameofawealthycousinofmyfather’s——thelateAllanArmadale——whopossessedestatesinourneighborhood,thelargestandmostproductiveintheisland,andwhoconsentedtobemygodfatherbyproxy。Mr。ArmadalehadneverseenhisWestIndianproperty。HelivedinEngland;and,aftersendingmethecustomarygodfather’spresent,heheldnofurthercommunicationwithmyparentsforyearsafterward。Iwasjusttwenty-onebeforeweheardagainfromMr。Armadale。OnthatoccasionmymotherreceivedaletterfromhimaskingifIwasstillalive,andofferingnolessifIwas
thantomakemetheheirtohisWestIndianproperty。
“ThispieceofgoodfortunefelltomeentirelythroughthemisconductofMr。Armadale’sson,anonlychild。Theyoungmanhaddisgracedhimselfbeyondallredemption;hadlefthishomeanoutlaw;andhadbeenthereuponrenouncedbyhisfatheratonceandforever。Havingnoothernearmalerelativetosucceedhim,Mr。Armadalethoughtofhiscousin’ssonandhisowngodson;andheofferedtheWestIndianestatetome,andmyheirsafterme,ononecondition——thatIandmyheirsshouldtakehisname。Theproposalwasgratefullyaccepted,andtheproperlegalmeasureswereadoptedforchangingmynameinthecolonyandinthemothercountry。BythenextmailinformationreachedMr。Armadalethathisconditionhadbeencompliedwith。Thereturnmailbroughtnewsfromthelawyers。Thewillhadbeenalteredinmyfavor,andinaweekafterwardthedeathofmybenefactorhadmademethelargestproprietorandtherichestmaninBarbadoes。
“Thiswasthefirsteventinthechain。Thesecondeventfolloweditsixweeksafterward。
“Atthattimetherehappenedtobeavacancyintheclerk’sofficeontheestate,andtherecametofillitayoungmanaboutmyownagewhohadrecentlyarrivedintheisland。HeannouncedhimselfbythenameofFergusIngleby。Myimpulsesgovernedmeineverything;Iknewnolawbutthelawofmyowncaprice,andI
tookafancytothestrangerthemomentIseteyesonhim。Hehadthemannersofagentleman,andhepossessedthemostattractivesocialqualitieswhich,inmysmallexperience,Ihadevermetwith。WhenIheardthatthewrittenreferencestocharacterwhichhehadbroughtwithhimwerepronouncedtobeunsatisfactory,I
interfered,andinsistedthatheshouldhavetheplace。Mywillwaslaw,andhehadit。
“MymotherdislikedanddistrustedInglebyfromthefirst。Whenshefoundtheintimacybetweenusrapidlyripening;whenshefoundmeadmittingthisinferiortotheclosestcompanionshipandconfidenceIhadlivedwithmyinferiorsallmylife,andI
likedit,shemadeeffortafterefforttopartus,andfailedinoneandall。Driventoherlastresources,sheresolvedtotrytheonechanceleft——thechanceofpersuadingmetotakeavoyagewhichIhadoftenthoughtof——avoyagetoEngland。
“Beforeshespoketomeonthesubject,sheresolvedtointerestmeintheideaofseeingEngland,asIhadneverbeeninterestedyet。Shewrotetoanoldfriendandanoldadmirerofhers,thelateStephenBlanchard,ofThorpeAmbrose,inNorfolk——agentlemanoflandedestate,andawidowerwithagrown-upfamily。
After-discoveriesinformedmethatshemusthavealludedtotheirformerattachmentwhichwaschecked,Ibelieve,bytheparentsoneitherside;andthat,inaskingMr。Blanchard’swelcomeforhersonwhenhecametoEngland,shemadeinquiriesabouthisdaughter,whichhintedatthechanceofamarriageunitingthetwofamilies,iftheyoungladyandImetandlikedoneanother。
Wewereequallymatchedineveryrespect,andmymother’srecollectionofhergirlishattachmenttoMr。Blanchardmadetheprospectofmymarryingheroldadmirer’sdaughterthebrightestandhappiestprospectthathereyescouldsee。OfallthisIknewnothinguntilMr。Blanchard’sanswerarrivedatBarbadoes。Thenmymothershowedmetheletter,andputthetemptationwhichwastoseparatemefromFergusInglebyopenlyinmyway。
“Mr。Blanchard’sletterwasdatedfromtheIslandofMadeira。Hewasoutofhealth,andhehadbeenorderedtherebythedoctorstotrytheclimate。Hisdaughterwaswithhim。Afterheartilyreciprocatingallmymother’shopesandwishes,heproposedifI
intendedleavingBarbadoesshortlythatIshouldtakeMadeiraonmywaytoEngland,andpayhimavisitathistemporaryresidenceintheisland。Ifthiscouldnotbe,hementionedthetimeatwhichheexpectedtobebackinEngland,whenImightbesureoffindingawelcomeathisownhouseofThorpeAmbrose。Inconclusion,heapologizedfornotwritingatgreaterlength;
explainingthathissightwasaffected,andthathehaddisobeyedthedoctor’sordersbyyieldingtothetemptationofwritingtohisoldfriendwithhisownhand。
“Kindlyasitwasexpressed,theletteritselfmighthavehadlittleinfluenceonme。Buttherewassomethingelsebesidestheletter;therewasinclosedinitaminiatureportraitofMissBlanchard。Atthebackoftheportrait,herfatherhadwritten,half-jestingly,half-tenderly,’Ican’taskmydaughtertosparemyeyesasusual,withouttellingherofyourinquiries,andputtingayounglady’sdiffidencetotheblush。SoIsendherineffigywithoutherknowledgetoanswerforherself。Itisagoodlikenessofagoodgirl。Ifshelikesyourson——andifI
likehim,whichIamsureIshall——wemayyetlive,mygoodfriend,toseeourchildrenwhatwemightoncehavebeenourselves——manandwife。’Mymothergavemetheminiaturewiththeletter。Theportraitatoncestruckme——Ican’tsaywhy,I
can’tsayhow——asnothingofthekindhadeverstruckmebefore。