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  ThereisreallyonlyonecircleofPeterburguppersociety:everyoneknowseveryoneelse,evenvisitseachother。Butthisgreatcirclehassubdivisionsofitsown。AnnaArkadyevnaKareninahadfriendsandclosetiesinthreedifferentcircles。Onecirclewasherhusband’ssetofcivilservantsandofficials,consistingofhiscolleaguesandsubordinates,broughttogetherinamostdiversifiedandcapriciousmanner,yetseparatedbysocialconditions。Annacouldnowrecallonlywithdifficultythefeelingofalmostpiousreverencewhichshehadatfirstborneforthesepersons。Nowsheknewallofthem,aspeopleknowoneanotherinaprovincialtown;sheknewtheirhabitsandweaknesses,andwheretheshoepinchedeachoneofthem。Sheknewtheirattitudestowardoneanotherandtothechiefcenter;knewwhobackedwhom,andhowandwherewithaleachonemaintainedhisposition,andwhoagreedordisagreedwithwhom;butthiscircleofpolitical,masculineinterestscouldnotinteresther,and,inspiteofCountessLidiaIvanovna’ssuggestions,sheavoidedit。

  Anothersmallcircle,withwhichAnnawasintimate,wastheonebymeansofwhichAlexeiAlexandrovichhadmadehiscareer。ThecenterofthiscirclewastheCountessLidiaIvanovna。Thiswasacircleofelderly,homely,virtuousandpiouswomen,andclever,learnedandambitiousmen。Oneofthecleverpeoplebelongingtothissmallcirclehadcalledit`theconscienceofPeterburgsociety。’AlexeiAlexandrovichappreciatedthiscircleverymuch,andAnna,whoknewsowellhowtogetonwithall,hadintheearlydaysofherlifeinPeterburgfoundfriendseveninthiscircle。Butnow,uponherreturnfromMoscow,thissethadbecomeunbearabletoher。Itseemedtoherthatbothsheandallofthemweredissimulating,andsheexperiencedsuchboredomandlackofeaseintheirsocietythatshetriedtovisittheCountessLidiaIvanovnaasinfrequentlyaspossible。

  And,finally,thethirdcirclewithwhichAnnahadtieswasthereallyfashionableworld-theworldofballs,ofdinners,ofsumptuousdresses;theworldthathungontothecourtwithonehand,inordernottosinktothelevelofthedemimonde,whichthemembersofthefashionableworldbelievedtheydespised-yetthetastesofbothwerenotonlysimilar,butpreciselythesame。HerconnectionwiththiscirclewasmaintainedthroughPrincessBetsyTverskaia,hercousin’swife,whohadanincomeofahundredandtwentythousandroubles,andwhohadtakenagreatlikingtoAnnaeversinceshefirstcameout,lookingafterheranddrawingherintoherowncircle,pokingfunatthatofCountessLidiaIvanovna。

  `WhenI’moldandshallhavelostmylooks,I’llbethesame,’Betsyusedtosay;`butforayoungandprettywomanlikeyouit’smuchtooearlytojointhatOldLadies’Home。’

  Annahadatfirstavoided,asmuchasshecould,PrincessTverskaia’sworld,becauseitnecessitatedexpendituresabovehermeans-and,besides,atsoulshepreferredthefirstcircle;butafterhertriptoMoscow,thingsfelloutquitetheotherway。Sheavoidedhermoralfriends,andwentoutintothefashionableworld。ThereshewouldmeetVronsky,andexperiencedanagitatingjoyatsuchmeetings。EspeciallyoftendidshemeetVronskyatBetsy’s,forBetsywasaVronskybybirth,andhiscousin。VronskywenteverywherewherehemightmeetAnna,and,ateverychancehehad,spoketoherofhislove。Sheofferedhimnoencouragement,yeteverytimeshemethimtherewaskindledinhersoulthatsamefeelingofanimationwhichhadcomeuponherthatdayintherailwaycarriagewhenshehadseenhimforthefirsttime。Shefeltherselfthatherdelightshoneinhereyesandpuckeredherlipsintoasmile-andshecouldnotquenchtheexpressionofthisdelight。

  AtfirstAnnahadsincerelybelievedthatshewasdispleasedwithhimfordaringtopursueher;butnotlongafterherreturnfromMoscow,onarrivingatasoireewhereshehadanticipatedmeetinghim,yetnotfindinghimthere,sherealizedclearly,fromthefeelingofsadnesswhichovercameher,thatshehadbeendeceivingherself,andthatthispursuitwasnotmerelynotdistastefultoher,butthatitconstitutedalltheinterestofherlife。

  Itwasthesecondperformanceofacelebratedcantatrice,andallthefashionableworldwasinthetheater。Vronsky,seeinghiscousinfromhisseatinthefrontrow,didnotwaittilltheentr’acte,butwenttoherbox。

  `Whydidn’tyoucometodinner?’shesaidtohim。`Imarvelatthisclairvoyanceoflovers,’sheaddedwithasmile,sothatnoonebuthecouldhear,`shewasn’tthere。Butdocomeaftertheopera。’

  Vronskylookedinquiringlyather。Shenodded。Hethankedherbyasmile,andsatdownbesideher。

  `ButhowIrememberyourjeers!’continuedPrincessBetsy,whotookspecialdelightinfollowinguptheprogressofthispassion。`What’sbecomeofallthat?You’recaught,mydearfellow。’

  `That’smyonedesire-tobecaught,’answeredVronsky,withhiscalm,good-naturedsmile。`IfIcomplainatall,it’sonlythatI’mnotcaughtenough,ifthetruthweretold。Ibegintolosehope。’

  `Why,whateverhopecanyouexpect?’saidBetsy,offendedonbehalfofherfriend。`Entendonsnous……’Butinhereyesflittedgleamsoflight,whichproclaimedthatsheunderstoodverywell,evenasmuchashedid,whathopehemightentertain。

  `Nonewhatever,’saidVronsky,laughingandshowinghiscloselysetteeth。`Excuseme,’headded,takingthebinocularsoutofherhand,andproceedingtoscrutinize,overherbareshoulder,therowofboxesoppositethem。`I’mafraidI’mbecomingridiculous。’

  HewasverywellawarethatherannoriskofbeingridiculousintheeyesofBetsyandallotherfashionablepeople。Hewasverywellawarethatintheeyesofthesepeopletheroleofthehaplessloverofagirl,oringeneral,ofanywomanfreetomarry,mightberidiculous;buttheroleofamanpursuingamarriedwoman,and,regardlessofeverything,stakinghislifeondrawingherintoadultery-thatrolehassomethingbeautifulandmajesticaboutit,andcanneverberidiculous,andsoitwaswithaproudandgaysmileunderhismustachesthatheloweredthebinocularsandlookedathiscousin。

  `Butwhydidn’tyoucometodinner?’shesaid,admiringhim。

  `Imusttellyouaboutthat。Iwasbusy-andwithwhat,doyousuppose?I’llgiveyouahundredguesses,athousand……you’dneverguess。I’vebeenreconcilingahusbandwithamanwho’dinsultedhiswife。Yes,really!’

  `Well,didyoureconcilethem?’

  `Almost。’

  `Youreallymusttellmeaboutit,’shesaid,gettingup。`Cometomeinthenextentr’acte。’

  `Ican’t;I’mgoingtotheFrenchtheater。’

  `LeavingNilsson?’Betsyqueriedinhorror,thoughshecouldnotherselfhavedistinguishedNilssonfromanychorusgirl。

  `WhatcanIdo?I’veanappointmentthere,allbecauseofmymissionofpeace。’

  `’Blessedarethepeacemakers;’’``theyshallbesaved’,’saidBetsy,recallingsomethingofthatsortshehadheardfromsomebodyorother。`Verywell,then,sitdown,andtellmewhatit’sallabout。’

  Andsheresumedherseat。

  `Thisisratherindiscreet,butit’ssocharmingthatoneisawfullytemptedtotellthestory,’saidVronsky,lookingatherwithlaughingeyes。`Idon’tintendtomentionanynames。’

  `ButIshallguessthem-somuchthebetter。’

  `Listen,then:twofestiveyoungmenweredrivingalong……’

  `Officersofyourregiment,ofcourse?’

