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  AttheendofSeptemberthetimberhadbeencartedforbuildingthecattleyardonthelandthathadbeenallottedtotheassociationofpeasants,andthebutterfromthecowswassoldandtheprofitsdivided。InPracticethesystemworkedcapitally,or,atleast,soitseemedtoLevin。Inordertoworkoutthewholesubjecttheoreticallyandtocompletehisbook,which,inLevin’sdaydreams,wasnotmerelytoeffectarevolutioninpoliticaleconomy,buttoannihilatethatscienceentirelyandtolaythefoundationofanewscienceoftherelationofthepeopletothesoil,allthatwaslefttodowastomakeatourabroad,andtostudyonthespotallthathadbeendoneinthesamedirection,andtocollectconclusiveevidencethatallthathadbeendonetherewasnotwhatwaswanted。Levinwasonlywaitingforthedeliveryofhiswheattoreceivethemoneyforitandgoabroad。Buttherainsbeganpreventingtheharvestingofthecornandpotatoesleftinthefields,andputtingastoptoallwork,eventothedeliveryofthewheat。Themudwasimpassablealongtheroads;twomillswerecarriedawaybythespate,andtheweathergotworseandworse。

  Onthe30thofSeptemberthesuncameoutinthemorning,and,hopingforfineweather,Levinbeganmakingfinalpreparationsforhisjourney。Hegaveordersforthewheattobedelivered,sentthebailifftothemerchanttogetthemoneyowinghim,andwentouthimselftogivesomefinaldirectionsontheestatebeforesettingoff。

  Havingfinishedallhisbusiness,soakedthroughwiththestreamsofwaterwhichkeptrunningintohisleathercoatanddownhisneckandhisboottops,butinthekeenestandmostconfidenttemper,Levinturnedhomewardintheevening。Theweatherhadbecomeworsethanevertowardevening;thehaillashedthedrenchedmaresocruellythatshewentalongsideways,shakingherheadandears;butLevinwasallrightunderhishood,andhelookedcheerfullyabouthimatthemuddystreamsrunningunderthewheels,atthedropshangingoneverybaretwig,atthewhitenessofthepatchofunmeltedhailstonesontheplanksofthebridge,atthethicklayerofstillsucculent,fleshyleavesthatlayheapedupaboutthestrippedelmtree。Inspiteofthegloominessofnaturearoundhim,hefeltpeculiarlyeager。Thetalkshehadbeenhavingwiththepeasantsinthefarthervillagehadshownthattheywerebeginningtogetusedtotheirnewposition。Theinnkeeper,anoldman,towhoseinnhehadgonetogetdryevidentlyapprovedofLevin’splan,andofhisownaccordproposedtoenterthepartnershipforpurchasingofcattle。

  `Ihaveonlytogoonstubbornlytowardmyaim,andIshallattainmyend,’thoughtLevin;`andit’ssomethingtoworkandtaketroublefor。Thisisnotamatterofmyselfindividually,thequestionofthepublicwelfarecomesintoit。Thewholesystemofagriculture,thechiefelementintheconditionofthepeople,mustbecompletelytransformed。Insteadofpoverty-generalprosperityandcontent;insteadofhostility-harmonyandunityofinterests。Inshort,abloodlessrevolution,butarevolutionofthegreatestmagnitude,beginninginthelittlecircleofourdistrict,thentheprovince,thenRussia,andthewholeworld。Becauseajustideacannotbutbefruitful。Yes,it’sanaimworthworkingfor。AndthefactthatitisI,KostiaLevin,whowenttoaballinablacktie,andwasrefusedbytheShcherbatskygirl,andwhoisintrinsicallysuchapitiful,worthlesscreaturetohimself-thatprovesnothing;IfeelsureFranklinfeltjustasworthless,andhetoohadnofaithinhimself,thinkingofhimselfasawhole。Thatmeansnothing。Andhetoo,mostlikely,hadanAgathyaMikhailovnatowhomheconfidedhissecrets。’

  MusingonsuchthoughtsLevinreachedhomeinthedarkness。

  Thebailiff,whohadbeentothemerchant,hadcomebackandbroughtpartofthemoneyforthewheat。Anagreementhadbeenmadewiththeoldinnkeeper,andontheroadthebailiffhadlearnedthateverywherethecornwasstillstandinginthefields,sothathisonehundredandsixtyshocksthathadnotbeencarriedwerenothingincomparisonwiththelossesofothers。

  AfterdinnerLevinwassitting,asheusuallydid,inaneasychairwithabook,andashereadhewentonthinkingofthejourneybeforehiminconnectionwithhisbook。Todayallthesignificanceofhisbookrosebeforehimwithspecialdistinctness,andwholeperiodsrangedthemselvesinhismindinillustrationofhistheories。`Imustwritethatdown,’hethought。`Thatoughttoformabriefintroduction,whichIthoughtunnecessarybefore。’Hegotuptogotohiswritingtable,andLaska,lyingathisfeet,gotuptoo,stretchingandlookingathimasthoughtoinquirewheretogo。Buthehadnottimetowriteitdown,fortheoverseershadcomeforreceivingorders,andLevinwentoutintothehalltomeetthem。

  Aftergivingorders,thatistosay,directionsaboutthelaborsofthenextday,andseeingallthepeasantswhohadbusinesswithhim,Levinwentbacktohisstudyandsatdowntowork。Laskalayunderthetable;AgathyaMikhailovnasettledherselfinherplacewithherstocking。

  Afterwritingforalittlewhile,LevinsuddenlythoughtwithexceptionalvividnessofKitty,herrefusal,andtheirlastmeeting。Hegotupandbeganwalkingabouttheroom。

  `What’stheuseofbeingdownhearted?’saidAgathyaMikhailovna。`Come,whydoyoustayonathome?Yououghttogotosomewarmsprings,especiallynowthatyou’rereadyforthejourney。’

  `Well,Iamgoingawaythedayaftertomorrow,AgathyaMikhailovna;Imustfinishmywork。’

  `There,there,yourwork,yousay!Asifyouhadn’tdoneenoughforthepeasants!Why,as’tis,they’resaying,``YourmasterwillbegettingsomehonorfromtheCzarforit。’Indeed,’tisastrangething:whyneedyouworryaboutthepeasants?’

  `I’mnotworryingaboutthem;I’mdoingitformyowngood。’

  AgathyaMikhailovnakneweverydetailofLevin’splansforhisland。Levinoftenputhisviewsbeforeherinalltheircomplexity,andnotuncommonlyhearguedwithheranddidnotagreewithhercomments。Butonthisoccasionsheentirelymisinterpretedwhathehadsaid。

  `Ofone’ssoul’ssalvationweallknowandmustthinkbeforeallelse,’shesaidwithasigh。`ParfionDenissichnow,forallhewasnoscholar,diedadeathwhoselikemayGodgranttoeveryoneofus,’shesaid,referringtoaservantwhohaddiedrecently。`Tookthesacramentandall。’

  `That’snotwhatImean,’saidhe。`ImeanthatI’mactingformyownadvantage。It’sallthebetterformeifthepeasantsdotheirworkbetter。’

  `Well,whateveryoudo,ifhe’salazygood-for-naught,everything’llbeatsixesandsevens。Ifhehasaconscience,he’llwork,andifnot,there’snodoinganything。’

  `Oh,come,yousayyourselfIvanhasbegunlookingafterthecattlebetter。’

  `AllIsayis,’answeredAgathyaMikhailovna,evidentlynotspeakingatrandom,butinstrictsequenceofideas,`thatyououghttogetmarried-that’swhatIsay。’

  AgathyaMikhailovna’sallusiontotheverysubjecthehadonlyjustbeenthinkingabouthurtandstunghim。Levinscowled,andwithoutansweringher,hesatdownagaintohiswork,repeatingtohimselfallthathehadbeenthinkingoftherealsignificanceofthatwork。OnlyatintervalshelistenedinthestillnesstotheclickofAgathyaMikhailovna’sneedles,and,recollectingwhathedidnotwanttoremember,hewouldfrownagain。

  Atnineo’clocktheyheardthebellandthefaintvibrationofacarriageoverthemud。

  `Well,here’svisitorscometous,andyouwon’tbedull,’saidAgathyaMikhailovna,gettingupandgoingtothedoor。ButLevinovertookher。Hisworkwasnotgoingwellnow,andhewasgladofavisitor,whoeveritmightbe。