  `Ididn’tsaytheywereofficers-justtwoyoungmenwhohadbeenlunching。’

  `Inotherwords,drinking。’

  `Possibly。Theyweredrivingontheirwaytodinnerwithafriendinthegayestofmoods。Andtheycatchsightofaprettywomaninahiredsleigh,whoovertakesthem,looksbackatthem,and-soitseemedtothem,atanyrate-nodstothemandlaughs。They,ofcourse,followher-gallopingatfullspeed。Totheiramazement,thefaironealightsattheentranceoftheveryhousetowhichtheyweregoing。Thefaironedartsupstairstothetopfloor。Alltheygotwasaglimpseofrosebudlipsunderashortveil,andofexquisitelittlefeet。’

  `Youtellthiswithsuchfeelingthatitseemstomeyouyourselfmusthavebeenoneofthetwo。’

  `Butwhatdidyoutellmejustnow?……Well,theyoungmenentertheircomrade’sapartment-hewasgivingafarewelldinner。Theretheycertainlydidtakeadroptoomuch,asisalwaysthecaseatfarewelldinners。Andatdinnertheyinquirewholivesatthetopinthathouse。Nooneknows;onlytheirhost’svalet,inanswertotheirinquirywhetherany``youngladies’arelivingonthetopfloor,answeredthattherewereagreatmanyofthem。Afterdinnerthetwoyoungmengointotheirhost’sstudy,andwritealettertothefairunknown。Theycomposedapassionateepistle,reallyadeclaration,andthencarrytheletterupstairsthemselves,soastoexplainwhatevermightprovenotaltogetherclearintheletter。’

  `Whydoyoutellmesuchnastythings?Andthen?’

  `Theyring。Amaidservantopensthedoor,theyhandhertheletter,andassureherthatthey’rebothsoenamoredthatthey’lldieonthespotatthedoor。Themaid,stupefied,carriesonthenegotiations。Suddenlyagentlemanappears-withsidewhiskerslikecountrysausages,heisasredasalobsterand,informingthemthatthereisnoonelivinginthatflatexcepthiswife,hesendsthembothpacking。’

  `Howdoyouknowhehadsidewhiskerslikesausages,asyouputit?’

  `Ah,dobutlisten。RecentlyIwenttomakepeacebetweenthem。’

  `Well,andwhatwastheupshot?’

  `That’sthemostinterestingpart。Thiscoupleturnedouttobeamosthappyone-agovernmentclerkandhislady。Thegovernmentclerklodgesacomplaint,whereuponIbecomeamediator-andwhatamediator!……IassureyouTalleyrandwasanobodycomparedtome。’

  `Justwhatwasthedifficulty?’

  `Ah,dobutlisten……Wemakefittingapologies:``Weareindespair;weentreatforgivenessfortheunfortunatemisunderstanding。’’Thegovernmentclerkwiththecountrysausagesbeginstomelt,andhe,too,desirestoexpresshissentiments,butnosoonerdoeshebegintoexpressthemthanhegetsheatedandsaysnastythings,andagainI’mobligedtotrotoutallmydiplomatictalents。``Iagreethattheiractionwasbad,butIbegofyoutotakeintoconsiderationthemisunderstanding,andtheiryouth;besides,theyoungmenhadjustcomefromtheirlunch。Youunderstand。Theirrepentanceisheartfeltandtheybegyoutoforgivetheirmisbehavior。’’Thegovernmentclerkwassoftenedoncemore。``Iconsent,Count,andamreadytoforgivebutyoumustunderstandthatmywife-mywife!-arespectablewomanissubjectedtoannoyances,andinsults,andimpertinencesbycertainmilksops,scou……’’Yet,youunderstand,themilksopispresent,anditisuptometomakepeacebetweenthem。AgainItrotoutallmydiplomacy,andagain,justasthematterisabouttobeconcluded,ourfriendthegovernmentclerkgetsheatedandturnsredwhilehiscountrysausagesbristleup,andIoncemoreexertdiplomaticfinesse。’

  `Ah,youmusthearthisstory!’saidBetsy,laughing,toaladywhowasenteringthebox。`Hehasmademelaughsomuch……Well,bonnechance!’sheadded,givingVronskytheonefingerfreefromholdingherfan,andwithashrugofhershoulderslettingdownthebodiceofhergown,thathadworkedup,soastobefittinglyandfullynudeasshemovedforward,towardthefootlights,intothelightsofthegas,andwithinthekenofall。

  VronskydrovetotheFrenchtheater,wherehereallyhadtoseethecolonelofhisregiment,whonevermissedasingleperformancethere;hewantedtotalkoverhispeacemaking,whichhadbeenoccupyingandamusinghimforthelastthreedays。Petritsky,whomheliked,wasimplicatedintheaffair,aswellasanotherfinefellowandexcellentcomrade,whohadlatelyjoinedtheregiment-theyoungPrinceKedrov。But,mainly,theinterestsoftheregimentwereinvolvedaswell。

  BothculpritswereinVronsky’ssquadron。Thecoloneloftheregimenthadreceivedacallfromthegovernmentclerk,Venden,withacomplaintagainsthisofficers,whohadinsultedhiswife。Hisyoungwife,asVendentoldthestory-hehadbeenmarriedhalfayear-hadbeenatchurchwithhermother,and,suddenlyfeelingindisposed,duetoherinterestingcondition,foundthatshecouldnotremainstandinganddrovehomeinthefirstsleighwiththemettlesomecoachmanshecameacross。Itwasthenthattheofficerssetoffinpursuitofher;shewasalarmed,and,feelingstillworse,ranhomeupthestaircase。Vendenhimself,onreturningfromhisoffice,hadheardaringattheirbellandvoices,hadsteppedout,andseeingtheintoxicatedofficerswithaletter,hehadpushedthemout。Hewasaskingthattheculpritsbeseverelypunished。

  `Youmaysaywhatyouwill,’saidthecoloneltoVronsky,whomhehadinvitedtocomeandseehim。`Petritskyisbecomingimpossible。Notaweekgoesbywithoutsomescrape。Thisclerkchapwon’tletmattersdrop-he’llgoonwiththething。’

  Vronskysawallthethanklessnessofthebusiness,andthataduelwasoutofthequestionhere;thateverythingmustbedonetosoftenthisgovernmentclerk,andhushthematterup。ThecolonelhadcalledinVronskypreciselybecauseheknewhimtobeanhonorableandintelligentman,but,aboveall,onetowhomthehonoroftheregimentwasdear。Theytalkeditover,anddecidedthatPetritskyandKedrovmustgowithVronskytothisgovernmentclerkandapologize。ThecolonelandVronskywerebothfullyawarethatVronsky’snameandinsigniaofaide-de-campwereboundtogoalongwaytowardsofteningthegovernmentclerk。Andthesetwoinfluencesprovedinfactnotwithouteffect;thoughtheresultofthemediationremained,asVronskyhaddescribed,uncertain。

  OnreachingtheFrenchtheater,Vronskyretiredtothefoyerwiththecolonel,andreportedtohimhissuccess-orlackofit。Thecolonel,thinkingitallover,decidednottogoonwiththematter;butthen,forhisowndelectation,proceededtoquestionVronskyaboutthedetailsofhisinterviewandforalongwhilecouldnotrestrainhislaughterashelistenedtoVronsky’sstoryofhowthegovernmentclerk,aftersubsidingforawhile,wouldsuddenlyflareupagain,asherecalledthedetails,andhowVronsky,atthelasthalf-wordofconciliation,hadskillfullymaneuveredaretreat,shovingPetritskyoutbeforehim。

  `It’sadisgracefulscrape,butakillingone。Kedrovreallycan’tfightthisgentleman!Sohewasawfullywroughtup?’heaskedagain,laughing。`ButwhatdoyouthinkofClairetoday?She’sawonder!’hewenton,speakingofanewFrenchactress。`Nomatterhowoftenyouseeher,she’sdifferenteachtime。It’sonlytheFrenchwhocandothat。’

  PrincessBetsydrovehomefromthetheaterwithoutwaitingfortheendofthelastact。Shehadjusttimeenoughtogointoherdressingroom,sprinkleherlong,palefacewithpowder,rubitoff,setherdresstorights,andorderteainthebigdrawingroom,whenoneafteranothercarriagesdroveuptoherhugehouseontheBolshaiaMorskaia。Herguestsdismountedatthewideentrance,andthestoutporter,whousedtoreadnewspapersmorningsbehindtheglassdoor,totheedificationofthepassers-by,noiselesslyopenedtheimmensedoor,lettingthevisitorspassbyhimintothehouse。

  Almostatthesameinstantthatthehostess,withfreshlyarrangedcoiffureandfreshenedface,enteredatonedoor,herguestsenteredattheother,intothedrawingroom,alargeroomwithdarkwalls,downyrugsandabrightlylightedtable,gleamingwiththelightofcandles,thewhitenessofnapery,thesilverofthesamovarandtheteaserviceoftransparentporcelain。

  Thehostesssatdownatthesamovarandtookoffhergloves。Chairsweresetwiththeaidoffootmen,movingalmostimperceptiblyabouttheroom;thepartysettleditself,dividedintotwogroups:oneroundthesamovarnearthehostess,theotherattheoppositeendofthedrawingroom,roundthehandsomewifeofanambassador,inblackvelvet,withsharplydefinedblackeyebrows。Inbothgroupsconversationwavered,asitalwaysdoes,forthefirstfewminutes,brokenupbymeetings,salutations,offersoftea,and,asitwere,seekingforsomepointincommon。

  `She’sexceptionallyfineasanactress;onecanseeshe’sstudiedKaulbach,’saidadiplomatistinthecircleoftheambassador’swife。`Didyounoticehowshefelldown?……’

  `Oh,please,don’tletustalkaboutNilsson!Noonecanpossiblysayanythingnewabouther,’saidafat,red-faced,flaxen-headedlady,withouteyebrowsandwithoutchignon,wearinganoldsilkdress。ThiswasPrincessMiaghkaia,notedforhersimplicityandtheroughnessofhermanners,andnicknamedenfantterrible。PrincessMiaghkaiawasseatedhalfwaybetweenthetwogroups,and,listeningtoboth,tookpartintheconversationfirstofoneandthenoftheother。`ThreepeoplehaveusedthatveryphraseaboutKaulbachtometoday,justasthoughtheyhadconspired。AndIdon’tknowwhythatphraseshouldbesomuchtotheirliking。’

  Theconversationwascutshortbythisobservation,andagainanewsubjecthadtobethoughtof。

  `Dotellussomethingamusing,yetnotspiteful,’saidtheambassador’swife,agreatproficientintheartofthatelegantconversationcalledbytheEnglishsmalltalk。Sheaddressedthediplomatist,whowasnowatalossjustwhattobeginupon。

  `Thatissaidtobeadifficulttask-onlythatwhichisspitefulissupposedtobeamusing,’hebeganwithasmile。`However,I’llmaketheattempt。Givemeatheme。it’sallamatterofthetheme。Ifthethemebebutgiven,it’seasyenoughtoembroiderit。Ioftenthinkthatthecelebratedconversationalistsofthelastcenturywouldfinditdifficulttotalkcleverlynow。Everythingcleverhasbecomesuchabore……’

  `Thathasbeensaidlongago,’theambassador’swifeinterruptedhim,laughing。

  Theconversationhadbegunamiably,butjustbecauseitwastooamiable,itcametoastopagain。Theyhadtohaverecoursetothesure,never-failingremedy-maliciousgossip。

  `Don’tyouthinkthere’ssomethingLouisQuinzeaboutTushkevich?’hesaid,glancingtowardahandsome,fair-hairedyoungman,standingatthetable。

  `Oh,yes!He’sinthesamestyleasthedrawingroom,andthat’swhyitishe’ssooftenhere。’

  Thisconversationwaskeptup,sinceitdependedonallusionstowhatcouldnotbetalkedofinthatroom-thatistosay,oftherelationsofTushkevichwiththeirhostess。

  Roundthesamovarandthehostesstheconversationhaving,inthemeanwhile,vacillatedinpreciselythesamewaybetweenthethreeinevitabletopics-thelatestpieceofpublicnews,thetheater,andcensuringthefellowcreature-hadfinallycometorestonthelasttopic-thatis,maliciousgossip。

  `HaveyouheardthateventheMaltishcheva-themother,notthedaughter-hasorderedacostumeindiablerosecolor?’

  `Impossible!No,that’sjustcharming!’

  `Iwonderthatwithhersense-forafterallshe’snofool-shedoesn’tseehowfunnysheis。’

  EveryonehadsomethingtosayincensureorridiculeofthehaplessMaltishcheva,andtheconversationcrackledmerrily,likeablazingbonfire。

  ThehusbandofPrincessBetsy,agood-naturedcorpulentman,anardentcollectorofengravings,hearingthathiswifehadvisitors,hadcomeintothedrawingroombeforeleavingforhisclub。Steppingnoiselesslyoverthethickrugs,heapproachedPrincessMiaghkaia。

  `HowdidyoulikeNilsson?’heasked。

  `Oh,howcanyoustealuponanyonelikethat!Howyoustartledme!’sheresponded。`Pleasedon’ttalktomeabouttheopera;youknownothingaboutmusic。I’drathercomedowntoyourownlevel,anddiscusswithyouyourmajolicaandengravings。Come,now,whattreasurehaveyoubeenbuyinglatelyattheragfair?’

  `Wouldyoulikemetoshowyou?Butyoudon’tunderstandsuchthings。’

  `Yes,showme。I’vebeenlearningaboutthematthose-what’stheirnames?……thosebankers……Theyhavesomesplendidengravings。Theyshowedthemtous。’

  `Why,haveyoubeenattheSchutzburgs?’askedthehostessfrombehindthesamovar。

  `Yes,machère。Theyaskedmyhusbandandmyselftodinner,andIwastoldthatthesauceatthatdinnercostathousandroubles,’PrincessMiaghkaiasaid,speakingloudly,consciousthatallwerelistening;`andverynastysauceitwas-somegreenmess。Wehadtoaskthem,andImadeasauceforeighty-fivekopecks,andeverybodywasverymuchpleasedwithit。Ican’taffordthousand-roublesauces。’

  `She’sunique!’saidtheladyofthehouse。

  `Amazing!’somebodyelseadded。

  TheeffectproducedbyPrincessMiaghkaia’sspeecheswasalwaysthesame,andthesecretoftheeffectsheproducedlayinthefactthatthoughshespokenotalwaysappropriately,asnow,shesaidhomelytruths,notdevoidofsense。Inthesocietyinwhichshelivedsuchutteranceshadthesameresultasthemostpungentwit。PrincessMiaghkaiacouldneverseewhyithadthatresult,butsheknewithad,andtookadvantageofit。

  SinceeveryonehadbeenlisteningwhilePrincessMiaghkaiaspoke,andtheconversationaroundtheambassador’swifehaddropped,PrincessBetsytriedtobringthewholepartytogether,andsheaddressedtheambassador’swife。

  `Reallywon’tyouhavetea?Docomeandjoinus。’

  `No,we’reverycomfortablehere,’theambassador’swiferespondedwithasmile,andwentonwiththeinterruptedconversation。

  Itwasamostagreeableconversation。TheywerecensuringtheKarenins,husbandandwife。

  `AnnaisquitechangedsinceherstayinMoscow。There’ssomethingstrangeabouther,’saidoneofherfemininefriends。

  `ThegreatchangeisthatshehasbroughtbackwithhertheshadowofAlexeiVronsky,’saidtheambassador’swife。

  `Well,whatofit?There’safableofGrimm’saboutamanwithoutashadow-amandeprivedofhisshadow。Asapunishmentforsomethingorother。Inevercouldunderstandjusthowthiswasapunishment。Yetawomanmustprobablyfeeluncomfortablewithoutashadow。’

  `Yes,butwomenfollowedbyashadowusuallycometoabadend,’saidAnna’sfriend。

  `Biteyourtongue!’saidPrincessMiaghkaiasuddenly。`Kareninaisasplendidwoman。Idon’tlikeherhusband-butherIlikeverymuch。’

  `Whydon’tyoulikeherhusband?He’ssucharemarkableman,’saidtheambassador’swife。`MyhusbandsaystherearefewstatesmenlikehiminEurope。’

  `Andmyhusbandtellsmejustthesame,butIdon’tbelieveit,’saidPrincessMiaghkaia。`Ifourhusbandsdidn’ttalktous,weshouldseethefactsastheyare。AlexeiAlexandrovich,tomythinking,issimplyafool。Isayitinawhisper……Butdoesn’titreallymakeeverythingclear?Before,whenIwastoldtoconsiderhimclever,Ikeptlookingforhisability,andthoughtmyselfafoolfornotseeingit;butdirectlyIsaid,he’safool,thoughonlyinawhisper,everythingbecameclear-isn’tthatso?’