  Runninghalfwaydownthestaircase,Levincaughtasoundheknew,afamiliarcoughinthehall。Buthehearditindistinctlythroughthesoundofhisownfootsteps,andhopedhewasmistaken。Thenhecaughtsightofalong,bony,familiarfigure,andnowitseemedtherewasnopossibilityofmistake;andyethestillwentonhopingthatthistallmantakingoffhisfurcloakandcoughingwasnothisbrotherNikolai。

  Levinlovedhisbrother,butbeingwithhimwasalwaysatorture。Justnow,whenLevin,undertheinfluenceofthethoughtsthathadcometohim,andAgathyaMikhailovna’shint,wasinatroubledanduncertainhumor,thismeetingwithhisbrotherwhichhehadtofaceseemedparticularlydifficult。Insteadofalively,healthyvisitor,someoutsiderwhowould,hehoped,cheerhimupinhisuncertainhumor,hehadtoseehisbrother,whoknewhimthroughandthrough,whowouldcallforthallthethoughtsnearesthisheart,wouldforcehimtoshowhimselffully。Andthathewasnotdisposedtodo。

  Angrywithhimselfforsobaseafeeling,Levinranintothehall;assoonashehadseenhisbrotherclose,thisfeelingofselfishdisappointmentvanishedinstantlyandwasreplacedbypity。TerribleashisbrotherNikolaihadbeenbeforeinhisemaciationandsickliness,nowhelookedstillmoreemaciated,stillmorewasted。Hewasaskeletoncoveredbyskin。

  Hestoodinthehall,jerkinghislongthinneck,andpullingthescarfoffit,andsmiledastrangeandpitifulsmile。Whenhesawthatsmile,submissiveandhumble,Levinfeltsomethingclutchingathisthroat。

  `Yousee,I’vecometoyou,’saidNikolaiinathickvoice,neverforonesecondtakinghiseyesoffhisbrother’sface。`I’vebeenmeaningtoalongwhile,butI’vebeenconstantlyunwell。NowI’meversomuchbetter,’hesaid,rubbinghisbeardwithhisbigthinhands。

  `Yes,yes!’answeredLevin。Andhefeltstillmorefrightenedwhen,kissinghim,hefeltwithhislipsthedrynessofhisbrother’sskinandsawclosetohimhisbigeyes,fullofastrangelight。

  Afewweeksbefore,KonstantinLevinhadwrittentohisbrotherthatthroughthesaleofthesmallpartofthepropertythathadremainedundivided,therewasasumofabouttwothousandroublestocometohimashisshare。

  Nikolaisaidthathehadcomenowtotakehismoneyand,whatwasmoreimportant,tostayawhileintheoldnest,togetintouchwiththeearth,soastorenewhisstrengthliketheheroesofoldfortheworkthatlaybeforehim。Inspiteofhisexaggeratedstoop,andtheemaciationthatwassostrikingfromhisheight,hismovementswereasrapidandabruptasever。Levinledhimintohisstudy。

  Hisbrotherdressedwithparticularcare-athingheneverusedtodo-combedhisscanty,lankhair,and,smiling,wentupstairs。

  Hewasinthemostaffectionateandgood-humoredmood,justasLevinoftenrememberedhiminchildhood。HeevenreferredtoSergeiIvanovichwithoutrancor。WhenhesawAgathyaMikhailovna,hejokedwithherandaskedaftertheoldservants。ThenewsofthedeathofParfionDenissichmadeapainfulimpressiononhim。Alookoffearcrossedhisface,butheregainedhisserenityimmediately。

  `Ofcoursehewasquiteold,’hesaid,andchangedthesubject。`Well,I’llspendamonthortwowithyou,andthenI’mofftoMoscow。Doyouknow,Miaghkovhaspromisedmeaplacethere,andI’mgoingintotheservice。NowI’mgoingtoarrangemylifequitedifferently,’hewenton。`YouknowIgotridofthatwoman。’

  `MaryaNikolaevna?Why,whatfor?’

  `Oh,shewasahorridwoman!Shecausedmeallsortsofannoyances。’Buthedidnotsaywhattheannoyanceswere。HecouldnotsaythathehaddrivenoffMaryaNikolaevnabecausetheteawasweak,and,aboveall,becauseshewouldlookafterhimasthoughhewereaninvalid。`Besides,Iwanttoturnoveranewleafcompletelynow。I’vedonesillythings,ofcourse,likeeveryoneelse,butmoney’sthelastconsideration;Idon’tregretit。Solongasthere’shealth-andmyhealth,thankGod,isquiterestored。’

  Levinlistenedandrackedhisbrains,butcouldthinkofnothingtosay。Nikolaiprobablyfeltthesame;hebeganquestioninghisbrotherabouthisaffairs;andLevinwasgladtotalkabouthimself,becausethenhecouldspeakwithouthypocrisy。Hetoldhisbrotherofhisplansandhisdoings。

  Hisbrotherlistened,butevidentlyhewasnotinterested。

  Thesetwomenweresoakin,soneareachother,thattheslightestgesture,thetoneofvoice,toldbothmorethancouldbesaidinwords。

  Bothofthemnowhadonlyonethought-theillnessofNikolaiandthenearnessofhisdeath-whichstifledallelse。Butneitherofthemdaredspeakofit,andso,whatevertheysaid-withoututteringtheonethoughtthatfilledtheirminds-wasallfalsehood。NeverhadLevinbeensogladwhentheeveningwasoveranditwastimetogotobed。Neverwithanyoutsideperson,neveronanyofficialvisit,hadhebeensounnaturalandfalseashewasthatevening。Andtheconsciousnessofthisunnaturalness,andtheremorsehefeltatit,madehimevenmoreunnatural。Hewantedtoweepoverhisdying,dearlylovedbrother,andhehadtolistenandkeepontalkingofhowhemeanttolive。

  Asthehousewasdamp,andonlytheonebedroomhadbeenkeptheated,Levinputhisbrothertosleepinhisownbedroom,behindapartition。

  Hisbrothergotintobed,andwhetherhesleptordidnotsleep,tossedaboutlikeasickman,coughed,andwhenhecouldnotgethisthroatclear,mumbledsomething。Sometimeswhenhisbreathingwaspainful,hesaid,`Oh,myGod!’Sometimeswhenhewaschokinghemutteredangrily,`Ah,thedevil!’Levincouldnotsleepforalongwhile,hearinghim。Histhoughtswereofthemostvariouskinds,buttheendofallhisthoughtswasthesame-death。

  Death,theinevitableendofall,forthefirsttimepresenteditselftohimwithirresistibleforce。Anddeath,whichwashereinthislovedbrother,groaninghalf-asleepandfromhabitcallingwithoutdistinctiononGodandthedevil,wasnotsoremoteasithadhithertoseemedtohim。Itwasinhimself,too,thathefeltthis。Ifnottoday,tomorrow;ifnottomorrow,inthirtyyears-wasn’titallthesame?Andwhatwasthisinevitabledeath-hedidnotknow,hadneverthoughtaboutit,and,whatwasmore,hadnotthepower,hadnotthecouragetothinkaboutit。

  `Iwork,Iwanttodosomething,butIhadforgottenitmustallend;Ihadforgotten-death。’

  Hesatonhisbedinthedarkness,crouchedup,hugginghisknees,and,holdinghisbreathfromthestrainofthought,hepondered。Butthemoreintenselyhethought,thecleareritbecametohimthatitwasindubitablyso,that,inreality,lookinguponlife,hehadforgottenonelittlefact-thatdeathwillcome,andallends;thatnothingwasevenworthbeginning,andthattherewasnohelpingitanyway。Yes,itwasawful,butitwasso。

  `ButIamalivestill。What’stobedonenow-what’stobedone?’heaskedindespair。Helightedacandle,gotupcautiously,wenttothelookingglass,andbeganlookingathisfaceandhair。Yes,thereweregrayhairsabouthistemples。Heopenedhismouth。Hisbackteethwerebeginningtodecay。Hebaredhismusculararms。Yes,therewasstrengthinthem。ButNikolenka,wholaytherebreathingwithwhatwasleftofhislungs,hadhadastrong,healthybodytoo。Andsuddenlyherecalledhowtheyusedtogotobedtogetheraschildren,andhowtheyonlywaitedtillFiodorBogdanichwasoutoftheroomtoflingpillowsateachotherandlaugh,laughirrepressibly,sothateventheiraweofFiodorBogdanichcouldnotchecktheeffervescing,overbrimmingsenseoflifeandhappiness。`Andnowthatwarped,hollowchest……AndI,notknowingwhatwillbecomeofme,orwherefore……’

  `K-ha!K-ha!Damnation!Whydoyoukeepfidgeting-whydon’tyougotosleep?’hisbrother’svoicecalledtohim。

  `Oh,Idon’tknow;I’mnotsleepy。’

  `Ihavehadagoodsleep,I’mnotinasweatnow。Justsee,feelmyshirt-there’snosweat,isthere?’

  Levinfeltit,withdrewbehindthepartition,andputoutthecandle,butforalongwhilehecouldnotsleep。Thequestionhowtolivehadhardlybeguntogrowalittleclearertohim,whenanew,insolvablequestionpresenteditself-death。

  `Why,he’sdying-yes,he’lldieinthespring;andhowisonetohelphim?WhatcanIsaytohim?WhatdoIknowaboutit?I’devenforgottentheveryfactofit。’

  Levinhadlongbeforemadetheobservationthatwhenoneisuncomfortablewithpeoplefromtheirbeingexcessivelyamenableandmeek,oneisaptverysoonaftertofindthingsintolerablefromtheirpretensionsandirritability。Hefeltthatthiswashowitwouldbewithhisbrother。AndhisbrotherNikolai’sgentlenessdidnot,infact,lastoutforlong。Theverynextmorninghebegantobeirritable,andseemeddoinghisbesttofindfaultwithhisbrother,attackinghimonhistenderestpoints。

  Levinfelthimselftoblame,andcouldnotsetthingsright。Hefeltthatiftheyhadbothnotkeptupappearances,buthadspoken,asitiscalled,fromtheheart-thatistosay,hadsaidonlyjustwhattheywerethinkingandfeeling-theywouldsimplyhavelookedintoeachother’sfaces,andKonstantincouldonlyhavesaid:`You’redying,you’redying,’andNikolaicouldonlyhaveanswered:`IknowI’mdying,butI’mafraid,I’mafraid,I’mafraid!’Andtheycouldhavesaidnothingmore,iftheyhadsaidonlywhatwasintheirhearts。Butlifelikethatwasimpossible,andsoKonstantintriedtodowhathehadbeentryingtodoallhislife,andnevercouldlearntodo,though,asfarashecouldobserve,manypeopleknewsowellhowtodoit,andwithoutittherewasnolivingatall。Hetriedtosaywhathewasnotthinking,buthefeltcontinuallythatithadaringoffalsehood,thathisbrotherdetectedhiminit,andwasexasperatedatit。

  ThethirddayNikolaiinducedhisbrothertoexplainhisplantohimagain,andbegannotmerelyattackingit,butintentionallyconfoundingitwithcommunism。

  `You’vesimplyborrowedanideathat’snotyourown,butyou’vedistortedit,andaretryingtoapplyitwhereit’snotapplicable。’

  `ButItellyouthere’snothingincommon。Theydenythejusticeofproperty,ofcapital,ofinheritance,whileIdonotdenythischiefstimulus。’Levinfeltdisgustedhimselfatusingsuchexpressions,buteversincehehadbeenengrossedbyhiswork,hehadunconsciouslycomemoreandmorefrequentlytousenon-Russianwords。`AllIwantistoregulatelabor。’

  `Whichmeans,you’veborrowedanidea,strippeditofallthatgaveititsforce,andwanttomakebelievethatit’ssomethingnew,’saidNikolai,angrilytuggingathisnecktie。

  `Butmyideahasnothingincommon……’

  `Theother,atanyrate,’saidNikolaiLevin,withanironicalsmile,hiseyesflashingmalignantly,`hasthecharmof-what’sonetocallit?-geometricalsymmetry,ofclearness,ofdefiniteness。ItmaybeaUtopia。Ifoneonceallowsthepossibilityofmakingallthepastatabularasa-noproperty,nofamily-thenlaborwouldorganizeitself。Butyouhavenothing……’

  `Whydoyoumixthingsup?I’veneverbeenacommunist。’

  `ButIhave,andIconsiderit’spremature,butrational,andithasafuture,justlikeChristianityinitsfirstages。’

  `AllthatImaintainisthatthelaborforceoughttobeinvestigatedfromthepointofviewofnaturalscience;thatistosay,itoughttobestudied,itsqualitiesascertained……’

  `Butthat’sanutterwasteoftime。Thatforcefindsacertainformofactivityofitself,accordingtothestageofitsdevelopment。Therehavebeenslavesfirst,everywhere;thenmetayers;andwehavethemetayagesystem,rent,anddaylaborers。Whatareyoutryingtofind?’

  Levinsuddenlylosthistemperatthesewords,becauseatthebottomofhishearthewasafraidthatitwastrue-truethathewastryingtoholdthebalanceevenbetweencommunismandthefamiliarforms,andthatthiswashardlypossible。

  `Iamtryingtofindmeansofworkingproductivelyformyselfandforthelaborers。Iwanttoorganize……’heansweredhotly。

  `Youdon’twanttoorganizeanything;it’ssimplythesameasyou’vebeenallyourlife-youwanttobeoriginal,toposeasnotsimplyexploitingthepeasants,butwithsomeideainview。’

  `Oh,allright,that’swhatyouthink-andletmealone!’answeredLevin,feelingthemusclesofhisleftcheektwitchinguncontrollably。

  `You’veneverhad,andneverhave,convictions;allyouwantistopleaseyourvanity。’

  `Oh,verywell;letmealonethen!’

  `AndIwillletyoualone!Andit’shightimeIdid,andgotothedevilwithyou!AndI’mverysorryIevercame!’

  InspiteofallLevin’seffortstosoothehisbrotherafterward,Nikolaiwouldlistentonothinghesaid,declaringthatitwasbettertopart,andKonstantinsawthatitwassimplyacaseoflifebeingunbearabletohim。

  Nikolaiwasjustgettingreadytogo,whenKonstantinwentintohimagainandbeggedhim,ratherunnaturally,toforgivehimifhehadhurthisfeelingsinanyway。

  `Ah,generosity!’saidNikolai,andhesmiled。`Ifyouwanttoberight,Icangiveyouthatsatisfaction。You’reintheright;butI’mgoingallthesame。’

  ItwasonlyjustatpartingthatNikolaikissedhim,andsaid,lookingwithsuddenstrangenessandseriousnessathisbrother:

  `Anyway,don’trememberevilagainstme,Kostia!’andhisvoicequavered。

  Theseweretheonlywordsthathadbeenspokensincerelybetweenthem。Levinknewthatthosewordsmeant,`Yousee,andyouknow,thatI’minabadway,andmaybeweshallneverseeeachotheragain。’Levinknewthis,andthetearsgushedfromhiseyes。Hekissedhisbrotheroncemore,buthecouldnotspeak,andknewnotwhattosay。

  Twodaysafterhisbrother’sdeparture,Levintoosetoffforhisforeigntour。HappeningtomeetShcherbatsky,Kitty’scousin,intherailwaytrain,Levingreatlyastonishedhimbyhisdepression。

  `What’sthematterwithyou?’Shcherbatskyaskedhim。

  `Oh,nothing;there’snotmuchhappinessinlife。’

  `Notmuch?YoucomewithmetoParisinsteadoftoMulhouse。Youshallseehowtobehappy。’

  `No,I’vedonewithitall。It’stimeIwasdead。’

  `Well,that’sagoodone!’saidShcherbatsky,laughing,`why,I’monlyjustgettingreadytobegin。’

  `Yes,Ithoughtthesamenotlongago,butnowIknowIshallsoonbedead。’

  Levinsaidwhathehadgenuinelybeenthinkingoflate。Hesawnothingbutdeath,oranapproachtodeathineverything。Buthischerishedschemeonlyengrossedhimthemore。Lifehadtobegotthroughsomehow,tilldeathdidcome。Darknesshadfallenuponeverythingforhim;butjustbecauseofthisdarknesshefeltthattheoneguidingclueinthedarknesswashiswork,andheclutchedit,andclungtoitwithallhisstrength。

  TheKarenins,husbandandwife,continuedlivinginthesamehouse,meteveryday,butwerecompletestrangerstooneanother。AlexeiAlexandrovichmadeitaruletoseehiswifeeveryday,sothattheservantsmighthavenogroundsforsuppositions,butavoideddiningathome。VronskywasneveratAlexeiAlexandrovich’shouse,butAnnasawhimawayfromhome,andherhusbandwasawareofit。