  `Howspitefulyouaretoday!’

  `Notabit。I’dnootherwayoutofit。Oneofustwohadtobethefool。And,asyouknow,onecouldneversaythatofoneself。’

  `Nooneissatisfiedwithhisfortune,andeveryoneissatisfiedwithhiswit,’thediplomatistrepeatedtheFrenchsaying。

  `That’sit-that’sjustit,’PrincessMiaghkaiaturnedtohimpromptly。`ButthepointisthatIwon’tabandonAnnatoyourmercies。She’ssuchadear,socharming。Howcanshehelpitifthey’reallinlovewithher,andfollowheraboutlikeshadows?’

  `Oh,Ihadnoideaofcensuringher,’Anna’sfriendsaidinself-defense。

  `Ifwehavenoshadowsfollowingus,itdoesnotprovethatwe’veanyrighttoblameher。’

  And,havingdulydisposedofAnna’sfriend,thePrincessMiaghkaiagotup,and,togetherwiththeambassador’swife,joinedthegroupatthetable,wherethegeneralconversationhadtodowiththekingofPrussia。

  `Whatwereyougossipingsomaliciouslyabout?’askedBetsy。

  `AbouttheKarenins。ThePrincessgaveusacharactersketchofAlexeiAlexandrovich,’saidtheambassador’swifewithasmile,asshesatdownatthetable。

  `Pitywedidn’thearit!’saidPrincessBetsy,glancingtowardthedoor。`Ah,hereyouareatlast!’shesaid,turningwithasmiletoVronskywhowasentering。

  Vronskywasnotmerelyacquaintedwithallthepersonswhomhewasmeetinghere;hesawthemalleveryday;andsohecameinwiththequietmannerwithwhichoneentersaroomfullofpeoplewhomonehadleftonlyashortwhileago。

  `WheredoIcomefrom?’herepeatedthequestionoftheambassador’swife。`Well,there’snohelpforit-Imustconfess。Fromtheoperabouffe。IdobelieveI’veseenitahundredtimes,andalwayswithfreshenjoyment。It’sexquisite!Iknowit’sdisgraceful,butIgotosleepattheopera,yetIsitouttheoperabouffetothelastminute,andenjoyit。Thisevening……’

  HementionedaFrenchactress,andwasabouttotellsomethingabouther;buttheambassador’swife,withplayfultrepidation,cuthimshort。

  `Please,don’ttellusaboutthathorror。’

  `Verywell,Iwon’t-especiallyaseveryoneknowsthosehorrors。’

  `Andweshouldallgotoseethemifitwereacceptedasthecorrectthing,liketheopera,’chimedinPrincessMiaghkaia。

  Stepswereheardatthedoor,andPrincessBetsy,knowingitwasMadameKarenina,glancedatVronsky。Hewaslookingtowardthedoor,andhisfaceworeastrangenewexpression。Joyfully,intently,andatthesametimetimidly,hegazedattheapproachingfigure,andslowlyherosetohisfeet。Annawalkedintothedrawingroom。Holdingherselfextremelyerect,asalways,lookingstraightbeforeher,andmovingwithherswift,resoluteandlightstep,thatdistinguishedherwalkfromthatofothersocietywomen,shecrossedthefewpacesthatseparatedherfromherhostess,shookhandswithher,smiled,andwiththesamesmilelookedaroundatVronsky。Vronskybowedlowandpushedachairupforher。

  Sheacknowledgedthisonlybyaslightnod,flushed,andfrowned。Butimmediately,whilerapidlygreetingheracquaintances,andshakingthehandsprofferedtoher,sheaddressedPrincessBetsy:

  `IhavebeenatCountessLidia’s,andmeanttohavecomehereearlier,butIstayedon。SirJohnwasthere。Amostinterestingman。’

  `Oh,that’sthismissionary?’

  `Yes;hetoldusaboutlifeinIndia,mostinterestingly。’

  Theconversation,interruptedbyhercomingin,flickeredupagainlikethelightofalampbeingblownout。

  `SirJohn!Yes,SirJohn。I’veseenhim。Hespeakswell。Vlassievaisaltogetherinlovewithhim。’

  `AndisittruethattheyoungerVlassievaistomarryTopov?’

  `Yes-theysayit’squitesettled。’

  `Iwonderattheparents!Theysayit’samarriageofpassion。’

  `Ofpassion?Whatantediluviannotionsyouhave!Whoevertalksofpassionnowadays?’saidtheambassador’swife。

  `Whatwouldyoudo?Thissillyoldfashionisstillfarfromdead,’saidVronsky。

  `Somuchtheworseforthosewhokeepupthefashion。TheonlyhappymarriagesIknowaremarriagesofprudence。’

  `Yes,-butthen,howoftenthehappinessoftheseprudentmarriagesisscatteredlikedust,preciselybecausethatpassiontowhichrecognitionhasbeendeniedappearsonthescene,’saidVronsky。

  `Butbymarriagesofprudencewemeanthoseinwhichbothpartieshavesowntheirwildoatsalready。That’slikescarlatina-onehastogothroughwithitandgetitoverwith。’

  `Inthatcasewemustlearnhowtovaccinateforlove,likesmall-pox。’

  `Iwasinloveinmyyoungdays-withachurchclerk,’saidthePrincessMiaghkaia。`Idon’tknowthatitdidmeanygood。’

  `No;Ithink-alljokesaside-thattoknowlove,onemustfirstmakeafault,andthenmendit,’saidPrincessBetsy。

  `Evenaftermarriage?’saidtheambassador’swifeplayfully。

  `It’snevertoolatetomend,’thediplomatistrepeatedtheEnglishproverb。

  `Justso,’Betsyagreed;`onemustmakeamistakeandrectifyit。Whatdoyouthinkaboutit?’SheturnedtoAnna,who,withabarelyperceptibleresolutesmileonherlips,waslisteningtotheconversation。

  `Ithink’saidAnna,playingwiththegloveshehadtakenoff,`Ithink……ifthereareasmanymindsasthereareheads,thensurelytheremustbeasmanykindsofloveastherearehearts。’

  VronskywasgazingatAnna,andwithaheartsinkingwaswaitingforwhatshewouldsay。Hesighedasafteradangerescapedwhenshehadutteredthesewords。

  Annasuddenlyturnedtohim。

  `Oh,IhavehadaletterfromMoscow。TheywritemethatKittyShcherbatskaia’sveryill。’

  `Really?’saidVronsky,knittinghisbrows。

  Annalookedsternlyathim。

  `Thatdoesn’tinterestyou?’