  Thepositionwasoneoftortureforallthree;andnotoneofthemwouldhavebeenequaltoenduringthispositionforasingleday,haditnotbeenfortheexpectationthatitwouldchange,thatitwasmerelyatemporarypainfuldifficultywhichwouldpassover。AlexeiAlexandrovichhopedthatthispassionwouldpass,aseverythingdoespass,thateveryonewouldforgetaboutit,andhisnamewouldremainunsullied。Anna,onwhomthepositiondepended,andforwhomitwasmorepoignantthanforanyother,endureditbecauseshenotmerelyhoped,butfirmlybelieved,thatitwouldallverysoonbesettledandcomeright。Shehadnottheleastideawhatwouldsettlethesituation,butshefirmlybelievedthatsomethingwouldnowverysoonturnup。Vronskyunaccountablyfollowedherlead,hopingtoothatsomething,independentofhim,wouldbesuretoclearupalldifficulties。

  InthemiddleofthewinterVronskyspentaverytiresomeweek。AforeignPrince,whohadcomeonavisittoPeterburg,wasputunderhischarge,andhehadtoshowhimthesightsworthseeing。Vronskywasofdistinguishedappearance;hepossessed,moreover,theartofbehavingwithrespectfuldignity,andwasusedtohavingtodowithsuchgrandpersonages-thatwashowhecametobeputinchargeofthePrince。Buthefelthisdutiestobeveryirksome。ThePrincewasanxioustomissnothingaboutwhichhewouldbeaskedathome:HadheseenthisandthatinRussia?AndonhisownaccounthewasanxioustoenjoytotheutmostallRussianformsofamusement。Vronskywasobligedtobehisguideinsatisfyingboththeseinclinations。Themorningstheyspentdrivingtolookatplacesofinterest:theeveningstheypassedenjoyingthenationalamusements。TheprinceenjoyedahealthexceptionalevenamongPrinces。Bygymnasticsandcarefulattentiontohispersonhehadbroughthimselftosuchapointthatinspiteofhisexcessesinpleasurehelookedasfreshasabig,glossy,greenDutchcucumber。ThePrincehadtraveledagreatdeal,andconsideredoneofthechiefadvantagesofmodernfacilitiesofcommunicationtheaccessibilityofthepleasuresofallnations。HehadbeeninSpain,andtherehadindulgedinserenades,andhadmadefriendswithaSpanishgirlwhoplayedthemandolin。InSwitzerlandhehadkilledchamois。InEnglandhehadgallopedinaredcoatoverhedgesandkilledtwohundredpheasantsonabet。InTurkeyhehadgotintoaharem;inIndiahehadtraveledonanelephant;andnow,inRussia,hewishedtotasteallthepeculiarlyRussianformsofpleasure。

  Vronsky,whowas,asitwere,chiefmasteroftheceremoniestohim,wasatgreatpainstodistributealltheRussianamusementssuggestedbyvariouspersonstothePrince。Theyhadracehorses,andRussianpancakesandbearhunts,andtroikas,andgypsychoruses,anddrinkingorgies,withtheRussianaccompanimentofbrokencrockery。AndthePrince,withsurprisingease,fellinwiththeRussianspirit;hesmashedtraysfullofcrockery,satwithagypsygirlonhisknee,andseemedtobeasking:Whatmore?OrdoesthewholeRussianspiritconsistinjustthis?

  Inreality,ofalltheRussianentertainmentsthePrincelikedbestFrenchactresses,aballetdancer,andwhite-sealchampagne。VronskywasusedtoPrinces,but,eitherbecausehehadhimselfchangedoflate,orthathewasintoocloseproximitytothePrince,thatweekseemedfearfullywearisometohim。Thewholeofthatweekheexperiencedunceasinglyasensationsuchasamanmighthavewhohasbeenputinchargeofadangerousmadman,whoisafraidofthemadman,and,atthesametime,frombeingwithhim,fearsforhisownreason。Vronskywascontinuallyconsciousofthenecessityofneverforasecondrelaxingthetoneofsternofficialrespectfulness,sothathemightnothimselfbeinsulted。ThePrince’smanneroftreatingtheverypeoplewho,toVronsky’ssurprise,werereadytodescendtoanydepthstoprovidehimwithRussianamusements,wascontemptuous。HiscriticismsofRussianwomen,whomhewishedtostudy,morethanoncemadeVronskycrimsonwithindignation。ThechiefreasonwhythePrincewassoparticularlydisagreeabletoVronskywasthathecouldnothelpseeinghimselfinhim。Andwhathesawinthismirrordidnotgratifyhisself-esteem。Hewasaverystupidandaveryself-satisfiedandaveryhealthyandaverywell-washedman,andnothingelse。Hewasagentleman,itwastrue,andVronskycouldnotdenyit。Hewasequableandnotcringingwithhissuperiors,wasfreeandingratiatinginhisbehaviorwithhisequals,andwascontemptuouslyindulgentwithhisinferiors。Vronskywashimselfthesame,andregardeditasagreatmerittobeso。ButtothisPrincehewasaninferior,andhiscontemptuousandindulgentattitudetohimrevoltedhim。

  `Brainlessbeef!CanIbelikethat?’hereflected。

  Bethatasitmight,when,ontheseventhday,hepartedfromthePrince,whowasstartingforMoscow,andreceivedhisthanks,hewashappytoberidofhisuncomfortablepositionandtheunpleasantreflectionofhimself。Hesaidgood-bytohimatthestation,ontheirreturnfromabearhunt,atwhichtheyhadhadadisplayofRussianderring-dokeptupallnight。

  Whenhegothome,VronskyfoundthereanotefromAnna。Shewrote:`Iamillandunhappy。Icannotcomeout,yetcannotgoonlongerwithoutseeingyou。Comeinthisevening。AlexeiAlexandrovichgoestotheCouncilatsevenandwillbetheretillten。’Afteraminute’sreflectiononthestrangenessofherbiddinghimcomestraighttoher,inspiteofherhusband’sinsistingonhernotreceivinghim,hedecidedtogo。

  Vronskyhadthatwintergothispromotion,wasnowacolonel,hadlefttheregiment,andwaslivingalone。Afterhavingsomelunch,helaydownonthesofaimmediately,andinfiveminutesmemoriesofthehideoussceneshehadwitnessedduringthelastfewdayswerejumbledandjoinedtoamentalimageofAnnaandofthepeasant,oneoftheencompassingpeople,whohadplayedanimportantpartinthebearhunt,andVronskyfellasleep。Hewakedupinthedark,tremblingwithhorror,andmadehastetolightacandle。`Whatwasit?What?WhatwasthedreadfulthingIdreamed?Yes,yes;thepeasantbearhunter,Ithink;alittledirtymanwithadisheveledbeardwasstoopingdowndoingsomething,andallofasuddenhebegansayingsomestrangewordsinFrench。Yes,therewasnothingelseinthedream,’hesaidtohimself。`Butwhywasitsoawful?’HevividlyrecalledthepeasantagainandthoseincomprehensibleFrenchwordsthepeasanthaduttered,andachillofhorrorrandownhisspine。

  `Whatnonsense!’thoughtVronsky,andglancedathiswatch。

  Itwashalf-pasteightalready。Heranguphisservant,dressedinhaste,andwentoutonthesteps,completelyforgettingthedreamandonlyworriedatbeinglate。AshedroveuptotheKarenins’entrancehelookedathiswatchandsawitwastenminutestonine。Ahigh,narrowcarriagewithapairofgrayswasstandingattheentrance。HerecognizedAnna’scarriage。`Sheiscomingtome,’thoughtVronsky,`andbettersheshould。Idon’tlikegoingintothathouse。Butnomatter;Ican’thidemyself,’hethought,andwiththatmannerpeculiartohimfromchildhood,asofamanwhohasnothingtobeashamedof,Vronskygotoutofhissleighandwenttothedoor。Thedooropened,andthehallporterwitharugonhisarmcalledthecarriage。Vronsky,thoughhedidnotusuallynoticedetails,noticedatthismomenttheamazedexpressionwithwhichtheporterglancedathim。IntheverydoorwayVronskyalmostranupagainstAlexeiAlexandrovich。Thegasjetthrewitsfulllightonthebloodless,sunkenfaceundertheblackhat,andonthewhitecravat,brilliantagainstthebeaverofthecoat。Karenin’sfixed,dulleyeswerefasteneduponVronsky’sface。Vronskybowed,andAlexeiAlexandrovich,chewinghislips,liftedhishandtohishatandwenton。Vronskysawhimgetintothecarriagewithoutlookingback,receivetherugandtheoperaglassesthroughthewindow,anddisappear。Vronskywentintothehall。Hisbrowswerescowling,andhiseyesgleamedwithaproudandangrylightinthem。