  `Onthecontrary,itdoes-verymuch。Whatisit,exactly,thattheywriteyou,ifmayknow?’heasked。

  AnnagotupandwenttoBetsy。

  `Givemeacupoftea,’shesaid,pausingbehindherchair。

  WhileBetsywaspouringoutthetea,VronskywalkeduptoAnna。

  `Whatisittheywriteyou?’herepeated。

  `Ioftenthinkmenhavenounderstandingofwhatisdishonorable,thoughthey’reforevertalkingofit,’saidAnna,withoutansweringhim。`I’vewantedtotellyousomethingforalongwhile,’sheadded,and,movingafewstepsaway,shesatdownatacornertablewhichheldalbums。

  `Idon’tquiteunderstandthesignificanceofyourwords,’hesaid,handingherthecup。

  Sheglancedtowardsthesofabesideher,andheinstantlysatdown。

  `Yes,I’vewantedtotellyou,’shesaid,withoutlookingathim。`Youractionwaswrong-wrong,verywrong。’

  `DoyousupposeIdon’tknowthatI’veactedwrongly?Butwhowasthecauseofmydoingso?’

  `Whydoyousaythattome?’shesaidlookingathimsternly。

  `Youknowwhy,’heanswered,boldlyandjoyously,meetingherglanceandwithoutdroppinghiseyes。

  Itwasnothe,butshe,whobecameconfused。

  `Thatmerelyprovesyouhavenoheart,’shesaid。Buthereyessaidthatsheknewhehadaheart,andthatwaswhyshewasafraidofhim。

  `Whatyouspokeofjustnowwasamistake,andnotlove。’

  `RememberthatIhaveforbiddenyoutoutterthatword,thatdetestableword,’saidAnna,withashudder。Butatonceshefeltthatbythatveryword`forbidden’shehadshownthatsheacknowledgedcertainrightsoverhim,andbythatveryfactwasencouraginghimtospeakoflove。`Ihavelongmeanttotellyouthis,’shewenton,lookingresolutelyintohiseyes,andallaflamefromtheburningflushonhercheeks。`I’vecomeherepurposelythisevening,knowingIshouldmeetyou。Ihavecometotellyouthatthismustend。Ihaveneverblushedbeforeanyone,andyouforcemetofeelguiltyofsomething。’

  Helookedatherandwasstruckbyanewspiritualbeautyinherface。

  `Whatdoyouwishofme?’hesaid,simplyandgravely。

  `IwantyoutogotoMoscowandaskforKitty’sforgiveness,’shesaid。

  `Thatisnotyourwish,’hesaid。

  Hesawshewassayingwhatshewasforcingherselftosay,notwhatshewantedtosay。

  `Ifyouloveme,asyousay,’shewhispered,`youwilldothis,sothatImaybeatpeace。’

  Hisfacegrewradiant。

  `Don’tyouknowthatyou’reallmylifetome?ButIknownopeace,andIcan’tgiveittoyou;allofmyself,andlove-yes。Ican’tthinkofyouandmyselfapart。YouandIareonetome。AndIseenopossibilitybeforeusofpeace-eitherformeorforyou。Iseeapossibilityofdespair,ofwretchedness……OrelseIseeapossibilityofhappiness-andwhatahappiness!……Canitbeimpossible?’headded,hislipsbarelymoving-yetsheheard。

  Shestrainedeveryeffortofhermindtosaywhatoughttobesaid。Butinsteadofthatshelethereyesrestonhim,fulloflove,andmadenoanswer。

  `It’scome!’hethoughtinecstasy。`WhenIwasbeginningtodespair,anditseemedtherewouldbenoend-it’scome!Shelovesme!Sheownsit!’

  `Thendothisforme:neversaysuchthingstome,andletusbefriends,’shesaidinwords;buthereyesspokequitedifferently。

  `Friendsweshallneverbe-thatyouknowyourself。Whetherweshallbethehappiestorthemostwretchedofpeople-thatlieswithinyourpower。’

  Shewouldhavesaidsomething,butheinterruptedher。

  `ForIaskbutonething:Iaskfortherighttohope,tosuffer-evenasIamdoingnow。Butifeventhatcannotbe,commandmetodisappear,andIdisappear。Youshallnotseemeifmypresenceispainfultoyou。’

  `Idon’twanttodriveyouaway。’

  `Onlydon’tchangeanything-leaveeverythingasitis,’saidhe,inashakyvoice。`Here’syourhusband。’

  AtthatinstantAlexeiAlexandrovichdidinfactwalkintotheroomwithhiscalm,ungainlygait。

  GlancingathiswifeandVronsky,hewentuptotheladyofthehouse,and,sittingdownforacupoftea,begantalkinginhisunhasty,alwaysaudiblevoice,inhishabitualtoneofbanter,asifhewereteasingsomeone。

  `YourRambouilletisinfullconclave,’hesaidlookingroundatalltheparty;`thegracesandthemuses。’

  ButPrincessBetsycouldnotendurethattoneofhis-sneering,asshecalledit,usingtheEnglishword,andlikeacleverhostesssheatoncebroughthimaroundtoaseriousconversationonthesubjectofuniversalconscription。AlexeiAlexandrovichwasimmediatelycarriedawaybythesubject,andbeganseriouslydefendingthenewimperialdecreebeforePrincessBetsy,whohadattackedit。

  VronskyandAnnastillsatatthelittletable。

  `Thisisgettingindecorous,’whisperedonelady,withanexpressiveglanceatMadameKarenina,herhusbandandVronsky。

  `WhatdidItellyou?’saidAnna’sfriend。

  Butitwasnotonlytheseladieswhowatchedthem-almosteveryoneintheroom,eventhePrincessMiaghkaiaandBetsyherself,lookedseveraltimesinthedirectionofthetwowhohadwithdrawnfromthegeneralcircle,asthoughtheyfounditahindrance。AlexeiAlexandrovichwastheonlypersonwhodidnotoncelookintheirdirection,andwasnotdivertedfromtheinterestingdiscussionhehadenteredupon。

  Noticingthedisagreeableimpressionthatwasbeingmadeoneveryone,PrincessBetsyslippedsomeoneelseintoherplacetolistentoAlexeiAlexandrovich,andwalkedovertoAnna。

  `I’malwaysamazedattheclearnessandprecisionofyourhusband’slanguage,’shesaid。`Themosttranscendentideasseemtobewithinmygraspwhenhe’sspeaking。’

  `Oh,yes!’saidAnna,radiantwithasmileofhappiness,andnotunderstandingawordofwhatBetsyhadsaid。Shecrossedovertothebigtableandtookpartinthegeneralconversation。

  AlexeiAlexandrovich,afterstayinghalfanhour,walkeduptohiswifeandsuggestedthattheygohometogether。Butsheanswered,withoutlookingathim,thatshewasstayingtosupper。AlexeiAlexandrovichbowedhimselfout。

  ThefatoldTatar,MadameKarenina’scoachman,inaglisteningleathercoat,waswithdifficultybridlingtheleftofherpairofgrays,chilledwiththecoldandrearingattheentrance。Afootmanstoodbythecarriagedoorhehadopened。Thehallporterstoodholdingopenthegreatdoorofthehouse。AnnaArkadyevna,withherquicklittlehand,wasunfasteningthelaceofhersleeve,caughtinthehookofherfurcloak,andwithbentheadwaslisteningrapturouslytothewordsVronskymurmuredashesawherdowntohercarriage。

  `You’vesaidnothing,ofcourse,andIasknothing,’hewassaying;`butyouknowthatfriendshipisnotwhatIwant:thatthere’sonlyonehappinessinlifeforme-thatwordyoudislikeso……yes,love!……’

  `Love……’sherepeatedslowly,inaninnervoice,andsuddenly,attheveryinstantsheunhookedthelace,sheadded,`Idon’tlikethewordpreciselybecauseitmeanstoomuchtome,farmorethanyoucanunderstand,’andsheglancedintohisface。`Good-by。’

  Shegavehimherhand,andwithherrapid,springystepshepassedbytheporterandvanishedintothecarriage。

  Herglance,thetouchofherhand,hadsearedhim。Hekissedthepalmofhishandwhereshehadtouchedit,andwenthome,happyintherealizationthathehadgotnearertotheattainmentofhisaimsthateveningthanduringthetwolastmonths。