  `Whatasituation!’hethought。`Ifhewouldfight,wouldstandupforhishonor,Icouldact,couldexpressmyfeelings;butthisweaknessorbaseness……Heputsmeinthepositionofplayingfalse,whichInevermeantandnevermeantodo。’

  Vronsky’sideashadchangedsincethedayofhisconversationwithAnnaintheVredegarden。UnconsciouslyyieldingtotheweaknessofAnna-whohadsurrenderedherselfuptohimutterly,andsimplylookedtohimtodecideherfate,readytosubmittoanything-hehadlongceasedtothinkthattheirliaisonmightendashehadthoughtthen。Hisambitiousplanshadretreatedintothebackgroundagain,andfeelingthathehadgotoutofthatcircleofactivityinwhicheverythingwasdefinite,hehadgivenhimselfupentirelytohispassion,andthatpassionwasbindinghimmoreandmorecloselytoher。

  Hewasstillinthehallwhenhecaughtthesoundofherretreatingfootsteps。Herealizedshehadbeenexpectinghim,hadlistenedforhim,andwasnowgoingbacktothedrawingroom。

  `No,’shecried,onseeinghim,andatthefirstsoundofhervoicethetearscameintohereyes。`No;ifthingsaretogoonlikethis,theendwillcomemuch,muchtoosoon。’

  `Whatisit,dearone?’

  `What?I’vebeenwaitinginagonyforanhour,twohours……No,Iwon’t……Ican’tquarrelwithyou。Ofcourseyoucouldn’tcome。No,Iwon’t。’

  Shelaidhertwohandsonhisshoulders,andlookedalongwhileathimwithaprofound,passionate,and,atthesametime,searchinglook。Shewasstudyinghisfacetomakeupforthetimeshehadnotseenhim。Shewas,everytimeshesawhim,makingthepictureofhiminherimaginationincomparablysuperior,impossibleinrealityfitwithhimashereallywas。

  `Youmethim?’sheasked,whentheyhadsatdownatthetableinthelamplight。`You’repunished,yousee,forbeinglate。’

  `Yes;buthowwasit?Wasn’thetobeattheCouncil?’

  `Hehadbeenandcomeback,andwasgoingoutsomewhereagain。Butthatdoesn’tmatter。Don’ttalkaboutit。Wherehaveyoubeen?WiththePrincestill?’

  Shekneweverydetailofhisexistence。Hewasgoingtosaythathehadbeenupallnightandhaddroppedasleep,butlookingatherthrilledandrapturousface,hewasashamed。AndhesaidhehadhadtoreportonthePrince’sdeparture。

  `Butit’sovernow?Heisgone?’

  `ThankGodit’sover!Youwouldn’tbelievehowinsufferableit’sbeenforme。’

  `Whyso?Isn’titthelifeallofyou-allyoungmen-alwayslead?’shesaid,knittingherbrows;and,takingupthecrochetworkthatwaslyingonthetable,shebegandrawingthehookoutofit,withoutlookingatVronsky。

  `Igavethatlifeuplongago,’saidhe,wonderingatthechangeinherface,andtryingtodivineitsmeaning。`AndIconfess,’hesaid,withasmile,showinghisthick,whiteteeth,`thisweekI’vebeen,asitwere,lookingatmyselfinaglass,seeingthatlife,andIdidn’tlikeit。’

  Sheheldtheworkinherhands,butdidnotcrochet,andlookedathimwithstrange,shining,andhostileeyes。

  `ThismorningLizacametoseeme-they’renotafraidtocallonme,inspiteoftheCountessLidiaIvanovna,’sheputin-`andshetoldmeaboutyourAthenianevening。Howloathsome!’

  `Iwasjustgoingtosay……’

  Sheinterruptedhim。

  `ItwasthatThérèseyouusedtoknow?’

  `Iwasjustsaying……’

  `Howdisgustingyouare,youmen!Howisityoucan’tunderstandthatawomancanneverforgetthat,’shesaid,gettingmoreandmoreangry,andsolettinghimseethecauseofherirritation,`especiallyawomanwhocannotknowyourlife?WhatdoIknow?WhathaveIeverknown?’shesaid。`Onlywhatyoutellme。AndhowdoIknowwhetheryoutellmethetruth?……’

  `Anna,youhurtme。Don’tyoutrustme?Haven’tItoldyouthatIhaven’tathoughtIwouldn’tlaybaretoyou?’

  `Yes,yes,’shesaid,evidentlytryingtosuppressherjealousthoughts。`ButifonlyyouknewhowwretchedIam!Ibelieveyou,Ibelieveyou……Whatwereyousaying?’

  Buthecouldnotatoncerecallwhathehadbeengoingtosay。Thesefitsofjealousy,whichoflatehadbeenmoreandmorefrequentwithher,horrifiedhim,andhowevermuchhetriedtodisguisethefact,madehimfeelcoldtoher,althoughheknewthecauseofherjealousywasherloveforhim。Howoftenhehadtoldhimselfthatherlovewashappiness;andnowshelovedhimasawomancanlovewhenlovehasoutweighedforherallthegoodthingsoflife-andhewasmuchfurtherfromhappinessthanwhenhehadfollowedherfromMoscow。Thenhehadthoughthimselfunhappy,buthappinesswasbeforehim;nowhefeltthatthebesthappinesswasalreadyleftbehind。Shewasutterlyunlikewhatshehadbeenwhenhefirstsawher。Bothmorallyandphysicallyshehadchangedfortheworse。Shehadbroadenedoutallover,andinherfaceatthetimewhenshewasspeakingoftheactresstherewasanevilexpressionofhatredthatdistortedit。Helookedatherasamanlooksatafadedflowerhehasgathered,withdifficultyrecognizinginitthebeautyforwhichhepickedandruinedit。Andinspiteofthishefeltthatthen,whenhislovewasstronger,hecould,ifhehadgreatlywishedit,havetornthatloveoutofhisheart;butnowwhen,asatthismomentitseemedtohimhefeltnoloveforher,heknewthathisbondwithhercouldnotbebroken。

  `Well,well,whatwasityouweregoingtosayaboutthePrince?Ihavedrivenawaythefiend,Ihave,’sheadded。Thefiendwasthenametheyhadgivenherjealousy。`WhatdidyoubegintotellmeaboutthePrince?Whydidyoufinditsotiresome?’

  `Oh,itwasintolerable!’hesaid,tryingtopickupthethreadofhisinterruptedthought。`Hedoesnotimproveoncloseracquaintance。Ifyouwanthimdefined,hereheis:aprime,well-fedanimal,suchastakesmedalsatthecattleshows,andnothingmore,’hesaid,withatoneofvexationthatinterestedher。

  `No;howso?’shereplied。`He’sseenagreatdeal,anyway;he’scultured?’

  `It’sanutterlydifferentculture-theirculture。He’scultivated,onesees,simplytobeabletodespiseculture,astheydespiseeverythingbutanimalpleasures。’

  `Butdon’tyouallcarefortheseanimalpleasures?’shesaid,andagainhenoticedadarklookinhereyesthatavoidedhim。

  `Howisityou’redefendinghim?’hesaid,smiling。

  `I’mnotdefendinghim,it’snothingtome;butIimagine,ifyouhadnotcaredforthosepleasuresyourself,youmighthavegotoutofthem。ButitaffordsyousatisfactiontogazeatThérèseintheattireofEve……’

  `Again-againthedevil,’Vronskysaid,takingthehandshehadlaidonthetableandkissingit。

  `Yes;butIcan’thelpit。Youdon’tknowwhatIhavesufferedwaitingforyou。IbelieveI’mnotjealous。I’mnotjealous:Ibelieveyouwhenyou’rehere,nearme;butwhenyou’reawaysomewhereleadingyourlifealone,soincomprehensibletome……’

  Sheturnedawayfromhim,pulledthehookatlastoutofthecrochetwork,andrapidlywiththehelpofherforefinger,beganworkingloopafterloopofthewoolthatwasdazzlinglywhiteinthelamplight,whiletheslenderwristmovedswiftly,nervouslyinitsembroideredcuff。

  `Howwasit,then?WheredidyoumeetAlexeiAlexandrovich?’Hervoicesoundedinanunnaturalandjarringtone。

  `Weranagainsteachotherinthedoorway。’

  `Andhebowedtoyoulikethis?’

  Shedrewalongface,andhalf-closinghereyes,quicklytransformedherexpression,foldedherhands,andVronskysuddenlysawinherbeautifulfacetheveryexpressionwithwhichAlexeiAlexandrovichhadbowedtohim。Hesmiled,whileshelaughedgaily,withthatsweet,deeplaugh,whichwasoneofhergreatestcharms。

  `Idon’tunderstandhimintheleast,’saidVronsky。`Ifafteryouravowaltohimatyoursummervillahehadbrokenwithyou,ifhehadchallengedme……ButthisIcan’tunderstand。Howcanheputupwithsuchaposition?Hefeelsit,that’sevident。’

  `He?’shesaidsneeringly。`He’sperfectlysatisfied。’

  `Whatareweallmiserablefor,wheneverythingmightbesowell?’

  `Exceptforhim。Don’tIknowhim-thefalsityinwhichhe’sutterlysteeped?……Couldone,withanyfeeling,liveasheislivingwithme?Heunderstandsnothing,andfeelsnothing。Couldamanofanyfeelingliveinthesamehousewithhisunfaithfulwife?Couldhetalktoher,callher``mydear’?’

  Andagainshecouldnothelpmimickinghim:`Anna,machère;Anna,dear!’

  `He’snotaman,notahumanbeing-he’samannikin!Nooneknowshim;butIknowhim。Oh,ifI’dbeeninhisplace,I’dlongagohavekilled,havetorntopiecesawifelikeme。Iwouldn’thavesaid,``Anna,machère’!He’snotaman,he’saministerialmachine。Hedoesn’tunderstandthatI’myourwife,thathe’soutside,thathe’ssuperfluous……Don’tlet’stalkofhim!……’

  `You’reunfair,veryunfair,dearest,’saidVronsky,tryingtosootheher。`Butnevermind,don’tlet’stalkofhim。Tellmewhatyou’vebeendoing。Whatisthematter?Whyareyouunwell,andwhatdidthedoctorsay?’

  Shelookedathimwithmockingamusement。Evidentlyshehadhitonotherabsurdandgrotesqueaspectsinherhusbandandwasawaitingthemomenttogiveexpressiontothem。

  Buthewenton:

  `Iimaginethatit’snotillness,butyourcondition。Whenwillitbe?’

  Theironicallightdiedawayinhereyes,butadifferentsmile,aconsciousnessofsomething,hedidnotknowwhat,andofquietmelancholy,cameoverherface。

  `Soon,soon。Yousaythatourpositionismiserable,thatwemustputanendtoit。Ifyouknewhowterribleitistome-whatIwouldgivetobeabletoloveyoufreelyandunafraid!Ishouldnottorturemyselfandtortureyouwithmyjealousy……Anditwillcomesoon,butnotasweexpect。’

  Andatthethoughtofhowitwouldcome,sheseemedsopitiabletoherselfthattearscameintohereyes,andshecouldnotgoon。Shelaidonhissleeveherhand,shiningwithitswhitenessanditsringsinthelamplight。

  `Itwon’tcomeaswesuppose。Ididn’tmeantosaythistoyou,butyou’vemademe。Soon,soon,allwillbeover,andweshallall,allbeatpeace,andsuffernomore。’

  `Idon’tunderstand,’hesaid,understandingher。

  `Youaskedwhen?Soon。AndIshan’tlivethroughit。Don’tinterruptme!’andshemadehastetospeak。`Iknowit;Iknowforcertain。Ishalldie;andI’mverygladIshalldie,andreleasemyselfandyou。’

  Tearsdroppedfromhereyes;hebentdownoverherhandandbegankissingit,tryingtohidehisemotion,which,heknew,hadnosortofgrounds,thoughhecouldnotcontrolit。

  `Yes,it’sbetterso,’shesaid,tightlygrippinghishand。`That’stheonlyway-theonlywayleftus。’

  Hehadrecoveredhimself,andliftedhishead。

  `Howabsurd!Whatabsurdnonsenseyouaretalking!’

  `No,it’sthetruth。’

  `What-what’sthetruth?’

  `ThatIshalldie。Ihavehadadream。’

  `Adream?’repeatedVronsky,andinstantlyherecalledthepeasantofhisdream。

  `Yes,adream,’shesaid。`It’salongwhilesinceIdreamedit。IdreamedthatIranintomybedroom,thatIhadtogetsomethingthere,tofindoutsomething;youknowhowitisindreams,’shesaid,hereyeswidewithhorror;`andinthebedroom,inthecorner,stoodsomething。’

  `Oh,whatnonsense!Howcanyoubelieve……’

  Butshewouldnotlethiminterrupther。Whatshewassayingwastooimportanttoher。

  `Andthesomethingturnedround,andIsawitwasapeasantwithadisheveledbeard-alittleman,anddreadful。Iwantedtorunaway,buthebentdownoverasack,andwasfumblingtherewithhishands……’

  Sheshowedhowhehadmovedhishands。Therewasterrorinherface。AndVronsky,rememberinghisdream,feltthesameterrorfillinghissoul。

  `Hewasfumblingandkepttalkingquickly,quicklyinFrench,and,youknow,heburred:Ilfautlebattre,lefer,lebroyer,lepétrir……AndinmyhorrorItriedtowakeup,andwokeup……butwokeupinthedream。AndIbeganaskingmyselfwhatitmeant。AndKorneisaidtome:``Inchildbirthyou’lldie,ma’am,you’lldie……’AndIwokeup。’

  `Whatnonsense,whatnonsense!’saidVronsky;buthefelthimselfthattherewasnoconvictioninhisvoice。

  `Butdon’tlet’stalkofit。Ringthebell,I’llhavetea。Andstayalittle,now;it’snotlongIshall……’

  Butallatonceshestopped。Theexpressionofherfaceinstantaneouslychanged。Horrorandexcitementweresuddenlyreplacedbyalookofsoft,solemn,blissfulattention。Hecouldnotcomprehendthemeaningofthechange。Shewaslisteningtothestirringofthenewlifewithinher。

  AlexeiAlexandrovich,aftermeetingVronskyonhisownsteps,drove,ashehadintended,totheItalianopera。Hesatthroughtwoactsthere,andsaweveryonehewantedtosee。Onreturninghome,hecarefullyscrutinizedthehatstand,andnoticingthattherewasnotamilitaryovercoatthere,hewent,asusual,tohisownroom。But,contrarytohisusualhabit,hedidnotgotobed;hewalkedupanddownhisstudytillthreeo’clockinthemorning。Thefeelingoffuriousangerwithhiswife,whowouldnotobservetheproprietiesandkeeptotheonestipulationhehadlaidonher-nottoreceiveherloverinherownhouse-gavehimnopeace。Shehadnotcompliedwithhisrequest,andhewasboundtopunishherandcarryouthisthreat-obtainadivorceandtakeawayhisson。Heknewallthedifficultiesconnectedwiththiscourse,buthehadsaidhewoulddoit,andnowhemustcarryouthisthreat。CountessLidiaIvanovnahadhintedthatthiswasthebestwayoutofhisposition,andoflatetheobtainingofdivorceshadbeenbroughttosuchapitchofperfectionthatAlexeiAlexandrovichsawapossibilityofovercomingtheformaldifficulties。Misfortunesnevercomesingly,andtheaffairsofthereorganizationofthenativetribes,andoftheirrigationofthelandsoftheZaraiskyprovince,hadbroughtsuchofficialworriesuponAlexeiAlexandrovichthathehadbeenoflateinacontinualstateofextremeirritability。

  Hedidnotsleepthewholenight,andhisfurygrowinginasortofvast,arithmeticalprogression,reacheditshighestlimitsinthemorning。Hedressedinhaste,and,asthoughcarryinghiscupfullofwrath,andfearingtospillanyover,fearingtolosewithhiswraththeenergynecessaryfortheinterviewwithhiswife,hewentintoherroomdirectlyheheardshewasup。

  Anna,whohadthoughtsheknewherhusbandsowell,wasamazedathisappearancewhenhewentintoher。Hisbrowwasloweringandhiseyesstareddarklybeforehim,avoidinghereyes;hismouthwastightlyandcontemptuouslyshut。Inhiswalk,inhisgestures,inthesoundofhisvoicetherewasadeterminationandfirmnesssuchashiswifehadneverseeninhim。Hewentintoherroom,and,withoutgreetingher,walkedstraightuptoherwritingtable,and,takingherkeys,openedadrawer。

  `Whatdoyouwant?’shecried。

  `Yourlover’sletters,’hesaid。

  `They’renothere,’shesaid,shuttingthedrawer;butfromthatactionhesawhehadguessedright,androughlypushingawayherhand,hequicklysnatchedaportfolioinwhichheknewsheusedtoputhermostimportantpapers。Shetriedtopulltheportfolioaway,buthepushedherback。

  `Sitdown!Ihavetospeaktoyou,’hesaid,puttingtheportfoliounderhisarm,andsqueezingitsotightlywithhiselbowthathisshoulderstoodup。

  Amazedandintimidated,shegazedathiminsilence。

  `ItoldyouthatIwouldnotallowyoutoreceiveyourloverinthishouse。’

  `Ihadtoseehimto……’

  Shestopped,notfindingareason。

  `Idonotenterintothedetailsofwhyawomanwantstoseeherlover。’

  `Imeant,Ionly……’shesaid,flushinghotly。Thiscoarsenessofhisangeredher,andgavehercourage。`Surelyyoumustfeelhoweasyitisforyoutoinsultme?’shesaid。

  `Anhonestmanandanhonestwomanmaybeinsulted,buttotellathiefhe’sathiefissimplylaconstatationd’unfait。’

  `Thiscrueltyissomethingnew-Ididnotknowinyou。’

  `Youcallitcrueltyforahusbandtogivehiswifeliberty,givingherthehonorableprotectionofhisname,simplyontheconditionofobservingtheproprieties:isthatcruelty?’