  AlexeiAlexandrovichhadseennothingstrikingorimproperinthefactthathiswifewassittingwithVronskyatatableapart,ineagerconversationwithhimaboutsomething。Buthenoticedthattotherestofthepartythisappearedassomethingstrikingandimproper,andforthatreasonitseemedtohim,too,tobeimproper。Hemadeuphismindthathemustspeakofittohiswife。

  OnreachinghomeAlexeiAlexandrovichwenttohisstudy,asheusuallydid,seatedhimselfinhislowchair,openedabookonthePapacyattheplacehehadmarkedbyinsertingthepaperknife,readtilloneo’clock,justasheusuallydid。Butfromtimetotimehewouldrubhishighforeheadandshakehishead,asthoughtodriveawaysomething。Athisusualtimehegotupandmadehistoiletforthenight。AnnaArkadyevnahadnotyetcomein。Withabookunderhisarmhewentupstairs。Butthisevening,insteadofhisusualthoughtsandmeditationsuponofficialdetails,histhoughtswereabsorbedbyhiswifeandsomethingdisagreeableconnectedwithher。Contrarytohisusualhabit,hedidnotgetintobed,butfelltowalkingupanddowntheroomswithhishandsclaspedbehindhisback。Hecouldnotgotobed,feelingthatitwasabsolutelyneedfulforhimfirsttothinkthoroughlyoverthesituationthathadjustarisen。

  WhenAlexeiAlexandrovichhadmadeuphismindthathemusthaveatalkwithhiswife,ithadseemedaveryeasyandsimplematter。Butnow,whenhebegantothinkoverthequestionthathadjustpresenteditself,itseemedtohimverycomplicatedanddifficult。

  AlexeiAlexandrovichwasnotjealous。Jealousy,accordingtohisnotions,wasaninsulttoone’swife,andoneoughttohaveconfidenceinone’swife。Whyoneoughttohavethatconfidence-thatistosay,acompleteconvictionthathisyoungwifewouldalwayslovehim-hedidnotaskhimself。Buthehadneverexperiencedsuchalackofconfidence,becausehehadconfidenceinher,andtoldhimselfthatheoughttohaveit。Now,thoughhisconvictionthatjealousywasashamefulfeeling,andthatoneoughttofeelconfidence,hadnotbrokendown,hestillfeltthathewasstandingfacetofacewithsomethingillogicalandfatuous,anddidnotknowwhatoughttobedone。AlexeiAlexandrovichwasstandingfacetofacewithlife,withthepossibilityofhiswife’slovingsomeoneotherthanhimself,andthisseemedtohimveryfatuousandincomprehensible,becauseitwasoftheverystuffoflife。AllhislifeAlexeiAlexandrovichhadlivedandworkedinofficialspheres,havingtodomerelywiththereflectionsoflife。Andeverytimehehadstumbledagainstlifeitselfhehadshrunkawayfromit。Nowheexperiencedafeelingakintothatofamanwho,whilecalmlycrossingaprecipicebyabridge,shouldsuddenlydiscoverthatthebridgeisbroken,andthatthereisachasmbelow。Thatchasmwaslifeitself-thebridge,thatartificiallifeinwhichAlexeiAlexandrovichhadlived。Forthefirsttimethequestionpresenteditselftohimofthepossibilityofhiswife’slovingsomeoneelse,andhewashorrifiedatit。

  Hedidnotundress,butwalkedupanddownwithhisregulartreadovertheresoundingparquetofthediningroom,whereonelampwasburning;overthecarpetofthedarkdrawingroom,inwhichthelightwasreflectedmerelyonthebignewportraitofhimselfhangingoverthesofa;andacrossherboudoir,wheretwocandlesburned,lightinguptheportraitsofherparentsandfemininefriends,andtheprettyknickknacksofherwritingtable,everyoneofwhichheknewsowell。Hewalkedacrossherboudoirtothebedroomdoorandturnedbackagain。

  Ateachturninhiswalk,especiallyontheparquetofthewell-litdiningroom,hehaltedandsaidtohimself,`Yes,thisImustdecideandputastopto;Imustexpressmyviewofitandmydecision。’Andheturnedbackagain。`ButjustwhatshallIexpress?Andwhatdecision?’hewouldsaytohimselfinthedrawingroom-andfoundnoanswer。`But,afterall,’heaskedhimselfbeforeturningintotheboudoir,’whathasoccurred?Nothing。Shewastalkingalongwhilewithhim。Butwhatofthat?Surelywomeninsocietycantalktowhomtheyplease。Andthen,jealousymeansdebasingbothherandmyself,’hesoliloquizedasheenteredherboudoir;butthisdictum,whichhadalwayshadsuchweightwithhimbefore,hadnownoweightandnomeaningwhatsoever。Andfromthebedroomdoorheturnedbackagain;butasheenteredthedarkdrawingroomsomeinnervoicetoldhimthatitwasnotso,andthatifothershadnoticed,itmeantthattherewassomething。Andhesaidtohimselfagaininthediningroom:`Yes,Imustdecideandputastoptoit,andexpressmyviews……’Andagainattheturninthedrawingroomheaskedhimself:`Decidehow?’Andagainheaskedinwardly:`Whathasoccurred?’Andanswered:`Nothing,’andrecollectedthatjealousywasafeelinginsultingtohiswife;butagaininthedrawingroomhewasconvincedthatsomethinghadhappened。Histhoughts,likehisbody,weredescribingacompletecircle,withoutalightinguponanythingnew。Henoticedthis,rubbedhisforehead,andsatdowninherboudoir。

  There,lookingathertable,withthemalachiteblottingcaselyingatthetop,andanunfinishedletter,histhoughtssuddenlychanged。Hebegantothinkofher,ofwhatherthoughtsandemotionsmustbe。Forthefirsttimehepicturedvividlytohimselfherpersonallife,herideas,herdesires,andthethoughtthatshecouldandmusthaveaseparatelifeofherownseemedtohimsoappallingthathemadehastetodriveitaway。Itwasthechasmwhichhewasafraidtopeepinto。Toputhimselfinthoughtandfeelinginanotherperson’splacewasaspiritualactionforeigntoAlexeiAlexandrovich。Helookedonthisspiritualactionasaharmfulanddangerousabuseofthefancy。

  `Andtheworstofitall,’thoughthe,`isthatjustnow,attheverymomentwhenmygreatworkisapproachingcompletion’hewasthinkingoftheprojecthewasbringingforwardatthetime,`whenIstandinneedofallmymentalpeaceandallmyenergies-justnowthisstupidworryhastocomefallingaboutmyears。Butwhat’stobedone?I’mnotoneofthosemenwhosubmittouneasinessandworrywithouthavingtheforceofcharactertofacethem。’

  `Imustthinkthisover,cometoadecision,andputitoutofmymind,’hesaidaloud。

  `Thequestionofherfeelings,ofwhathaspassedandmaybepassinginhersoul-that’snotmyaffair;that’stheaffairofherconscience,andfallsundertheheadofreligion,’hesaidtohimself,feelingconsolationinthesensethathehadfoundtowhichdivisionofregulatingprinciplesthisnewcircumstancecouldbeproperlyreferred。

  `Andso,’AlexeiAlexandrovichsaidtohimself,`questionsastoherfeelings,andsoon,arequestionsforherconscience,withwhichIcanhavenothingtodo。Mydutyisclearlydefined。Astheheadofthefamily,Iamapersonboundindutytoguideher,and,consequently,inpartthepersonresponsible;IamboundtopointoutthedangerIperceive,towarnher,eventousemyauthority。Ioughttospeakplainlytoher。’