  `It’sworsethatcruel-it’sbase,ifyouwanttoknow!’Annacried,inarushofhatred,and,gettingup,shewasabouttoleavetheroom。

  `No!’heshriekedinhisshrillvoice,whichpitchedanoteevenhigherthanusual,andhisbighandsclutchingherbythearmsoviolentlythatredmarkswereleftfromthebracelethewassqueezing,heforciblymadehersitdowninherplace。`Base!Ifyoucaretousethatword,whatisbaseistoforsakehusbandandchildforalover,whileyoueatyourhusband’sbread!’

  Shebowedherhead。Shedidnotsaywhatshehadsaidtheeveningbeforetoherlover,thathewasherhusband,andherhusbandwassuperfluous;shedidnoteventhinkofthat。Shefeltallthejusticeofhiswords,andonlysaidsoftly:

  `YoucannotdescribemypositionasworsethanIfeelittobemyself;butwhatareyousayingallthisfor?’

  `WhatamIsayingitfor?Whatfor?’hewenton,asangrily。`Sothatyoumayknowthat,sinceyouhavenotcarriedoutmywishesinregardtoobservingoutwarddecorum,Iwilltakemeasurestoputanendtothisstateofthings。’

  `Soon,verysoon,itwillend,anyway,’shesaid;andagain,atthethoughtofdeathnearathandandnowdesired,tearscameintohereyes。

  `Itwillendsoonerthanyouandyourloverhaveplanned!Ifyoumusthavethesatisfactionofanimalpassion……’

  `AlexeiAlexandrovich!Iwon’tsayit’snotgenerous,butit’snotlikeagentlemantostrikeanyonewho’sdown。’

  `Yes,youonlythinkofyourself!Butthesufferingsofamanwhowasyourhusbandhavenointerestforyou。Youdon’tcarethathiswholelifeisruined,thatheisseff……seff……’

  AlexeiAlexandrovichwasspeakingsoquicklythathebegantostammer,andwasutterlyunabletoarticulatetheword`suffering’。Intheendhepronouncedit`saffering’。Shewantedtolaugh,andwasimmediatelyashamedthatanythingcouldamuseheratsuchamoment。Andforthefirsttime,foraninstant,shefeltforhim,putherselfinhisplace,andwassorryforhim。Butwhatcouldshesayordo?Herheadsank,andshesatsilent。Hetoowassilentforsometime,andthenbeganspeakinginafrigid,lessshrillvoice,emphasizingrandomwordsthathadnospecialsignificance。

  Icametotellyou……’hesaid。

  Sheglancedathim。`No;itwasmyfancy,’shethought,recallingtheexpressionofhisfacewhenhestumbledovertheword`suffering。’`No;canamanwiththosedulleyes,withthatself-satisfiedcomplacency,feelanything?’

  `Icannotchangeanything,’shewhispered。

  `IhavecometotellyouthatIamgoingtomorrowtoMoscow,andshallnotreturnagaintothishouse,andyouwillreceivenoticeofwhatIdecidethroughthelawyerintowhosehandsIshallentrustthetaskofgettingadivorce。Mysonisgoingtomysister’s,’saidAlexeiAlexandrovich,withaneffortrecallingwhathehadmeanttosayabouthisson。

  `YoutakeSeriozhatohurtme,’shesaid,lookingathimfromunderherbrows。`Youdonotlovehim……LeavemeSeriozha!’

  `Yes,Ihavelostevenmyaffectionformyson,becauseheisassociatedwiththerepulsionIfeelforyou。ButstillIshalltakehim。Good-by!’

  Andhewasgoingaway,butnowshedetainedhim。

  `AlexeiAlexandrovich,leavemeSeriozha!’shewhisperedoncemore。`Ihavenothingelsetosay。LeaveSeriozhatillmy……Ishallsoonbeconfined;leavehim!’

  AlexeiAlexandrovichflaredup,and,snatchinghishandfromher,hewentoutoftheroomwithoutaword。

  ThewaitingroomofthecelebratedPeterburglawyerwasfullwhenAlexeiAlexandrovichenteredit。Threeladies-anoldlady,ayounglady,andamerchant’swife,andthreegentlemen-oneaGermanbankerwitharingonhisfinger,thesecondamerchantwithabeard,andthethirdawrathful-lookinggovernmentclerkinofficialuniform,withacrossonhisneck-hadobviouslybeenwaitingalongwhilealready。Twoclerkswerewritingattableswithscratchingpens。Theappurtenancesofthewritingtables,aboutwhichAlexeiAlexandrovichwashimselfveryfastidious,wereexceptionallygood。Hecouldnothelpobservingthis。Oneoftheclerks,withoutgettingup,turnedfretfullytoAlexeiAlexandrovich,half-closinghiseyes。

  `Whatisityouwish?’

  `Mybusinesshastodowiththelawyer。’

  `Heisengaged,’theclerkrespondedseverely,andhepointedwithhispenatthepersonswaiting,andwentonwriting。

  `Can’thesparetimetoseeme?’saidAlexeiAlexandrovich。

  `Hehasnotimefree;heisalwaysbusy。Kindlywaityourturn。’

  `ThenImusttroubleyoutogivehimmycard,’AlexeiAlexandrovichsaidwithdignity,seeingtheimpossibilityofpreservinghisincognito。

  Theclerktookthecardand,obviouslynotapprovingofwhathereadonit,wenttothedoor。

  AlexeiAlexandrovichwasinprincipleinfavorofthepublicityoflegalproceedings,thoughforsomehigherofficialconsiderationshedislikedtheapplicationoftheprincipleinRussia,anddisapprovedofit,asfarashecoulddisapproveofanythinginstitutedbyauthorityoftheEmperor。Hiswholelifehadbeenspentinadministrativework,andconsequently,whenhedidnotapproveofanything,hisdisapprovalwassoftenedbytherecognitionoftheinevitabilityofmistakesandthepossibilityofreformineverydepartment。Inthenewpubliclawcourtshedislikedtherestrictionslaidonthelawyersconductingcases。Buttillthenhehadhadnothingtodowiththelawcourts,andsohaddisapprovedoftheirpublicitysimplyintheory;nowhisdisapprobationwasstrengthenedbytheunpleasantimpressionmadeonhiminthelawyer’swaitingroom。

  `Hewillbeoutrightaway,’saidtheclerk;andtwominuteslatertheredidactuallyappearinthedoorwaythelargefigureofanoldstudentofjurisprudencewhohadbeenconsultingwiththelawyer,andthelawyerhimself。

  Thelawyerwasalittle,squat,baldman,withadark,reddishbeard,light-coloredlongeyebrows,andbeetlingbrow。Hewasattiredasthoughforawedding,fromhiscravattohisdoublewatchchainandpatent-leathershoes。Hisfacewascleverandrustic,buthisdresswasdandifiedandinbadtaste。

  `Praywalkin,’saidthelawyer,addressingAlexeiAlexandrovich;and,gloomilyusheringKarenininbeforehim,heclosedthedoor。`Won’tyousitdown?’Heindicatedanarmchairatawritingtablecoveredwithpapers。Hesatdownhimself,and,rubbinghislittlehandswithshortfingerscoveredwithwhitehairs,hebenthisheadononeside。Butassoonashewassettledinthispositionamothflewoverthetable。Thelawyer,withaswiftnessthatcouldneverhavebeenexpectedofhim,openedhishands,caughtthemoth,andresumedhisformerattitude。