  AndeverythingthathewouldsaytonighttohiswifetookclearshapeinAlexeiAlexandrovich’shead。Thinkingoverwhathewouldsay,hesomewhatregrettedthatheshouldhavetousehistimeandmentalpowersfordomesticconsumption,withsolittletoshowforit,but,inspiteofthat,theformandconsistencyofthespeechbeforehimshapeditselfasclearlyanddistinctlyinhisheadasaministerialreport。`Imustspeakon,andexpressfully,thefollowingpoints:first,anexplanationofthevaluetobeattachedtopublicopinionandtodecorum;secondly,anexplanationofthereligioussignificanceofmarriage;thirdly,ifneedbe,areferencetothecalamitypossiblyensuingtoourson;fourthly,areferencetotheunhappinesslikelytoresulttoherself。’And,interlacinghisfingers,thepalmsdownward,AlexeiAlexandrovichstretchedhishands,andthejointsofthefingerscracked。

  Thisgesture,thisbadhabit-thejoiningofhishandscrackinghisfingers,alwayssoothedhim,andgaveprecisiontohisthoughts,soneedfultohimnow。Therewasthesoundofacarriagedrivinguptothefrontdoor。AlexeiAlexandrovichhaltedinthemiddleoftheroom。

  Awoman’sstepwasheardmountingthestairs。AlexeiAlexandrovich,readyforhisspeech,stoodsqueezinghiscrossedfingers,waitingfortheircracktocomeagain。Onejointcracked。

  Already,fromthesoundoflightstepsonthestairs,hewasawarethatshewasclose,andthoughhewassatisfiedwithhisspeech,hefeltfrightenedbecauseoftheexplanationconfrontinghim。

  Annacameinwithherheadbent,playingwiththetasselsofherhood。Herfacewasglowingwithavividglow;butthisglowwasnotoneofjoyousness-itrecalledthefearfulglowofaconflagrationinthemidstofadarknight。Onseeingherhusband,Annaraisedherheadandsmiled,asthoughshehadjustwakedup。

  `You’renotinbed?Whatamiracle!’shesaidthrowingoffherhoodand,withoutstopping,shewentonintothedressingroom。`It’slate,AlexeiAlexandrovich,’shesaid,frombehindthedoor。

  `Anna,Imusthaveatalkwithyou。’

  `Withme?’shesaid,wonderingly。Shecameoutfromthedoor,andlookedathim。`Why,whatisit?Whatabout?’sheasked,sittingdown。`Well,let’stalk,ifit’ssonecessary。Butitwouldbebettertogotosleep。’

  Annawassayingwhatevercametohertongue,andmarveled,hearingherself,atherowncapacityforlying。Howsimpleandnaturalwereherwords,andhowlikelythatshewassimplysleepyShefeltherselfcladinanimpenetrablearmoroffalsehood。Shefeltthatsomeunseenforcehadcometoheraidandwassupportingher。

  `Anna,Imustwarnyou,’hebegan。

  `Warnme?shesaid。`Ofwhat?

  Shelookedathimsosimply,sobrightly,thatanyonewhodidnotknowherasherhusbandknewhercouldnothavenoticedanythingunnatural,eitherinthesoundorthesenseofherwords。Buttohim,knowingher,knowingthatwheneverhewenttobedfiveminuteslaterthanusual,shenoticedit,andaskedhimthereason-tohim,knowingthateveryjoy,everypleasureandpainthatshefeltshecommunicatedtohimatonce-tohimitmeantagreatdealtoseenowthatshedidnotcaretonoticehisstateofmind,thatshedidnotcaretosayawordaboutherself。Hesawthattheinmostrecessesofhersoul,thathadalwayshithertolainopenbeforehim,werenowclosedagainsthim。Morethanthat,hesawfromhertonethatshewasnotevenperturbedatthat,butseemedtobesayingstraightforwardlytohim:`Yes,itisclosednow,whichisasitshouldbe,andwillbesoinfuture。’Nowheexperiencedafeelingsuchasamanmighthavewho,returninghome,findshisownhouselockedup。`Butperhapsthekeymayyetbefound,’thoughtAlexeiAlexandrovich。

  `Iwanttowarnyou,’hesaidinalowvoice,`thatthroughthoughtlessnessandlackofcautionyoumaycauseyourselftobetalkedaboutinsociety。YourtooanimatedconversationthiseveningwithCountVronsky’heenunciatedthenamefirmlyandwithquietintervals`attractedattention。’

  Hetalkedandlookedatherlaughingeyes,whichfrightenedhimnowwiththeirimpenetrablelook,and,ashetalked,hefeltalltheuselessnessandfutilityofhiswords。

  `You’realwayslikethat,’sheansweredasthoughcompletelymisapprehendinghim,andofallhehadsaidonlytakinginthelastphrase。`Onetimeyoudon’tlikemybeingdull,andanothertimeyoudon’tlikemybeinglively。Iwasn’tdull。Doesthatoffendyou?’

  AlexeiAlexandrovichshivered,andbenthishandstomakethejointscrack。

  `Oh,please,don’tdothat-Idislikeitso,’shesaid。

  `Anna,isthisyou?’saidAlexeiAlexandrovichquietly,makinganeffortoverhimself,andrestrainingthemotionofhishands。

  `Butwhatisitallabout?’shesaid,withsuchgenuineanddrollwonder。`Whatdoyouwantofme?’

  AlexeiAlexandrovichpaused,andrubbedhisforeheadandhiseyes。Hesawthatinsteadofdoingashehadintended-thatistosay,warninghiswifeagainstamistakeintheeyesoftheworld-hehadunconsciouslybecomeagitatedoverwhatwastheaffairofherconscience,andwasstrugglingagainstsomeimaginarybarrier。

  `ThisiswhatImeanttosaytoyou,’hewentoncoldlyandcomposedly,`andIbegyoutohearmetotheend。Iconsiderjealousy,asyouknow,ahumiliatinganddegradingfeeling,andIshallneverallowmyselftobeguidedbyit;buttherearecertainrulesofdecencywhichcannotbedisregardedwithimpunity。ThiseveningitwasnotIwhoobservedit-but,judgingbytheimpressionmadeonthecompany,everyoneobservedthatyourconductanddeportmentwerenotaltogetherwhatonewoulddesire。’

  `Ipositivelydon’tunderstand,’saidAnna,shrugginghershoulders。`Hedoesn’tcare,’shethought。`Butotherpeoplenoticeditandthat’swhatupsetshim。’-`You’renotwell,AlexeiAlexandrovich,’sheadded,and,gettingup,wasabouttopassthroughthedoor;buthemovedforwardasthoughhewouldstopher。

  Hisfacewasgloomyandforbidding,asAnnahadneverseenitbefore。Shestopped,andbendingherheadbackandtooneside,begantakingoutherhairpinswithherquick-dartinghand。

  `Well,I’mlistening-whatdoesfollow?’shesaid,calmlyandironically;`and,indeed,Iamlisteningevenwithinterest,forIshouldliketounderstandwhatitisallabout。’

  Shespoke,andmarveledattheconfident,calmandnaturaltoneinwhichshespoke,andatthechoiceofthewordssheused。

  `ToenterintoallthedetailsofyourfeelingsIhavenoright,and,besides,Iregardthatasuselessandevenharmful,’beganAlexeiAlexandrovich。`Rummaginginoursouls,weoftenbringupsomethingthatmighthaveotherwiselainthereunnoticed。Yourfeelingsareanaffairofyourownconscience;butIamindutyboundtoyou,tomyselfandtoGod,topointouttoyouyourduties。Ourlifehasbeenjoined,notbyman,butbyGod。Thatunioncanonlybeseveredbyacrime,andacrimeofthatnaturebringsitsownchastisement。’

  `Idon’tunderstandaword。And,ohdear!howsleepyIam,unluckily,’shesaid,rapidlypassingherhandthroughherhair,feelingfortheremaininghairpins。

  `Anna,forGod’ssakedon’tspeaklikethat!’hesaidgently。`PerhapsIammistaken,butbelieveme,thatwhichIamsayingIsayasmuchformyselfasforyou。Iamyourhusband,andIloveyou。’

  Foraninstantherfacefell,andthemockinggleaminhereyesdiedaway;butthephrase`Ilove’threwherintorevoltagain。Shethought:`Love?Canhelove?Ifhehadn’theardtherewassuchathingaslove,hewouldneverhaveusedtheword。Hedoesn’tevenknowwhatloveis。’