  `Beforebeginningtospeakofmybusiness,’saidAlexeiAlexandrovich,followingthelawyer’smovementswithwonderingeyes,`IoughttoobservethatthematteraboutwhichIhavetospeaktoyouistobeasecret。’

  Thelawyer’sdroopingreddishmustacheswerestirredbyascarcelyperceptiblesmile。

  `IshouldnotbealawyerifIcouldnotkeepthesecretsconfidedtome。Butifyouwouldlikeproof……’

  AlexeiAlexandrovichglancedathisface,andsawthattheshrewd,grayeyeswerelaughing,andseemedtoknowallaboutitalready。

  `Youknowmyname?’AlexeiAlexandrovichresumed。

  `Iknowyouandthegood’-againhecaughtamoth-`workyouaredoing,likeeveryRussian,’saidthelawyer,bowing。

  AlexeiAlexandrovichsighed,pluckinguphiscourage。But,havingoncemadeuphismind,hewentoninhisshrillvoice,withouttimidityorhesitation,accentuatingawordhereandthere。

  `Ihavethemisfortune,’AlexeiAlexandrovichbegan,`tobeadeceivedhusband,andIdesiretobreakoffallrelationswithmywifebylegalmeans-thatis,tobedivorced;butdothissothatmysonmaynotremainwithhismother。’

  Thelawyer’sgrayeyestriednottolaugh,buttheyweredancingwithirrepressibleglee,andAlexeiAlexandrovichsawthatitwasnotsimplythedelightofamanwhohasjustgotaprofitablejob:therewastriumphandjoy,therewasagleamlikethemalignantgleamhehadseeninhiswife’seyes。

  `Youdesiremyassistanceinsecuringadivorce?’

  `Yes,precisely;butIoughttowarnyouthatImaybewastingyourtimeandattention。Ihavecomesimplytoconsultyouasapreliminarystep。Iwantadivorce,buttheformwhichitmaytakeisofgreatconsequencetome。ItisverypossiblethatifthatformdoesnotcorrespondwithmyrequirementsImaygiveupalegalaction。’

  `Oh,that’salwaysthecase,’saidthelawyer,`andthat’salwaysforyoutodecide。’

  HelethiseyesrestonAlexeiAlexandrovich’sfeet,feelingthathemightoffendhisclientbythesightofhisirrepressibleamusement。Helookedatamoththatflewbeforehisnose,andmovedhishand,butdidnotcatchitfromregardforAlexeiAlexandrovich’ssituation。

  `Thoughintheirgeneralfeaturesourlawsonthissubjectareknowntome,’pursuedAlexeiAlexandrovich,`Ishouldbegladtohaveanideaoftheformsinwhichsuchthingsaredone,inpractice。’

  `Youwouldbeglad,’thelawyer,withoutliftinghiseyes,responded,adopting,withacertainsatisfaction,thetoneofhisclient’sremarks,`formetolaybeforeyouallthemethodsbywhichyoucouldsecurewhatyoudesire?’

  AndonreceivinganassentingnodfromAlexeiAlexandrovich,hewenton,stealingaglancenowandthenatAlexeiAlexandrovich’sface,whichwasgrowingredinpatches。

  `Divorcebyourlaws,’hesaid,withaslightshadeofdisapprobationofourlaws,`ispossible,asyouareaware,inthefollowingcases……Towait!’hecalledtoaclerkwhoputhisheadinatthedoor,buthegotupallthesame,saidafewwordstohim,andsatdownagain。`Inthefollowingcases:physicaldefectinthemarriedparties,desertionwithoutcommunicationforfiveyears,’hesaid,crookingashortfingercoveredwithhair,`adultery’thiswordhepronouncedwithobvioussatisfaction,`subdividedasfollows’hecontinuedtocrookhisfatfingers,thoughthecasesandtheirsubdivisionscouldobviouslynotbeclassifiedtogether:`physicaldefectofthehusbandorofthewife,adulteryofthehusbandorofthewife。’Asbynowallhisfingerswereusedup,hestraightenedthemandwenton:`Thisisthetheoreticalview;butIimagineyouhavedonemethehonortoapplytomeinordertolearnitsapplicationinpractice。Andtherefore,guidedbyprecedents,Imustinformyouthatinpracticecasesofdivorcemayallbereducedtothefollowing-there’snophysicaldefect,Imayassume,nordesertion?……’

  AlexeiAlexandrovichbowedhisheadinassent。

  `Theymaybereducedtothefollowing:adulteryofoneofthemarriedparties,andthedetectioninthefactoftheguiltypartybymutualagreement,and,failingsuchagreement,accidentaldetection。Itmustbeadmittedthatthelattercaseisrarelymetwithinpractice,’saidthelawyer,andstealingaglanceatAlexeiAlexandrovichhepaused,asamansellingpistols,afterenlargingontheadvantagesofeachweapon,mightawaithiscustomer’schoice。ButAlexeiAlexandrovichsaidnothing,andthereforethelawyerwenton:`Themostusualandsimple,thesensiblecourse,Iconsider,isadulterybymutualconsent。Ishouldnotpermitmyselftoexpressitso,speakingwithamanofnoeducation,’hesaid,`butIimaginethattoyouthisiscomprehensible。’

  AlexeiAlexandrovichwas,however,soperturbedthathedidnotimmediatelycomprehendallthereasonablenessofadulterybymutualconsent,andhiseyesexpressedthisuncertainty;butthelawyerpromptlycametohisassistance。

  `Peoplecannotgoonlivingtogether-hereyouhaveafact。Andifbothareagreedaboutit,thedetailsandformalitiesbecomeamatterofnoimportance。Andatthesametimethisisthesimplestandmostcertainmethod。’

  AlexeiAlexandrovichunderstoodfullynow。Buthehadreligiousscruples,whichhinderedtheexecutionofsuchaplan。

  `Thatisoutofthequestioninthepresentcase,’hesaid。`Onlyonealternativeispossible:involuntarydetection,supportedbyletterswhichIhave。’

  Atthementionoflettersthelawyerpurseduphislips,andgaveutterancetoathinlittlecompassionateandcontemptuoussound。

  `Kindlyconsider,’hebegan,`casesofthatkindare,asyouareaware,underecclesiasticaljurisdiction;thereverendfathersarefondofgoingintotheminutestdetailsincasesofthatkind,’hesaid,withasmilewhichbetrayedhissympathywiththetasteofthereverendfathers。`Lettersmay,ofcourse,beapartialconfirmation;butdetectionintheacttheremustbeofthemostdirectkind-thatis,byeyewitnesses。Infact,ifyoudomethehonortotrustmewithyourconfidence,youwilldowelltoleavemethechoiceofthemeasurestobeemployed。Ifonewantstheresult,onemustallowthemeans。’

  `Ifitisso……’AlexeiAlexandrovichbegan,suddenlyturningwhite;butatthatmomentthelawyerroseandagainwenttothedoortospeaktotheintrudingclerk。

  `Tellherwedon’thaggleoverfees!’hesaid,andreturnedtoAlexeiAlexandrovich。

  Onhiswaybackhecaught,unobserved,anothermoth。`Nicestatemyrepcurtainswillbeinbythesummer!’hethought,frowning。

  `Andsoyouweresaying?……’hesaid。

  `Iwillcommunicatemydecisiontoyoubyletter,’saidAlexeiAlexandrovich,gettingup,andheclutchedatthetable。Afterstandingamomentinsilence,hesaid:`FromyourwordsImayconsequentlyconcludethatadivorcemaybeobtained?Iwouldaskyoutoletmeknowwhatyourtermsare。’

  `Itmaybeobtainedifyougivemecompletelibertyofaction,’saidthelawyer,withoutansweringhisquestion。`WhencanIcountonreceivingwordfromyou?’heaskedmovingtowardthedoor,hiseyesandhispatent-leathershoesshining。

  `Inaweek’stime。Youwillbekindenoughtocommunicatetomeyouranswerastowhetheryouwillundertaketoconductthecase,andonwhatterms。’

  `Verygood,sir。’

  Thelawyerbowedrespectfully,lethisclientoutofthedoor,and,leftalone,gavehimselfuptohissenseofamusement。Hefeltsomirthfulthat,contrarytohisrule,hemadeareductioninhistermstothehagglinglady,andgaveupcatchingmoths,finallydecidingthatnextwinterhemusthavethefurniturecoveredwithvelvet,likeSigonin’s。

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