  `AlexeiAlexandrovich,Ireallydonotunderstand,’shesaid。`Definewhatitisyouconsider……’

  `Pardon,letmesayallIhavetosay。Iloveyou。ButIamnotspeakingofmyself;themostimportantpersonsinthismatterareoursonandyourself。Itmayverywellbe,Irepeat,thatmywordsseemtoyouutterlyunnecessaryandoutofplace;itmaybethattheyarecalledforthbymymistakenimpression。Inthatcase,Ibegyoutoforgiveme。Butifyouareconsciousyourselfofeventhesmallestfoundationforthem,thenIbegyoutothinkalittle,andifyourheartpromptsyou,tospeakouttome……’

  AlexeiAlexandrovichwasunconsciouslysayingsomethingutterlyunlikewhathehadprepared。

  `Ihavenothingtosay。Andbesidesshesaidsuddenly,withdifficultyrepressingasmile,`it’sreallytimetobeinbed。’

  AlexeiAlexandrovichsighed,and,withoutsayingmore,wentintothebedroom。

  Whenshecameintothebedroom,hewasalreadyinbed。Hislipsweresternlycompressed,andhiseyeslookedawayfromher。Annagotintoherbed,andlayexpectingeveryminutethathewouldbegintospeaktoheragain。Shebothfearedhisspeakingandwishedforit。Buthewassilent。Shewaitedforalongwhilewithoutmoving,andforgotabouthim。Shethoughtofthatother;shepicturedhim,andfelthowherheartwasfloodedwithemotionandguiltydelightatthethoughtofhim。Suddenlysheheardaneven,tranquilsnore。ForthefirstinstantAlexeiAlexandrovichseemed,asitwere,appalledathisownsnoring,andceased;butafterapauseofoneortwobreaths,thesnoresoundedagain,withanewtranquilrhythm。

  `It’slate,it’slate,’shewhisperedwithasmile。Alongwhileshelay,withoutmoving,andwithopeneyes,whosebrillianceshealmostfanciedshecouldherselfseeinthedarkness。

  FromthattimeanewlifebeganforAlexeiAlexandrovichandforhiswife。Nothingspecialhappened。Annawentoutintosociety,asshehadalwaysdone,wasparticularlyoftenatPrincessBetsy’s,andmetVronskyeverywhere。AlexeiAlexandrovichsawthis,butwaspowerlesstodoanything。Allhiseffortstodrawherintoopendiscussionsheconfrontedwithabarrierwhichhecouldnotpenetrate,madeupofasortofamusedperplexity。Outwardlyeverythingwasthesame,buttheirinnerrelationswerecompletelychanged。AlexeiAlexandrovich,amanofgreatpowerintheworldofpolitics,felthimselfhelplessinthismatter。Likeanoxwithheadbentsubmissively,hewaitedthefallofthepoleaxwhichhefeltwasliftedoverhim。Everytimehebegantothinkaboutit,hefeltthathemusttryoncemore;thatbykindness,tendernessandpersuasiontherewasstillhopeofsavingher,ofbringingherbacktoherself,andeverydayhewasonthevergeoftalkingtoher。Buteverytimehebeganhefeltthatthespiritofevilanddeceit,whichhadtakenpossessionofher,hadpossessionofhimtoo,andhetalkedtoherinatonequiteunlikethatwhichhehadmeanttouse。Involuntarilyhetalkedtoherinhishabitualtoneofbanteringatanyonewhoshouldsaywhathewassaying。Andinthattoneitwasimpossibletosaytoherwhattheoccasiondemanded。

  ThatwhichtoVronskyhadbeenforalmostawholeyeartheoneabsorbingdesireofhislife,replacingallhisolddesires;thatwhichtoAnnahadbeenanimpossible,terrible,and,forthatveryreason,amoreentrancingdreamofhappiness-thatdesirehadbeenfulfilled。Hestoodbeforeher,pale,hislowerjawquivering,andbesoughthertobecalm,withouthimselfknowinghoworwhy。

  `Anna!Anna!’hesaidwithaquiveringvoice,`Anna,forGod’ssake!……’

  Butthelouderhespoke,thelowershecastdownheronceproudandgay,butnowshame-strickenhead,andsheboweddownandsankfromthesofawhereshewassitting-downonthefloor,athisfeet;shewouldhavefallenonthecarpetifhehadnotheldher。

  `MyGod!’Forgiveme!’shesaid,sobbing,pressinghishandstoherbosom。

  Shefeltsosinful,soguilty,thatnothingwasleftherbuttohumiliateherselfandbegforgiveness,andasnowtherewasnooneinherlifebuthim,tohim,too,sheaddressedherprayerforforgiveness。Lookingathim,shehadaphysicalsenseofherhumiliation,andshecouldsaynothingmore。Andhefeltasamurderermustfeelwhenhebeholdsthebodyhehasrobbedoflife。Thatbody,robbedbyhimoflife,wastheirlove,thefirststageoftheirlove。Therewassomethingawfulandrevoltinginthememoryofwhathadbeenboughtatthisfearfulpriceofshame。Shameatherspiritualnakednesscrushedherandinfectedhim。Butinspiteofallthemurderer’shorrorbeforethebodyofhisvictim,hemusthackittopieces,hidethebody,mustusewhatthemurdererhadgainedbyhismurder。

  Andasthemurderer,withfury,and,asitwere,withpassion,fallsonthebody,anddragsit,andhacksatit-sohecoveredherfaceandshoulderswithkisses。Sheheldhishand,anddidnotstir。Yes,thesekisses-thatiswhathasbeenboughtbythisshame。Yes,andthisonehand,whichwillalwaysbemine-thehandofmyaccomplice。Sheliftedupthathandandkissedit。Hesankonhiskneesandtriedtoseeherface;butshehidit,andsaidnothing。Atlast,asthoughmakinganeffortoverherself,shegotupandpushedhimaway。Herfacewasstillasbeautiful,butitwasonlythemorepitifulforthat。

  `Allisover,’shesaid;`Ihavenothingbutyou。Rememberthat。’

  `Icanneverforgetwhatismywholelife。Foroneinstantofthishappiness……’

  `Happiness!’shesaidwithhorrorandloathingandherhorrorunconsciouslyinfectedhim。`ForGod’ssake,notaword,notawordmore。’

  Sherosequicklyandmovedawayfromhim。

  `Notawordmore,’sherepeated,andwithalookofchilldespair,incomprehensibletohim,shepartedfromhim。Shefeltthatatthatmomentshecouldnotputintowordsthesenseofshame,ofrapture,andofhorroratthissteppingintoanewlife,andshedidnotwanttospeakofit,tovulgarizethisfeelingbyinappropriatewords。Butlatertoo,andthenextday,andthedayafter,shestillfoundnowordsinwhichshecouldexpressthecomplexityofthosefeelings;indeed,shecouldnotevenfindthoughtsinwhichshecouldclearlythinkoutallthatwasinhersoul。

  Shesaidtoherself。`No,justnowIcan’tthinkofit-lateron,whenIamcalmer。’Butthiscalmforthoughtsnevercame;everytimethethoughtroseofwhatshehaddoneandwhatwouldhappentoher,andwhatsheoughttodo,ahorrorcameoverherandshedrovethosethoughtsaway。

  `Later,later,’shesaid,`whenIamcalmer。’

  Butinherdreams,whenshehadnocontroloverherthoughts,herpositionpresenteditselftoherinallitshideousnakedness。Onedreamhauntedheralmosteverynight。Shedreamedthatbothwerehusbandsatonce,thatbothwerelavishingcaressesonher。AlexeiAlexandrovichwasweeping,kissingherhands,andsaying,`Howhappywearenow!’AndAlexeiVronskywastheretoo,andhe,too,washerhusband。Andshewasmarvelingthatithadonceseemedimpossibletoher,wasexplainingtothem,laughing,thatthiswaseversomuchsimpler,andthatnowbothofthemwerehappyandcontented。Butthisdreamweighedonherlikeanightmare,andshewouldawakefromitinterror。

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